第2章

类别:其他 作者:Lafcadio Hearn字数:23598更新时间:19/01/02 11:11:03
II。 BeforealittlewaxenimageoftheMotherandChild,——anoddlittleVirginwithanIndianface,broughthomebyFeliuasagiftafteroneofhisMexicanvoyages,——CarmenVioscahadburnedcandlesandprayed;sometimestellingherbeads;sometimesmurmuringthelitaniessheknewbyheart;sometimesalsoreadingfromaprayer—bookwornandgreasyasalong—usedpackofcards。 Itwasparticularlystainedatonepage,apageonwhichhertearshadfallenmanyalonelynight——apagewithaclumsywoodcutrepresentingacelestiallamp,asymbolicradiance,shiningthroughdarkness,andoneithersideakneelingangelwithfoldedwings。AndbeneaththisrudelywroughtsymbolofthePerpetualCalmappearedinbig,coarsetypethetitleofaprayerthathasbeenofferedupthroughmanyacentury,doubtless,bywivesofSpanishmariners,——ContralasTempestades。 Onceshebecameverymuchfrightened。Afterapartiallullthestormhadsuddenlyredoubleditsforce:thegroundshook;thehousequiveredandcreaked;thewindbrayedandscreamedandpushedandscuffledatthedoor;andthewater,whichhadbeenwhippinginthrougheverycrevice,allatonceroseoverthethresholdandfloodedthedwelling。Carmendippedherfingerinthewaterandtastedit。Itwassalt! AndnoneofFeliu’sboatshadyetcomein;——doubtlesstheyhadbeendrivenintosomefar—awaybayousbythestorm。Theonlyboatatthesettlement,theCarmencita,hadbeenalmostwreckedbyrunninguponasnagthreedaysbefore;——therewasatleastafortnight’sworkfortheship—carpenterofDeadCypressPoint。 AndFeliuwassleepingasifnothingunusualhadhappened——theheavysleepofasailor,heedlessofcommotionsandvoices。Andhismen,MiguelandMateo,wereattheotherendofthecheniere。 WithascreamCarmenarousedFeliu。Heraisedhimselfuponhiselbow,rubbedhiseyes,andaskedher,withexasperatingcalmness,\"Quetienes?quetienes?\"(Whatailsthee?) ——\"Oh,Feliu!theseaiscominguponus!\"sheanswered,inthesametongue。Butshescreamedoutawordinspiredbyherfear: shedidnotcry,\"Senosvieneelmarencima!\"but\"SenosvieneLAALTURA!\"——thenamethatconveystheterriblethoughtofdepthswallowedupinheight,——theheightofthehighsea。 \"Nolocreo!\"mutteredFeliu,lookingatthefloor;theninaquiet,deepvoicehesaid,pointingtoanoarinthecorneroftheroom,\"Echameeseremo。\" Shegaveittohim。Stillrecliningupononeelbow,Feliumeasuredthedepthofthewaterwithhisthumbnailuponthebladeoftheoar,andthenbadeCarmenlighthispipeforhim。 Hiscalmnessreassuredher。Forhalfanhourmore,undismayedbytheclamoringofthewindorthecallingofthesea,Feliusilentlysmokedhispipeandwatchedhisoar。Thewaterrosealittlehigher,andhemadeanothermark;——thenitclimbedalittlemore,butnotsorapidly;andhesmiledatCarmenashemadeathirdmark。\"Comocreia!\"heexclaimed,\"nohayporqueasustarse:elaguabaja!\"AndasCarmenwouldhavecontinuedtopray,herebukedherfears,andbadehertrytoobtainsomerest: \"Bastayadeplegarios,querida!——veteyduerme。\"Histone,thoughkindly,wasimperative;andCarmen,accustomedtoobeyhim,laidherselfdownbyhisside,andsoon,forveryweariness,slept。 Itwasafeverishsleep,nevertheless,shatteredatbriefintervalsbyterriblesounds,soundsmagnifiedbyhernervouscondition——asleepvisitedbydreamsthatmingledinastrangewaywiththeimpressionsofthestorm,andmorethanoncemadeherheartstop,andstartagainatitsownstopping。Oneofthesefanciesshenevercouldforget——adreamaboutlittleConcha,——Conchita,herfirstborn,whonowsleptfarawayintheoldchurchyardatBarcelona。Shehadtriedtobecomeresigned,——nottothink。Butthechildwouldcomebacknightafternight,thoughtheearthlayheavyuponher——nightafternight,throughlongdistancesofTimeandSpace。Oh!thefanciedclingingofinfant—lips!——thethrillingtouchoflittleghostlyhands!——thosephantom—caressesthattorturemothers’hearts!…… Nightafternight,throughmanyamonthofpain。Thenforatimethegentlepresenceceasedtohaunther,——seemedtohavelaindowntosleepforeverunderthehighbrightgrassandyellowflowers。Whydiditreturn,thatnightofallnights,tokissher,toclingtoher,tonestleinherarms? ForinherdreamshethoughtherselfstillkneelingbeforethewaxenImage,whiletheterrorsofthetempestwereeverdeepeningabouther,——ravingofwindsandboomingofwatersandashakingoftheland。Andbeforeher,evenassheprayedherdream—prayer,thewaxenVirginbecametallasawoman,andtaller,——risingtotheroofandsmilingasshegrew。ThenCarmenwouldhavecriedoutforfear,butthatsomethingsmotheredhervoice,——paralyzedhertongue。AndtheVirginsilentlystoopedaboveher,andplacedinherarmstheChild,——thebrownChildwiththeIndianface。AndtheChildwhitenedinherhandsandchanged,——seemingasitchangedtosendasharppainthroughherheart:anoldpainlinkedsomehowwithmemoriesofbrightwindySpanishhills,andsummerscentofolivegroves,andalltheluminousPast;——itlookedintoherfacewiththesoftdarkgaze,withtheunforgottensmileof……deadConchita! AndCarmenwishedtothank;thesmilingVirginforthatpricelessbliss,andlifteduphereyes,butthesicknessofghostlyfearreturneduponherwhenshelooked;fornowtheMotherseemedasawomanlongdead,andthesmilewasthesmileoffleshlessness,andtheplacesoftheeyeswerevoidsanddarknesses……Andtheseasentupsovastaroarthatthedwellingrocked。 Carmenstartedfromsleeptofindherheartthrobbingsothatthecouchshookwithit。Nightwasgrowinggray;thedoorhadjustbeenopenedandslammedagain。Throughtherain—whippedpanesshediscernedthepassingshapeofFeliu,makingforthebeach——abroadandbeardedsilhouette,bendingagainstthewind。StillthewaxenVirginsmiledherMexicansmile,——butnowshewasonlysevenincheshigh;andherbead—glasseyesseemedtotwinklewithkindlinesswhiletheflameofthelastexpiringtaperstruggledforlifeintheearthensocketatherfeet。 III。 RainandablindskyandaburstingseaFeliuandhismen,MiguelandMateo,lookedoutuponthethunderingandflashingofthemonstroustide。Thewindhadfallen,andthegrayairwasfullofgulls。Behindthecheniere,backtothecloudylineoflowwoodsmanymilesaway,stretchedawashoflead—coloredwater,withagreenpointpiercingithereandthere——elbow—bushesorwildcanetallenoughtokeeptheirheadsabovetheflood。Buttheinundationwasvisiblydecreasing;——withthepassingofeachhourmoreandmoregreenpatchesandpointshadbeenshowingthemselves:bydegreesthecourseofthebayouhadbecomedefined——twoparallelwindinglinesofdwarf—timberandbushyshrubstraversingthewatertowardthedistantcypress—swamps。 Beforethechenierealltheshell—beachslopewaspiledwithwreck——uptorntreeswiththefoliagestillfreshuponthem,splinteredtimbersofmysteriousorigin,andlogsinmultitude,scarredwithgashesoftheaxe。Feliuandhiscomradeshadsavedwoodenoughtobuildalittletown,——workinguptotheirwaistsinthesurf,withropes,poles,andboat—hooks。Thewholeseawasfullofflotsam。VotoaCristo!——whatawreckingtheremusthavebeen!AndtothinktheCarmencitacouldnotbetakenout! Theyhadseenotherluggersmakingeastwardduringthemorning——couldrecognizesomebytheirsails,othersbytheirgait,——exaggeratedintheirstrugglewiththepitchingofthesea:theSanPablo,theGasparina,theEnriqueta,theAgueda,theConstanza。Uglywater,yes!——butwhatachanceforwreckers!……Somegreatshipmusthavegonetopieces;——scoresofcaskswererollinginthetrough,——casksofwine。PerhapsitwastheManila,——perhapstheNautilus! AdeadcowfloatednearenoughforMateotothrowhisropeoveronehorn;andtheyallhelpedtogetitout。Itwasamilchcowofsomeexpensivebreed;andtheowner’sbrandhadbeenburneduponthehorns:——amonographiccombinationofthelettersAandP。Feliusaidheknewthatbrand:Old—manPreaulx,ofBelle—Isle,whokeptasortofdairyatLastIslandduringthesummerseason,usedtomarkallhiscowsthatway。Strange! But,astheyworkedon,theybegantoseestrangerthings,——whitedeadfacesanddeadhands,whichdidnotlooklikethehandsorthefacesofdrownedsailors:theebbwasbeginningtorunstrongly,andthesewerepassingoutwithitontheothersideofthemouthofthebayou;——perhapstheyhadbeenwashedintothemarshduringthenight,whenthegreatrushoftheseacame。 Thenthethreemenleftthewater,andretiredtohighergroundtoscanthefurrowedGulf;——theirpracticedeyesbegantosearchthecoursesofthesea—currents,——keenasthegazeofbirdsthatwatchthewakeoftheplough。Andsoonthecasksandthedriftwereforgotten;foritseemedtothemthatthetidewasheavywithhumandead——passingout,processionally,tothegreatopen。 Veryfar,wherethehugepitchingoftheswellswasdiminishedbydistanceintoamereflutteringofripples,thewaterappearedasifsprinkledwiththem;——theyvanishedandbecamevisibleagainatirregularintervals,hereandthere——floatingmostthicklyeastward!——tossing,swayingpatchesofwhiteorpinkorblueorblackeachwithitstinyspeckofflesh—colorshowingasthesealiftedorloweredthebody。Nearertoshoretherewerefew;butofthesetwowerecloseenoughtobealmostrecognizable:Miguelfirstdiscernedthem。Theywererisingandfallingwherethewaterwasdeepest——welloutinfrontofthemouthofthebayou,beyondthefloodedsand—bars,andmovingtowardtheshell—reefwestward。Theyweredriftingalmostsidebyside。Onewasthatofanegro,apparentlywellattired,andwearingawhiteapron;——theotherseemedtobeayoungcoloredgirl,cladinabluedress;shewasfloatinguponherface;theycouldobservethatshehadnearlystraighthair,braidedandtiedwitharedribbon。Thesewereevidentlyhouse—servants,——slaves。Butfromwhence?Nothingcouldbelearneduntiltheluggersshouldreturn;andnoneofthemwasyetinsight。StillFeliuwasnotanxiousastothefateofhisboats,mannedbythebestsailorsofthecoast。RarelyaretheseLouisianafishermenlostinsuddenstorms;evenwhentoothereyestheappearancesaremostpacificandtheskiesmostsplendidlyblue,theydivinesomefar—offdanger,likethegulls;andlikethegullsalso,youseetheirlightvesselsfleeinglandward。Thesemenseemlivingbarometers,exquisitelysensitivetoalltheinvisiblechangesofatmosphericexpansionandcompression;theyarenoteasilycaughtinthoseawfuldeadcalmswhichsuddenlyparalyzethewingsofabark,andholdherhelplessintheircharmedcircle,asinanightmare,untiltheblacknessovertakesher,andthelong—sleepingsealeapsupfoamingtodevourher。 ——\"Carajo!\" ThewordallatonceburstsfromFeliu’smouth,withthatpeculiargutturalsnarlofthe\"r\"betokeningstrongexcitement,——whilehepointstosomethingrockingintheebb,beyondthefoamingoftheshell—reef,underacirclingofgulls。 Moredead?Yes——butsomethingtoothatlivesandmoves,likeaquiveringspeckofgold;andMateoalsoperceivesit,agleamofbrighthair,——andMiguellikewise,afteramoment’sgazing。A livingchild;——alifelessmother。Pobrecita!Noboatwithinreach,andonlyamightysurf—wrestlercouldhopetoswimthitherandreturn! Butalready,withoutaword,brownFeliuhasstrippedforthestruggle;——anothersecond,andheisshootingthroughthesurf,headandhandstunnellingthefoamhills……One——two——threelinespassed!——four!——thatiswheretheyfirstbegintocrumblewhitefromthesummit,——five!——thathecanridefearlessly!…… Thenswiftly,easily,headvances,withalong,powerfulbreast—stroke,——keepinghisbeardedheadwelluptowatchfordrift,——seemingtoslidewithaswingfromswelltoswell,——ascending,sinking,——alternatelypresentingbreastorshouldertothewave;alwaysdiminishingmoreandmoretotheeyesofMateoandMiguel,——tillhebecomesamovingspeck,occasionallyhardtofollowthroughtheconfusionofheapingwaters……Youarenotafraidofthesharks,Feliu!——no:theyareafraidofyou;rightandlefttheyslunkawayfromyourcomingthatmorningyouswamforlifeinWest—Indianwaters,withyourknifeinyourteeth,whiletheballsoftheCubancoast—guardwerepurringallaroundyou。Thatdaytheswarmingseawaswarm,——warmlikesoup——andclear,withanemeraldflashineveryripple,——notopaqueandclamorousliketheGulftoday……Miguelandhiscomradeareanxious。Ropesareunrolledandinter—knottedintoaline。Miguelremainsonthebeach;butMateo,bearingtheendoftheline,fightshiswayout,——swimmingandwadingbyturns,tothefurthersandbar,wherethewaterisshallowenoughtostandin,——ifyouknowhowtojumpwhenthebreakercomes。 ButFeliu,nearingthefloodedshell—bank,watchesthewhiteflashings,——knowswhenthetimecomestokeepflatandtakealong,longbreath。Oneheavyvolleyingoffoam,——darknessandhissingasofasteam—burst;avibrantliftingup;arushintolight,——andagainthevolleyingandtheseethingdarkness。Oncemore,——andthefightiswon!Hefeelstheupcomingchillofdeeperwater,——seesbeforehimthegreenquakingofunbrokenswells,——andfarbeyondhimMateoleapingonthebar,——andbesidehim,almostwithinarm’sreach,agreatbilliard—tableswaying,andadeadwomanclingingthere,and……thechild。 Amomentmore,andFeliuhasliftedhimselfbesidethewaifs…… Howfastthedeadwomanclings,asifwiththeonepowerwhichisstrongasdeath,——thedesperateforceoflove!Notinvain;forthefrailcreatureboundtothemother’scorpsewithasilkenscarfhasstillthestrengthtocryout:——\"Maman!maman!\"Buttimeislifenow;andthetinyhandsmustbepulledawayfromthefairdeadneck,andthescarftakentobindtheinfantfirmlytoFeliu’sbroadshoulders,——quickly,roughly;fortheebbwillnotwait…… AndnowFeliuhasaburden;buthisstyleofswimminghastotallychanged;——herisesfromthewaterlikeaTriton,andhispowerfularmsseemtospinincircles,likethespokesofaflyingwheel。 Fornowisthewrestleindeed!——aftereachpassingswellcomesaprodigiouspullingfrombeneath,——theseaclutchingforitsprey。 Butthereefisgained,ispassed;——thewildhorsesofthedeepseemtoknowtheswimmerwhohaslearnedtoridethemsowell。 Andstillthebrownarmsspininanever—nearingmistofspray; andtheoutersand—barisnotfaroff,——andthereisshoutingMateo,leapinginthesurf,swingingsomethingabouthishead,asavaqueroswingshisnoose!……Sough!splash!——itstrugglesinthetroughbesideFeliu,andthesinewyhanddescendsuponit。 Tiene!——tira,Miguel!Andtheirfeettouchlandagain!…… Sheisverycold,thechild,andverystill,witheyesclosed。 ——\"Estamuerta,Feliu?\"asksMateo。 ——\"No!\"thepantingswimmermakesanswer,emerging,whilethewavesreachwhitelyupthesandasinpursuit,——\"no;vive! respiratodavia!\" Behindhimthedeepliftsupitsmillionhands,andthundersasinacclaim。 IV。 ——\"MadredeDios!——misueno!\"screamedCarmen,abandoningherpreparationsforthemorningmeal,asFeliu,nude,likeamarinegod,rushedinandheldouttoheradrippingandgaspingbaby—girl,——\"MotherofGod!mydream!\"Buttherewasnotimethentotellofdreams;thechildmightdie。InoneinstantCarmen’squick,defthandshadstrippedtheslenderlittlebody; andwhileMateoandFeliuwerefindingdryclothingandstimulants,andMigueltellinghowitallhappened——quickly,passionately,withfuriousgesture,——thekindandvigorouswomanexertedallherskilltorevivetheflickeringlife。SoonFeliucametoaidher,whilehismensettoworkcompletingtheinterruptedpreparationofthebreakfast。Flannelswereheatedforthefrictionofthefraillimbs;andbrandy—and—waterwarmed,whichCarmenadministeredbythespoonful,skilfullyasanyphysician,——until,atlast,thelittlecreatureopenedhereyesandbegantosob。Sobbingstill,shewaslaidinCarmen’swarmfeather—bed,wellswathedinwoollenwrappings。Theimmediatedanger,atleast,wasover;andFeliusmiledwithprideandpleasure。 ThenCarmenfirstventuredtorelateherdream;andhisfacebecamegraveagain。Husbandandwifegazedamomentintoeachother’seyes,feelingtogetherthesamestrangethrill——thatmysteriousfaintcreeping,asofawindpassing,whichistheaweoftheUnknowable。Thentheylookedatthechild,lyingthere,pinkcheckedwiththeflushofthebloodreturning;andsuchasuddentendernesstouchedthemastheyhadknownlongyearsbefore,whiletogetherbendingabovetheslumberinglovelinessoflostConchita。 ——\"Queojos!\"murmuredFeliu,asheturnedaway,——feigninghunger……(Hewasnothungry;buthissighthadgrownalittledim,aswithamist。)Queojos!Theyweresingulareyes,large,dark,andwonderfullyfringed。Thechild’shairwasyellow——itwastheflashofitthathadsavedher;yethereyesandbrowswerebeautifullyblack。Shewascomely,butwithsuchacurious,delicatecomeliness——totallyunliketherobustbeautyofConcha……Atintervalsshewouldmoanalittlebetweenhersobs;andatlastcriedout,withathin,shrillcry:\"Maman!——oh!maman!\" ThenCarmenliftedherfromthebedtoherlap,andcaressedher,androckedhergentlytoandfro,asshehaddonemanyanightforConcha,——murmuring,——\"Yoseretumadre,angelmio,dulzuramia;——seretumadrecita,palomitamia!\"(Iwillbethymother,myangel,mysweet;——Iwillbethylittlemother,mydoveling。)Andthelongsilkfringesofthechild’seyesoverlapped,shadowedherlittlecheeks;andsheslept——justasConchitahadsleptlongago,——withherheadonCarmen’sbosom。 Feliure—appearedattheinnerdoor:atasign,heapproachedcautiously,withoutnoise,andlooked。 ——\"Shecantalk,\"whisperedCarmeninSpanish:\"shecalledhermother\"——hallamadoasumadre。 ——\"YDiostambienlahallamado,\"respondedFeliu,withrudepathos;——\"AndGodalsocalledher。\" ——\"ButtheVirginsentusthechild,Feliu,——sentusthechildforConcha’ssake。\" Hedidnotansweratonce;heseemedtobethinkingverydeeply;——Carmenanxiouslyscannedhisimpassiveface。 ——\"Whoknows?\"heanswered,atlast;——\"whoknows?Perhapsshehasceasedtobelongtoanyoneelse。\" Oneafteranother,Feliu’sluggersflutteredin,——bearingwiththemnewsoftheimmensecalamity。Andallthefishermen,inturn,lookedatthechild。Notonehadeverseenherbefore。 V。 Tendayslater,aluggerfullofarmedmenenteredthebayou,andmooredatViosca’swharf。Thevisitorswere,forthemostpart,countrygentlemen,——residentsofFranklinandneighboringtowns,orplantersfromtheTechecountry,——formingoneofthenumerousexpeditionsorganizedforthepurposeoffindingthebodiesofrelativesorfriendslostinthegreathurricane,andofpunishingtherobbersofthedead。Theyhadsearchednumberlessnooksofthecoast,hadgivensepulturetomanycorpses,hadrecoveredalargeamountofjewelry,and——asFeliuafterwardlearned,——hadsummarilytriedandexecutedseveralofthemostabandonedclassofwreckersfoundwithill—gottenvaluablesintheirpossession,andconvictedofhavingmutilatedthedrowned。 ButtheycametoViosca’slandingonlytoobtaininformation;——hewastoowellknownandlikedtobeasubjectforsuspicion;and,moreover,hehadonegoodfriendinthecrowd,——CaptainHarrisofNewOrleans,aveteransteamboatmanandamarketcontractor,towhomhehaddisposedofmanyacargooffreshpompano,sheep’s—head,andSpanish—mackerel……Harriswasthefirsttosteptoland;——sometenofthepartyfollowedhim。Nearlyallhadlostsomerelativeorfriendinthegreatcatastrophe;——thegatheringwasserious,silent,——almostgrim,——whichformedaboutFeliu。 Mateo,whohadcometothecountrywhileaboy,spokeEnglishbetterthantherestofthechenierepeople;——heactedasinterpreterwheneverFeliufoundanydifficultyincomprehendingoransweringquestions;andhetoldthemofthechildrescuedthatwildmorning,andofFeliu’sswim。Hisrecitalevokedamurmurofinterestandexcitement,followedbyaconfusionofquestions。Well,theycouldseeforthemselves,Feliusaid;buthehopedtheywouldhavealittlepatience;——thechildwasstillweak;——itmightbedangeroustostartleher。\"We’llarrangeitjustasyoulike,\"respondedthecaptain;——\"goahead,Feliu!\"…… Allproceededtothehouse,underthegreattrees;FeliuandCaptainHarrisleadingtheway。Itwassultryandbright;——eventhesea—breezewaswarm;therewerepleasantodorsintheshade,andasoporificmurmurmadeofleaf—speechandthehumofgnats。 OnlythecaptainenteredthehousewithFeliu;therestremainedwithout——sometakingseatsonarudeplankbenchundertheoaks——othersflingingthemselvesdownupontheweeds——afewstoodstill,leaningupontheirrifles。ThenCarmencameouttothemwithgourdsandabucketoffreshwater,whichallweregladtodrink。 Theywaitedmanyminutes。Perhapsitwasthecoolpeaceoftheplacethatmadethemallfeelhowhotandtiredtheywere: conversationflagged;andthegenerallanguorfinallybetrayeditselfinasilencesoabsolutethateveryleaf—whisperseemedtobecomeseparatelyaudible。 Itwasbrokenatlastbythegutturalvoiceoftheoldcaptainemergingfromthecottage,leadingthechildbythehand,andfollowedbyCarmenandFeliu。Allwhohadbeenrestingroseupandlookedatthechild。 Standinginalightedspace,withonetinyhandenvelopedbythecaptain’sgreatbrownfist,shelookedsolovelythatageneralexclamationofsurprisewentup。Herbrighthair,looseandsteepedinthesun—flame,illuminatedherlikeahalo;andherlargedarkeyes,gentleandmelancholyasadeer’s,watchedthestrangefacesbeforeherwithshycuriosity。SheworethesamedressinwhichFeliuhadfoundher——asoftwhitefabricofmuslin,withtrimmingsofribbonthathadoncebeenblue;andthenowdiscoloredsilkenscarf,whichhadtwicedonehersuchbraveservice,wasthrownoverhershoulders。Carmenhadwashedandrepairedthedressverycreditably;butthetinyslimfeetwerebare,——thebrine—soakedshoessheworethatfearfulnighthadfallenintoshredsatthefirstattempttoremovethem。 ——\"Gentlemen,\"saidCaptainHarris,——\"wecanfindnoclewtotheidentityofthischild。Thereisnomarkuponherclothing;andsheworenothingintheshapeofjewelry——exceptthisstringofcoralbeads。WearenearlyallAmericanshere;andshedoesnotspeakanyEnglish……Doesanyonehereknowanythingabouther?\" Carmenfeltagreatsinkingatherheart:washernew—founddarlingtobetakensosoonfromher?Butnoanswercametothecaptain’squery。Nooneoftheexpeditionhadeverseenthatchildbefore。Thecoralbeadswerepassedfromhandtohand;thescarfwasminutelyscrutinizedwithoutavail。SomebodyaskedifthechildcouldnottalkGermanorItalian。 ——\"Italiano?No!\"saidFeliu,shakinghishead……Oneofhisluggermen,GioachinoSparicio,who,thoughaSicilian,couldspeakseveralItalianidiomsbesideshisown,hadalreadyessayed。 ——\"Shespeakssomethingorother,\"answeredthecaptain——\"butnoEnglish。Icouldn’tmakeherunderstandme;andFeliu,whotalksnearlyalltheinfernallanguagesspokendownthisway,sayshecan’tmakeherunderstandhim。SupposesomeofyouwhoknowFrenchtalktoherabit……Laroussel,whydon’tyoutry?\" Theyoungmanaddresseddidnotatfirstseemtonoticethecaptain’ssuggestion。Hewasatall,lithefellow,withadark,positiveface:hehadneverremovedhisblackgazefromthechildsincethemomentofherappearance。Hereyes,too,seemedtobeallforhim——toreturnhisscrutinywithasortofvaguepleasure,ahalfsavageconfidence……Wasitthefirstembryonicfeelingofrace—affinityquickeninginthelittlebrain?——someintuitive,inexplicablesenseofkindred?SheshrankfromDoctorHecker,whoaddressedherinGerman,shookherheadatLawyerSolari,whotriedtomakeheranswerinItalian;andherlookalwayswentbackplaintivelytothedark,sinisterfaceofLaroussel,——Larousselwhohadcalmlytakenahumanlife,awickedhumanlife,onlytheeveningbefore。 ——\"Laroussel,you’retheonlyCreoleinthiscrowd,\"saidthecaptain;\"talktoher!Talkgumbotoher!……I’venodoubtthischildknowsGermanverywell,andItaliantoo,\"——headded,maliciously——\"butnotinthewayyougentlemenpronounceit!\" Larousselhandedhisrifletoafriend,croucheddownbeforethelittlegirl,andlookedintoherface,andsmiled。Hergreatsweetorbsshoneintohisonemoment,seriously,asifsearching;andthen……shereturnedhissmile。Itseemedtotouchsomethinglatentwithintheman,somethingrare;forhiswholeexpressionchanged;andtherewasacaressinhislookandvoicenoneofthemencouldhavebelievedpossible——asheexclaimed:—— ——\"Faismoinbo,piti。\" Shepoutedupherprettylipsandkissedhisblackmoustache。 Hespoketoheragain:—— ——\"Dismointonom,piti;——dismointonom,chere。\" Then,forthefirsttime,shespoke,answeringinherargenttreble: ——\"Zouzoune。\" Allheldtheirbreath。CaptainHarrisliftedhisfingertohislipstocommandsilence。 ——\"Zouzoune?Zouzounequi,chere?\" ——\"Zouzoune,ac’estmoin,Lili!\" ——\"C’estpastouttonom,Lili;——dismoin,chere,tolautnom。\" ——\"Mopasconninlautnom。\" ——\"Commentyetepeletomaman,piti?\" ——\"Maman,——Maman’Dele。\" ——\"Etcommentyetepeletopapa,chere?\" ——\"PapaZulien。\" ——\"Bon!Etcommenttomamantepeletopapa?——discaamoin,chere?\" Thechildlookeddown,putafingerinhermouth,thoughtamoment,andreplied:—— ——\"Lipeleli,’Cheri’;lipeleli,’Papoute。’\" ——\"Aie,aie!——c’esttout,ca?——tomamantejamainpelelidaut’ chose?\" ——\"Mopasconnin,moin。\" Shebegantoplaywithsometrinketsattachedtohiswatchchain;——averysmallgoldcompassespeciallyimpressedherfancybythetremblingandflashingofitstinyneedle,andshemurmured,coaxingly:—— ——\"Moouleca!Donnincaamoin。\" Hetookallpossibleadvantageofthesituation,andrepliedatonce:—— ——\"Oui!movadonnintoicasitodimointolautnom。\" Thesplendidbribeevidentlyimpressedhergreatly;fortearsrosetothebrowneyesassheanswered: ——\"Mopascapabdi’ca;——mopascapabdi’lautnom……Mooule; mopascapab!\" Larousselexplained。Thechild’snamewasLili,——perhapsacontractionofEulalie;andherpetCreolenameZouzoune。Hethoughtshemustbethedaughterofwealthypeople;butshecouldnot,forsomereasonorother,tellherfamilyname。Perhapsshecouldnotpronounceitwell,andwasafraidofbeinglaughedat: someoftheoldFrenchnameswereveryhardforCreolechildrentopronounce,solongasthelittleoneswereindulgedinthehabitoftalkingthepatois;andafteracertainagetheirmispronunciationswouldbemadefunofinordertoaccustomthemtoabandontheidiomoftheslave—nurses,andtospeakonlyFrench。Perhaps,again,shewasreallyunabletorecallthename:certainmemoriesmighthavebeenblurredinthedelicatebrainbytheshockofthatterriblenight。Shesaidhermother’snamewasAdele,andherfather’sJulien;butthesewereverycommonnamesinLouisiana,——andcouldaffordscarcelyanybetterclewthantheinnocentstatementthathermotherusedtoaddressherfatheras\"dear\"(Cheri),——orwiththeCreolediminutive\"littlepapa\"(Papoute)。ThenLarousseltriedtoreachaclewinotherways,withoutsuccess。Heaskedheraboutwhereshelived,——whattheplacewaslike;andshetoldhimaboutfig—treesinacourt,andgalleries,andbanquettes,andspokeofafaubou’,——withoutbeingabletonameanystreet。Heaskedherwhatherfatherusedtodo,andwasassuredthathedideverything——thattherewasnothinghecouldnotdo。Divineabsurdityofchildishfaith!——infiniteartlessnessofchildishlove!……Probablythelittlegirl’sparentshadbeenresidentsofNewOrleans——dwellersoftheoldcolonialquarter,——thefaubourg,thefaubou’。 ——\"Well,gentlemen,\"saidCaptainHarris,asLarousselabandonedhiscross—examinationindespair,——\"allwecandonowistomakeinquiries。Isupposewe’dbetterleavethechildhere。Sheisveryweakyet,andinnoconditiontobetakentothecity,rightinthemiddleofthehotseason;andnobodycouldcareforheranybetterthanshe’sbeingcaredforhere。Then,again,seemstomethatasFeliusavedherlife,——andthatattheriskofhisown,——he’sgotthepriorclaim,anyhow;andhiswifeisjustcrazyaboutthechild——wantstoadopther。Ifwecanfindherrelativessomuchthebetter;butIsay,gentlemen,letthemcomerightheretoFeliu,themselves,andthankhimasheoughttobethanked,byGod!That’sjustwhatIthinkaboutit。\" Carmenunderstoodthelittlespeech;——alltheSpanishcharmofheryouthhadfadedoutyearsbefore;butintheoneswiftlookofgratitudesheturneduponthecaptain,itseemedtoblossomagain;——forthatquickmoment,shewasbeautiful。 \"Thecaptainisquiteright,\"observedDr。Hecker:\"itwouldbeverydangeroustotakethechildawayjustnow。\"Therewasnodissent。 ——\"Allcorrect,boys?\"askedthecaptain……\"Well,we’vegottobegoing。By—by,Zouzoune!\" ButZouzouneburstintotears。Larousselwasgoingtoo! ——\"Giveherthething,Laroussel!shegaveyouakiss,anyhow——morethanshe’ddoforme,\"criedthecaptain。 Larousselturned,detachedthelittlecompassfromhiswatchchain,andgaveittoher。Sheheldupherprettyfaceforhisfarewellkiss…… VI。 ButitseemedfatedthatFeliu’swaifshouldneverbeidentified;——diligentinquiryandprintedannouncementsalikeprovedfruitless。Seaandsandhadeitherhiddenoreffacedalltherecordsofthelittleworldtheyhadengulfed:theannihilationofwholefamilies,theextinctionofraces,had,inmorethanoneinstance,renderedvainalleffortstorecognizethedead。Itrequiredthesubtleperceptionoflongintimacytonameremainstumefiedanddiscoloredbycorruptionandexposure,mangledandgnawedbyfishes,byreptiles,andbybirds;——itdemandedthegreatcourageoflovetolookupontheeyelessfacesfoundswelteringintheblacknessofcypress—shadows,underthelowpalmettoesoftheswamps,——wheregorgedbuzzardsstartedfromsleep,orcottonmouthsuncoiled,hissing,atthecomingofthesearchers。Andsometimesallwhohadlovedthelostwerethemselvesamongthemissing。Thefullrollcallofnamescouldneverbemadeout;extraordinarymistakeswerecommitted。Menwhomtheworlddeemeddeadandburiedcameback,likeghosts,——toreadtheirownepitaphs……AlmostatthesamehourthatLarousselwasquestioningthechildinCreolepatois,anotherexpedition,searchingforbodiesalongthecoast,discoveredonthebeachofalowisletfamedasahauntofpelicans,thecorpseofachild。Somelocksofbrighthairstilladheringtotheskull,astringofredbeads,awhitemuslindress,ahandkerchiefbroideredwiththeinitials\"A。L。B。,\"——weresecuredasclews;andthelittlebodywasinterredwhereithadbeenfound。 And,severaldaysbefore,CaptainHotard,oftherelief—boatEstelleBrousseaux,hadfound,driftingintheopenGulf(latitude26degrees43minutes;longitude88degrees17 minutes),——thecorpseofafair—hairedwoman,clingingtoatable。Thebodywasdisfiguredbeyondrecognition:eventheslenderbonesofthehandshadbeenstrippedbythenibsofthesea—birds—exceptonefinger,thethirdoftheleft,whichseemedtohavebeenprotectedbyaringofgold,asbyacharm。Gravenwithintheplainyellowcircletwasadate,——\"JUILLET——1851\"; andthenames,——\"ADELE+JULIEN,\"——separatedbyacross。TheEstellecarriedcoffinsthatday:mostofthemwerealreadyfull;buttherewasoneforAdele。 Whowasshe?——whowasherJulien?……WhentheEstelleandmanyothervesselshaddischargedtheirghastlycargoes;——whenthebereavedofthelandhadassembledashastilyastheymightfortheduyofidentification;——whenmemorieswerestrainedalmosttomadnessinresearchofnames,dates,incidents——fortheevocationofdeadwords,resurrectionofvanisheddays,recollectionofdearpromises,——then,intheconfusion,itwasbelievedanddeclaredthatthelittlecorpsefoundonthepelicanislandwasthedaughteroftheweareroftheweddingring:AdeleLaBrierre,neeFlorane,wifeofDr。JulienLaBrierre,ofNewOrleans,whowasnumberedamongthemissing。 AndtheybroughtdeadAdeleback,——upshadowyriverwindings,overlinkedbrightnessesoflakeandlakelet,throughmanyagreenglimmeringbayou,——totheCreolecity,andlaidhertorestsomewhereintheoldSaint—LouisCemetery。Anduponthetabletrecordinghernamewerealsograventhewords——…… Aussialamemoiredesonmari; JULIENRAYMONDLABRIERRE,nealaparoisseSt。Landry,le29Mai;MDCCCXXVIII; etdeleurfille,EULALIE,ageede4aset5mois,—— QuitousperirentdanslagrandetempetequibalayaL’IleDerniere,le10Aout,MDCCCLVI……+…… Priezpoureux! VII。 YetsixmonthsafterwardthefaceofJulienLaBrierrewasseenagainuponthestreetsofNewOrleans。Menstartedatthesightofhim,asataspectrestandinginthesun。Andneverthelesstheapparitioncastashadow。Peoplepaused,approached,halfextendedahandthrougholdhabit,suddenlycheckedthemselvesandpassedon,——wonderingtheyshouldhaveforgotten,askingthemselveswhytheyhadsonearlymadeanabsurdmistake。 ItwasaFebruaryday,——oneofthosecrystallinedaysofoursnowlessSouthernwinter,whentheairisclearandcool,andoutlinessharpeninthelightasifviewedthroughthefocusofadiamondglass;——andinthatbrightnessJulienLaBrierreperusedhisownbriefepitaph,andgazeduponthesculpturednameofdrownedAdele。Onlyhalfayearhadpassedsinceshewaslaidawayinthehighwalloftombs,——inthatstrangecolonialcolumbariumwherethedeadsleptinrows,behindsquaredmarblesletteredinblackorbronze。Yetherresting—place,——inthehighestrange,——alreadyseemedold。UnderourSouthernsun,thevegetationofcemeteriesseemstospringintobeingspontaneously——toleapallsuddenlyintoluxuriantlife! Microscopicmossygrowthshadbeguntomottletheslabthatclosedherin;——overitsfacesomesingularcreeperwascrawling,plantingtinyreptile—feetintothechiselledlettersoftheinscription;andfromthemoistsoilbelowspeckledeuphorbiasweregrowinguptoher,——andmorningglories,——andbeautifulgreentangledthingsofwhichhedidnotknowthename。 Andthesightoftheprettylizards,puffingtheircrimsonpouchesinthesun,orundulatingathwartepitaphs,andshiftingtheircolorwhenapproached,fromemeraldtoashen—gray;——thecaravansoftheants,journeyingtoandfromtinychinksinthemasonry;——thebeesgatheringhoneyfromthecrimsonblossomsofthecrete—de—coq,whoseradiclessoughtsustenance,perhapsfromhumandust,inthedecayofgenerations:——allthatrichlifeofgravessummonedupfanciesofResurrection,Nature’sresurrection—work——wondroustransformationsofflesh,marvellousbansmigrationofsouls!……Fromsomeforgottencreviceofthattombroof,whichaloneintervenedbetweenherandthevastlight,asturdyweedwasgrowing。Heknewthatplant,asitquiveredagainsttheblue,——thechou—gras,asCreolechildrencallit: itsdarkberriesformthemockingbird’sfavoritefood……Mightnotitsroots,exploringdarkness,havefoundsomeunfamiliarnutrimentwithin?——mightitnotbethatsomethingofthedeadhearthadrisentopurpleandemeraldlife——inthesapoftranslucentleaves,inthewineofthesavageberries,——toblendwiththebloodoftheWizardSinger,——tolendastrangesweetnesstothemelodyofhiswooing?……Seldom,indeed,doesithappenthatamanintheprimeofyouth,inthepossessionofwealth,habituatedtocomfortsandtheelegancesoflife,discoversinonebriefweekhowminutehistruerelationtothehumanaggregate,———howinsignificanthispartasonelivingatomofthesocialorganism。Seldom,attheageoftwenty—eight,hasonebeenmadeabletocomprehend,throughexperiencealone,thatinthevastandcomplexStreamofBeinghecountsforlessthanadrop;andthat,evenasthebloodlosesandreplacesitscorpuscles,withoutavarianceinthevolumeandvigorofitscurrent,soareindividualexistenceseliminatedandreplacedinthepulsingofapeople’slife,withneverapauseinitsmightymurmur。Butallthis,andmuchmore,Julienhadlearnedinsevenmercilessdays——sevensuccessiveandterribleshocksofexperience。Theenormousworldhadnotmissedhim;andhisplacethereinwasnotvoid——societyhadsimplyforgottenhim。Solongashehadmovedamongthem,allheknewforfriendshadperformedtheirpettyaltruisticroles,——haddischargedtheirsmallhumanobligations,——hadkeptturnedtowardhimtheleastselfishsideoftheirnatures,——hadmadewithhimatolerablyequitableexchangeofideasandoffavors;andafterhisdisappearancefromtheirmidst,theyhaddulymournedforhisloss——tothemselves!Theyhadplayedoutthefinalactintheunimportantdramaofhislife:itwasreallyaskingtoomuchtodemandarepetition……Impossibletodeceivehimselfastothefeelinghisunanticipatedreturnhadaroused:——feignedpitywherehehadlookedforsympatheticwelcome;dismaywherehehadexpectedsurpriseddelight;and,oftener,airsofresignation,ordisappointmentilldisguised,——alwaysinsincerity,politelymaskedorcoldlybare。Hehadcomebacktofindstrangersinhishome,relativesatlawconcerninghisestate,andhimselfregardedasanintruderamongtheliving,——anunluckyguest,arevenant……Howhollowandselfishaworlditseemed!Andyettherewasloveinit;hehadbeenlovedinit,unselfishly,passionately,withtheloveoffatherandofmother,ofwifeandchild……Allburied!——alllostforever!……Oh!wouldtoGodthestoryofthatstonewerenotalie!——wouldtokindGodhealsoweredead!…… Eveningshadowed:thevioletdeepenedandprickleditselfwithstars;———thesunpassedbelowthewest,leavinginhiswakeamomentarysplendorofvermilion……ourSoutherndayisnotprolongedbygloaming。AndJulien’sthoughtsdarkenedwiththedarkening,andasswiftly。Forwhiletherewasyetlighttosee,hereadanothernamethatheusedtoknow——thenameofRAMIREZ……NacioenCienfuegos,isladeCuba……Whereforeborn?——forwhateternalpurpose,Ramirez,——intheCityofaHundredFires? Hehadblownouthisbrainsbeforethesepulchreofhisyoungwife……Itwasadetacheddoublevault,shapedlikeahugechest,andmuchdilapidatedalready:——underthecontinuousburrowingofthecrawfishithadsunkgreatlyononeside,tiltingasifabouttofall。Outfromitszigzagfissuringsofbrickandplaster,asinistervoiceseemedtocome:——\"Gothouanddolikewise!……Earthgroanswithherburthenevennow,——theburthenofMan:sheholdsnoplaceforthee!\" VIII……Thatvoicepursuedhimintothedarknessofhischillyroom,——hauntedhiminthesilenceofhislodging。Andthenbeganwithinthemanthatghostlystrugglebetweencourageanddespair,betweenpatientreasonandmadrevolt,betweenweaknessandforce,betweendarknessandlight,whichallsensitiveandgenerousnaturesmustwageintheirownsoulsatleastonce——perhapsmanytimes——intheirlives。Memory,insuchmoments,playslikeanelectricstorm;——allinvoluntarilyhefoundhimselfreviewinghislife。 Incidentslongforgottencamebackwithsingularvividness:hesawthePastashehadnotseenitwhileitwasthePresent;——remembrancesofhome,recollectionsofinfancy,recurredtohimwithterribleintensity,——theartlesspleasuresandthetriflinggriefs,thelittlehurtsandthetenderpettings,thehopesandtheanxietiesofthosewholovedhim,thesmilesandtearsofslaves……AndhisfirstCreolepony,apresentfromhisfatherthedayafterhehadprovedhimselfabletorecitehisprayerscorrectlyinFrench,withoutonemispronunciation——withoutsayingcrasseforgrace,——andyellowMichel,whotaughthimtoswimandtofishandtopaddleapirogue;——andthebayou,withitswonder—worldofturtlesandbirdsandcreepingthings;——andhisGermantutor,whocouldnotpronouncethej;——andthesongsofthecane—fields,——strangelypleasing,fullofquaveringsandlongplaintivenotes,likethecallofthecranes……Tou’,tou’paysblanc!……AfterwardCamanierehadleasedtheplace;——everythingmusthavebeenchanged;eventhesongscouldnotbethesame。Tou’,tou’paysblare!——Daniequicommande…… AndthenParis;andtheuniversity,withitswildunder—life,——somedebts,somefollies;andthefrequentfondlettersfromhometowhichhemighthaverepliedsomuchoftener;——Paris,wheretalentismediocrity;Paris,withitsthundersanditssplendorsanditsseethingofpassion;——Paris,supremefocusofhumanendeavor,withitsmadnessesofart,itsfrenziedstrivingtoexpresstheInexpressible,itsspasmodicstrainingstoclutchtheUnattainable,itssoaringsofsoul—firetotheheavenoftheImpossible…… Whatarejoicingtherewasathisreturn!——howradiantandlevelthelongRoadoftheFutureseemedtoopenbeforehim! ——everywherefriends,prospects,felicitations。Thenhisfirstseriouslove;——andthenightoftheballatSt。Martinsville,——thevisionoflight!Gracileasapalm,androbedatoncesosimply,soexquisitelyinwhite,shehadseemedtohimthesupremerealizationofallpossibledreamsofbeauty……Andhispassionatejealousy;andtheslapfromLaroussel;andthehumiliatingtwo—minuteduelwithrapiersinwhichhelearnedthathehadfoundhismaster。Thescarwasdeep。WhyhadnotLarousselkilledhimthen?……Notevil—hearted,Laroussel,——theyusedtosaluteeachotherafterwardwhentheymet;andLaroussel’ssmilewaskindly。Whyhadherefrainedfromreturningit?WherewasLarousselnow? Forthedeathofhisgenerousfather,whohadsacrificedsomuchtoreformhim;forthedeath,onlyashortwhileafter,ofhisall—forgivingmother,hehadfoundonesweetwomantoconsolehimwithhertenderwords,herlovinglips,herdeliciouscaress。 ShehadgivenhimZouzoune,thedarlinglinkbetweentheirlives,——Zouzoune,whowaitedeacheveningwithblackEglantineatthegatetowatchforhiscoming,andtocrythroughallthehouselikeabird,\"Papa,lapevini!——papaZulienapevini!\"…… Andoncethatshehadmadehimveryangrybyupsettingtheinkoveramassofbusinesspapers,andhehadslappedher(couldheeverforgivehimself?)——shehadcried,throughhersobsofastonishmentandpain:——\"Tolaiminmoin?——tobattemoin!\"(Thoulovestme?——thoubeatestme!)Nextmonthshewouldhavebeenfiveyearsold。Tolaiminmoin?——tobattemoin!…… Afuriousparoxysmofgriefconvulsedhim,suffocatedhim;itseemedtohimthatsomethingwithinmustburst,mustbreak。Heflunghimselfdownuponhisbed,bitingthecoveringsinordertostiflehisoutcry,tosmotherthesoundsofhisdespair。Whatcrimehadheeverdone,ohGod!thatheshouldbemadetosufferthus?——wasitforthishehadbeenpermittedtolive?hadbeenrescuedfromtheseaandcarriedroundalltheworldunscathed? Whyshouldhelivetoremember,tosuffer,toagonize?WasnotRamirezwiser? Howlongthecontestwithinhimlasted,heneverknew;butereitwasdone,hehadbecome,inmorewaysthanone,achangedman。 Forthefirst,——thoughnotindeedforthelasttime,——somethingofthedeeperandnoblercomprehensionofhumanweaknessandofhumansufferinghadbeenrevealedtohim,——somethingofthatlargerknowledgewithoutwhichthesenseofdutycanneverbefullyacquired,northeunderstandingofunselfishgoodness,northespiritoftenderness。Thesuicideisnotacoward;heisanegotist。 Arayofsunlighttouchedhiswetpillow,——awokehim。Herushedtothewindow,flungthelatticedshuttersapart,andlookedout。 Somethingbeautifulandghostlyfilledallthevistas,——frost—haze;andinsomequeerwaythemisthadmomentarilycaughtandheldtheverycolorofthesky。Anazurefog!Throughitthequaintandcheckeredstreet——asyetbuthalfilluminedbythesun,——tooktonesofimpossiblecolor;theviewpaledawaythroughfaintbluishtintsintotransparentpurples;——alltheshadowswereindigo。Howsweetthemorning!——howwelllifeseemedworthliving!Becausethesunhadshownhisfacethroughafairyveiloffrost!…… Whowastheancientthinker?——wasitHermes?——whosaid:—— \"TheSunisLaughter;for’tisHewhomakethjoyousthethoughtsofmen,andgladdeneththeinfiniteworld。\"…… TheShadowoftheTide。 I。 Carmenfoundthatherlittlepethadbeentaughthowtopray;foreachnightandmorningwhenthedevoutwomanbegantomakeherorisons,thechildwouldkneelbesideher,withlittlehandsjoined,andinavoicesweetandclearmurmursomethingshehadlearnedbyheart。MuchasthispleasedCarmen,itseemedtoherthatthechild’sprayerscouldnotbewhollyvalidunlessutteredinSpanish;——forSpanishwasheaven’sowntongue,——lalenguadeDios,elidiomadeDios;andsheresolvedtoteachhertosaytheSalveMariaandthePadreNuestroinCastilian——also,herownfavoriteprayertotheVirgin,beginningwiththewords,\"Madresantisima,todadulceyhermosa。\"…… SoConchita——foranewnamehadbeengiventoherwiththatterribleseachristening——receivedherfirstlessonsinSpanish; andsheprovedamostintelligentpupil。BeforelongshecouldprattletoFeliu;——shewouldwatchforhisreturnofevenings,andannouncehiscomingwith\"Aquivienemipapacito?\"——shelearned,too,fromCarmen,manylittlecaressesofspeechtogreethimwith。Feliu’swasnotajoyousnature;hehadhisdarkhours,hissombredays;yetitwasrarelythathefelttoosullentoyieldtothelittleone’spetting,whenshewouldleapuptoreachhisneckandtocoaxhiskiss,with——\"Dameunbeso,papa!——asi;——yotro!otro!otro!\"Hegrewtoloveherlikehisown;——wasshenotindeedhisown,sincehehadwonherfromdeath?Andnonehadyetcometodisputehisclaim。Moreandmore,withthepassingofweeks,months,seasons,shebecameaportionofhislife——apartofallthathewroughtfor。Atthefirst,hehadhadahalf—formedhopethatthelittleonemightbereclaimedbyrelativesgenerousandrichenoughtoinsistuponhisacceptanceofahandsomecompensation;andthatCarmencouldfindsomesolaceinapleasantvisittoBarceloneta。Butnowhefeltthatnopossiblegenerositycouldrequitehimforherloss; andwiththeunconsciousselfishnessofaffection,hecommencedtodreadheridentificationasagreatcalamity。 Itwasevidentthatshehadbeenbroughtupnicely。Shehadprettyprimwaysofdrinkingandeating,queerlittlefashionsofsittingincompany,andofaddressingpeople。Shehadpeculiarnotionsaboutcolorsindress,aboutwearingherhair;andsheseemedtohavealreadyimbibedasmallstockofsocialprejudicesnotaltogetherinharmonywiththerepublicanismofViosca’sPoint。Occasionalswarthyvisitors,——menoftheManillasettlements,——shespokeofcontemptuouslyasnegues—marrons;andoncesheshockedCarmeninexpressiblybystoppinginthemiddleofhereveningprayer,declaringthatshewantedtosayherprayerstoawhiteVirgin;Carmen’sSenoradeGuadalupewasonlyanegra!Then,forthefirsttime,Carmenspokesocrosslytothechildastofrightenher。Butthepiouswoman’sheartsmoteherthenextmomentforthatfirstharshword;——andshecaressedthemotherlessone,consoledher,cheeredher,andatlastexplainedtoher——Iknownothow——somethingverywonderfulaboutthelittlefigurine,somethingthatmadeChita’seyesbigwithawe。ThereaftershealwaysregardedtheVirginofWaxasanobjectmysteriousandholy。 And,onebyone,mostofChita’slittleeccentricitiesweregraduallyeliminatedfromherdevelopinglifeandthought。Morerapidlythanordinarychildren,becausesingularlyintelligent,shelearnedtoadaptherselftoallthechangesofhernewenvironment,——retainingonlythatindescribablesomethingwhichtoanexperiencedeyetellsofhereditaryrefinementofhabitandofmind:——anaturalgrace,athorough—bredeaseandeleganceofmovement,aquicknessanddelicacyofperception。 Shebecamestrongagainandactive——activeenoughtoplayagreatdealonthebeach,whenthesunwasnottoofierce;andCarmenmadeacanvasbonnettoshieldherheadandface。Neverhadshebeenallowedtoplaysomuchinthesunbefore;anditseemedtodohergood,thoughherlittlebarefeetandhandsbecamebrownascopper。Atfirst,itmustbeconfessed,sheworriedherfoster—motheragreatdealbyvariousqueermisfortunesandextraordinaryfreaks;——gettingbittenbycrabs,fallingintothebayouwhileinpursuitof\"fiddlers,\"orlosingherselfattheconclusionofdesperateeffortstorunracesatnightwiththemoon,ortowalktothe\"endoftheworld。\"Ifshecouldonlyoncegettotheedgeofthesky,shesaid,she\"couldclimbup。\" Shewantedtoseethestars,whichwerethesoulsofgoodlittlechildren;andsheknewthatGodwouldletherclimbup。\"JustwhatIamafraidof!\"——thoughtCarmentoherself;——\"Hemightletherclimbup,——alittleghost!\"ButonedaynaughtyChitareceivedaterriblelesson,——alastinglesson,——whichtaughtherthevalueofobedience。 Shehadbeenparticularlycautionednottoventureintoacertainpartoftheswampintherearofthegrove,wheretheweedswereverytall;forCarmenwasafraidsomesnakemightbitethechild。 ButChita’sbird—brighteyehaddiscernedagleamofwhiteinthatdirection;andshewantedtoknowwhatitwas。Thewhitecouldonlybeseenfromonepoint,behindthefurthesthouse,wherethegroundwashigh。\"Nevergothere,\"saidCarmen;\"thereisaDeadManthere,——willbiteyou!\"Andyet,oneday,whileCarmenwasunusuallybusy,Chitawentthere。 Intheearlydaysofthesettlement,aSpanishfishermanhaddied;andhiscomradeshadbuilthimalittletombwiththesurplusofthesamebricksandothermaterialbroughtdownthebayoufortheconstructionofViosca’scottages。Butnoone,exceptperhapssomewanderingduckhunter,hadapproachedthesepulchreforyears。Highweedsandgrasseswrestledtogetherallaboutit,andrenderedittotallyinvisiblefromthesurroundinglevelofthemarsh。 FiddlersswarmedawayasChitaadvancedoverthemoistsoil,eachupliftingitssinglehugeclawasitsidledoff;——thenfrogsbegantoleapbeforeherasshereachedthethickergrass;——andlong—leggedbrowninsectssprangshoweringtorightandleftasshepartedthetuftsofthethickeningverdure。Asshewenton,thebitter—weedsdisappeared;——jointedgrassesandsinewydarkplantsofatallergrowthroseaboveherhead:shewasalmostdeafenedbythestormofinsectshrilling,andthemosquitoesbecameverywicked。Allatoncesomethinglongandblackandheavywriggledalmostfromunderhernakedfeet,——squirmingsohorriblythatforaminuteortwoshecouldnotmoveforfright。 Butitslunkawaysomewhere,andhiditself;theweedsithadshakenceasedtotrembleinitswake;andhercouragereturned。 Shefeltsuchanexquisiteandfearfulpleasureinthegratificationofthatnaughtycuriosity!Then,quiteunexpectedly——oh!whatastartitgaveher!——thesolitarywhiteobjectburstuponherview,leprousandghastlyastheyawnofacotton—mouth。TombsruinsooninLouisiana;——theoneChitalookeduponseemedreadytotoppledown。Therewasagreatraggedholeatoneend,wherewindandrain,andperhapsalsotheburrowingofcrawfishandofworms,hadloosenedthebricks,andcausedthemtoslideoutofplace。Itseemedveryblackinside; butChitawantedtoknowwhatwasthere。Shepushedherwaythroughagapinthethinandrottenlineofpickets,andthroughsometallweedswithbigcoarsepinkflowers;——thenshecroucheddownonhandsandkneesbeforetheblackhole,andpeeredin。Itwasnotsoblackinsideasshehadthought;forasunbeamslanteddownthroughachinkintheroof;andshecouldsee! Abrownhead——withouthair,withouteyes,butwithteeth,eversomanyteeth!——seemedtolaughather;andclosetoitsataToad,thehugestshehadeverseen;andthewhiteskinofhisthroatkeptpuffingoutandgoingin。AndChitascreamedandscreamed,andfledinwildterror,——screamingalltheway,tillCarmenranouttomeetherandcarryherhome。Evenwhensafeinheradoptedmother’sarms,shesobbedwithfright。Tothevividfancyofthechildthereseemedtobesomehideousrelationbetweenthestaringreptileandthebrowndeath’s—head,withitsemptyeyes,anditsnightmare—smile。 Theshockbroughtonafever,——afeverthatlastedseveraldays,andleftherveryweak。Buttheexperiencetaughthertoobey,taughtherthatCarmenknewbestwhatwasforhergood。Italsocausedhertothinkagreatdeal。Carmenhadtoldherthatthedeadpeopleneverfrightenedgoodlittlegirlswhostayedathome。 ——\"MadrecitaCarmen,\"sheasked,\"ismymammadead?\" ——\"Pobrecita!……Yes,myangel。GodcalledhertoHim,——yourdarlingmother。\" ——\"Madrecita,\"sheaskedagain,——heryoungeyesgrowingvastwithhorror,——\"ismyownmammanowlikeThat?\"……Shepointedtowardtheplaceofthewhitegleam,behindthegreattrees。 ——\"No,no,no!mydarling!\"criedCarmen,appalledherselfbytheghastlyquestion,——\"yourmammaiswiththedear,good,lovingGod,wholivesinthebeautifulsky,abovetheclouds,mydarling,beyondthesun!\" ButCarmen’skindeyeswerefulloftears;andthechildreadtheirmeaning。HewhotearethofftheMaskoftheFleshhadlookedintoherfaceoneunutterablemoment:——shehadseenthebrutalTruth,nakedtothebone! Yettherecametoheralittlethrillofconsolation,causedbythewordsofthetenderfalsehood;forthatwhichshehaddiscernedbydaycouldnotexplaintoherthatwhichshesawalmostnightlyinherslumber。Theface,thevoice,theformofherlovingmotherstilllivedsomewhere,——couldnothaveutterlypassedaway;sincethesweetpresencecametoherindreams,bendingandsmilingoverher,caressingher,speakingtoher,——sometimesgentlychiding,butalwayschidingwithakiss。 Andthenthechildwouldlaughinhersleep,andprattleinCreole,——talkingtotheluminousshadow,tellingthedeadmotherallthelittledeedsandthoughtsoftheday……WhywouldGodonlylethercomeatnight?……HerideaofGodhadbeenfirstdefinedbythesightofaquaintFrenchpictureoftheCreation,——anengravingwhichrepresentedashorelessseaunderablacksky,andoutoftheblacknessasolemnandbeardedgrayheademerging,andacloudyhandthroughwhichstarsglimmered。GodwaslikeoldDoctordeCoulanges,whousedtovisitthehouse,andtalkinavoicelikealowrollofthunder……Atalaterday,whenChitahadbeentoldthatGodwas\"everywhereatthesametime\"——withoutandwithin,beneathandaboveallthings,——thisideabecamesomewhatchanged。Theawfulbeardedface,thehugeshadowyhand,didnotfadefromherthought;buttheybecamefantasticallyblendedwiththelargerandvaguernotionofsomethingthatfilledtheworldandreachedtothestars,——somethingdiaphanousandincomprehensibleliketheinvisibleair,omnipresentandeverlastinglikethehighblueofheaven