第3章

类别:其他 作者:Eleanor H。 Porter字数:5015更新时间:18/12/27 14:59:51
Billyshookherhead。 Iknow;butAuntHannahsaidthatevenifIneverexpectedtocook,myself,Ioughttoknowhowitwasdone,sotoproperlyoverseeit。Shesaidthat——thatnowoman,whodidn’tknowhowtocookandkeephouseproperly,hadanybusinesstobeawife。And,Bertram,Ididtry,honestly,allthisweek。Itriedsohardtorememberwhenyouspongedbreadandwhenyoukneadedit。’ Idon’teverneed——_yours_,’cutinBertram,shamelessly;buthegotonlyadeservedlysternglanceinreturn。 AndIrepeatedoverandoveragainhowmanycupfulsofflourandpinchesofsaltandspoonfulsofbaking-powderwentintothings; but,Bertram,Isimplycouldnotkeepmymindonit。Everything,everywherewassingingtome。AndhowdoyousupposeIcouldrememberhowmanypinchesofflourandspoonfulsofsaltandcupfulsofbaking-powderwentintoaloafofcakewhenallthewhiletheveryteakettleonthestovewassinging:`It’sallright——Bertramlovesme——I’mgoingtomarryBertram!’?’ Youdarling!’(InspiteofthemanacrosstheaisleBertramdidalmostkissherthistime。) Asifanybodycaredhowmanycupfulsofbaking-powderwentanywhere——withthatinyourheart!’ AuntHannahsaysyouwill——whenyou’rehungry。AndKatesaid——’ Bertramutteredasharpwordbehindhisteeth。 Billy,forheaven’ssakedon’ttellmewhatKatesaid,ifyouwantmetostaysane,andnotattempttofightsomebody——brokenarm,andall。Kate_thinks_she’skind,andIsupposeshemeanswell;but——well,she’smadetroubleenoughbetweenusalready。I’vegotyounow,sweetheart。You’remine——allmine——’hisvoiceshook,anddroppedtoatenderwhisper—— `tilldeathusdopart。’’ Yes;`tilldeathusdopart,’’breathedBilly。 Andthen,foratime,theyfellsilent。 `I,Bertram,takethee,Billy,’’sangthewhirringwheelsbeneaththem,toone。 `I,Billy,takethee,Bertram,’’sangthewhirringwheelsbeneaththem,totheother。 Whilestraightaheadbeforethemboth,stretchedfairandbeautifulintheireyes,thewondrouspathoflifewhichtheyweretotreadtogether。 OnthefirstSundayaftertheweddingPetecameup-stairstotellhismaster,William,thatMrs。Stetsonwantedtoseehiminthedrawing- room。 Williamwentdownatonce。 Well,AuntHannah,’hebegan,reachingoutacordialhand。Why,what’sthematter?’hebrokeoffconcernedly,ashecaughtaclearerviewofthelittleoldlady’sdrawnfaceandtroubledeyes。 William,it’ssilly,ofcourse,’criedAuntHannah,tremulously,butIsimplyhadtogotosomeone。I——Ifeelsonervousandunsettled!Did——didBillysayanythingtoyou—— whatshewasgoingtodo?’ Whatshewasgoingtodo?Aboutwhat? Whatdoyoumean?’ Aboutthehouse——sellingit,’falteredAuntHannah,sinkingwearilybackintoherchair。 Williamfrownedthoughtfully。 Why,no,’heanswered。Itwasallsohurriedatthelast,youknow。Therewasreallyverylittlechancetomakeplansforanything—— exceptthewedding,’hefinished,withasmile。 Yes,Iknow,’sighedAuntHannah。Everythingwasinsuchconfusion!Still,Ididn’tknowbutshemighthavesaidsomething——toyou。’ No,shedidn’t。ButIimagineitwon’tbehardtoguesswhatshe’lldo。WhentheygetbackfromtheirtripIfancyshewon’tlosemuchtimeinhavingwhatthingsshewantsbroughtdownhere。Thenshe’llselltherestandputthehouseonthemarket。’ Yes,of——ofcourse,’stammeredAuntHannah,pullingherselfhastilytoamoreerectposition。 That’swhatIthought,too。Thendon’tyouthinkwe’dbetterdismissRosaandclosethehouseatonce?’ Why——yes,perhapsso。Whynot?Thenyou’dbeallsettledherewhenshecomeshome。 I’msure,thesooneryoucome,thebetterI’llbepleased,’hesmiled。 AuntHannahturnedsharply。 Here!’sheejaculated。WilliamHenshaw,youdidn’tsupposeIwascoming_here_tolive,didyou?’ ItwasWilliam’sturntolookamazed。 Why,ofcourseyou’recominghere!Whereelseshouldyougo,pray?’ WhereIwasbefore——beforeBillycame——toyou,’returnedAuntHannahalittletremulously,butwithacertaindignity。Ishalltakearoominsomequietboarding-house,ofcourse。’ Nonsense,AuntHannah!AsifBillywouldlistentothat!Youcamebefore;whynotcomenow?’ AuntHannahliftedherchinthefractionofaninch。 Youforget。Iwasneededbefore。Billyisamarriedwomannow。Sheneedsnochaperon。’ Nonsense!’scowledWilliam,again。Billywillalwaysneedyou。’ AuntHannahshookherheadmournfully。 Iliketothink——shewantsme,William,butIknow,inmyheart,itisn’tbest。’ Whynot?’ Therewasamoment’spause;then,decisivelycametheanswer。 BecauseIthinkyoungmarriedfolksshouldnothaveoutsidersinthehome。’ Williamlaughedrelievedly。 Oh,sothat’sit!Well,AuntHannah,you’renooutsider。Come,runrightalonghomeandpackyourtrunk。’ AuntHannahwasplainlyalmostcrying;butsheheldherground。 William,Ican’t,’shereiterated。 But——Billyissuchachild,and——’ ForonceinhercircumspectlifeAuntHannahwasguiltyofaninterruption。 Pardonme,William,sheisnotachild。Sheisawomannow,andshehasawoman’sproblemstomeet。’ Well,then,whydon’tyouhelphermeetthem?’retortedWilliam,stillwithawhimsicalsmile。 ButAuntHannahdidnotsmile。Foraminuteshedidnotspeak;then,withhereyesstudiouslyaverted,shesaid: William,thefirstfouryearsofmymarriedlifewere——werespoiledbyanoutsiderinourhome。Idon’tmeantospoilBilly’s。’ Williamrelaxedvisibly。Thesmilefledfromhisface。 Why——Aunt——Hannah!’heexclaimed。 Thelittleoldladyturnedwithawearysigh。 Yes,Iknow。Youareshocked,ofcourse。 Ishouldn’thavetoldyou。Still,itisallpastlongago,and——IwantedtomakeyouunderstandwhyIcan’tcome。Hewasmyhusband’seldestbrother——abachelor。Hewasgoodandkind,andmeantwell,Isuppose;but——heinterferedwitheverything。Iwasyoung,andprobablyheadstrong。Atallevents,therewasconstantfriction。Hewentawayonceandstayedtwowholemonths。Ishallneverforgettheutterfreedomandhappinessofthosemonthsforus,withthewholehousetoourselves。No,William,Ican’tcome。’Sheroseabruptlyandturnedtowardthedoor。Hereyeswerewistful,andherfacewasstilldrawnwithsuffering;butherwholefraillittleselfquiveredplainlywithhighresolve。JohnhasPeggyoutside。Imustgo。’ But——but,AuntHannah,’beganWilliam,helplessly。 Sheliftedaprotestinghand。 No,don’turgeme,please。Ican’tcomehere。 But——IbelieveIwon’tclosethehousetillBillygetshome,afterall,’shedeclared。Thenextmomentshewasgone,andWilliam,dazedly,fromthedoorway,waswatchingJohnhelpherintoBilly’sautomobile,calledbyBillyandhalfherfriends,Peggy,’shortforPegasus。’ StilldazedlyWilliamturnedbackintothehouseanddroppedhimselfintothenearestchair。 Whatacuriouscallithadbeen!AuntHannahhadnotactedlikeherselfatall。NotoncehadshesaidOh,mygriefandconscience!’whilethethingsshe_had_said——!Someway,hehadneverthoughtofAuntHannahasbeingyoung,andabride。Still,ofcourseshemusthavebeen——once。Andthereasonshegavefornotcomingtheretolive——thepitifulstoryofthatoutsiderinherhome!Butshewasnooutsider!ShewasnointerferingbrotherofBilly’s—— Williamcaughthisbreathsuddenly,andhelditsuspended。Thenhegavealowejaculationandhalfsprangfromhischair。 Spunkie,disturbedfromherdozebythefire,utteredapurringme-o-ow,’andlookedupinquiringly。 ForalongminuteWilliamgazeddumblyintothecat’syellow,sleepilycontentedeyes;thenhesaidwithtragicdistinctness: Spunkie,it’strue:AuntHannahisn’tBilly’shusband’sbrother,but——Iam!Doyouhear? I_am!_’ Pur-r-me-ow!’commentedSpunkie;andcurledherselfforanothernap。 TherewasnopeaceforWilliamafterthat。Invainhetoldhimselfthathewasnointerfering’ brother,andthatthiswashishomeandhadbeenallhislife;invaindidhedeclareemphaticallythathecouldnotgo,hewouldnotgo; thatBillywouldnotwishhimtogo:alwaysbeforehiseyeswasthevisionofthatlittlebrideofyearslonggone;alwaysinhisearswastheechoofAuntHannah’sIshallneverforgettheutterfreedomandhappinessofthosemonthsforus,withthewholehousetoourselves。’Nor,turnwhichwayhewould,couldhefindanythingtocomforthim。Simplybecausehewassofearfullylookingforit,hefoundit——thethingthathadforitsthemethewretchednessthatmightbeexpectedfromthepresenceofathirdpersoninthenewhome。 PoorWilliam!Everywherehemetit——thehint,theword,thestory,thesong,even;andalwaysitaddeditsmitetothewoefulwhole。 Eventhehoariestofmother-in-lawjokeshaditsstingforhim;and,tomakehiscupquitefull,hechancedtorememberonedaywhatMariehadsaidwhenhehadsuggestedthatsheandCyrilcometotheStratatolive:No;Ithinkyoungfolksshouldbeginbythemselves。’ Unhappy,indeed,werethesedaysforWilliam。 Likealostspirithewanderedfromroomtoroom,touchingthis,fingeringthat。Forlongminuteshewouldstandbeforesomepicture,orsometreasuredbitofoldmahogany,asiftostampindeliblyuponhismindathingthatwassoontobenomore。Atothertimes,likeamanwithoutahome,hewouldgooutintotheCommonorthePublicGardenandsitforhoursonsomebench——thinking。 Allthiscouldhavebutoneending,ofcourse。 BeforethemiddleofAugustWilliamsummonedPetetohisrooms。 Oh,Pete,I’mgoingtomovenextweek,’ hebegannonchalantly。Hisvoicesoundedasifmovingwereapleasurablecircumstancethatoccurredinhisliferegularlyonceamonth。I’dlikeyoutobegintopackupthesethings,please,to-morrow。’ Theoldservant’smouthfellopen。 You’regoin’to——towhat,sir?’hestammered。 Move——_move_,Isaid。’Williamspokewithunusualharshness。 Petewethislips。 Youmeanyou’vesoldtheoldplace,sir?—— thatwe——weain’tgoin’toliveherenolonger?’ Sold?Ofcoursenot!_I’m_goingtomoveaway;notyou。’ IfPetecouldhaveknownwhatcausedthesharpnessinhismaster’svoice,hewouldnothavebeensogrieved——or,rather,hewouldhavebeengrievedforadifferentreason。Asitwashecouldonlyfaltermiserably: _You_aregoin’tomoveawayfromhere!’ Yes,yes,man!Why,Pete,whatailsyou? Onewouldthinkabodynevermovedbefore。’ Theydidn’t——notyou,sir。’ Williamturnedabruptly,sothathisfacecouldnotbeseen。Withsterndeliberationhepickedupanelaboratelydecoratedteapot;butthevaluablebitofLowestoftshooksoinhishandthathesetitdownatonce。Itclickedsharplyagainstitsneighbor,betrayinghisnervoushand。 Petestirred。 But,Mr。William,’hestammeredthickly; howareyou——what’llyoudowithout——Theredoesn’tnobodybutmeknowsowellaboutyourtea,andthetwolumpsinyourcoffee;andthere’syourflannelsthatyouneverputontillI get’emout,andthewoolensocksthatyou’dwearallsummerifIdidn’thide’em。And—— andwho’sgoin’totakecareofthese?’hefinished,withaglancethatencompassedtheoverflowingcabinetsandshelvesofcuriosallabouthim。 Hismastersmiledsadly。Anaffectionthathaditsinceptioninhisboyhooddaysshoneinhiseyes。ThehandinwhichtheLowestofthadshakenrestednowheavilyonanoldman’sbentshoulder——ashoulderthatstraighteneditselfinunconsciousloyaltyunderthetouch。 Pete,youhavespoiledme,andnomistake。 Idon’texpecttofindanotherlikeyou。ButmaybeifIwearthewoolensockstoolateyou’llcomeandhuntuptheothersforme。Eh?’