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类别:其他 作者:Edith Wharton字数:23980更新时间:19/01/03 08:08:19
\"’MargaretAubyn’sLetters。’Twovolumes。Outto—day。Firsteditionoffivethousandsoldoutbeforeleavingthepress。 Secondeditionreadynextweek。THEBOOKOFTHEYEAR……\" Helookedupstupidly。Hiswifestillsatwithherheadthrownback,herpureprofiledetachedagainstthecushions。Shewassmilingalittleovertheprospecthislastwordshadopened。 Behindherheadshiversofsunandshaderanacrossthestripedawning。Arowofmaplesandaprivethedgehidtheirneighbor’sgables,givingthemundividedpossessionoftheirleafyhalf—acre; andlife,amomentbefore,hadbeenliketheirplotofground,shutoff,hedgedinfromimportunities,impenetrablyhisandhers。 Nowitseemedtohimthateverymaple—leaf,everyprivet—bud,wasarelentlesshumangaze,pressingcloseupontheirprivacy。Itwasasthoughtheysatinabrightlylitroom,uncurtainedfromadarknessfullofhostilewatchers……Hiswifestillsmiled; andherunconsciousnessofdangerseemed,insomehorribleway,toputherbeyondthereachofrescue…… Hehadnotknownthatitwouldbelikethis。Afterthefirstodiousweeks,spentinpreparingthelettersforpublication,insubmittingthemtoFlamel,andinnegotiatingwiththepublishers,thetransactionhaddroppedoutofhisconsciousnessintothatunvisitedlimbotowhichwerelegatethedeedswewouldrathernothavedonebuthavenonotionofundoing。FromthemomenthehadobtainedMissTrent’spromisenottosailwithheraunthehadtriedtoimaginehimselfirrevocablycommitted。Afterthat,heargued,hisfirstdutywastoher——shehadbecomehisconscience。 ThesumobtainedfromthepublishersbyFlamel’sadroitmanipulationsandopportunelytransferredtoDinslow’ssuccessfulventure,alreadyyieldedareturnwhich,combinedwithGlennard’sprofessionalearnings,tooktheedgeofcompulsionfromtheirwayofliving,makingitappeartheexpressionofagracefulpreferenceforsimplicity。Itwasthemitigatedpovertywhichcansubscribetoareviewortwoandhaveafewflowersonthedinner— table。AndalreadyinasmallwayGlennardwasbeginningtofeelthemagneticqualityofprosperity。Clientswhohadpassedhisdoorinthehungrydayssoughtitoutnowthatitborethenameofasuccessfulman。Itwasunderstoodthatasmallinheritance,cleverlyinvested,wasthesourceofhisfortune;andtherewasafeelingthatamanwhocoulddosowellforhimselfwaslikelytoknowhowtoturnoverotherpeople’smoney。 Butitwasinthemoreintimaterewardofhiswife’shappinessthatGlennardtastedthefullflavorofsuccess。Comingoutofconditionssonarrowthatthoseheofferedherseemedspacious,shefittedintohernewlifewithoutanyofthosemanifesteffortsatadjustmentthatareassoretoahusband’sprideasthecriticalrearrangementofthebridalfurniture。Shehadgivenhim,instead,thedelicatepleasureofwatchingherexpandlikeasea—creaturerestoredtoitselement,stretchingouttheatrophiedtentaclesofgirlishvanityandenjoymenttotherisingtideofopportunity。Andsomehow——inthewindowlessinnercellofhisconsciousnesswhereself—criticismcowered——Glennard’scourseseemedjustifiedbyitsmerelymaterialsuccess。Howcouldsuchacropofinnocentblessednesshavesprungfromtaintedsoil? Nowhehadtheinjuredsenseofamanentrappedintoadisadvantageousbargain。Hehadnotknownitwouldbelikethis; andadullangergatheredathisheart。Angeragainstwhom? Againsthiswife,fornotknowingwhathesuffered?AgainstFlamel,forbeingtheunconsciousinstrumentofhiswrong—doing? Oragainstthatmutememorytowhichhisownacthadsuddenlygivenavoiceofaccusation?Yes,thatwasit;andhispunishmenthenceforthwouldbethepresence,theunescapablepresence,ofthewomanhehadsopersistentlyevaded。Shewouldalwaysbetherenow。Itwasasthoughhehadmarriedherinsteadoftheother。 Itwaswhatshehadalwayswanted——tobewithhim——andshehadgainedherpointatlast…… Hesprangup,asthoughinanimpulseofflight……Thesuddenmovementliftedhiswife’slids,andsheasked,intheincuriousvoiceofthewomanwhoselifeisenclosedinamagiccircleofprosperity——\"Anynews?\" \"No——none——\"hesaid,rousedtoasenseofimmediateperil。Thepaperslayscatteredathisfeet——whatifsheweretoseethem? Hestretchedhisarmtogatherthemup,buthisnextthoughtshowedhimthefutilityofsuchconcealment。Thesameadvertisementwouldappeareveryday,forweekstocome,ineverynewspaper;howcouldhepreventherseeingit?Hecouldnotalwaysbehidingthepapersfromher……Well,andwhatifshedidseeit?Itwouldsignifynothingtoher,thechanceswerethatshewouldneverevenreadthebook……Assheceasedtobeanelementoffearinhiscalculationsthedistancebetweenthemseemedtolessenandhetookheragain,asitwere,intothecircleofhisconjugalprotection……Yetamomentbeforehehadalmosthatedher!……Helaughedaloudathissenselessterrors……Hewasoffhisbalance,decidedly。 \"Whatareyoulaughingat?\"sheasked。 Heexplained,elaborately,thathewaslaughingattherecollectionofanoldwomaninthetrain,anoldwomanwithalotofbundles,whocouldn’tfindherticket……Butsomehow,inthetelling,thehumorofthestoryseemedtoevaporate,andhefelttheconventionalityofhersmile。Heglancedathiswatch,\"Isn’tittimetodress?\" Sherosewithserenereluctance。\"It’sapitytogoin。Thegardenlookssolovely。\" Theylingeredsidebyside,surveyingtheirdomain。Therewasnotspaceinit,atthishour,fortheshadowoftheelm—treeintheangleofthehedge;itcrossedthelawn,cuttheflower—borderintwo,andranupthesideofthehousetothenurserywindow。Shebenttoflickacaterpillarfromthehoney—suckle;then,astheyturnedindoors,\"IfwemeantogoontheyachtnextSunday,\"shesuggested,\"oughtn’tyoutoletMr。Flamelknow?\" Glennard’sexasperationdeflectedsuddenly。\"OfcourseIshalllethimknow。YoualwaysseemtoimplythatI’mgoingtodosomethingrudetoFlamel。\" Thewordsreverberatedthroughhersilence;shehadawayofthusleavingonespaceinwhichtocontemplateone’sfollyatarm’slength。Glennardturnedonhisheelandwentupstairs。Ashedroppedintoachairbeforehisdressing—tablehesaidtohimselfthatinthelasthourhehadsoundedthedepthsofhishumiliationandthatthelowestdregsofit,theverybottom—slime,wasthehatefulnecessityofhavingalways,aslongasthetwomenlived,tobeciviltoBartonFlamel。 VI THEweekintownhadbeensultry,andthemen,intheSundayemancipationofwhiteflannelandduck,filledthedeck—chairsoftheyachtwiththeiroutstretchedapathy,following,throughamistofcigarette—smoke,theflittinginconsequencesofthewomen。 Thepartwasasmallone——Flamelhadfewintimatefriends——butcomposedofmoreheterogeneousatomsthanthelittlepoolsintowhichsocietyusuallyruns。ThereactionfromthechiefepisodeofhisearlierlifehadbredinGlennardanuneasydistasteforanykindofpersonalsaliency。Clevernesswasusefulinbusiness; butinsocietyitseemedtohimasfutileastheshamcascadesformedbyastreamthatmighthavebeenusedtodriveamill。Helikedthecollectivepointofviewthatgoeswiththecivilizeduniformityofdress—clothes,andhiswife’sattitudeimpliedthesamepreference;yettheyfoundthemselvesslippingmoreandmoreintoFlamel’sintimacy。Alexahadonceortwicesaidthatsheenjoyedmeetingcleverpeople;butherenjoymenttookthenegativeformofasmilingreceptivity;andGlennardfeltagrowingpreferenceforthekindofpeoplewhohavetheirthinkingdoneforthembythecommunity。 Still,thedeckoftheyachtwasapleasantrefugefromtheheatonshore,andhiswife’sprofile,serenelyprojectedagainstthechangingblue,layonhisretinalikeacoolhandonthenerves。 Hehadneverbeenmoreimpressedbythekindofabsolutenessthatliftedherbeautyabovethetransienteffectsofotherwomen,makingthemostharmoniousfaceseemanaccidentalcollocationoffeatures。 Theladieswhodirectlysuggestedthiscomparisonwereofakindaccustomedtotakesimilarriskswithmoregratifyingresults。 Mrs。Armigerhadinfactlongbeenthetriumphantalternativeofthosewhocouldn’t\"see\"AlexaGlennard’slooks;andMrs。 Touchett’sclaimstoconsiderationwerefoundedonthatdistributionofeffectswhichisthewonderofthosewhoadmireahighlycultivatedcountry。ThethirdladyofthetriowhichGlennard’sfancyhadputtosuchunflatteringuses,wasboundbycircumstancestosupporttheclaimsoftheothertwo。ThiswasMrs。Dresham,thewifeoftheeditoroftheRadiator。Mrs。 Dreshamwasaladywhohadrescuedherselffromsocialobscuritybyassumingtheroleofherhusband’sexponentandinterpreter; andDresham’sleisurebeingdevotedtothecultivationofremarkablewomen,hiswife’sattitudecommittedhertothepubliccelebrationoftheirremarkableness。Fortheconceivabletediumofthisduty,Mrs。DreshamwasrepaidbythefactthattherewerepeoplewhotookHERforaremarkablewoman;andwhointurnprobablypurchasedsimilardistinctionwiththesmallchangeofherreflectedimportance。Astotheotherladiesoftheparty,theyweresimplythewivesofsomeofthemen——thekindofwomenwhoexpecttobetalkedtocollectivelyandtohavetheirquestionsleftunanswered。 Mrs。Armiger,thelatestembodimentofDresham’sinstinctfortheremarkable,wasaninnocentbeautywhoforyearshaddistilleddulnessamongasetofpeoplenowself—condemnedbytheirinabilitytoappreciateher。UnderDresham’stutelageshehaddevelopedintoa\"thoughtfulwoman,\"whoreadhisleadersintheRadiatorandboughtthebooksherecommended。Whenanewnovelappeared,peoplewantedtoknowwhatMrs。Armigerthoughtofit; andayounggentlemanwhohadmadeatripinTourainehadrecentlyinscribedtoherthewide—marginedresultofhisexplorations。 Glennard,leaningbackwithhisheadagainsttherailandaslitoffugitivebluebetweenhishalf—closedlids,vaguelywishedshewouldn’tspoiltheafternoonbymakingpeopletalk;thoughhereducedhisannoyancetotheminimumbynotlisteningtowhatwassaid,thereremainedalatentirritationagainstthegeneralfutilityofwords。 Hiswife’sgiftofsilenceseemedtohimthemostvividcommentaryontheclumsinessofspeechasameansofintercourse,andhiseyeshadturnedtoherinrenewedappreciationofthisfinerfacultywhenMrs。Armiger’svoiceabruptlybroughthometohimtheunderratedpotentialitiesoflanguage。 \"You’vereadthem,ofcourse,Mrs。Glennard?\"heheardherask; and,inreplytoAlexa’svagueinterrogation——\"Why,the’AubynLetters’——it’stheonlybookpeoplearetalkingofthisweek。\" Mrs。Dreshamimmediatelysawheradvantage。\"YouHAVEN’Treadthem?Howveryextraordinary!AsMrs。Armigersays,thebook’sintheair;onebreathesitinliketheinfluenza。\" Glennardsatmotionless,watchinghiswife。 \"Perhapsithasn’treachedthesuburbsyet,\"shesaid,withherunruffledsmile。 \"Oh,DOletmecometoyou,then!\"Mrs。Touchettcried;\"anythingforachangeofair!I’mpositivelysickofthebookandIcan’tputitdown。Can’tyousailusbeyonditsreach,Mr。Flamel?\" Flamelshookhishead。\"Notevenwiththisbreeze。Literaturetravelsfasterthansteamnowadays。Andtheworstofitisthatwecan’tanyofusgiveupreading;it’sasinsidiousasaviceandastiresomeasavirtue。\" \"IbelieveitISavice,almost,toreadsuchabookasthe’Letters,’\"saidMrs。Touchett。\"It’sthewoman’ssoul,absolutelytornupbytheroots——herwholeselflaidbare;andtoamanwhoevidentlydidn’tcare;whocouldn’thavecared。Idon’tmeantoreadanotherline;it’stoomuchlikelisteningatakeyhole。\" \"Butifshewanteditpublished?\" \"Wantedit?Howdoweknowshedid?\" \"Why,Iheardshe’dlefttheletterstotheman——whoeverheis—— withdirectionsthattheyshouldbepublishedafterhisdeath——\" \"Idon’tbelieveit,\"Mrs。Touchettdeclared。 \"He’sdeadthen,ishe?\"oneofthemenasked。 \"Why,youdon’tsupposeifhewerealivehecouldeverholduphisheadagain,withtheselettersbeingreadbyeverybody?\"Mrs。 Touchettprotested。\"Itmusthavebeenhorribleenoughtoknowthey’dbeenwrittentohim;buttopublishthem!Nomancouldhavedoneitandnowomancouldhavetoldhimto——\" \"Oh,come,come,\"Dreshamjudiciallyinterposed;\"afterall,they’renotlove—letters。\" \"No——that’stheworstofit;they’reunlovedletters,\"Mrs。 Touchettretorted。 \"Then,obviously,sheneedn’thavewrittenthem;whereastheman,poordevil,couldhardlyhelpreceivingthem。\" \"Perhapshecountedonthepublictosavehimthetroubleofreadingthem,\"saidyoungHartly,whowasinthecynicalstage。 Mrs。ArmigerturnedherreproachfullovelinesstoDresham。\"Fromthewayyoudefendhim,Ibelieveyouknowwhoheis。\" EveryonelookedatDresham,andhiswifesmiledwiththesuperiorairofthewomanwhoisinherhusband’sprofessionalsecrets。 Dreshamshruggedhisshoulders。 \"WhathaveIsaidtodefendhim?\" \"Youcalledhimapoordevil——youpitiedhim。\" \"AmanwhocouldletMargaretAubynwritetohiminthatway?OfcourseIpityhim。\" \"ThenyouMUSTknowwhoheis,\"criedMrs。Armiger,withatriumphantairofpenetration。 HartlyandFlamellaughedandDreshamshookhishead。\"Nooneknows;noteventhepublishers;sotheytellmeatleast。\" \"Sotheytellyoutotellus,\"Hartlyastutelyamended;andMrs。 Armigeradded,withtheappearanceofcarryingtheargumentapointfarther,\"ButevenifHE’SdeadandSHE’Sdead,somebodymusthavegiventheletterstothepublishers。\" \"Alittlebird,probably,\"saidDresham,smilingindulgentlyonherdeduction。 \"Alittlebirdofpreythen——avulture,Ishouldsay——\"anothermaninterpolated。 \"Oh,I’mnotwithyouthere,\"saidDresham,easily。\"Thoselettersbelongedtothepublic。\" \"Howcananylettersbelongtothepublicthatweren’twrittentothepublic?\"Mrs。Touchettinterposed。 \"Well,thesewere,inasense。ApersonalityasbigasMargaretAubyn’sbelongstotheworld。Suchamindispartofthegeneralfundofthought。It’sthepenaltyofgreatness——onebecomesamonumenthistorique。Posteritypaysthecostofkeepingoneup,butonconditionthatoneisalwaysopentothepublic。\" \"Idon’tseethatthatexoneratesthemanwhogivesupthekeysofthesanctuary,asitwere。\" \"WhoWAShe?\"anothervoiceinquired。 \"Whowashe?Oh,nobody,Ifancy——theletter—box,theslitinthewallthroughwhichtheletterspassedtoposterity……\" \"Butshenevermeantthemforposterity!\" \"Awomanshouldn’twritesuchlettersifshedoesn’tmeanthemtobepublished……\" \"Sheshouldn’twritethemtosuchaman!\"Mrs。Touchettscornfullycorrected。 \"Ineverkeepletters,\"saidMrs。Armiger,undertheobviousimpressionthatshewascontributingavaluablepointtothediscussion。 Therewasagenerallaugh,andFlamel,whohadnotspoken,said,lazily,\"Youwomenaretooincurablysubjective。Iventuretosaythatmostmenwouldseeinthoselettersmerelytheirimmenseliteraryvalue,theirsignificanceasdocuments。Thepersonalsidedoesn’tcountwherethere’ssomuchelse。\" \"Oh,weallknowyouhaven’tanyprinciples,\"Mrs。Armigerdeclared;andAlexaGlennard,liftinganindolentsmile,said:\"I shallneverwriteyoualove—letter,Mr。Flamel。\" Glennardmovedawayimpatiently。Suchtalkwasastediousasthebuzzingofgnats。Hewonderedwhyhiswifehadwantedtodraghimonsuchasenselessexpedition……HehatedFlamel’scrowd—— andwhatbusinesshadFlamelhimselftointerfereinthatway,standingupforthepublicationofthelettersasthoughGlennardneededhisdefence?…… GlennardturnedhisheadandsawthatFlamelhaddrawnaseattoAlexa’selbowandwasspeakingtoherinalowtone。Theothergroupshadscattered,strayingintwosalongthedeck。ItcameoverGlennardthatheshouldneveragainbeabletoseeFlamelspeakingtohiswifewithoutthesenseofsickmistrustthatnowloosenedhisjoints…… Alexa,thenextmorning,overtheirearlybreakfast,surprisedherhusbandbyanunexpectedrequest。 \"Willyoubringmethoselettersfromtown?\"sheasked。 \"Whatletters?\"hesaid,puttingdownhiscup。Hefelthimselfashelplesslyvulnerableasamanwhoislungedatinthedark。 \"Mrs。Aubyn’s。Thebooktheywerealltalkingaboutyesterday。\" Glennard,carefullymeasuringhissecondcupoftea,said,withdeliberation,\"Ididn’tknowyoucaredaboutthatsortofthing。\" Shewas,infact,notagreatreader,andanewbookseldomreachedhertillitwas,sotospeak,onthehomestretch;butshereplied,withagentletenacity,\"IthinkitwouldinterestmebecauseIreadherlifelastyear。\" \"Herlife?Wheredidyougetthat?\" \"Someonelentittomewhenitcameout——Mr。Flamel,Ithink。\" Hisfirstimpulsewastoexclaim,\"WhythedevildoyouborrowbooksofFlamel?Icanbuyyouallyouwant——\"buthefelthimselfirresistiblyforcedintoanattitudeofsmilingcompliance。\"Flamelalwayshasthenewestbooksgoing,hasn’the? Youmustbecareful,bytheway,aboutreturningwhathelendsyou。He’srathercrotchetyabouthislibrary。\" \"Oh,I’malwaysverycareful,\"shesaid,withatouchofcompetencethatstruckhim;andsheadded,ashecaughtuphishat:\"Don’tforgettheletters。\" Whyhadsheaskedforthebook?WashersuddenwishtoseeittheresultofsomehintofFlamel’s?ThethoughtturnedGlennardsick,buthepreservedsufficientluciditytotellhimself,amomentlater,thathislasthopeofself—controlwouldbelostifheyieldedtothetemptationofseeingahiddenpurposeineverythingshesaidanddid。HowmuchFlamelguessed,hehadnomeansofdivining;norcouldhepredicate,fromwhatheknewoftheman,towhatusehisinferencesmightbeput。TheveryqualitiesthathadmadeFlamelausefuladvisermadehimthemostdangerousofaccomplices。Glennardfelthimselfagropeamongalienforcesthathisownacthadsetinmotion…… Alexawasawomanoffewrequirements;butherwishes,evenintrifles,hadadefinitenessthatdistinguishedthemfromthefluidimpulsesofherkind。Heknewthat,havingonceaskedforthebook,shewouldnotforgetit;andheputaside,asanineffectualexpedient,hismomentaryideaofapplyingforitatthecirculatinglibraryandtellingherthatallthecopieswereout。 Ifthebookwastobeboughtithadbetterbeboughtatonce。Helefthisofficeearlierthanusualandturnedinatthefirstbook—shoponhiswaytothetrain。Theshow—windowwasstackedwithconspicuouslyletteredvolumes。\"MargaretAubyn\"flashedbackathiminendlessrepetition。Heplungedintotheshopandcameonacounterwherethenamereiterateditselfonrowafterrowofbindings。Itseemedtohavedriventherestofliteraturetothebackshelves。Hecaughtupacopy,tossingthemoneytoanastonishedclerkwhopursuedhimtothedoorwiththeunheededoffertowrapupthevolumes。 Inthestreethewasseizedwithasuddenapprehension。WhatifheweretomeetFlamel?Thethoughtwasintolerable。Hecalledacabanddrovestraighttothestationwhere,amidthepalm—leaffansofaperspiringcrowd,hewaitedalonghalf—hourforhistraintostart。 Hehadthrustavolumeineitherpocketandinthetrainhedarednotdrawthemout;butthedetestedwordsleapedathimfromthefoldsoftheeveningpaper。TheairseemedfullofMargaretAubyn’sname。Themotionofthetrainsetitdancingupanddownonthepageofamagazinethatamaninfrontofhimwasreading…… AtthedoorhewastoldthatMrs。Glennardwasstillout,andhewentupstairstohisroomanddraggedthebooksfromhispocket。 Theylayonthetablebeforehimlikelivethingsthathefearedtotouch……Atlengthheopenedthefirstvolume。Afamiliarlettersprangoutathim,eachwordquickenedbyitsglaringgarboftype。Thelittlebrokenphrasesfledacrossthepagelikewoundedanimalsintheopen……Itwasahorriblesight…… Abattueofhelplessthingsdrivensavagelyoutofshelter。Hehadnotknownitwouldbelikethis…… Heunderstoodnowthat,atthemomentofsellingtheletters,hehadviewedthetransactionsolelyasitaffectedhimself:asanunfortunateblemishonanotherwisepresentablerecord。HehadscarcelyconsideredtheactinrelationtoMargaretAubyn;fordeath,ifithallows,alsomakesinnocuous。Glennard’sGodwasagodoftheliving,oftheimmediate,theactual,thetangible;allhisdayshehadlivedinthepresenceofthatgod,heedlessofthedivinitieswho,belowthesurfaceofourdeedsandpassions,silentlyforgethefatalweaponsofthedead。 VII Aknockrousedhimandlookinguphesawhiswife。Hemetherglanceinsilence,andshefalteredout,\"Areyouill?\" Thewordsrestoredhisself—possession。\"Ill?Ofcoursenot。 TheytoldmeyouwereoutandIcameupstairs。\" Thebookslaybetweenthemonthetable;hewonderedwhenshewouldseethem。Shelingeredtentativelyonthethreshold,withtheairofleavinghisexplanationonhishands。Shewasnotthekindofwomanwhocouldbecountedontofortifyanexcusebyappearingtodisputeit。 \"Wherehaveyoubeen?\"Glennardasked,movingforwardsothatheobstructedhervisionofthebooks。 \"IwalkedovertotheDreshamsfortea。\" \"Ican’tthinkwhatyouseeinthosepeople,\"hesaidwithashrug;adding,uncontrollably——\"IsupposeFlamelwasthere?\" \"No;heleftontheyachtthismorning。\" AnanswersoobstructingtothenaturalescapeofhisirritationleftGlennardwithnomomentaryresourcebutthatofstrollingimpatientlytothewindow。Ashereyesfollowedhimtheylitonthebooks。 \"Ah,you’vebroughtthem!I’msoglad,\"sheexclaimed。 Heansweredoverhisshoulder,\"Forawomanwhoneverreadsyoumakethemostastoundingexceptions!\" Hersmilewasanexasperatingconcessiontotheprobabilitythatithadbeenhotintownorthatsomethinghadbotheredhim。 \"Doyoumeanit’snotnicetowanttoreadthebook?\"sheasked。 \"Itwasnotnicetopublishit,certainly;butafterall,I’mnotresponsibleforthat,amI?\"Shepaused,and,ashemadenoanswer,wenton,stillsmiling,\"Idoreadsometimes,youknow; andI’mveryfondofMargaretAubyn’sbooks。Iwasreading’PomegranateSeed’whenwefirstmet。Don’tyouremember?Itwasthenyoutoldmeallabouther。\" Glennardhadturnedbackintotheroomandstoodstaringathiswife。\"Allabouther?\"herepeated,andwiththewordsremembrancecametohim。HehadfoundMissTrentoneafternoonwiththenovelinherhand,andmovedbythelover’sfatuousimpulsetoassociatehimselfinsomewaywithwhateverfillsthemindofthebeloved,hadbrokenthroughhishabitualsilenceaboutthepast。RewardedbytheconsciousnessoffiguringimpressivelyinMissTrent’simaginationhehadgoneonfromoneanecdotetoanother,revivingdormantdetailsofhisoldHillbridgelife,andpasturinghisvanityontheeagernesswithwhichshereceivedhisreminiscencesofabeingalreadyclothedintheimpersonalityofgreatness。 Theincidenthadleftnotraceinhismind;butitsprangupnowlikeanoldenemy,themoredangerousforhavingbeenforgotten。 Theinstinctofself—preservation——sometimesthemostperilousthatmancanexercise——madehimawkwardlydeclare——\"Oh,Iusedtoseeheratpeople’shouses,thatwasall;\"andhersilenceasusualleavingroomforamultiplicationofblunders,headded,withincreasedindifference,\"Isimplycan’tseewhatyoucanfindtointerestyouinsuchabook。\" Sheseemedtoconsiderthisintently。\"You’vereadit,then?\" \"Iglancedatit——Ineverreadsuchthings。\" \"Isittruethatshedidn’twishtheletterstobepublished?\" Glennardfeltthesuddendizzinessofthemountaineeronanarrowledge,andwithitthesensethathewaslostifhelookedmorethanastepahead。 \"I’msureIdon’tknow,\"hesaid;then,summoningasmile,hepassedhishandthroughherarm。\"Ididn’thaveteaattheDreshams,youknow;won’tyougivemesomenow?\"hesuggested。 ThateveningGlennard,underpretextofworktobedone,shuthimselfintothesmallstudyopeningoffthedrawing—room。Ashegathereduphispapershesaidtohiswife:\"You’renotgoingtositindoorsonsuchanightasthis?I’lljoinyoupresentlyoutside。\" Butshehaddrawnherarmchairtothelamp。\"Iwanttolookatmybook,\"shesaid,takingupthefirstvolumeofthe\"Letters。\" Glennard,withashrug,withdrewintothestudy。\"I’mgoingtoshutthedoor;Iwanttobequiet,\"heexplainedfromthethreshold;andshenoddedwithoutliftinghereyesfromthebook。 Hesankintoachair,staringaimlesslyattheoutspreadpapers。 Howwashetowork,whileontheothersideofthedoorshesatwiththatvolumeinherhand?Thedoordidnotshutherout——hesawherdistinctly,feltherclosetohiminacontactaspainfulasthepressureonabruise。 Thesensationwaspartofthegeneralstrangenessthatmadehimfeellikeamanwakingfromalongsleeptofindhimselfinanunknowncountryamongpeopleofalientongue。Weliveinourownsoulsasinanunmappedregion,afewacresofwhichwehaveclearedforourhabitation;whileofthenatureofthosenearestusweknowbuttheboundariesthatmarchwithours。Ofthepointsinhiswife’scharacternotindirectcontactwithhisown,Glennardnowdiscernedhisignorance;andthebafflingsenseofherremotenesswasintensifiedbythediscoverythat,inoneway,shewasclosertohimthaneverbefore。Asonemayliveforyearsinhappyunconsciousnessofthepossessionofasensitivenerve,hehadlivedbesidehiswifeunawarethatherindividualityhadbecomeapartofthetextureofhislife,ineradicableassomegrowthonavitalorgan;andhenowfelthimselfatonceincapableofforecastingherjudgmentandpowerlesstoevadeitseffects。 Toescape,thenextmorning,theconfidencesofthebreakfast— table,hewenttotownearlierthanusual。Hiswife,whoreadslowly,wasgiventotalkingoverwhatsheread,andatpresenthisfirstobjectinlifewastopostponetheinevitablediscussionoftheletters。Thisinstinctofprotectionintheafternoon,onhiswayuptown,guidedhimtotheclubinsearchofamanwhomightbepersuadedtocomeouttothecountrytodine。TheonlymanintheclubwasFlamel。 Glennard,asheheardhimselfalmostinvoluntarilypressingFlameltocomeanddine,feltthefullironyofthesituation。TouseFlamelasashieldagainsthiswife’sscrutinywasonlyashadelesshumiliatingthantoreckononhiswifeasadefenceagainstFlamel。 Hefeltacontradictorymovementofannoyanceatthelatter’sreadyacceptance,andthetwomendroveinsilencetothestation。 Astheypassedthebookstallinthewaiting—roomFlamellingeredamomentandtheeyesofbothfellonMargaretAubyn’sname,conspicuouslydisplayedaboveacounterstackedwiththefamiliarvolumes。 \"Weshallbelate,youknow,\"Glennardremonstrated,pullingouthiswatch。 \"Goahead,\"saidFlamel,imperturbably。\"Iwanttogetsomething——\" Glennardturnedonhisheelandwalkeddowntheplatform。Flamelrejoinedhimwithaninnocent—lookingmagazineinhishand;butGlennarddarednotevenglanceatthecover,lestitshouldshowthesyllableshefeared。 Thetrainwasfullofpeopletheyknew,andtheywerekeptaparttillitdroppedthematthelittlesuburbanstation。Astheystrolleduptheshadedhill,Glennardtalkedvolubly,pointingouttheimprovementsintheneighborhood,deploringthethreatenedapproachofanelectricrailway,andscreeninghimselfbyaseriesofreflexadjustmentsfromtheimminentriskofanyallusiontothe\"Letters。\"Flamelsufferedhisdiscoursewiththeblandinattentionthatweaccordtotheaffairsofsomeoneelse’ssuburb,andtheyreachedtheshelterofAlexa’stea—tablewithoutaperceptibleturntowardthedreadedtopic。 Thedinnerpassedoffsafely。Flamel,alwaysathisbestinAlexa’spresence,gaveherthekindofattentionwhichislikeabeaconinglightthrownonthespeaker’swords:hisanswersseemedtobringoutalatentsignificanceinherphrases,asthesculptordrawshisstatuefromtheblock。Glennard,underhiswife’scomposure,detectedasensibilitytothismanoeuvre,andthediscoverywaslikethelightning—flashacrossanocturnallandscape。Thusfarthesemomentaryilluminationshadservedonlytorevealthestrangenessoftheinterveningcountry:eachfreshobservationseemedtoincreasethesum—totalofhisignorance。 Hersimplicityofoutlinewasmorepuzzlingthanacomplexsurface。Onemayconceivablyworkone’swaythroughalabyrinth; butAlexa’scandorwaslikeasnow—coveredplainwhere,theroadoncelost,therearenolandmarkstotravelby。 Dinnerover,theyreturnedtotheveranda,whereamoon,risingbehindtheoldelm,wascombiningwiththatcomplaisanttreearomanticenlargementoftheirborders。Glennardhadforgottenthecigars。Hewenttohisstudytofetchthem,andinpassingthroughthedrawing—roomhesawthesecondvolumeofthe\"Letters\" lyingopenonhiswife’stable。Hepickedupthebookandlookedatthedateofthelettershehadbeenreading。Itwasoneofthelast……heknewthefewlinesbyheart。Hedroppedthebookandleanedagainstthewall。Whyhadheincludedthatoneamongtheothers?Orwasitpossiblethatnowtheywouldallseemlikethat……? Alexa’svoicecamesuddenlyoutofthedusk。\"MayTouchettwasright——itISlikelisteningatakey—hole。IwishIhadn’treadit!\" Flamelreturned,intheleisurelytoneofthemanwhosephrasesarepunctuatedbyacigarette,\"Itseemssotous,perhaps;buttoanothergenerationthebookwillbeaclassic。\" \"Thenitoughtnottohavebeenpublishedtillithadbecomeaclassic。It’shorrible,it’sdegradingalmost,toreadthesecretsofawomanonemighthaveknown。\"Sheadded,inalowertone,\"StephenDIDknowher——\" \"Didhe?\"camefromFlamel。 \"Heknewherverywell,atHillbridge,yearsago。Thebookhasmadehimfeeldreadfully……hewouldn’treadit……hedidn’twantmetoreadit。Ididn’tunderstandatfirst,butnowIcanseehowhorriblydisloyalitmustseemtohim。It’ssomuchworsetosurpriseafriend’ssecretsthanastranger’s。\" \"Oh,Glennard’ssuchasensitivechap,\"Flamelsaid,easily;andAlexaalmostrebukinglyrejoined,\"Ifyou’dknownherI’msureyou’dfeelashedoes……\" Glennardstoodmotionless,overcomebythesingularinfelicitywithwhichhehadcontrivedtoputFlamelinpossessionofthetwopointsmostdamagingtohiscase:thefactthathehadbeenafriendofMargaretAubyn’s,andthathehadconcealedfromAlexahisshareinthepublicationoftheletters。ToamanoflessthanFlamel’sastutenessitmustnowbecleartowhomtheletterswereaddressed;andthepossibilityoncesuggested,nothingcouldbeeasierthantoconfirmitbydiscreetresearch。Animpulseofself—accusaldroveGlennardtothewindow。WhynotanticipatebetrayalbytellinghiswifethetruthinFlamel’spresence?Ifthemanhadadropofdecentfeelinginhim,suchacoursewouldbethesurestmeansofsecuringhissilence;andaboveall,itwouldridGlennardofthenecessityofdefendinghimselfagainsttheperpetualcriticismofhiswife’sbeliefinhim…… Theimpulsewasstrongenoughtocarryhimtothewindow;butthereareactionofdefiancesetin。Whathadhedone,afterall,toneeddefenceandexplanation?BothDreshamandFlamelhad,inhishearing,declaredthepublicationoftheletterstobenotonlyjustifiablebutobligatory;andifthedisinterestednessofFlamel’sverdictmightbequestioned,Dresham’satleastrepresentedtheimpartialviewofthemanofletters。AstoAlexa’swords,theyweresimplytheconventionalutteranceofthe\"nice\"womanonaquestionalreadydecidedforherbyother\"nice\" women。Shehadsaidtheproperthingasmechanicallyasshewouldhaveputontheappropriategownorwrittenthecorrectformofdinner—invitation。Glennardhadsmallfaithintheabstractjudgmentsoftheothersex;heknewthathalfthewomenwhowerehorrifiedbythepublicationofMrs。Aubyn’sletterswouldhavebetrayedhersecretswithoutascruple。 Thesuddenloweringofhisemotionalpitchbroughtaproportionaterelief。Hetoldhimselfthatnowtheworstwasoverandthingswouldfallintoperspectiveagain。HiswifeandFlamelhadturnedtoothertopics,andcomingoutontheveranda,hehandedthecigarstoFlamel,saying,cheerfully——andyethecouldhavesworntheywerethelastwordshemeanttoutter!——\"Lookhere,oldman,beforeyougodowntoNewportyoumustcomeoutandspendafewdayswithus——mustn’the,Alexa?\" VIII Glennardhad,perhapsunconsciously,countedonthecontinuanceofthiseasiermood。Hehadalwaystakenprideinacertainrobustnessoffibrethatenabledhimtohardenhimselfagainsttheinevitable,toconverthisfailuresintothebuildingmaterialsofsuccess。Thoughitdidnotevennowoccurtohimthatwhathecalledtheinevitablehadhithertobeenthealternativehehappenedtoprefer,hewasyetobscurelyawarethathispresentdifficultywasonenottobeconjuredbyanyaffectationofindifference。Somegriefsbuildthesoulaspacioushouse——butinthismiseryofGlennard’shecouldnotstandupright。Itpressedagainsthimateveryturn。Hetoldhimselfthatthiswasbecausetherewasnoescapefromthevisibleevidencesofhisact。The\"Letters\"confrontedhimeverywhere。Peoplewhohadneveropenedabookdiscussedthemwithcriticalreservations;tohavereadthemhadbecomeasocialobligationincirclestowhichliteratureneverpenetratesexceptinapersonalguise。 Glennarddidhimselfinjustice。itwasfromtheunexpecteddiscoveryofhisownpettinessthathechieflysuffered。Ourself—esteemisapttobebasedonthehypotheticalgreatactwehaveneverhadoccasiontoperform;andeventhemostself— scrutinizingmodestycreditsitselfnegativelywithahighstandardofconduct。Glennardhadneverthoughthimselfahero; buthehadbeencertainthathewasincapableofbaseness。Wealllikeourwrong—doingstohaveabecomingcut,tobemadetoorder,asitwere;andGlennardfoundhimselfsuddenlythrustintoagarbofdishonorsurelymeantforameanerfigure。 Theimmediateresultofhisfirstweeksofwretchednesswastheresolvetogototownforthewinter。Heknewthatsuchacoursewasjustbeyondthelimitofprudence;butitwaseasytoallaythefearsofAlexawho,scrupulouslyvigilantinthemanagementofthehousehold,preservedtheAmericanwife’susualaloofnessfromherhusband’sbusinesscares。Glennardfeltthathecouldnottrusthimselftoawinter’ssolitudewithher。Hehadanunspeakabledreadofherlearningthetruthabouttheletters,yetcouldnotbesureofsteelinghimselfagainstthesuicidalimpulseofavowal。Hisverysoulwasparchedforsympathy;hethirstedforavoiceofpityandcomprehension。Butwouldhiswifepity? Wouldsheunderstand?Againhefoundhimselfbroughtupabruptlyagainsthisincredibleignoranceofhernature。Thefactthatheknewwellenoughhowshewouldbehaveintheordinaryemergenciesoflife,thathecouldcount,insuchcontingencies,onthekindofhighcourageanddirectnesshehadalwaysdivinedinher,madehimthemorehopelessofherenteringintothetorturouspsychologyofanactthathehimselfcouldnolongerexplainorunderstand。Itwouldhavebeeneasierhadshebeenmorecomplex,morefeminine——ifhecouldhavecountedonherimaginativesympathyorhermoralobtuseness——buthewassureofneither。Hewassureofnothingbutthat,foratime,hemustavoidher。 Glennardcouldnotridhimselfofthedelusionthatbyandbyhisactionwouldceasetomakeitsconsequencesfelt。Hewouldnothavecaredtoowntohimselfthathecountedonthedullingofhissensibilities:hepreferredtoindulgethevaguehypothesisthatextraneouscircumstanceswouldsomehoweffacetheblotuponhisconscience。Inhisworstmomentsofself—abasementhetriedtofindsolaceinthethoughtthatFlamelhadsanctionedhiscourse。 Flamel,attheoutset,musthaveguessedtowhomtheletterswereaddressed;yetneitherthennorafterwardhadhehesitatedtoadvisetheirpublication。ThisthoughtdrewGlennardtohiminfitfulimpulsesoffriendliness,fromeachofwhichtherewasasharperreactionofdistrustandaversion。WhenFlamelwasnotatthehouse,hemissedthesupportofhistacitconnivance;whenhewasthere,hispresenceseemedtheassertionofanintolerableclaim。 EarlyinthewintertheGlennardstookpossessionofthelittlehousethatwastocostthemalmostnothing。ThechangebroughtGlennardtheimmediatereliefofseeinglessofhiswife,andofbeingprotected,inherpresence,bythemultipliedpreoccupationsoftownlife。Alexa,whocouldneverappearhurried,showedthesmilingabstractionofaprettywomantowhomthesocialsideofmarriedlifehasnotlostitsnovelty。Glennard,withtherecklessnessofamanfreshfromhisfirstfinancialimprudence,encouragedherinsuchlittleextravagancesashergoodsenseatfirstresisted。Sincetheyhadcometotown,heargued,theymightaswellenjoythemselves。Hetookasympatheticviewofthenecessityofnewgowns,hegaveherasetoffursatChristmas,andbeforetheNewYeartheyhadagreedontheobligationofaddingaparlour—maidtotheirsmallestablishment。 ProvidencetheverynextdayhastenedtojustifythismeasurebyplacingonGlennard’sbreakfast—plateanenvelopebearingthenameofthepublisherstowhomhehadsoldMrs。Aubyn’sletters。Ithappenedtobetheonlylettertheearlyposthadbrought,andheglancedacrossthetableathiswife,whohadcomedownbeforehimandhadprobablylaidtheenvelopeonhisplate。Shewasnotthewomantoaskawkwardquestions,buthefelttheconjectureofherglance,andhewasdebatingwhethertoaffectsurpriseatthereceiptoftheletter,ortopassitoffasabusinesscommunicationthathadstrayedtohishouse,whenacheckfellfromtheenvelope。Itwastheroyaltyonthefirsteditionoftheletters。Hisfirstfeelingwasoneofsimplesatisfaction。Themoneyhadcomewithsuchinfernalopportunenessthathecouldnothelpwelcomingit。Beforelong,too,therewouldbemore;heknewthebookwasstillsellingfarbeyondthepublisher’sprevisions。 Heputthecheckinhispocketandlefttheroomwithoutlookingathiswife。 Onthewaytohisofficethehabitualreactionsetin。Themoneyhehadreceivedwasthefirsttangiblereminderthathewaslivingonthesaleofhisself—esteem。Thethoughtofmaterialbenefithadbeenovershadowedbyhissenseoftheintrinsicbasenessofmakingthelettersknown;nowhesawwhatanelementofsordidnessitaddedtothesituationandhowthefactthatheneededthemoney,andmustuseit,pledgedhimmoreirrevocablythanevertotheconsequencesofhisact。Itseemedtohim,inthatfirsthourofmisery,thathehadbetrayedhisfriendanew。 When,thatafternoon,hereachedhomeearlierthanusual,Alexa’sdrawing—roomwasfullofagayetythatoverflowedtothestairs。 Flamel,forawonder,wasnotthere;butDreshamandyoungHartly,groupedaboutthetea—table,werereceivingwithresonantmirthanarrativedeliveredintheflutteredstaccatothatmadeMrs。 Armiger’sconversationliketheejaculationsofastartledaviary。 ShepausedasGlennardentered,andhehadtimetonoticethathiswife,whowasbusiedaboutthetea—tray,hadnotjoinedinthelaughterofthemen。 \"Oh,goon,goon,\"youngHartlyrapturouslygroaned;andMrs。 ArmigermetGlennard’sinquirywiththedeprecatingcrythatreallyshedidn’tseewhattherewastolaughat。\"I’msureI feelmorelikecrying。Idon’tknowwhatIshouldhavedoneifAlexahadn’tbeenhometogivemeacupoftea。Mynervesareinshreds——yes,another,dear,please——\"andasGlennardlookedhisperplexity,shewenton,afterponderingontheselectionofasecondlumpofsugar,\"Why,I’vejustcomefromthereading,youknow——thereadingattheWaldorf。\" \"Ihaven’tbeenintownlongenoughtoknowanything,\"saidGlennard,takingthecuphiswifehandedhim。\"Whohasbeenreadingwhat?\" \"ThatlovelygirlfromtheSouth——Georgie——Georgiewhat’shername——Mrs。Dresham’sprotegee——unlessshe’sYOURS,Mr。Dresham! Why,thebigball—roomwasPACKED,andallthewomenwerecryinglikeidiots——itwasthemostharrowingthingIeverheard——\" \"WhatDIDyouhear?\"Glennardasked;andhiswifeinterposed: \"Won’tyouhaveanotherbitofcake,Julia?Or,Stephen,ringforsomehottoast,please。\"Hertonebetrayedapolitesatietyofthetopicunderdiscussion。Glennardturnedtothebell,butMrs。 Armigerpursuedhimwithherlovelyamazement。 \"Why,the\"AubynLetters\"——didn’tyouknowaboutit?Thegirlreadthemsobeautifullythatitwasquitehorrible——Ishouldhavefaintedifthere’dbeenamannearenoughtocarrymeout。\" Hartly’sgleeredoubled,andDreshamsaid,jovially,\"Howlikeyouwomentoraiseashriekoverthebookandthendoallyoucantoencouragetheblatantpublicityofthereadings!\" Mrs。Armigermethimmorethanhalf—wayonatorrentofself— accusal。\"ItWAShorrid;itwasdisgraceful。Itoldyourwifeweoughtalltobeashamedofourselvesforgoing,andIthinkAlexawasquiterighttorefusetotakeanytickets——evenifitwasforacharity。\" \"Oh,\"herhostessmurmured,indifferently,\"withmecharitybeginsathome。Ican’taffordemotionalluxuries。\" \"Acharity?Acharity?\"Hartlyexulted。\"Ihadn’tseizedthefullbeautyofit。ReadingpoorMargaretAubyn’slove—lettersattheWaldorfbeforefivehundredpeopleforacharity!WHAT charity,dearMrs。Armiger?\" \"Why,theHomeforFriendlessWomen——\" \"Itwaswellchosen,\"Dreshamcommented;andHartlyburiedhismirthinthesofa—cushions。 WhentheywerealoneGlennard,stillholdinghisuntouchedcupoftea,turnedtohiswife,whosatsilentlybehindthekettle。\"Whoaskedyoutotakeaticketforthatreading?\" \"Idon’tknow,really——KateDresham,Ifancy。Itwasshewhogotitup。\" \"It’sjustthesortofdamnablevulgarityshe’scapableof!It’sloathsome——it’smonstrous——\" Hiswife,withoutlookingup,answeredgravely,\"Ithoughtsotoo。 ItwasforthatreasonIdidn’tgo。ButyoumustrememberthatveryfewpeoplefeelaboutMrs。Aubynasyoudo——\" Glennardmanagedtosetdownhiscupwithasteadyhand,buttheroomswungroundwithhimandhedroppedintothenearestchair。 \"AsIdo?\"herepeated。 \"ImeanthatveryfewpeopleknewherwhenshelivedinNewYork。 Tomostofthewomenwhowenttothereadingshewasamerename,tooremotetohaveanypersonality。Withme,ofcourse,itwasdifferent——\" Glennardgaveherastartledlook。\"Different?Whydifferent?\" \"Sinceyouwereherfriend——\" \"Herfriend!\"Hestoodupimpatiently。\"Youspeakasifshehadhadonlyone——themostfamouswomanofherday!\"Hemovedvaguelyabouttheroom,bendingdowntolookatsomebooksonthetable。 \"Ihope,\"headded,\"youdidn’tgivethatasareason,bytheway?\" \"Areason?\" \"Fornotgoing。Awomanwhogivesreasonsforgettingoutofsocialobligationsissuretomakeherselfunpopularorridiculous。 Thewordswereuncalculated;butinaninstanthesawthattheyhadstrangelybridgedthedistancebetweenhiswifeandhimself。 Hefelthercloseonhim,likeapantingfoe;andheranswerwasaflashthatshowedthehandonthetrigger。 \"Iseem,\"shesaidfromthethreshold,\"tohavedonebothingivingmyreasontoyou。\" ThefactthattheywerediningoutthateveningmadeiteasyforhimtoavoidAlexatillshecamedownstairsinheropera—cloak。 Mrs。Touchett,whowasgoingtothesamedinner,hadofferedtocallforher,andGlennard,refusingaprecariousseatbetweentheladies’draperies,followedonfoot。Theeveningwasinterminable。ThereadingattheWaldorf,atwhichallthewomenhadbeenpresent,hadrevivedthediscussionofthe\"AubynLetters\"andGlennard,hearinghiswifequestionedastoherabsence,felthimselfmiserablywishingthatshehadgone,ratherthanthatherstayingawayshouldhavebeenremarked。Hewasrapidlylosingallsenseofproportionwherethe\"Letters\"wereconcerned。Hecouldnolongerhearthemmentionedwithoutsuspectingapurposeintheallusion;heevenyieldedhimselfforamomenttotheextravaganceofimaginingthatMrs。Dresham,whomhedisliked,hadorganizedthereadinginthehopeofmakinghimbetrayhimself——forhewasalreadysurethatDreshamhaddivinedhisshareinthetransaction。 Theattempttokeepasmoothsurfaceonthisinnertumultwasasendlessandunavailingaseffortsmadeinanightmare。Helostallsenseofwhathewassayingtohisneighborsandoncewhenhelookeduphiswife’sglancestruckhimcold。 Shesatnearlyoppositehim,atFlamel’sside,anditappearedtoGlennardthattheyhadbuiltaboutthemselvesoneofthoseairybarriersoftalkbehindwhichtwopeoplecansaywhattheyplease。 Whilethereadingwasdiscussedtheyweresilent。TheirsilenceseemedtoGlennardalmostcynical——itstrippedthelastdisguisefromtheircomplicity。Athrobofangerroseinhim,butsuddenlyitfell,andhefelt,withacurioussenseofrelief,thatatbottomhenolongercaredwhetherFlamelhadtoldhiswifeornot。 TheassumptionthatFlamelknewaboutthelettershadbecomeafacttoGlennard;anditnowseemedtohimbetterthatAlexashouldknowtoo。 Hewasfrightenedatfirstbythediscoveryofhisownindifference。Thelastbarriersofhiswillseemedtobebreakingdownbeforeafloodofmorallassitude。Howcouldhecontinuetoplayhispart,tokeephisfronttotheenemy,withthispoisonofindifferencestealingthroughhisveins?Hetriedtobracehimselfwiththeremembranceofhiswife’sscorn。Hehadnotforgottenthenoteonwhichtheirconversationhadclosed。Ifhehadeverwonderedhowshewouldreceivethetruthhewonderednolonger——shewoulddespisehim。Butthislentanewinsidiousnesstohistemptation,sincehercontemptwouldbearefugefromhisown。Hesaidtohimselfthat,sincehenolongercaredfortheconsequences,hecouldatleastacquithimselfofspeakinginself—defence。Whathewantednowwasnotimmunitybutcastigation:hiswife’sindignationmightstillreconcilehimtohimself。Thereinlayhisonehopeofregeneration;herscornwasthemoralantisepticthatheneeded,hercomprehensiontheonebalmthatcouldhealhim…… Whentheyleftthedinnerhewassoafraidofspeakingthatheletherdrivehomealone,andwenttotheclubwithFlamel。 IX HErosenextmorningwiththeresolvetoknowwhatAlexathoughtofhim。Itwasnotanchoringinahaven,butlyingtoinastorm—— hefelttheneedofatemporarylullintheturmoilofhissensations。 Hecamehomelate,fortheywerediningaloneandheknewthattheywouldhavetheeveningtogether。Whenhefollowedhertothedrawing—roomafterdinnerhethoughthimselfonthepointofspeaking;butasshehandedhimhiscoffeehesaid,involuntarily: \"Ishallhavetocarrythisofftothestudy,I’vegotalotofworkto—night。\" Aloneinthestudyhecursedhiscowardice。Whatwasitthathadwithheldhim?Acertainbrightunapproachablenessseemedtokeephimatarm’slength。Shewasnotthekindofwomanwhosecompassioncouldbecircumvented;therewasnochanceofslippingpasttheoutposts;hewouldnevertakeherbysurprise。Well——whynotfaceher,then?Whatheshrankfromcouldbenoworsethanwhathewasenduring。Hehadpushedbackhischairandturnedtogoupstairswhenanewexpedientpresenteditself。Whatif,insteadoftellingher,heweretoletherfindoutforherselfandwatchtheeffectofthediscoverybeforespeaking?Inthiswayhemadeovertochancetheburdenoftherevelation。 Theideahadbeensuggestedbythesightoftheformulaenclosingthepublisher’scheck。Hehaddepositedthemoney,butthenoticeaccompanyingitdroppedfromhisnote—caseasheclearedhistableforwork。ItwastheformulausualinsuchcasesandrevealedclearlyenoughthathewastherecipientofaroyaltyonMargaretAubyn’sletters。ItwouldbeimpossibleforAlexatoreaditwithoutunderstandingatoncethatthelettershadbeenwrittentohimandthathehadsoldthem…… Hesatdownstairstillheheardherringfortheparlor—maidtoputoutthelights;thenhewentuptothedrawing—roomwithabundleofpapersinhishand。Alexawasjustrisingfromherseatandthelamplightfellonthedeeprollofhairthatoverhungherbrowliketheeavesofatemple。Herfacehadoftenthehighsecludedlookofashrine;anditwasthistouchofaweinherbeautythatnowmadehimfeelhimselfonthebrinkofsacrilege。 Lestthefeelingshoulddominatehim,hespokeatonce。\"I’vebroughtyouapieceofwork——alotofoldbillsandthingsthatI wantyoutosortforme。Somearenotworthkeeping——butyou’llbeabletojudgeofthat。Theremaybealetterortwoamongthem——nothingofmuchaccount,butIdon’tliketothrowawaythewholelotwithouthavingthemlookedoverandIhaven’ttimetodoitmyself。\" Heheldoutthepapersandshetookthemwithasmilethatseemedtorecognizeintheserviceheaskedthetacitintentionofmakingamendsfortheincidentofthepreviousday。 \"AreyousureIshallknowwhichtokeep?\" \"Oh,quitesure,\"heanswered,easily——\"andbesides,noneareofmuchimportance。\" Thenextmorningheinventedanexcuseforleavingthehousewithoutseeingher,andwhenhereturned,justbeforedinner,hefoundavisitor’shatandstickinthehall。ThevisitorwasFlamel,whowasintheactoftakingleave。 Hehadrisen,butAlexaremainedseated;andtheirattitudegavetheimpressionofacolloquythathadprolongeditselfbeyondthelimitsofspeech。BothturnedasurprisedeyeonGlennardandhehadthesenseofwalkingintoaroomgrownsuddenlyempty,asthoughtheirthoughtswereconspiratorsdispersedbyhisapproach。 Hefelttheclutchofhisoldfear。WhatifhiswifehadalreadysortedthepapersandhadtoldFlamelofherdiscovery?Well,itwasnonewstoFlamelthatGlennardwasinreceiptofaroyaltyonthe\"AubynLetters。\"…… AsuddenresolvetoknowtheworstmadehimlifthiseyestohiswifeasthedoorclosedonFlamel。ButAlexahadrisenalso,andbendingoverherwriting—table,withherbacktoGlennard,wasbeginningtospeakprecipitately。 \"I’mdiningoutto—night——youdon’tmindmydesertingyou?JuliaArmigersentmewordjustnowthatshehadanextraticketforthelastAmbroseconcert。Shetoldmetosayhowsorryshewasthatshehadn’ttwo——butIknewYOUwouldn’tbesorry!\"SheendedwithalaughthathadtheeffectofbeingastrayedechoofMrs。 Armiger’s;andbeforeGlennardcouldspeakshehadadded,withherhandonthedoor,\"Mr。FlamelstayedsolatethatI’vehardlytimetodress。Theconcertbeginsridiculouslyearly,andJuliadinesathalf—pastseven——\" Glennardstoodaloneintheemptyroomthatseemedsomehowfullofanironicalconsciousnessofwhatwashappening。\"Shehatesme,\" hemurmured。\"Shehatesme……\" ThenextdaywasSunday,andGlennardpurposelylingeredlateinhisroom。Whenhecamedownstairshiswifewasalreadyseatedatthebreakfast—table。Sheliftedherusualsmiletohisentranceandtheytookshelterinthenearesttopic,likewayfarersovertakenbyastorm。Whilehelistenedtoheraccountoftheconcerthebegantothinkthat,afterall,shehadnotyetsortedthepapers,andthatheragitationofthepreviousdaymustbeascribedtoanothercause,inwhichperhapshehadbutanindirectconcern。HewonderedithadneverbeforeoccurredtohimthatFlamelwasthekindofmanwhomightverywellpleaseawomanathisownexpense,withoutneedoffortuitousassistance。Ifthispossibilityclearedtheoutlookitdidnotbrightenit。Glennardmerelyfelthimselfleftalonewithhisbaseness。 Alexaleftthebreakfast—tablebeforehimandwhenhewentuptothedrawing—roomhefoundherdressedtogoout。 \"Aren’tyoualittleearlyforchurch?\"heasked。 Sherepliedthat,onthewaythere,shemeanttostopamomentathermother’s;andwhileshedrewonhergloves,hefumbledamongtheknick—knacksonthemantel—pieceforamatchtolighthiscigarette。 \"Well,good—by,\"shesaid,turningtogo;andfromthethresholdsheadded:\"Bytheway,I’vesortedthepapersyougaveme。ThosethatIthoughtyouwouldliketokeepareonyourstudy—table。\" Shewentdownstairsandheheardthedoorclosebehindher。 Shehadsortedthepapers——sheknew,then——sheMUSTknow——andshehadmadenosign! Glennard,hehardlyknewhow,foundhimselfoncemoreinthestudy。Onthetablelaythepackethehadgivenher。Itwasmuchsmaller——shehadevidentlygoneoverthepaperswithcare,destroyingthegreaternumber。Heloosenedtheelasticbandandspreadtheremainingenvelopesonhisdesk。Thepublisher’snoticewasamongthem。 X Hiswifeknewandshemadenosign。Glennardfoundhimselfinthecaseoftheseafarerwho,closinghiseyesatnightfallonascenehethinkstoputleaguesbehindhimbeforeday,wakestoaport— holeframingthesamepatchofshore。Fromthekindofexaltationtowhichhisresolvehadliftedhimhedroppedtoanunreasoningapathy。Hisimpulseofconfessionhadactedasadrugtoself— reproach。Hehadtriedtoshiftaportionofhisburdentohiswife’sshouldersandnowthatshehadtacitlyrefusedtocarryit,hefelttheloadtooheavytobetakenupagain。 Afortunateintervalofhardworkbroughtrespitefromthisphaseofsterilemisery。HewentWesttoargueanimportantcase,wonit,andcamebacktofreshpreoccupations。Hisownaffairswerethrivingenoughtoengrosshiminthepausesofhisprofessionalwork,andforovertwomonthshehadlittletimetolookhimselfintheface。Notunnaturally——forhewasasyetunskilledinthesubtletiesofintrospection——hemistookhistemporaryinsensibilityforagradualrevivalofmoralhealth。 Hetoldhimselfthathewasrecoveringhissenseofproportion,gettingtoseethingsintheirtruelight;andifhenowthoughtofhisrashappealtohiswife’ssympathyitwasasanactoffollyfromtheconsequencesofwhichhehadbeensavedbytheprovidencethatwatchesovermadmen。HehadlittleleisuretoobserveAlexa;butheconcludedthatthecommon—sensemomentarilydeniedhimhadcounselledheruncriticalacceptanceoftheinevitable。Ifsuchaqualitywasapoorsubstituteforthepassionatejustnessthathadonceseemedtocharacterizeher,heacceptedthealternativeasapartofthatgeneralloweringofthekeythatseemsneedfultothemaintenanceofthematrimonialduet。 Whatwomaneverretainedherabstractsenseofjusticewhereanotherwomanwasconcerned?PossiblythethoughtthathehadprofitedbyMrs。Aubyn’stendernesswasnotwhollydisagreeabletohiswife。 Whenthepressureofworkbegantolessen,andhefoundhimself,inthelengtheningafternoons,abletoreachhomesomewhatearlier,henoticedthatthelittledrawing—roomwasalwaysfullandthatheandhiswifeseldomhadaneveningalonetogether。 Whenhewastired,asoftenhappened,shewentoutalone;theideaofgivingupanengagementtoremainwithhimseemednottooccurtoher。Shehadshown,asagirl,littlefondnessforsociety,norhadsheseemedtoregretitduringtheyeartheyhadspentinthecountry。Hereflected,however,thathewassharingthecommonlotofhusbands,whoproverbiallymistaketheearlyardorsofhousekeepingforasignofsettleddomesticity。Alexa,atanyrate,wasrefutinghistheoryasinconsideratelyasaseedlingdefeatsthegardener’sexpectations。Anundefinablechangehadcomeoverher。Inonesenseitwasahappyone,sinceshehadgrown,ifnothandsomer,atleastmorevividandexpressive;herbeautyhadbecomemorecommunicable:itwasasthoughshehadlearnedtheconsciousexerciseofintuitiveattributesandnowusedhereffectswiththediscriminationofanartistskilledinvalues。Toadispassionatecritic(asGlennardnowratedhimself) theartmayattimeshavebeenalittletooobvious。Herattemptsatlightnesslackedspontaneity,andshesometimesraspedhimbylaughinglikeJuliaArmiger;buthehadenoughimaginationtoperceivethat,inrespectofthewife’ssocialarts,ahusbandnecessarilyseesthewrongsideofthetapestry。