第21章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4640更新时间:18/12/27 09:08:44
Allhadbeendonethatcouldbedone。Mrs。Barnetwasinherownhouseundermedicalhands,buttheresultwasstilluncertain。 Barnethadactedasifdevotiontohiswifewerethedominantpassionofhisexistence。Therehadbeenmuchtodecide——whethertoattemptrestorationoftheapparentlylifelessbodyasitlayontheshore——whethertocarryhertotheHarbourInn——whethertodrivewithheratoncetohisownhouse。Thefirstcourse,withnoskilledhelporappliancesnearathand,hadseemedhopeless。Thesecondcoursewouldhaveoccupiednearlyasmuchtimeasadrivetothetown,owingtotheinterveningridgesofshingle,andthenecessityofcrossingtheharbourbyboattogettothehouse,addedtowhichmuchtimemusthaveelapsedbeforeadoctorcouldhavearriveddownthere。Bybringingherhomeinthecarriagesomepreciousmomentshadslippedby;butshehadbeenlaidinherownbedinsevenminutes,adoctorcalledtoherside,andeverypossiblerestorativebroughttobearuponher。 Atwhatatearingpacehehaddrivenupthatroad,throughtheyelloweveningsunlight,theshadowsflappingirksomelyintohiseyesaseachwaysideobjectrushedpastbetweenhimandthewest! Tiredworkmenwiththeirbasketsattheirbackshadturnedontheirhomewardjourneytowonderathisspeed。HalfwaybetweentheshoreandPort-BredytownhehadmetCharlson,whohadbeenthefirstsurgeontohearoftheaccident。Hewasaccompaniedbyhisassistantinagig。BarnethadsentonthelattertothecoastincasethatDowne’spoorwifeshouldbythattimehavebeenreclaimedfromthewaves,andhadbroughtCharlsonbackwithhimtothehouse。 Barnet’spresencewasnotneededhere,andhefeltittobehisnextdutytosetoffatonceandfindDowne,thatnootherthanhimselfmightbreakthenewstohim。 HewasquitesurethatnochancehadbeenlostforMrs。Downebyhisleavingtheshore。BythetimethatMrs。Barnethadbeenlaidinthecarriage,amuchlargergrouphadassembledtolendassistanceinfindingherfriend,renderinghisownhelpsuperfluous。ButthedutyofbreakingthenewswasmadedoublypainfulbythecircumstancethatthecatastrophewhichhadbefallenMrs。Downewassolelytheresultofherownandherhusband’sloving-kindnesstowardshimself。 HefoundDowneinhisoffice。Whenthesolicitorcomprehendedtheintelligenceheturnedpale,stoodup,andremainedforamomentperfectlystill,asifbereftofhisfaculties;thenhisshouldersheaved,hepulledouthishandkerchiefandbegantocrylikeachild。Hissobsmighthavebeenheardinthenextroom。Heseemedtohavenoideaofgoingtotheshore,orofdoinganything;butwhenBarnettookhimgentlybythehandandproposedtostartatonce,hequietlyacquiesced,neitherutteringanyfurtherwordnormakinganyefforttorepresshistears。 Barnetaccompaniedhimtotheshore,where,findingthatnotracehadasyetbeenseenofMrs。Downe,andthathisstaywouldbeofnoavail,heleftDownewithhisfriendsandtheyoungdoctor,andoncemorehastenedbacktohisownhouse。 AtthedoorhemetCharlson。’Well!’Barnetsaid。 ’Ihavejustcomedown,’saidthedoctor;’wehavedoneeverything,butwithoutresult。Isympathizewithyouinyourbereavement。’ BarnetdidnotmuchappreciateCharlson’ssympathy,whichsoundedtohisearsassomethingofamockeryfromthelipsofamanwhoknewwhatCharlsonknewabouttheirdomesticrelations。IndeedthereseemedanoddsparkinCharlson’sfullblackeyeashesaidthewords;butthatmighthavebeenimaginary。 ’And,Mr。Barnet,’Charlsonresumed,’thatlittlematterbetweenus—— Ihopetosettleitfinallyinthreeweeksatleast。’ ’Nevermindthatnow,’saidBarnetabruptly。Hedirectedthesurgeontogototheharbourincasehisservicesmightevennowbenecessarythere:andhimselfenteredthehouse。 Theservantswerecomingfromhiswife’schamber,lookinghelplesslyateachotherandathim。Hepassedthembyandenteredtheroom,wherehestoodmutelyregardingthebedforafewminutes,afterwhichhewalkedintohisowndressing-roomadjoining,andtherepacedupanddown。Inaminuteortwohenoticedwhatastrangeandtotalsilencehadcomeovertheupperpartofthehouse;hisownmovements,muffledastheywerebythecarpet,seemednoisy,andhisthoughtstodisturbtheairlikearticulateutterances。Hiseyeglancedthroughthewindow。Fardowntheroadtotheharbouraroofdetainedhisgaze:outofitrosearedchimney,andoutoftheredchimneyacurlofsmoke,asfromafirenewlykindled。Hehadoftenseensuchasightbefore。InthathouselivedLucySavile;andthesmokewasfromthefirewhichwasregularlylightedatthistimetomakehertea。 Afterthathewentbacktothebedroom,andstoodtheresometimeregardinghiswife’ssilentform。Shewasawomansomeyearsolderthanhimself,buthadnotbyanymeansoverpassedthematurityofgoodlooksandvigour。Herpassionatefeatures,well-defined,firm,andstatuesqueinlife,weredoublysonow:hermouthandbrow,beneathherpurplishblackhair,showedonlytooclearlythattheturbulencyofcharacterwhichhadmadeabear-gardenofhishousehadbeennotemporaryphaseofherexistence。Whilehereflected,hesuddenlysaidtohimself,Iwonderifallhasbeendone? Thethoughtwasleduptobyhishavingfanciedthathiswife’sfeatureslackedinitscompleteformtheexpressionwhichhehadbeenaccustomedtoassociatewiththefacesofthosewhosespiritshavefledforever。Theeffacementoflifewasnotsomarkedbutthat,enteringuninformed,hemighthavesupposedhersleeping。HercomplexionwasthatseeninthenumerousfadedportraitsbySirJoshuaReynolds;itwaspallidincomparisonwithlife,buttherewasvisibleonacloseinspectiontheremnantofwhathadoncebeenaflush;thekeepingbetweenthecheeksandthehollowsofthefacebeingthuspreserved,althoughpositivecolourwasgone。Longorangeraysofeveningsunstoleinthroughchinksintheblind,strikingonthelargemirror,andbeingthencereflecteduponthecrimsonhangingsandwoodworkoftheheavybedstead,sothatthegeneraltoneoflightwasremarkablywarm;anditwasprobablethatsomethingmightbeduetothiscircumstance。Stillthefactimpressedhimasstrange。Charlsonhadbeengonemorethanaquarterofanhour:coulditbepossiblethathehadlefttoosoon,andthathisattemptstorestoreherhadoperatedsosluggishlyasonlynowtohavemadethemselvesfelt?Barnetlaidhishanduponherchest,andfanciedthateverandanonafaintflutterofpalpitation,gentleasthatofabutterfly’swing,disturbedthestillnessthere——ceasingforatime,thenstrugglingtogoon,thenbreakingdowninweaknessandceasingagain。 Barnet’smotherhadbeenanactivepractitionerofthehealingartamongherpoorerneighbours,andherinspirationshadallbeenderivedfromanoctavovolumeofDomesticMedicine,whichatthismomentwaslying,asithadlainformanyyears,onashelfinBarnet’sdressing-room。Hehastilyfetchedit,andtherereadunderthehead’Drowning:’- ’Exertionsfortherecoveryofanypersonwhohasnotbeenimmersedforalongerperiodthanhalf-an-hourshouldbecontinuedforatleastfourhours,astherehavebeenmanycasesinwhichreturninglifehasmadeitselfvisibleevenafteralongerinterval。 ’Should,however,aweakactionofanyoftheorgansshowitselfwhenthecaseseemsalmosthopeless,oureffortsmustberedoubled; thefeeblesparkinthiscaserequirestobesolicited;itwillcertainlydisappearunderarelaxationoflabour。’ Barnetlookedathiswatch;itwasnowbarelytwohoursandahalffromthetimewhenhehadfirstheardoftheaccident。Hethrewasidethebookandturnedquicklytoreachastimulantwhichhadpreviouslybeenused。Pullinguptheblindformorelight,hiseyeglancedoutofthewindow。Therehesawthatredchimneystillsmokingcheerily,andthatroof,andthroughtheroofthatsomebody。 Hismechanicalmovementsstopped,hishandremainedontheblind- cord,andheseemedtobecomebreathless,asifhehadsuddenlyfoundhimselftreadingahighrope。 Whilehestoodasparrowlightedonthewindowsill,sawhim,andflewaway。Nextamanandadogwalkedoveroneofthegreenhillswhichbulgedabovetheroofsofthetown。ButBarnettooknonotice。 WemaywonderwhatweretheexactimagesthatpassedthroughhismindduringthoseminutesofgazinguponLucySavile’shouse,thesparrow,themanandthedog,andLucySavile’shouseagain。Therearehonestmenwhowillnotadmittotheirthoughts,evenasidlehypotheses,viewsofthefuturethatassumeasdoneadeedwhichtheywouldrecoilfromdoing;andthereareotherhonestmenforwhommoralityendsatthesurfaceoftheirownheads,whowilldeliberatewhatthefirstwillnotsomuchassuppose。Barnethadawifewhosepretencedistractedhishome;shenowlayasindeath;bymerelydoingnothing——bylettingtheintelligencewhichhadgoneforthtotheworldlieundisturbed——hewouldeffectsuchadeliveranceforhimselfashehadneverhopedfor,andopenupanopportunityofwhichtillnowhehadneverdreamed。Whethertheconjuncturehadarisenthroughanyunscrupulous,ill-consideredimpulseofCharlsontohelpoutofastraitthefriendwhowassokindasnevertopresshimforwhatwasduecouldnotbetold;therewasnothingtoproveit;anditwasaquestionwhichcouldneverbeasked。Thetriangularsituation——himself——hiswife——LucySavile—— wastheoneclearthing。 FromBarnet’sactionswemayinferthatheSUPPOSEDsuchandsucharesult,foramoment,butdidnotdeliberate。Hewithdrewhishazeleyesfromthescenewithout,calmlyturned,rangthebellforassistance,andvigorouslyexertedhimselftolearniflifestilllingeredinthatmotionlessframe。Inashorttimeanothersurgeonwasinattendance;andthenBarnet’ssurmiseprovedtobetrue。Theslowlifetimidlyheavedagain;butmuchcareandpatiencewereneededtocatchandretainit,andaconsiderableperiodelapsedbeforeitcouldbesaidwithcertaintythatMrs。Barnetlived。Whenthiswasthecase,andtherewasnofurtherroomfordoubt,Barnetleftthechamber。TheblueeveningsmokefromLucy’schimneyhaddieddowntoanimperceptiblestream,andashewalkedaboutdownstairshemurmuredtohimself,’Mywifewasdead,andsheisaliveagain。’ ItwasnotsowithDowne。Afterthreehours’immersionhiswife’sbodyhadbeenrecovered,life,ofcourse,beingquiteextinct。 Barnetondescending,wentstraighttohisfriend’shouse,andtherelearnedtheresult。Downewashelplessinhiswildgrief,occasionallyevenhysterical。Barnetsaidlittle,butfindingthatsomeguidinghandwasnecessaryinthesorrow-strickenhousehold,tookuponhimtosuperviseandmanagetillDowneshouldbeinastateofmindtodosoforhimself。