第18章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4334更新时间:18/12/27 09:08:44
TheheartofBarnetwassufficientlyimpressionabletobeinfluencedbyDowne’spartingprophecythathemightnotbesounwelcomehomeasheimagined:thedrearynightmight,atleastonthisoneoccasion,makeDowne’sforecasttrue。Henceitwasinasuspensethathecouldhardlyhavebelievedpossiblethathehaltedathisdoor。Onenteringhiswifewasnowheretobeseen,andheinquiredforher。Theservantinformedhimthathermistresshadthedressmakerwithher,andwouldbeengagedforsometime。 ’Dressmakeratthistimeofday!’ ’Shedinedearly,sir,andhopesyouwillexcuseherjoiningyouthisevening。’ ’ButsheknewIwascomingto-night?’ ’Oyes,sir。’ ’GoupandtellherIamcome。’ Theservantdidso;butthemistressofthehousemerelytransmittedherformerwords。 Barnetsaidnothingmore,andpresentlysatdowntohislonelymeal,whichwaseatenabstractedly,thedomesticscenehehadlatelywitnessedstillimpressinghimbyitscontrastwiththesituationhere。Hismindfellbackintopastyearsuponacertainpleasingandgentlebeingwhosefacewouldloomoutoftheirshadesatsuchtimesasthese。Barnetturnedinhischair,andlookedwithunfocusedeyesinadirectionsouthwardfromwherehesat,asifhesawnottheroombutalongwaybeyond。’Iwonderifshelivestherestill!’hesaid。 Herosewithasuddenrebelliousness,putonhishatandcoat,andwentoutofthehouse,pursuinghiswayalongtheglisteningpavementwhileeighto’clockwasstrikingfromSt。Mary’stower,andtheapprenticesandshopmenwereslamminguptheshuttersfromendtoendofthetown。Intwominutesonlythoseshopswhichcouldboastofnoattendantsavethemasterorthemistressremainedwithopeneyes。Thesewereeversomewhatlessprompttoexcludecustomersthantheothers:fortheirowners’earstheclosinghourhadscarcelythecheerfulnessthatitpossessedforthehiredservantsoftherest。Yetthenightbeingdrearythedelaywasnotforlong,andtheirwindows,too,blinkedtogetheronebyone。 DuringthistimeBarnethadproceededwithdecidedstepinadirectionatrightanglestothebroadmainthoroughfareofthetown,byalongstreetleadingduesouthward。Here,thoughhisfamilyhadnomoretodowiththeflaxmanufacture,hisownnameoccasionallygreetedhimongatesandwarehouses,beingusedallusivelybysmallrisingtradesmenasarecommendation,insuchwordsas’Smith,fromBarnet&Co。’——’Robinson,latemanageratBarnet’s。’Thesightledhimtoreflectuponhisfather’sbusylife,andhequestionedifithadnotbeenfarhappierthanhisown。 Thehousesalongtheroadbecamefewer,andpresentlyopengroundappearedbetweenthemoneitherside,thetrackontherighthandrisingtoahigherleveltillitmergedinaknoll。Onthesummitarowofbuilders’scaffold-polesprobedtheindistinctskylikespears,andattheirbasescouldbediscernedthelowercoursesofabuildinglatelybegun。Barnetslackenedhispaceandstoodforafewmomentswithoutleavingthecentreoftheroad,apparentlynotmuchinterestedinthesight,tillsuddenlyhiseyewascaughtbyapostintheforepartofthegroundbearingawhiteboardatthetop。Hewenttotherails,vaultedover,andwalkedinfarenoughtodiscernpaintedupontheboard’ChateauRingdale。’ Adismalironyseemedtolieinthewords,anditseffectwastoirritatehim。Downe,then,hadspokentruly。Hestuckhisumbrellaintothesod,andseizedthepostwithbothhands,asifintendingtoloosenandthrowitdown。Then,likeonebewilderedbyanoppositionwhichwouldexistnonethelessthoughitsmanifestationswereremoved,heallowedhisarmstosinktohisside。 ’Letitbe,’hesaidtohimself。’Ihavedeclaredthereshallbepeace——ifpossible。’ Takinguphisumbrellahequietlylefttheenclosure,andwentonhisway,stillkeepinghisbacktothetown。Hehadadvancedwithmoredecisionsincepassingthenewbuilding,andsoonahoarsemurmurroseuponthegloom;itwasthesoundofthesea。Theroadledtotheharbour,atadistanceofamilefromthetown,fromwhichthetradeofthedistrictwasfed。Afterseeingtheobnoxiousname-boardBarnethadforgottentoopenhisumbrella,andtheraintappedsmartlyonhishat,andoccasionallystrokedhisfaceashewenton。 Thoughthelampswerestillcontinuedattheroadside,theystoodatwiderintervalsthanbefore,andthepavementhadgivenplacetocommonroad。Everytimehecametoalampanincreasingshinemadeitselfvisibleuponhisshoulders,tillatlasttheyquiteglistenedwithwet。Themurmurfromtheshoregrewstronger,butitwasstillsomedistanceoffwhenhepausedbeforeoneofthesmallestofthedetachedhousesbythewayside,standinginitsowngarden,thelatterbeingdividedfromtheroadbyarowofwoodenpalings。 Scrutinizingthespottoensurethathewasnotmistaken,heopenedthegateandgentlyknockedatthecottagedoor。 Whenhehadpatientlywaitedminutesenoughtoleadanymaninordinarycasestoknockagain,thedoorwasheardtoopen,thoughitwasimpossibletoseebywhosehand,therebeingnolightinthepassage。Barnetsaidatrandom,’DoesMissSavilelivehere?’ Ayouthfulvoiceassuredhimthatshedidlivethere,andbyasuddenafterthoughtaskedhimtocomein。Itwouldsoongetalight,itsaid:butthenightbeingwet,motherhadnotthoughtitworthwhiletotrimthepassagelamp。 ’Don’ttroubleyourselftogetalightforme,’saidBarnethastily; ’itisnotnecessaryatall。WhichisMissSavile’ssitting-room?’ Theyoungperson,whosewhitepinaforecouldjustbediscerned,signifiedadoorinthesideofthepassage,andBarnetwentforwardatthesamemoment,sothatnolightshouldfalluponhisface。Onenteringtheroomheclosedthedoorbehindhim,pausingtillheheardtheretreatingfootstepsofthechild。 Hefoundhimselfinanapartmentwhichwassimplyandneatly,thoughnotpoorlyfurnished;everything,fromtheminiaturechiffonniertotheshininglittledaguerreotypewhichformedthecentralornamentofthemantelpiece,beinginscrupulousorder。Thepicturewasenclosedbyaframeofembroideredcard-board——evidentlytheworkoffemininehands——anditwastheportraitofathinfaced,elderlylieutenantinthenavy。Frombehindthelamponthetableafemaleformnowroseintoview,thatofayounggirl,andaresemblancebetweenherandtheportraitwasearlydiscoverable。Shehadbeensoabsorbedinsomeoccupationontheothersideofthelampastohavebarelyfoundtimetorealizehervisitor’spresence。 Theybothremainedstandingforafewsecondswithoutspeaking。ThefacethatconfrontedBarnethadabeautifuloutline;theRaffaelesqueovalofitscontourwasremarkableforanEnglishcountenance,andthatcountenancehousedinaremotecountry-roadtoanunheard-ofharbour。Butherfeaturesdidnotdojusticetothissplendidbeginning:NaturehadrecollectedthatshewasnotinItaly;andtheyounglady’slineaments,thoughnotsoinconsistentastomakeherplain,wouldhavebeenacceptedratheraspleasingthanascorrect。Thepreoccupiedexpressionwhich,likeimagesontheretina,remainedwithherforamomentafterthestatethatcausedithadceased,nowchangedintoareserved,half-proud,andslightlyindignantlook,inwhichtheblooddiffuseditselfquicklyacrosshercheek,andadditionalbrightnessbroketheshadeofherratherheavyeyes。 ’IknowIhavenobusinesshere,’hesaid,answeringthelook。’ButIhadagreatwishtoseeyou,andinquirehowyouwere。Youcangiveyourhandtome,seeinghowoftenIhavehelditinpastdays?’ ’Iwouldratherforgetthanrememberallthat,Mr。Barnet,’sheanswered,asshecoldlycompliedwiththerequest。’WhenIthinkofthecircumstancesofourlastmeeting,Icanhardlyconsideritkindofyoutoalludetosuchathingasourpast——or,indeed,tocomehereatall。’ ’Therewasnoharminitsurely?Idon’ttroubleyouoften,Lucy。’ ’Ihavenothadthehonourofavisitfromyouforaverylongtime,certainly,andIdidnotexpectitnow,’shesaid,withthesamestiffnessinherair。’IhopeMrs。Barnetisverywell?’ ’Yes,yes!’heimpatientlyreturned。’AtleastIsupposeso——thoughIonlyspeakfrominference!’ ’Butsheisyourwife,sir,’saidtheyounggirltremulously。 Theunwontedtonesofaman’svoiceinthatfemininechamberhadstartledacanarythatwasroostinginitscagebythewindow;thebirdawokehastily,andflutteredagainstthebars。Shewentandstilleditbylayingherfaceagainstthecageandmurmuringacoaxingsound。Itmightpartlyhavebeendonetostillherself。 ’Ididn’tcometotalkofMrs。Barnet,’hepursued;’Icametotalkofyou,ofyourselfalone;toinquirehowyouaregettingonsinceyourgreatloss。’Andheturnedtowardstheportraitofherfather。 ’Iamgettingonfairlywell,thankyou。’ Theforceofherutterancewasscarcelyborneoutbyherlook;butBarnetcourteouslyreproachedhimselffornothavingguessedathingsonatural;andtodissipateallembarrassment,added,ashebentoverthetable,’WhatwereyoudoingwhenIcame?——paintingflowers,andbycandlelight?’ ’Ono,’shesaid,’notpaintingthem——onlysketchingtheoutlines。 Idothatatnighttosavetime——Ihavetogetthreedozendonebytheendofthemonth。’ Barnetlookedasifheregretteditdeeply。’Youwillwearyourpooreyesout,’hesaid,withmoresentimentthanhehadhithertoshown。’Yououghtnottodoit。TherewasatimewhenIshouldhavesaidyoumustnot。Well——IalmostwishIhadneverseenlightwithmyowneyeswhenIthinkofthat!’ ’Isthisatimeorplaceforrecallingsuchmatters?’sheasked,withdignity。’Youusedtohaveagentlemanlyrespectforme,andforyourself。Don’tspeakanymoreasyouhavespoken,anddon’tcomeagain。Icannotthinkthatthisvisitisserious,orwascloselyconsideredbyyou。’ ’Considered:well,Icametoseeyouasanoldandgoodfriend——nottomincematters,tovisitawomanIloved。Don’tbeangry!I couldnothelpdoingit,somanythingsbroughtyouintomymind