第33章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:3875更新时间:18/12/27 09:08:44
ThateveningSallywasmaking’pinners’forthemilkers,whowerenowincreasedbytwo,forhermotherandherselfnolongerjoinedinmilkingthecowsthemselves。Butuponthewholetherewaslittlechangeinthehouseholdeconomy,andnotmuchinitsappearance,beyondsuchminorparticularsasthatthecrackoverthewindow,whichhadbeenahundredyearscoming,wasatriflewider;thatthebeamswereashadeblacker;thattheinfluenceofmodernismhadsupplantedtheopenchimneycornerbyagrate;thatRebekah,whohadwornacapwhenshehadplentyofhair,hadleftitoffnowshehadscarceany,becauseitwasreportedthatcapswerenotfashionable; andthatSally’sfacehadnaturallyassumedamorewomanlyandexperiencedcast。 Mrs。Hallwasactuallyliftingcoalswiththetongs,asshehadusedtodo。 ’Fiveyearsagothisverynight,ifIamnotmistaken——’shesaid,layingonanember。 ’Notthisverynight——though’twasonenightthisweek,’saidthecorrectSally。 ’Well,’tisnearenough。FiveyearsagoMr。Dartoncametomarryyou,andmypoorboyPhilcamehometodie。’Shesighed。’Ah,Sally,’shepresentlysaid,’ifyouhadmanagedwellMr。Dartonwouldhavehadyou,Helenaornone。’ ’Don’tbesentimentalaboutthat,mother,’beggedSally。’Ididn’tcaretomanagewellinsuchacase。ThoughIlikedhim,Iwasn’tsoanxious。Iwouldneverhavemarriedthemaninthemidstofsuchahitchasthatwas,’sheaddedwithdecision;’andIdon’tthinkI wouldifheweretoaskmenow。’ ’Iamnotsureaboutthat,unlessyouhaveanotherinyoureye。’ ’Iwouldn’t;andI’lltellyouwhy。Icouldhardlymarryhimforloveatthistimeo’day。Andaswe’vequiteenoughtoliveonifwegiveupthedairyto-morrow,Ishouldhavenoneedtomarryforanymeanerreason……IamquitehappyenoughasIam,andthere’sanendofit。’ Nowitwasnotlongafterthisdialoguethattherecameamildrapatthedoor,andinamomentthereenteredRebekah,lookingasthoughaghosthadarrived。Thefactwasthatthataccomplishedskimmerandchurner(nowaresidentinthehouse)hadoverheardthedesultoryobservationsbetweenmotheranddaughter,andonopeningthedoortoMr。Dartonthoughtthecoincidencemusthaveagrislymeaninginit。Mrs。Hallwelcomedthefarmerwithwarmsurprise,asdidSally,andforamomenttheyratherwantedwords。 ’Canyoupushupthechimney-crookforme,MrDarton?thenotcheshitch,’saidthematron。Hedidit,andthehomelylittleactbridgedovertheawkwardconsciousnessthathehadbeenastrangerforfouryears。 Mrs。Hallsoonsawwhathehadcomefor,andlefttheprincipalstogetherwhileshewenttopreparehimalatetea,smilingatSally’srecenthastyassertionsofindifference,whenshesawhowcivilSallywas。Whenteawasreadyshejoinedthem。ShefanciedthatDartondidnotlooksoconfidentaswhenhehadarrived;butSallywasquitelight-hearted,andthemealpassedpleasantly。 Aboutsevenhetookhisleaveofthem。Mrs。Hallwentasfarasthedoortolighthimdowntheslope。Onthedoorstephesaidfrankly—— ’Icametoaskyourdaughtertomarryme;chosethenightandeverything,withaneyetoafavourableanswer。Butshewon’t。’ ’Thenshe’saveryungratefulgirl!’emphaticallysaidMrs。Hall。 Dartonpausedtoshapehissentence,andasked,’I——Isupposethere’snobodyelsemorefavoured?’ ’Ican’tsaythatthereis,orthatthereisn’t,’answeredMrs。 Hall。’She’sprivateinsomethings。I’monyourside,however,Mr。Darton,andI’lltalktoher。’ ’Thank’ee,thank’ee!’saidthefarmerinagayeraccent;andwiththisassurancethenotverysatisfactoryvisitcametoanend。 Dartondescendedtherootsofthesycamore,thelightwaswithdrawn,andthedoorclosed。Atthebottomoftheslopehenearlyranagainstamanabouttoascend。 ’Canajack-o’-lentbelievehisfewsensesonsuchadarknight,orcan’the?’exclaimedonewhoseutteranceDartonrecognizedinamoment,despiteitsunexpectedness。’Idarenotswearhecan,thoughIfainwould!’ThespeakerwasJohns。 Dartonsaidhewasgladofthisopportunity,badasitwas,ofputtinganendtothesilenceofyears,andaskedthedairymanwhathewastravellingthatwayfor。 Japhethshowedtheoldjovialconfidenceinamoment。’I’mgoingtoseeyour——relations——astheyalwaysseemtome,’hesaid——’Mrs。HallandSally。Well,Charles,thefactisIfindthenaturalbarbarousnessofmanismuchincreasedbyabachelorlife,and,asyourleavingswerealwaysgoodenoughforme,I’mtryingcivilizationhere。’Henoddedtowardsthehouse。 ’NotwithSally——tomarryher?’saidDarton,feelingsomethinglikearilloficewaterbetweenhisshoulders。 ’Yes,bythehelpofProvidenceandmypersonalcharms。AndIthinkIshallgether。Iamthisroadeveryweek——mypresentdairyisonlyfourmilesoff,youknow,andIseeherthroughthewindow。 ’TisratheroddthatIwasgoingtospeakpracticalto-nighttoherforthefirsttime。You’vejustcalled?’ ’Yes,forashortwhile。Butshedidn’tsayawordaboutyou。’ ’Agoodsign,agoodsign。Nowthatdecidesme。I’llswingthemalletandgetheranswerthisverynightasIplanned。’ Afewmoreremarks,andDarton,wishinghisfriendjoyofSallyinaslightlyhollowtoneofjocularity,badehimgood-bye。Johnspromisedtowriteparticulars,andascended,andwaslostintheshadeofthehouseandtree。ArectangleoflightappearedwhenJohnswasadmitted,andallwasdarkagain。 ’HappyJapheth!’saidDarton。’Thisthenistheexplanation!’ Hedeterminedtoreturnhomethatnight。Inaquarterofanhourhepassedoutofthevillage,andthenextdaywentabouthisswede- liftingandstoringasifnothinghadoccurred。 HewaitedandwaitedtohearfromJohnswhetherthewedding-daywasfixed:butnolettercame。Helearntnotasingleparticulartill,meetingJohnsonedayatahorse-auction,Dartonexclaimedgenially—— rathermoregeniallythanhefelt——’Whenisthejoyfuldaytobe?’ TohisgreatsurpriseareciprocityofgladnesswasnotconspicuousinJohns。’Notatall,’hesaid,inaverysubduedtone。’’Tisabadjob;shewon’thaveme。’ Dartonheldhisbreathtillhesaidwithtreacheroussolicitude,’Tryagain——’tiscoyness。’ ’Ono,’saidJohnsdecisively。’There’sbeennoneofthat。Wetalkeditoverdozensoftimesinthemostfairandsquareway。Shetellsmeplainly,Idon’tsuither。’Twouldbesimplyannoyinghertoaskheragain。Ah,Charles,youthrewaprizeawaywhenyouletherslipfiveyearsago。’ ’Idid——Idid,’saidDarton。 Hereturnedfromthatauctionwithanewsetoffeelingsinplay。 HehadcertainlymadeasurprisingmistakeinthinkingJohnshissuccessfulrival。ItreallyseemedasifhemighthopeforSallyafterall。 Thistime,beingratherpressedbybusiness,Dartonhadrecoursetopen-and-ink,andwroteherasmanlyandstraightforwardaproposalasanywomancouldwishtoreceive。Thereplycamepromptly:- ’DEARMR。DARTON,——Iamassensibleasanywomancanbeofthegoodnessthatleadsyoutomakemethisofferasecondtime。BetterwomenthanIwouldbeproudofthehonour,forwhenIreadyournicelongspeechesonmangold-wurzel,andsuchliketopics,attheCasterbridgeFarmers’Club,Idofeelitanhonour,Iassureyou。 Butmyanswerisjustthesameasbefore。Iwillnottrytoexplainwhat,intruth,Icannotexplain——myreasons;IwillsimplysaythatImustdeclinetobemarriedtoyou。Withgoodwishesasinformertimes,Iam,yourfaithfulfriend,’SALLYHALL。’ Dartondroppedtheletterhopelessly。Beyondthenegative,therewasjustapossibilityofsarcasminit——’nicelongspeechesonmangold-wurzel’hadasuspicioussound。However,sarcasmornone,therewastheanswer,andhehadtobecontent。 Heproceededtoseekreliefinabusinesswhichatthistimeengrossedmuchofhisattention——thatofclearingupacuriousmistakejustcurrentinthecounty,thathehadbeennearlyruinedbytherecentfailureofalocalbank。AfarmernamedDartonhadlostheavily,andthesimilarityofnamehadprobablyledtotheerror。Beliefinitwassopersistentthatitdemandedseveraldaysofletter-writingtosetmattersstraight,andpersuadetheworldthathewasassolventaseverhehadbeeninhislife。Hehadhardlyconcludedthisworryingtaskwhen,tohisdelight,anotherletterarrivedinthehandwritingofSally。 Dartontoreitopen;itwasveryshort。 ’DEARMR。DARTON,——Wehavebeensoalarmedtheselastfewdaysbythereportthatyouwereruinedbythestoppageof——’sBank,that,nowitiscontradictedIhasten,bymymother’swish,tosayhowtrulygladwearetofindthereisnofoundationforthereport。 Afteryourkindnesstomypoorbrother’schildren,Icandonolessthanwriteatsuchamoment。Wehadaletterfromeachofthemafewdaysago——Yourfaithfulfriend,’SALLYHALL。’ ’Mercenarylittlewoman!’saidDartontohimselfwithasmile。 ’Thenthatwasthesecretofherrefusalthistime——shethoughtI wasruined。’