第17章

类别:其他 作者:Eleanor H。 Porter字数:5258更新时间:18/12/27 14:59:51
Hewasnotsurprised,therefore,whenhereceivednoreplytohisring。 ThattherewastheslightesttruthinBessieBailey’sabsurdelopement’idea,Bertramdidnot,ofcourse,foraninstantbelieve。Theonlythingthatrankledaboutthatwasthefactthatshehadsuggestedsuchathing,andthatMissWinthropandthosesillychildrenhadheardher。HerecognizedhalfofBessie’sfriendsasneighborhoodyoungsters,andheknewverywellthattherewouldbemanyaquietlaughathisexpensearoundvariousBeaconStreetdinner- tablesthatnight。Atthethoughtofthosedinner-tables,hescowledagain。_He_hadnodinner-table——atleast,hehadnodinneronit! WhothemanmightbeBertramthoughthecouldeasilyguess。ItwaseitherArkwrightorCalderwell,ofcourse;andprobablythattiresomeAliceGreggorywasmixedupinitsomehow。 HedidwishBilly—— Sixo’clockcame,thenhalf-past。Bertramwasindeedfrightenednow,buthewasmoreangry,andstillmorehungry。Hehad,infact,reachedthatstateofblindunreasonablenesssaidtobepeculiartohungrymalesfromtimeimmemorial。 Attenminutesofsevenakeyclickedinthelockoftheouterdoor,andWilliamandBillyenteredthehall。 Itwasalmostdark。Bertramcouldnotseetheirfaces。Hehadnotlightedthehallatall。 Well,’hebegansharply,isthisthewayyoureceiveyourcallers,Billy?IcamehomeandfoundMissWinthropjustleaving——nooneheretoreceiveher!Where’veyoubeen?Where’sEliza?Where’smydinner?OfcourseIdon’tmeantoscold,Billy,butthereisalimittoevenmypatience——andit’sreachednow。Ican’thelpsuggestingthatifyouwouldtendtoyourhusbandandyourhomealittlemore,andgogallivantingoffwithCalderwellandArkwrightandAliceGreggoryalittleless,that——WhereisEliza,anyway?’hefinishedirritably,switchingonthelightswithasnap。 Therewasamomentofdeadsilence。AtBertram’sfirstwordsBillyandWilliamhadstoppedshort。Neitherhadmovedsince。NowWilliamturnedandbegantospeak,butBillyinterrupted。Shemetherhusband’sgazesteadily。 Iwillbedownatoncetogetyourdinner,’ shesaidquietly。Elizawillnotcometo-night。 Peteisdead。’ Bertramstartedforwardwithaquickcry。 Dead!Oh,Billy!Thenyouwere——_there!_ Billy!’ Buthiswifedidnotapparentlyhearhim。Shepassedhimwithoutturningherhead,andwentonupthestairs,leavinghimtomeetthesorrowful,accusingeyesofWilliam。 Theyounghusband’sapologieswereprofuseandabject。Bertramwasheartilyashamedofhimself,andwasmanenoughtoacknowledgeit。 AlmostonhiskneeshebeggedBillytoforgivehim;andinafrenzyofself-denunciationhefollowedherdownintothekitchenthatnight,piteouslybeseechinghertospeaktohim,tojust_look_athim,even,sothathemightknowhewasnotutterlydespised——thoughhedid,indeed,deservetobemorethandespised,hemoaned。 AtfirstBillydidnotspeak,orevenvouchsafeaglanceinhisdirection。Veryquietlyshewentaboutherpreparationsforasimplemeal,payingapparentlynomoreattentiontoBertramthanasifhewerenotthere。Butthatherearswereonlyseemingly,andnotreallydeaf,wasshownveryclearlyalittlelater,when,ataparticularlyabjectwailonthepartofthebabblingshadowatherheels,Billychokedintoalittlegasp,halflaughter,halfsob。Itwasalloverthen。Bertramhadherinhisarmsinatwinkling,whiletothefloorclatteredandrolledaknifeandahalf-peeledbakedpotato。 Naturally,afterthat,therecouldbenomoredignifiedsilencesonthepartoftheinjuredwife。 Therewere,instead,half-smiles,tears,sobs,atremuloustellingofPete’sgoingandhismessages,followedbyatearfullisteningtoBertram’sstoryofthetorturehehadenduredatthehandsofMissWinthrop,BessieBailey,andanempty,dinnerlesshouse。Andthus,inonecornerofthekitchen,sometimelater,ahungry,desperateWilliamfoundthem,thehalf-peeled,coldbakedpotatostillattheirfeet。 Tornbetweenhiscravingforfoodandhisdesirenottointerferewithanypossiblepeace- making,Williamwasobviouslyhesitatingwhattodo,whenBillyglancedupandsawhim。Shesaw,too,atthesametime,theempty,blazinggas-stoveburner,andthepileofhalf-preparedpotatoes,towarmwhichtheburnerhadlongsincebeenlighted。Withalittlecryshebrokeawayfromherhusband’sarms。 Mercy!andhere’spoorUncleWilliam,blesshisheart,withnotathingtoeatyet!’ Theyallgotdinnerthen,together,withmanyasighandquick-comingtearaseverywheretheymetsomesadreminderofthegentleoldhandsthatwouldneveragainministertotheircomfort。 Itwasasilentmeal,andlittle,afterall,waseaten,thoughbraveattemptsatcheerfulnessandnaturalnessweremadebyallthree。Bertram,especially,talked,andtriedtomakesurethattheshadowonBilly’sfacewasatleastnottheonehisownconducthadbroughtthere。 Foryoudo——yousurelydoforgiveme,don’tyou?’hebegged,ashefollowedherintothekitchenafterthesorrymealwasover。 Why,yes,dear,yes,’sighedBilly,tryingtosmile。 Andyou’llforget?’ Therewasnoanswer。 Billy!Andyou’llforget?’Bertram’svoicewasinsistent,reproachful。 Billychangedcolorandbitherlip。Shelookedplainlydistressed。 Billy!’criedtheman,stillmorereproachfully。 But,Bertram,Ican’tforget——quiteyet,’ falteredBilly。 Bertramfrowned。Foraminutehelookedasifhewereabouttotakeupthematterseriouslyandargueitwithher;butthenextmomenthesmiledandtossedhisheadwithjauntyplayfulness—— Bertram,totellthetruth,hadnowhadquiteenoughofwhatheprivatelytermedscenes’andheroics’;and,manlike,hewasveryardentlylongingfortheoldeasy-goingfriendliness,withallunpleasantnessbanishedtooblivion。 Oh,butyou’llhavetoforget,’heclaimed,withcheeryinsistence,foryou’vepromisedtoforgiveme——andonecan’tforgivewithoutforgetting。 So,there!’hefinished,withasmilinglydeterminednow-everything-is-just-as-it-was-before’air。 Billymadenoresponse。Sheturnedhurriedlyandbegantobusyherselfwiththedishesatthesink。Inherheartshewaswondering:couldsheeverforgetwhatBertramhadsaid?Wouldanythingeverblotoutthoseawfulwords:Ifyouwouldtendtoyourhusbandandyourhomealittlemore,andgogallivantingoffwithCalderwellandArkwrightandAliceGreggoryalittleless——’?Itseemednowthatalways,forevermore,theywouldringinherears;always,forevermore,theywouldburndeeperanddeeperintohersoul。Andnotonce,inallBertram’sapologies,hadhereferredtothem——thosewordshehaduttered。Hehadnotsaidhedidnotmeanthem。Hehadnotsaidhewassorryhespokethem。Hehadignoredthem;andheexpectedthatnowshe,too,wouldignorethem。Asifshecould!’Ifyouwouldtendtoyourhusbandandyourhomealittlemore,andgogallivantingoffwithCalderwellandArkwrightandAliceGreggoryalittleless——’Oh,ifonlyshecould,indeed,——forget! WhenBillywentup-stairsthatnightsheranacrossherTalktoYoungWives’inherdesk。 Withahalf-stifledcryshethrustitfarbackoutofsight。 Ihateyou,Ihateyou——withallyouroldtalkabout`brushingupagainstoutsideinterests’!’ shewhisperedfiercely。Well,I’ve`brushed’——andnowseewhatI’vegotforit!’ Later,however,afterBertramwasasleep,Billycreptoutofbedandgotthebook。Underthecarefullyshadedlampintheadjoiningroomsheturnedthepagessoftlytillshecametothesentence: Perhapsitwouldbehardtofindamoreutterlyunreasonable,irritable,irresponsiblecreaturethanahungryman。’Withalongsighshebegantoread;andnotuntilsomeminuteslaterdidsheclosethebook,turnoffthelight,andstealbacktobed。 Duringthenextthreedays,untilafterthefuneralattheshabbylittleSouthBostonhouse,ElizaspentonlyabouthalfofeachdayattheStrata。This,muchtoherdistress,leftmanyofthehouseholdtasksforheryoungmistresstoperform。Billy,however,attackedeachnewdutywithafeverisheagernessthatseemedtomaketheperformanceofitverylikesomegladpenancedoneforpastmisdeeds。Andwhen——onthedayaftertheyhadlaidtheoldservantinhislastrestingplace——adespairingmessagecamefromElizatotheeffectthatnowhermotherwasveryill,andwouldneedhercare,BillypromptlytoldElizatostayaslongaswasnecessary;thattheycouldgetalongallrightwithouther。 But,Billy,what_are_wegoingtodo?’ Bertramdemanded,whenheheardthenews。Wemusthavesomebody!’ _I’m_goingtodoit。’ Nonsense!Asifyoucould!’scoffedBertram。 Billyliftedherchin。 Couldn’tI,indeed,’sheretorted。Doyourealize,youngman,howmuchI’vedonethelastthreedays?Howaboutthosemuffinsyouhadthismorningforbreakfast,andthatcakelastnight?Anddidn’tyouyourselfsaythatyouneverateabetterpuddingthanthatdatepuffyesterdaynoon?’ Bertramlaughedandshruggedhisshoulders。 Mydearlove,I’mnotquestioningyour_ability_todoit,’hesoothedquickly。Still,’headded,withawhimsicalsmile,ImustremindyouthatElizahasbeenherehalfthetime,andthatmuffinsanddatepuffs,howeverdelicious,aren’tallthereistorunningabighouselikethis。 Besides,justbesensible,Billy,’hewentonmoreseriously,ashenotedtherebelliousgleamcomingintohisyoungwife’seyes;you’dknowyoucouldn’tdoit,ifyou’djuststoptothink。There’stheCarletonscomingtodinnerMonday,andmystudioTeato-morrow,tosaynothingoftheSymphonyandtheopera,andtheconcertsyou’dlosebecauseyouweretoodeadtiredtogotothem。 YouknowhowitwaswiththatconcertyesterdayafternoonwhichAliceGreggorywantedyoutogotowithher。’ Ididn’t——want——togo,’chokedBilly,underherbreath。 Andthere’syourmusic。Youhaven’tdoneathingwiththatfordays,yetonlylastweekyoutoldmethepublisherswerehurryingyouforthatlastsongtocompletethegroup。’ Ihaven’tfeltlike——writing,’stammeredBilly,stillhalfunderherbreath。 Ofcourseyouhaven’t,’triumphedBertram。 You’vebeentoodeadtired。Andthat’sjustwhatIsay。Billy,you_can’t_doitallyourself!’ ButIwantto。Iwantto——totendtothings,’falteredBilly,withahalf-fearfulglanceintoherhusband’sface。 BillywashearingveryloudlynowthataccusingIfyou’dtendtoyourhusbandandyourhomealittlemore——’Bertram,however,wasnothearingit,evidently。Indeed,heseemednevertohaveheardit——muchlesstohavespokenit。 `Tendtothings,’’helaughedlightly。 Well,you’llhaveenoughtodototendtothemaid,Ifancy。Anyhow,we’regoingtohaveone。 I’lljuststepintooneofthose——whatdoyoucall’em?——intelligenceofficesonmywaydownandsendoneup,’hefinished,ashegavehiswifeagood-bykiss。 AnhourlaterBilly,strugglingwiththebroomandthedrawing-roomcarpet,wascalledtothetelephone。Itwasherhusband’svoicethatcametoher。 Billy,forheaven’ssake,takepityonme。 Won’tyouputonyourdudsandcomeandengageyourmaidyourself?’ Why,Bertram,what’sthematter?’ Matter?Holysmoke!Well,I’vebeentothreeofthoseintelligenceoffices——thoughwhytheycallthemthatIcan’timagine。Ifevertherewasaplaceutterlydevoidofintelligence-butnevermind!I’veinterviewedfourfatladies,twothinones,andonemediumwithawart。I’vecheerfullydivulgedallourfamilysecrets,promisedeveryotherhalf-hourout,andtakenoaththatourhouseholdnumbersthreeadultmembers,andnomore;butIsimply_can’t_rememberhowmanyhandkerchiefswehaveinthewasheachweek。Billy,willyoucome?Maybeyoucandosomethingwiththem。I’msureyoucan!’ Why,ofcourseI’llcome,’chirpedBilly。 WhereshallImeetyou?’ Bertramgavethestreetandnumber。 Good!I’llbethere,’promisedBilly,asshehungupthereceiver。 Quiteforgettingthebroominthemiddleofthedrawing-roomfloor,Billytrippedup-stairstochangeherdress。Onherlipswasagaylittlesong。Inherheartwasjoy。 Iratherguess_now_I’mtendingtomyhusbandandmyhome!’shewascrowingtoherself