第8章

类别:其他 作者:Eleanor H。 Porter字数:5099更新时间:18/12/27 14:59:51
ItwastowardthelastofOctoberthatBillybegantonoticeherhusband’sgrowingrestlessness。 Twice,whenshehadbeenplayingtohim,sheturnedtofindhimtestingthesupplenessofhisinjuredarm。Severaltimes,failingtoreceiveananswertoherquestions,shehadlookeduptodiscoverhimgazingabstractedlyatnothinginparticular。 Theyreadandwalkedandtalkedtogether,tobesure,andBertram’sdevotiontoherlightestwishwasbeyondquestion;butmoreandmorefrequentlythesedaysBillyfoundhimhoveringoverhissketchesinhisstudio;andonce,whenhefailedtorespondtothedinner-bell,searchrevealedhimburiedinaprofoundtreatiseonTheArtofForeshortening。’ ThencamethedaywhenBilly,afteranhour’svainefforttoimprisonwithinnotesatantalizingmelody,capturedthetruantandraindowntothestudiototellBertramofhervictory。 ButBertramdidnotseemeventohearher。 True,heleapedtohisfeetandhurriedtomeether,hisfaceradiantlyaglow;butshehadnotceasedtospeakbeforehehimselfwastalking。 Billy,Billy,I’vebeensketching,’hecried。 Myhandisalmoststeady。See,someofthoselinesareallright!Ijustpickedupacrayonand——’Hestoppedabruptly,hiseyesonBilly’sface。Avaguelytroubledshadowcrossedhisown。Did——didyou——wereyousayinganythingin——inparticular,whenyoucamein?’hestammered。 Forashorthalf-minuteBillylookedatherhusbandwithoutspeaking。Then,alittlequeerly,shelaughed。 Oh,no,nothingatallin_particular_,’sheretortedairily。Thenextmoment,withoneofherunexpectedchangesofmanner,shedartedacrosstheroom,pickedupapalette,andahandfulofbrushesfromthelongboxnearit。Advancingtowardherhusbandsheheldthemoutdramatically。 Andnowpaint,mylord,paint!’shecommandedhim,withsterninsistence,asshethrustthemintohishands。 Bertramlaughedshamefacedly。 Oh,Isay,Billy,’hebegan;butBillyhadgone。 OutinthehallBillywasspeedingup-stairs,talkingfiercelytoherself。 We’ll,BillyNeilsonHenshaw,it’scome! Nowbehaveyourself。_Thatwasthepaintinglook!_ Youknowwhatthatmeans。Remember,hebelongstohisArtbeforehedoestoyou。Kateandeverybodysaysso。Andyou——youexpectedhimtotendtoyouandyoursillylittlesongs。Doyouwanttoruinhiscareer?Asifnowhecouldspendallhistimeandgiveallhisthoughtstoyou!ButI——IjusthatethatArt!’ Whatdidyousay,Billy?’askedWilliam,inmildsurprise,comingaroundtheturnofthebalustradeinthehallabove。Wereyouspeakingtome,mydear?’ Billylookedup。Herfaceclearedsuddenly,andshelaughed——thoughalittleruefully。 No,UncleWilliam,Iwasn’ttalkingtoyou,’ shesighed。Iwasjust——justadministeringfirstaidtotheinjured,’shefinished,asshewhiskedintoherownroom。 Well,well,blessthechild!Whatcanshemeanbythat?’puzzledUncleWilliam,turningtogodownthestairway。 Bertrambegantopaintaverylittlethenextday。Hepaintedstillmorethenext,andyetmoreagainthedayfollowing。Hewaslikeabirdletoutofacage,sojoyouslyalivewashe。Theoldsparklecamebacktohiseye,theoldgaysmiletohislips。NowthattheyhadcomebackBillyrealizedwhatshehadnotbeenconsciousofbefore:thatforseveralweekspasttheyhadnotbeenthere;andshewonderedwhichhurtthemore——thattheyhadnotbeentherebefore,orthattheyweretherenow。Thenshescoldedherselfroundlyforaskingthequestionatall。 Theywerenoteasy——thosedaysforBilly,thoughalwaystoBertramshemanagedtoshowacheerfullysereneface。ToUncleWilliam,also,andtoAuntHannahsheshowedasmilingcountenance; andbecauseshecouldnottalktoanybodyelseofherfeelings,shetalkedtoherself。 This,however,wasnonewthingforBillytodoFromearliestchildhoodshehadfoughtthingsoutinlikemanner。 Butit’ssoabsurdofyou,BillyHenshaw,’ sheberatedherselfoneday,whenBertramhadbecomesoabsorbedinhisworkthathehadforgottentokeephisappointmentwithherforawalk。Justbecauseyouhavehadhisconstantattentionalmosteveryhoursinceyouweremarriedisnoreasonwhyyoushouldhaveiteveryhournow,whenhisarmisbetter!Besides,it’sexactlywhatyousaidyouwouldn’tdo——object—— tohisgivingpropertimetohiswork。’ ButI’mnotobjecting,’stormedtheotherhalfofherself。I’m_telling_himtodoit。It’sonlythathe’sso——so_pleased_todoit。Hedoesn’tseemtomindabitbeingawayfromme。He’sactuallyhappy!’ Well,don’tyouwanthimtobehappyinhiswork?Fie!Forshame!Afineartist’swifeyouare。ItseemsKatewasright,then;you_are_goingtospoilhiscareer!’ Ho!’quothBilly,andtossedherhead。 Forthwithshecrossedtheroomtoherpianoandplumpedherselfdownhardontothestool。Then,fromunderherfingerstherefellarollickingmelodythatseemedtofilltheroomwithlittledancingfeet。FasterandfasterspedBilly’sfingers; swifterandswiftertwinkledthelittledancingfeet。Thenadoorwasjerkedopen,andBertram’svoicecalled: Billy!’ Themusicstoppedinstantly。Billysprangfromherseat,hereyeseagerlyseekingthedirectionfromwhichhadcomethevoice。Perhaps——_perhaps_ Bertramwantedher。Perhapshewasnotgoingtopaintanylongerthatmorning,afterall。 Billy!’calledthevoiceagain。Please,doyoumindstoppingthatplayingjustforalittlewhile?I’mabrute,Iknow,dear,butmybrush_will_trytokeeptimewiththatcrazylittletuneofyours,andyouknowmyhandisnonetoosteady,anyhow,andwhenittriestokeepupwiththatjiggety,jig,jig,jiggety,jig,jig——!_Do_youmind,,darling,just——justsewing,ordoingsomethingstillforawhile?’ AllthelightfledfromBilly’sface,buthervoice,whenshespoke,wasthequintessenceofcheeryindifference。 Why,no,ofcoursenot,dear。’ Thankyou。Iknewyouwouldn’t,’sighedBertram。Thenthedoorshut。 ForalongminuteBillystoodmotionlessbeforesheglancedatherwatchandspedtothetelephone。 IsMissGreggorythere,Rosa?’shecalledwhentheoperator’sringwasanswered。 Mis’Greggory,thelameone?’ No;_Miss_Greggory——MissAlice。’ Oh!Yes’m。’ Thenwon’tyouaskhertocometothetelephone,please。’ Therewasamoment’swait,duringwhichBilly’ssmall,well-shodfootbeatanervoustattooonthefloor。 Oh,isthatyou,Alice?’shecalledthen。 Areyougoingtobehomeforanhourortwo?’ Why,y-yes;yes,indeed。’ ThenI’mcomingover。We’llplayduets,sing——anything。Iwantsomemusic。’ Do!And——Mr。Arkwrightishere。He’llhelp。’ Mr。Arkwright?Yousayhe’sthere?ThenIwon’t——Yes,Iwill,too。’Billyspokewithrenewedfirmness。I’llbethererightaway。 Good-by。’Andshehungupthereceiver,andwenttotellPetetoorderJohnandPeggyatonce。 IsupposeIoughttohaveleftAliceandMr。 Arkwrightalonetogether,’mutteredtheyoungwifefeverishly,asshehurriedlypreparedfordeparture。ButI’llmakeituptothemlater。 I’mgoingtogivethemlotsofchances。Butto- day——to-dayIjusthadtogo——somewhere!’ AttheAnnex,withAliceGreggoryandArkwright,Billysangduetsandtrios,andreveledinasonorouswildernessofnewmusictoherheart’scontent。Then,rested,refreshed,andatpeacewithalltheworld,shehurriedhometodinnerandtoBertram。 There!Ifeelbetter,’shesighed,asshetookoffherhatinherownroom;andnowI’llgofindBertram。Blesshisheart——ofcoursehedidn’twantmetoplaywhenhewassobusy!’ Billywentstraighttothestudio,butBertramwasnotthere。NeitherwasheinWilliam’sroom,noranywhereinthehouse。Down-stairsinthedining-roomPetewasfoundlookingratherwhite,leaningbackinachair。Hestruggledatoncetohisfeet,however,ashismistressenteredtheroom。 Billyhurriedforwardwithastartledexclamation。 Why,Pete,whatisit?Areyousick?’shecried,herglanceencompassingthehalf-settable。 No,ma’am;oh,no,ma’am!’Theoldmanstumbledforwardandbegantoarrangetheknivesandforks。It’sjustapeskypain——beggin’ yerpardon——inmyside。ButIain’tsick。No,Miss——ma’am。’ Billyfrownedandshookherhead。HereyeswereonPete’spalpablytremblinghands。 But,Pete,youaresick,’sheprotested。LetElizadothat。’ Petedrewhimselfstifflyerect。Thecolorhadbeguntocomebacktohisface。 Therehain’tnoonesetthistablemuchbutmeformore’nfiftyyears,an’I’vegotasortofnotionthatnobodycandoitjusttersuitme。 Besides,I’mbetternow。It’sgone——thatpain。’ But,Pete,whatisit?Howlonghaveyouhadit?’ Ihain’thaditanytime,steady。It’sthecomin’an’goin’kind。Itseemssillyterminditatall;only,whenitdoescome,itsorto’takesthebackbonerightouto’myknees,andtheydoubleupso’sIhavetersetdown。There,yesee?I’mpertasasparrer,now!’And,withstiffcelerity,Peteresumedhistask。 Hismistressstillfrowned。 Thatisn’tright,Pete,’shedemurred,withaslowshakeofherhead。Youshouldseeadoctor。’ Theoldmanpaledalittle。Hehadseenadoctor,andhehadnotlikedwhatthedoctorhadtoldhim。Infact,hestubbornlyrefusedtobelievewhatthedoctorhadsaid。Hestraightenedhimselfnowalittleaggressively。 Humph!Beggin’yerpardon,Miss——ma’am,butIdon’tthinkmucho’themdoctorchaps。’ Billyshookherheadagainasshesmiledandturnedaway。Then,asifcasually,sheasked: Oh,didMr。Bertramgoout,Pete?’ Yes,Miss;aboutfiveo’clock。Hesaidhe’dbebacktodinner。’ Oh!Allright。’ Fromthehallthetelephonejangledsharply。 I’llgo,’saidPete’smistress,assheturnedandhurriedup-stairs。 ItwasBertram’svoicethatansweredheropeningHullo。’ Oh,Billy,isthatyou,dear?Well,you’rejusttheoneIwanted。Iwantedtosay——thatis,Iwantedtoaskyou——’Thespeakerclearedhisthroatalittlenervously,andbeganalloveragain。Thefactis,Billy,I’verunacrossacoupleofoldclassmatesonfromNewYork,andtheyareveryanxiousIshouldstaydowntodinnerwiththem。Wouldyoumind——verymuchifI did?’ AcoldhandseemedtoclutchBilly’sheart。 Shecaughtherbreathwithalittlegaspandtriedtospeak;butshehadtotrytwicebeforethewordscame。 Why,no——no,ofcoursenot!’Billy’svoicewasveryhigh-pitchedandalittleshaky,butitwassurpassinglycheerful。 Yousureyouwon’tbe——lonesome?’Bertram’svoicewasvaguelytroubled。 Ofcoursenot!’ You’veonlytosaytheword,littlegirl,’ cameBertram’sanxioustonesagain,andI won’tstay。’ Billyswallowedconvulsively。Ifonly,onlyhewould_stop_andleavehertoherself!Asifsheweregoingtoownupthat_she_waslonesomefor_him_—— if_he_wasnotlonesomefor_her!_ Nonsense!ofcourseyou’llstay,’calledBilly,stillinthathigh-pitched,shakytreble。Then,beforeBertramcouldanswer,sheutteredagayGood-by!’andhungupthereceiver。 BillyhadtenwholeminutesinwhichtocrybeforePete’sgongsoundedfordinner;butshehadonlyoneminuteinwhichtotrytoeffacethewoefullyvisibleeffectsofthosetenminutesbeforeWilliamtappedatherdoor,andcalled: Gonetosleep,mydear?Dinner’sready。 Didn’tyouhearthegong?’ Yes,I’mcoming,UncleWilliam。’Billyspokewithbreezygayety,andthrewopenthedoor;butshedidnotmeetUncleWilliam’seyes。 Herheadwasturnedaway。Herhandswerefussingwiththehangofherskirt。 Bertram’sdiningout,Petetellsme,’observedWilliam,withcheerfulnonchalance,astheywentdown-stairstogether。 Billybitherlipandlookedupsharply。Shehadbeenbracingherselftomeetwithdisdainfulindifferencethisman’spity——thepitydueapoorneglectedwifewhosehusband_preferred_todinewitholdclassmatesratherthanwithherself。