第15章

类别:其他 作者:Eleanor H。 Porter字数:5250更新时间:18/12/27 14:59:51
ButAlicetroubledher。NotbutthatAlicewaskindnessitselftotheman,either。Itwasonlyapeculiarsomethingalmostlikefear,orconstraint,thatBillythoughtshesawinAlice’seyes,sometimes,whenArkwrightmadeaparticularlyintimateappeal。TherewasCalderwell,too。He,also,worriedBilly。ShefearedhewasgoingtocomplicatemattersstillmorebyfallinginlovewithAlice,himself;andthis,certainly,Billydidnotwantatall。Asthisphaseofthematterpresenteditself,indeed,BillydeterminedtoappropriateCalderwellalittlemoreexclusivelytoherself,whenthefourweretogether,thusleavingAliceforArkwright。Afterall,itwasratherentertaining——thisplayingatCupid’sassistant。 Ifshe_could_nothaveBertramallthetime,itwasfortunatethattheseoutsideinterestsweresopleasurable。 MostofthemorningsBillyspentinthekitchen,despitetheremonstrancesofbothPeteandEliza。 Almosteverymeal,now,wasgracedwithapalatablecake,pudding,ormuffinthatBillywouldproudlyclaimasherhandiwork。Petestillservedattable,andmadestrenuouseffortstokeepupallhisoldduties;buthewasobviouslygrowingweaker,andreallyseriousblunderswerebeginningtobenoticeable。Bertramevenhintedonceortwicethatperhapsitwouldbejustaswelltoinsistonhisgoing;buttothisBillywouldnotgiveherconsent。EvenwhenonenighthispooroldtremblinghandsspilledhalfthecontentsofasoupplateoveranewandcostlyeveninggownofBilly’sown,shestillrefusedtohavehimdismissed。 Why,Bertram,Iwouldn’tdoit,’shedeclaredhotly;andyouwouldn’t,either。He’sbeenheremorethanfiftyyears。Itwouldbreakhisheart。He’sreallytooilltowork,andIwishhewouldgoofhisownaccord,ofcourse;butI sha’n’tevertellhimtogo——notifhespillssouponeverydressI’vegot。I’llbuymore——andmore,ifit’snecessary。Blesshisdearoldheart!Hethinkshe’sreallyservingus——andheis,too。’ Oh,yes,you’reright,he_is!_’sighedBertram,withmeaningemphasis,asheabandonedtheargument。 InadditiontoherTalktoYoungWives,’ Billyfoundherselfencounteringadviceandcommentonthemarriagequestionfromstillotherquarters——fromheracquaintances(mostlythefeminineones)rightandleft。Continuallyshewashearingsuchwordsasthese: Oh,well,whatcanyouexpect,Billy?You’reanoldmarriedwoman,now。’ Nevermind,you’llfindhe’slikealltherestofthehusbands。Youjustwaitandsee!’ Betterbeginwithahighhand,Billy。Don’tlethimfoolyou!’ Mercy!IfIhadahusbandwhosebusinessitwastolookatwomen’sbeautifuleyes,peachycheeks,andluxurioustresses,Ishouldgocrazy! It’shardenoughtokeepaman’seyesonyourselfwhenhisdailyinterestsaresupposedtobejustlumpsofcoalandchunksofice,withoutflinginghimintotheveryjawsoftemptationlikeaskinghimtopaintaprettygirl’spicture!’ Inresponsetoallthis,ofcourse,Billycouldbutlaugh,andblush,andtossbacksomegayreply,withacarelessunconcern。Butinherheartshedidnotlikeit。Sometimesshetoldherselfthatiftherewerenotanyadviceorcommentfromanybody——eitherbookorwoman——iftherewerenotanybodybutjustBertramandherself,lifewouldbejustonelonghoneymoonforeverandforever。 OnceortwiceBillywastemptedtogotoMariewiththishoneymoonquestion;butMariewasverybusythesedays,andverypreoccupied。ThenewhousethatCyrilwasbuildingonCoreyHill,notfarfromtheAnnex,wasalmostfinished,andMariewasimmersedinthesubjectofhouse- furnishingsandinteriordecoration。Shewas,too,stillmoredeeplyengrossedinthefashioningoftinygarmentsofthesoftestlinen,lace,andwoolen;andtherewasonherfacesuchalookofbeatificwonderandjoythatBillydidnotliketosomuchashintthattherewasintheworldsuchabookasWhentheHoneymoonWanes:A TalktoYoungWives。’ BillytriedvaliantlythesedaysnottomindthatBertram’sworkwassoabsorbing。Shetriednottomindthathisbusinessdealt,notwithlumpsofcoalandchunksofice,butwithbeautifulwomenlikeMargueriteWinthropwhoaskedhimtoluncheon,andlovelygirlslikehismodelforTheRose’whocamefreelytohisstudioandspenthoursinthebelovedpresence,beingstudiedforwhatBertramdeclaredwasabsolutelythemostwonderfulpoiseofheadandshouldersthathehadeverseen。 Billytried,also,thesedays,tosoconductherselfthatnotbyanychancecouldCalderwellsuspectthatsometimesshewasjealousofBertram’sart。NotforworldswouldshehavehadCalderwellbegintogetthenotionintohisheadthathisold-timeprophecyconcerningBertram’scaringonlyfortheturnofagirl’sheadorthetiltofherchin——topaint,wasbeingfulfilled。 Hence,particularlygayandcheerfulwasBillywhenCalderwellwasnear。NorcoulditbesaidthatBillywasreallyunhappyatanytime。Itwasonlythat,onoccasion,theverydepthofherhappinessinBertram’slovefrightenedher,lestitbringdisastertoherselforBertram。 BillystillwentfrequentlytotheAnnex。Therewereyettwounfilledroomsinthehouse。Billywashesitatingwhichtwoofsixnewfriendsofherstochooseasoccupants;anditwasonedayearlyinMarch,aftershehadbeentalkingthematteroverwithAuntHannah,thatAuntHannahsaid: Dearme,Billy,ifyouhadyourwayIbelieveyou’dopenanotherwholehouse!’ Doyouknow?——that’sjustwhatI’mthinkingof,’retortedBilly,gravely。ThenshelaughedatAuntHannah’sshockedgestureofprotest。 Oh,well,Idon’texpectto,’sheadded。I haven’tlivedverylong,butI’velivedlongenoughtoknowthatyoucan’talwaysdowhatyouwantto。’ Justasiftherewereanything_you_wantedtodothatyoudon’tdo,mydear,’reprovedAuntHannah,mildly。 Yes,Iknow。’Billydrewinherbreathwithalittlecatch。Ihavesomuchthatislovely; andthat’swhyIneedthishouse,youknow,fortheoverflow,’shenoddedbrightly。Then,withacharacteristicchangeofsubject,sheadded: My,butyoushouldhavetastedofthepopoversImadeforbreakfastthismorning!’ Ishouldliketo,’smiledAuntHannah。 Williamsaysyou’regettingtobequiteacook。’ Well,maybe,’concededBilly,doubtfully。 Oh,Icandosomethingsallright;butjustwaittillPeteandElizagoawayagain,andBertrambringshomeafriendtodinner。That’lltellthetale。IthinknowIcouldhavesomethingbesidespotato-mushandburnedcorn——butmaybeIwouldn’t,whenthetimecame。IfonlyIcouldbuyeverythingIneededtocookwith,I’dbeallright。ButIcan’t,Ifind。’ Can’tbuywhatyouneed!Whatdoyoumean?’ Billylaughedruefully。 Well,everyotherquestionIaskEliza,shesays:`Why,Idon’tknow;youhavetouseyourjudgment。’JustasifIhadanyjudgmentabouthowmuchsalttouse,orwhatdishtotake! Dearme,AuntHannah,themanthatwillgrowjudgmentandcanitasyouwouldamessofpeas,hasgothisfortunemade!’ Whatanabsurdchildyouare,Billy,’laughedAuntHannah。IusedtotellMarie——Bytheway,howisMarie?Haveyouseenherlately?’ Oh,yes,Isawheryesterday,’twinkledBilly。 Shehadabookofwall-papersamplesspreadoverthebackofachair,twobunchesofsamplesofdifferentcoloreddamasksonthetablebeforeher,a`YoungMother’sGuide’proppedopeninanotherchair,andapairofbaby’ssocksinherlapwitharolleachofpink,andwhite,andblueribbon。Shespentmostofthetime,afterIhadhelpedherchoosetheribbon,inaskingmeifIthoughtsheoughttoletthebabycryandbotherCyril,orstopitscryingandhurtthebaby,becauseher`Mother’sGuide’saysacertainamountofcryingisneededtodevelopababy’slungs。’ AuntHannahlaughed,butshefrowned,too。 Theidea!IguessCyrilcanstandpropercrying——andlaughing,too——fromhisownchild!’shesaidthen,crisply。 Oh,butMarieisafraidhecan’t,’smiledBilly。Andthat’sthetrouble。Shesaysthat’stheonlythingthatworriesher——Cyril。’ Nonsense!’ejaculatedAuntHannah。 Oh,butitisn’tnonsensetoMarie,’retortedBilly。Youshouldseethepreparationsshe’smadeandtheprecautionsshe’staken。Actually,whenIsawthosebaby’ssocksinherlap,Ididn’tknowbutshewasgoingtoputrubberheelsonthem!They’vebuiltthenewhousewithdeadeningfeltinallthewalls,andMarie’splannedthenurseryandCyril’sdenatoppositeendsofthehouse;andshesayssheshallkeepthebabythere_all_thetime——thenursery,Imean,nottheden。Shesaysshe’sgoingtoteachittobeaquietbabyandhatenoise。Shesaysshethinksshecandoit,too。’ Humph!’sniffedAuntHannah,scornfully。 YoushouldhaveseenMarie’sdisgusttheotherday,’wentonBilly,abitmischievously。 HerCousinJanesentonarattleshe’dmadeherself,allsoftworsted,withbellsinside。Itwasadear;butMariewashorror-stricken。 `Mybabyhavearattle?’shecried。`Why,whatwouldCyrilsay?Asifhecouldstandarattleinthehouse!’Andifshedidn’tgivethatrattletothejanitor’swifethatveryday,whileIwasthere!’ Humph!’sniffedAuntHannahagain,asBillyrosetogo。Well,I’mthinkingMariehasstillsomethingstolearninthisworld——andCyril,too,forthatmatter。’ Iwouldn’twonder,’laughedBilly,givingAuntHannahagood-bykiss。 BertramHenshawhadnodisquietingforebodingsthistimeconcerninghisportraitofMargueriteWinthropwhenthedoorsoftheBohemianTenClubExhibitionwerethrownopentomembersandinvitedguests。Justhowgreatapopularsuccessitwasdestinedtobe,hecouldnotknow,ofcourse,thoughhemighthavesuspecteditwhenhebegantoreceivetheadmiringandheartycongratulationsofhisfriendsandfellow-artistsonthatfirstevening。 NorwastheWinthropportraittheonlyjewelinhiscrownonthatoccasion。HismarvelouslyexquisiteTheRose,’andhissmalleridealpicture,Expectation,’cameinforscarcelylesscommendation。Therewasnodoubtnow。TheoriginatorofthefamousFaceofaGirl’hadcomeintohisownagain。Onallsidesthiswastheverdict,onelong-hairedcriticofinternationalfameevenclaimingopenlythatHenshawhadnotonlyequaledhisformerbestwork,buthadgonebeyondit,inbothartistryandtechnique。 Itwasabrilliantgathering。Society,asusual,incostlyeveninggownsandcorrectswallow-tailsrubbedelbowswithnamesfamousintheworldofArtandLetters。Everywhereweregaylaughterandsparklingrepartee。Eventheaustere-facedJ。G。Winthropunbenttotheextentofgrimsmilesinresponsetothelaudatorycommentsbestoweduponthepicturedimageofhisidol,hisbeautifuldaughter。 Astothegreatfinancier’sownopinionofthework,nooneheardhimexpressitexcept,perhaps,theartist;andallthathegotwasagripofthehandandaGood!Iknewyou’dfetchitthistime,myboy!’Butthatwasenough。And,indeed,noonewhoknewthesternoldmanneededtomorethanlookintohisfacethateveningtoknowofhisentiresatisfactioninthisportraitsoontobethemostrecent,andthemostcherishedadditiontohisfar-famedartcollection。 AstoBertram——Bertramwaspleasedandhappyandgratified,ofcourse,aswasnatural; buthewasnotonewhitmoresothanwasBertram’swife。Billyfairlyradiatedhappinessandproudjoy。ShetoldBertram,indeed,thatifhedidanythingtomakeheranyprouder,itwouldtakeanAnnexthesizeoftheBostonOperaHousetoholdherextrahappiness。 Sh-h,Billy!Someonewillhearyou,’ protestedBertram,tragically;but,inspiteofhishorrifiedvoice,hedidnotlookdispleased。 ForthefirsttimeBillymetMargueriteWinthropthatevening。Attheoutsettherewasjustabitofshynessandconstraintintheyoungwife’smanner。BillycouldnotforgetheroldinsanejealousyofthisbeautifulgirlwiththeenviednameofMarguerite。Butitwasforonlyamoment,andsoonshewashernatural,charmingself。 MissWinthropwasfascinated,andshemadenopretenseofhidingit。SheeventurnedtoBertramatlast,andcried: Surely,now,Mr。Henshaw,youneednevergofarforamodel!Whydon’tyoupaintyourwife?’ Billycolored。Bertramsmiled。