第32章

类别:其他 作者:Eleanor H。 Porter字数:5153更新时间:18/12/27 14:59:51
marriedtoUncleBertram,aren’tyou?’ Icertainlyam,mydear,’smiledBilly,tryingtospeakunconcernedly。 Well,then,whatmakesyouforgetit?’ Whatmakesmeforget——Why,child,whataquestion!Whatdoyoumean?Idon’tforgetit!’exclaimedBilly,indignantly。 Thenwhat_did_mothermean?IheardhertellUncleWilliammyself——shedidn’tknowI heard,though——thatshedidwishyou’drememberyouwereUncleBertram’swifeaswellasCousinBertram’smother。’ Billyflushedscarlet,thengrewverywhite。 AtthatmomentMrs。Hartwellcameintotheroom。LittleKateturnedtriumphantly。 There,shehasn’tforgotten,andIknewshehadn’t,mother!Iaskedherjustnow,andshesaidshehadn’t。’ Hadn’twhat?’questionedMrs。Hartwell,lookingalittleapprehensivelyathersister-in- law’swhitefaceandangryeyes。 Hadn’tforgottenthatshewasUncleBertram’swife。’ Kate,’interposedBilly,steadilymeetinghersister-in-law’sgaze,willyoubegoodenoughtotellmewhatthischildistalkingabout?’ Mrs。Hartwellsighed,andgaveanimpatientgesture。 Kate,I’veamindtotakeyouhomeonthenexttrain,’shesaidtoherdaughter。Runaway,now,down-stairs。YourAuntBillyandI wanttotalk。Come,come,hurry!ImeanwhatIsay,’sheaddedwarningly,asshesawunmistakablesignsofrebelliononthesmallyoungface。 Iwish,’poutedlittleKate,risingreluctantly,andmovingtowardthedoor,thatyoudidn’talwayssendmeawayjustwhenIwantedmosttostay!’ Well,Kate?’promptedBilly,asthedoorclosedbehindthelittlegirl。 Yes,IsupposeI’llhavetosayitnow,aslongasthatchildhasputherfingerinthepie。 ButIhadn’tintendedtospeak,nomatterwhatIsaw。IpromisedmyselfIwouldn’t,beforeI came。Iknow,ofcourse,howBertramandCyril,andWilliam,too,saythatI’malwaysinterferinginaffairsthatdon’tconcernme——though,forthatmatter,ifmyownbrother’saffairsdon’tconcernme,Idon’tknowwhoseshould! But,asIsaid,Iwasn’tgoingtospeakthistime,nomatterwhatIsaw。AndIhaven’t—— excepttoWilliam,andCyril,andAuntHannah; butIsupposesomewherelittleKategotholdofit。It’ssimplythis,Billy。Itseemstomeit’shightimeyoubegantorealizethatyou’reBertram’swifeaswellasthebaby’smother。’ That,Iam——Idon’tthinkIquiteunderstand,’ saidBilly,unsteadily。 No,Isupposeyoudon’t,’sighedKate,thoughwhereyoureyesare,Idon’tsee——or,rather,Idosee:they’reonthebaby,_always_。 It’sallverywellandlovely,Billy,tobeadevotedmother,andyoucertainlyarethat。I’llsaythatmuchforyou,andI’lladmitIneverthoughtyouwouldbe。But_can’t_youseewhatyou’redoingtoBertram?’ _DoingtoBertram!_——bybeingadevotedmothertohisson!’ Yes,doingtoBertram。Can’tyouseewhatachangethereisintheboy?Hedoesn’tactlikehimselfatall。He’srestlessandgloomyandentirelyoutofsorts。’ Yes,Iknow;butthat’shisarm,’pleadedBilly。Poorboy——he’ssotiredofit!’ Kateshookherheaddecisively。 It’smorethanhisarm,Billy。You’dseeityourselfifyouweren’tblindedbyyourabsorptioninthatbaby。WhereisBertrameveryevening?Whereishedaytimes?Doyourealizethathe’sbeenathomescarcelyoneeveningsinceIcame?Andasforthedays——he’salmostneverhere。’ But,Kate,hecan’tpaintnow,youknow,soofcoursehedoesn’tneedtostaysocloselyathome,’defendedBilly。Hegoesouttofinddistractionfromhimself。’ Yes,`distraction,’indeed,’sniffedKate。 Andwheredoyousupposehefindsit?Doyou_know_wherehefindsit?Itellyou,Billy,BertramHenshawisnotthesortofmanthatshouldfindtoomuch`distraction’outsidehishome。HistastesandhistemperamentarealtogethertooBohemian,and——’ Billyinterruptedwithaperemptorilyupraisedhand。 Pleaseremember,Kate,youarespeakingofmyhusbandtohiswife;andhiswifehasperfectconfidenceinhim,andisjustalittleparticularastowhatyousay。’ Yes;well,I’mspeakingofmybrother,too,whomIknowverywell,’shruggedKate。Allis,youmayremembersometimethatIwarnedyou——that’sall。Thistrustingbusinessisallverypretty;butIthink’twouldbealotprettier,andavastdealmoresensible,ifyou’dgivehimalittleattentionaswellastrust,andseeifyoucan’tkeephimathomeabitmore。Atleastyou’llknowwhomhe’swith,then。CyrilsayshesawhimlastweekwithBobSeaver。’ With——Bob——Seaver?’falteredBilly,changingcolor。 Yes。Iseeyourememberhim,’smiledKate,notquiteagreeably。Perhapsnowyou’lltakesomestockinwhatI’vesaid,andrememberit。’ I’llrememberit,certainly,’returnedBilly,alittleproudly。You’vesaidagoodmanythingstome,inthepast,Mrs。Hartwell,andI’verememberedthemall——everyone。’ ItwasKate’sturntoflush,andshedidit。 Yes,Iknow。AndIpresumeverylikelysometimesthere_hasn’t_beenmuchfoundationforwhatI’vesaid。Ithinkthistime,however,you’llfindthereis,’shefinished,withanairofhurtdignity。 Billymadenoreply,perhapsbecauseDelia,atthatmoment,broughtinthebaby。 Mrs。HartwellandlittleKatelefttheStratathenextmorning。UntilthenBillycontrivedtokeep,beforethem,acountenanceserene,andamannerfreefromunrest。Evenwhen,afterdinnerthatevening,Bertramputonhishatandcoatandwentout,Billyrefusedtomeethersister- in-law’smeaninggaze。Butinthemorning,aftertheyhadleftthehouse,Billydidnotattempttodeceiveherself。Determinedly,then,shesetherselftogoingoverinhermindthepastmonthssincethebabycame;andshewasappalledatwhatshefound。Everinherears,too,wasthatfearedname,BobSeaver’;andeverbeforehereyeswasthatnightyearsagowhen,asaneighteen-year-oldgirl,shehadfollowedBertramandBobSeaverintoaglitteringcaf ateleveno’clockatnight,becauseBertramhadbeendrinkingandwasnothimself。SherememberedBertram’sfacewhenhehadseenher,andwhathehadsaidwhenshebeggedhimtocomehome。Sheremembered,too,whatthefamilyhadsaidafterward。Butsheremembered,also,thatyearslaterBertramhadtoldherwhatthatescapadeofhershadreallydoneforhim,andthathebelievedhehadactuallylovedherfromthatmoment。Afterthatnight,atallevents,hehadhadlittletodowithBobSeaver。 AndnowSeaverwasbackagain,itseemed—— andwithBertram。Theyhadbeenseentogether。 Butiftheyhad,whatcouldshedo?Surelyshecouldhardlynowfollowthemintoapubliccaf anddemandthatSeaverletherhusbandcomehome!Butshecouldkeephimathome,perhaps。 (Billyquitebrightenedatthisthought。)KatehadsaidthatshewassoabsorbedinBabythatherhusbandreceivednoattentionatall。Billydidnotbelievethiswastrue;butifitweretrue,shecouldatleastrectifythatmistake。Ifitwereattentionthathewanted——heshouldwantnomore。PoorBertram!Nowonderthathehadsoughtdistractionoutside!Whenonehadahorridbrokenarmthatwouldnotletonedoanything,whatelsecouldonedo? JusthereBillysuddenlyrememberedthebook,ATalktoYoungWives。’Ifsherecollectedrightly,therewasachapterthatcoveredtheveryclaimKatehadbeenmaking。Billyhadnotthoughtofthebookformonths,butshewentatoncetogetitnow。Theremightbe,afterall,somethinginitthatwouldhelpher。 TheComingoftheFirstBaby。’Billyfoundthechapterwithoutdifficultyandsettledherselftoread,hercountenancealightwithinterest。Inasurprisinglyshorttime,however,anewexpressioncametoherface;andatlastalittlegaspofdismayfellfromherlips。Shelookedupthen,withastartledgaze。 _Had_herwallspossessedeyesandearsallthesepastmonths,onlytogiveinstructionstoanunseenhandthatitmightwritewhattheeyesandearshadlearned?Foritwassuchsentencesasthesethattheconscience-smittenBillyread: Maternityisapttoworkamiracleinawoman’slife,butsometimesitspellsdisastersofarasdomesticblissisconcerned。Theyoungmother,wrappedupinthedelightsanddutiesofmotherhood,utterlyforgetsthatshehasahusband。 Shelivesandmovesandhasherbeinginthenursery。Shethinksbaby,talksbaby,knowsonlybaby。Sherefusestodressup,becauseitiseasiertotakecareofbabyinafrowzywrapper。 Shewillnotgooutwithherhusbandforfearsomethingmighthappentothebaby。Shegivesuphermusicbecausebabywon’tletherpractice。 Invainherhusbandtriestointerestherinhisownaffairs。Shehasneithereyesnorearsforhim,onlyforbaby。 Nownomanenjoyshavinghisnoseputoutofjoint,evenbyhisownchild。Heloveshischilddevotedly,andisproudofhim,ofcourse; butthatdoesnotkeephimfromwantingthesocietyofhiswifeoccasionally,norfromlongingforherold-timeloveandsympatheticinterest。 Itisanadmirablething,certainly,forawomantobeadevotedmother;butmaternalaffectioncanbecarriedtoofar。Husbandshavesomerightsaswellasoffspring;andthewifewhoneglectsherhusbandforherbabiesdoessoatherperil。Home,withthewifeeternallyinthenursery,isapttobeadullandlonelythingtotheaveragehusband,sohestartsouttofindamusementforhimself——andhefindsit。Thenisthetimewhenthenewlittlelifethatissoprecious,andthatshouldhaveboundthetwomorecloselytogether,becomesthewedgethatdrivesthemapart。’ Billydidnotreadanymore。Withalittlesobbingcrysheflungthebookbackintoherdesk,andbegantopulloffherwrapper。Herfingersshook。AlreadyshesawherselfaMonster,aWickedDestroyerofDomesticBlisswithherthoughtlessabsorptioninBaby,untilhehadbecomethatAwfulThing——a_Wedge_。AndBertram—— poorBertram,withhisbrokenarm!Shehadnotplayedtohim,norsungtohim,norgoneoutwithhim。AndwhenhadtheyhadoneoftheirgoodlongtalksaboutBertram’sworkandplans? Butitshouldallbechangednow。Shewouldplay,andsing,andgooutwithhim。Shewoulddressup,too。Heshouldseenomorewrappers。 Shewouldaskabouthiswork,andseeminterested。She_was_interested。Sherememberednow,thatjustbeforehewashurt,hehadtoldherofanewportrait,andofanewFaceofaGirl’thathehadplannedtodo。Latelyhehadsaidnothingaboutthese。Hehadseemeddiscouraged——andnowonder,withhisbrokenarm! Butshewouldchangeallthat。Heshouldsee! AndforthwithBillyhurriedtoherclosettopickoutherprettiesthousefrock。 LongbeforedinnerBillywasready,waitinginthedrawing-room。ShehadonaprettylittlebluesilkgownthatsheknewBertramliked,andshewatchedveryanxiouslyforBertramtocomeupthesteps。Sherememberednow,withapang,thathehadlongsincegivenuphispeculiarring;butshemeanttomeethimatthedoorjustthesame。 Bertram,however,didnotcome。Ataquarterbeforesixhetelephonedthathehadmetsomefriends,andwoulddineattheclub。 My,my,howprettyweare!’exclaimedUncleWilliam,whentheywentdowntodinnertogether。Newfrock?’ Why,no,UncleWilliam,’laughedBilly,alittletremulously。You’veseenitdozensoftimes!’ HaveI?’murmuredtheman。Idon’tseemtorememberit。ToobadBertramisn’theretoseeyou。Somehow,youlookunusuallyprettyto-night。’ AndBilly’sheartachedanew。 Billyspenttheeveningpracticing——softly,tobesure,soasnottowakeBaby——but_practicing_。 AsthedayspassedBillydiscoveredthatitwasmucheasiertosayshewouldchangethings’thanitwasreallytochangethem。Shechangedherself,itistrue——herclothes,herhabits,herwords,andherthoughts;butitwasmoredifficulttochangeBertram。Inthefirstplace,hewastheresolittle。Shewasdismayedwhenshesawhowverylittle,indeed,hewasathome——andshedidnotliketoaskhimoutrighttostay。Thatwasnotinaccordancewithherplans。Besides,theTalktoYoungWives’