第32章

类别:其他 作者:Robert Louis Stevenson字数:4969更新时间:18/12/27 09:07:25
SundaycametheKATOOMBA,CaptainBickford,C。M。G。 Yesterday,GrahamandIwentdowntocall,andfindhehasorderstosuppressMataafaatonce,andhastogodownto-daybeforedaybreaktoManono。Heisaverycapable,energeticman;ifhehadonlycometendaysago,allthiswouldhavegoneby;butnowthequestionsarethickanddifficult。(1) WillMataafasurrender?(2)Willhispeopleallowthemselvestobedisarmed?(3)Whatwillhappentothemiftheydo? (4)Whatwillanyofthembelieveafterformerdeceptions? ThethreeconsulswerescamperingonhorsebacktoLeulumoegatotheKing;noCusack-Smith,withoutwhoseaccessionIcouldnotsendalettertoMataafa。Irodeuphere,wrotemyletterinthesweatoftheconcordanceandwiththeable- bodiedhelpofLloyd-anddined。Thendownincontinualshowersandpitchydarkness,andtoCusack-Smith’s;notre- returned。Backtotheinnformyhorse,andtoC-S。’s,whenIfindhimjustreturnedandheacceptsmyletter。Thencehome,by12。30,jollytiredandwet。Andto-dayhavebeeninacrispationofenergyandill-temper,rakingmywretchedmailtogether。Itisahatefulbusiness,waitingforthenews;itmaycometoafearfulmassacreyet-Yoursever,R。L。S。 MYDEARCOLVIN,-Quiteimpossibletowrite。Yourletterisdueto-day;anasty,rainy-likemorningwithhugeblueclouds,andahugeindigoshadowonthesea,andmylampstillburningatnear7。Letmehumblygiveyounews。Fannyseemsonthewholethemost,ortheonly,powerfulmemberofthefamily;forsomedaysshehasbeentheFloweroftheFlock。Belleisbeggingforquinine。LloydandGrahamhavebothbeendownwith’bellybelonghim’(BlackBoyspeech)。 Asforme,Ihavetolayasidemylawntennis,having(aswastobeexpected)hadasmartbuteminentlybriefhemorrhage。 Iamalsoonthequinineflask。Ihavebeenre-castingthebeginningoftheHANGINGJUDGEorWEIROFHERMISTON;thenI havebeencobblingonmygrandfather,whoselastchapter(thereareonlytobefour)isintheformofpiecesofpaper,ahugewelterofinconsequence,andthatglimmeroffaith(orhope)whichonelearnsatthistrade,thatsomehowandsometime,byperpetualstaringandgloweringandrewriting,orderwillemerge。Itisindeedaqueerhope; thereisonepieceforinstancethatIwantin-Icannotputitoneplaceforagoodreason-Icannotputitanotherforabetter-andeverytimeIlookatit,IturnsickandputtheMs。away。 Well,yourletterhasn’tcome,andanumberofothersaremissing。Itlooksasifamail-baghadgoneon,soI’llblamenobody,andproceedtobusiness。 ItlooksasifIwasgoingtosendyouthefirstthreechaptersofmyGrandfather……Iftheyweresetup,itwouldbethatmuchanxietyoffmymind。Ihaveastrangefeelingofresponsibility,asifIhadmyancestors’SOULSinmycharge,andmightmiscarrywiththem。 There’salotofworkgoneintoit,andalotmoreisneeded。 StillChapterI。seemsaboutrighttome,andmuchofChapterII。ChapterIII。Iknownothingof,asItoldyou。AndChapterIV。isatpresentallendsandbeginnings;butitcanbepulledtogether。 ThisisallIhavebeenabletoscrewuptoyouforthismonth,andImayaddthatitisnotonlymorethanyoudeserve,butjustaboutmorethanIwasequalto。Ihavebeenandamentirelyuseless;justabletotinkeratmyGrandfather。Thethreechapters-perhapsalsoalittleofthefourth-willcomehometoyounextmailbythehandofmycousinGrahamBalfour,averynicefellowwhomIrecommendtoyouwarmly-andwhomIthinkyouwilllike。Thiswillgiveyoutimetoconsidermyvariousanddistractedschemes。 Allourwarsareoverinthemeantime,tobeginagainassoonasthewar-shipsleave。Adieu。 MYDEARCOLVIN,-YourpleasingletterRETHEEBBTIDE,tohand。Ipropose,ifitbenottoolate,todeleteLloyd’sname。Hehasnothingtodowiththelasthalf。Thefirstwewrotetogether,asthebeginningofalongyarn。Thesecondisentirelymine;andIthinkitratherunfairontheyoungmantocouplehisnamewithsoinfamousawork。Aboveall,asyouhadnotreadthetwolastchapters,whichseemtomethemostuglyandcynicalofall。 YouwillseethatIamnotinagoodhumour;andIamnot。 Itisnotbecauseofyourletter,butbecauseofthecomplicatedmiseriesthatsurroundmeandthatIchoosetosaynothingof。LifeisnotallBeerandSkittles。Theinherenttragedyofthingsworksitselfoutfromwhitetoblackandblacker,andthepoorthingsofadaylookruefullyon。Doesitshakemycast-ironfaith?Icannotsayitdoes。 Ibelieveinanultimatedecencyofthings;ay,andifIwokeinhell,shouldstillbelieveit!Butitishardwalking,andIcanseemyownshareinthemissteps,andcanbowmyheadtotheresult,likeanold,stern,unhappydevilofaNorseman,asmyultimatecharacteris…… Well,ILFAUTCULTIVERSONJARDIN。Thatlastexpressionofpoor,unhappyhumanwisdomItaketomyheartandgotoST。 IVES。 24thAUG。 Anddid,andworkedabout2hoursandgottosleepultimatelyand’a’thecloudshasblawnaway。’’Besurewe’llhavesomepleisandweather,Whena’theclouds(storms?)hasblawn(gone?)away。’Versesthathaveaquiteinexplicableattractionforme,andIbelievehadforBurns。Theyhavenomerit,butaresomehowgood。Iamnowinamostexcellenthumour。 IamdeepinST。IVESwhich,Ibelieve,willbethenextnoveldone。ButitistobeclearlyunderstoodthatI promisenothing,andmaythrowinyourfacetheverylastthingyouexpect-orIexpect。ST。IVESwill(tomymind) notbewhollybad。Itiswritteninratherafunnystyle;alittlestiltedandleft-handed;thestyleofSt。Ives;also,tosomeextent,thestyleofR。L。S。dictating。ST。IVES isunintellectualandexceptasanadventurenovel,dull。 Buttheadventuresseemtomesoundandprettyprobable;anditisalovestory。Speedhiswings! SUNDAYNIGHT。 DECOEURUNPEUPLUSDISPOS,MONSIEURETCHERCONFRERE,JEME REMETSAVOUSECRIRE。ST。IVESisnowinthe5thchaptercopying;inthe14thchapterofthedictateddraft。IdonotbelieveIshallendbydislikingit。 MONDAY。 Well,heregoesagainforthenews。FannyisVERYWELL indeed,andingoodspirits;IamingoodspiritsbutnotVERYwell;Lloydisingoodspiritsandverywell;Bellehasarealgoodfeverwhichhasputherpipeoutwholly。Grahamgoesbackthismail。HetakeswithhimthreechaptersofTHE FAMILY,andistogotoyouassoonashecan。Hecannotbemuchthemasterofhismovements,butyougriphimwhenyoucanandgetallyoucanfromhim,ashehaslivedaboutsixmonthswithusandhecantellyoujustwhatistrueandwhatisnot-andnotthedreamsofdearoldRoss。Heisagoodfellow,ishenot? SinceyouratherreviseyourviewsofTHEEBBTIDE,IthinkLloyd’snamemightstick,butI’llleaveittoyou。I’lltellyoujusthowitstands。Uptothediscoveryofthechampagne,thetalewasallplannedbetweenusanddraftedbyLloyd;fromthatmomenthehashadnothingtodowithitexcepttalkingitover。Forwechangedourplan,gaveuptheprojectedMonteCristo,andcutitdownforashortstory。 Myjmpression-(Ibegyourpardon-thisisalocaljoke-afirmherehadonitsbeerlabels,’solejmporters’)-isthatitwillneverbepopular,butmightmakealittleSUCCESDE SCANDALE。However,I’mdonewithitnow,andnotsorry,andthecrowdmayraveandmumbleitsbonesforwhatIcare。 Holeessential。Iamsorryaboutthemaps;butIwant’emfornextedition,soseeandhaveproofssent。YouarequiterightaboutthebottleandthegreatHuish,Imusttrytomakeitclear。No,IwillnotwriteaplayforIrvingnorforthedevil。CanyounotseethattheworkofFALSIFICATIONwhichaplaydemandsisofalltasksthemostungrateful?AndIhavedoneitalongwhile-andnothingevercameofit。 Considermynewproposal,ImeanHonolulu。YouwouldgettheAtlanticandtheRockyMountains,wouldyounot?forbracing。 Andsomuchlesssea!AndthenyoucouldactuallyseeVailima,whichIWOULDlikeyouto,forit’sbeautifulandmyhomeandtombthatistobe;thoughit’sawrenchnottobeplantedinScotland-thatIcanneverdeny-ifIcouldonlybeburiedinthehills,undertheheatherandatabletombstonelikethemartyrs,wherethewhaupsandploversarecrying!DidyouseeamanwhowrotetheSTICKITMINISTER,anddedicatedittome,inwordsthatbroughtthetearstomyeyeseverytimeIlookedatthem,’Whereaboutthegravesofthemartyrsthewhaupsarecrying。HISheartremembershow。’ Ah,byGod,itdoes!SingularthatIshouldfulfiltheScotsdestinythroughout,andliveavoluntaryexile,andhavemyheadfilledwiththeblessed,beastlyplaceallthetime! AndnowawordasregardsthedelusionsofthedearRoss,whoremembers,Ibelieve,mylettersandFanny’swhenwewerefirstinstalled,andwerereallyhoeingahardrow。Wehavesalad,beans,cabbages,tomatoes,asparagus,kohl-rabi,oranges,limes,barbadines,pine-apples,Capegooseberries- galore;pintsofmilkandcream;freshmeatfivedaysaweek。 Itistherarestthingforanyofustotouchatin;andthegnashingofteethwhenithastobedoneisdreadful-fornoonewhohasnotlivedonthemforsixmonthsknowswhattheHatredoftheTinis。Asforexposure,myweaknessiscertainlythereverse;Iamsometimesamonthwithoutleavingtheverandah-formysins,beitsaid!Doubtless,whenIgoaboutand,astheDoctorsays,’exposemyselftomalaria,’I aminfarbetterhealth;andIwoulddosomoretoo-forI donotmeantobesilly-butthedifficultiesaregreat。 However,youseehowmuchthedearDoctorknowsofmydietandhabits!Malariapracticallydoesnotexistintheseislands;itisanegligeablequantity。Whatreallybothersusalittleisthemosquitoaffair-theso-calledelephantiasis-askRossaboutit。Arealromanceofnaturalhistory,QUOI! Hi!stop!yousayTHEEBBTIDEisthe’workingoutofanartisticproblemofakind。’Well,Ishouldjustbetitwas! Youdon’tlikeAttwater。Butlookatmythreerogues; they’reallthere,I’llgobail。Threetypesofthebadman,theweakman,andthestrongmanwithaweakness,thataregonethroughandlivedout。 Yes,ofcourseIwassorryforMataafa,butagooddealsorrierandangrieraboutthemismanagementofallthewhiteofficials。Icannotbeartowriteaboutthat。Manonoalldestroyed,onehousestandinginApolima,thewomenstripped,theprisonersbeatenwithwhips-andthewomen’sheadstaken-allunderwhiteauspices。Andforupshotandresultofsomuchshametothewhitepowers-Tamasesealreadyconspiring! asIknewandpreachedinvainmustbethecase!Well,well,itisnofuntomeddleinpolitics! Isupposeyou’rerightaboutSimon。ButitisSymonthroughoutinthatblessedlittlevolumemyfatherboughtformeinInvernessintheyearofgrace’81,Ibelieve-thetrialofJamesStewart,withtheJacobitepamphletandthedyingspeechappended-outofwhichthewholeofDaviehasalreadybeenbegotten,andwhichIfeltitakindofloyaltytofollow。Ireallyoughttohaveitboundinvelvetandgold,ifIhadanygratitude!andthebestofthelarkis,thatthenameofDavidBalfourisnotanywherewithintheboundsofit。 Aprettycuriousinstanceofthegenesisofabook。IamdelightedatyourgoodwordforDAVID;Ibelievethetwotogethermakeupmuchthebestofmyworkandperhapsofwhatisinme。Iamnotashamedofthem,atleast。Thereisonehitch;insteadofthreehoursbetweenthetwoparts,IfeartherehavepassedthreeyearsoverDavie’scharacter;butdonottellanybody;seeiftheycanfinditoutforthemselves; andnodoubthisexperiencesinKIDNAPPEDwouldgofartoformhim。IwouldlikeacopytogotoG。Meredith。