第2章

类别:其他 作者:Arthur Hugh Clough字数:16634更新时间:19/01/03 17:05:28
CantoIII。 YettothewondrousSt。Peter’s,andyettothesolemnRotunda,Minglingwithheroesandgods,yettotheVaticanWalls,Yetmaywego,andrecline,whileawholemightyworldseemsaboveus,Gatheredandfixedtoalltimeintooneroofingsupreme; Yetmaywe,thinkingonthesethings,excludewhatismeaneraroundus; Yet,attheworstoftheworst,booksandachamberremain; Yetmaywethink,andforget,andpossessoursoulsinresistance。—— Ah,butawayfromthestir,shouting,andgossipofwar,Where,uponApennineslope,withthechestnuttheoak-treesimmingle,Where,amidodorouscopsebridle-pathswanderandwind,Where,undermulberry-branches,thediligentrivuletsparkles,Oramidcottonandmaizepeasantstheirwater-worksply,Where,overfig-treeandorangeintierupontierstillrepeated,Gardenongardenupreared,balconiessteptothesky,—— Ah,thatIwerefarawayfromthecrowdandthestreetsofthecity,Underthevine-trellislaid,Omybeloved,withthee! I。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper,——onthewaytoFlorence。 Whydoesn’tMr。Claudecomewithus?youask。——Wedon’tknow,Youshouldknowbetterthanwe。HetalkedoftheVaticanmarbles; ButIcan’twhollybelievethatthiswastheactualreason,—— Hewassoreadybefore,whenweaskedhimtocomeandescortus。 Certainlyheisodd,mydearMissRoper。TochangesoSuddenly,justforawhim,wasnotquitefairtotheparty,—— Notquiteright。Ideclare,Ireallyalmostamoffended: I,hisgreatfriend,asyousay,havedoubtlessatitletobeso。 NotthatIgreatlyregretit,fordearGeorginadistinctlyWishesfornothingsomuchastoshowheradroitness。But,oh,myPenwillnotwriteanymore;——letussaynothingfurtheraboutit。 ******** Yes,mydearMissRoper,Icertainlycalledhimrepulsive; SoIthinkhim,butcannotbesureIhaveusedtheexpressionQuiteasyourpupilshould;yethedoesmosttrulyrepelme。 WasittoyouImadeuseoftheword?orwhowasittoldyou? Yes,repulsive;observe,itisbutwhenhetalksofideasThatheisquiteunaffected,andfree,andexpansive,andeasy; Icouldpronouncehimsimplyacoldintellectualbeing。—— Whendoeshemakeadvances?——Hethinksthatwomenshouldwoohim; Yet,ifagirlshoulddoso,wouldbebutalarmedanddisgusted。 Shethatshouldlovehimmustlookforsmallloveinreturn,——liketheivyOnthestonewall,mustexpectbutarigidandniggardsupport,andE’entogetthatmustgosearchingallroundwithherhumbleembraces。 II。ClaudetoEustace,——fromRome。 Tellme,myfriend,doyouthinkthatthegrainwouldsproutinthefurrow,DiditnottrulyacceptasitssummumandultimumbonumThatmerecommonandmay-beindifferentsoilitissetin? Wouldithaveforcetodevelopandopenitsyoungcotyledons,Coulditcompare,andreflect,andexamineonethingwithanother? WoulditenduretoaccomplishtheroundofitsnaturalfunctionsWereitendowedwithasenseofthegeneralschemeofexistence? WhilefromMarseillesinthesteamerwevoyagetoCivitaVecchia,VexedinthesquallyseasaswelaybyCaprajaandElba,Standing,uplifted,aloneontheheavingpoopofthevessel,Lookingaroundonthewasteoftherushingincuriousbillows,’ThisisNature,’Isaid:’wearebornasitwerefromherwaters; Overherbillowsthatbuffetandbeatus,heroffspringuncared-for,Castingonesingleregardofapainfulvictoriousknowledge,Intoherbillowsthatbuffetandbeatuswesinkandareswallowed。’ Thiswasthesenseinmysoul,asIswayedwiththepoopofthesteamer; AndasunthinkingIsatinthehallofthefamedAriadne,Lo,itlookedatmetherefromthefaceofaTritoninmarble。 Itisthesimplerthought,andIcanbelieveitthetruer。 Letusnottalkofgrowth;wearestillinourAqueousAges。 III。ClaudetoEustace。 Farewell,Politics,utterly!WhatcanIdo?IcannotFight,youknow;andtotalkIamwhollyashamed。AndalthoughI GnashmyteethwhenIlookinyourFrenchoryourEnglishpapers,Whatisthegoodofthat?Willswearing,Iwonder,mendmatters? Cursingandscoldingrepeltheassailants?No,itisidle; No,whateverbefalls,Iwillhide,willignoreorforgetit。 Letthetailshiftforitself;Iwillburymyhead。Andwhat’stheRomanRepublictome,orItotheRomanRepublic? Whynotfight?——Inthefirstplace,Ihaven’tsomuchasamusket; Inthenext,ifIhad,Ishouldn’tknowhowIshoulduseit; Inthethird,justatpresentI’mstudyingancientmarbles; Inthefourth,IconsiderIowemylifetomycountry; Inthefifth——Iforget,butfourgoodreasonsareample。 Meantime,praylet’emfight,andbekilled。Idelightindevotion。 SothatI’listnot,hurrahforthegloriousarmyofmartyrs! SanguismartyrumsemenEcclesiae;thoughitwouldseemthisChurchisindeedofthepurelyInvisible,Kingdom-comekind: Militanthereonearth!Triumphant,ofcourse,then,elsewhere! Ah,goodHeaven,butIwouldIwereoutfarawayfromthepother! IV。ClaudetoEustace。 Not,aswereadinthewordsoftheolden-timeinspiration,Aretheretwoseveraltreesintheplacewearesettoabidein; ButontheapexmosthighoftheTreeofLifeintheGarden,Budding,unfolding,andfalling,decayingandfloweringever,FloweringissetanddecayingthetransientblossomofKnowledge,—— Floweringalone,anddecaying,theneedlessunfruitfulblossom。 Orasthecypress-spiresbythefair-flowingstreamHellespontine,WhichfromthemythicaltombofthegodlikeProtesilausRosesympatheticingrieftohislove-lornLaodamia,Evermoregrowing,andwhenintheirgrowthtotheprospectattaining,Overthelowsea-banks,ofthefatalIliancity,Witheringstillatthesightwhichstilltheyupgrowtoencounter。 Ah,butyethatextrudefromtheoceanyourhelplessfaces,Yeoverstormyseasleadinglonganddrearyprocessions,Ye,too,broodofthewind,whosecomingiswhencewediscernnot,Makingyournestonthewave,andyourbedonthecrestedbillow,Skimmingroughwaters,andcrowdingwetsandsthatthetideshallreturnto,Cormorants,ducks,andgulls,fillyemyimagination! Letusnottalkofgrowth;wearestillinourAqueousAges。 V。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper,——fromFlorence。 DearestMissRoper,——Alas!weareallatFlorencequitesafe,andYou,wehear,areshutup!indeed,itissadlydistressing! Weweremostlucky,theysay,togetoffwhenwedidfromthetroubles。 Nowyouarereallybesieged;theytellusitsoonwillbeover; OnlyIhopeandtrustwithoutanyfightinthecity。 DoyouseeMr。Claude?——Ithoughthemightdosomethingforyou。 Iamquitesureonoccasionhereallywouldwishtobeuseful。 Whatishedoing?Iwonder;——stillstudyingVaticanmarbles? Letters,Ihope,passthrough。Wetrustyourbrotherisbetter。 VI。ClaudetoEustace。 Juxtaposition,infine;andwhatisjuxtaposition? Lookyou,wetravelalongintherailway-carriageorsteamer,And,pourpasserletemps,tillthetediousjourneybeended,Layasidepaperorbook,totalkwiththegirlthatisnextone; And,pourpasserletemps,withtheterminusallbutinprospect,Talkofeternaltiesandmarriagesmadeinheaven。 Ah,didwereallyacceptwithaperfecthearttheillusion! Ah,didwereallybelievethatthePresentindeedistheOnly! Orthroughalltransmutation,allshockandconvulsionofpassion,Feelwecouldcarryundimmed,unextinguished,thelightofourknowledge! Butforhisfuneraltrainwhichthebridegroomseesinthedistance,Wouldhesojoyfully,thinkyou,fallinwiththemarriageprocession? Butforthatfinaldischarge,wouldhedaretoenlistinthatservice? Butforthatcertainrelease,eversigntothatperilouscontract? Butforthatexitsecure,everbendtothattreacherousdoorway?—— Ah,butthebride,meantime,——doyouthinksheseesitashedoes? Butforthesteadyfore-senseofafreerandlargerexistence,Thinkyouthatmancouldconsenttobecircumscribedhereintoaction? Butforassurancewithinalimitlessoceandivine,o’erWhosegreattranquildepthsunconsciousthewind-tostsurfaceBreaksintoripplesoftroublethatcomeandchangeandendurenot,—— Butthatinthis,ofatruth,wehaveourbeing,andknowit,Thinkyouwemencouldsubmittoliveandmoveaswedohere? Ah,butthewomen,——Godblessthem!theydon’tthinkatallaboutit。 Yetwemusteatanddrink,asyousay。AndaslimitedbeingsScarcelycanhopetoattainuponearthtoanActualAbstract,LeavingtoGodcontemplation,toHishandsknowledgeconfiding,Surethatinusifitperish,inHimitabidethanddiesnot,LetusinHissightaccomplishourpettyparticulardoings,—— Yes,andcontentedsitdowntothevictualthatHehasprovided。 Allahisgreat,nodoubt,andJuxtapositionhisprophet。 Ah,butthewomen,alas!theydon’tlookatitthatway。 Juxtapositionisgreat;——but,myfriend,Ifearme,themaidenHardlywouldthankoracknowledgetheloverthatsoughttoobtainher,Notasthethinghewouldwish,butthethinghemustevenputupwith,—— HardlywouldtenderherhandtothewooerthatcandidlytoldherThatsheisbutforaspace,anad-interimsolaceandpleasure,—— Thatintheendsheshallyieldtoaperfectandabsolutesomething,WhichIthenformyselfshallbehold,andnotanother,—— Whichamidfondestendearments,meantimeIforgetnot,forsakenotAh,yefemininesouls,soloving,andsoexacting,Sincewecannotescape,mustweevensubmittodeceiveyou? Since,socruelistruth,sincerityshocksandrevoltsyou,Willyouhaveusyourslavestolietoyou,flatterand——leaveyou? VII。ClaudetoEustace。 Juxtapositionisgreat,——but,youtellme,affinitygreater。 Ah,myfriend,therearemanyaffinities,greaterandlesser,Strongerandweaker;andeach,bythefavourofjuxtaposition,Potent,efficient,inforce,——foratime;butnone,letmetellyou,Savebythelawofthelandandtheruinousforceofthewill,ah,None,Ifearme,atlastquitesuretobefinalandperfect。 Lo,asIpaceinthestreet,fromthepeasant-girltotheprincess,Homosum,nihilhumaniamealienumputo,—— Virsum,nihilfaeminei,——ande’entotheuttermostcircle,AllthatisNature’sisI,andIallthingsthatareNature’s。 Yes,asIwalk,Ibehold,inaluminous,largeintuition,ThatIcanbeandbecomeanythingthatImeetwithorlookat: Iamtheoxinthedray,theasswiththegarden-stuffpanniers; Iamthedoginthedoorway,thekittenthatplaysinthewindow,Onsunnyslaboftheruinthefurtiveandfugitivelizard,Swallowabovemethattwitters,andflythatisbuzzingaboutme; Yea,anddetect,asIgo,byafaintbutafaithfulassurance,E’enfromthestonesofthestreet,asfromrocksortreesoftheforest,Somethingofkindred,acommon,thoughlatentvitality,greetsme; Andtoescapefromourstrivings,mistakings,misgrowths,andperversions,Faincoulddemandtoreturntothatperfectandprimitivesilence,Fainbeenfoldedandfixed,asofold,intheirrigidembraces。 VIII。ClaudetoEustace。 AndasIwalkonmyway,Ibeholdthemconsortingandcoupling; Faithfulitseemeth,andfond,veryfond,veryprobablyfaithful,AllasIgoonmyway,withapleasuresincereandunmingled。 Lifeisbeautiful,Eustace,entrancing,enchantingtolookat; Asarethestreetsofacitywepacewhilethecarriageischanging,Asachamberfilled-inwithharmonious,exquisitepictures,EvensobeautifulEarth;andcouldweeliminateonlyThisvilehungeringimpulse,thisdemonwithinusofcraving,Lifewerebeatitude,livingaperfectdivinesatisfaction。 IX。ClaudetoEustace。 Mildmonasticfacesinquietcollegiatecloisters: Soletmeofferasingleandcelibatarianphrase,aTributetothosewhomperhapsyoudonotbelieveIcanhonour。 But,fromthetumultescaping,’tispleasant,ofdrummingandshouting,Hither,obliviousawhile,towithdraw,ofthefactorthefalsehood,AndamidplacidregardsandmildlycourteousgreetingsYieldtothecalmandcomposureandgentleabstractionthatreigno’erMildmonasticfacesinquietcollegiatecloisters。 Terribleword,Obligation!Youshouldnot,Eustace,youshouldnot,No,youshouldnothaveusedit。But,oh,greatHeavens,Irepelit! Oh,Icancel,reject,disavow,andrepudiatewhollyEverydebtinthiskind,disclaimeveryclaim,anddishonour,Yea,myownheart’sownwriting,mysoul’sownsignature!Ah,no! Iwillbefreeinthis;youshallnot,noneshall,bindme。 No,myfriend,ifyouwishtobetold,itwasthisaboveallthings,Thisthatcharmedme,ah,yes,eventhis,thatsheheldmetonothing。 No,IcouldtalkasIpleased;comeclose;fastenties,asIfancied; Bindandengagemyselfdeep;——andlo,onthefollowingmorningItwasalle’enasbefore,likelosingsingamesplayedfornothing。 Yes,whenIcame,withmeanfearsinmysoul,withasemi-performanceAtthefirststepbreakingdowninitspitifulroleofevasion,WhentoshuffleIcame,tocompromise,notmeet,engagements,Lo,withhercalmeyesthereshemetmeandknewnothingofit,—— Stoodunexpecting,unconscious。SHEspokenotofobligations,Knewnotofdebt——ah,no,Ibelieveyou,forexcellentreasons。 X。ClaudetoEustace。 HANGthisthinking,atlast!whatgoodisit?oh,andwhatevil! Oh,whatmischiefandpain!likeaclockinasickman’schamber,Tickingandticking,andstillthrougheachcovertofslumberpursuing。 WhatshallIdotothee,OthouPreserverofmen?Havecompassion; Befavourable,andhear!Takefrommethisregalknowledge; Letme,contentedandmute,withthebeastsofthefields,mybrothers,Tranquilly,happilylie,——andeatgrass,likeNebuchadnezzar! XI。ClaudetoEustace。 Tiburisbeautiful,too,andtheorchardslopes,andtheAnioFalling,fallingyet,totheancientlyricalcadence; TiburandAnio’stide;andcoolfromLucretilisever,WiththeDigentianstream,andwiththeBandusianfountain,FoldedinSabinerecesses,thevalleyandvillaofHorace:—— SonotseeingIsang;soseeingandlisteningsayI,HereasIsitbythestream,asIgazeatthecelloftheSibyl,HerewithAlbunea’shomeandthegroveofTiburnusbesideme;* Tivolibeautifulis,andmusical,OTeverone,Dashingfrommountaintoplain,thypartedimpetuouswaters,Tivoli’swatersandrocks;andfairuntoMonteGennaro(Haunt,evenyet,Imustthink,asIwanderandgaze,oftheshadows,Fadedandpale,yetimmortal,ofFaunus,theNymphs,andtheGraces)。 Fairinitself,andyetfairerwithhumancompletingcreations,FoldedinSabinerecessesthevalleyandvillaofHorace:—— SonotseeingIsang;sonow——Norseeing,norhearing,Neitherbywaterfalllulled,norfoldedinsylvanembraces,NeitherbycelloftheSibyl,norsteppingtheMonteGennaro,SeatedonAnio’sbank,norsippingBandusianwaters,ButonMontorio’sheight,lookingdownonthetile-cladstreets,theCupolas,crosses,anddomes,thebushesandkitchen-gardens,Which,bythegraceoftheTibur,proclaimthemselvesRomeoftheRomans,—— ButonMontorio’sheight,lookingforthtothevapourymountains,CheatingtheprisonerHopewithillusionsofvisionandfancy,—— ButonMontorio’sheight,withthesewearysoldiersbyme,WaitingtillOudinotenter,toreinstatePopeandTourist。 *——domusAlbuneaeresonantis,EtpraecepsAnio,etTibunilucus,etudaMobilibuspomariarivisXII。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。 DearMissRoper,——Itseems,GeorgeVernon,beforeweleftRome,saidSomethingtoMr。Claudeaboutwhattheycallhisattentions。 Susan,twonightsago,forthefirsttime,heardthisfromGeorgina。 ItisSOdisagreeableandSOannoyingtothinkof! Ifitcouldonlybeknown,thoughwemaynevermeethimagain,thatItwasallGeorge’sdoing,andwewereentirelyunconscious,Itwouldextremelyrelieve——YoureveraffectionateMary。 P。S。(1) Hereisyourletterarrivedthismoment,justasIwanted。 Soyouhaveseenhim,——indeed,andguessed,——howdreadfullyclever! Whatdidhereallysay?andwhatwasyouranswerexactly? Charming!——butwaitforamoment,Ihaven’treadthroughtheletter。 P。S。(2) Ah,mydearestMissRoper,dojustasyoufancyaboutit。 IfyouthinkitsincerertotellhimIknowofit,doso。 ThoughIshouldmostextremelydislikeit,IknowIcouldmanage。 Itisthesimplestthing,butsurelywhollyuncalledfor。 Doasyouplease;youknowItrustimplicitlytoyou。 Saywhateverisrightandneedfulforendingthematter。 Onlydon’ttellMr。Claude,whatIwilltellyouasasecret,ThatIshouldlikeverywelltoshowhimmyselfIforgetit。 P。S。(3) IamtosaythattheweddingisfinallysettledforTuesday。 Ah,mydearMissRoper,yousurely,surelycanmanageNottoletitappearthatIknowofthatodiousmatter。 ItwouldbepleasanterfarformyselftotreatitexactlyAsifithadnotoccurred:andIdonotthinkhewouldlikeit。 Imustremembertoadd,thatassoonastheweddingisoverWeshallbeoff,Ibelieve,inahurry,andtraveltoMilan; TheretomeetfriendsofPapa’s,Iamtold,attheCrocediMaltaThenIcannotsaywhither,butnotatpresenttoEngland。 XIII。ClaudetoEustace。 Yes,onMontorio’sheightforalastfarewellofthecity,—— Soitappears;thoughthenIwasquiteuncertainaboutit。 So,however,itwas。Andnowtoexplaintheproceeding。 Iwastogo,asItoldyou,Ithink,withthepeopletoFlorence。 Onlythedaybefore,thefoolishfamilyVernonMadesomeuneasyremarks,aswewalkedtoourlodgingtogether,Astointentionsforsooth,andsoforth。Iwasastounded,Horrifiedquite;andobtainingjustthen,asithappened,anoffer(Nocommonfavour)ofseeingthegreatLudovisicollection,Why,Imadethisapretence,andwrotethattheymustexcuseme。 HowcouldIgo?GreatHeavens!toconductapermittedflirtationUnderthosevulgareyes,theobservedofsuchobservers! Well,butInow,byaseriesoffinediplomaticinquiries,Findfromasortofrelation,agoodandsensiblewoman,WhoisremainingatRomewithabrothertooillforremoval,Thatitwaswhollyunsanctioned,unknown,——not,Ithink,byGeorgina: She,however,erethis,——andthatisthebestofthestory,—— SheandtheVernon,thankHeaven,areweddedandgone——honey-mooning。 So——onMontorio’sheightforalastfarewellofthecity。 TiburIhavenotseen,northelakesthatofoldIhaddreamtof; TiburIshallnotsee,norAnio’swaters,nordeepen- FoldedinSabinerecessesthevalleyandvillaofHorace; TiburIshallnotsee;——butsomethingbetterIshallsee。 TwiceIhavetriedbefore,andfailedingettingthehorses; TwiceIhavetriedandfailed:thistimeitshallnotbeafailure。 Thereforefarewell,yehills,andye,yeenvineyardedruins! Thereforefarewell,yewalls,palaces,pillars,anddomes! Thereforefarewell,farseen,yepeaksofthemythicAlbano,SeenfromMontorio’sheight,TiburandAesula’shills! Ah,couldweonce,erewego,couldwestand,while,tooceandescending,Sinkso’ertheyellowdarkplainslowlytheyellowbroadsun,Stand,fromtheforestemergingatsunset,atonceinthechampaign,Open,butstuddedwithtrees,chestnutsumbrageousandold,E’eninthosefairopenfieldsthatincurvetothybeautifulhollow,Nemi,imbeddedinwood,Nemi,inurnedinthehill!—— Thereforefarewell,yeplains,andyehills,andtheCityEternal! Thereforefarewell!Wedepart,buttobeholdyouagain! CantoIV。 Eastward,orNorthward,orWest?IwanderandaskasIwander; Weary,yeteagerandsure,WhereshallIcometomylove? Whitherwardhastentoseekher?YedaughtersofItaly,tellme,Gracefulandtenderanddark,issheconsortingwithyou? Thouthatout-climbestthetorrent,thattendestthygoatstothesummit,Calltome,childoftheAlp,hasshebeenseenontheheights? Italy,farewellIbidthee!forwhithersheleadsme,Ifollow。 Farewellthevineyard!forI,whereIbutguessher,mustgo; Wearinesswelcome,andlabour,whereveritbe,ifatlastitBringmeinmountainorplainintothesightofmylove。 I。ClaudetoEustace,——fromFlorence。 GonefromFlorence;indeed!andthatistrulyprovoking;—— GonetoMilan,itseems;thenIgoalsotoMilan。 Fivedaysnowdeparted;buttheycantravelbutslowly;—— Iquickerfar;andIknow,asithappens,thehometheywillgoto。—— Why,whatelseshouldIdo?Stayhereandlookatthepictures,Statuesandchurches?Alack,Iamsickofthestatuesandpictures!—— No,toBologna,Parma,Piacenza,Lodi,andMilan,Offgoweto-night,——andtheVenusgototheDevil! II。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。 GonetoComo,theysaid;andIhavepostedtoComo。 Therewasaletterleft;butthecamerierehadlostit。 Couldithavebeenforme?Theycame,however,toComo,AndfromComowentbytheboat,——perhapstotheSpluegen,—— OrtotheStelvio,say,andtheTyrol;alsoitmightbeByPorlezzaacrosstoLugano,andsototheSimplonPossibly,ortheSt。Gothard,——orpossibly,too,toBaveno,Orta,Turin,andelsewhere。Indeed,Iamgreatlybewildered。 III。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。 IhavebeenuptheSpluegen,andontheStelvioalso: NeitherofthesecanIfindtheyhavefollowed;innooneinn,andThiswouldbeodd,havetheywrittentheirnames。IhavebeentoPorlezza; Theretheyhavenotbeenseen,andthereforenotatLugano。 WhatshallIdo?GoonthroughtheTyrol,Switzerland,Deutschland,Seeking,aninverseSaul,akingdomtofindonlyasses? Thereisatide,atleast,intheLOVEaffairsofmortals,Which,whentakenatflood,leadsontothehappiestfortune,—— Leadstothemarriage-mornandtheorange-flowersandthealtar,Andthelonglawfullineofcrownedjoystocrownedjoyssucceeding。—— Ah,ithasebbedwithme!Yegods,andwhenitwasflowing,PitifulfoolthatIwas,tostandfiddle-faddlinginthatway! IV。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。 IhavereturnedandfoundtheirnamesinthebookatComo。 CertainitisIwasright,andyetIamalsoinerror。 Addedinfemininehand,Iread,BytheboattoBellaggio。—— SotoBellaggioagain,withthewordsofhewritingtoaidme。 YetatBellaggioIfindnotrace,nosortofremembrance。 SoIamhere,andwait,andknoweveryhourwillremovethem。 V。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。 Ihavebutonechanceleft,——andthatisgoingtoFlorence。 Butitiscrueltoturn。Themountainsseemtodemandme,—— Peakandvalleyfromfartobeckonandmotionmeonward。 SomewhereamidtheirfoldsshepasseswhomfainIwouldfollow; Somewhereamidthoseheightsshehaplycallsmetoseekher。 Ah,couldIhearhercall!couldIcatchtheglimpseofherraiment! Turn,however,Imust,thoughitseemIturntodeserther; ForthesenseofthethingissimplytohurrytoFlorence,Wherethecertaintyyetmaybelearnt,Isuppose,fromtheRopers。 VI。MaryTrevellyn,fromLucerne,toMissRoper,atFlorence。 DearMissRoper,——Bythisyouaresafelyaway,wearehoping,ManyaleaguefromRome;erelongwetrustweshallseeyou。 Howhaveyoutravelled?Iwonder;——wasMr。Claudeyourcompanion? Asforourselves,wewentfromComostraighttoLugano; SobytheMountSt。Gothard;wemeanttogobyPorlezza,Takingthesteamer,andstopping,asyouhadadvised,atBellaggio,Twoorthreedaysormore;butthiswassuddenlyaltered,Afterweleftthehotel,ontheverywaytothesteamer。 Sowehaveseen,Ifear,notoneofthelakesinperfection。 Well,heisnotcome,andnow,Isuppose,hewillnotcome。 Whatwillyouthink,meantime?andyetImustreallyconfessit;—— Whatwillyousay?Iwrotehimanote。Weleftinahurry,WentfromMilantoComo,threedaysbeforeweexpected。 ButIthought,ifhecameallthewaytoMilan,hereallyOughtnottobedisappointed:andsoIwrotethreelinestoSayIhadheardhewascoming,desirousofjoiningourparty;—— Ifso,thenIsaid,wehadstartedforComo,andmeanttoCrosstheSt。Gothard,andstay,webelieved,atLucerne,forthesummer。 Wasitwrong?andwhy,ifitwas,hasitfailedtobringhim? DidhenotthinkitworthwhiletocometoMilan?Heknew(youToldhim)thehouseweshouldgoto。Ormayit,perhaps,havemiscarried? Anyway,now,Irepent,andamheartilyvexedthatIwroteit。 ThereisahomeontheshoreoftheAlpinesea,thatupswellingHighupthemountain-sidesspreadsinthehollowbetween; Wilderness,mountain,andsnowfromthelandoftheoliveconcealit; UnderPilatus’shilllowbytheriveritlies; Italy,uttertheword,andtheoliveandvinewillallurenot,—— Wilderness,forest,andsnowwillnotthepassageimpede; Italy,untothycitiesreceding,thecluetorecover,Hither,recoveredtheclue,shallnotthetravellerhaste? CantoV。 Thereisacity,upbuiltonthequaysoftheturbulentArno,UnderFiesole’sheights,——thitherarewetoreturn? Thereisacitythatfringesthecurveoftheinflowingwaters,Undertheperiloushillfringesthebeautifulbay,—— Parthenope,dotheycallthee?——theSiren,Neapolis,seatedUnderVesevus’shill,——arewerecedingtothee?—— Sicily,Greece,willinvite,andtheOrient;——orareweturntoEngland,whichmayafterallbeforitschildrenthebest? I。MaryTrevellyn,atLucerne,toMissRoper,atFlorence。 Soyouarereallyfree,andlivinginquietatFlorence; Thatisdelightfulnews;youtravelledslowlyandsafely; Mr。Claudegotyouout;tookroomsatFlorencebeforeyou; WrotefromMilantosayso;hadleftdirectlyforMilan,Hopingtofindussoon;——ifhecould,hewould,youarecertain。—— DearMissRoper,yourletterhasmademeexceedinglyhappy。 Youarequitesure,yousay,heaskedyouaboutourintentions; YouhadnotheardasyetofLucerne,buttoldhimofComo。—— Well,perhapshewillcome;however,Iwillnotexpectit。 Thoughyousayyouaresure,——ifhecan,hewill,youarecertain。 Omydear,manythanksfromyoureveraffectionateMary。 II。ClaudetoEustace。 Florence。 Actionwillfurnishbelief,——butwillthatbeliefbethetrueone? Thisisthepoint,youknow。However,itdoesn’tmuchmatter。 Whatonewants,Isuppose,istopredeterminetheaction,Soastomakeitentail,notachancebelief,butthetrueone。 Outofthequestion,yousay;ifathingisn’twrongwemaydoit。 Ah!butthisWRONG,yousee——butIdonotknowthatitmatters。 Eustace,theRopersaregone,andnoonecantellmeaboutthem。 Pisa。 Pisa,theysaytheythink,andsoIfollowtoPisa,Hitherandthitherinquiring。Iwearyofmakinginquiries。 Iamashamed,Ideclare,ofaskingpeopleaboutit。—— Whoareyourfriends?Yousaidyouhadfriendswhowouldcertainlyknowthem。 Florence。 Butitisidle,moping,andthinking,andtryingtofixherImageoncemoreandmorein,towritethewholeperfectinscriptionOverandoveragainuponeverypageofremembrance。 IhavesettledtostayatFlorencetowaitforyouranswer。 Whoareyourfriends?Writequicklyandtellme。Iwaitforyouranswer。 III。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。——atLuccaBaths。 YouareatLuccabaths,youtellme,tostayforthesummer; Florencewasquitetoohot;youcan’tmovefurtheratpresent。 Willyounotcome,doyouthink,beforethesummerisover? Mr。C。gotyououtwithveryconsiderabletrouble; Andhewasusefulandkind,andseemedsohappytoserveyou。 Didn’tstaywithyoulong,buttalkedveryopenlytoyou; Madeyoualmosthisconfessor,withoutappearingtoknowit,—— Whatabout?——andyousayyoudidn’tneedhisconfessions。 OmydearMissRoper,Idarenottrustwhatyoutellme! Willhecome,doyouthink?Iamreallysosorryforhim。 Theydidn’tgivehimmyletteratMilan,Ifeelprettycertain。 YouhadtoldhimBellaggio。Wedidn’tgotoBellaggio; Sohewouldmissourtrack,andperhapsnevercometoLugano,Wherewewerewritteninfull,ToLucerneacrosstheSt。Gothard。 Buthecouldwritetoyou;——youwouldtellhimwhereyouweregoing。 IV。ClaudetoEustace。 Letme,then,beartoforgether。Iwillnotclingtoherfalsely: Nothingfactitiousorforcedshallimpairtheoldhappyrelation。 Iwillletmyselfgo,forget,nottrytoremember; Iwillwalkonmyway,acceptthechancesthatmeetme,Freelyencountertheworld,imbibethesealienairs,andNeveraskifnewfeelingsandthoughtsareofherorofothers。 Isshenotchangingherself?——theoldimagewouldonlydeludeme。 Iwillbebold,too,andchange,——ifitmustbe。Yetifinallthings,YetifIdobutaspireevermoretotheAbsoluteonly,Ishallbedoing,Ithink,somehow,whatshewillbedoing;—— Ishallbethine,Omychild,someway,thoughIknownotinwhatway,Letmesubmittoforgether;Imust;Ialreadyforgether。 V。ClaudetoEustace。 Utterlyvainis,alas!thisattemptattheAbsolute,——wholly! I,whobelievednotinher,becauseIwouldfainbelievenothing,HavetobelieveasImay,withawilful,unmeaningacceptance。 I,whorefusedtoenfastentherootsofmyfloatingexistenceIntherichearth,clingnowtothehard,nakedrockthatisleftme,—— Ah!shewasworthy,Eustace,——andthat,indeed,ismycomfort,—— WorthyanoblerheartthanafoolsuchasIcouldhavegivenher。 ———————————————————— Yes,itrelievesmetowrite,thoughIdonotsend,andthechancethatTakesmaydestroymyfragments。Butasmenpray,withoutaskingWhetherOnereallyexisttohearordoanythingforthem,—— SimplyimpelledbytheneedofthemomenttoturntoaBeingInaconceptionofwhomthereisfreedomfromalllimitation,—— SoinyourimageIturntoanensrationisoffriendship,EvensowriteinyournameIknownottowhomnorinwhatwise。 ———————————————————— Therewasatime,methoughtitwasbutlatelydeparted,When,ifathingwasdeniedme,IfeltIwasboundtoattemptit; Choicealoneshouldtake,andchoicealoneshouldsurrender。 Therewasatime,indeed,whenIhadnotretiredthusearly,Languidlythus,frompursuitofapurposeIoncehadadopted,Butitisallover,allthat!IhaveslunkfromtheperilousfieldinWhosewildstruggleofforcestheprizesoflifearecontested。 Itisover,allthat!Iamacoward,andknowit。 Courageinmecouldbeonlyfactitious,unnatural,useless。 ———————————————————— Comforthascometomehereinthedrearystreetsofthecity,Comfort——howdoyouthink?——withabarrel-organtobringit。 Mopingalongthestreets,andcursingmydayasIwandered,AllofasuddenmyearmetthesoundofanEnglishpsalm-tune,Comfortmeitdid,tillindeedIwasverynearcrying。 Ah,thereissomegreattruth,partial,verylikely,butneedful,Lodged,Iamstrangelysure,inthetonesoftheEnglishpsalm-tune。 Comfortitwasatleast;andImusttakewithoutquestionComfort,howeveritcome,inthedrearystreetsofthecity。 ———————————————————— Whatwithtrustingmyselfandseekingsupportfromwithinme,AlmostIcouldbelieveIhadgainedareligiousassurance,Formedinmyownpoorsoulagreatmoralbasistoreston。 Ah,butindeedIsee,Ifeelitfactitiousentirely; Irefuse,reject,andputitutterlyfromme; Iwilllookstraightout,seethings,nottrytoevadethem; Factshallbefactforme,andtheTruththeTruthasever,Flexible,changeable,vague,andmultiform,anddoubtful- Off,anddeparttothevoid,thousubtle,fanaticaltempter! ———————————————————— Ishallbeholdtheeagain(isitso?)atanewvisitation,Oillgeniusthou!Ishallatmylife’sdissolution(Whenthepulsesareweak,andthefeeblelightofthereasonFlickers,anunfedflameretiringslowfromthesocket),Lowonasick-bedlaid,hearone,asitwere,atthedoorway,And,lookingup,seetheestandingby,lookingemptilyatme; Ishallentreattheethen,thoughnowIdaretorefusethee,—— Paleandpitifulnow,butterriblethentothedying。—— Well,Iwillseetheeagain,andwhileIcan,willrepelthee。 VI。ClaudetoEustace。 Romeisfallen,Ihear,thegallantMedicitaken,NobleManaraslain,andGaribaldihaslostilMoro;—— Romeisfallen;andfallen,orfalling,heroicalVenice。 I,meanwhile,forthelossofasinglesmallchitofagirl,sitMopingandmourninghere,——forher,andmyselfmuchsmaller。 Whitherdepartthesoulsofthebravethatdieinthebattle,Dieinthelost,lostfight,forthecausethatperisheswiththem? AretheyupbornefromthefieldontheslumberouspinionsofangelsUntoafar-offhome,wherethewearyrestfromtheirlabour,Andthedeepwoundsarehealed,andthebitterandburningmoistureWipedfromthegenerouseyes?ordotheylinger,unhappy,Pining,andhauntingthegraveoftheirby-gonehopeandendeavour? Alldeclamation,alas!thoughItalk,IcarenotforRomenorItaly;feeblyandfaintly,andbutwiththelips,canlamenttheWreckoftheLombardyouth,andthevictoryoftheoppressor。 Whitherdepartthebrave?——Godknows;Icertainlydonot。 VII。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。 Hehasnotcomeasyet;andnowImustnotexpectit。 Youhavewritten,yousay,tofriendsatFlorence,toseehim,Ifheperhapsshouldreturn;——butthatissurelyunlikely。 Hashenotwrittentoyou?——hedidnotknowyourdirection。 Oh,howstrangeneveroncetohavetoldhimwhereyouweregoing! YetifheonlywrotetoFlorence,thatwouldhavereachedyou。 Ifwhatyousayhesaidwastrue,whyhashenotdoneso? IshegonebacktoRome,doyouthink,tohisVaticanmarbles?—— OmydearMissRoper,forgiveme!donotbeangry!—— YouhavewrittentoFlorence;——yourfriendswouldcertainlyfindhim。 Mightyounotwritetohim?——butyetitissolittlelikely! Ishallexpectnothingmore。——Everyours,youraffectionateMary。 VIII。ClaudetoEustace。 IcannotstayatFlorence,noteventowaitforaletter。 Galleriesonlyoppressme。RemembranceofhopeIhadcherished(Almostmorethanashope,whenIpassedthroughFlorencethefirsttime) Lieslikeaswordinmysoul。Iammoreacowardthanever,Chicken-hearted,pastthought。Thecaffesandwaitersdistressme。 Allisunkind,and,alas!Iamreadyforanyone’skindness。 Oh,Iknewitofold,andknewit,Ithought,toperfection,IfthereisanyonethingintheworldtoprecludeallkindnessItistheneedofit,——itisthissad,self-defeatingdependence。 Whyisthis,Eustace?Myself,wereIstronger,IthinkIcouldtellyou。 Butitisoddwhenitcomes。SoplumbIthedeepsofdepression,Dailyindeeper,andfindnosupport,nowill,nopurpose。 Allmyoldstrengthsaregone。AndyetIshallhavetodosomething。 Ah,thekeyofourlife,thatpassesallwards,opensalllocks,IsnotIWILL,butIMUST。Imust,——Imust,——andIdoit。 ———————————————————— Afterall,doIknowthatIreallycaredsoabouther? DowhateverIwill,Icannotcallupherimage; ForwhenIclosemyeyes,Isee,verylikely,St。Peter’s,OrthePantheonfacade,orMichelAngelo’sfigures,Or,atawish,whenIplease,theAlbanhillsandtheForum,—— Butthatface,thoseeyes,——ah,no,neveranythinglikethem; Only,tryasIwill,asortoffeaturelessoutline,Andapaleblankorb,whichnorecollectionwilladdto。 Afterall,perhapstherewassomethingfactitiousaboutit; Ihavehadpain,itistrue:Ihavewept;andsohavetheactors。 ———————————————————— AtthelastmomentIhaveyourletter,forwhichIwaswaiting; Ihavetakenmyplace,andseenogoodininquiries。 Donothingmore,goodEustace,Iprayyou。Itonlywillvexme。 Takenomeasures。Indeed,shouldwemeet,Icouldnotbecertain; Allmightbechanged,youknow。Orperhapstherewasnothingtobechanged。 Itisacurioushistory,this;andyetIforesawit; Icouldhavetolditbefore。TheFates,itisclear,areagainstus; ForitiscertainenoughImetwiththepeopleyoumention; TheywereatFlorencethedayIreturnedthere,andspoketomeeven; Stayedaweek,sawmeoften;departed,andwhitherIknownot。 GreatisFate,andisbest。IbelieveinProvidencepartly。 Whatisordainedisright,andallthathappensisordered。 Ah,no,thatisn’tit。ButyetIretainmyconclusion。 IwillgowhereIamled,andwillnotdictatetothechances。 Donothingmore,Ibeg。Ifyouloveme,forbearinterfering。 IX。ClaudetoEustace。 Shallwecomeoutofitall,someday,asonedoesfromatunnel? Willitbeallatonce,withoutourdoingorasking,Weshallbeholdclearday,thetreesandmeadowsaboutus,Andthefacesoffriends,andtheeyeswelovedlookingatus? Whoknows?Whocansay?Itwillnotdotosupposeit。 X。ClaudetoEustace,-fromRome。 Romewillnotsuitme,Eustace;thepriestsandsoldierspossessit; Priestsandsoldiers:——and,ah!whichistheworst,thepriestorthesoldier? Politics,farewell,however!ForwhatcouldIdo?withinquiring,Talking,collatingthejournals,gofevermybrainaboutthingso’erWhichIcanhavenocontrol。No,happenwhatevermayhappen,Time,Isuppose,willsubsist;theearthwillrevolveonitsaxis; Peoplewilltravel;thestrangerwillwanderasnowinthecity; Romewillbehere,andthePopethecustodeofVaticanmarbles。 Ihavenoheart,however,foranymarbleorfresco; Ihaveessayeditinvain;’tisinvainasyettoessayit: ButImayhaplyresumesomedaymystudiesinthiskind; NotastheScripturesays,is,Ithink,thefact。Ereourdeath-day,Faith,Ithink,doespass,andLove;butKnowledgeabideth。 LetusseekKnowledge;——therestmaycomeandgoasithappens。 Knowledgeishardtoseek,andharderyettoadhereto。 Knowledgeispainfuloften;andyetwhenweknowwearehappy。 Seekit,andleavemereFaithandLovetocomewiththechances。 AsforHope,——to-morrowIhopetobestartingforNaples。 Romewillnotdo,Isee,formanyverygoodreasons。 Eastward,then,Isuppose,withthecomingofwinter,toEgypt。 XI。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。 Youhaveheardnothing;ofcourseIknowyoucanhaveheardnothing。 Ah,well,morethanonceIhavebrokenmypurpose,andsometimes,Onlytoooften,havelookedforthelittlelakesteamertobringhim。 Butitisonlyfancy,——Idonotreallyexpectit。 Oh,andyouseeIknowsoexactlyhowhewouldtakeit: Findingthechancesprevailagainstmeetingagain,hewouldbanishForthwitheverythoughtofthepoorlittlepossiblehope,whichImyselfcouldnothelp,perhaps,thinkingonlytoomuchof; Hewouldresignhimself,andgo。Iseeitexactly。 SoIalsosubmit,althoughinadifferentmanner。 Canyounotreallycome?WegoveryshortlytoEngland。 ———————————————————— Sogoforthtotheworld,tothegoodreportandtheevil! Go,littlebook!thytale,isitnotevilandgood? Go,andifstrangersrevile,passquietlybywithoutanswer。 Go,andifcuriousfriendsaskofthyrearingandage,Say,’IamflittingaboutmanyyearsfrombrainuntobrainofFeebleandrestlessyouthsborntoingloriousdays: But,’sofinishtheword,’IwaswritinaRomanchamber,WhenfromJaniculanheightsthunderedthecannonofFrance。’