第11章

类别:其他 作者:Jane Addams字数:3915更新时间:18/12/27 08:59:40
WhenmycomradeandDamianhadseenthebearknockmedownandbeginworryingme,theyrushedtotherescue。Mycomrade,inhishaste,blundered,andinsteadoffollowingthetroddenpath,ranintothedeepsnowandfelldown。Whilehewasstrugglingoutofthesnow,thebearwasgnawingatme。ButDamianjustashewas,withoutagun,andwithonlyastickinhishand,rushedalongthepathshouting: ’He’seatingthemaster!He’seatingthemaster!’ Andasheran,hecalledtothebear: ’Ohyouidiot!Whatareyoudoing?Leaveoff!Leaveoff!’ Thebearobeyedhim,andleavingmeranaway。WhenIrose,therewasasmuchbloodonthesnowasifasheephadbeenkilled,andthefleshhunginragsabovemyeyes,thoughinmyexcitementIfeltnopain。 Mycomradehadcomeupbythistime,andtheotherpeoplecollectedround:theylookedatmywound,andputsnowonit。 ButI,forgettingaboutmywounds,onlyasked: ’Where’sthebear?Whichwayhashegone?’ SuddenlyIheard: ’Hereheis!Hereheis!’ Andwesawthebearagainrunningatus。Weseizedourguns,butbeforeanyonehadtimetofirehehadrunpast。Hehadgrownferocious,andwantedtognawmeagain,butseeingsomanypeoplehetookfright。Wesawbyhistrackthathisheadwasbleedingandwewantedtofollowhimup;but,asmywoundshadbecomeverypainful,wewent,instead,tothetowntofindadoctor。 Thedoctorstitchedupmywoundswithsilk,andtheysoonbegantoheal。 Amonthlaterwewenttohuntthatbearagain,butIdidnotgetachanceoffinishinghim。Hewouldnotcomeoutofthecircle,butwentroundandroundgrowlinginaterriblevoice。 Damiankilledhim。Thebear’slowerjawhadbeenbroken,andoneofhisteethknockedoutbymybullet。 Hewasahugecreature,andhadsplendidblackfur。 Ihadhimstuffed,andhenowliesinmyroom。Thewoundsonmyforeheadhealedupsothatthescarscanscarcelybeseen。 (Writtenabout1872。) whaymenlivebyWHATMENLIVEBY ’Weknowthatwehavepassedoutofdeathintolife,becausewelovethebrethren。Hethatlovethnotabidethindeath。’——I EpistleSt。Johniii。14。 ’Whosohaththeworld’sgoods,andbeholdethhisbrotherinneed,andshuttethuphiscompassionfromhim,howdoththeloveofGodabideinhim?Mylittlechildren,letusnotloveinword,neitherwiththetongue;butindeedandtruth。’——iii。17-18。 ’LoveisofGod;andeveryonethatlovethisbegottenofGod,andknowethGod。HethatlovethnotknowethnotGod;forGodislove。’——iv。7-8。 ’NomanhathbeheldGodatanytime;ifweloveoneanother,Godabidethinus。’——iv。12。 ’Godislove;andhethatabidethinloveabidethinGod,andGodabidethinhim。’——iv。16。 ’Ifamansay,IloveGod,andhatethhisbrother,heisaliar;forhethatlovethnothisbrotherwhomhehathseen,howcanheloveGodwhomhehathnotseen?’——iv。20。 ASHOEMAKERnamedSimon,whohadneitherhousenorlandofhisown,livedwithhiswifeandchildreninapeasant’shut,andearnedhislivingbyhiswork。Workwascheapbutbreadwasdear,andwhatheearnedhespentforfood。Themanandhiswifehadbutonesheepskincoatbetweenthemforwinterwear,andeventhatwasworntotatters,andthiswasthesecondyearhehadbeenwantingtobuysheep-skinsforanewcoat。BeforewinterSimonsavedupalittlemoney:athree-roublenotelayhiddeninhiswife’sbox,andfiveroublesandtwentykopeks[6] wereowedhimbycustomersinthevillage。 Soonemorninghepreparedtogotothevillagetobuythesheep-skins。 Heputonoverhisshirthiswife’swaddednankeenjacket,andoverthatheputhisownclothcoat。Hetookthethree-roublenoteinhispocket,cuthimselfasticktoserveasastaff,andstartedoffafterbreakfast。’I’llcollectthefiveroublesthatareduetome,’thoughthe,’addthethreeIhavegot,andthatwillbeenoughtobuysheep-skinsforthewintercoat。’ Hecametothevillageandcalledatapeasant’shut,butthemanwasnotathome。Thepeasant’swifepromisedthatthemoneyshouldbepaidnextweek,butshewouldnotpayitherself。ThenSimoncalledonanotherpeasant,butthisonesworehehadnomoney,andwouldonlypaytwentykopekswhichheowedforapairofbootsSimonhadmended。Simonthentriedtobuythesheep-skinsoncredit,butthedeaderwouldnottrusthim。 ’Bringyourmoney,’saidhe,’thenyoumayhaveyourpickoftheskins。 Weknowwhatdebt-collectingislike。’ Soallthebusinesstheshoemakerdidwastogetthetwentykopeksforbootshehadmended,andtotakeapairoffeltbootsapeasantgavehimtosolewithleather。 Simonfeltdownhearted。Hespentthetwentykopeksonvó;dka,andstartedhomewardswithouthavingboughtanyskins。Inthemorninghehadfeltthefrost;butnow,afterdrinkingthevó;dka,hefeltwarmevenwithoutasheep-skincoat。Hetrudgedalong,strikinghisstickonthefrozenearthwithonehand,swingingthefeltbootswiththeother,andtalkingtohimself。 ’I’mquitewarm,’saidhe,’thoughIhavenosheepskincoat。I’vehadadrop,anditrunsthroughallmyveins。Ineednosheepskins。Igoalonganddon’tworryaboutanything。That’sthesortofmanIam!WhatdoIcare?Icanlivewithoutsheepskins。Idon’tneedthem。Mywifewillfret,tobesure。And,trueenough,it’sashame;oneworksalldaylong,andthendoesnotgetpaid。Stopabit!Ifyoudon’tbringthatmoneyalong,sureenoughI’llskinyou,blessedifIdon’t。How’sthat?Hepaystwentykopeksatatime!WhatcanIdowithtwentykopeks:Drinkit——that’sallonecando!Hardup,hesaysheis!Sohemaybe——butwhataboutme?Youhavehouse,andcattle,andeverything; I’veonlywhatIstandupin!Youhavecornofyourowngrowing;Ihavetobuyeverygrain。DowhatIwill,Imustspendthreeroubleseveryweekforbreadalone。Icomehomeandfindthebreadallusedup,andIhavetoforkoutanotherroubleandahalf。Sojustyoupayupwhatyouowe,andnononsenseaboutit!’ Bythistimehehadnearlyreachedtheshrineatthebendoftheroad。 Lookingup,hesawsomethingwhitishbehindtheshrine。 Thedaylightwasfading,andtheshoemakerpeeredatthethingwithoutbeingabletomakeoutwhatitwas。’Therewasnowhitestoneherebefore。Canitbeanox?It’snotlikeanox。Ithasaheadlikeaman,butit’stoowhite;andwhatcouldamanbedoingthere?’ Hecamecloser,sothatitwasclearlyvisible。Tohissurpriseitreallywasaman,aliveordead,sittingnaked,leaningmotionlessagainsttheshrine。Terrorseizedtheshoemaker,andhethought,’Someonehaskilledhim,strippedhim,andlefthimhere。IfI meddleIshallsurelygetintotrouble。’ Sotheshoemakerwenton。Hepassedinfrontoftheshrinesothathecouldnotseetheman。Whenhehadgonesomeway,helookedback,andsawthatthemanwasnolongerleaningagainsttheshrine,butwasmovingasiflookingtowardshim。Theshoemakerfeltmorefrightenedthanbefore,andthought,’ShallIgobacktohim,orshallIgoon?IfIgonearhimsomethingdreadfulmayhappen。Whoknowswhothefellowis?Hehasnotcomehereforanygood。IfIgonearhimhemayjumpupandthrottleme,andtherewillbenogettingaway。Orifnot,he’dstillbeaburdenonone’shands。WhatcouldIdowithanakedman?Icouldn’tgivehimmylastclothes。Heavenonlyhelpmetogetaway!’ Sotheshoemakerhurriedon,leavingtheshrinebehindhim——whensuddenlyhisconsciencesmotehimandhestoppedintheroad。 ’Whatareyoudoing,Simon?’saidhetohimself。’Themanmaybedyingofwant,andyouslippastafraid。Haveyougrownsorichastobeafraidofrobbers?Ah,Simon,shameonyou!’ Soheturnedbackandwentuptotheman。 Simonapproachedthestranger,lookedathim,andsawthathewasayoungman,fit,withnobruisesonhisbody,onlyevidentlyfreezingandfrightened,andhesatthereleaningbackwithoutlookingupatSimon,asiftoofainttolifthiseyes。Simonwentclosetohim,andthenthemanseemedtowakeup。Turninghishead,heopenedhiseyesandlookedintoSimon’sface。 ThatonelookwasenoughtomakeSimonfondoftheman。Hethrewthefeltbootsonthegroundundidhissash,laiditontheboots,andtookoffhisclothcoat。 ’It’snotatimefortalking,’saidhe。’Come,putthiscoatonatonce!’ AndSimontookthemanbytheelbowsandhelpedhimtorise。Ashestoodthere,Simonsawthathisbodywascleanandingoodcondition,hishandsandfeetshapely,andhisfacegoodandkind。Hethrewhiscoatovertheman’sshouldersbutthelattercouldnotfindthesleeves。Simonguidedhisarmsintothem,anddrawingthecoatwellontrappeditcloselyabouthim,tyingthesashroundtheman’swaist。 Simoneventookoffhistorncaptoputitontheman’shead,butthenhisownheadfeltcold,andhethought:’I’mquitebald,whilehehaslongcurlyhair。’Soheputhiscaponhisownheadagain。 ’Itwillbebettertogivehimsomethingforhisfeet,’ thoughthe;andhemadethemansitdown,andhelpedhimtoputonthefeltboots,saying,’There,friend,nowmoveaboutandwarmyourself。Othermatterscanbesettledlateron。Canyouwalk?’ ThemanstoodupandlookedkindlyatSimon,butcouldnotsayaword。