第23章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4743更新时间:18/12/27 09:08:44
Barnetprivatelythoughtthedesignasufficientlyimposingoneasitstood,evenextravagantlyornate;but,feelingthathehadnorighttocriticize,hesaidgently,’Downe,shouldyounotlivemoreinyourchildren’slivesatthepresenttime,andsoftenthesharpnessofregretforyourownpastbythinkingoftheirfuture?’ ’Yes,yes;butwhatcanIdomore?’askedDowne,wrinklinghisforeheadhopelessly。 ItwaswithanxiousslownessthatBarnetproducedhisreply——thesecretobjectofhisvisitto-night。’Didyounotsayonedaythatyououghtbyrightstogetagovernessforthechildren?’ Downeadmittedthathehadsaidso,butthathecouldnotseehiswaytoit。’ThekindofwomanIshouldliketohave,’hesaid,’wouldberatherbeyondmymeans。No;IthinkIshallsendthemtoschoolinthetownwhentheyareoldenoughtogooutalone。’ ’Now,Iknowofsomethingbetterthanthat。ThelateLieutenantSavile’sdaughter,Lucy,wantstodosomethingforherselfinthewayofteaching。Shewouldbeinexpensive,andwouldansweryourpurposeaswellasanybodyforsixortwelvemonths。Shewouldprobablycomedailyifyouweretoaskher,andsoyourhousekeepingarrangementswouldnotbemuchaffected。’ ’Ithoughtshehadgoneaway,’saidthesolicitor,musing。’Wheredoesshelive?’ Barnettoldhim,andaddedthat,ifDowneshouldthinkofherassuitable,hewoulddowelltocallassoonaspossible,orshemightbeonthewing。’Ifyoudoseeher,’hesaid,’itwouldbeadvisablenottomentionmyname。Sheisratherstiffinherideasofme,anditmightprejudiceheragainstacourseifsheknewthatIrecommendedit。’ Downepromisedtogivethesubjecthisconsideration,andnothingmorewassaidaboutitjustthen。ButwhenBarnetrosetogo,whichwasnottillnearlybedtime,heremindedDowneofthesuggestionandwentupthestreettohisownsolitaryhomewithasenseofsatisfactionathispromisingdiplomacyinacharitablecause。 Thewallsofhisnewhousewerecarriedupnearlytotheirfullheight。Byacuriousthoughnotinfrequentreaction,Barnet’sfeelingsaboutthatunnecessarystructurehadundergoneachange;hetookconsiderableinterestinitsprogressasalong-neglectedthing,hiswifebeforeherdeparturehavinggrownquitewearyofitasahobby。Moreover,itwasanexcellentdistractionforamanintheunhappypositionofhavingtoliveinaprovincialtownwithnothingtodo。Hewasprobablythefirstofhislinewhohadeverpassedadaywithouttoil,andperhapssomethinglikeaninheritedinstinctdisqualifiessuchmenforalifeofpleasantinaction,suchasliesinthepowerofthosewhoseleisureisnotapersonalaccident,butavasthistoricalaccretionwhichhasbecomepartoftheirnatures。 ThusBarnetgotintoawayofspendingmanyofhisleisurehoursonthesiteofthenewbuilding,andhemighthavebeenseenonmostdaysatthistimetryingthetemperofthemortarbypunchingthejointswithhisstick,lookingatthegrainofafloor-board,andmeditatingwhereitgrew,orpicturingunderwhatcircumstancesthelastfirewouldbekindledintheatpresentsootlesschimneys。Onedaywhenthusoccupiedhesawthreechildrenpassbyinthecompanyofafairyoungwoman,whosesuddenappearancecausedhimtoflushperceptibly。 ’Ah,sheisthere,’hethought。’That’sablessedthing。’ Castinganinterestedglanceovertherisingbuildingandthebusyworkmen,LucySavileandthelittleDownespassedby;andafterthattimeitbecamearegularthoughalmostunconsciouscustomofBarnettostandinthehalf-completedhouseandlookfromtheungarnishedwindowsatthegovernessasshetrippedtowardsthesea-shorewithheryoungcharges,whichshewasinthehabitofdoingonmostfineafternoons。Itwasononeoftheseoccasions,whenhehadbeenloiteringonthefirst-floorlanding,neartheholeleftforthestaircase,notyeterected,thatthereappearedabovetheedgeoftheflooralittlehat,followedbyalittlehead。 Barnetwithdrewthroughadoorway,andthechildcametothetopoftheladder,steppingontothefloorandcryingtohersistersandMissSaviletofollow。Anotherheadroseabovethefloor,andanother,andthenLucyherselfcameintoview。Thetroopranhitherandthitherthroughtheempty,shaving-strewnrooms,andBarnetcameforward。 Lucyutteredasmallexclamation:shewasverysorrythatshehadintruded;shehadnottheleastideathatMr。Barnetwasthere:thechildrenhadcomeup,andshehadfollowed。 Barnetrepliedthathewasonlytoogladtoseethemthere。’Andnow,letmeshowyoutherooms,’hesaid。 Shepassivelyassented,andhetookherround。Therewasnotmuchtoshowinsuchabareskeletonofahouse,buthemadethemostofit,andexplainedthedifferentornamentalfittingsthatweresoontobefixedhereandthere。Lucymadebutfewremarksinreply,thoughsheseemedpleasedwithhervisit,andstoleawaydowntheladder,followedbyhercompanions。 AfterthisthenewresidencebecameyetmoreofahobbyforBarnet。 Downe’schildrendidnotforgettheirfirstvisit,andwhenthewindowswereglazed,andthehandsomestaircasespreaditsbroadlowstepsintothehall,theycameagain,prancinginunweariedsuccessionthrougheveryroomfromground-floortoattics,whileLucystoodwaitingforthematthedoor。Barnet,whorarelymissedadayincomingtoinspectprogress,steppedoutfromthedrawing- room。 ’Icouldnotkeepthemout,’shesaid,withanapologeticblush。’I triedtodosoverymuch:buttheyareratherwilful,andwearedirectedtowalkthiswayfortheseaair。’ ’Doletthemmakethehousetheirregularplayground,andyouyours,’saidBarnet。’Thereisnobetterplaceforchildrentorompandtaketheirexerciseinthananemptyhouse,particularlyinmuddyordampweathersuchasweshallgetagooddealofnow;andthisplacewillnotbefurnishedforalonglongtime——perhapsnever。Iamnotatalldecidedaboutit。’ ’O,butitmust!’repliedLucy,lookingroundatthehall。’Theroomsareexcellent,twiceashighasours;andtheviewsfromthewindowsaresolovely。’ ’Idaresay,Idaresay,’hesaidabsently。 ’Willallthefurniturebenew?’sheasked。 ’Allthefurniturebenew——that’sathingIhavenotthoughtof。InfactIonlycomehereandlookon。Myfather’shousewouldhavebeenlargeenoughforme,butanotherpersonhadavoiceinthematter,anditwassettledthatweshouldbuild。However,theplacegrowsuponme;itsrecentassociationsarecheerful,andIamgettingtolikeitfast。’ AcertainuneasinessinLucy’smannershowedthattheconversationwastakingtoopersonalaturnforher。’Still,asmoderntastesdevelop,peoplerequiremoreroomtogratifythemin,’shesaid,withdrawingtocallthechildren;andserenelybiddinghimgoodafternoonshewentonherway。 Barnet’slifeatthisperiodwassingularlylonely,andyethewashappierthanhecouldhaveexpected。Hiswife’sestrangementandabsence,whichpromisedtobepermanent,lefthimfreeasaboyinhismovements,andthesolitarywalksthathetookgavehimampleopportunityforchastenedreflectiononwhatmighthavebeenhislotifhehadonlyshownwisdomenoughtoclaimLucySavilewhentherewasnobarbetweentheirlives,andshewastobehadfortheasking。HewouldoccasionallycallatthehouseofhisfriendDowne;buttherewasscarcelyenoughincommonbetweentheirtwonaturestomakethemmorethanfriendsofthatexcellentsortwhosepersonalknowledgeofeachother’shistoryandcharacterisalwaysinexcessofintimacy,wherebytheyarenotsolikelytobeseveredbyaclashofsentimentasincaseswhereintimacyspringsupinexcessofknowledge。Lucywasnevervisibleatthesetimes,beingeitherengagedintheschool-room,orintakinganairingoutofdoors;but,knowingthatshewasnowcomfortable,andhadgivenupthe,tohim,depressingideaofgoingofftotheothersideoftheglobe,hewasquitecontent。 Thenewhousehadsofarprogressedthatthegardenerswerebeginningtograssdownthefront。Duringanafternoonwhichhewaspassinginmarkingthecurveforthecarriage-drive,hebeheldhercominginboldlytowardshimfromtheroad。HithertoBarnethadonlycaughtheronthepremisesbystealth;andthisadvanceseemedtoshowthatatlastherreservehadbrokendown。 Asmilegainedstrengthuponherfaceassheapproached,anditwasquiteradiantwhenshecameup,andsaid,withoutatraceofembarrassment,’IfindIoweyouahundredthanks——anditcomestomequiteasasurprise!ItwasthroughyourkindnessthatIwasengagedbyMr。Downe。Believeme,Mr。Barnet,Ididnotknowituntilyesterday,orIshouldhavethankedyoulongandlongago!’ ’Ihadoffendedyou——justatrifle——atthetime,Ithink?’saidBarnet,smiling,’anditwasbestthatyoushouldnotknow。’ ’Yes,yes,’shereturnedhastily。’Don’talludetothat;itispastandover,andwewillletitbe。Thehouseisfinishedalmost,isitnot?Howbeautifulitwilllookwhentheevergreensaregrown! DoyoucallthestylePalladian,Mr。Barnet?’ ’I——reallydon’tquiteknowwhatitis。Yes,itmustbePalladian,certainly。ButI’llaskJones,thearchitect;for,totellthetruth,Ihadnotthoughtmuchaboutthestyle:Ihadnothingtodowithchoosingit,Iamsorrytosay。’ Shewouldnotlethimharponthisgloomyrefrain,andtalkedonbrightmatterstillshesaid,producingasmallrollofpaperwhichhehadnoticedinherhandallthewhile,’Mr。DownewishedmetobringyouthisreviseddrawingofthelateMrs。Downe’stomb,whichthearchitecthasjustsenthim。Hewouldlikeyoutolookitover。’ Thechildrencameupwiththeirhoops,andshewentoffwiththemdowntheharbour-roadasusual。Barnethadbeengladtogetthosewordsofthanks;hehadbeenthinkingformanymonthsthathewouldlikehertoknowofhisshareinfindingherahomesuchasitwas; andwhathecouldnotdoforhimself,Downehadnowkindlydoneforhim。Hereturnedtohisdesolatehousewithalightertread;thoughinreasonhehardlyknewwhyhistreadshouldbelight。 Onexaminingthedrawing,Barnetfoundthat,insteadofthevastaltar-tombandcanopyDownehaddeterminedonattheirlastmeeting,itwastobeamoremodestmemorialeventhanhadbeensuggestedbythearchitect;acopedtombofgoodsolidconstruction,withnouselesselaborationatall。BarnetwastrulygladtoseethatDownehadcometoreasonofhisownaccord;andhereturnedthedrawingwithanoteofapproval。 Hefollowedupthehouse-workasbefore,andashewalkedupanddowntherooms,occasionallygazingfromthewindowsoverthebulginggreenhillsandthequietharbourthatlaybetweenthem,hemurmuredwordsandfragmentsofwords,which,iflistenedto,wouldhaverevealedallthesecretsofhisexistence。Whateverhisreasoningoingthere,Lucydidnotcallagain:thewalktotheshoreseemedtobeabandoned:hemusthavethoughtitaswellforboththatitshouldbeso,forhedidnotgoanywhereoutofhisaccustomedwaystoendeavourtodiscoverher。