第7章

类别:其他 作者:Eleanor H。 Porter字数:6821更新时间:18/12/27 14:59:51
Liketwoloverstheyreadandwalkedandtalkedtogether,andliketwochildren,sometimes,theyrompedthroughthestatelyoldroomswithSpunkie,orwithTommyDunn,whowasafrequentguest。Spunkie,beitknown,wasrenewingherkittenhood,sopotentwastheinfluenceofthedanglingstringsandrollingballsthatsheencounteredeverywhere;andTommyDunn,withBilly’shelp,waslearningthatnotevenapairofcrutchesneedkeepalonelylittleladfromafrolic。EvenWilliam,rousedfromhisafter- dinnerdozebypealsoflaughter,wassometimesinveigledintoactivitiesthatlefthimbreathless,butcuriouslyaglow。WhilePete,polishingsilverinthedining-roomdown-stairs,smiledindulgentlyatthemerryclatterabove——andforgottheteasingpaininhisside。 ButitwasnotallnonsensewithBilly,norgaylaughter。Moreoftenitwasatenderglowintheeyes,asoftnessinthevoice,aradiantsomethinglikeanauraofjoyallabouther,thattoldhowhappyindeedwerethesedaysforher。Therewasproofbywordofmouth,too——longtalkswithBertraminthedancingfirelightwhentheylaiddearplansforthefuture,andwhenshetriedsohardtomakeherhusbandunderstandwhatagood,goodwifesheintendedtobe,andhowshemeantnevertoletanythingcomebetweenthem。 ItwassoearnestandseriousaBillybythistimethatBertramwouldturnstartled,dismayedeyesonhisyoungwife;whereupon,withaveryBilly-likechangeofmood,shewouldgivehimoneofherrarecaresses,andperhapssigh: Goosey——it’sonlybecauseI’msohappy,happy,happy!Why,Bertram,ifitweren’tforthatOverflowAnnexIbelieveI——Ijustcouldn’tlive! ItwasBertramwhosighedthen,andwhoprayedferventlyinhisheartthatnevermightheseearealshadowcloudthatdearface。 Thusfar,certainly,thecaresofmatrimonyhadrestedanythingbutheavilyupontheshapelyyoungshouldersofthenewwife。DomesticaffairsattheStratamovedlikeapieceofwell-oiledmachinery。DongLing,tobesure,wasnotthere; butinhisplacereignedPete’sgrandniece,afresh- faced,capableyoungwomanwho(Bertramdeclared)cookedlikeanangelandmindedherownbusinesslikeaman。Pete,asofyore,hadfullchargeofthehouse;andacasualeyewouldseefewchanges。Eventhebrothersthemselvessawfew,forthatmatter。 True,attheveryfirst,Billyhaddonnedaruffledapronandabewitchingdust-cap,andhadtraversedthehousefromcellartogarretwithaprettilyimportantairofmanagingthings,’asshesuggestedchangesrightandleft。ShehadsummonedPete,too,forthreemorningsinsuccession,andwithgreatdignityhadorderedthemealsfortheday。ButwhenBertramwasdiscoveredoneeveningtuggingbackhisfavoritechair,andwhenWilliamhadaskedifBillywerethroughusinghispipe-tray,theyoungwifehadconcludedtoletthingsremainaboutastheywere。AndwhenWilliamatenobreakfastonemorning,andBertramaggrievedlyrefuseddessertthatnightatdinner,Billy——learningthroughanapologeticPetethatMasterWilliamalwayshadtohaveeggsforbreakfastnomatterwhatelsetherewas,andthatMasterBertramneverateboiledrice——gaveupplanningthemeals。True,forthreemoremorningsshesummonedPetefororders,’buttheorderswerenothingmorenorlessthanablitheWell,Pete,whatarewegoingtohavefordinnerto-day?’Bytheendofaweekeventhisceremonywasgivenup,andbeforeamonthhadpassed,Billywaslittlemorethanaguestinherownhome,sofarasresponsibilitywasconcerned。 Billywasnotidle,however;farfromit。First,therewerethedelightfulhourswithBertram。 Thentherewashermusic:Billywaswritinganewsong——thebestshehadeverwritten,Billydeclared。 Why,Bertram,itcan’thelpbeingthat,’shesaidtoherhusband,oneday。Thewordsjustsangthemselvestomerightoutofmyheart; andthemelodyjustdroppeddownfromthesky。 Andnow,everywhere,I’mhearingthemostwonderfulharmonies。Thewholeuniverseissingingtome。IfonlynowIcanputitonpaperwhatIhear!ThenIcanmakethewholeuniversesingtosomeoneelse!’ Evenmusic,however,hadtosteponesidefortheweddingcallswhichwerebeginningtobereceived,andwhichmustbereturned,inspiteoftheoccasionalrebellionoftheyounghusband。 Therewerethemoreintimatefriendstobeseen,also,andCyrilandMarietobevisited。AndalwaystherewastheAnnex。 TheAnnexwasinfinerunningordernow,andwasasourceofinfinitesatisfactiontoitsfounderandgreathappinesstoitsbeneficiaries。TommyDunnwasthere,learningwonderfulthingsfrombooksandstillmorewonderfulthingsfromthepianointheliving-room。AliceGreggoryandhermotherwerethere,too——theresultofmuchpersuasion。Indeed,accordingtoBertram,BillyhadbeenabletofilltheAnnexonlybytellingeachprospectiveresidentthatheorshewasabsolutelynecessarytothewelfareandhappinessofeveryotherresident。Notthatthehousewasfull,either。Therewerestilltwounoccupiedrooms。 Butthen,I’mgladthereare,’Billyhaddeclared,forthere’ssuretobesomeonethatI’llwanttosendthere。’ Some_one_,didyousay?’Bertramhadretorted,meaningly;buthiswifehaddisdainedtoanswerthis。 BillyherselfwasfrequentlyattheAnnex。 ShetoldAuntHannahthatshehadtocomeoftentobringthehappiness——itaccumulatedsofast。 Certainlyshealwaysfoundplentytodothere,whenevershecame。TherewasAuntHannahtobereadto,Mrs。Greggorytobesungto,andTommyDunntobelistenedto;forTommyDunnwasalwaysquiveringwitheagernesstoplayherhislatestpiece。’ BillyknewthatsomedayattheAnnexshewouldmeetMr。M。J。Arkwright;andshetoldherselfthatshehopedsheshould。 BillyhadnotseenArkwright(exceptonthestageoftheBostonOperaHouse)sincethedayhehadleftherpresenceinwhite-faced,stony- eyedmiseryafterdeclaringhisloveforher,andlearningofherengagementtoBertram。Sincethen,sheknew,hehadbeenmuchwithhisoldfriend,AliceGreggory。Shedidnotbelieve,shouldsheseehimnow,thathewouldbeeitherwhite-faced,orstony-eyed。Hisheart,shewassure,hadgonewhereitoughttohavegoneinthefirstplace——toAlice。Suchbeing,inheropinion,thecase,shelongedtogettheembarrassmentofafirstmeetingbetweenthemselvesoverwith,for,afterthat,shewassure,theiroldfriendshipcouldberenewed,andshewouldbeinapositiontofurtherthisprettyloveaffairbetweenhimandAlice。Verydecidedly,therefore,BillywishedtomeetArkwright。Verypleased,consequently,wasshewhen,oneday,comingintotheliving-roomattheAnnex,shefoundthemansittingbythefire。 Arkwrightwasonhisfeetatonce。 Miss——Mrs。H——Henshaw,’hestammeredOh,Mr。Arkwright,’shecried,withjustashadeofnervousnessinhervoiceassheadvanced,herhandoutstretched。I’mgladtoseeyou。’ Thankyou。IwantedtoseeMissGreggory,’ hemurmured。Then,astheunconsciousrudenessofhisreplydawnedonhim,hemademattersinfinitelyworsebyanattemptedapology。Thatis,Imean——Ididn’tmean——’hebegantostammermiserably。 Somegirlsmighthavetossedtheflounderingmanastrawintheshapeofalightlaughintendedtoturnasideallembarrassment——butnotBilly。 Billyheldoutafranklyhelpinghandthatwasmeanttosetthemansquarelyonhisfeetatherside。 Mr。Arkwright,don’t,please,’shebeggedearnestly。YouandIdon’tneedtobeataboutthebush。I_am_gladtoseeyou,andIhopeyou’regladtoseeme。We’regoingtobethebestoffriendsfromnowon,I’msure;andsomeday,soon,you’regoingtobringAlicetoseeme,andwe’llhavesomemusic。Ileftherup-stairs。She’llbedownatonce,Idaresay——ImetRosagoingupwithyourcard。Good-by,’shefinishedwithabrightsmile,assheturnedandwalkedrapidlyfromtheroom。 Outside,onthesteps,Billydrewalongbreath。 There,’shewhispered;that’sover——andwellover!’Thenextminuteshefrownedvexedly。 Shehadmissedherglove。Nevermind! Isha’n’tgobackinthereforitnow,anyway,’ shedecided。 Intheliving-room,fiveminuteslater,AliceGreggoryfoundonlyahastilyscrawlednotewaitingforher。 Ifyou’llforgivetheunforgivable,’shereadyou’llforgivemefornotbeingherewhenyoucomedown。`CircumstancesoverwhichIhavenocontrolhavecalledmeaway。’Mayweletitgoatthat?。 AsAliceGreggory’samazed,questioningeyesleftthenotetheyfelluponthelongwhitegloveonthefloorbythedoor。Halfmechanicallyshecrossedtheroomandpickeditup;butalmostatonceshedroppeditwithalowcry。 Billy!He——saw——Billy!’Thenafloodofunderstandingdyedherfacescarletassheturnedandfledtotheblessedlyunseeingwallsofherownroom。 NottenminuteslaterRosatappedatherdoorwithanote。 It’sfromMr。Arkwright,Miss。He’sdownstairs。’ Rosa’seyeswerepuzzled,andabitstartled。 Mr。Arkwright!’ Yes,Miss。He’scomeagain。Thatis,I didn’tknowhe’dwent——buthemusthave,forhe’scomeagainnow。Hewrotesomethinginalittlebook;thenhetoreitoutandgaveittome。 Hesaidhe’dwait,please,forananswer。’ Oh,verywell,Rosa。’ MissGreggorytookthenoteandspokewithanelaborateairofindifferencethatwasmeanttoexpressacalmignoringofthepuzzledquestioningintheother’seyes。ThenextmomentshereadthisinArkwright’speculiarscrawl: Ifyou’vealreadyforgiventheunforgivable,you’lldoitagain,Iknow,andcomedown-stairs。 Won’tyou,please?Iwanttoseeyou。’ MissGreggoryliftedherheadwithajerk。 Herfacewasapainfulred。 TellMr。ArkwrightIcan’tpossibly——’Shecametoanabruptpause。HereyeshadencounteredRosa’s,andinRosa’seyesthepuzzledquestioningwasplainlyfastbecomingashrewdsuspicion。 Therewasthebriefestofhesitations;then,lightly,MissGreggorytossedthenoteaside。 TellMr。ArkwrightI’llbedownatonce,please,’shedirectedcarelessly,assheturnedbackintotheroom。 Butshewasnotdownatonce。Shewasnotdownuntilshehadtakentimetobatheherredeyes,powderhertelltalenose,smootheherruffledhair,andwhipherselfintothecalm,steady-eyed,self-controlledyoungwomanthatArkwrightfinallyrosetomeetwhenshecameintotheroom。 Ithoughtitwasonlywomenwhowereprivilegedtochangetheirmind,’shebeganbrightly; butArkwrightignoredherattempttoconventionalizethesituation。 Thankyouforcomingdown,’hesaid,withawearinessthatinstantlydrovetheforcedsmilefromthegirl’slips。I——Iwantedto——totalktoyou。’ Yes?’Sheseatedherselfandmotionedhimtoachairnearher。Hetooktheseat,andthenfellsilent,hiseyesoutthewindow。 Ithoughtyousaidyou——youwantedtotalk,sheremindedhimnervously,afteraminute。 Idid。’Heturnedwithdisconcertingabruptness。 Alice,I’mgoingtotellyouastory。’ Ishallbegladtolisten。Peoplealwayslikestories,don’tthey?’ Dothey?’ThesomberpaininArkwright’seyesdeepened。AliceGreggorydidnotknowit,buthewasthinkingofanotherstoryhehadoncetoldinthatsameroom。Billywashislistenerthen,whilenow——Alittleprecipitatelyhebegantospeak。 WhenIwasaverysmallboyIwenttovisitmyuncle,who,inhisyoungdays,hadbeenquiteahunter。Beforethefireplaceinhislibrarywasahugetigerskinwithaparticularlylifelikehead。 ThefirsttimeIsawitIscreamed,andranandhid。Irefusedtheneventogointotheroomagain。Mycousinsurged,scolded,pleaded,andlaughedatmebyturns,butIwasobdurate。I wouldnotgowhereIcouldseethefearsomethingagain,eventhoughitwas,astheysaid,`nothingbutadeadoldrug!’ Finally,oneday,myuncletookahandinthematter。Bysheerwill-powerheforcedmetogowithhimstraightuptothedreadedcreature,andstandbyitsside。Helaidoneofmyshrinkinghandsonthebeast’ssmoothhead,andthrusttheotheronequiteintotheopenredmouthwithitsgleamingteeth。 `Yousee,’hesaid,`there’sabsolutelynothingtofear。Hecan’tpossiblyhurtyou。Justasifyouweren’tbiggerandfinerandstrongerineverywaythanthatdeadthingonthefloor!’ Then,whenhehadgotmetothepointwhereofmyownfreewillIwouldwalkupandtouchthething,hedrewalessonforme。 `Nowremember,’hechargedme。`Neverrunandhideagain。Onlycowardsdothat。 Walkstraightupandfacethething。Tentooneyou’llfindit’snothingbutadeadskinmasqueradingastherealthing。Evenifitisn’tifit’salive——faceit。Findaweaponandfightit。 Knowthatyouaregoingtoconqueritandyou’llconquer。Neverrun。Beaman。Mendon’trun,myboy!’’ Arkwrightpaused,anddrewalongbreath。Hedidnotlookatthegirlintheoppositechair。Ifhehadlookedhewouldhaveseenafacetransfigured。 Well,’heresumed,Ineverforgotthattigerskin,norwhatitstoodfor,afterthatdaywhenUncleBenthrustmyhandintoitshideous,butharmless,redmouth。EvenasakidIbegan,then,totry——nottorun。I’vetriedeversinceButto-day——Ididrun。’ Arkwright’svoicehadbeengettinglowerandlower。ThelastthreewordswouldhavebeenalmostinaudibletoearslesssensitivelyalertthanwereAliceGreggory’s。Foramomentafterthewordswereuttered,onlytheclock’stickingbrokethesilence;then,withanobviouseffort,themanrousedhimself,asifbreakingawayfromsomebenumbingforcethatheldhim。 Alice,Idon’tneedtotellyou,afterwhatI saidtheothernight,thatIlovedBillyNeilson。 Thatwasbadenough,forIfoundshewaspledgedtoanotherman。Butto-dayIdiscoveredsomethingworse:IdiscoveredthatIlovedBilly_Henshaw_—— anotherman’swife。And——Iran。ButI’vecomeback。I’mgoingtofacethething。Oh,I’mnotdeceivingmyself!Thisloveofmineisnodeadtigerskin。It’sabeast,aliveandalert——Godpityme!——todestroymyverysoul。ButI’mgoingtofightit;and——Iwantyoutohelpme。’ Thegirlgaveahalf-smotheredcry。Themanturned,buthecouldnotseeherfacedistinctly。 Twilighthadcome,andtheroomwasfullofshadows。Hehesitated,thenwenton,alittlemorequietly。 That’swhyI’vetoldyouallthis——soyouwouldhelpme。Andyouwill,won’tyou?’ Therewasnoanswer。Onceagainhetriedtoseeherface,butitwasturnednowquiteawayfromhim。 You’vebeenabighelpalready,littlegirl。 Yourfriendship,yourcomradeship——they’vebeeneverythingtome。You’renotgoingtomakemedowithoutthem——now?’ No——oh,no!’Theanswerwaslowandalittlebreathless;butheheardit。 Thankyou。Iknewyouwouldn’t。’Hepaused,thenrosetohisfeet。Whenhespokeagainhisvoicecarriedanoteofwhimsicallightnessthatwasalittleforced。ButImustgo—— elseyou_will_takethemfromme,andwithgoodreason。Andpleasedon’tletyourkindheartgrievetoomuch——overme。I’mnodeep-dyedvillaininamelodrama,norwickedloverinaten- pennynovel,youknow。I’mjustaneverydaymaninreallife;andwe’regoingtofightthisthingoutineverydayliving。That’swhereyourhelpiscomingin。We’llgotogethertoseeMrs。BertramHenshaw。She’saskedusto,andyou’lldoit,Iknow。We’llhavemusicandeverydaytalk。 We’llseeMrs。BertramHenshawinherownhomewithherhusband,whereshebelongs;and——I’mnotgoingtorunagain。But——I’mcountingonyourhelp,youknow,’hesmiledalittlewistfully,asheheldouthishandingood-by。 OneminutelaterAliceGreggory,alone,washurryingup-stairs。 Ican’t——Ican’t——IknowIcan’t,’shewaswhisperingwildly。Then,inherownroom,shefacedherselfinthemirror。Yes——you——can,AliceGreggory,’sheasserted,withswiftchangeofvoiceandmanner。Thisis_your_tigerskin,andyou’regoingtofightit。Doyouunderstand?—— fightit!Andyou’regoingtowin,too。Doyouwantthatmantoknowyou——_care_?’