第1章

类别:其他 作者:Arthur Hugh Clough字数:17253更新时间:19/01/03 17:05:28
Oh,youaresickofself-love,Malvolio,Andtastewithadistemperedappetite! ShakspeareIldoutaitdetout,memedel’amour。 FrenchNovelSolviturambulando。 SolutioSophismatum。 FlevitamoresNonelaboratumadpedem。 HoraceAMOURSDEVOYAGE。 CantoI。 Overthegreatwindywaters,andovertheclear-crestedsummits,Untothesunandthesky,anduntotheperfecterearth,Come,letusgo,——toalandwhereingodsoftheoldtimewandered,Whereeverybreathevennowchangestoetherdivine。 Come,letusgo;thoughwithalavoicewhisper,’Theworldthatwelivein,Whithersoeverweturn,stillisthesamenarrowcrib; ’Tisbuttoprovelimitation,andmeasureacord,thatwetravel; Letwhowould’scapeandbefreegotohischamberandthink; ’Tisbuttochangeidlefanciesformemorieswilfullyfalser; ’Tisbuttogoandhavebeen。’——Come,littlebark!letusgo。 I。ClaudetoEustace。 DearEustatio,Iwritethatyoumaywritemeananswer,Orattheleasttoputusagainenrapportwitheachother。 Romedisappointsmemuch,——StPeter’s,perhaps,inespecial; OnlytheArchofTitusandviewfromtheLateranpleaseme: This,however,perhapsistheweather,whichtrulyishorrid。 Greecemustbebetter,surely;andyetIamfeelingsospiteful,ThatIcouldtraveltoAthens,toDelphi,andTroy,andMountSinai,Thoughbuttoseewithmyeyesthatthesearevanityalso。 Romedisappointsmemuch;Ihardlyasyetunderstandit,butRUBBISHYseemsthewordthatmostexactlywouldsuitit。 Allthefoolishdestructions,andallthesilliersavings,Alltheincongruousthingsofpastincompatibleages,Seemtobetreasuredupheretomakefoolsofpresentandfuture。 WouldtoHeaventheoldGothshadmadeacleanersweepofit! WouldtoHeavensomenewoneswouldcomeanddestroythesechurches! However,onecanliveinRomeasalsoinLondon。 Itisablessing,nodoubt,toberid,atleastforatime,ofAllone’sfriendsandrelations,——yourself(forgiveme!)included,—— Alltheassujettissementofhavingbeenwhatonehasbeen,Whatonethinksoneis,orthinksthatotherssupposeone; Yet,indespiteofall,weturnlikefoolstotheEnglish。 Vernonhasbeenmyfate;whoisherethesamethatyouknewhim,—— Makingthetour,itseems,withfriendsofthenameofTrevellyn。 II。ClaudetoEustace。 Romedisappointsmestill;butIshrinkandadaptmyselftoit。 SomehowatyrannoussenseofasuperincumbentoppressionStill,whereverIgo,accompaniesever,andmakesmeFeellikeatree(shallIsay?)buriedunderaruinofbrickwork。 Rome,believeme,myfriend,islikeitsownMonteTestaceo,Merelyamarvellousmassofbrokenandcastawaywine-pots。 Yegods!whatdoIwantwiththisrubbishofagesdeparted,ThingsthatNatureabhors,theexperimentsthatshehasfailedin? WhatdoIfindintheForum?Anarchwayandtwoorthreepillars。 Well,butSt。Peter’s?Alas,Berninihasfilleditwithsculpture! Noonecancavil,Igrant,atthesizeofthegreatColiseum。 Doubtlessthenotionofgrandandcapaciousandmassiveamusement,ThistheoldRomanshad;buttellme,isthisanidea? Yetofsoliditymuch,butofsplendourlittleisextant: ’BrickworkIfoundthee,andmarbleIleftthee!’theirEmperorvaunted; ’MarbleIthoughtthee,andbrickworkIfindthee!’theTouristmayanswer。 III。GeorginaTrevellyntoLouisa————。 Atlast,dearestLouisa,Itakeupmypentoaddressyou。 Hereweare,yousee,withtheseven-and-seventyboxes,Courier,PapaandMamma,thechildren,andMaryandSusan: HereweallareatRome,anddelightedofcoursewithSt。Peter’s,AndverypleasantlylodgedinthefamousPiazzadiSpagna。 Romeisawonderfulplace,butMaryshalltellyouaboutit; Notverygay,however;theEnglisharemostlyatNaples; TherearetheA。’s,wehear,andmostoftheW。party。 George,however,iscome;didItellyouabouthismustachios? Dear,Imustreallystop,forthecarriage,theytellme,iswaiting; Marywillfinish;andSusaniswriting,theysay,toSophia。 Adieu,dearestLouise,——evermoreyourfaithfulGeorgina。 WhocanaMr。ClaudebewhomGeorgehastakentobewith? Verystupid,Ithink,butGeorgesayssoVERYclever。 IV。ClaudetoEustace。 No,theChristianfaith,asatanyrateIunderstoodit,Withitshumiliationsandexaltationscombining,Exaltationssublime,andyetdivinerabasements,AspirationsfromsomethingmostshamefulhereuponearthandInourpoorselvestosomethingmostperfectaboveintheheavens,—— No,theChristianfaith,asI,atleast,understoodit,Isnothere,ORome,inanyofthesethychurches; Isnothere,butinFreiburg,orRheims,orWestminsterAbbey。 WhatinthyDomeIfind,inallthyrecenterefforts,Isasomething,Ithink,moreRATIONALfar,moreearthly,Actual,lessideal,devoutnotinscornandrefusal,Butinapositive,calm,Stoic-Epicureanacceptance。 ThisIbegintodetectinSt。Peter’sandsomeofthechurches,MostlyinallthatIseeofthesixteenth-centurymasters; Overlaidofcoursewithinfinitegaudsandgewgaws,Innocent,playfulfollies,thetoysandtrinketsofchildhood,Forcedonmatureryears,astheseriousonethingneedful,BythebarbarianwilloftherigidandignorantSpaniard。 Curiouswork,meantime,re-enteringsociety:howweWalkalivelongday,greatHeaven,andwatchourshadows! Whatourshadowsseem,forsooth,wewillourselvesbe。 DoIlooklikethat?youthinkmethat:thenIAMthat。 V。ClaudetoEustace。 Luther,theysay,wasunwise;likeahalf-taughtGerman,hecouldnotSeethatoldfollieswerepassingmosttranquillyoutofremembrance; LeotheTenthwasemployingalleffortstoclearoutabuses; Jupiter,Juno,andVenus,FineArts,andFineLetters,thePoets,Scholars,andSculptors,andPainters,werequietlyclearingawaytheMartyrs,andVirgins,andSaints,oratanyrateThomasAquinas: HemustforsoothmakeafussanddistendhishugeWittenberglungs,andBringbackTheologyonceyetagaininaflooduponEurope: Loyou,forfortydaysfromthewindowsofheavenitfell;theWatersprevailontheearthyetmoreforahundredandfifty; Aretheyabatingatlast?thedovesthataresenttoexploreareWearilyfaintoreturn,atthebestwithaleafletofpromise,—— Faintoreturn,astheywent,tothewanderingwave-tostvessel,—— Faintore-entertheroofwhichcoversthecleanandtheunclean,—— Luther,theysay,wasunwise;hedidn’tseehowthingsweregoing; Lutherwasfoolish,——but,OgreatGod!whatcallyouIgnatius? Omytolerantsoul,bestill!butyoutalkofbarbarians,Alaric,Attila,Genseric;——why,theycame,theykilled,theyRavaged,andwentontheirway;butthesevile,tyrannousSpaniards,Theseareherestill,——howlong,Oyeheavens,inthecountryofDante? These,thatfanaticizedEurope,whichnowcanforgetthem,releasenotThis,theirchoicestofprey,thisItaly;hereyouseethem,—— Here,withemasculatepupilsandgimcrackchurchesofGesu,Pseudo-learningandlies,confessional-boxesandpostures,—— Here,withmetallicbeliefsandregimentaldevotions,—— Here,overcrustingwithslime,perverting,defacing,debasing,MichaelAngelo’sDome,thathadhungthePantheoninheaven,Raphael’sJoysandGraces,andthyclearstars,Galileo! VI。ClaudetoEustace。 WhichofthreeMissesTrevellynitisthatVernonshallmarryIsnotathingtobeknown;forourfriendisoneofthosenaturesWhichhavetheirperfectdelightinthegeneraltender-domestic,SothathetrifleswithMary’sshawl,tiesSusan’sbonnet,Danceswithall,butathomeismost,theysay,withGeorgina,Whois,however,TOOsillyinmyapprehensionforVernon。 I,asbeforewhenIwrote,continuetoseethemalittle; NotthatIlikethemmuchorcareabajoccoforVernon,ButIamslowatItalian,havenotmanyEnglishacquaintance,AndIamasked,inshort,andamnotgoodatexcuses。 Middle-classpeoplethese,bankersverylikely,notwhollyPureofthetaintoftheshop;willattabled’hoteandrestaurantHavetheirshilling’sworth,theirpenny’spennywortheven: Neitherman’saristocracythis,norGod’s,Godknoweth! Yettheyarefairlydescended,theygiveyoutoknow,wellconnected; Doubtlesssomewhereinsomeneighbourhoodhave,andarecarefultokeep,someThreadbare-genteelrelations,whointheirturnareenchantedGrandlyamongcountypeopletointroduceatassembliesTotheunpenniedcadetsourcousinswithexcellentfortunes。 Neitherman’saristocracythis,norGod’s,Godknoweth! VII。ClaudetoEustace。 Ah,whatashame,indeed,toabusethesemostworthypeople! Ah,whatasintohavesneeredattheirinnocentrusticpretensions! Isitnotlaudablereally,thisreverentworshipofstation? Isitnotfittingthatwealthshouldtenderthishomagetoculture? Isitnottouchingtowitnesstheseefforts,iflittleavailing,Painfullymade,toperformtheoldritualserviceofmanners? Shallnotdevotionatonefortheabsenceofknowledge?andfervourPalliate,cover,thefaultofasuperstitiousobservance? Dear,dear,whatdoIsay?but,alas!justnow,likeIago,Icanbenothingatall,ifitisnotcriticalwholly; Soinfantasticheight,incoxcombexaltation,HereinthegardenIwalk,canfreelyconcedetotheMakerThattheworksofHishandareallverygood:Hiscreatures,Beastofthefieldandfowl,Hebringsthembeforeme;Inamethem; ThatwhichInamethem,theyare,——thebird,thebeast,andthecattle。 ButforAdam,——alas,poorcriticalcoxcombAdam! ButforAdamthereisnotfoundanhelp-meetforhim。 VIII。ClaudetoEustace。 No,greatDomeofAgrippa,thouartnotChristian!canstnot,Stripandreplasteranddaubanddowhattheywillwiththee,beso! HereunderneaththegreatporchofcolossalCorinthiancolumns,HereasIwalk,doIdreamoftheChristianbelfriesabovethem? Or,onabenchasIsitandabideforlonghours,tillthywholevastRoundgrowsdimasindreamstomyeyes,Irepeoplethyniches,NotwiththeMartyrs,andSaints,andConfessors,andVirgins,andchildren,Butwiththemightierformsofanolder,austererworship; AndIrecitetomyself,howEagerforbattlehereStoodVulcan,herematronalJuno,AndwiththebowtohisshoulderfaithfulHewhowithpuredewlavethofCastalyHisflowinglocks,whoholdethofLyciaTheoakforestandthewoodthatborehim,Delos’andPatara’sownApollo。* *HicavidusstetitVulcanus,hicmatronaJuno,etNunquamhumerispositurusarcum; QuirorepuroCastaliaelavitCrinessolutos,quiLyciaetenetDumetanatalemquesilvam,DeliusetPatareusApollo。 IX。ClaudetoEustace。 Yetitispleasant,Iownit,tobeintheircompany;pleasant,Whateverelseitmaybe,toabideinthefemininepresence。 Pleasant,butwrong,willyousay?Butthishappy,serenecoexistenceIstosomepoorsoftsouls,Ifear,anecessitysimple,Meatanddrinkandlife,andmusic,fillingwithsweetness,Thrillingwithmelodysweet,withharmoniesstrangeoverwhelming,Allthelong-silentstringsofanawkward,meaninglessfabric。 Yetasforthat,Icouldlive,Ibelieve,withchildren;tohavethosePureanddelicateformsencompassing,movingaboutyou,Thiswereenough,Icouldthink;andtrulywithgladresignationCouldfromthedreamofRomance,fromthefeverofflushedadolescence,Looktoescapeandsubsideintopeacefulavuncularfunctions。 Nephewsandnieces!alas,forasyetIhavenone!and,moreover,Mothersarejealous,Ifearme,toooften,toorightfully;fathersThinktheyhavetitleexclusivetospoilingtheirownlittledarlings; Andbythelawoftheland,indespiteofMalthusiandoctrine,Nosortofproperprovisionismadeforthatmostpatriotic,Mostmeritorioussubject,thechildlessandbacheloruncle。 X。ClaudetoEustace。 Ye,too,marvellousTwain,thaterectontheMonteCavalloStandbyyourrearingsteedsinthegraceofyourmotionlessmovement,Standwithyourupstretchedarmsandtranquilregardantfaces,Standasinstinctwithlifeinthemightofimmutablemanhood,—— Oyemightyandstrange,yeancientdivineonesofHellas。 AreyeChristiantoo?toconvertandredeemandrenewyou,Willthebriefformhavesufficed,thataPopehassetupontheapexOftheEgyptianstonethato’ertopsyou,theChristiansymbol? Andye,silent,supremeinsereneandvictoriousmarble,YethatencirclethewallsofthestatelyVaticanchambers,JunoandCeres,Minerva,Apollo,theMusesandBacchus,YeuntowhomfarandnearcomepostingtheChristianpilgrims,YethatarerangedinthehallsofthemysticChristianPontiff,Areyealsobaptized?areyeofthekingdomofHeaven? Utter,Osomeone,thewordthatshallreconcileAncientandModern! AmItoturnmefromthisuntothee,greatChapelofSixtus? XI。ClaudetoEustace。 Thesearethefacts。Theuncle,theelderbrother,thesquire(aLittleembarrassed,Ifancy),residesinthefamilyplaceinCornwall,ofcourse;’Papaisinbusiness,’Maryinformsme; He’sagoodsensibleman,whateverhistradeis。ThemotherIs——shallIcallitfine?——herselfshewouldtellyourefined,andGreatly,Ifearme,looksdownonmybookishandmaladroitmanners; Somewhataffecteththeblue;wouldtalktomeoftenofpoets; Quotes,whichIhate,ChildeHarold;butalsoappreciatesWordsworth; SometimesadventuresonSchiller;andthentoreligiondiverges; QuestionsmemuchaboutOxford;andyet,inherloftiestflightsstillGratesthefastidiousearwiththeslightlymercantileaccent。 Isitcontemptible,Eustace——I’mperfectlyreadytothinkso,—— Isit,——thehorriblepleasureofpleasinginferiorpeople? Iamashamedofmyownself;andyettrueitis,ifdisgraceful,ThatforthefirsttimeinlifeIamlivingandmovingwithfreedom。 I,whonevercouldtalktothepeopleImeetwithmyuncle,—— I,whohavealwaysfailed,——I,trustme,cansuittheTrevellyns; I,believeme,——greatconquest,amlikedbythecountrybankers。 AndIamgladtobeliked,andlikeinreturnverykindly。 Soitproceeds;laissezfaire,laissezaller,——suchisthewatchword。 Well,Iknowtherearethousandsasprettyandhundredsaspleasant,Girlsbythedozenasgood,andgirlsinabundancewithpolishHigherandmannersmoreperfectthanSusanorMaryTrevellyn。 Well,Iknow,afterall,itisonlyjuxtaposition,—— Juxtaposition,inshort;andwhatisjuxtaposition? XII。ClaudetoEustace。 ButIaminforitnow,——laissezfaire,ofatruth,laissezaller。 Yes,Iamgoing,——Ifeelit,Ifeelandcannotrecallit,—— Fusingwiththisthingandthat,enteringintoallsortsofrelations,TyingIknownotwhatties,which,whatevertheyare,Iknowonething,Will,andmust,woeisme,beonedaypainfullybroken,—— Brokenwithpainfulremorses,withshrinkingsofsoul,andrelentings,Foolishdelays,morefoolishevasions,mostfoolishrenewals。 ButIhavemadethestep,havequittedtheshipofUlysses; Quittedtheseaandtheshore,passedintothemagicalisland; Yetonmylipsisthemoly,medicinal,offeredofHermes。 Ihavecomeintotheprecinct,thelabyrinthclosesaroundme,Pathintopathroundingslyly;Ipaceslowlyon,andthefancy,Strugglingawhiletosustainthelongsequences,weary,bewildered,Fainmustcollapseindespair;Iyield,Iamlost,andknownothing; Yetinmybosomunbrokenremaineththeclue;Ishalluseit。 Lo,withtheropeonmyloinsIdescendthroughthefissure;Isink,yetInlysecureinthestrengthofinvisiblearmsupaboveme; Still,wheresoeverIswing,wherevertoshore,ortoshelf,orFloorofcavernuntrodden,shellsprinkled,enchanting,IknowI Yetshallonetimefeelthestrongcordtightenaboutme,—— Feelit,relentless,upbearmefromspotsIwouldrestin;andthoughtheRopeswaywildly,Ifaint,cragswoundme,fromcraguntocragre- Bounding,or,wideinthevoid,Idietendeaths,eretheendI YetshallplantfirmfootonthebroadloftyspacesIquit,shallFeelunderneathmeagainthegreatmassystrengthsofabstraction,Lookyetabroadfromtheheighto’ertheseawhosesaltwaveIhavetasted。 XIII。GeorginaTrevellyntoLouisa————。 DearestLouisa,——Inquire,ifyouplease,aboutMr。Claude————。 HehasbeenonceatR。,andremembersmeetingtheH。’s。 HarrietL。,perhaps,maybeabletotellyouabouthim。 Itisanawkwardyouth,butstillwithverygoodmanners; Notwithoutprospects,wehear;and,Georgesays,highlyconnected。 Georgydeclaresitabsurd,butMammaisalarmed,andinsistshehasTakenupstrangeopinions,andmaybeturningaPapist。 Certainlyoncehespokeofadailyservicehewentto。 ’Where?’weasked,andhelaughedandanswered,’AtthePantheon。’ Thiswasatemple,youknow,andnowisaCatholicchurch;andThoughitissaidthatMazzinihassolditforProtestantservice,YetIsupposethischangecanhardlyasyetbeeffected。 Adieuagain,——evermore,mydearest,yourlovingGeorgina。 P。S。byMaryTrevellyn。 Iamtotellyou,yousay,whatIthinkofourlastnewacquaintance。 Well,then,IthinkthatGeorgehasaveryfairrighttobejealous。 Idonotlikehimmuch,thoughIdonotdislikebeingwithhim。 Heiswhatpeoplecall,Isuppose,asuperiorman,andCertainlyseemssotome;butIthinkheisterriblyselfish。 ———————————————————— Alba,thoufindestmestill,and,Alba,thoufindestmeever,NowfromtheCapitolsteps,nowoverTitus’sArch,HerefromthelargegrassyspacesthatspreadfromtheLateranportal,Toweringo’eraqueductlineslostinperspectivebetween,OrfromaVaticanwindow,orbridge,orthehighColiseum,ClearbythegarlandedlinecutoftheFlavianring。 BeautifulcanInotcallthee,andyetthouhastpowertoo’ermaster,Powerofmerebeauty;indreams,Alba,thouhauntestmestill。 Isitreligion?Iaskme;orisitavainsuperstition? Slaveryabjectandgross?service,toofeeble,oftruth? IsitanidolIbowto,orisitagodthatIworship? DoIsinkbackontheold,ordoIsoarfromthemean? SothroughthecityIwanderandquestion,unsatisfiedever,ReverentsoIaccept,doubtfulbecauseIrevere。 CantoII。 Isitillusion?ordoesthereaspiritfromperfecterages,Here,evenyet,amidloss,change,andcorruptionabide? Doesthereaspiritweknownot,thoughseek,thoughwefind,comprehendnot,Heretoenticeandconfuse,temptandevadeus,abide? Livesintheexquisitegraceofthecolumndisjointedandsingle,Hauntstherudemassesofbrickgarlandedgailywithvine,E’enintheturretfantasticsurvivingthatspringsfromtheruin,E’eninthepeopleitself?isitillusionornot? Isitillusionornotthatattracteththepilgrimtransalpine,Bringshimadullardandduncehithertopryandtostare? Isitillusionornotthatalluresthebarbarianstranger,Bringshimwithgoldtotheshrine,bringshiminarmstothegate? I。ClaudetoEustace。 Whatdothepeoplesay,andwhatdoesthegovernmentdo?——youAsk,andIknownotatall。Yetfortunewillfavouryourhopes;andI,whoavoideditall,amfated,itseems,todescribeit。 I,whonormeddlenormakeinpolitics,——IwhosincerelyPutnotmytrustinleaguesnoranysuffragebyballot,NeverpredictedParisianmillenniums,neverbeheldaNewJerusalemcomingdowndressedlikeabrideoutofheavenRightonthePlacedelaConcorde,——I,nevertheless,letmesayit,Couldinmysoulofsouls,thisday,withtheGaulatthegatesshedOnetruetearforthee,thoupoorlittleRomanRepublic; What,withtheGermanrestored,withSicilysafetotheBourbon,NotleaveonepoorcornerfornativeItalianexertion? France,itisfoullydone!andyou,poorfoolishEngland,—— You,whoatwelvemonthagosaidnationsmustchooseforthemselves,youCouldnot,ofcourse,interfere,——you,now,whenanationhaschosen———— Pardonthisfolly!TheTimeswill,ofcourse,haveannouncedtheoccasion,Toldyouthenewsofto-day;andalthoughitwasslightlyinerrorWhenitproclaimedasafacttheApollowassoldtoaYankee,YoumaybelievewhenittellsyoutheFrenchareatCivitaVecchia。 II。ClaudetoEustace。 Dulceitis,anddecorum,nodoubt,forthecountrytofall,——toOfferone’sbloodanoblationtoFreedom,anddiefortheCause;yetStill,individualcultureisalsosomething,andnomanFindsquitedistincttheassurancethatheofallothersiscalledon,Orwouldbejustifiedeven,intakingawayfromtheworldthatPreciouscreature,himself。Naturesenthimheretoabidehere; Elsewhysendhimatall?Naturewantshimstill,itislikely; Onthewhole,wearemeanttolookafterourselves;itiscertainEachhastoeatforhimself,digestforhimself,andingeneralCareforhisowndearlife,andseetohisownpreservation; Nature’sintentions,inmostthingsuncertain,inthisaredecisive; Which,onthewhole,IconjecturetheRomanswillfollow,andIshall。 Soweclingtoourrockslikelimpets;Oceanmaybluster,Overandunderandroundus;weopenourshellstoimbibeourNourishment,closethemagain,andaresafe,fulfillingthepurposeNatureintended,——awiseone,ofcourse,andanoble,wedoubtnot。 Sweetitmaybeanddecorous,perhaps,forthecountrytodie;but,Onthewhole,weconcludetheRomanswon’tdoit,andIsha’n’t。 III。ClaudetoEustace。 Willtheyfight?Theysayso。AndwilltheFrench?Icanhardly,Hardlythinkso;andyet————Heiscome,theysay,toPalo,HeispassedfromMonterone,atSantaSeveraHehathlaiduphisguns。ButtheVirgin,theDaughterofRoma,Shehathdespisedtheeandlaughedtheetoscorn,——TheDaughterofTiber,Shehathshakenherheadandbuiltbarricadesagainstthee! Willtheyfight?Ibelieveit。Alas!’tisephemeralfolly,Vainandephemeralfolly,ofcourse,comparedwithpictures,Statues,andantiquegems!——Indeed:andyetindeedtoo,Yet,methought,inbroaddaydidIdream,——tellitnotinSt。James’s,Whisperitnotinthycourts,OChristChurch!——yetdidI,waking,Dreamofacadencethatsings,Sitombentnosjeunesheros,laTerreenproduitdenouveauxcontrevoustouspretsasebattre; Dreamtofgreatindignationsandangerstranscendental,Dreamtofaswordatmysideandabattle-horseunderneathme。 IV。ClaudetoEustace。 NowsupposingtheFrenchortheNeapolitansoldierShouldbysomeevilchancecomeexploringtheMaisonSerny(WherethefamilyEnglisharealltoassembleforsafety),AmIpreparedtolaydownmylifefortheBritishfemale? Really,whoknows?Onehasbowedandtalked,till,littlebylittle,Allthenaturalheathasescapedofthechivalrousspirit。 Oh,oneconformed,ofcourse;butonedoesn’tdieforgoodmanners,Staborshoot,orbeshot,bywayofgracefulattention。 No,ifitshouldbeatall,itshouldbeonthebarricadesthere; ShouldIincarnadineeverthisinkypacificalfinger,SoonerfarshoulditbeforthisvapourofItaly’sfreedom,Soonerfarbythesideofthed————danddirtyplebeians。 Ah,forachildinthestreetIcouldstrike;forthefull-blownlady———— Somehow,Eustace,alas!Ihavenotfeltthevocation。 Yetthesepeopleofcoursewillexpect,asofcourse,myprotection,VernoninradiantarmsstandforthforthelovelyGeorgina,Andtoappear,Isuppose,werebutcommoncivility。Yes,andTrulyIdonotdesiretheyshouldeitherbekilledoroffended。 Oh,andofcourse,youwillsay,’Whenthetimecomes,youwillbeready。’ Ah,butbeforeitcomes,amItopresumeitwillbeso? WhatIcannotfeelnow,amItosupposethatIshallfeel? AmInotfreetoattendfortheripeandindubiousinstinct? AmIforbiddentowaitfortheclearandlawfulperception? Isitthecallingofmantosurrenderhisknowledgeandinsight,Forthemereventureofwhatmay,perhaps,bethevirtuousaction? Mustwe,walkingourearth,discerningalittle,andhopingSomeplainvisibletaskshallyetforourhandsbeassignedus,—— Mustweabandonthefutureforfearofomittingthepresent,Quitourownfiresidehopesatthealiencallofaneighbour,TothemerepossibleshadowofDeityofferthevictim? Andisallthis,myfriend,butaweakandignoblerefining,WhollyunworthytheheadortheheartofYourOwnCorrespondent? V。ClaudetoEustace。 Yes,wearefightingatlast,itappears。Thismorningasusual,Murray,asusual,inhand,IentertheCaffeNuovo; Seatingmyselfwithasenseasitwereofachangeintheweather,Notunderstanding,however,butthinkingmostlyofMurray,And,forto-dayistheirday,oftheCampidoglioMarbles; Caffe-latte!Icalltothewaiter,——andNonc’elatte,Thisistheanswerhemakesme,andthisisthesignofabattle。 SoIsit:andtrulytheyseemtothinkanyoneelsemoreWorthythanmeofattention。Iwaitformymilklessnero,Freetoobserveundistractedallsortsandsizesofpersons,Blendingcivilianandsoldierinstrangestcostume,comingin,andGulpinginhottesthaste,stillstanding,theircoffee,——withdrawingEagerly,janglingaswordonthesteps,orjoggingamusketSlungtotheshoulderbehind。Theyarefewer,moreover,thanusual,Muchandsilenterfar;andsoIbegintoimagineSomethingisreallyafloat。EreIleave,theCaffeisempty,Emptytoothestreets,inallitslengththeCorsoEmpty,andemptyIseetomyrightandlefttheCondotti。 Twelveo’clock,onthePincianHill,withlotsofEnglish,Germans,Americans,French,——theFrenchmen,too,areprotected,—— Sowestandinthesun,butafraidofaprobableshower; Sowestandandstare,andsee,totheleftofSt。Peter’s,Smoke,fromthecannon,white,——butthatisatintervalsonly,—— Black,fromaburninghouse,wesuppose,bytheCavalleggieri; AndwebelievewediscernsomelinesofmendescendingDownthroughthevineyard-slopes,andcatchabayonetgleaming。 Everytenminutes,however,——inthisthereisnomisconception,—— ComesagreatwhitepufffrombehindMichelAngelo’sdome,andAfteraspacethereportofarealbiggun,——nottheFrenchman’s!—— Thatmustbedoingsomework。Andsowewatchandconjecture。 Shortly,anEnglishmancomes,whosayshehasbeentoSt。Peter’s,SeenthePiazzaandtroops,butthatisallhecantellus; Sowewatchandsit,and,indeed,itbeginstobetiresome。—— Allthissmokeisoutside;whenithascometotheinside,Itwillbetime,perhaps,todescendandretreattoourhouses。 Half-pastone,ortwo。Thereportofsmallarmsfrequent,Sharpandsavageindeed;thatcannotallbefornothing: Sowewatchandwonder;butguessingistiresome,very。 Wearyofwondering,watching,andguessing,andgossipingidly,DownIgo,andpassthroughthequietstreetswiththeknotsofNationalGuardspatrolling,andflagshangingoutatthewindows,English,American,Danish,——and,afterofferingtohelpanIrishfamilymovingenmassetotheMaisonSerny,AfterendeavouringidlytoministerbalmtothetremblingQuinquagenarianfearsoftwoloneBritishspinsters,Gotomakesureofmydinnerbeforetheenemyenter。 Butbythistherearesignsofstragglersreturning;andvoicesTalk,thoughyoudon’tbelieveit,ofgunsandprisonerstaken; Andonthewallsyoureadthefirstbulletinofthemorning。—— ThisisallthatIsaw,andallthatIknowofthebattle。 VI。ClaudetoEustace。 Victory!Victory!——Yes!ah,yes,thourepublicanZion,Trulythekingsoftheeartharegatheredandgonebytogether; Doubtlesstheymarvelledtowitnesssuchthings,wereastonished,andsoforth。 Victory!Victory!Victory!——Ah,butitis,believeme,Easier,easierfar,tointonethechantofthemartyrThantoinditeanypaeanofanyvictory。DeathmaySometimesbenoble;butlife,atthebest,willappearanillusion。 Whilethegreatpainisuponus,itisgreat;whenitisover,Why,itisover。Thesmokeofthesacrificerisestoheaven,Ofasweetsavour,nodoubt,toSomebody;butonthealtar,Lo,thereisnothingremainingbutashesanddirtandillodour。 Soitstands,youperceive;thelabialmusclesthatswelledwithVehementevolutionofyesterdayMarseillaises,Articulationssublimeofdefianceandscorning,to-daycol- Lapseandlanguidlymumble,whilemenandwomenandpapersScreamandre-screamtoeachotherthechorusofVictory。Well,butIamthankfultheyfought,andgladthattheFrenchmenwerebeaten。 VII。ClaudetoEustace。 So,Ihaveseenamankilled!Anexperiencethat,amongothers! Yes,IsupposeIhave;althoughIcanhardlybecertain,AndinacourtofjusticecouldneverdeclareIhadseenit。 Butamanwaskilled,Iamtold,inaplacewhereIsawSomething;amanwaskilled,Iamtold,andIsawsomething。 IwasreturninghomefromSt。Peter’s;Murray,asusual,Undermyarm,Iremember;hadcrossedtheSt。Angelobridge;andMovingtowardstheCondotti,hadgottothefirstbarricade,whenGradually,thinkingstillofSt。Peter’s,IbecameconsciousOfasensationofmovementopposingme,——tendencythisway(SuchasonefanciesmaybeinastreamwhenthewaveofthetideisComingandnotyetcome,——asortofnoiseandretention); SoIturned,and,beforeIturned,caughtsightofstragglersHeadingacrowd,itisplain,thatiscomingbehindthatcorner。 Lookingup,Iseewindowsfilledwithheads;thePiazza,IntowhichyourememberthePonteSt。Angeloenters,SinceIpassed,hasthickenedwithcuriousgroups;andnowtheCrowdiscoming,hasturned,hascrossedthatlastbarricade,isHereatmyside。Inthemiddletheydragatsomething。Whatisit? Ha!bareswordsintheair,heldup?ThereseemtobevoicesPleadingandhandsputtingback;official,perhaps;buttheswordsareMany,andbareintheair。Intheair?theydescend;theyaresmiting,Hewing,chopping——Atwhat?Intheaironcemoreupstretched?And—— Isitbloodthat’sonthem?Yes,certainlyblood!Ofwhom,then? Overwhomisthecryofthisfurorofexultation? Whiletheyareskippingandscreaming,anddancingtheircapsonthepointsofSwordsandbayonets,Itotheoutskirtsback,andaskaMercantile-seemingbystander,’Whatisit?’andhe,lookingalwaysThatway,makesmeanswer,’APriest,whowastryingtoflytoTheNeapolitanarmy,’——andthusexplainstheproceeding。 Youdidn’tseethedeadman?No;——Ibegantobedoubtful; Iwasinblackmyself,anddidn’tknowwhatmightn’thappen,—— ButaNationalGuardclosebyme,outsideofthehubbub,Brokehisswordwithslashingabroadhatcoveredwithdust,——andPassingawayfromtheplacewithMurrayundermyarm,andStooping,Isawthroughthelegsofthepeoplethelegsofabody。 Youarethefirst,doyouknow,towhomIhavementionedthematter。 WhomshouldItellittoelse?——thesegirls?——theHeavensforbidit!—— QuidnuncsatMonaldini’s——IdlersuponthePincian? IfIrightlyremember,ithappenedonthatafternoonwhenWordofthenearerapproachofanewNeapolitanarmyFirstwasspread。IbegantobethinkmeofParisSeptembers,ThoughtIcouldfancythelookofthatold’Ninety-two。OnthateveningThreeorfour,or,itmaybe,five,ofthesepeoplewereslaughteredSomedeclaredtheyhad,oneofthem,firedonasentinel;othersSaytheywereonlyescaping;aPriest,itiscurrentlystated,StabbedaNationalGuardontheveryPiazzaColonna: History,RumourofRumours,Ileavetotheetodetermine! ButIamthankfultosaythegovernmentseemstohavestrengthtoPutitdown;ithasvanished,atleast;theplaceismostpeaceful。 ThroughtheTrasteverewalkinglastnight,atnineoftheclock,I Foundnosortofdisorder;IcrossedbytheIsland-bridges,SobythenarrowstreetstothePonteRotto,andonwardsThencebytheTempleofVesta,awaytothegreatColiseum,Whichatthefullofthemoonisanobjectworthyavisit。 VIII。GeorginaTrevellyntoLouisa————。 Onlythink,dearestLouisa,whatfearfulsceneswehavewitnessed!—— ******** GeorgehasjustseenGaribaldi,dressedupinalongwhitecloak,onHorseback,ridingby,withhismountednegrobehindhim: Thisisaman,youknow,whocamefromAmericawithhim,Outofthewoods,Isuppose,andusesalassoinfighting,Whichis,Idon’tquiteknow,butasortofnoose,Iimagine; Thishethrowsontheheadsoftheenemy’smeninabattle,Pullsthemintohisreach,andthenmostcruellykillsthem: Marydoesnotbelieve,butwehearditfromanItalian。 MaryallowsshewaswrongaboutMr。ClaudeBEINGSELFISH; HewasMOSTusefulandkindontheterriblethirtiethofApril。 Donotwritehereanymore;wearestartingdirectlyforFlorence: Weshouldbeoffto-morrow,ifonlyPapacouldgethorses; AllhavebeenseizedeverywherefortheuseofthisdreadfulMazziniP。S。 Maryhasseenthusfar。——Iamreallysoangry,Louisa,—— Quiteoutofpatience,mydearest!Whatcanthemanbeintending? Iamquitetired;andMary,whomightbringhimtoinamoment,Letshimgoonashelikes,andneitherwillhelpnordismisshim。 IX。ClaudetoEustace。 Itismostcurioustoseewhatapowerafewcalmwords(inMerelyabriefproclamation)appeartopossessonthepeople。 Orderisperfect,andpeace;thecityisutterlytranquil; Andonecannotconceivethatthiseasyandnonchalantcrowd,thatFlowslikeaquietstreamthroughstreetandmarket-place,enteringShadyrecessesandbaysofchurch,osteria,andcaffe,Couldinamomentbechangedtoafloodasofmoltenlava,Boilintodeadlywrathandwildhomicidaldelusion。 Ah,’tisanexcellentrace,——andeveninolddegradation,Underarulethatenforcestoflattery,lying,andcheating,E’enunderPopeandPriest,aniceandnaturalpeople。 Oh,couldtheybutbeallowedthischanceofredemption!——butclearlyThatisnotlikelytobe。Meantime,notwithstandingalljournals,Honourforoncetothetongueandthepenoftheeloquentwriter! Honourtospeech!andallhonourtothee,thounobleMazzini! X。ClaudetoEustace。 Iaminlove,meantime,youthink;nodoubtyouwouldthinkso。 Iaminlove,yousay;withthoseletters,ofcourse,youwouldsayso。 Iaminlove,youdeclare。Ithinknotso;yetIgrantyouItisapleasureindeedtoconversewiththisgirl。Oh,raregift,Rarefelicity,this!shecantalkinarationalway,canSpeakuponsubjectsthatreallyaremattersofmindandofthinking,Yetinperfectionretainhersimplicity;never,onemoment,Never,howeveryouurgeit,howeveryoutempther,consentstoStepfromideasandfanciesandlovingsensationstothosevainConsciousunderstandingsthatvexthemindsofmankind。 No,thoughshetalk,itismusic;herfingersdesertnotthekeys;’tisSong,thoughyouhearinthesongthearticulatevocablessounded,Syllabledsinglyandsweetlythewordsofmelodiousmeaning。 Iaminlove,yousay;Idonotthinkso,exactly。 XI。ClaudetoEustace。 Therearetwodifferentkinds,Ibelieve,ofhumanattraction: Onewhichsimplydisturbs,unsettles,andmakesyouuneasy,Andanotherthatpoises,retains,andfixesandholdsyou。 Ihavenodoubt,formyself,ingivingmyvoiceforthelatter。 Idonotwishtobemoved,butgrowingwhereIwasgrowing,Theremoretrulytogrow,tolivewhereasyetIhadlanguished。 Idonotlikebeingmoved:forthewillisexcited;andactionIsamostdangerousthing;Itrembleforsomethingfactitious,Somemalpracticeofheartandillegitimateprocess; Wearesopronetothesethings,withourterriblenotionsofduty。 XII。ClaudetoEustace。 Ah,letmelook,letmewatch,letmewait,unhurried,unprompted! Bidmenotventureonaughtthatcouldalterorendwhatispresent! Saynot,Timeflies,andOccasion,thatneverreturns,isdeparting! Drivemenotoutyet,yeillangelswithfieryswords,frommyEden,Waiting,andwatching,andlooking!Letlovebeitsowninspiration! Shallnotavoice,ifavoicetheremustbe,fromtheairsthatenviron,Yea,fromtheconsciousheavens,withoutourknowledgeoreffort,Breakintoaudiblewords?Andlovebeitsowninspiration? XIII。ClaudetoEustace。 WhereforeandhowIamcertain,Ihardlycantell;butitISso。 Shedoesn’tlikeme,Eustace;Ithinksheneverwilllikeme。 Isitmyfault,asitismymisfortune,mywaysarenotherways? Isitmyfault,thatmyhabitsandmodesaredissimilarwholly? ’Tisnotherfault;’tishernature,hervirtue,tomisapprehendthem: ’Tisnotherfault;’tisherbeautifulnature,notevertoknowme。 Hopelessitseems,——yetIcannot,thoughhopeless,determinetoleaveit: Shegoes——thereforeIgo;shemoves,——Imove,nottoloseher。 XIV。ClaudetoEustace。 Oh,’tisn’tmanly,ofcourse,’tisn’tmanly,thismethodofwooing; ’Tisn’tthewayverylikelytowin。Forthewoman,theytellyou,Everpreferstheaudacious,thewilful,thevehementhero; Shehasnoheartforthetimid,thesensitivesoul;andforknowledge,—— Knowledge,OyeGods!——whendidtheyappreciateknowledge? Whereforeshouldthey,either?IamsureIdonotdesireit。 Ah,andIfeeltoo,Eustace,shecaresnotatittleaboutme! (Careaboutme,indeed!anddoIreallyexpectit?) Butmymanneroffends;mywaysarewhollyrepugnant; EverywordthatIutterestranges,hurts,andrepelsher; EverymomentofblissthatIgain,inherexquisitepresence,Slowly,surely,withdrawsher,removesher,andseversherfromme。 NotthatIcareverymuch!——anywayIescapefromtheboy’sownFolly,towhichIamprone,oflovingwhereitiseasy。 NotthatImindverymuch!WhyshouldI?Iamnotinlove,andAmprepared,Ithink,ifnotbyprevioushabit,Yetinthespiritbeforehandforthisandallthatislikeit; Itisaneasiermatterforuscontemplativecreatures,Usuponwhomthepressureofactionislaidsolightly; We,discontentedindeedwiththingsinparticular,idle,Sickly,complaining,byfaith,inthevisionofthingsingeneral,Managetoholdonourwaywithout,likeothersaroundus,Seizingthenearestarmtocomfort,help,andsupportus。 Yet,afterall,myEustace,Iknowbutlittleaboutit。 AllIcansayformyself,forpresentalikeandforpast,is,MaryTrevellyn,Eustace,iscertainlyworthyouracquaintance。 Youcouldn’tcome,Isuppose,asfarasFlorencetoseeher? XV。GeorginaTrevellyntoLouisa————……To-morrowwe’restartingforFlorence,Trulyrejoiced,youmayguess,toescapefromrepublicanterrors; Mr。C。andPapatoescortus;webyvetturaThroughSiena,andGeorgytofollowandjoinusbyLeghorn。 Then————Ah,whatshallIsay,mydearest?Itrembleinthinking! Youwillimaginemyfeelings,——theblendingofhopeandofsorrow。 HowcanIbeartoabandonPapaandMammaandmySisters? DearestLouise,indeeditisveryalarming;but,trustmeEver,whatevermaychange,toremainyourlovingGeorgina。 P。S。byMaryTrevellyn……’DoIlikeMr。Claudeanybetter?’ Iamtotellyou,——and,’Pray,isitSusanorIthatattracthim?’ Thisheneverhastold,butGeorginacouldcertainlyaskhim。 AllIcansayformyselfis,alas!thatheratherrepelsme。 There!Ithinkhimagreeable,butalsoalittlerepulsive。 Sobecontent,dearLouisa;foronesatisfactorymarriageSurelywilldoinoneyearforthefamilyyouwouldestablishNeitherSusannorIshallaffordyouthejoyofasecond。 P。S。byGeorginaTrevellyn。 Mr。Claude,youmustknow,isbehavingalittlebitbetter; HeandPapaaregreatfriends;buthereallyistooSHILLY-SHALLY,—— SounlikeGeorge!YetIhopethatthematteisgoingonfairly。 Ishall,however,getGeorge,beforehegoes,tosaysomething。 DearestLouise,howdelightfultobringyoungpeopletogether! ——————————————————————————————- IsitFlorencewefollow,orarewetotarryyetlonger,E’enamidclamourofarms,hereinthecityofold,SeekingfromclamourofarmsinthePastandtheArtstobehidden,Vainly’midArtsandthePastseekingonelifetoforget? Ah,fairshadow,scarceseen,goforth!foranonheshallfollow,—— Hethatbeheldthee,anon,whitherthouleadestmustgo! Go,andthewise,lovingMuse,shealsowillfollowandfindthee! She,shouldshelingerinRome,werenotdisseveredfromthee!