第10章

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“Godwillrewardyou,Ihope,“repliedtheabbe,gentlyjoininghishandsandraisingthemtowardsheavenasifheweremakingabriefmentalprayer。 So,fromthetimeshewassixyearsoldthelittleorphanlivedunderthereligiousinfluenceoftheabbe,justasshehadalreadycomeundertheeducationaltrainingofherfriendJordy。 Thecaptain,formerlyaprofessorinamilitaryacademy,havingatasteforgrammarandforthedifferencesamongEuropeanlanguages,hadstudiedtheproblemofauniversaltongue。Thislearnedman,patientasmostoldscholarsare,delightedinteachingUrsulatoreadandwrite。HetaughtheralsotheFrenchlanguageandallsheneededtoknowofarithmetic。Thedoctor’slibraryaffordedachoiceofbookswhichcouldbereadbyachildforamusementaswellasinstruction。 Theabbeandthesoldierallowedtheyoungmindtoenrichitselfwiththefreedomandcomfortwhichthedoctorgavetothebody。Ursulalearnedassheplayed。Religionwasgivenwithduereflection。Lefttofollowthedivinetrainingofanaturethatwasledintoregionsofpuritybythesejudiciouseducators,Ursulainclinedmoretosentimentthantoduty;shetookasherruleofconductthevoiceofherownconscienceratherthanthedemandsofsociallaw。Inher,nobilityoffeelingandactionwouldeverbespontaneous;herjudgmentwouldconfirmtheimpulseofherheart。Shewasdestinedtodorightasapleasurebeforedoingitasanobligation。ThisdistinctionisthepeculiarsignofChristianeducation。Theseprinciples,altogetherdifferentfromthosethataretaughttomen,weresuitableforawoman,——thespiritandtheconscienceofthehome,thebeautifierofdomesticlife,thequeenofherhousehold。AllthreeoftheseoldpreceptorsfollowedthesamemethodwithUrsula。Insteadofrecoilingbeforetheboldquestionsofinnocence,theyexplainedtoherthereasonsofthingsandthebestmeansofaction,takingcaretogivehernonebutcorrectideas。When,aproposofaflower,astar,abladeofgrass,herthoughtswentstraighttoGod,thedoctorandtheprofessortoldherthatthepriestalonecouldanswerher。Noneofthemintrudedontheterritoryoftheothers;thedoctortookchargeofhermaterialwell-beingandthethingsoflife;Jordy’sdepartmentwasinstruction;moralandspiritualquestionsandtheideasappertainingtothehigherlifebelongedtotheabbe。Thisnobleeducationwasnot,asitoftenis,counteractedbyinjudiciousservants。LaBougival,havingbeenlecturedonthesubject,andbeing,moreover,toosimpleinmindandcharactertointerfere,didnothingtoinjuretheworkofthesegreatminds。Ursula,aprivilegedbeing,grewupwithgoodgeniusesroundher;andhernaturallyfinedispositionmadethetaskofeachasweetandeasyone。Suchmanlytenderness,suchgravitylightedbysmiles,suchlibertywithoutdanger,suchperpetualcareofsoulandbodymadelittleUrsula,whennineyearsofage,awell-trainedchildanddelightfultobehold。 Unhappily,thispaternaltrinitywasbrokenup。Theoldcaptaindiedthefollowingyear,leavingtheabbeandthedoctortofinishhiswork,ofwhich,however,hehadaccomplishedthemostdifficultpart。 Flowerswillbloomofthemselvesifgrowninasoilthusprepared。Theoldgentlemanhadlaidbyfortenyearspastonethousandfrancsayear,thathemightleavetenthousandtohislittleUrsula,andkeepaplaceinhermemoryduringherwholelife。Inhiswill,thewordingofwhichwasverytouching,hebeggedhislegateetospendthefourorfivehundredfrancsthatcameofherlittlecapitalexclusivelyonherdress。Whenthejusticeofthepeaceappliedthesealstotheeffectsofhisoldfriend,theyfoundinasmallroom,whichthecaptainhadallowednoonetoenter,aquantityoftoys,manyofthembroken,whileallhadbeenused,——toysofapastgeneration,reverentlypreserved,whichMonsieurBongrandwas,accordingtothecaptain’slastwishes,toburnwithhisownhands。 AboutthistimeitwasthatUrsulamadeherfirstcommunion。Theabbeemployedonewholeyearindulyinstructingtheyounggirl,whosemindandheart,eachwelldeveloped,yetjudiciouslybalancingoneanother,neededaspecialspiritualnourishment。TheinitiationintoaknowledgeofdivinethingswhichhegaveherwassuchthatUrsulagrewintothepiousandmysticalyounggirlwhosecharacterroseaboveallvicissitudes,andwhoseheartwasenabledtoconqueradversity。Thenbeganasecretstrugglebetweentheoldmanweddedtounbeliefandtheyounggirlfulloffaith,——longunsuspectedbyherwhoincitedit,—— theresultofwhichhadnowstirredthewholetown,andwasdestinedtohavegreatinfluenceonUrsula’sfuturebyrousingagainsthertheantagonismofthedoctor’sheirs。 Duringthefirstsixmonthsoftheyear1824Ursulaspentallhermorningsattheparsonage。Theolddoctorguessedtheabbe’ssecrethope。HemeanttomakeUrsulaanunanswerableargumentagainsthim。 Theoldunbeliever,lovedbyhisgodchildasthoughshewerehisowndaughter,wouldsurelybelieveinsuchartlesscandor;hecouldnotfailtobepersuadedbythebeautifuleffectsofreligiononthesoulofachild,wherelovewaslikethosetreesofEasternclimes,bearingbothflowersandfruit,alwaysfragrant,alwaysfertile。Abeautifullifeismorepowerfulthanthestrongestargument。Itisimpossibletoresistthecharmsofcertainsights。Thedoctor’seyeswerewet,heknewnothoworwhy,whenhesawthechildofhisheartstartingforthechurch,wearingafrockofwhitecrape,andshoesofwhitesatin; herhairboundwithafilletfastenedatthesidewithaknotofwhiteribbon,andripplinguponhershoulders;hereyeslightedbythestarofafirsthope;hurrying,tallandbeautiful,toafirstunion,andlovinghergodfatherbettersincehersoulhadrisentowardsGod。Whenthedoctorperceivedthatthethoughtofimmortalitywasnourishingthatspirit(untilthenwithintheconfinesofchildhood)asthesungiveslifetotheearthwithoutknowingwhy,hefeltsorrythatheremainedathomealone。 Sittingonthestepsofhisporticohekepthiseyesfixedontheironrailingofthegatethroughwhichthechildhaddisappeared,sayingasshelefthim:“Whywon’tyoucome,godfather?howcanIbehappywithoutyou?“Thoughshakentohisverycenter,theprideoftheEncyclopedistdidnotasyetgiveway。Hewalkedslowlyinadirectionfromwhichhecouldseetheprocessionofcommunicants,anddistinguishhislittleUrsulabrilliantwithexaltationbeneathherveil。Shegavehimaninspiredlook,whichknocked,inthestonyregionsofhisheart,onthecornerclosedtoGod。Butstilltheolddeistheldfirm。Hesaidtohimself:“Mummeries!iftherebeamakerofworlds,imaginetheorganizerofinfinitudeconcerninghimselfwithsuchtrifles!“HelaughedashecontinuedhiswalkalongtheheightswhichlookdownupontheroadtotheGatinais,wherethebellswereringingajoyouspealthattoldofthejoyoffamilies。 Thenoiseofbackgammonisintolerabletopersonswhodonotknowthegame,whichisreallyoneofthemostdifficultthatwaseverinvented。Nottoannoyhisgodchild,theextremedelicacyofwhoseorgansandnervescouldnotbear,hethought,withoutinjurythenoiseandtheexclamationsshedidnotknowthemeaningof,theabbe,oldJordywhileliving,andthedoctoralwayswaitedtilltheirchildwasinbedbeforetheybegantheirfavoritegame。Sometimesthevisitorscameearlywhenshewasoutforawalk,andthegamewouldbegoingonwhenshereturned;thensheresignedherselfwithinfinitegraceandtookherseatatthewindowwithherwork。Shehadarepugnancetothegame,whichisreallyinthebeginningveryhardandunconquerabletosomeminds,sothatunlessitbelearnedinyouthitisalmostimpossibletotakeitupinafterlife。 Thenightofherfirstcommunion,whenUrsulacameintothesalonwherehergodfatherwassittingalone,sheputthebackgammon-boardbeforehim。 “Whosethrowshallitbe?“sheasked。 “Ursula,“saidthedoctor,“isn’titasintomakefunofyourgodfatherthedayofyourfirstcommunion?“ “Iamnotmakingfunofyou,“shesaid,sittingdown。“Iwanttogiveyousomepleasure——youwhoarealwaysonthelook-outformine。WhenMonsieurChaperonwaspleasedwithmehegavemealessoninbackgammon,andhehasgivenmesomanythatnowIamquitestrongenoughtobeatyou——youshallnotdepriveyourselfanylongerforme。 Ihaveconqueredalldifficulties,andnowIlikethenoiseofthegame。“ Ursulawon。Theabbehadslippedintoenjoyhistriumph。ThenextdayMinoret,whohadalwaysrefusedtoletUrsulalearnmusic,senttoParisforapiano,madearrangementsatFontainebleauforateacher,andsubmittedtotheannoyancethatherconstantpracticingwastohim。OneofpoorJordy’spredictionswasfulfilled,——thegirlbecameanexcellentmusician。Thedoctor,proudofhertalent,hadlatelysenttoParisforamaster,anoldGermannamedSchmucke,adistinguishedprofessorwhocameonceaweek;thedoctorwillinglypayingforanartwhichhehadformerlydeclaredtobeuselessinahousehold。Unbelieversdonotlikemusic——acelestiallanguage,developedbyCatholicism,whichhastakenthenamesofthesevennotesfromoneofthechurchhymns;everynotebeingthefirstsyllableofthesevenfirstlinesinthehymntoSaintJohn。 TheimpressionproducedonthedoctorbyUrsula’sfirstcommunionthoughkeenwasnotlasting。Thecalmandsweetcontentmentwhichprayerandtheexerciseofresolutionproducedinthatyoungsoulhadnottheirdueinfluenceuponhim。Havingnoreasonsforremorseorrepentancehimself,heenjoyedaserenepeace。Doinghisownbenefactionswithouthopeofacelestialharvest,hethoughthimselfonanoblerplanethanreligiousmenwhomhealwaysaccusedformaking,ashecalledit,termswithGod。 “But,“theabbewouldsaytohim,“ifallmenwouldbeso,youmustadmitthatsocietywouldberegenerated;therewouldbenomoremisery。Tobebenevolentafteryourfashiononemustneedsbeagreatphilosopher;yourisetoyourprinciplesthroughreason,youareasocialexception;whereasitsufficestobeaChristiantomakeusbenevolentinours。Withyou,itisaneffort;withus,itcomesnaturally。“ “Inotherwords,abbe,Ithink,andyoufeel,——that’sthewholeofit。“ However,attwelveyearsofage,Ursula,whosequicknessandnaturalfeminineperceptionsweretrainedbyhersuperioreducation,andwhoseintelligenceinitsdawnwasenlightenedbyareligiousspirit(ofallspiritsthemostrefined),cametounderstandthathergodfatherdidnotbelieveinafuturelife,norintheimmortalityofthesoul,norinprovidence,norinGod。Pressedwithquestionsbytheinnocentcreature,thedoctorwasunabletohidethefatalsecret。Ursula’sartlessconsternationmadehimsmile,butwhenhesawherdepressedandsadhefelthowdeepanaffectionhersadnessrevealed。Absolutedevotionhasahorrorofeverysortofdisagreement,eveninideaswhichitdoesnotshare。Sometimesthedoctoracceptedhisdarling’sreasoningsashewouldherkisses,saidastheywereinthesweetestofvoiceswiththepurestandmostferventfeeling。Believersandunbelieversspeakdifferentlanguagesandcannotunderstandeachother。TheyounggirlpleadingGod’scausewasunreasonablewiththeoldman,asaspoiltchildsometimesmaltreatsitsmother。Theabberebukedhergently,tellingherthatGodhadpowertohumiliateproudspirits。UrsularepliedthatDavidhadovercomeGoliath。