第4章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4031更新时间:18/12/27 09:08:44
’Ono。I’mastiredasadog。I’vehadagoodfeed,andIshallturninstraightoff。Iwanttogetoutatsixo’clockto-morrowifIcan……Ishan’tdisturbyoubymygettingup;itwillbelongbeforeyouareawake。’Andhecameforwardintotheroom。 Whilehereyesfollowedhismovements,Ellasoftlypushedthephotographfurtheroutofsight。 ’Sureyou’renotill?’heasked,bendingoverher。 ’No,onlywicked!’ ’Nevermindthat。’Andhestoopedandkissedher。 NextmorningMarchmillwascalledatsixo’clock;andinwakingandyawningsheheardhimmutteringtohimself:’Whatthedeuceisthisthat’sbeencracklingundermeso?’Imaginingherasleephesearchedroundhimandwithdrewsomething。Throughherhalf-openedeyessheperceivedittobeMr。Trewe。 ’Well,I’mdamned!’herhusbandexclaimed。 ’What,dear?’saidshe。 ’O,youareawake?Ha!ha!’ ’WhatDOyoumean?’ ’Somebloke’sphotograph——afriendofourlandlady’s,Isuppose。I wonderhowitcamehere;whiskedoffthetablebyaccidentperhapswhentheyweremakingthebed。’ ’Iwaslookingatityesterday,anditmusthavedroppedinthen。’ ’O,he’safriendofyours?Blesshispicturesqueheart!’ Ella’sloyaltytotheobjectofheradmirationcouldnotenduretohearhimridiculed。’He’sacleverman!’shesaid,withatremorinhergentlevoicewhichsheherselffelttobeabsurdlyuncalledfor。 ’Heisarisingpoet——thegentlemanwhooccupiedtwooftheseroomsbeforewecame,thoughI’veneverseenhim。’ ’Howdoyouknow,ifyou’veneverseenhim?’ ’Mrs。Hoopertoldmewhensheshowedmethephotograph。’ ’O;well,Imustupandbeoff。Ishallbehomeratherearly。 SorryIcan’ttakeyouto-day,dear。Mindthechildrendon’tgogettingdrowned。’ ThatdayMrs。MarchmillinquiredifMr。Trewewerelikelytocallatanyothertime。 ’Yes,’saidMrs。Hooper。’He’scomingthisdayweektostaywithafriendnearheretillyouleave。He’llbesuretocall。’ Marchmilldidreturnquiteearlyintheafternoon;and,openingsomeletterswhichhadarrivedinhisabsence,declaredsuddenlythatheandhisfamilywouldhavetoleaveaweekearlierthantheyhadexpectedtodo——inshort,inthreedays。 ’Surelywecanstayaweeklonger?’shepleaded。’Ilikeithere。’ ’Idon’t。Itisgettingratherslow。’ ’Thenyoumightleavemeandthechildren!’ ’Howperverseyouare,Ell!What’stheuse?Andhavetocometofetchyou!No:we’llallreturntogether;andwe’llmakeoutourtimeinNorthWalesorBrightonalittlelateron。Besides,you’vethreedayslongeryet。’ Itseemedtobeherdoomnottomeetthemanforwhoserivaltalentshehadadespairingadmiration,andtowhosepersonshewasnowabsolutelyattached。Yetshedeterminedtomakealasteffort;andhavinggatheredfromherlandladythatTrewewaslivinginalonelyspotnotfarfromthefashionabletownontheIslandopposite,shecrossedoverinthepacketfromtheneighbouringpierthefollowingafternoon。 Whatauselessjourneyitwas!Ellaknewbutvaguelywherethehousestood,andwhenshefanciedshehadfoundit,andventuredtoinquireofapedestrianifhelivedthere,theanswerreturnedbythemanwasthathedidnotknow。Andifhedidlivethere,howcouldshecalluponhim?Somewomenmighthavetheassurancetodoit,butshehadnot。Howcrazyhewouldthinkher。Shemighthaveaskedhimtocalluponher,perhaps;butshehadnotthecourageforthat,either。Shelingeredmournfullyaboutthepicturesqueseasideeminencetillitwastimetoreturntothetownandenterthesteamerforrecrossing,reachinghomefordinnerwithouthavingbeengreatlymissed。 Atthelastmoment,unexpectedlyenough,herhusbandsaidthatheshouldhavenoobjectiontolettingherandthechildrenstayontilltheendoftheweek,sinceshewishedtodoso,ifshefeltherselfabletogethomewithouthim。Sheconcealedthepleasurethisextensionoftimegaveher;andMarchmillwentoffthenextmorningalone。 Buttheweekpassed,andTrewedidnotcall。 OnSaturdaymorningtheremainingmembersoftheMarchmillfamilydepartedfromtheplacewhichhadbeenproductiveofsomuchfervourinher。Thedreary,drearytrain;thesunshininginmotedbeamsuponthehotcushions;thedustypermanentway;themeanrowsofwire——thesethingswereheraccompaniment:whileoutofthewindowthedeepbluesea-levelsdisappearedfromhergaze,andwiththemherpoet’shome。Heavy-hearted,shetriedtoread,andweptinstead。 Mr。Marchmillwasinathrivingwayofbusiness,andheandhisfamilylivedinalargenewhouse,whichstoodinratherextensivegroundsafewmilesoutsidethecitywhereinhecarriedonhistrade。Ella’slifewaslonelyhere,asthesuburbanlifeisapttobe,particularlyatcertainseasons;andshehadampletimetoindulgehertasteforlyricandelegiaccomposition。ShehadhardlygotbackwhensheencounteredapiecebyRobertTreweinthenewnumberofherfavouritemagazine,whichmusthavebeenwrittenalmostimmediatelybeforehervisittoSolentsea,foritcontainedtheverycoupletshehadseenpencilledonthewallpaperbythebed,andMrs。Hooperhaddeclaredtoberecent。Ellacouldresistnolonger,butseizingapenimpulsively,wrotetohimasabrother- poet,usingthenameofJohnIvy,congratulatinghiminherletteronhistriumphantexecutionsinmetreandrhythmofthoughtsthatmovedhissoul,ascomparedwithherownbrow-beateneffortsinthesamepathetictrade。 Tothisaddresstherecamearesponseinafewdays,littleasshehaddaredtohopeforit——acivilandbriefnote,inwhichtheyoungpoetstatedthat,thoughhewasnotwellacquaintedwithMr。Ivy’sverse,herecalledthenameasbeingonehehadseenattachedtosomeverypromisingpieces;thathewasgladtogainMr。Ivy’sacquaintancebyletter,andshouldcertainlylookwithmuchinterestforhisproductionsinthefuture。 Theremusthavebeensomethingjuvenileortimidinherownepistle,asoneostensiblycomingfromaman,shedeclaredtoherself;forTrewequiteadoptedthetoneofanelderandsuperiorinthisreply。 Butwhatdiditmatter?hehadreplied;hehadwrittentoherwithhisownhandfromthatveryroomsheknewsowell,forhewasnowbackagaininhisquarters。 Thecorrespondencethusbegunwascontinuedfortwomonthsormore,EllaMarchmillsendinghimfromtimetotimesomethatsheconsideredtobethebestofherpieces,whichheverykindlyaccepted,thoughhedidnotsayhesedulouslyreadthem,nordidhesendheranyofhisowninreturn。EllawouldhavebeenmorehurtatthisthanshewasifshehadnotknownthatTrewelabouredundertheimpressionthatshewasoneofhisownsex。 Yetthesituationwasunsatisfactory。Aflatteringlittlevoicetoldherthat,wereheonlytoseeher,matterswouldbeotherwise。 Nodoubtshewouldhavehelpedonthisbymakingafrankconfessionofwomanhood,tobeginwith,ifsomethinghadnothappened,toherdelight,torenderitunnecessary。Afriendofherhusband’s,theeditorofthemostimportantnewspaperinthecityandcounty,whowasdiningwiththemoneday,observedduringtheirconversationaboutthepoetthathis(theeditor’s)brotherthelandscape-painterwasafriendofMr。Trewe’s,andthatthetwomenwereatthatverymomentinWalestogether。 Ellawasslightlyacquaintedwiththeeditor’sbrother。Thenextmorningdownshesatandwrote,invitinghimtostayatherhouseforashorttimeonhiswayback,andrequestinghimtobringwithhim,ifpracticable,hiscompanionMr。Trewe,whoseacquaintanceshewasanxioustomake。Theanswerarrivedaftersomefewdays。HercorrespondentandhisfriendTrewewouldhavemuchsatisfactioninacceptingherinvitationontheirwaysouthward,whichwouldbeonsuchandsuchadayinthefollowingweek。 Ellawasblitheandbuoyant。Herschemehadsucceeded;herbelovedthoughasyetunseenonewascoming。“Behold,hestandethbehindourwall;helookedforthatthewindows,showinghimselfthroughthelattice,“shethoughtecstatically。“And,lo,thewinterispast,therainisoverandgone,theflowersappearontheearth,thetimeofthesingingofbirdsiscome,andthevoiceoftheturtleisheardinourland。“ Butitwasnecessarytoconsiderthedetailsoflodgingandfeedinghim。Thisshedidmostsolicitously,andawaitedthepregnantdayandhour。 Itwasaboutfiveintheafternoonwhensheheardaringatthedoorandtheeditor’sbrother’svoiceinthehall。Poetessasshewas,orasshethoughtherself,shehadnotbeentoosublimethatdaytodresswithinfinitetroubleinafashionablerobeofrichmaterial,havingafaintresemblancetothechitonoftheGreeks,astylejusttheninvogueamongladiesofanartisticandromanticturn,whichhadbeenobtainedbyEllaofherBondStreetdressmakerwhenshewaslastinLondon。Hervisitorenteredthedrawing-room。Shelookedtowardshisrear;nobodyelsecamethroughthedoor。Where,inthenameoftheGodofLove,wasRobertTrewe? ’O,I’msorry,’saidthepainter,aftertheirintroductorywordshadbeenspoken。’Treweisacuriousfellow,youknow,Mrs。Marchmill。 Hesaidhe’dcome;thenhesaidhecouldn’t。He’sratherdusty。 We’vebeendoingafewmileswithknapsacks,youknow;andhewantedtogetonhome。’ ’He——he’snotcoming?’ ’He’snot;andheaskedmetomakehisapologies。’