第3章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4006更新时间:18/12/27 09:08:44
’YouareinterestedinMr。Trewe,Iknow,ma’am,’shesaid;’andhehasjustsenttosaythatheisgoingtocallto-morrowafternoontolookupsomebooksofhisthathewants,ifI’llbein,andhemayselectthemfromyourroom?’ ’Oyes!’ ’YoucouldverywellmeetMrTrewethen,ifyou’dliketobeintheway!’ Shepromisedwithsecretdelight,andwenttobedmusingofhim。 Nextmorningherhusbandobserved:’I’vebeenthinkingofwhatyousaid,Ell:thatIhavegoneaboutagooddealandleftyouwithoutmuchtoamuseyou。Perhapsit’strue。To-day,asthere’snotmuchsea,I’lltakeyouwithmeonboardtheyacht。’ ForthefirsttimeinherexperienceofsuchanofferEllawasnotglad。Butsheaccepteditforthemoment。Thetimeforsettingoutdrewnear,andshewenttogetready。Shestoodreflecting。Thelongingtoseethepoetshewasnowdistinctlyinlovewithoverpoweredallotherconsiderations。 ’Idon’twanttogo,’shesaidtoherself。’Ican’tbeartobeaway!AndIwon’tgo。’ Shetoldherhusbandthatshehadchangedhermindaboutwishingtosail。Hewasindifferent,andwenthisway。 Fortherestofthedaythehousewasquiet,thechildrenhavinggoneoutuponthesands。Theblindswavedinthesunshinetothesoft,steadystrokeoftheseabeyondthewall;andthenotesoftheGreenSilesianband,atroopofforeigngentlemenhiredfortheseason,haddrawnalmostalltheresidentsandpromenadersawayfromthevicinityofCoburgHouse。Aknockwasaudibleatthedoor。 Mrs。Marchmilldidnothearanyservantgotoanswerit,andshebecameimpatient。Thebookswereintheroomwhereshesat;butnobodycameup。Sherangthebell。 ’Thereissomepersonwaitingatthedoor,’shesaid。 ’Ono,ma’am!He’sgonelongago。Iansweredit。’ Mrs。Hoopercameinherself。 ’Sodisappointing!’shesaid。’Mr。Trewenotcomingafterall!’ ’ButIheardhimknock,Ifancy!’ ’No;thatwassomebodyinquiringforlodgingswhocametothewronghouse。IforgottotellyouthatMr。TrewesentanotejustbeforelunchtosayIneedn’tgetanyteaforhim,asheshouldnotrequirethebooks,andwouldn’tcometoselectthem。’ Ellawasmiserable,andforalongtimecouldnotevenre-readhismournfulballadon’SeveredLives,’soachingwashererraticlittleheart,andsotearfulhereyes。Whenthechildrencameinwithwetstockings,andranuptohertotellheroftheiradventures,shecouldnotfeelthatshecaredaboutthemhalfasmuchasusual。 *** ’Mrs。Hooper,haveyouaphotographof——thegentlemanwholivedhere?’Shewasgettingtobecuriouslyshyinmentioninghisname。 ’Why,yes。It’sintheornamentalframeonthemantelpieceinyourownbedroom,ma’am。’ ’No;theRoyalDukeandDuchessareinthat。’ ’Yes,sotheyare;buthe’sbehindthem。Hebelongsrightlytothatframe,whichIboughtonpurpose;butashewentawayhesaid: “Covermeupfromthosestrangersthatarecoming,forGod’ssake。 Idon’twantthemstaringatme,andIamsuretheywon’twantmestaringatthem。“SoIslippedintheDukeandDuchesstemporarilyinfrontofhim,astheyhadnoframe,andRoyaltiesaremoresuitableforlettingfurnishedthanaprivateyoungman。Ifyoutake’emoutyou’llseehimunder。Lord,ma’am,hewouldn’tmindifheknewit!Hedidn’tthinkthenexttenantwouldbesuchanattractiveladyasyou,orhewouldn’thavethoughtofhidinghimself;perhaps。’ ’Ishehandsome?’sheaskedtimidly。 ’_I_callhimso。Some,perhaps,wouldn’t。’ ’ShouldI?’sheasked,witheagerness。 ’Ithinkyouwould,thoughsomewouldsayhe’smorestrikingthanhandsome;alarge-eyedthoughtfulfellow,youknow,withaveryelectricflashinhiseyewhenhelooksroundquickly,suchasyou’dexpectapoettobewhodoesn’tgethislivingbyit。’ ’Howoldishe?’ ’Severalyearsolderthanyourself,ma’am;aboutthirty-oneortwo,Ithink。’ Ellawas,asamatteroffact,afewmonthsoverthirtyherself;butshedidnotlooknearlysomuch。Thoughsoimmatureinnature,shewasenteringonthattractoflifeinwhichemotionalwomenbegintosuspectthatlastlovemaybestrongerthanfirstlove;andshewouldsoon,alas,enteronthestillmoremelancholytractwhenatleastthevaineronesofhersexshrinkfromreceivingamalevisitorotherwisethanwiththeirbackstothewindowortheblindshalfdown。ShereflectedonMrs。Hooper’sremark,andsaidnomoreaboutage。 Justthenatelegramwasbroughtup。Itcamefromherhusband,whohadgonedowntheChannelasfarasBudmouthwithhisfriendsintheyacht,andwouldnotbeabletogetbacktillnextday。 AfterherlightdinnerEllaidledabouttheshorewiththechildrentilldusk,thinkingoftheyetuncoveredphotographinherroom,withaserenesenseofsomethingecstatictocome。For,withthesubtleluxuriousnessoffancyinwhichthisyoungwomanwasanadept,onlearningthatherhusbandwastobeabsentthatnightshehadrefrainedfromincontinentlyrushingupstairsandopeningthepicture-frame,preferringtoreservetheinspectiontillshecouldbealone,andamoreromantictingebeimpartedtotheoccasionbysilence,candles,solemnseaandstarsoutside,thanwasaffordedbythegarishafternoonsunlight。 Thechildrenhadbeensenttobed,andEllasoonfollowed,thoughitwasnotyetteno’clock。Togratifyherpassionatecuriosityshenowmadeherpreparations,firstgettingridofsuperfluousgarmentsandputtingonherdressing-gown,thenarrangingachairinfrontofthetableandreadingseveralpagesofTrewe’stenderestutterances。 Thenshefetchedtheportrait-frametothelight,openedtheback,tookoutthelikeness,andsetitupbeforeher。 Itwasastrikingcountenancetolookupon。Thepoetworealuxuriantblackmoustacheandimperial,andaslouchedhatwhichshadedtheforehead。Thelargedarkeyes,describedbythelandlady,showedanunlimitedcapacityformisery;theylookedoutfrombeneathwell-shapedbrowsasiftheywerereadingtheuniverseinthemicrocosmoftheconfronter’sface,andwerenotaltogetheroverjoyedatwhatthespectacleportended。 Ellamurmuredinherlowest,richest,tenderesttone:’Andit’sYOU who’vesocruellyeclipsedmethesemanytimes!’ Asshegazedlongattheportraitshefellintothought,tillhereyesfilledwithtears,andshetouchedthecardboardwithherlips。 Thenshelaughedwithanervouslightness,andwipedhereyes。 Shethoughthowwickedshewas,awomanhavingahusbandandthreechildren,tolethermindstraytoastrangerinthisunconscionablemanner。No,hewasnotastranger!Sheknewhisthoughtsandfeelingsaswellassheknewherown;theywere,infact,theself- samethoughtsandfeelingsashers,whichherhusbanddistinctlylacked;perhapsluckilyforhimself;consideringthathehadtoprovideforfamilyexpenses。 ’He’snearermyrealself,he’smoreintimatewiththerealmethanWillis,afterall,eventhoughI’veneverseenhim,’shesaid。 Shelaidhisbookandpictureonthetableatthebedside,andwhenshewasrecliningonthepillowshere-readthoseofRobertTrewe’sverseswhichshehadmarkedfromtimetotimeasmosttouchingandtrue。Puttingtheseaside,shesetupthephotographonitsedgeuponthecoverlet,andcontemplateditasshelay。Thenshescannedagainbythelightofthecandlethehalf-obliteratedpencillingsonthewall-paperbesideherhead。Theretheywere——phrases,couplets,bouts-rimes,beginningsandmiddlesoflines,ideasintherough,likeShelley’sscraps,andtheleastofthemsointense,sosweet,sopalpitating,thatitseemedasifhisverybreath,warmandloving,fannedhercheeksfromthosewalls,wallsthathadsurroundedhisheadtimesandtimesastheysurroundedherownnow。 Hemustoftenhaveputuphishandso——withthepencilinit。Yes,thewritingwassideways,asitwouldbeifexecutedbyonewhoextendedhisarmthus。 Theseinscribedshapesofthepoet’sworld,’Formsmorerealthanlivingman,Nurslingsofimmortality,’ were,nodoubt,thethoughtsandspirit-strivingswhichhadcometohiminthedeadofnight,whenhecouldlethimselfgoandhavenofearofthefrostofcriticism。Nodoubttheyhadoftenbeenwrittenuphastilybythelightofthemoon,theraysofthelamp,intheblue-greydawn,infulldaylightperhapsnever。Andnowherhairwasdraggingwherehisarmhadlainwhenhesecuredthefugitivefancies;shewassleepingonapoet’slips,immersedintheveryessenceofhim,permeatedbyhisspiritasbyanether。 Whileshewasdreamingtheminutesawaythus,afootstepcameuponthestairs,andinamomentsheheardherhusband’sheavysteponthelandingimmediatelywithout。 ’Ell,whereareyou?’ Whatpossessedhershecouldnothavedescribed,but,withaninstinctiveobjectiontoletherhusbandknowwhatshehadbeendoing,sheslippedthephotographunderthepillowjustasheflungopenthedoor,withtheairofamanwhohaddinednotbadly。 ’O,Ibegpardon,’saidWilliamMarchmill。’Haveyouaheadache?I amafraidIhavedisturbedyou。’ ’No,I’venotgotaheadache,’saidshe。’Howisityou’vecome?’ ’Well,wefoundwecouldgetbackinverygoodtimeafterall,andI didn’twanttomakeanotherdayofit,becauseofgoingsomewhereelseto-morrow。’ ’ShallIcomedownagain?’