第24章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4352更新时间:18/12/27 09:08:44
Thewinterandthespringhadpassed,andthehousewascomplete。 ItwasafinemorningintheearlypartofJune,andBarnet,thoughnotinthehabitofrisingearly,hadtakenalongwalkbeforebreakfast;returningbywayofthenewbuilding。Asufficientlyexcitingcauseofhisrestlessnessto-daymighthavebeentheintelligencewhichhadreachedhimthenightbefore,thatLucySavilewasgoingtoIndiaafterall,andnotwithstandingtherepresentationsofherfriendsthatsuchajourneywasunadvisableinmanywaysforanunpractisedgirl,unlesssomemoredefiniteadvantagelayattheendofitthanshecouldshowtobethecase。 Barnet’swalkuptheslopetothebuildingbetrayedthathewasinadissatisfiedmood。Hehardlysawthatthedewytimeofdaylentanunusualfreshnesstothebushesandtreeswhichhadsorecentlyputontheirsummerhabitofheavyleafage,andmadehisnewly-laidlawnlookaswellestablishedasanoldmanorialmeadow。Thehousehadbeensoadroitlyplacedbetweensixtallelmswhichweregrowingonthesitebeforehand,thattheyseemedlikerealancestraltrees;andtherooks,youngandold,cawedmelodiouslytotheirvisitor。 Thedoorwasnotlocked,andheentered。Noworkmenappearedtobepresent,andhewalkedfromsunnywindowtosunnywindowoftheemptyrooms,withasenseofseclusionwhichmighthavebeenverypleasantbutfortheantecedentknowledgethathisalmostpaternalcareofLucySavilewastobethrownawaybyherwilfulness。 Footstepsechoedthroughanadjoiningroom;andbendinghiseyesinthatdirection,heperceivedMr。Jones,thearchitect。Hehadcometolookoverthebuildingbeforegivingthecontractorhisfinalcertificate。Theywalkedoverthehousetogether。Everythingwasfinishedexceptthepapering:therewerethelatestimprovementsoftheperiodinbell-hanging,ventilating,smoke-jacks,fire-grates,andFrenchwindows。Thebusinesswassoonended,andJones,havingdirectedBarnet’sattentiontoarollofwall-paperpatternswhichlayonabenchforhischoice,wasleavingtokeepanotherengagement,whenBarnetsaid,’IsthetombfinishedyetforMrs。 Downe?’ ’Well——yes:itisatlast,’saidthearchitect,comingbackandspeakingasifhewereinamoodtomakeaconfidence。’Ihavehadnoendoftroubleinthematter,and,totellthetruth,Iamheartilygladitisover。’ Barnetexpressedhissurprise。’IthoughtpoorDownehadgivenupthoseextravagantnotionsofhis?thenhehasgonebacktothealtarandcanopyafterall?Well,heistobeexcused,poorfellow!’ ’Ono——hehasnotatallgonebacktothem——quitethereverse,’ Joneshastenedtosay。’Hehassoreduceddesignafterdesign,thatthewholethinghasbeennothingbutwastelabourforme;tillintheendithasbecomeacommonheadstone,whichamasonputupinhalfaday。’ ’Acommonheadstone?’saidBarnet。 ’Yes。Iheldoutforsometimefortheadditionofafootstoneatleast。Buthesaid,“Ono——hecouldn’taffordit。“’ ’Ah,well——hisfamilyisgrowingup,poorfellow,andhisexpensesaregettingserious。’ ’Yes,exactly,’saidJones,asifthesubjectwerenoneofhis。AndagaindirectingBarnet’sattentiontothewall-papers,thebustlingarchitectlefthimtokeepsomeotherengagement。 ’Acommonheadstone,’murmuredBarnet,leftagaintohimself。Hemusedaminuteortwo,andnextbeganlookingoverandselectingfromthepatterns;buthadnotlongbeenengagedintheworkwhenheheardanotherfootsteponthegravelwithout,andsomebodyentertheopenporch。 Barnetwenttothedoor——itwashismanservantinsearchofhim。 ’Ihavebeentryingforsometimetofindyou,sir,’hesaid。’Thisletterhascomebythepost,anditismarkedimmediate。Andthere’sthisonefromMr。Downe,whocalledjustnowwantingtoseeyou。’Hesearchedhispocketforthesecond。 Barnettookthefirstletter——ithadablackborder,andboretheLondonpostmark。Itwasnotinhiswife’shandwriting,orinthatofanypersonheknew;butconjecturesoonceasedashereadthepage,whereinhewasbrieflyinformedthatMrs。Barnethaddiedsuddenlyonthepreviousday,atthefurnishedvillashehadoccupiednearLondon。 Barnetlookedvaguelyroundtheemptyhall,attheblankwalls,outofthedoorway。Drawingalongpalpitatingbreath,andwitheyesdowncast,heturnedandclimbedthestairsslowly,likeamanwhodoubtedtheirstability。Thefactofhiswifehaving,asitwere,diedoncealready,andlivedonagain,hadentirelydislodgedthepossibilityofheractualdeathfromhisconjecture。Hewenttothelanding,leantoverthebalusters,andafterareverie,ofwhosedurationhehadbutthefaintestnotion,turnedtothewindowandstretchedhisgazetothecottagefurtherdowntheroad,whichwasvisiblefromhislanding,andfromwhichLucystillwalkedtothesolicitor’shousebyacrosspath。Thefaintwordsthatcamefromhismovinglipsweresimply,’Atlast!’ Then,almostinvoluntarily,Barnetfelldownonhiskneesandmurmuredsomeincoherentwordsofthanksgiving。Surelyhisvirtueinrestoringhiswifetolifehadbeenrewarded!But,asiftheimpulsestruckuneasilyonhisconscience,hequicklyrose,brushedthedustfromhistrousersandsethimselftothinkofhisnextmovements。HecouldnotstartforLondonforsomehours;andashehadnopreparationstomakethatcouldnotbemadeinhalf-an-hour,hemechanicallydescendedandresumedhisoccupationofturningoverthewall-papers。Theyhadallgotbrighterforhim,thosepapers。 Itwasallchanged——whowouldsitintheroomsthattheyweretoline?HewentontomuseuponLucy’sconductinsofrequentlycomingtothehousewiththechildren;heroccasionalblushinspeakingtohim;herevidentinterestinhim。Whatwomancaninthelongrunavoidbeinginterestedinamanwhomsheknowstobedevotedtoher?Ifhumansolicitationcouldevereffectanything,thereshouldbenogoingtoIndiaforLucynow。Allthepaperspreviouslychosenseemedwrongintheirshades,andhebeganfromthebeginningtochooseagain。 Whileenteringonthetaskheheardaforced’Ahem!’fromwithouttheporch,evidentlyutteredtoattracthisattention,andfootstepsagainadvancingtothedoor。Hisman,whomhehadquiteforgotteninhismentalturmoil,wasstillwaitingthere。 ’Ibegyourpardon,sir,’themansaidfromroundthedoorway;’buthere’sthenotefromMr。Downethatyoudidn’ttake。Hecalledjustafteryouwentout,andashecouldn’twait,hewrotethisonyourstudy-table。’ Hehandedintheletter——noblack-borderedonenow,butapractical- lookingnoteinthewell-knownwritingofthesolicitor。 ’DEARBARNET’——itran——’PerhapsyouwillbepreparedfortheinformationIamabouttogive——thatLucySavileandmyselfaregoingtobemarriedthismorning。Ihavehithertosaidnothingastomyintentiontoanyofmyfriends,forreasonswhichIamsureyouwillfullyappreciate。ThecrisishasbeenbroughtaboutbyherexpressingherintentiontojoinherbrotherinIndia。IthendiscoveredthatIcouldnotdowithouther。 ’Itistobequiteaprivatewedding;butitismyparticularwishthatyoucomedownherequietlyatten,andgotochurchwithus;itwilladdgreatlytothepleasureIshallexperienceintheceremony,and,Ibelieve,toLucy’salso。Ihavecalledonyouveryearlytomaketherequest,inthebeliefthatIshouldfindyouathome;butyouarebeforehandwithmeinyourearlyrising——Yourssincerely,C。Downe。’ ’NeedIwait,sir?’saidtheservantafteradeadsilence。 ’Thatwilldo,William。Noanswer,’saidBarnetcalmly。 WhenthemanhadgoneBarnetre-readtheletter。Turningeventuallytothewall-papers,whichhehadbeenatsuchpainstoselect,hedeliberatelytorethemintohalvesandquarters,andthrewthemintotheemptyfireplace。Thenhewentoutofthehouse;lockedthedoor,andstoodinthefrontawhile。Insteadofreturningintothetown,hewentdowntheharbour-roadandthoughtfullylingeredaboutbythesea,nearthespotwherethebodyofDowne’slatewifehadbeenfoundandbroughtashore。 Barnetwasamanwitharichcapacityformisery,andthereisnodoubtthatheexercisedittoitsfullestextentnow。Theeventsthathad,asitwere,dashedthemselvestogetherintoonehalf-hourofthisdayshowedthatcuriousrefinementofcrueltyintheirarrangementwhichoftenproceedsfromthebosomofthewhimsicalgodatothertimesknownasblindCircumstance。Thathisfewminutesofhope,betweenthereadingofthefirstandsecondletters,hadcarriedhimtoextraordinaryheightsofrapturewasprovedbytheimmensityofhissufferingnow。Thesunblazingintohisfacewouldhaveshownaclosewatcherthatahorizontalline,whichhehadnevernoticedbefore,butwhichwasnevertobegonethereafter,wassomehowgraduallyformingitselfinthesmoothofhisforehead。Hiseyes,ofalighthazel,hadacuriouslookwhichcanonlybedescribedbythewordbruised;thesorrowthatlookedfromthembeinglargelymixedwiththesurpriseofamantakenunawares。 Thesecondaryparticularsofhispresentposition,too,wereoddenough,thoughforsometimetheyappearedtoengagelittleofhisattention。Notasoulinthetownknew,asyet,ofhiswife’sdeath;andhealmostowedDownethekindnessofnotpublishingittillthedaywasover:theconjuncture,takenwiththatwhichhadaccompaniedthedeathofMrs。Downe,beingsosingularastobequitesufficienttodarkenthepleasureoftheimpressionablesolicitortoacruelextent,ifmadeknowntohim。ButasBarnetcouldnotsetoutonhisjourneytoLondon,wherehiswifelay,forsomehours(therebeingatthisdatenorailwaywithinadistanceofmanymiles),nogreatreasonexistedwhyheshouldleavethetown。 ImpulseinallitsformscharacterizedBarnet,andwhenheheardthedistantclockstrikethehouroftenhisfeetbegantocarryhimuptheharbour-roadwiththemannerofamanwhomustdosomethingtobringhimselftolife。HepassedLucySavile’soldhouse,hisownnewone,andcameinviewofthechurch。Nowhegaveaperceptiblestart,andhismechanicalconditionwentaway。Beforethechurch-