第2章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4427更新时间:18/12/27 09:08:44
EllaMarchmill,sittingdownaloneafewminuteslater,thoughtwithinterestedsurpriseofRobertTrewe。Herownlatterhistorywillbestexplainthatinterest。Herselftheonlydaughterofastrugglingmanofletters,shehadduringthelastyearortwotakentowritingpoems,inanendeavourtofindacongenialchannelinwhichtoletflowherpainfullyembayedemotions,whoseformerlimpidityandsparkleseemeddepartinginthestagnationcausedbytheroutineofapracticalhouseholdandthegloomofbearingchildrentoacommonplacefather。Thesepoems,subscribedwithamasculinepseudonym,hadappearedinvariousobscuremagazines,andintwocasesinratherprominentones。Inthesecondofthelatterthepagewhichborehereffusionatthebottom,insmallishprint,boreatthetop,inlargeprint,afewversesonthesamesubjectbythisveryman,RobertTrewe。Bothofthemhad,infact,beenstruckbyatragicincidentreportedinthedailypapers,andhaduseditsimultaneouslyasaninspiration,theeditorremarkinginanoteuponthecoincidence,andthattheexcellenceofbothpoemspromptedhimtogivethemtogether。 AfterthateventElla,otherwise’JohnIvy,’hadwatchedwithmuchattentiontheappearanceanywhereinprintofversebearingthesignatureofRobertTrewe,who,withaman’sunsusceptibilityonthequestionofsex,hadneveroncethoughtofpassinghimselfoffasawoman。Tobesure,Mrs。Marchmillhadsatisfiedherselfwithasortofreasonfordoingthecontraryinhercase;thatnobodymightbelieveinherinspirationiftheyfoundthatthesentimentscamefromapushingtradesman’swife,fromthemotherofthreechildrenbyamatter-of-factsmall-armsmanufacturer。 Trewe’sversecontrastedwiththatoftherankandfileofrecentminorpoetsinbeingimpassionedratherthaningenious,luxuriantratherthanfinished。Neithersymbolistenordecadent,hewasapessimistinsofarasthatcharacterappliestoamanwholooksattheworstcontingenciesaswellasthebestinthehumancondition。 Beinglittleattractedbyexcellencesofformandrhythmapartfromcontent,hesometimes,whenfeelingoutranhisartisticspeed,perpetratedsonnetsinthelooselyrhymedElizabethanfashion,whicheveryright-mindedreviewersaidheoughtnottohavedone。 Withsadandhopelessenvy,EllaMarchmillhadoftenandoftenscannedtherivalpoet’swork,somuchstrongerasitalwayswasthanherownfeeblelines。Shehadimitatedhim,andherinabilitytotouchhislevelwouldsendherintofitsofdespondency。Monthspassedawaythus,tillsheobservedfromthepublishers’listthatTrewehadcollectedhisfugitivepiecesintoavolume,whichwasdulyissued,andwasmuchorlittlepraisedaccordingtochance,andhadasalequitesufficienttopayfortheprinting。 ThissteponwardhadsuggestedtoJohnIvytheideaofcollectingherpiecesalso,oratanyrateofmakingupabookofherrhymesbyaddingmanyinmanuscripttothefewthathadseenthelight,forshehadbeenabletogetnogreatnumberintoprint。Aruinouschargewasmadeforcostsofpublication;afewreviewsnoticedherpoorlittlevolume;butnobodytalkedofit,nobodyboughtit,anditfelldeadinafortnight——ifithadeverbeenalive。 Theauthor’sthoughtsweredivertedtoanothergroovejustthenbythediscoverythatshewasgoingtohaveathirdchild,andthecollapseofherpoeticalventurehadperhapslesseffectuponhermindthanitmighthavedoneifshehadbeendomesticallyunoccupied。Herhusbandhadpaidthepublisher’sbillwiththedoctor’s,andthereitallhadendedforthetime。But,thoughlessthanapoetofhercentury,Ellawasmorethanameremultiplierofherkind,andlatterlyshehadbeguntofeeltheoldafflatusoncemore。AndnowbyanoddconjunctionshefoundherselfintheroomsofRobertTrewe。 Shethoughtfullyrosefromherchairandsearchedtheapartmentwiththeinterestofafellow-tradesman。Yes,thevolumeofhisownversewasamongtherest。Thoughquitefamiliarwithitscontents,shereadithereasifitspokealoudtoher,thencalledupMrs。 Hooper,thelandlady,forsometrivialservice,andinquiredagainabouttheyoungman。 ’Well,I’msureyou’dbeinterestedinhim,ma’am,ifyoucouldseehim,onlyhe’ssoshythatIdon’tsupposeyouwill。’Mrs。Hooperseemednothinglothtoministertohertenant’scuriosityaboutherpredecessor。’Livedherelong?Yes,nearlytwoyears。Hekeepsonhisroomsevenwhenhe’snothere:thesoftairofthisplacesuitshischest,andhelikestobeabletocomebackatanytime。Heismostlywritingorreading,anddoesn’tseemanypeople,though,forthematterofthat,heissuchagood,kindyoungfellowthatfolkswouldonlybetoogladtobefriendlywithhimiftheyknewhim。 Youdon’tmeetkind-heartedpeopleeveryday。’ ’Ah,he’skind-hearted……andgood。’ ’Yes;he’llobligemeinanythingifIaskhim。“Mr。Trewe,“Isaytohimsometimes,“youareratheroutofspirits。““Well,Iam,Mrs。Hooper,“he’llsay,“thoughIdon’tknowhowyoushouldfinditout。““Whynottakealittlechange?“Iask。Theninadayortwohe’llsaythathewilltakeatriptoParis,orNorway,orsomewhere;andIassureyouhecomesbackallthebetterforit。’ ’Ah,indeed!Hisisasensitivenature,nodoubt。’ ’Yes。Stillhe’soddinsomethings。Oncewhenhehadfinishedapoemofhiscompositionlateatnighthewalkedupanddowntheroomrehearsingit;andthefloorsbeingsothin——jerry-builthouses,youknow,thoughIsayitmyself——hekeptmeawakeupabovehimtillI wishedhimfurther……Butwegetonverywell。’ Thiswasbutthebeginningofaseriesofconversationsabouttherisingpoetasthedayswenton。OnoneoftheseoccasionsMrs。 HooperdrewElla’sattentiontowhatshehadnotnoticedbefore: minutescribblingsinpencilonthewall-paperbehindthecurtainsattheheadofthebed。 ’O!letmelook,’saidMrs。Marchmill,unabletoconcealarushoftendercuriosityasshebentherprettyfaceclosetothewall。 ’These,’saidMrs。Hooper,withthemannerofawomanwhoknewthings,’aretheverybeginningsandfirstthoughtsofhisverses。 Hehastriedtorubmostofthemout,butyoucanreadthemstill。 Mybeliefisthathewakesupinthenight,youknow,withsomerhymeinhishead,andjotsitdownthereonthewalllestheshouldforgetitbythemorning。SomeoftheseverylinesyouseehereI haveseenafterwardsinprintinthemagazines。Somearenewer; indeed,Ihavenotseenthatonebefore。Itmusthavebeendoneonlyafewdaysago。’ ’Oyes!……’ EllaMarchmillflushedwithoutknowingwhy,andsuddenlywishedhercompanionwouldgoaway,nowthattheinformationwasimparted。Anindescribableconsciousnessofpersonalinterestratherthanliterarymadeheranxioustoreadtheinscriptionalone;andsheaccordinglywaitedtillshecoulddoso,withasensethatagreatstoreofemotionwouldbeenjoyedintheact。 PerhapsbecausetheseawaschoppyoutsidetheIsland,Ella’shusbandfounditmuchpleasantertogosailingandsteamingaboutwithouthiswife,whowasabadsailor,thanwithher。Hedidnotdisdaintogothusaloneonboardthesteamboatsofthecheap- trippers,wheretherewasdancingbymoonlight,andwherethecoupleswouldcomesuddenlydownwithalurchintoeachother’sarms;for,asheblandlytoldher,thecompanywastoomixedforhimtotakeheramidsuchscenes。Thus,whilethisthrivingmanufacturergotagreatdealofchangeandsea-airoutofhissojournhere,thelife,externalatleast,ofEllawasmonotonousenough,andmainlyconsistedinpassingacertainnumberofhourseachdayinbathingandwalkingupanddownastretchofshore。Butthepoeticimpulsehavingagainwaxedstrong,shewaspossessedbyaninnerflamewhichleftherhardlyconsciousofwhatwasproceedingaroundher。 ShehadreadtillsheknewbyheartTrewe’slastlittlevolumeofverses,andspentagreatdealoftimeinvainlyattemptingtorivalsomeofthem,till,inherfailure,sheburstintotears。Thepersonalelementinthemagneticattractionexercisedbythiscircumambient,unapproachablemasterofherswassomuchstrongerthantheintellectualandabstractthatshecouldnotunderstandit。 Tobesure,shewassurroundednoonandnightbyhiscustomaryenvironment,whichliterallywhisperedofhimtoherateverymoment;buthewasamanshehadneverseen,andthatallthatmovedherwastheinstincttospecializeawaitingemotiononthefirstfitthingthatcametohanddidnot,ofcourse,suggestitselftoElla。 Inthenaturalwayofpassionunderthetoopracticalconditionswhichcivilizationhasdevisedforitsfruition,herhusband’sloveforherhadnotsurvived,exceptintheformoffitfulfriendship,anymorethan,orevensomuchas,herownforhim;and,beingawomanofverylivingardours,thatrequiredsustenanceofsomesort,theywerebeginningtofeedonthischancingmaterial,whichwas,indeed,ofaqualityfarbetterthanchanceusuallyoffers。 Onedaythechildrenhadbeenplayinghide-and-seekinacloset,whence,intheirexcitement,theypulledoutsomeclothing。Mrs。 HooperexplainedthatitbelongedtoMr。Trewe,andhungitupintheclosetagain。Possessedofherfantasy,Ellawentlaterintheafternoon,whennobodywasinthatpartofthehouse,openedthecloset,unhitchedoneofthearticles,amackintosh,andputiton,withthewaterproofcapbelongingtoit。 ’ThemantleofElijah!’shesaid。’Woulditmightinspiremetorivalhim,gloriousgeniusthatheis!’ Hereyesalwaysgrewwetwhenshethoughtlikethat,andsheturnedtolookatherselfintheglass。HIShearthadbeatinsidethatcoat,andHISbrainhadworkedunderthathatatlevelsofthoughtshewouldneverreach。Theconsciousnessofherweaknessbesidehimmadeherfeelquitesick。Beforeshehadgotthethingsoffherthedooropened,andherhusbandenteredtheroom。 ’Whatthedevil——’ Sheblushed,andremovedthem’Ifoundthemintheclosethere,’shesaid,’andputthemoninafreak。WhathaveIelsetodo?Youarealwaysaway!’ ’Alwaysaway?Well……’ Thateveningshehadafurthertalkwiththelandlady,whomightherselfhavenourishedahalf-tenderregardforthepoet,soreadywasshetodiscourseardentlyabouthim。