第45章

类别:其他 作者:Jane Addams字数:3239更新时间:18/12/27 08:59:40
Onenightthegodsonwateredhisstumps,and,afterreturningtohiscell,hesatdowntorest,andwatchedthefootpath,wonderingifsomeonewouldsooncome。Butnoonecameatallthatday。Hesatalonetillevening,feelinglonelyanddull,andhethoughtabouthispastlife。Horememberedhowtherobberhadreproachedhimforlivingbyhispiety;andhereflectedonhiswayoflife。 ’Iamnotlivingasthehermitcommandedmeto,’thoughthe。’Thehermitlaidapenanceuponme,andIhavemadebothalivingandfameoutofit;andhavebeensotemptedbyit,thatnowIfeeldullwhenpeopledonotcometome;andwhentheydocome,I onlyrejoicebecausetheypraisemyholiness。Thatisnothowoneshouldlive。Ihavebeenledastraybyloveofpraise。Ihavenotatonedformypastsins,buthaveaddedfreshones。Iwillgotoanotherpartoftheforestwherepeoplewillnotfindme;andIwilllivesoastoatoneformyoldsinsandcommitnofreshones。’ Havingcometothisconclusionthegodsonfilledabagwithdriedbreadand,takingaspade,leftthecellandstartedforaravineheknewofinalonelyspot,wherehecoulddighimselfacaveandhidefromthepeople。 Ashewasgoingalongwithhisbagandhisspadehesawtherobberridingtowardshim。Thegodsonwasfrightened,andstartedtorunaway,buttherobberovertookhim。 ’Whereareyougoing?’askedtherobber。 Thegodsontoldhimhewishedtogetawayfromthepeopleandlivesomewherewherenoonewouldcometohim。Thissurprisedtherobber。 ’Whatwillyouliveon,ifpeopledonotcometoseeyou?’askedhe。 Thegodsonhadnoteventhoughtofthis,buttherobber’squestionremindedhimthatfoodwouldbenecessary。 ’OnwhatGodpleasestogiveme,’hereplied。 Therobbersaidnothing,androdeaway。 ’WhydidInotsayanythingtohimabouthiswayoflife?’thoughtthegodson。’Hemightrepentnow。To-dayheseemsinagentlermood,andhasnotthreatenedtokillme。’Andheshoutedtotherobber: ’Youhavestilltorepentofyoursins。YoucannotescapefromGod。’ Therobberturnedhishorse,anddrawingaknifefromhisgirdlethreatenedthehermitwithit。Thelatterwasalarmed,andranawayfurtherintotheforest。 Therobberdidnotfollowhim,butonlyshouted: ’TwiceIhaveletyouoff,oldman,butnexttimeyoucomeinmywayIwillkillyou!’ Havingsaidthis,herodeaway。Intheeveningwhenthegodsonwenttowaterhisstumps——oneofthemwassprouting!Alittleappletreewasgrowingoutofit。 Afterhidinghimselffromeverybody,thegodsonlivedallalone。Whenhissupplyofbreadwasexhausted,hethought:’NowImustgoandlookforsomerootstoeat。’Hehadnotgonefar,however,beforehesawabagofdriedbreadhangingonabranch。Hetookitdown,andaslongasitlastedheliveduponthat。 Whenhehadeatenitall,hefoundanotherbagfulonthesamebranch。 Sohelivedon,hisonlytroublebeinghisfearoftherobber。 Wheneverheheardtherobberpassinghehidthinking: ’HemaykillmebeforeIhavehadtimetoatoneformysins。’ Inthiswayhelivedfortenmoreyears。Theoneapple-treecontinuedtogrow,buttheothertwostumpsremainedexactlyastheywere。 Onemorningthegodsonroseearlyandwenttohiswork。Bythetimehehadthoroughlymoistenedthegroundroundthestumps,hewastiredoutandsatdowntorest。Ashesattherehethoughttohimself: ’Ihavesinned,andhavebecomeafraidofdeath。ItmaybeGod’swillthatIshouldredeemmysinsbydeath。’ Hardlyhadthisthoughtcrossedhismindwhenheheardtherobberridingup,swearingatsomething。Whenthegodsonheardthis,hethought: ’NoevilandnogoodcanbefallmefromanyonebutfromGod。’ Andhewenttomeettherobber。Hesawtherobberwasnotalone,butbehindhimonthesaddlesatanotherman,gagged,andboundhandandfoot。Themanwasdoingnothing,buttherobberwasabusinghimviolently。Thegodsonwentupandstoodinfrontofthehorse。 ’Whereareyoutakingthisman?’heasked。 ’Intotheforest,’repliedtherobber。’Heisamerchant’sson,andwillnottellmewherehisfather’smoneyishidden。Iamgoingtofloghimtillhetellsme。’ Andtherobberspurredonhishorse,butthegodsoncaughtholdofhisbridle,andwouldnotlethimpass。 ’Letthismango!’hesaid。 Therobbergrewangry,andraisedhisarmtostrike。 ’WouldyoulikeatasteofwhatIamgoingtogivethisman?HaveI notpromisedtokillyou?Letgo!’ Thegodsonwasnotafraid。 ’Youshallnotgo,’saidhe。’Idonotfearyou。IfearnoonebutGod,andHewillsthatIshouldnotletyoupass。Setthismanfree!’ Therobberfrowned,andsnatchingouthisknife,cuttheropeswithwhichthemerchant’ssonwasbound,andsethimfree。 ’Getawaybothofyou,’hesaid,’andbewarehouryoucrossmypathagain。’ Themerchant’ssonjumpeddownandranaway。Therobberwasabouttorideon,butthegodsonstoppedhimagain,andagainspoketohimaboutgivinguphisevillife。Therobberheardhimtotheendinsilence,andthenrodeawaywithoutaword。 Thenextmorningthegodsonwenttowaterhisstumpsandlo!thesecondstumpwassprouting。Asecondyoungapple-treehadbeguntogrow。 Anothertenyearshadgoneby。Thegodsonwassittingquietlyoneday,desiringnothing,fearingnothing,andwithaheartfullofjoy。 ’WhatblessingsGodshowersonmen!’thoughthe。’Yethowneedlesslytheytormentthemselves。Whatpreventsthemfromlivinghappily?’ Andrememberingalltheevilinmen,andthetroublestheybringuponthemselves,hisheartfilledwithpity。 ’ItiswrongofmetoliveasIdo,’hesaidtohimself。’ImustgoandteachotherswhatIhavemyselflearnt。’ Hardlyhadhethoughtthis,whenheheardtherobberapproaching。Helethimpass,thinking: ’Itisnogoodtalkingtohim,hewillnotunderstand。’ Thatwashisfirstthought,buthochangedhismindandwentoutintotheroad。Hesawthattherobberwasgloomy,andwasridingwithdowncasteyes。Thegodsonlookedathim,pitiedhim,andrunninguptohimlaidhishanduponhisknee。 ’Brother,dear,’saidhe,’havesomepityonyourownsoul!InyoulivesthespiritofGod。Yousuffer,andtormentothers,andlayupmoreandmoresufferingforthefuture。YetGodlovesyou,andhaspreparedsuchblessingsforyou。Donotruinyourselfutterly。 Changeyourlife!’ Therobberfrownedandturnedaway。 ’Leavemealone!’saidhe。 Butthegodsonheldtherobberstillfaster,andbegantoweep。 Thentherobberliftedhiseyesandlookedatthegodson。Helookedathimforalongtime,andalightingfromhishorse,fellonhiskneesatthegodson’sfeet。 ’Youhaveovercomeme,oldman,’saidhe。’FortwentyyearsIhaveresistedyou,butnowyouhaveconqueredme。Dowhatyouwillwithme,forIhavenomorepowerovermyself。Whenyoufirsttriedtopersuademe,itonlyangeredmemore。OnlywhenyouhidyourselffrommendidIbegintoconsideryourwords:forI sawthenthatyouaskednothingofthemforyourself。SincethatdayIhavebroughtfoodforyou,hangingituponthetree。’ Thenthegodsonrememberedthatthewomangothertablecleanonlyaftershehadrinsedhercloth。Inthesameway,itwasonlywhenheceasedcaringabouthimself,andcleansedhisownheart,thathewasabletocleansetheheartsofothers。 Therobberwenton。 ’WhenIsawthatyoudidnotfeardeath,myheartturned。’ Thenthegodsonrememberedthatthewheel-wrightscouldnotbendtherimsuntiltheyhadfixedtheirblock。So,nottillhehadcastawaythefearofdeathandmadehislifefastinGod,couldhesubduethisman’sunrulyheart。