第36章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4465更新时间:18/12/27 09:08:44
’Buttheytellyouyoumaytakeit?’ ’Yes,theSMUGGLERS:buttheBUYERSmustnotknowthatthesmugglershavebeenkindtomeattheirexpense。’ ’Isee,’saidStockdaledoubtfully。’Imuchquestionthehonestyofthisproceeding。’ Byherdirectionheheldthetubwiththeholeupwards,andwhilehewentthroughtheprocessofalternatelypressingandceasingtopress,sheproducedabottleofwater,fromwhichshetookmouthfuls,conveyingeachtothekegbyputtingherprettylipstothehole,whereitwassuckedinateachrecoveryofthecaskfrompressure。Whenitwasagainfullhepluggedthehole,knockedthehoopdowntoitsplace,andburiedthetubinthelumberasbefore。 ’Aren’tthesmugglersafraidthatyouwilltell?’heasked,astheyrecrossedthechurchyard。 ’Ono;theyarenotafraidofthat。Icouldn’tdosuchathing。’ ’Theyhaveputyouintoaveryawkwardcorner,’saidStockdaleemphatically。’Youmust,ofcourse,asanhonestperson,sometimesfeelthatitisyourdutytoinform——reallyyoumust。’ ’Well,Ihaveneverparticularlyfeltitasaduty;and,besides,myfirsthusband——’Shestopped,andtherewassomeconfusioninhervoice。Stockdalewassohonestandunsophisticatedthathedidnotatoncediscernwhyshepaused:butatlasthedidperceivethatthewordswereaslip,andthatnowomanwouldhaveuttered’firsthusband’byaccidentunlessshehadthoughtprettyfrequentlyofasecond。Hefeltforherconfusion,andallowedhertimetorecoverandproceed。’Myhusband,’shesaid,inaself-correctedtone,’usedtoknowoftheirdoings,andsodidmyfather,andkeptthesecret。Icannotinform,infact,againstanybody。’ ’Iseethehardnessofit,’hecontinued,likeamanwholookedfarintothemoralofthings。’Anditisverycruelthatyoushouldbetossedandtantalizedbetweenyourmemoriesandyourconscience。I dohope,Mrs。Newberry,thatyouwillsoonseeyourwayoutofthisunpleasantposition。’ ’Well,Idon’tjustnow,’shemurmured。 Bythistimetheyhadpassedoverthewallandenteredthehouse,whereshebroughthimaglassandhotwater,andlefthimtohisownreflections。Helookedafterhervanishingform,askinghimselfwhetherhe,asarespectableman,andaminister,andashininglight,eventhoughasyetonlyofthehalfpenny-candlesort,werequitejustifiedindoingthisthing。Asneezesettledthequestion; andhefoundthatwhenthefieryliquorwasloweredbytheadditionoftwiceorthricethequantityofwater,itwasoneoftheprettiestcuresforacoldintheheadthathehadeverknown,particularlyatthischillytimeoftheyear。 Stockdalesatinthedeepchairabouttwentyminutessippingandmeditating,tillheatlengthtookwarmerviewsofthings,andlongedforthemorrow,whenhewouldseeMrs。Newberryagain。Hethenfeltthat,thoughchronologicallyatashortdistance,itwouldinanemotionalsensebeverylongbeforeto-morrowcame,andwalkedrestlesslyroundtheroom。Hiseyewasattractedbyaframedandglazedsamplerinwhicharunningornamentoffir-treesandpeacockssurroundedthefollowingprettybitofsentiment:- ’Rose-leavessmellwhenrosesthrive,Here’smyworkwhileI’malive; Rose-leavessmellwhenshrunkandshed,Here’smyworkwhenIamdead。 ’LizzySimpkins。FearGod。HonourtheKing。 ’Aged11years。 ’’Tishers,’hesaidtohimself。’Heavens,howIlikethatname!’ BeforehehaddonethinkingthatnoothernamefromAbigailtoZenobiawouldhavesuitedhisyounglandladysowell,tap-tapcameagainuponthedoor;andtheministerstartedasherfaceappearedyetanothertime,lookingsodisinterestedthatthemostingeniouswouldhaverefrainedfromassertingthatshehadcometoaffecthisfeelingsbyherseductiveeyes。 ’Wouldyoulikeafireinyourroom,Mr。Stockdale,onaccountofyourcold?’ Theminister,beingstillalittleprickedintheconscienceforcountenancingherinwateringthespirits,sawhereawaytoself- chastisement。’No,Ithankyou,’hesaidfirmly;’itisnotnecessary。Ihaveneverbeenusedtooneinmylife,anditwouldbegivingwaytoluxurytoofar。’ ’ThenIwon’tinsist,’shesaid,anddisconcertedhimbyvanishinginstantly。 Wonderingifshewasvexedbyhisrefusal,hewishedthathehadchosentohaveafire,eventhoughitshouldhavescorchedhimoutofbedandendangeredhisself-disciplineforadozendays。 However,heconsoledhimselfwithwhatwasintrutharareconsolationforabuddinglover,thathewasunderthesameroofwithLizzy;herguest,infact,totakeapoeticalviewofthetermlodger;andthathewouldcertainlyseeheronthemorrow。 Themorrowcame,andStockdaleroseearly,hiscoldquitegone。Hehadneverinhislifesolongedforthebreakfasthourashedidthatday,andpunctuallyateighto’clock,afterashortwalk,toreconnoitrethepremises,here-enteredthedoorofhisdwelling。 Breakfastpassed,andMarthaSarahattended,butnobodycamevoluntarilyasonthenightbeforetoinquireiftherewereotherwantswhichhehadnotmentioned,andwhichshewouldattempttogratify。Hewasdisappointed,andwentout,hopingtoseeheratdinner。Dinnertimecame;hesatdowntothemeal,finishedit,lingeredonforawholehour,althoughtwonewteacherswereatthatmomentwaitingatthechapel-doortospeaktohimbyappointment。 Itwasuselesstowaitlonger,andheslowlywenthiswaydownthelane,cheeredbythethoughtthat,afterall,hewouldseeherintheevening,andperhapsengageagaininthedelightfultub- broachingintheneighbouringchurchtower,whichproceedingheresolvedtorendermoremoralbysteadfastlyinsistingthatnowatershouldbeintroducedtofillup,thoughthetubshouldclucklikeallthehensinChristendom。Butnothingcoulddisguisethefactthatitwasaqueerbusiness;andhiscountenancefellwhenhethoughthowmuchmorehismindwasinterestedinthatmatterthaninhisseriousduties。 However,compunctionvanishedwiththedeclineofday。Nightcame,andhisteaandsupper;butnoLizzyNewberry,andnosweettemptations。Atlasttheministercouldbearitnolonger,andsaidtohisquaintlittleattendant,’WhereisMrs。Newberryto-day?’ judiciouslyhandingapennyashespoke。 ’She’sbusy,’saidMartha。 ’Anythingserioushappened?’heasked,handinganotherpenny,andrevealingyetadditionalpenniesinthebackground。 ’Ono——nothingatall!’saidshe,withbreathlessconfidence。 ’Nothingeverhappenstoher。She’sonlybidingupstairsinbedbecause’tisherwaysometimes。’ Beingayoungmanofsomehonour,hewouldnotquestionfurther,andassumingthatLizzymusthaveabadheadache,orotherslightailment,inspiteofwhatthegirlhadsaid,hewenttobeddissatisfied,notevensettingeyesonoldMrs。Simpkins。’IsaidlastnightthatIshouldseeherto-morrow,’hereflected;’butthatwasnottobe!’ Nextdayhehadbetterfortune,orworse,meetingheratthefootofthestairsinthemorning,andbeingfavouredbyavisitortwofromherduringtheday——onceforthepurposeofmakingkindlyinquiriesabouthiscomfort,asonthefirstevening,andatanothertimetoplaceabunchofwinter-violetsonhistable,withapromisetorenewthemwhentheydrooped。Ontheseoccasionstherewassomethinginhersmilewhichshowedhowconsciousshewasoftheeffectsheproduced,thoughitmustbesaidthatitwasratherahumorousthanadesigningconsciousness,andsavouredmoreofpridethanofvanity。 AsforStockdale,heclearlyperceivedthathepossessedunlimitedcapacityforbacksliding,andwishedthattutelarysaintswerenotdeniedtoDissenters。Hesetawatchuponhistongueandeyesforthespaceofonehourandahalf,afterwhichhefounditwasuselesstostrugglefurther,andgavehimselfuptothesituation。 ’Theotherministerwillbehereinamonth,’hesaidtohimselfwhensittingoverthefire。’ThenIshallbeoff,andshewilldistractmymindnomore!……Andthen,shallIgoonlivingbymyselfforever?No;whenmytwoyearsofprobationarefinished,I shallhaveafurnishedhousetolivein,withavarnisheddoorandabrassknocker;andI’llmarchstraightbacktoher,andaskherflat,assoonasthelastplateisonthedresser! ThusatitillatingfortnightwaspassedbyyoungStockdale,duringwhichtimethingsproceededmuchassuchmattershavedoneeversincethebeginningofhistory。Hesawtheobjectofattachmentseveraltimesoneday,didnotseeheratallthenext,metherwhenheleastexpectedtodoso,missedherwhenhintsandsignsastowheresheshouldbeatagivenhouralmostamountedtoanappointment。Thismildcoquetrywasperhapsfairenoughunderthecircumstancesoftheirbeingsocloselylodged,andStockdaleputupwithitasphilosophicallyashewasable。Beinginherownhouse,shecould,aftervexinghimordisappointinghimofherpresence,easilywinhimbackbysuddenlysurroundinghimwiththoselittleattentionswhichherpositionashislandladyputitinherpowertobestow。Whenhehadwaitedindoorshalfthedaytoseeher,andonfindingthatshewouldnotbeseen,hadgoneoffinahufftothedreariestanddampestwalkhecoulddiscover,shewouldrestoreequilibriumintheeveningwith’Mr。Stockdale,Ihavefanciedyoumustfeeldraughto’nightsfromyourbedroomwindow,andsoIhavebeenputtingupthickercurtainsthisafternoonwhileyouwereout;’ or,’Inoticedthatyousneezedtwiceagainthismorning,Mr。 Stockdale。Dependuponitthatcoldishangingaboutyouyet;Iamsureitis——Ihavethoughtofitcontinually;andyoumustletmemakeapossetforyou。’ Sometimesincominghomehefoundhissitting-roomrearranged,chairsplacedwherethetablehadstood,andthetableornamentedwiththefewfreshflowersandleavesthatcouldbeobtainedatthisseason,soastoaddanoveltytotheroom。Attimesshewouldbestandingonachairoutsidethehouse,tryingtonailupabranchofthemonthlyrosewhichthewinterwindhadblowndown;andofcoursehesteppedforwardtoassisther,whentheirhandsgotmixedinpassingtheshredsandnails。Thustheybecamefriendsagainafteradisagreement。Shewouldutterontheseoccasionssomeprettyanddeprecatoryremarkonthenecessityofhertroublinghimanew;andhewouldstraightwaysaythathewoulddoahundredtimesasmuchforherifsheshouldsorequire。