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类别:其他 作者:Henry James字数:22424更新时间:19/01/03 14:19:51
\"I’mallinasoak;thereWASamessofpeopleinthe’bus。Iwishyoulivednearastytion,\"saidMissChurm。Irequestedhertogetreadyasquicklyaspossible,andshepassedintotheroominwhichshealwayschangedherdress。Butbeforegoingoutsheaskedmewhatshewastogetintothistime。 \"It’stheRussianprincess,don’tyouknow?\"Ianswered;\"theonewiththe’goldeneyes,’inblackvelvet,forthelongthingintheCheapside。\" \"Goldeneyes?ISAY!\"criedMissChurm,whilemycompanionswatchedherwithintensityasshewithdrew。Shealwaysarrangedherself,whenshewaslate,beforeIcouldturnround;andIkeptmyvisitorsalittleonpurpose,sothattheymightgetanidea,fromseeingher,whatwouldbeexpectedofthemselves。Imentionedthatshewasquitemynotionofailexcellentmodel——shewasreallyveryclever。 \"DoyouthinkshelookslikeaRussianprincess?\"MajorMonarchaskedwithlurkingalarm。 \"WhenImakeher,yes。\" \"OhifyouhavetoMAKEher——!\"hereasoned,notwithoutpoint。 \"That’sthemostyoucanask。Therearesomanywhoarenotmakeable。\" \"Wellnow,HERE’Salady\"——andwithapersuasivesmilehepassedhisarmintohiswife’s——\"who’salreadymade!\" \"OhI’mnotaRussianprincess,\"Mrs。Monarchprotestedalittlecoldly。Icouldseeshehadknownsomeanddidn’tlikethem。 ThereatoncewasacomplicationofakindIneverhadtofearwithMissChurm。 Thisyoungladycamebackinblackvelvet——thegownwasratherrustyandverylowonherleanshoulders——andwithaJapanesefaninherredhands。IremindedherthatinthesceneIwasdoingshehadtolookoversomeone’shead。\"Iforgetwhoseitisbutitdoesn’tmatter。Justlookoverahead。\" \"I’dratherlookoverastove,\"saidMissChurmandshetookherstationnearthefire。ShefellintoPosition,settledherselfintoatallattitude,gaveacertainbackwardinclinationtoherheadandacertainforwarddrooptoherfan,andlooked,atleasttomyprejudicedsense,distinguishedandcharming,foreignanddangerous。WeleftherlookingsowhileIwentdownstairswithMajorandMrs。Monarch。 \"IbelieveIcouldcomeaboutasnearitasthat,\"saidMrs。 Monarch。 \"Ohyouthinkshe’sshabby,butyoumustallowforthealchemyofart。\" However,theywentoffwithanevidentincreaseofcomfortfoundedontheirdemonstrableadvantageinbeingtherealthing。IcouldfancythemshudderingoverMissChurm。ShewasverydrollaboutthemwhenIwentback,forItoldherwhattheywanted。 \"Well,ifSHEcansitI’lltyketobookkeeping,\"saidmymodel。 \"She’sveryladylike,\"Irepliedasaninnocentformofaggravation。 \"SomuchtheworseforYOU。Thatmeansshecan’tturnround。\" \"She’lldoforthefashionablenovels。\" \"Ohyes,she’llDOforthem!\"mymodelhumorouslydeclared。\"Ain’ttheybadenoughwithouther?\"IhadoftensociablydenouncedthemtoMissChurm。 CHAPTERIII ItwasfortheelucidationofamysteryinoneoftheseworksthatIfirsttriedMrs。Monarch。Herhusbandcamewithher,tobeusefulifnecessary——itwassufficientlyclearthatasageneralthinghewouldprefertocomewithher。AtfirstIwonderedifthiswerefor\"propriety’s\"sake——ifheweregoingtobejealousandmeddling。Theideawastootiresome,andifithadbeenconfirmeditwouldspeedilyhavebroughtouracquaintancetoaclose。ButIsoonsawtherewasnothinginitandthatifheaccompaniedMrs。Monarchitwas——inadditiontothechanceofbeingwanted——simplybecausehehadnothingelsetodo。Whentheywereseparatehisoccupationwasgone,andtheyneverHADbeenseparate。 Ijudgedrightlythatintheirawkwardsituationtheircloseunionwastheirmaincomfortandthatthisunionhadnoweakspot。Itwasarealmarriage,anencouragementtothehesitating,anutforpessimiststocrack。Theiraddresswashumble——Irememberafterwardsthinkingithadbeentheonlythingaboutthemthatwasreallyprofessional——andIcouldfancythelamentablelodgingsinwhichtheMajorwouldhavebeenleftalone。Hecouldsittheremoreorlessgrimlywithhiswife——hecouldn’tsitthereanyhowwithouther。 Hehadtoomuchtacttotryandmakehimselfagreeablewhenhecouldn’tbeuseful;sowhenIwastooabsorbedinmyworktotalkhesimplysatandwaited。ButIlikedtohearhimtalk——itmademywork,whennotinterruptingit,lessmechanical,lessspecial。Tolistentohimwastocombinetheexcitementofgoingoutwiththeeconomyofstayingathome。Therewasonlyonehindrance——thatI seemednottoknowanyofthepeoplethisbrilliantcouplehadknown。Ithinkhewonderedextremely,duringthetermofourintercourse,whomthedeuceIDIDknow。Hehadn’tastraysixpenceofanideatofumblefor,sowedidn’tspinitveryfine;weconfinedourselvestoquestionsofleatherandevenofliquor- saddlersandbreeches-makersandhowtogetexcellentclaretcheap—— andmatterslike\"goodtrains\"andthehabitsofsmallgame。Hisloreontheselastsubjectswasastonishing——hemanagedtointerweavethestation-masterwiththeornithologist。Whenhecouldn’ttalkaboutgreaterthingshecouldtalkcheerfullyaboutsmaller,andsinceIcouldn’taccompanyhimintoreminiscencesofthefashionableworldhecouldlowertheconversationwithoutavisibleefforttomylevel。 Soearnestadesiretopleasewastouchinginamanwhocouldsoeasilyhaveknockedonedown。Helookedafterthefireandhadanopiniononthedraughtofthestovewithoutmyaskinghim,andI couldseethathethoughtmanyofmyarrangementsnothalfknowing。 IremembertellinghimthatifIwereonlyrichI’dofferhimasalarytocomeandteachmehowtolive。Sometimeshegavearandomsighofwhichtheessencemighthavebeen:\"Givemeevensuchabareold-barrackasthis,andI’ddosomethingwithit!\" WhenIwantedtousehimhecamealone;whichwasanillustrationofthesuperiorcourageofwomen。Hiswifecouldbearhersolitarysecondfloor,andshewasingeneralmorediscreet;showingbyvarioussmallreservesthatshewasalivetotheproprietyofkeepingourrelationsmarkedlyprofessional——notlettingthemslideintosociability。ShewishedittoremainclearthatsheandtheMajorwereemployed,notcultivated,andifsheapprovedofmeasasuperior,whocouldbekeptinhisplace,sheneverthoughtmequitegoodenoughforanequal。 Shesatwithgreatintensity,givingthewholeofhermindtoit,andwascapableofremainingforanhouralmostasmotionlessasbeforeaphotographer’slens。Icouldseeshehadbeenphotographedoften,butsomehowtheveryhabitthatmadehergoodforthatpurposeunfittedherformine。AtfirstIwasextremelypleasedwithherladylikeair,anditwasasatisfaction,oncomingtofollowherlines,toseehowgoodtheywereandhowfartheycouldleadthepencil。ButafteralittleskirmishingIbegantofindhertooinsurmountablystiff;dowhatIwouldwithitmydrawinglookedlikeaphotographoracopyofaphotograph。Herfigurehadnovarietyofexpression——sheherselfhadnosenseofvariety。Youmaysaythatthiswasmybusinessandwasonlyaquestionofplacingher。YetIplacedherineveryconceivablepositionandshemanagedtoobliteratetheirdifferences。Shewasalwaysaladycertainly,andintothebargainwasalwaysthesamelady。Shewastherealthing,butalwaysthesamething。ThereweremomentswhenIratherwrithedundertheserenityofherconfidencethatsheWAStherealthing。Allherdealingswithmeandallherhusband’swereanimplicationthatthiswasluckyforME。MeanwhileIfoundmyselftryingtoinventtypesthatapproachedherown,insteadofmakingherowntransformitself——inthecleverwaythatwasnotimpossibleforinstancetopoorMissChurm。ArrangeasIwouldandtaketheprecautionsIwould,shealwayscameout,inmypictures,tootall——landingmeinthedilemmaofhavingrepresentedafascinatingwomanassevenfeethigh,which(outofrespectperhapstomyownverymuchscantierinches)wasfarfrommyideaofsuchapersonage。 ThecasewasworsewiththeMajor——nothingIcoulddowouldkeepHIMdown,sothathebecameusefulonlyfortherepresentationofbrawnygiants。Iadoredvarietyandrange,Icherishedhumanaccidents,theillustrativenote;Iwantedtocharacteriseclosely,andthethingintheworldImosthatedwasthedangerofbeingriddenbyatype。Ihadquarrelledwithsomeofmyfriendsaboutit;IhadpartedcompanywiththemformaintainingthatoneHADtobe,andthatifthetypewasbeautiful——witnessRaphaelandLeonardo——theservitudewasonlyagain。IwasneitherLeonardonorRaphael——Imightonlybeapresumptuousyoungmodernsearcher; butIheldthateverythingwastobesacrificedsoonerthancharacter。WhentheyclaimedthattheobsessionalformcouldeasilyBEcharacterIretorted,perhapssuperficially,\"Whose?\"Itcouldn’tbeeverybody’s——itmightendinbeingnobody’s。 AfterIhaddrawnMrs。MonarchadozentimesIfeltsurereventhanbeforethatthevalueofsuchamodelasMissChurmresidedpreciselyinthefactthatshehadnopositivestamp,combinedofcoursewiththeotherfactthatwhatshedidhavewasacuriousandinexplicabletalentforimitation。Herusualappearancewaslikeacurtainwhich——shecoulddrawupatrequestforacapitalperformance。Thisperformancewassimplysuggestive;butitwasawordtothewise——itwasvividandpretty。SometimesevenI thoughtit,thoughshewasplainherself,tooinsipidlypretty;I madeitareproachtoherthatthefiguresdrawnfromherweremonotonously(betement,asweusedtosay)graceful。Nothingmadehermoreangry:itwassomuchherpridetofeelshecouldsitforcharactersthathadnothingincommonwitheachother。Shewouldaccusemeatsuchmomentsoftakingawayher\"reputytion。\" Itsufferedacertainshrinkage,thisqueerquantity,fromtherepeatedvisitsofmynewfriends。MissChurmwasgreatlyindemand,neverinwantofemployment,soIhadnoscrupleinputtingheroffoccasionally,totrythemmoreatmyease。Itwascertainlyamusingatfirsttodotherealthing——itwasamusingtodoMajorMonarch’strousers。TheyWEREtherealthing,evenifhedidcomeoutcolossal。Itwasamusingtodohiswife’sbackhair—— itwassomathematicallyneat——andtheparticular\"smart\"tensionofhertightstays。Shelentherselfespeciallytopositionsinwhichthefacewassomewhatavertedorblurred,sheaboundedinladylikebackviewsandprofilsperdus。Whenshestooderectshetooknaturallyoneoftheattitudesinwhichcourt-paintersrepresentqueensandprincesses;sothatIfoundmyselfwonderingwhether,todrawoutthisaccomplishment,Icouldn’tgettheeditoroftheCheapsidetopublishareallyroyalromance,\"ATaleofBuckinghamPalace。\"Sometimeshowevertherealthingandthemake- believecameintocontact;bywhichImeanthatMissChurm,keepinganappointmentorcomingtomakeoneondayswhenIhadmuchworkinhand,encounteredherinvidiousrivals。Theencounterwasnotontheirpart,fortheynoticedhernomorethanifshehadbeenthehousemaid;notfromintentionalloftiness,butsimplybecauseasyet,professionally,theydidn’tknowhowtofraternise,asI couldimaginetheywouldhaveliked——oratleastthattheMajorwould。Theycouldn’ttalkabouttheomnibus——theyalwayswalked; andtheydidn’tknowwhatelsetotry——shewasn’tinterestedingoodtrainsorcheapclaret。Besides,theymusthavefelt——intheair——thatshewasamusedatthem,secretlyderisiveoftheireverknowinghow。Shewasn’tapersontoconcealthelimitsofherfaithifshehadhadachancetoshowthem。OntheotherhandMrs。 Monarchdidn’tthinkhertidy;forwhyelsedidshetakepainstosaytome——itwasgoingoutoftheway,forMrs。Monarch——thatshedidn’tlikedirtywomen? Onedaywhenmyyoungladyhappenedtobepresentwithmyothersitters——sheevendroppedin,whenitwasconvenient,forachat——I askedhertobesogoodastolendahandingettingtea,aservicewithwhichshewasfamiliarandwhichwasoneofaclassthat,livingasIdidinasmallway,withslenderdomesticresources,I oftenappealedtomymodelstorender。Theylikedtolayhandsonmyproperty,tobreakthesitting,andsometimesthechina——itmadethemfeelBohemian。ThenexttimeIsawMissChurmafterthisincidentshesurprisedmegreatlybymakingasceneaboutit——sheaccusedmeofhavingwishedtohumiliateher。Shehadn’tresentedtheoutrageatthetime,buthadseemedobligingandamused,enjoyingthecomedyofaskingMrs。Monarch,whosatvagueandsilent,whethershewouldhavecreamandsugar,andputtinganexaggeratedsimperintothequestion。Shehadtriedintonations—— asifshetoowishedtopassfortherealthing——tillIwasafraidmyothervisitorswouldtakeoffence。 Ohtheyweredeterminednottodothis,andtheirtouchingpatiencewasthemeasureoftheirgreatneed。Theywouldsitbythehour,uncomplaining,tillIwasreadytousethem;theywouldcomebackonthechanceofbeingwantedandwouldwalkawaycheerfullyifitfailed。Iusedtogotothedoorwiththemtoseeinwhatmagnificentordertheyretreated。Itriedtofindotheremploymentforthem——Iintroducedthemtoseveralartists。Buttheydidn’t\"take,\"forreasonsIcouldappreciate,andIbecameratheranxiouslyawarethataftersuchdisappointmentstheyfellbackuponmewithaheavierweight。Theydidmethehonourtothinkmemosttheirform。Theyweren’tromanticenoughforthepainters,andinthosedaystherewerefewseriousworkersinblack-and-white。 Besides,theyhadaneyetothegreatjobIhadmentionedtothem—— theyhadsecretlysettheirheartsonsupplyingtherightessenceformypictorialvindicationofourfinenovelist。TheyknewthatforthisundertakingIshouldwantnocostume——effects,noneofthefripperyofpastages——thatitwasacaseinwhicheverythingwouldbecontemporaryandsatiricalandpresumablygenteel。IfIcouldworkthemintoittheirfuturewouldbeassured,forthelabourwouldofcoursebelongandtheoccupationsteady。 OnedayMrs。Monarchcamewithoutherhusband——sheexplainedhisabsencebyhishavinghadtogototheCity。WhileshesatthereinherusualrelaxedmajestytherecameatthedooraknockwhichI immediatelyrecognisedasthesubduedappealofamodeloutofwork。ItwasfollowedbytheentranceofayoungmanwhomIatoncesawtobeaforeignerandwhoprovedinfactanItalianacquaintedwithnoEnglishwordbutmyname,whichheutteredinawaythatmadeitseemtoincludeallothers。Ihadn’tthenvisitedhiscountry,norwasIproficientinhistongue;butashewasnotsomeanlyconstituted——whatItalianis?——astodependonlyonthatmemberforexpressionheconveyedtome,infamiliarbutgracefulmimicry,thathewasinsearchofexactlytheemploymentinwhichtheladybeforemewasengaged。Iwasnotstruckwithhimatfirst,andwhileIcontinuedtodrawIdroppedfewsignsofinterestorencouragement。Hestoodhisgroundhowever——notimportunately,butwithadumbdog-likefidelityinhiseyesthatamountedtoinnocentimpudence,themannerofadevotedservant——hemighthavebeeninthehouseforyears——unjustlysuspected。 Suddenlyitstruckmethatthisveryattitudeandexpressionmadeapicture;whereuponItoldhimtositdownandwaittillIshouldbefree。Therewasanotherpictureinthewayheobeyedme,andI observedasIworkedthattherewereothersstillinthewayhelookedwonderingly,withhisheadthrownback,aboutthehighstudio。HemighthavebeencrossinghimselfinSaintPeter’s。 BeforeIfinishedIsaidtomyself\"Thefellow’sabankruptorange- monger,butatreasure。\" WhenMrs。Monarchwithdrewhepassedacrosstheroomlikeaflashtoopenthedoorforher,standingtherewiththeraptpuregazeoftheyoungDantespellboundbytheyoungBeatrice。AsIneverinsisted,insuchsituations,ontheblanknessoftheBritishdomestic,Ireflectedthathehadthemakingofaservant——andI neededone,butcouldn’tpayhimtobeonlythat——aswellasofamodel;inshortIresolvedtoadoptmybrightadventurerifhewouldagreetoofficiateinthedoublecapacity。Hejumpedatmyoffer,andintheeventmyrashness——forIhadreallyknownnothingabouthim——wasn’tbroughthometome。Heprovedasympatheticthoughadesultoryministrant,andhadinawonderfuldegreethesentimentdelapose。Itwasuncultivated,instinctive,apartofthehappyinstinctthathadguidedhimtomydoorandhelpedhimtospelloutmynameonthecardnailedtoit。Hehadhadnootherintroductiontomethanaguess,fromtheshapeofmyhighnorthwindow,seenoutside,thatmyplacewasastudioandthatasastudioitwouldcontainanartist。HehadwanderedtoEnglandinsearchoffortune,likeotheritinerants,andhadembarked,withapartnerandasmallgreenhand-cart,onthesaleofpennyices。 Theiceshadmeltedawayandthepartnerhaddissolvedintheirtrain。MyyoungmanworetightyellowtrouserswithreddishstripesandhisnamewasOronte。Hewassallowbutfair,andwhenIputhimintosomeoldclothesofmyownhelookedlikeanEnglishman。HewasasgoodasMissChurm,whocouldlook,whenrequested,likeanItalian。 CHAPTERIV IthoughtMrs。Monarch’sfaceslightlyconvulsedwhen,onhercomingbackwithherhusband,shefoundOronteinstalled。ItwasstrangetohavetorecogniseinascrapofalazzaroneacompetitortohermagnificentMajor。Itwasshewhoscenteddangerfirst,fortheMajorwasanecdoticallyunconscious。ButOrontegaveustea,withahundredeagerconfusions——hehadneverbeenconcernedinsoqueeraprocess——andIthinkshethoughtbetterofmeforhavingatlastan\"establishment。\"TheysawacoupleofdrawingsthatIhadmadeoftheestablishment,andMrs。Monarchhintedthatitneverwouldhavestruckherhehadsatforthem。\"NowthedrawingsyoumakefromUS,theylookexactlylikeus,\"sheremindedme,smilingintriumph;andIrecognisedthatthiswasindeedjusttheirdefect。WhenIdrewtheMonarchsIcouldn’tanyhowgetawayfromthem——getintothecharacterIwantedtorepresent;andIhadn’ttheleastdesiremymodelshouldbediscoverableinmypicture。 MissChurmneverwas,andMrs。MonarchthoughtIhidher,veryproperly,becauseshewasvulgar;whereasifshewaslostitwasonlyasthedeadwhogotoheavenarelost——inthegainofanangelthemore。 BythistimeIhadgotacertainstartwith\"RutlandRamsay,\"thefirstnovelinthegreatprojectedseries;thatisIhadproducedadozendrawings,severalwiththehelpoftheMajorandhiswife,andIhadsenttheminforapproval。MyunderstandingwiththepublishersasIhavealreadyhinted,hadbeenthatIwastobelefttodomywork,inthisparticularcase,asIliked,withthewholebookcommittedtome;butmyconnexionwiththerestoftheserieswasonlycontingent。Thereweremomentswhen,frankly,itWASacomforttohavetherealthingunderone’shandfortherewerecharactersin\"RutlandRamsay\"thatwereverymuchlikeit。TherewerepeoplepresumablyaserectastheMajorandwomenofasgoodafashionasMrs。Monarch。Therewasagreatdealofcountry-houselife-treated,itistrue,inafinefancifulironicalgeneralisedway——andtherewasaconsiderableimplicationofknickerbockersandkilts。TherewerecertainthingsIhadtosettleattheoutset; suchthingsforinstanceastheexactappearanceoftheheroandtheparticularbloomandfigureoftheheroine。Theauthorofcoursegavemealead,buttherewasamarginforinterpretation。 ItooktheMonarchsintomyconfidence,ItoldthemfranklywhatI wasabout,Imentionedmyembarrassmentsandalternatives。\"OhtakeHIM!\"Mrs。Monarchmurmuredsweetly,lookingatherhusband; and\"Whatcouldyouwantbetterthanmywife?\"theMajorinquiredwiththecomfortablecandourthatnowprevailedbetweenus。 Iwasn’tobligedtoanswertheseremarks——Iwasonlyobligedtoplacemysitters。Iwasn’teasyinmind,andIpostponedalittletimidlyperhapsthesolvingofmyquestion。Thebookwasalargecanvas,theotherfigureswerenumerous,andIworkedoffatfirstsomeoftheepisodesinwhichtheheroandtheheroinewerenotconcerned。WhenonceIhadsetTHEMupIshouldhavetosticktothem——Icouldn’tmakemyyoungmansevenfeethighinoneplaceandfivefeetnineinanother。Iinclinedonthewholetothelattermeasurement,thoughtheMajormorethanonceremindedmethathelookedaboutasyoungasanyone。Itwasindeedquitepossibletoarrangehim,forthefigure,sothatitwouldhavebeendifficulttodetecthisage。AfterthespontaneousOrontehadbeenwithmeamonth,andafterIhadgivenhimtounderstandseveraltimesoverthathisnativeexuberancewouldpresentlyconstituteaninsurmountablebarriertoourfurtherintercourse,Iwakedtoasenseofhisheroiccapacity。Hewasonlyfivefeetseven,buttheremainingincheswerelatent。Itriedhimalmostsecretlyatfirst,forIwasreallyratherafraidofthejudgementmyothermodelswouldpassonsuchachoice。IftheyregardedMissChurmaslittlebetterthanasnarewhatwouldtheythinkoftherepresentationbyapersonsolittletherealthingasanItalianstreet-vendorofaprotagonistformedbyapublicschool? IfIwentalittleinfearofthemitwasn’tbecausetheybulliedme,becausetheyhadgotanoppressivefoothold,butbecauseintheirreallypatheticdecorumandmysteriouslypermanentnewnesstheycountedonmesointensely。IwasthereforeverygladwhenJackHawleycamehome:hewasalwaysofsuchgoodcounsel。Hepaintedbadlyhimself,buttherewasnoonelikehimforputtinghisfingerontheplace。HehadbeenabsentfromEnglandforayear;hehadbeensomewhere——Idon’trememberwhere——togetafresheye。Iwasinagooddealofdreadofanysuchorgan,butwewereoldfriends;hehadbeenawayformonthsandasenseofemptinesswascreepingintomylife。Ihadn’tdodgedamissileforayear。 Hecamebackwithafresheye,butwiththesameoldblackvelvetblouse,andthefirsteveninghespentinmystudiowesmokedcigarettestillthesmallhours。Hehaddonenoworkhimself,hehadonlygottheeye;sothefieldwasclearfortheproductionofmylittlethings。HewantedtoseewhatIhadproducedfortheCheapside,buthewasdisappointedintheexhibition。Thatatleastseemedthemeaningoftwoorthreecomprehensivegroanswhich,asheloungedonmybigdivan,hislegfoldedunderhim,lookingatmylatestdrawings,issuedfromhislipswiththesmokeofthecigarette。 \"What’sthematterwithyou?\"Iasked。 \"What’sthematterwithyou?\" \"NothingsavethatI’mmystified。\" \"Youareindeed。You’requiteoffthehinge。What’sthemeaningofthisnewfad?\"Andhetossedme,withvisibleirreverence,adrawinginwhichIhappenedtohavedepictedbothmyelegantmodels。Iaskedifhedidn’tthinkitgood,andherepliedthatitstruckhimasexecrable,giventhesortofthingIhadalwaysrepresentedmyselftohimaswishingtoarriveat;butIletthatpass——Iwassoanxioustoseeexactlywhathemeant。Thetwofiguresinthepicturelookedcolossal,butIsupposedthiswasnotwhathemeant,inasmuchas,foraughtheknewtothecontrary,I mighthavebeentryingforsomesucheffect。ImaintainedthatI wasworkingexactlyinthesamewayaswhenhelasthaddonemethehonourtotellmeImightdosomethingsomeday。\"Well,there’sascrewloosesomewhere,\"heanswered;\"waitabitandI’lldiscoverit。\"Idependeduponhimtodoso:whereelsewasthefresheye? Butheproducedatlastnothingmoreluminousthan\"Idon’tknow——I don’tlikeyourtypes。\"Thiswaslameforacriticwhohadneverconsentedtodiscusswithmeanythingbutthequestionofexecution,thedirectionofstrokesandthemysteryofvalues。 \"Inthedrawingsyou’vebeenlookingatIthinkmytypesareveryhandsome。\" \"Ohtheywon’tdo!\" \"I’vebeenworkingwithnewmodels。\" \"Iseeyouhave。THEYwon’tdo。\" \"Areyouverysureofthat?\" \"Absolutely——they’restupid。\" \"YoumeanIam——forIoughttogetroundthat。\" \"Youcan’t——withsuchpeople。Whoarethey?\" Itoldhim,sofaraswasnecessary,andheconcludedheartlessly: \"Cesontdesgensqu’ilfautmettrealaporte。\" \"You’veneverseenthem;they’reawfullygood\"——Iflewtotheirdefence。 \"Notseenthem?Whyallthisrecentworkofyoursdropstopieceswiththem。It’sallIwanttoseeofthem。\" \"Nooneelsehassaidanythingagainstit——theCheapsidepeoplearepleased。\" \"Everyoneelseisanass,andtheCheapsidepeoplethebiggestassesofall。Come,don’tpretendatthistimeofdaytohaveprettyillusionsaboutthepublic,especiallyaboutpublishersandeditors。It’snotforSUCHanimalsyouwork——it’sforthosewhoknow,colorochesanno;sokeepstraightformeifyoucan’tkeepstraightforyourself。Therewasacertainsortofthingyouusedtotryfor——andaverygoodthingitwas。Butthistwaddleisn’tinit。\"WhenItalkedwithHawleylaterabout\"RutlandRamsay\"anditspossiblesuccessorshedeclaredthatImustgetbackintomyboatagainorIshouldgotothebottom。Hisvoiceinshortwasthevoiceofwarning。 Inotedthewarning,butIdidn’tturnmyfriendsoutofdoors。 Theyboredmeagooddeal;buttheveryfactthattheyboredmeadmonishedmenottosacrificethem——iftherewasanythingtobedonewiththem——simplytoirritation。AsIlookbackatthisphasetheyseemtometohavepervadedmylifenotalittle。Ihaveavisionofthemasmostofthetimeinmystudio,seatedagainstthewallonanoldvelvetbenchtobeoutoftheway,andresemblingthewhileapairofpatientcourtiersinaroyalantechamber。I’mconvincedthatduringthecoldestweeksofthewintertheyheldtheirgroundbecauseitsavedthemfire。Theirnewnesswaslosingitsgloss,anditwasimpossiblenottofeelthemobjectsofcharity。WheneverMissChurmarrivedtheywentaway,andafterI wasfairlylaunchedin\"RutlandRamsay\"MissChurmarrivedprettyoften。TheymanagedtoexpresstometacitlythattheysupposedI wantedherforthelowlifeofthebook,andIletthemsupposeit,sincetheyhadattemptedtostudythework——itwaslyingaboutthestudio——withoutdiscoveringthatitdealtonlywiththehighestcircles。Theyhaddippedintothemostbrilliantofournovelistswithoutdecipheringmanypassages。Istilltookanhourfromthem,nowandagain,inspiteofJackHawley’swarning:itwouldbetimeenoughtodismissthem,ifdismissalshouldbenecessary,whentherigouroftheseasonwasover。Hawleyhadmadetheiracquaintance—— hehadmetthematmyfireside——andthoughtthemaridiculouspair。Learningthathewasapaintertheytriedtoapproachhim,toshowhimtoothattheyweretherealthing;buthelookedatthemacrossthebigroom,asiftheyweremilesaway:theywereacompendiumofeverythinghemostobjectedtointhesocialsystemofhiscountry。Suchpeopleasthat,allconventionandpatent- leather,withejaculationsthatstoppedconversation,hadnobusinessinastudio。Astudiowasaplacetolearntosee,andhowcouldyouseethroughapairoffeather-beds? ThemaininconvenienceIsufferedattheirhandswasthatatfirstIwasshyoflettingitbreakuponthemthatmyartfullittleservanthadbeguntosittomefor\"RutlandRamsay。\"TheyknewI hadbeenoddenough——theywerepreparedbythistimetoallowodditytoartists——topickaforeignvagabondoutofthestreetswhenImighthavehadapersonwithwhiskersandcredentials;butitwassometimebeforetheylearnedhowhighIratedhisaccomplishments。Theyfoundhiminanattitudemorethanonce,buttheyneverdoubtedIwasdoinghimasanorgan-grinder。Therewereseveralthingstheyneverguessed,andoneofthemwasthatforastrikingsceneinthenovel,inwhichafootmanbrieflyfigured,itoccurredtometomakeuseofMajorMonarchasthemenial。Ikeptputtingthisoff,Ididn’tliketoaskhimtodonthelivery—— besidesthedifficultyoffindingaliverytofithim。Atlast,onedaylateinthewinter,whenIwasatworkonthedespisedOronte,whocaughtone’sideaonthewing,andwasintheglowoffeelingmyselfgoverystraight,theycamein,theMajorandhiswife,withtheirsocietylaughaboutnothing(therewaslessandlesstolaughat);cameinlikecountry-callers——theyalwaysremindedmeofthat——whohavewalkedacrosstheparkafterchurchandarepresentlypersuadedtostaytoluncheon。Luncheonwasover,buttheycouldstaytotea——Iknewtheywantedit。Thefitwasonme,however,andIcouldn’tletmyardourcoolandmyworkwait,withthefadingdaylight,whilemymodelpreparedit。SoI askedMrs。Monarchifshewouldmindlayingitout——arequestwhichforaninstantbroughtallthebloodtoherface。Hereyeswereonherhusband’sforasecond,andsomemutetelegraphypassedbetweenthem。Theirfollywasoverthenextinstant;hischeerfulshrewdnessputanendtoit。Sofarfrompityingtheirwoundedpride,Imustadd,IwasmovedtogiveitascompletealessonasI could。Theybustledabouttogetherandgotoutthecupsandsaucersandmadethekettleboil。Iknowtheyfeltasiftheywerewaitingonmyservant,andwhentheteawaspreparedIsaid: \"He’llhaveacup,please——he’stired。\"Mrs。Monarchbroughthimonewherehestood,andhetookitfromherasifhehadbeenagentlemanatapartysqueezingacrush-hatwithanelbow。 Thenitcameovermethatshehadmadeagreateffortforme——madeitwithakindofnobleness——andthatIowedheracompensation。 EachtimeIsawherafterthisIwonderedwhatthecompensationcouldbe。Icouldn’tgoondoingthewrongthingtoobligethem。 OhitWASthewrongthing,thestampoftheworkforwhichtheysat——Hawleywasnottheonlypersontosayitnow。IsentinalargenumberofthedrawingsIhadmadefor\"RutlandRamsay,\"andI receivedawarningthatwasmoretothepointthanHawley’s。TheartisticadviserofthehouseforwhichIwasworkingwasofopinionthatmanyofmyillustrationswerenotwhathadbeenlookedfor。MostoftheseillustrationswerethesubjectsinwhichtheMonarchshadfigured。WithoutgoingintothequestionofwhatHAD beenlookedfor,IhadtofacethefactthatatthisrateI shouldn’tgettheotherbookstodo。IhurledmyselfindespaironMissChurm——Iputherthroughallherpaces。InotonlyadoptedOrontepubliclyasmyhero,butonemorningwhentheMajorlookedintoseeifIdidn’trequirehimtofinishaCheapsidefigureforwhichhehadbeguntosittheweekbefore,ItoldhimIhadchangedmymind——I’ddothedrawingfrommyman。Atthismyvisitorturnedpaleandstoodlookingatme。\"IsHEyourideaofanEnglishgentleman?\"heasked。 Iwasdisappointed,Iwasnervous,Iwantedtogetonwithmywork; so。Irepliedwithirritation:\"OhmydearMajor——Ican’tberuinedforYOU!\" Itwasahorridspeech,buthestoodanothermoment——afterwhich,withoutaword,hequittedthestudio。Idrewalongbreath,forI saidtomyselfthatIshouldn’tseehimagain。Ihadn’ttold——himdefinitelythatIwasindangerofhavingmyworkrejected,butI wasvexedathisnothavingfeltthecatastropheintheair,readwithmethemoralofourfruitlesscollaboration,thelessonthatinthedeceptiveatmosphereofarteventhehighestrespectabilitymayfailofbeingplastic。 Ididn’towemyfriendsmoney,butIdidseethemagain。Theyreappearedtogetherthreedayslater,and,givenalltheotherfacts,therewassomethingtragicinthatone。Itwasaclearprooftheycouldfindnothingelseinlifetodo。Theyhadthreshedthematteroutinadismalconference——theyhaddigestedthebadnewsthattheywerenotinfortheseries。Iftheyweren’tusefultomeevenfortheCheapsidetheirfunctionseemeddifficulttodetermine,andIcouldonlyjudgeatfirstthattheyhadcome,forgivingly,decorously,totakealastleave。ThismademerejoiceinsecretthatIhadlittleleisureforascene;forIhadplacedbothmyothermodelsinpositiontogetherandIwaspeggingawayatadrawingfromwhichIhopedtoderiveglory。Ithadbeensuggestedbythepassagein-whichRutlandRamsay,drawingupachairtoArtemisia’spiano-stool,saysextraordinarythingstoherwhilesheostensiblyfingersoutadifficultpieceofmusic。IhaddoneMissChurmatthepianobefore——itwasanattitudeinwhichsheknewhowtotakeonanabsolutelypoeticgrace。Iwishedthetwofiguresto\"compose\"togetherwithintensity,andmylittleItalianhadenteredperfectlyintomyconception。Thepairwerevividlybeforeme,thepianohadbeenpulledout;itwasacharmingshowofblendedyouthandmurmuredlove,whichIhadonlytocatchandkeep。Myvisitorsstoodandlookedatit,andIwasfriendlytothemovermyshoulder。 Theymadenoresponse,butIwasusedtosilentcompanyandwentonwithmywork,onlyalittledisconcerted——eventhoughexhilaratedbythesensethatthiswasatleasttheidealthing——atnothavinggotridofthemafterall。PresentlyIheardMrs。Monarch’ssweetvoicebesideorratheraboveme:\"Iwishherhairwerealittlebetterdone。\"IlookedupandshewasstaringwithastrangefixednessatMissChurm,whosebackwasturnedtoher。\"Doyoumindmyjusttouchingit?\"shewenton——aquestionwhichmademespringupforaninstantaswiththeinstinctivefearthatshemightdotheyoungladyaharm。ButshequietedmewithaglanceI shallneverforget——IconfessIshouldliketohavebeenabletopaintthat——andwentforamomenttomymodel。Shespoketohersoftly,layingahandonhershoulderandbendingoverher;andasthegirl,understanding,gratefullyassented,shedisposedherroughcurls,withafewquickpasses,insuchawayastomakeMissChurm’sheadtwiceascharming。ItwasoneofthemostheroicpersonalservicesI’veeverseenrendered。ThenMrs。Monarchturnedawaywithalowsighand,lookingaboutherasifforsomethingtodo,stoopedtothefloorwithanoblehumilityandpickedupadirtyragthathaddroppedoutofmypaint-box。 TheMajormeanwhilehadalsobeenlookingforsomethingtodo,and,wanderingtotheotherendofthestudio,sawbeforehimmybreakfast-thingsneglected,unremoved。\"Isay,can’tIbeusefulHERE?\"hecalledouttomewithanirrepressiblequaver。I assentedwithalaughthatIfearwasawkward,andforthenexttenminutes,whileIworked,Iheardthelightclatterofchinaandthetinkleofspoonsandglass。Mrs。Monarchassistedherhusband—— theywashedupmycrockery,theyputitaway。Theywanderedoffintomylittlescullery,andIafterwardsfoundthattheyhadcleanedmyknivesandthatmyslenderstockofplatehadanunprecedentedsurface。Whenitcameoverme,thelatenteloquenceofwhattheyweredoing,Iconfessthatmydrawingwasblurredforamoment——thepictureswam。Theyhadacceptedtheirfailure,buttheycouldn’taccepttheirfate。Theyhadbowedtheirheadsinbewildermenttotheperverseandcruellawinvirtueofwhichtherealthingcouldbesomuchlesspreciousthantheunreal;buttheydidn’twanttostarve。Ifmyservantsweremymodels,thenmymodelsmightbemyservants。Theywouldreversetheparts——theotherswouldsitfortheladiesandgentlemenandTHEYwoulddothework。Theywouldstillbeinthestudio——itwasanintensedumbappealtomenottoturnthemout。\"Takeuson,\"theywantedtosay——\"we’lldoANYTHING。\" Mypencildroppedfrommyhand;mysittingwasspoiledandIgotridofmysitters,whowerealsoevidentlyrathermystifiedandawestruck。Then,alonewiththeMajorandhiswifeIhadamostuncomfortablemoment。Heputtheirprayerintoasinglesentence: \"Isay,youknow——justletUSdoforyou,can’tyou?\"Icouldn’t—— itwasdreadfultoseethememptyingmyslops;butIpretendedI could,toobligethem,foraboutaweek。ThenIgavethemasumofmoneytogoaway,andIneversawthemagain。Iobtainedtheremainingbooks,butmyfriendHawleyrepeatsthatMajorandMrs。 Monarchdidmeapermanentharm,gotmeintofalseways。IfitbetrueI’mcontenttohavepaidtheprice——forthememory。 THESTORYOFIT CHAPTERI Theweatherhadturnedsomuchworsethattherestofthedaywascertainlylost。Thewindhadrisenandthestormgatheredforce; theygavefromtimetotimeathumpatthefirmwindowsanddashedevenagainstthoseprotectedbytheverandahtheirvicioussplotchesofrain。Beyondthelawn,beyondthecliff,thegreatwetbrushoftheskydippeddeepintothesea。Butthelawn,alreadyvividwiththetouchofMay,showedaviolenceofwateredgreen;thebuddingshrubsandtreesrepeatedthenoteastheytossedtheirthickmasses,andthecoldtroubledlight,fillingtheprettysaloon,markedthespringafternoonassufficientlyyoung。 Thetwoladiesseatedthereinsilencecouldpursuewithoutdifficulty——aswellas,clearly,withoutinterruption——theirrespectivetasks;aconfidenceexpressed,whenthenoiseofthewindallowedittobeheard,bythesharpscratchofMrs。Dyott’spenatthetablewhereshewasbusywithletters。 Hervisitor,settledonasmallsofathat,withapalm-tree,ascreen,astool,astand,abowlofflowersandthreephotographsinsilverframes,hadbeenarrangednearthelightwood-fireasachoice\"corner\"——MaudBlessingbourne,herguest,turnedaudibly,thoughatintervalsneitherbriefnorregular,theleavesofabookcoveredinlemon-colouredpaperandnotyetdespoiledofacertainfreshcrispness。Thiseffectofthevolume,fortheeye,wouldhavemadeit,aspresumablythenewestFrenchnovel——andevidently,fromtheattitudeofthereader,\"good\"——consorthappilywiththespecialtoneoftheroom,aconsistentairofselectionandsuppression,oneofthefineraestheticevolutions。IfMrs。DyottwasfondofancientFrenchfurnitureanddistinctlydifficultaboutit,herinmatescouldbefond——withwhatevercriticalcocksofcharmingdark-braidedheadsoverslenderslopingshoulders——ofmodernFrenchauthors。Nothingbadpassedforhalfanhour—— nothingatleast,tobeexact,butthateachofthecompanionsoccasionallyandcovertlyintermittedherpursuitinsuchamannerastoascertainthedegreeofabsorptionoftheotherwithoutturninground。Whattheirsilencewaschargedwiththereforewasnotonlyasenseoftheweather,butasense,sotospeak,ofitsownnature。MaudBlessingbourne,whensheloweredherbookintoherlap,closedhereyeswithaconsciouspatiencethatseemedtosayshewaited;butitwasneverthelessshewhoatlastmadethemovementrepresentingasnapoftheirtension。Shegotupandstoodbythefire,intowhichshelookedaminute;thencameroundandapproachedthewindowasiftoseewhatwasreallygoingon。 AtthisMrs。Dyottwrotewithrefreshedintensity。Herlittlepileoflettershadgrown,andifalookofdeterminationwascompatiblewithherfairandslightlyfadedbeautythehabitofattendingtoherbusinesscouldalwayskeeppacewithanyexcursionofherthought。Yetshewasthefirstwhospoke。 \"Itrustyourbookhasbeeninteresting。\" \"Wellenough;alittlemild。\" Alouderthrobofthetempesthadblurredthesoundofthewords。 \"Alittlewild?\" \"Dearno——timidandtame;unlessI’vequitelostmysense。\" \"Perhapsyouhave,\"Mrs。Dyottplacidlysuggested——\"readingsomany。\" Hercompanionmadeamotionoffeigneddespair。\"Ahyoutakeawaymycourageforgoingtomyroom,asIwasjustmeaningto,foranother。\" \"AnotherFrenchone?\" \"I’mafraid。\" \"Doyoucarrythembythedozen——?\" \"IntoinnocentBritishhomes?\"Maudtriedtoremember。\"IbelieveIbroughtthree——seeingtheminashop-windowasIpassedthroughtown。Itneverrainsbutitpours!ButI’vealreadyreadtwo。\" \"Andaretheytheonlyonesyoudoread?\" \"Frenchones?\"Maudconsidered。\"Ohno。D’Annunzio。\" \"Andwhat’sthat?\"Mrs。Dyottaskedassheaffixedastamp。 \"Ohyoudearthing!\"Herfriendwasamused,yetalmostshowedpity。\"Iknowyoudon’tread,\"Maudwenton;\"butwhyshouldyou? YOUlive!\" \"Yes——wretchedlyenough,\"Mrs。Dyottreturned,gettingherletterstogether。Sheleftherplace,holdingthemasaneatachievedhandful,andcameovertothefire,whileMrs。Blessingbourneturnedoncemoretothewindow,whereshewasmetbyanotherflurry。 Maudspokethenasifmovedonlybytheelements。\"Doyouexpecthimthroughallthis?\" Mrs。Dyottjustwaited,andithadtheeffect,indescribably,ofmakingeverythingthathadgonebeforeseemtohaveleduptothequestion。Thiseffectwasevendeepenedbythewayshethensaid\"Whomdoyoumean?\" \"WhyIthoughtyoumentionedatluncheonthatColonelVoytwastowalkover。Surelyhecan’t。\" \"Doyoucareverymuch?\"Mrs。Dyottasked。 Herfriendnowhesitated。\"Itdependsonwhatyoucall’much。’IfyoumeanshouldIliketoseehim——thencertainly。\" \"Well,mydear,Ithinkheunderstandsyou’rehere。\" \"Sothatasheevidentlyisn’tcoming,\"Maudlaughed,\"it’sparticularlyflattering!Orrather,\"sheadded,givinguptheprospectagain,\"itwouldbe,Ithink,quiteextraordinarilyflatteringifhedid。Exceptthatofcourse,\"shethrewin,\"hemightcomepartlyforyou。\" \"’Partly’ischarming。Thankyoufor’partly。’IfyouAREgoingupstairs,willyoukindly,\"MrsDyottpursued,\"puttheseintotheboxasyoupass?\" Theyoungerwoman,takingthelittlepileofletters,consideredthemwithenvy。\"Nine!YouAREgood。You’realwaysalivingreproach!\" Mrs。Dyottgaveasigh。\"Idon’tdoitonpurpose。Theonlything,thisafternoon,\"shewenton,revertingtotheotherquestion,\"wouldbetheirnothavingcomedown。\" \"Andastothatyoudon’tknow。\" \"No——Idon’tknow。\"Butshecaughtevenasshespokearat-tat-tatoftheknocker,whichstruckherasasign。\"Ahthere!\" \"ThenIgo。\"AndMaudwhiskedout。 Mrs。Dyott,leftalone,movedwithanairofselectiontothewindow,anditwasassostationed,gazingoutatthewildweather,thatthevisitor,whosedelaytoappearspokeofthewipingofbootsandthedisposalofdrenchedmackintoshandcap,finallyfoundher。Hewastallleanfine,withlittleinhim,onthewhole,toconfirmthetitularinthe\"ColonelVoyt\"bywhichhewasannounced。Buthehadleftthearmy,sothathisreputationforgallantrymainlydependednowonhisfightingLiberalismintheHouseofCommons。Eventhesefacts,however,hisaspectscantilymatched;partly,nodoubt,becausehelooked,aswasusuallysaid,un-English。Hisblackhair,croppedclose,waslightlypowderedwithsilver,andhisdenseglossybeard,thatofanemiroracaliph,andgrownforcivilreasons,repeateditshandsomecolouranditssomewhatforeigneffect。Hisnosehadastrongandshapelyarch,andthedarkgreyofhiseyeswastintedwithblue。Ithadbeensaidofhim——inrelationtothesesigns——thathewouldhavestruckyouasaJewhadhenot,inspiteofhisnose,struckyousomuchasanIrishman。Neitherresponsibilitycouldinfacthavebeenfixeduponhim,andjustnow,atallevents,hewasonlyapleasantweather-washedwind-batteredBriton,whobroughtinfromastrugglewiththeelementsthatheappearedquitetohaveenjoyedacertainamountofunremovedmudandanunusualquantityofeasyexpression。Itwasexactlythesilenceensuingontheretreatoftheservantandthecloseddoorthatmarkedbetweenhimandhishostessthedegreeofthisease。Theymet,asitwere,twice:thefirsttimewhiletheservantwasthereandthesecondassoonashewasnot。Thedifferencewasgreatbetweenthetwoencounters,thoughwemustaddinjusticetothesecondthatitsmarkswereatfirstmainlynegative。Thiscommunionconsistedonlyintheirhavingdrawneachotherforaminuteascloseaspossible——aspossible,thatis,withnohelpbutthefullclaspofhands。Thustheyweremutuallyheld,andtheclosenesswasatanyratesuchthat,foralittle,thoughittookaccountofdangers,itdidwithoutwords。Whenwordspresentlycamethepairweretalkingbythefireandshehadrungfortea。Hehadbythistimeaskedifthenotehehaddespatchedtoherafterbreakfasthadbeensafelydelivered。 \"Yes,beforeluncheon。ButI’malwaysinastatewhen——exceptforsomeextraordinaryreason——yousendsuchthingsbyhand。Iknew,withoutit,thatyouhadcome。Itneverfails。I’msurewhenyou’rethere——I’msurewhenyou’renot。\" Hewiped,beforetheglass,hiswetmoustache。\"Isee。ButthismorningIhadanimpulse。\" \"Itwasbeautiful。Buttheymakemeasuneasy,sometimes,yourimpulses,asiftheywerecalculations;makemewonderwhatyouhaveinreserve。\" \"Becausewhensmallchildrenaretooawfullygoodtheydie?Well,IAMasmallchildcomparedtoyou——butI’mnotdeadyet。Iclingtolife。\" Hehadcoveredherwithhissmile,butshecontinuedgrave。\"I’mnothalfsomuchafraidwhenyou’renasty。\" \"Thankyou!Whatthendidyoudo,\"heasked,\"withmynote?\" \"YoudeservethatIshouldhavespreaditoutonmydressing-table—— orleftit,betterstill,inMaudBlessingbourne’sroom。\" Hewonderedwhilehelaughed。\"OhbutwhatdoesSHEdeserve?\" Itwashergravitythatcontinuedtoanswer。\"Yes——itwouldprobablykillher。\" \"Shebelievessoinyou?\" \"ShebelievessoinYOU。Sodon’tbeTOOnicetoher。\" Hewasstilllooking,inthechimney-glass,atthestateofhisbeard——brushingfromit,withhishandkerchief,thetracesofwindandwet。\"IfshealsothenprefersmewhenI’mnastyitseemstomeIoughttosatisfyher。ShallInowatanyrateseeher?\" \"She’ssolikeapeaonapanoverthepossibilityofitthatshe’spullingherselftogetherinherroom。\" \"Ohthenwemusttryandkeephertogether。Butwhy,gracefultender,prettytoo——quiteoralmostassheis——doesn’tshere- marry?\" Mrs。Dyottappeared——andasifthefirsttime——tolookforthereason。\"Becauseshelikestoomanymen。\" Itkeptuphisspirits。\"AndhowmanyMAYaladylike——?\" \"Inordernottolikeanyofthemtoomuch?Ahthat,youknow,I neverfoundout——andit’stoolatenow。When,\"shepresentlypursued,\"didyoulastseeher?\" Hereallyhadtothink。\"WouldithavebeensincelastNovemberorso?——somewhereorotherwherewespentthreedays。\" \"OhatSurredge?Iknowallaboutthat。Ithoughtyoualsometafterwards。\" Hehadagaintorecall。\"Sowedid!Wouldn’tithavebeensomewhereatChristmas?Butitwasn’tbyarrangement!\"helaughed,givingwithhisforefingeralittlepleasantnicktohishostess’schin。Thenasifsomethinginthewayshereceivedthisattentionputhimbacktohisquestionofamomentbefore:\"Haveyoukeptmynote?\" Sheheldhimwithherprettyeyes。\"Doyouwantitback?\" \"Ahdon’tspeakasifIdidtakethings——!\" Shedroppedhergazetothefire。\"No,youdon’t;noteventhehardthingsareallygenerousnatureoftenwould。\"Shequitted,however,asiftoforgetthat,thechimney-place。\"IputitTHERE!\" \"You’veburntit?Good!\"Itmadehimeasier,buthenoticedthenextmomentonatablethelemon-colouredvolumelefttherebyMrs。 Blessingbourne,and,takingitupforalook,immediatelyputitdown。\"Youmightwhileyouwereaboutithaveburntthattoo。\" \"You’vereadit?\" \"Dearyes。Andyou?\" \"No,\"saidMrs。Dyott;\"itwasn’tformeMaudbroughtit。\" Itpulledhervisitorup。\"Mrs。Blessingbournebroughtit?\" \"Forsuchadayasthis。\"Butshewondered。\"Howyoulook!Isitsoawful?\" \"Ohlikehisothers。\"Somethinghadoccurredtohim;histhoughtwasalreadyfar。\"Doessheknow?\" \"Knowwhat?\" \"Whyanything。\" ButthedooropenedtoosoonforMrs。Dyott,whocouldonlymurmurquickly——\"Takecare!\" CHAPTERII ItwasinfactMrs。Blessingbourne,whohadunderherarmthebookshehadgoneupfor——apairofcoversshowingthistimeapretty,acandidblue。Shewasfollowednextminutebytheservant,whobroughtintea,theconsumptionofwhich,withthepassageofgreetings,inquiriesandotherlightcivilitiesbetweenthetwovisitors,occupiedaquarterofanhour。Mrs。Dyottmeanwhile,asacontributiontosomuchamenity,mentionedtoMaudthatherfellowguestwishedtoscoldherforthebookssheread——astatementmetbythisfriendwiththeremarkthathemustfirstbesureaboutthem。Butassoonashehadpickedupthenew,thebluevolumehebrokeoutintoafrank\"Dear,dear!\" \"Haveyoureadthattoo?\"Mrs。Dyottinquired。\"Howmuchyou’llhavetotalkovertogether!Theotherone,\"sheexplainedtohim,\"Maudspeaksofasterriblytame。\" \"AhImusthavethatoutwithher!Youdon’tfeeltheextraordinaryforceofthefellow?\"VoytwentontoMrs。 Blessingbourne。 Andso,roundthehearth,theytalked——talkedsoon,whiletheywarmedtheirtoes,withzestenoughtomakeitseemashappyachanceasanyofthequieteropportunitiestheirimprisonmentmighthaveinvolved。Mrs。Blessingbournedidfeel,itthenappeared,theforceofthefellow,butshehadherreservesandreactions,inwhichVoytwasmuchinterested。Mrs。Dyottratherdetachedherself,mainlygazing,assheleanedback,atthefire;sheintervened,however,enoughtorelieveMaudofthesenseofbeinglistenedto。Thatsense,withMaud,wastooapttoconveythatonewaslistenedtoforafool。\"Yes,whenIreadanovelImostlyreadaFrenchone,\"shehadsaidtoVoytinanswertoaquestionaboutherusualpractice;\"forIseemwithittogetholdmoreoftherealthing——togetmorelifeformymoney。OnlyI’mnotsoinfatuatedwiththembutthatsometimesformonthsandmonthsonendIdon’treadanyfictionatall。\" Thetwobookswerenowtogetherbesidethem。\"Thenwhenyoubeginagainyoureadamass?\" \"Dearno。Ionlykeepupwiththreeorfourauthors。\" Helaughedatthisoverthecigarettehehadbeenallowedtolight。 \"Ilikeyour’keepingup,’andkeepingupinparticularwith’authors。’\" \"Onemustkeepupwithsomebody,\"Mrs。Dyottthrewoff。 \"IdaresayI’mridiculous,\"Mrs。Blessingbourneconcededwithoutheedingit;\"butthat’sthewayweexpressourselvesinmypartofthecountry。\" \"Ionlyalluded,\"saidVoyt,\"tothetremendousconscienceofyoursex。It’smorethanminecankeepupwith。Youtakeeverythingtoohard。Butifyoucan’treadthenovelofBritishandAmericanmanufacture,heavenknowsI’matonewithyou。Itseemsreallytoshowoursenseoflifeasthesenseofpuppiesandkittens。\" \"Well,\"Maudmorepatientlyreturned,\"I’mtoldallsortsofpeoplearenowdoingwonderfulthings;butsomehowIremainoutside。\" \"Ahit’sTHEY,it’sourpoortwangersandtwaddlerswhoremainoutside。Theypickupalivinginthestreet。Andwhoindeedwouldwantthemin?\" Mrs。Blessingbourneseemedunabletosay,andyetatthesametimetohaveheridea。Thesubject,intruth,sheevidentlyfound,wasnotsoeasytohandle。\"Peoplelendmethings,andItry;butattheendoffiftypages——\" \"Thereyouare!Yes——heavenhelpus!\" \"ButwhatImean,\"shewenton,\"isn’tthatIdon’tgetwoefullywearyoftheeternalFrenchthing。What’sTHEIRsenseoflife?\" \"Ahvoila!\"Mrs。Dyottsoftlysounded。 \"OhbutitISone;youcanmakeitout,\"Voytpromptlydeclared。 \"Theydowhattheyfeel,andtheyfeelmorethingsthanwe。Theystrikesomanymorenotes,andwithsodifferentahand。Whenitcomestoanyaccountofarelationsaybetweenamanandawoman——I meananintimateoracuriousorasuggestiveone——wherearewecomparedtothem?Theydon’texhaustthesubject,nodoubt,\"headmitted;\"butwedon’ttouchit,don’tevenskimit。It’sasifwedenieditsexistence,itspossibility。You’lldoubtlesstellme,however,\"hewenton,\"thatasallsuchrelationsAREforusatthemostmuchsimplerwecanonlyhaveallroundlesstosayaboutthem。\" Shemetthisimputationwiththequickestamusement。\"Ibegyourpardon。Idon’tthinkIshalltellyouanythingofthesort。I don’tknowthatIevenagreewithyourpremiss。\" \"Aboutsuchrelations?\"Helookedagreeablysurprised。\"Youthinkwemakethemlarger?——orsubtler?\" Mrs。Blessingbourneleanedback,notlooking,likeMrs。Dyott,atthefire,butattheceiling。\"Idon’tknowwhatIthink。\" \"It’snotthatshedoesn’tknow,\"Mrs。Dyottremarked。\"It’sonlythatshedoesn’tsay。\" ButVoythadthistimenoeyefortheirhostess。ForamomenthewatchedMaud。\"Itsticksoutofyou,youknow,thatyou’veyourselfwrittensomething。Haven’tyou——andpublished?I’veanotionIcouldreadYOU。\" \"WhenIdopublish,\"shesaidwithoutmoving,\"you’llbethelastoneIshalltell。IHAVE,\"shewenton,\"alovelysubject,butitwouldtakeanamountoftreatment——!\" \"Tellusthenatleastwhatitis。\" Atthissheagainmethiseyes。\"Ohtotellitwouldbetoexpressit,andthat’sjustwhatIcan’tdo。WhatImeanttosayjustnow,\"sheadded,\"wasthattheFrench,tomysense,giveusonlyagainandagain,foreverandever,thesamecouple。Theretheyareoncemore,asonehashadthemtosatiety,inthatyellowthing,andthereIshallcertainlyagainfindthemintheblue。\" \"Thenwhydoyoukeepreadingaboutthem?\"Mrs。Dyottdemanded。 Maudcastabout。\"Idon’t!\"shesighed。\"Atallevents,Ishan’tanymore。Igiveitup。\" \"You’vebeenlookingforsomething,Ijudge,\"saidColonelVoyt,\"thatyou’renotlikelytofind。Itdoesn’texist。\" \"Whatisit?\"Mrs。Dyottdesiredtoknow。 \"Ineverlook,\"Maudremarked,\"foranythingbutaninterest。\" \"Naturally。Butyourinterest,\"Voytreplied,\"isinsomethingdifferentfromlife。\" \"Ahnotabit!ILOVElifeinart,thoughIhateitanywhereelse。