第38章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4463更新时间:18/12/27 09:08:44
Theroomwasquitesilent;notabreathing,notarustle,camefromanypartofit。Stockdalenowsentapositiveshoutthroughtheopenspaceofthedoor:’Mrs。Newberry!’——stillnoanswer,ormovementofanykindwithin。Thenheheardsoundsfromtheoppositeroom,thatofLizzy’smother,asifshehadbeenarousedbyhisuproarthoughLizzyhadnot,andwasdressingherselfhastily。 Stockdalesoftlyclosedtheyoungerwoman’sdoorandwentontotheother,whichwasopenedbyMrs。Simpkinsbeforehecouldreachit。 Shewasinherordinaryclothes,andhadalightinherhand。 ’What’sthepersoncallingabout?’shesaidinalarm。 Stockdaletoldthegirl’serrand,addingseriously,’IcannotwakeMrs。Newberry。’ ’Itisnomatter,’saidhermother。’Icanletthegirlhavewhatshewantsaswellasmydaughter。’Andshecameoutoftheroomandwentdownstairs。 Stockdaleretiredtowardshisownapartment,saying,however,toMrs。Simpkinsfromthelanding,asifonsecondthoughts,’IsupposethereisnothingthematterwithMrs。Newberry,thatIcouldnotwakeher?’ ’Ono,’saidtheoldladyhastily。’Nothingatall。’ Stilltheministerwasnotsatisfied。’Willyougoinandsee?’hesaid。’Ishouldbemuchmoreatease。’ Mrs。Simpkinsreturnedupthestaircase,wenttoherdaughter’sroom,andcameoutagainalmostinstantly。’ThereisnothingatallthematterwithLizzy,’shesaid;anddescendedagaintoattendtotheapplicant,who,havingseenthelight,hadremainedquietduringthisinterval。 Stockdalewentintohisroomandlaydownasbefore。HeheardLizzy’smotheropenthefrontdoor,admitthegirl,andthenthemurmureddiscourseofbothastheywenttothestore-cupboardforthemedicamentrequired。Thegirldeparted,thedoorwasfastened,Mrs。Simpkinscameupstairs,andthehousewasagaininsilence。 Stilltheministerdidnotfallasleep。Hecouldnotgetridofasingularsuspicion,whichwasallthemoreharassinginbeing,iftrue,themostunaccountablethingwithinhisexperience。ThatLizzyNewberrywasinherbedroomwhenhemadesuchaclamouratthedoorhecouldnotpossiblyconvincehimself;notwithstandingthathehadheardhercomeupstairsattheusualtime,gointoherchamber,andshutherselfupintheusualway。Yetallreasonwassomuchagainstherbeingelsewhere,thathewasconstrainedtogobackagaintotheunlikelytheoryofaheavysleep,thoughhehadheardneitherbreathnormovementduringashoutingandknockingloudenoughtorousetheSevenSleepers。 Beforecomingtoanypositiveconclusionhefellasleephimself,anddidnotawaketillday。HesawnothingofMrs。Newberryinthemorning,beforehewentouttomeettherisingsun,ashelikedtodowhentheweatherwasfine;butasthiswasbynomeansunusual,hetooknonoticeofit。Atbreakfast-timeheknewthatshewasnotfaroffbyhearingherinthekitchen,andthoughhesawnothingofherperson,thatbackapartmentbeingrigorouslyclosedagainsthiseyes,sheseemedtobetalking,ordering,andbustlingaboutamongthepotsandskimmersinsoordinaryamanner,thattherewasnoreasonforhiswastingmoretimeinfruitlesssurmise。 Theministersufferedfromthesedistractions,andhisextemporizedsermonswerenotimprovedthereby。AlreadyheoftensaidRomansforCorinthiansinthepulpit,andgaveouthymnsinstrangecrampedmetres,thathithertohadalwaysbeenskipped,becausethecongregationcouldnotraiseatunetofitthem。Hefullyresolvedthatassoonashisfewweeksofstayapproachedtheirendhewouldcutthemattershort,andcommithimselfbyproposingadefiniteengagement,repentingatleisureifnecessary。 Withthisendinview,hesuggestedtoherontheeveningafterhermysterioussleepthattheyshouldtakeawalktogetherjustbeforedark,thelatterpartofthepropositionbeingintroducedthattheymightreturnhomeunseen。Sheconsentedtogo;andawaytheywentoverastile,toashroudedfootpathsuitedfortheoccasion。But,inspiteofattemptsonbothsides,theywereunabletoinfusemuchspiritintotheramble。Shelookedratherpalerthanusual,andsometimesturnedherheadaway。 ’Lizzy,’saidStockdalereproachfully,whentheyhadwalkedinsilencealongdistance。 ’Yes,’saidshe。 ’Youyawned——muchmycompanyistoyou!’Heputitinthatway,buthewasreallywonderingwhetherheryawncouldpossiblyhavemoretodowithphysicalwearinessfromthenightbeforethanmentalwearinessofthatpresentmoment。Lizzyapologized,andownedthatshewasrathertired,whichgavehimanopeningforadirectquestiononthepoint;buthismodestywouldnotallowhimtoputittoher;andheuncomfortablyresolvedtowait。 ThemonthofFebruarypassedwithalternationsofmudandfrost,rainandsleet,eastwindsandnorth-westerlygales。Thehollowplacesintheploughedfieldsshowedthemselvesaspoolsofwater,whichhadsettledtherefromthehigherlevels,andhadnotyetfoundtimetosoakaway。Thebirdsbegantogetlively,andasinglethrushcamejustbeforesunseteachevening,andsanghopefullyonthelargeelm-treewhichstoodnearesttoMrs。 Newberry’shouse。Coldblastsandbrittleearthhadgivenplacetoanoozingdampnessmoreunpleasantinitselfthanfrost;butitsuggestedcomingspring,anditsunpleasantnesswasofabearablekind。 StockdalehadbeengoingtobringaboutapracticalunderstandingwithLizzyatleasthalf-a-dozentimes;but,whatwiththemysteryofherapparentabsenceonthenightoftheneighbour’scall,andhercuriouswayoflyinginbedatunaccountabletimes,hefeltacheckwithinhimwheneverhewantedtospeakout。Thustheystilllivedonasindefinitelyaffiancedlovers,eachofwhomhardlyacknowledgedtheother’sclaimtothenameofchosenone。Stockdalepersuadedhimselfthathishesitationwasowingtothepostponementoftheordainedminister’sarrival,andtheconsequentdelayinhisowndeparture,whichdidawaywithallnecessityforhasteinhiscourtship;butperhapsitwasonlythathisdiscretionwasreassertingitself,andtellinghimthathehadbettergetclearerideasofLizzybeforearrangingforthegrandcontractofhislifewithher。She,onherpart,alwaysseemedreadytobeurgedfurtheronthatquestionthanhehadhithertoattemptedtogo;butshewasnonethelessindependent,andtoadegreewhichwouldhavekeptfromflaggingthepassionofafarmoremutableman。 OntheeveningofthefirstofMarchhewentcasuallyintohisbedroomaboutdusk,andnoticedlyingonachairagreatcoat,hat,andbreeches。Havingnorecollectionofleavinganyclothesofhisowninthatspot,hewentandexaminedthemaswellashecouldinthetwilight,andfoundthattheydidnotbelongtohim。Hepausedforamomenttoconsiderhowtheymighthavegotthere。Hewastheonlymanlivinginthehouse;andyetthesewerenothisgarments,unlesshehadmadeamistake。No,theywerenothis。HecalledupMarthaSarah。 ’Howdidthesethingscomeinmyroom?’hesaid,flingingtheobjectionablearticlestothefloor。 MarthasaidthatMrs。Newberryhadgiventhemtohertobrush,andthatshehadbroughtthemuptherethinkingtheymustbeMr。 Stockdale’s,astherewasnoothergentlemana-lodgingthere。 ’Ofcourseyoudid,’saidStockdale。’Nowtakethemdowntoyourmis’ess,andsaytheyaresomeclothesIhavefoundhereandknownothingabout。’ Asthedoorwasleftopenheheardtheconversationdownstairs。 ’Howstupid!’saidMrs。Newberry,inatoneofconfusion。’Why,MartherSarer,Ididnottellyoutotake’emtoMr。Stockdale’sroom?’ ’Ithoughttheymustbehisastheywassomuddy,’saidMarthahumbly。 ’Youshouldhaveleft’emontheclothes-horse,’saidtheyoungmistressseverely;andshecameupstairswiththegarmentsonherarm,quicklypassedStockdale’sroom,andthrewthemforciblyintoaclosetattheendofapassage。Withthistheincidentended,andthehousewassilentagain。 Therewouldhavebeennothingremarkableinfindingsuchclothesinawidow’shousehadtheybeenclean;ormoth-eaten,orcreased,ormouldyfromlonglyingby;butthattheyshouldbesplashedwithrecentmudbotheredStockdaleagooddeal。Whenayoungpastorisintheaspenstageofattachment,andopentoagitationatthemeresttrifles,areallysubstantialincongruityofthiscomplexionisadisturbingthing。However,nothingfurtheroccurredatthattime;buthebecamewatchful,andgiventoconjecture,andwasunabletoforgetthecircumstance。 Onemorning,onlookingfromhiswindow,hesawMrs。Newberryherselfbrushingthetailsofalongdrabgreatcoat,which,ifhemistooknot,wastheverysamegarmentastheonethathadadornedthechairofhisroom。ItwasdenselysplasheduptothehollowofthebackwithneighbouringNether-Moyntonmud,tojudgebyitscolour,thespotsbeingdistinctlyvisibletohiminthesunlight。 Thepreviousdayortwohavingbeenwet,theinferencewasirresistiblethatthewearerhadquiterecentlybeenwalkingsomeconsiderabledistanceaboutthelanesandfields。Stockdaleopenedthewindowandlookedout,andMrs。Newberryturnedherhead。Herfacebecameslowlyred;sheneverhadlookedprettier,ormoreincomprehensible,hewavedhishandaffectionately,andsaidgood- morning;sheansweredwithembarrassment,havingceasedheroccupationontheinstantthatshesawhim,androlledupthecoathalf-cleaned。 Stockdaleshutthewindow。Somesimpleexplanationofherproceedingwasdoubtlesswithintheboundsofpossibility;buthehimselfcouldnotthinkofone;andhewishedthatshehadplacedthematterbeyondconjecturebyvoluntarilysayingsomethingaboutitthereandthen。 But,thoughLizzyhadnotofferedanexplanationatthemoment,thesubjectwasbroughtforwardbyheratthenexttimeoftheirmeeting。Shewaschattingtohimconcerningsomeotherevent,andremarkedthatithappenedaboutthetimewhenshewasdustingsomeoldclothesthathadbelongedtoherpoorhusband。 ’Youkeepthemcleanoutofrespecttohismemory?’saidStockdaletentatively。 ’Iairanddustthemsometimes,’shesaid,withthemostcharminginnocenceintheworld。 ’Dodeadmencomeoutoftheirgravesandwalkinmud?’murmuredtheminister,inacoldsweatatthedeceptionthatshewaspractising。 ’Whatdidyousay?’askedLizzy。