第10章

类别:其他 作者:Robert Louis Stevenson字数:4039更新时间:18/12/27 09:07:25
RAJ,governmentwillcollapseandceaselikeanoverlaininfant,withoutashotfired。Theyhavenowbeenmonthshereontheirbigsalaries-andCedarcrantz,whomIspeciallylikeasaman,hasdonenearlynothing,andtheBaron,whoiswell-meaning,hasdoneworse。Theyhavetheselargesalaries,andtheyhaveallthetaxes;theyhavemadescarceafootofroad;theyhavenotgivenasinglenativeaposition-alltowhitemen;theyhavescarcelaidoutapennyonApia,andscarceapennyontheKing;theyhaveforgottheywereinSamoa,orthatsuchathingasSamoansexisted,andhadeyesandsomeintelligence。TheChiefJusticehasrefusedtopayhiscustoms!ThePresidentproposedtohaveanexpensivehousebuiltforhimself,whiletheKing,hismaster,hasnone!Ihadstoodaside,andbeenaloyal,and,aboveall,asilentsubject,uptothen;butnowIsnapmyfingersattheirMALO。Itisdamned,andI’mdamnedgladofit。Andthisisnotall。Last’WAINIU,’whenIsentFannyofftoFiji,IhearthewonderfulnewsthattheChiefJusticeisgoingtoFijiandtheColoniestoimprovehismind。Ishowedmywayofthoughttohisguest,CountWachtmeister,whomIhavesenttoyouwithaletter-hewilltellyouallthenews。Well,theChiefJusticestayed,buttheysaidhewastoleaveyesterday。Ihadintendedtogodown,andseeandwarnhim!ButthePresident’shousehadcomeupinthemeanwhile,andIletthemgototheirdoom,whichIamonlyanxioustoseeswiftlyand(ifitmaybe) bloodlesslyfall。 ThusIhaveinawaywithdrawnmyunrewardedloyalty。Lloydisdownto-daywithMoorstocallonMataafa;thenewsoftheexcursionmadeaconsiderablerowinApia,andboththeGermanandtheEnglishconsulsbesoughtLloydnottogo。Buthestucktohispurpose,andwithmyapproval。It’sapoorthingifpeoplearetogiveupapleasurepartyforaMALO thathasneverdoneanythingforusbutdrawtaxes,andisgoingtogopop,andleaveusatthemercyoftheidenticalMataafa,whomIhavenotvisitedformorethanayear,andwhoisprobablyfurious。 Thesenseofmyhelplessnessherehasbeenratherbitter;I feelitwretchedtoseethisdanceoffollyandinjusticeandunconsciousrapacitygoforwardfromdaytoday,andtobeimpotent。Iwasnotconsulted-oronlybyoneman,andthatonparticularpoints;Ididnotchoosetovolunteeradvicetillsomepressingoccasion;Ihavenotevenavote,forIamnotamemberofthemunicipality。 Whatailsyou,miserableman,totalkofsavingmaterial?I haveawholeworldinmyhead,awholenewsocietytowork,butIaminnohurry;youwillshortlymaketheacquaintanceoftheIslandofUlufanua,onwhichImeantolayseveralstories;theBLOODYWEDDING,possiblytheHIGHWOODS-(O,it’ssogood,theHighWoods,butthestoryiscraziness; that’sthetrouble,)-apoliticalstory,theLABOURSLAVE,etc。Ulufanuaisanimaginaryisland;thenameisabeautifulSamoanwordfortheTOPofaforest;ulu-leavesorhair,fanua=land。Thegroundorcountryoftheleaves。 ’Ulufanuatheisleofthesea,’readthatversedactylicallyandyougetthebeat;theu’sarelikeourdoubleoo;dideveryouhearaprettierword? IdonotfeelinclinedtomakeavolumeofEssays,butifI did,andperhapstheideaisgood-andanyideaisbetterthanSouthSeas-herewouldbemychoiceoftheScribnerarticles:DREAMS,BEGGARS,LANTERN-BEARERS,RANDOMMEMORIES。 TherewasapapercalledtheOLDPACIFICCAPITALinFraser,inTulloch’stime,whichhadmerit;thereweretwoonFontainebleauintheMAGAZINEOFARTinHenley’stime。I havenoideaifthey’reanygood;thenthere’stheEMIGRANT TRAIN。PULVISETUMBRAisinadifferentkey,andwouldn’thangonwiththerest。 IhavejustinterruptedmyletterandreadthroughthechapteroftheHIGHWOODSthatiswritten,achapterandabit,somesixteenpages,reallyveryfetching,butwhatdoyouwish?thestoryissowilful,sosteep,sosilly-it’sahallucinationIhaveoutlived,andyetIneverdidabetterpieceofwork,horrid,andpleasing,andextraordinarilyTRUE;it’ssixteenpagesoftheSouthSeas;theiressence。 WhatamItodo?Losethislittlegem-forI’llbebold,andthat’swhatIthinkit-orgoonwiththerest,whichI don’tbelievein,anddon’tlike,andwhichcannevermakeaughtbutasillyyarn?Makeanotherendtoit?Ah,yes,butthat’snotthewayIwrite;thewholetaleisimplied;I neveruseaneffect,whenIcanhelpit,unlessitpreparestheeffectsthataretofollow;that’swhatastoryconsistsin。Tomakeanotherend,thatistomakethebeginningallwrong。Thedenouementofalongstoryisnothing;itisjusta’fullclose,’whichyoumayapproachandaccompanyasyouplease-itisacoda,notanessentialmemberintherhythm; butthebodyandendofashortstoryisboneoftheboneandbloodofthebloodofthebeginning。Well,Ishallendbyfinishingitagainstmyjudgment;thatfragmentismyDelilah。Golly,it’sgood。Iamnotshiningbymodesty;butIdojustlovethecolourandmovementofthatpiecesofarasitgoes。 Iwassurprisedtohearofyourfishing。Andyousawthe’Pharos,’thricefortunateman;IwishIdaredgohome,I wouldasktheCommissionerstotakemeroundforoldsake’ssake,andseeallmyfamilypicturesoncemorefromtheMullofGallowaytoUnst。However,allisarrangedforourmeetinginCeylon,exceptthedateandthebloomingpounds。 Ihaveheardofanexquisitehotelinthecountry,airy,largerooms,goodcookery,notdear;weshallhaveacoupleofmonthsthere,ifwecanmakeitout,andconverseor-asmygrandfatheralwayssaid-’commune。’’CommuningswithMr。 KennedyastoLighthouseRepairs。’Hewasafineoldfellow,butadroll。 Lloydhasreturned。Peaceandwarwereplayedbeforehiseyesatheadsortails。AGermanwasstoppedwithlevelledguns;heraisedhiswhip;haditfallen,wemighthavebeennowinwar。ExcusesweremadebyMataafahimself。Doubtlessthethingwasdone-ImeanthestoppingoftheGerman-alittletoshowoffbeforeLloyd。Meanwhile-wasuphere,tellinghowtheChiefJusticewasreallygoneforfiveoreightweeks,andbeggingmetowritetotheTIMESanddenouncethestateofaffairs;manystrongreasonsheadvanced;andLloydandIhavebeensincehisarrivaland-’sdeparture,nearhalfanhour,debatingwhatshouldbedone。 Cedarcrantzisgone;itisnotmyfault;heknowsmyviewsonthatpoint-aloneofallpoints;-heleavesmewithmymouthsealed。Yetthisisanicethingthatbecauseheisguiltyofafreshoffence-hisflight-themouthoftheonlypossibleinfluentialwitnessshouldbeclosed?Idonotlikethisargument。Ilooklikeacad,ifIdointheman’sabsencewhatIcouldhavedoneinamoremanlymannerinhispresence。True;butwhydidhego?Itishislastsin。AndI,wholikethemanextremely-thatistheword-Ilovehissociety-heisintelligent,pleasant,evenwitty,agentleman-andyouknowhowthatattaches-Iloathetoseemtoplayabasepart;butthepoornatives-whoarelikeotherfolk,falseenough,lazyenough,notheroes,notsaints-ordinarymendamnablymisused-aretheytosufferbecauseIlikeCedarcrantz,andCedarcrantzhascuthislucky?Thisisalittletragedy,observewell-atragedy!Imayberight,Imaybewronginmyjudgment,butIamintreatywithmyhonour。Iknownothowitwillseemto-morrow。Lloydthoughtthebarrierofhonourinsurmountable,anditisanuglyobstacle。He(Cedarcrantz)willlikelymeetmywifethreedaysfromnow,maytravelbackwithher,willbecharmingifhedoes;supposethis,andsupposehimtoarriveandfindthatIhavesprungamine-orthenearestapproachtoitIcouldfind-behindhisback?Mypositionispretty。 Yes,Iamanaristocrat。Ihavetheoldpetty,personalviewofhonour?IshouldblushtillIdieifIdothis;yetitisonthecardsthatImaydoit。SomuchIhavewrittenyouinbed,asamanwrites,ortalks,inaBITTREWAHL。NowI shallsleep,andseeifIammoreclear。Iwillconsultthemissionariesatleast-IplacesomerelianceinM。also-orIshouldifhewerenotapartisan;butapartisanheis。 There’sthepity。Tosleep!Afundofwisdomintheprostratebodyandthefedbrain。KindlyobserveR。L。S。inthetalonsofpolitics!’Tisfunny-’tissad。Nobodybutthesecursedidiotscouldhavesodrivenme;Icannotbearidiots。 MydearColvin,Imustgotosleep;itislongpastten-adreadfulhourforme。AndhereamIlingering(soIfeel)inthedining-roomattheMonument,talkingtoyouacrossthetable,bothonourfeet,andonlythetwostairstomount,andgettobed,andsleep,andbewakedbydearoldGeorge- towhomIwishmykindestremembrances-nextmorning。I lookround,andthereismyblueroom,andmylonglinesofshelves,andthedoorgapingonamoonlessnight,andnowordofS。C。buthistwaportraitsonthewall。Good-bye,mydearfellow,andgoodnight。Queerplacetheworld! Noclearnessofmindwiththemorning;IhavenoguesswhatI shoulddo。’Tiseasytosaythatthepublicdutyshouldbrushasidetheselittleconsiderationsofpersonaldignity; soitisthatpoliticiansbegin,andinamonthyoufindthemratandflatterandintriguewithbrowsofbrass。Iamratheroftheoldview,thataman’sfirstdutyistotheselittlelaws;thebighedoesnot,heneverwill,understand; ImaybewrongabouttheChiefJusticeandtheBaronandthestateofSamoa;IcannotbewrongaboutthevileattitudeI putmyselfinifIblowthegaffonCedarcrantzbehindhisback。