第6章

类别:其他 作者:Joseph Conrad字数:16687更新时间:19/01/04 14:21:26
Thetwoofficerslookedateachotherhelplessly。 \"Thiswon\'tdo,\"saidthelieutenant,addressinghisjunior。 \"Havethemenmusteredinthecompoundhere。Imustgetsomesenseoutofhim。Hi!Almayer!Wakeup,man。Redeemyourword。 Yougaveyourword。Yougaveyourwordofhonour,youknow。\" Almayershookofftheofficer\'shandwithimpatience,buthisill-humourvanishedatonce,andhelookedup,puttinghisforefingertothesideofhisnose。 \"Youareveryyoung;thereistimeforallthings,\"hesaid,withanairofgreatsagacity。 ThelieutenantturnedtowardsNina,who,leaningbackinherchair,watchedherfathersteadily。 \"ReallyIamverymuchdistressedbyallthisforyoursake,\"heexclaimed。\"Idonotknow;\"hewenton,speakingwithsomeembarrassment,\"whetherIhaveanyrighttoaskyouanything,unless,perhaps,towithdrawfromthispainfulscene,butIfeelthatImust——foryourfather\'sgood——suggestthatyoushould——I meanifyouhaveanyinfluenceoverhimyououghttoexertitnowtomakehimkeepthepromisehegavemebeforehe——beforehegotintothisstate。\" Heobservedwithdiscouragementthatsheseemednottotakeanynoticeofwhathesaidsittingstillwithhalf-closedeyes。 \"Itrust——\"hebeganagain。 \"Whatisthepromiseyouspeakof?\"abruptlyaskedNina,leavingherseatandmovingtowardsherfather。 \"Nothingthatisnotjustandproper。Hepromisedtodelivertousamanwhointimeofprofoundpeacetookthelivesofinnocentmentoescapethepunishmenthedeservedforbreakingthelaw。 Heplannedhismischiefonalargescale。Itisnothisfaultifitfailed,partially。OfcourseyouhaveheardofDainMaroola。 Yourfathersecuredhim,Iunderstand。Weknowheescapedupthisriver。Perhapsyou——\" \"Andhekilledwhitemen!\"interruptedNina。 \"Iregrettosaytheywerewhite。Yes,twowhitemenlosttheirlivesthroughthatscoundrel\'sfreak。\" \"Twoonly!\"exclaimedNina。 Theofficerlookedatherinamazement。 \"Why!why!You-\"hestammered,confused。 \"Theremighthavebeenmore,\"interruptedNina。\"Andwhenyougetthis——thisscoundrelwillyougo?\" Thelieutenant,stillspeechless,bowedhisassent。 \"ThenIwouldgethimforyouifIhadtoseekhiminaburningfire,\"sheburstoutwithintenseenergy。\"Ihatethesightofyourwhitefaces。Ihatethesoundofyourgentlevoices。 Thatisthewayyouspeaktowomen,droppingsweetwordsbeforeanyprettyface。Ihaveheardyourvoicesbefore。Ihopedtoliveherewithoutseeinganyotherwhitefacebutthis,\"sheaddedinagentlertone,touchinglightlyherfather\'scheek。 Almayerceasedhismumblingandopenedhiseyes。Hecaughtholdofhisdaughter\'shandandpressedittohisface,whileNinawiththeotherhandsmoothedhisrumpledgreyhair,lookingdefiantlyoverherfather\'sheadattheofficer,whohadnowregainedhiscomposureandreturnedherlookwithacool,steadystare。Below,infrontoftheverandah,theycouldhearthetrampofseamenmusteringthereaccordingtoorders。Thesub-lieutenantcameupthesteps,whileBabalatchistoodupuneasilyand,withfingeronlip,triedtocatchNina\'seye。 \"Youareagoodgirl,\"whisperedAlmayer,absently,droppinghisdaughter\'shand。 \"Father!father!\"shecried,bendingoverhimwithpassionateentreaty。\"Seethosetwomenlookingatus。Sendthemaway。 I cannotbearitanymore。Sendthemaway。Dowhattheywantandletthemgo。\" ShecaughtsightofBabalatchiandceasedspeakingsuddenly,butherfoottappedthefloorwithrapidbeatsinaparoxysmofnervousrestlessness。Thetwoofficersstoodclosetogetherlookingoncuriously。 \"Whathashappened?Whatisthematter?\"whisperedtheyoungerman。 \"Don\'tknow,\"answeredtheother,underhisbreath。\"Oneisfurious,andtheotherisdrunk。Notsodrunk,either。Queer,this。Look!\" Almayerhadrisen,holdingontohisdaughter\'sarm。Hehesitatedamoment,thenheletgohisholdandlurchedhalf-wayacrosstheverandah。Therehepulledhimselftogether,andstoodverystraight,breathinghardandglaringroundangrily。 \"Arethemenready?\"askedthelieutenant。 \"Allready,sir。\" \"Now,Mr。Almayer,leadtheway,\"saidthelieutenantAlmayerrestedhiseyesonhimasifhesawhimforthefirsttime。 \"Twomen,\"hesaidthickly。Theeffortofspeakingseemedtointerferewithhisequilibrium。Hetookaquicksteptosavehimselffromafall,andremainedswayingbackwardsandforwards。 \"Twomen,\"hebeganagain,speakingwithdifficulty。\"Twowhitemen——meninuniform——honourablemen。Iwanttosay——menofhonour。Areyou?\" \"Come!Noneofthat,\"saidtheofficerimpatiently。\"Letushavethatfriendofyours。\" \"WhatdoyouthinkIam?\"askedAlmayer,fiercely。 \"Youaredrunk,butnotsodrunkasnottoknowwhatyouaredoing。Enoughofthistomfoolery,\"saidtheofficersternly,\"orIwillhaveyouputunderarrestinyourownhouse。\" \"Arrest!\"laughedAlmayer,discordantly。\"Ha!ha!ha!Arrest! Why,Ihavebeentryingtogetoutofthisinfernalplacefortwentyyears,andIcan\'t。Youhear,man!Ican\'t,andnevershall!Never!\" Heendedhiswordswithasob,andwalkedunsteadilydownthestairs。Wheninthecourtyardthelieutenantapproachedhim,andtookhimbythearm。Thesub-lieutenantandBabalatchifollowedclose。 \"That\'sbetter,Almayer,\"saidtheofficerencouragingly。\"Whereareyougoingto?Thereareonlyplanksthere。Here,\"hewenton,shakinghimslightly,\"dowewanttheboats?\" \"No,\"answeredAlmayer,viciously。\"Youwantagrave。\" \"What?Wildagain!Trytotalksense。\" \"Grave!\"roaredAlmayer,strugglingtogethimselffree。\"Aholeintheground。Don\'tyouunderstand?Youmustbedrunk。 Letmego!Letgo,Itellyou!\" Hetoreawayfromtheofficer\'sgrasp,andreeledtowardstheplankswherethebodylayunderitswhitecover;thenheturnedroundquickly,andfacedthesemicircleofinterestedfaces。Thesunwassinkingrapidly,throwinglongshadowsofhouseandtreesoverthecourtyard,butthelightlingeredyetontheriver,wherethelogswentdriftingpastinmidstream,lookingverydistinctandblackinthepaleredglow。Thetrunksofthetreesintheforestontheeastbankwerelostingloomwhiletheirhighestbranchesswayedgentlyinthedepartingsunlight。Theairfeltheavyandcoldinthebreeze,expiringinslightpuffsthatcameoverthewater。 Almayershiveredashemadeanefforttospeak,andagainwithanuncertaingestureheseemedtofreehisthroatfromthegripofaninvisiblehand。Hisbloodshoteyeswanderedaimlesslyfromfacetoface。 \"There!\"hesaidatlast。\"Areyouallthere?Heisadangerousman。\" Hedraggedatthecoverwithhastyviolence,andthebodyrolledstifflyofftheplanksandfellathisfeetinrigidhelplessness。 \"Cold,perfectlycold,\"saidAlmayer,lookingroundwithamirthlesssmile。\"Sorrycandonobetter。Andyoucan\'thanghim,either。Asyouobserve,gentlemen,\"headdedgravely,\"thereisnohead,andhardlyanyneck。\" Thelastrayoflightwassnatchedawayfromthetree-tops,therivergrewsuddenlydark,andinthegreatstillnessthemurmuroftheflowingwaterseemedtofillthevastexpanseofgreyshadowthatdescendedupontheland。 \"ThisisDain,\"wentonAlmayertothesilentgroupthatsurroundedhim。\"AndIhavekeptmyword。Firstonehope,thenanother,andthisismylast。Nothingisleftnow。Youthinkthereisonedeadmanhere?Mistake,I\'sureyou。Iammuchmoredead。Whydon\'tyouhangme?\"hesuggestedsuddenly,inafriendlytone,addressingthelieutenant。\"Iassure,assureyouitwouldbeamat——matterofformaltog——altogether。\" Theselastwordshemutteredtohimself,andwalkedzigzagingtowardshishouse。\"Getout!\"hethunderedatAli,whowasapproachingtimidlywithoffersofassistance。Fromafar,scaredgroupsofmenandwomenwatchedhisdeviousprogress。Hedraggedhimselfupthestairsbythebanister,andmanagedtoreachachairintowhichhefellheavily。Hesatforawhilepantingwithexertionandanger,andlookingroundvaguelyforNina;thenmakingathreateninggesturetowardsthecompound,wherehehadheardBabalatchi\'svoice,heoverturnedthetablewithhisfootinagreatcrashofsmashedcrockery。Hemutteredyetmenacinglytohimself,thenhisheadfellonhisbreast,hiseyesclosed,andwithadeepsighhefellasleep。 Thatnight——forthefirsttimeinitshistory——thepeacefulandflourishingsettlementofSambirsawthelightsshiningabout\"Almayer\'sFolly。\"ThesewerethelanternsoftheboatshungupbytheseamenundertheverandahwherethetwoofficerswereholdingacourtofinquiryintothetruthofthestoryrelatedtothembyBabalatchi。Babalatchihadregainedallhisimportance。 Hewaseloquentandpersuasive,callingHeavenandEarthtowitnessthetruthofhisstatements。Therewerealsootherwitnesses。MahmatBanjerandagoodmanyothersunderwentacloseexaminationthatdraggeditswearylengthfarintotheevening。AmessengerwassentforAbdulla,whoexcusedhimselffromcomingonthescoreofhisvenerableage,butsentReshid。 Mahmathadtoproducethebangle,andsawwithrageandmortificationthelieutenantputitinhispocket,asoneoftheproofsofDain\'sdeath,tobesentinwiththeofficialreportofthemission。Babalatchi\'sringwasalsoimpoundedforthesamepurpose,buttheexperiencedstatesmanwasresignedtothatlossfromtheverybeginning。Hedidnotmindaslongashewassure,thatthewhitemenbelieved。Heputthatquestiontohimselfearnestlyasheleft,oneofthelast,whentheproceedingscametoaclose。Hewasnotcertain。Still,iftheybelievedonlyforanight,hewouldputDainbeyondtheirreachandfeelsafehimself。Hewalkedawayfast,lookingfromtimetotimeoverhisshoulderinthefearofbeingfollowed,buthesawandheardnothing。 \"Teno\'clock,\"saidthelieutenant,lookingathiswatchandyawning。\"Ishallhearsomeofthecaptain\'scomplimentaryremarkswhenwegetback。Miserablebusiness,this。\" \"Doyouthinkallthisistrue?\"askedtheyoungerman。 \"True!Itisjustpossible。Butifitisn\'ttruewhatcanwedo? Ifwehadadozenboatswecouldpatrolthecreeks;andthatwouldn\'tbemuchgood。Thatdrunkenmadmanwasright;wehaven\'tenoughholdonthiscoast。Theydowhattheylike。Areourhammocksslung?\" \"Yes,Itoldthecoxswain。Strangecoupleoverthere,\"saidthesub,withawaveofhishandtowardsAlmayer\'shouse。 \"Hem!Queer,certainly。Whathaveyoubeentellingher? Iwasattendingtothefathermostofthetime。\" \"IassureyouIhavebeenperfectlycivil,\"protestedtheotherwarmly。 \"Allright。Don\'tgetexcited。Sheobjectstocivility,then,fromwhatIunderstand。Ithoughtyoumighthavebeentender。 Youknowweareonservice。\" \"Well,ofcourse。Neverforgetthat。Coldlycivil。 That\'sall。\" Theybothlaughedalittle,andnotfeelingsleepybegantopacetheverandahsidebyside。Themoonrosestealthilyabovethetrees,andsuddenlychangedtheriverintoastreamofscintillatingsilver。Theforestcameoutoftheblackvoidandstoodsombreandpensiveoverthesparklingwater。Thebreezediedawayintoabreathlesscalm。 Seamanlike,thetwoofficerstrampedmeasuredlyupanddownwithoutexchangingaword。Thelooseplanksrattledrhythmicallyundertheirstepswithobstrusivedrysoundintheperfectsilenceofthenight。Astheywerewheelingroundagaintheyoungermanstoodattentive。 \"Didyouhearthat?\"heasked。 \"No!\"saidtheother。\"Hearwhat?\" \"IthoughtIheardacry。Eversofaint。Seemedawoman\'svoice。Inthatotherhouse。Ah!Again!Hearit?\" \"No,\"saidthelieutenant,afterlisteningawhile。\"Youyoungfellowsalwayshearwomen\'svoices。Ifyouaregoingtodreamyouhadbettergetintoyourhammock。Good-night。\" Themoonmountedhigher,andthewarmshadowsgrewsmallerandcreptawayasifhidingbeforethecoldandcruellight。 chapter10 CHAPTERX。 \"Ithassetatlast,\"saidNinatohermotherpointingtowardsthehillsbehindwhichthesunhadsunk。\"Listen,mother,IamgoingnowtoBulangi\'screek,andifIshouldneverreturn——\" Sheinterruptedherself,andsomethinglikedoubtdimmedforamomentthefireofsuppressedexaltationthathadglowedinhereyesandhadilluminatedthesereneimpassivenessofherfeatureswitharayofeagerlifeduringallthatlongdayofexcitement—— thedayofjoyandanxiety,ofhopeandterror,ofvaguegriefandindistinctdelight。Whilethesunshonewiththatdazzlinglightinwhichherlovewasbornandgrewtillitpossessedherwholebeing,shewaskeptfirminherunwaveringresolvebythemysteriouswhisperingsofdesirewhichfilledherheartwithimpatientlongingforthedarknessthatwouldmeantheendofdangerandstrife,thebeginningofhappiness,thefulfillingoflove,thecompletenessoflife。Ithadsetatlast!Theshorttropicaltwilightwentoutbeforeshecoulddrawthelongbreathofrelief;andnowthesuddendarknessseemedtobefullofmenacingvoicescallinguponhertorushheadlongintotheunknown;tobetruetoherownimpulses,togiveherselfuptothepassionshehadevokedandshared。Hewaswaiting!Inthesolitudeofthesecludedclearing,inthevastsilenceoftheforesthewaswaitingalone,afugitiveinfearofhislife。 Indifferenttohisdangerhewaswaitingforher。Itwasforheronlythathehadcome;andnowasthetimeapproachedwhenheshouldhavehisreward,sheaskedherselfwithdismaywhatmeantthatchillingdoubtofherownwillandofherowndesire?Withaneffortsheshookoffthefearofthepassingweakness。Heshouldhavehisreward。Herwoman\'sloveandherwoman\'shonourovercamethefalteringdistrustofthatunknownfuturewaitingforherinthedarknessoftheriver。 \"No,youwillnotreturn,\"mutteredMrs。Almayer,prophetically。 \"Withoutyouhewillnotgo,andifheremainshere——\"Shewavedherhandtowardsthelightsof\"Almayer\'sFolly,\"andtheunfinishedsentencediedoutinathreateningmurmur。 Thetwowomenhadmetbehindthehouse,andnowwerewalkingslowlytogethertowardsthecreekwhereallthecanoesweremoored。Arrivedatthefringeofbushestheystoppedbyacommonimpulse,andMrs。Almayer,layingherhandonherdaughter\'sarm,triedinvaintolookcloseintothegirl\'savertedface。Whensheattemptedtospeakherfirstwordswerelostinastifledsobthatsoundedstrangelycomingfromthatwomanwho,ofallhumanpassions,seemedtoknowonlythoseofangerandhate。 \"YouaregoingawaytobeagreatRanee,\"shesaidatlast,inavoicethatwassteadyenoughnow,\"andifyoubewiseyoushallhavemuchpowerthatwillenduremanydays,andevenlastintoyouroldage。WhathaveIbeen?Aslaveallmylife,andIhavecookedriceforamanwhohadnocourageandnowisdom。Hai! I! evenI,wasgiveningiftbyachiefandawarriortoamanthatwasneither。Hai!Hai!\" Shewailedtoherselfsoftly,lamentingthelostpossibilitiesofmurderandmischiefthatcouldhavefallentoherlothadshebeenmatedwithacongenialspirit。NinabentdownoverMrs。 Almayer\'sslightformandscannedattentively,underthestarsthathadrushedoutontheblackskyandnowhungbreathlessoverthatstrangeparting,hermother\'sshrivelledfeatures,andlookedcloseintothesunkeneyesthatcouldseeintoherowndarkfuturebythelightofalongandapainfulexperience。 Againshefeltherselffascinated,asofold,byhermother\'sexaltedmoodandbytheoracularcertaintyofexpressionwhich,togetherwithherfitsofviolence,hadcontributednotalittletothereputationforwitchcraftsheenjoyedinthesettlement。 \"Iwasaslave,andyoushallbeaqueen,\"wentonMrs。Almayer,lookingstraightbeforeher;\"butremembermen\'sstrengthandtheirweakness。Tremblebeforehisanger,sothathemayseeyourfearinthelightofday;butinyourheartyoumaylaugh,foraftersunsetheisyourslave。\" \"Aslave!He!Themasteroflife!Youdonotknowhim,mother。\" Mrs。Almayercondescendedtolaughcontemptuously。 \"Youspeaklikeafoolofawhitewoman,\"sheexclaimed。\"Whatdoyouknowofmen\'sangerandofmen\'slove?Haveyouwatchedthesleepofmenwearyofdealingdeath?Haveyoufeltaboutyouthestrongarmthatcoulddriveakrissdeepintoabeatingheart?Yah!youareawhitewoman,andoughttopraytoawoman-god!\" \"Whydoyousaythis?IhavelistenedtoyourwordssolongthatIhaveforgottenmyoldlife。IfIwaswhitewouldIstandhere,readytogo?Mother,Ishallreturntothehouseandlookoncemoreatmyfather\'sface。\" \"No!\"saidMrs。Almayer,violently。\"No,hesleepsnowthesleepofgin;andifyouwentbackhemightawakeandseeyou。No,heshallneverseeyou。Whentheterribleoldmantookyouawayfrommewhenyouwerelittle,youremember——\" \"Itwassuchalongtimeago,\"murmuredNina。 \"Iremember,\"wentonMrs。Almayer,fiercely。\"Iwantedtolookatyourfaceagain。Hesaidno!Iheardyoucryandjumpedintotheriver。Youwerehisdaughterthen;youaremydaughternow。 Nevershallyougobacktothathouse;youshallnevercrossthiscourtyardagain。No!no!\" Hervoicerosealmosttoashout。Ontheothersideofthecreektherewasarustleinthelonggrass。Thetwowomenheardit,andlistenedforawhileinstartledsilence。\"Ishallgo,\"saidNina,inacautiousbutintensewhisper。\"Whatisyourhateoryourrevengetome?\" Shemovedtowardsthehouse,Mrs。Almayerclingingtoherandtryingtopullherback。 \"Stop,youshallnotgo!\"shegasped。 Ninapushedawayhermotherimpatientlyandgatheredupherskirtsforaquickrun,butMrs。Almayerranforwardandturnedround,facingherdaughterwithoutstretchedarms。 \"Ifyoumoveanotherstep,\"sheexclaimed,breathingquickly,\"I shallcryout。Doyouseethoselightsinthebighouse? Theresittwowhitemen,angrybecausetheycannothavethebloodofthemanyoulove。Andinthosedarkhouses,\"shecontinued,morecalmlyasshepointedtowardsthesettlement,\"myvoicecouldwakeupmenthatwouldleadtheOrangBlandasoldierstohimwhoiswaiting——foryou。\" Shecouldnotseeherdaughter\'sface,butthewhitefigurebeforeherstoodsilentandirresoluteinthedarkness。Mrs。 Almayerpursuedheradvantage。 \"Giveupyouroldlife!Forget!\"shesaidinentreatingtones。 \"Forgetthatyoueverlookedatawhiteface;forgettheirwords; forgettheirthoughts。Theyspeaklies。Andtheythinkliesbecausetheydespiseusthatarebetterthantheyare,butnotsostrong。Forgettheirfriendshipandtheircontempt;forgettheirmanygods。Girl,whydoyouwanttorememberthepastwhenthereisawarriorandachiefreadytogivemanylives——hisownlife—— foroneofyoursmiles?\" Whileshespokeshepushedgentlyherdaughtertowardsthecanoes,hidingherownfear,anxiety,anddoubtunderthefloodofpassionatewordsthatleftNinanotimetothinkandnoopportunitytoprotest,evenifshehadwishedit。Butshedidnotwishitnow。Atthebottomofthatpassingdesiretolookagainatherfather\'sfacetherewasnostrongaffection。Shefeltnoscruplesandnoremorseatleavingsuddenlythatmanwhosesentimenttowardsherselfshecouldnotunderstand,shecouldnotevensee。Therewasonlyaninstinctiveclingingtooldlife,tooldhabits,tooldfaces;thatfearoffinalitywhichlurksineveryhumanbreastandpreventssomanyheroismsandsomanycrimes。Foryearsshehadstoodbetweenhermotherandherfather,theonesostronginherweakness,theothersoweakwherehecouldhavebeenstrong。Betweenthosetwobeingssodissimilar,soantagonistic,shestoodwithmuteheartwonderingandangryatthefactofherownexistence。Itseemedsounreasonable,sohumiliatingtobeflungthereinthatsettlementandtoseethedaysrushbyintothepast,withoutahope,adesire,oranaimthatwouldjustifythelifeshehadtoendureinever-growingweariness。Shehadlittlebeliefandnosympathyforherfather\'sdreams;butthesavageravingsofhermotherchancedtostrikearesponsivechord,deepdownsomewhereinherdespairingheart;andshedreameddreamsofherownwiththepersistentabsorptionofacaptivethinkingoflibertywithinthewallsofhisprisoncell。WiththecomingofDainshefoundtheroadtofreedombyobeyingthevoiceofthenew-bornimpulses,andwithsurprisedjoyshethoughtshecouldreadinhiseyestheanswertoallthequestioningsofherheart。Sheunderstoodnowthereasonandtheaimoflife;andinthetriumphantunveilingofthatmysteryshethrewawaydisdainfullyherpastwithitssadthoughts,itsbitterfeelings,anditsfaintaffections,nowwitheredanddeadincontactwithherfiercepassion。 Mrs。AlmayerunmooredNina\'sowncanoeand,straighteningherselfpainfully,stood,painterinhand,lookingatherdaughter。 \"Quick,\"shesaid;\"getawaybeforethemoonrises,whiletheriverisdark。IamafraidofAbdulla\'sslaves。Thewretchesprowlinthenightoften,andmightseeandfollowyou。Therearetwopaddlesinthecanoe。\" Ninaapproachedhermotherandhesitatinglytouchedlightlywithherlipsthewrinkledforehead。Mrs。Almayersnortedcontemptuouslyinprotestagainstthattendernesswhichshe,nevertheless,fearedcouldbecontagious。 \"ShallIeverseeyouagain,mother?\"murmuredNina。 \"No,\"saidMrs。Almayer,afterashortsilence。\"Whyshouldyoureturnherewhereitismyfatetodie?Youwilllivefarawayinsplendourandmight。WhenIhearofwhitemendrivenfromtheislands,thenIshallknowthatyouarealive,andthatyouremembermywords。\" \"Ishallalwaysremember,\"returnedNina,earnestly;\"butwhereismypower,andwhatcanIdo?\" \"Donotlethimlooktoolonginyoureyes,norlayhisheadonyourkneeswithoutremindinghimthatmenshouldfightbeforetheyrest。Andifhelingers,givehimhiskrissyourselfandbidhimgo,asthewifeofamightyprinceshoulddowhentheenemiesarenear。Lethimslaythewhitementhatcometoustotrade,withprayersontheirlipsandloadedgunsintheirhands。 Ah!\"——sheendedwithasigh——\"theyareoneverysea,andoneveryshore;andtheyareverymany!\" Sheswungthebowofthecanoetowardstheriver,butdidnotletgothegunwale,keepingherhandonitinirresolutethoughtfulness。 Ninaputthepointofthepaddleagainstthebank,readytoshoveoffintothestream。 \"Whatisit,mother?\"sheasked,inalowvoice。\"Doyouhearanything?\" \"No,\"saidMrs。Almayer,absently。\"Listen,Nina,\"shecontinued,abruptly,afteraslightpause,\"inafteryearstherewillbeotherwomen——\" Astifledcryintheboatinterruptedher,andthepaddlerattledinthecanoeasitslippedfromNina\'shands,whichsheputoutinaprotestinggesture。Mrs。Almayerfellonherkneesonthebankandleanedoverthegunwalesoastobringherownfaceclosetoherdaughter\'s。 \"Therewillbeotherwomen,\"sherepeatedfirmly;\"Itellyouthat,becauseyouarehalfwhite,andmayforgetthatheisagreatchief,andthatsuchthingsmustbe。Hideyouranger,anddonotlethimseeonyourfacethepainthatwilleatyourheart。Meethimwithjoyinyoureyesandwisdomonyourlips,fortoyouhewillturninsadnessorindoubt。Aslongashelooksuponmanywomenyourpowerwilllast,butshouldtherebeone,oneonlywithwhomheseemstoforgetyou,then——\" \"Icouldnotlive,\"exclaimedNina,coveringherfacewithbothherhands。\"Donotspeakso,mother;itcouldnotbe。\" \"Then,\"wentonMrs。Almayer,steadily,\"tothatwoman,Nina,shownomercy。\" Shemovedthecanoedowntowardsthestreambythegunwale,andgrippeditwithbothherhands,thebowpointingintotheriver。 \"Areyoucrying?\"sheaskedsternlyofherdaughter,whosatstillwithcoveredface。\"Arise,andtakeyourpaddle,forhehaswaitedlongenough。Andremember,Nina,nomercy;andifyoumuststrike,strikewithasteadyhand。\" Sheputoutallherstrength,andswingingherbodyoverthewater,shotthelightcraftfarintothestream。WhensherecoveredherselffromtheeffortshetriedvainlytocatchaglimpseofthecanoethatseemedtohavedissolvedsuddenlyintothewhitemisttrailingovertheheatedwatersofthePantai。 Afterlisteningforawhileintentlyonherknees,Mrs。Almayerrosewithadeepsigh,whiletwotearswanderedslowlydownherwitheredcheeks。Shewipedthemoffquicklywithawispofhergreyhairasifashamedofherself,butcouldnotstifleanotherloudsigh,forherheartwasheavyandshesufferedmuch,beingunusedtotenderemotions。Thistimeshefanciedshehadheardafaintnoise,liketheechoofherownsigh,andshestopped,strainingherearstocatchtheslightestsound,andpeeringapprehensivelytowardsthebushesnearher。 \"Whoisthere?\"sheasked,inanunsteadyvoice,whileherimaginationpeopledthesolitudeoftheriversidewithghost-likeforms。\"Whoisthere?\"sherepeatedfaintly。 Therewasnoanswer:onlythevoiceoftherivermurmuringinsadmonotonebehindthewhiteveilseemedtoswelllouderforamoment,todieawayagaininasoftwhisperofeddieswashingagainstthebank。 Mrs。Almayershookherheadasifinanswertoherownthoughts,andwalkedquicklyawayfromthebushes,lookingtotherightandleftwatchfully。Shewentstraighttowardsthecooking-shed,observingthattheembersofthefirethereglowedmorebrightlythanusual,asifsomebodyhadbeenaddingfreshfueltothefiresduringtheevening。Assheapproached,Babalatchi,whohadbeensquattinginthewarmglow,roseandmetherintheshadowoutside。 \"Isshegone?\"askedtheanxiousstatesman,hastily。 \"Yes,\"answeredMrs。Almayer。\"Whatarethewhitemendoing? Whendidyouleavethem?\" \"Theyaresleepingnow,Ithink。Maytheyneverwake!\"exclaimedBabalatchi,fervently。\"Oh!buttheyaredevils,andmademuchtalkandtroubleoverthatcarcase。Thechiefthreatenedmetwicewithhishand,andsaidhewouldhavemetieduptoatree。 Tiemeuptoatree!Me!\"herepeated,strikinghisbreastviolently。 Mrs。Almayerlaughedtauntingly。 \"Andyousalaamedandaskedformercy。MenwitharmsbytheirsideactedotherwisewhenIwasyoung。\" \"Andwherearethey,themenofyouryouth?Youmadwoman!\" retortedBabalatchi,angrily。\"KilledbytheDutch。Aha! ButI shalllivetodeceivethem。Amanknowswhentofightandwhentotellpeacefullies。Youwouldknowthatifyouwerenotawoman。\" ButMrs。Almayerdidnotseemtohearhim。Withbentbodyandoutstretchedarmsheappearedtobelisteningtosomenoisebehindtheshed。 \"Therearestrangesounds,\"shewhispered,withevidentalarm。 \"Ihaveheardintheairthesoundsofgrief,asofasighandweeping。Thatwasbytheriverside。AndnowagainIheard——\" \"Where?\"askedBabalatchi,inanalteredvoice。\"Whatdidyouhear?\" \"Closehere。Itwaslikeabreathlongdrawn。IwishIhadburntthepaperoverthebodybeforeitwasburied。\" \"Yes,\"assentedBabalatchi。\"Butthewhitemenhadhimthrownintoaholeatonce。Youknowhefoundhisdeathontheriver,\" headdedcheerfully,\"andhisghostmayhailthecanoes,butwouldleavethelandalone。\" Mrs。Almayer,whohadbeencraninghernecktolookroundthecorneroftheshed,drewbackherhead。 \"Thereisnobodythere,\"shesaid,reassured。\"IsitnottimefortheRajahwar-canoetogototheclearing?\" \"Ihavebeenwaitingforithere,forImyselfmustgo,\" explainedBabalatchi。\"IthinkIwillgooverandseewhatmakesthemlate。Whenwillyoucome?TheRajahgivesyourefuge。\" \"Ishallpaddleoverbeforethebreakofday。Icannotleavemydollarsbehind,\"mutteredMrs。Almayer。 Theyseparated。Babalatchicrossedthecourtyardtowardsthecreektogethiscanoe,andMrs。Almayerwalkedslowlytothehouse,ascendedtheplankway,andpassingthroughthebackverandahenteredthepassageleadingtothefrontofthehouse; butbeforegoinginsheturnedinthedoorwayandlookedbackattheemptyandsilentcourtyard,nowlitupbytheraysoftherisingmoon。Nosoonershehaddisappeared,however,thanavagueshapeflittedoutfromamongstthestalksofthebananaplantation,dartedoverthemoonlitspace,andfellinthedarknessatthefootoftheverandah。Itmighthavebeentheshadowofadrivingcloud,sonoiselessandrapidwasitspassage,butforthetrailofdisturbedgrass,whosefeatheryheadstrembledandswayedforalongtimeinthemoonlightbeforetheyrestedmotionlessandgleaming,likeadesignofsilverspraysembroideredonasombrebackground。 Mrs。Almayerlightedthecocoanutlamp,andliftingcautiouslytheredcurtain,gazeduponherhusband,shadingthelightwithherhand。 Almayer,huddledupinthechair,oneofhisarmshangingdown,theotherthrownacrossthelowerpartofhisfaceasiftowardoffaninvisibleenemy,hislegsstretchedstraightout,sleptheavily,unconsciousoftheunfriendlyeyesthatlookeduponhimindisparagingcriticism。Athisfeetlaytheoverturnedtable,amongstawreckofcrockeryandbrokenbottles。Theappearanceasoftracesleftbyadesperatestrugglewasaccentuatedbythechairs,whichseemedtohavebeenscatteredviolentlyallovertheplace,andnowlayabouttheverandahwithalamentableaspectofinebrietyintheirhelplessattitudes。OnlyNina\'sbigrocking-chair,standingblackandmotionlessonitshighrunners,toweredabovethechaosofdemoralisedfurniture,unflinchinglydignifiedandpatient,waitingforitsburden。 Withalastscornfullooktowardsthesleeper,Mrs。Almayerpassedbehindthecurtainintoherownroom。Acoupleofbats,encouragedbythedarknessandthepeacefulstateofaffairs,resumedtheirsilentandobliquegambolsaboveAlmayer\'shead,andforalongtimetheprofoundquietofthehousewasunbroken,saveforthedeepbreathingofthesleepingmanandthefainttinkleofsilverinthehandsofthewomanpreparingforflight。 Intheincreasinglightofthemoonthathadrisennowabovethenightmist,theobjectsontheverandahcameoutstronglyoutlinedinblacksplashesofshadowwithalltheuncompromisinguglinessoftheirdisorder,andacaricatureofthesleepingAlmayerappearedonthedirtywhitewashofthewallbehindhiminagrotesquelyexaggerateddetailofattitudeandfeatureenlargedtoaheroicsize。Thediscontentedbatsdepartedinquestofdarkerplaces,andalizardcameoutinshort,nervousrushes,and,pleasedwiththewhitetable-cloth,stoppedonitinbreathlessimmobilitythatwouldhavesuggestedsuddendeathhaditnotbeenforthemelodiouscallheexchangedwithalessadventurousfriendhidingamongstthelumberinthecourtyard。 Thentheboardsinthepassagecreaked,thelizardvanished,andAlmayerstirreduneasilywithasigh:slowly,outofthesenselessannihilationofdrunkensleep,hewasreturning,throughthelandofdreams,towakingconsciousness。Almayer\'sheadrolledfromshouldertoshoulderintheoppressionofhisdream;theheavenshaddescendeduponhimlikeaheavymantle,andtrailedinstarredfoldsfarunderhim。Starsabove,starsallroundhim;andfromthestarsunderhisfeetroseawhisperfullofentreatiesandtears,andsorrowfulfacesflittedamongsttheclustersoflightfillingtheinfinitespacebelow。Howescapefromtheimportunityoflamentablecriesandfromthelookofstaring,sadeyesinthefaceswhichpressedroundhimtillhegaspedforbreathunderthecrushingweightofworldsthathungoverhisachingshoulders?Getaway!Buthow?Ifheattemptedtomovehewouldstepoffintonothing,andperishinthecrashingfallofthatuniverseofwhichhewastheonlysupport。 Andwhatwerethevoicessaying?Urginghimtomove!Why? Movetodestruction!Notlikely!Theabsurdityofthethingfilledhimwithindignation。Hegotafirmerfootholdandstiffenedhismusclesinheroicresolvetocarryhisburdentoalleternity。 Andagespassedinthesuperhumanlabour,amidsttherushofcirclingworlds;intheplaintivemurmurofsorrowfulvoicesurginghimtodesistbeforeitwastoolate——tillthemysteriouspowerthathadlaiduponhimthegianttaskseemedatlasttoseekhisdestruction。Withterrorhefeltanirresistiblehandshakinghimbytheshoulder,whilethechorusofvoicesswelledlouderintoanagonisedprayertogo,gobeforeitistoolate。 Hefelthimselfslipping,losinghisbalance,assomethingdraggedathislegs,andhefell。Withafaintcryheglidedoutoftheanguishofperishingcreationintoanimperfectwakingthatseemedtobestillunderthespellofhisdream。 \"What?What?\"hemurmuredsleepily,withoutmovingoropeninghiseyes。Hisheadstillfeltheavy,andhehadnotthecouragetoraisehiseyelids。Inhisearstherestilllingeredthesoundofentreatingwhisper。——\"AmIawake?——WhydoIhearthevoices?\" hearguedtohimself,hazily。——\"Icannotgetridofthehorriblenightmareyet。——Ihavebeenverydrunk。——Whatisthatshakingme? Iamdreamingyet——Imustopenmyeyesandbedonewithit。I amonlyhalfawake,itisevident。\" Hemadeanefforttoshakeoffhisstuporandsawafaceclosetohis,glaringathimwithstaringeyeballs。Heclosedhiseyesagaininamazedhorrorandsatupstraightinthechair,tremblingineverylimb。Whatwasthisapparition?——Hisownfancy,nodoubt。——Hisnerveshadbeenmuchtriedthedaybefore——andthenthedrink!Hewouldnotseeitagainifhehadthecouragetolook。——Hewouldlookdirectly。——Getalittlesteadierfirst。——So。——Now。 Helooked。Thefigureofawomanstandinginthesteelylight,herhandsstretchedforthinasuppliantgesture,confrontedhimfromthefar-offendoftheverandah;andinthespacebetweenhimandtheobstinatephantomfloatedthemurmurofwordsthatfellonhisearsinajumbleoftorturingsentences,themeaningofwhichescapedtheutmosteffortsofhisbrain。WhospoketheMalaywords?Whoranaway?Whytoolate——andtoolateforwhat? Whatmeantthosewordsofhateandlovemixedsostrangelytogether,theever-recurringnamesfallingonhisearsagainandagain——Nina,Dain;Dain,Nina?Dainwasdead,andNinawassleeping,unawareoftheterribleexperiencethroughwhichhewasnowpassing。Washegoingtobetormentedforever,sleepingorwaking,andhavenopeaceeithernightorday?Whatwasthemeaningofthis? Heshoutedthelastwordsaloud。Theshadowywomanseemedtoshrinkandrecedealittlefromhimtowardsthedoorway,andtherewasashriek。Exasperatedbytheincomprehensiblenatureofhistorment,Almayermadearushupontheapparition,whicheludedhisgrasp,andhebroughtupheavilyagainstthewall。 Quickaslightningheturnedroundandpursuedfiercelythemysteriousfigurefleeingfromhimwithpiercingshrieksthatwerelikefueltotheflamesofhisanger。Overthefurniture,roundtheoverturnedtable,andnowhehaditcorneredbehindNina\'schair。Totheleft,totherighttheydodged,thechairrockingmadlybetweenthem,shesendingoutshriekaftershriekateveryfeint,andhegrowlingmeaninglesscursesthroughhishardsetteeth。\"Oh!thefiendishnoisethatsplithisheadandseemedtochokehisbreath。——Itwouldkillhim。——Itmustbestopped!\"Aninsanedesiretocrushthatyellingthinginducedhimtocasthimselfrecklesslyoverthechairwithadesperategrab,andtheycamedowntogetherinacloudofdustamongstthesplinteredwood。Thelastshriekdiedoutunderhiminafaintgurgle,andhehadsecuredthereliefofabsolutesilence。 Helookedatthewoman\'sfaceunderhim。Arealwoman!Heknewher。Byallthatiswonderful!Taminah!Hejumpedupashamedofhisfuryandstoodperplexed,wipinghisforehead。Thegirlstruggledtoakneelingpostureandembracedhislegsinafrenziedprayerformercy。 \"Don\'tbeafraid,\"hesaid,raisingher。\"Ishallnothurtyou。 Whydoyoucometomyhouseinthenight?Andifyouhadtocome,whynotgobehindthecurtainwherethewomensleep?\" \"Theplacebehindthecurtainisempty,\"gaspedTaminah,catchingherbreathbetweenthewords。\"Therearenowomeninyourhouseanymore,Tuan。IsawtheoldMemgoawaybeforeItriedtowakeyou。Ididnotwantyourwomen,Iwantedyou。\" \"OldMem!\"repeatedAlmayer。\"Doyoumeanmywife?\" Shenoddedherhead。 \"Butofmydaughteryouarenotafraid?\"saidAlmayer。 \"Haveyounotheardme?\"sheexclaimed。\"HaveInotspokenforalongtimewhenyoulaytherewitheyeshalfopen?Sheisgonetoo。\" \"Iwasasleep。Canyounottellwhenamanissleepingandwhenawake?\" \"Sometimes,\"answeredTaminahinalowvoice;\"sometimesthespiritlingersclosetoasleepingbodyandmayhear。IspokealongtimebeforeItouchedyou,andIspokesoftlyforfearitwoulddepartatasuddennoiseandleaveyousleepingforever。 ItookyoubytheshoulderonlywhenyoubegantomutterwordsI couldnotunderstand。Haveyounotheard,then,anddoyouknownothing?\" \"Nothingofwhatyousaid。Whatisit?Tellagainifyouwantmetoknow。\" Hetookherbytheshoulderandledherunresistingtothefrontoftheverandahintoastrongerlight。Shewrungherhandswithsuchanappearanceofgriefthathebegantobealarmed。 \"Speak,\"hesaid。\"Youmadenoiseenoughtowakeevendeadmen。 Andyetnobodylivingcame,\"headdedtohimselfinanuneasywhisper。\"Areyoumute?Speak!\"herepeated。 InarushofwordswhichbrokeoutafterashortstrugglefromhertremblinglipsshetoldhimthetaleofNina\'sloveandherownjealousy。Severaltimeshelookedangrilyintoherfaceandtoldhertobesilent;buthecouldnotstopthesoundsthatseemedtohimtorunoutinahotstream,swirlabouthisfeet,andriseinscaldingwavesabouthim,higher,higher,drowninghisheart,touchinghislipswithafeelofmoltenlead,blottingouthissightinscorchingvapour,closingoverhishead,mercilessanddeadly。WhenshespokeofthedeceptionastoDain\'sdeathofwhichhehadbeenthevictimonlythatday,heglancedagainatherwithterribleeyes,andmadeherfalterforasecond,butheturnedawaydirectly,andhisfacesuddenlylostallexpressioninastonystarefarawayovertheriver。Ah!theriver!Hisoldfriendandhisoldenemy,speakingalwayswiththesamevoiceasherunsfromyeartoyearbringingfortuneordisappointmenthappinessorpain,uponthesamevaryingbutunchangedsurfaceofglancingcurrentsandswirlingeddies。Formanyyearshehadlistenedtothepassionlessandsoothingmurmurthatsometimeswasthesongofhope,attimesthesongoftriumph,ofencouragement;moreoftenthewhisperofconsolationthatspokeofbetterdaystocome。Forsomanyyears!Somanyyears!Andnowtotheaccompanimentofthatmurmurhelistenedtotheslowandpainfulbeatingofhisheart。Helistenedattentively,wonderingattheregularityofitsbeats。Hebegantocountmechanically。One,two。Whycount?Atthenextbeatitmuststop。Noheartcouldsuffersoandbeatsosteadilyforlong。Thoseregularstrokesasofamuffledhammerthatranginhisearsmuststopsoon。Stillbeatingunceasingandcruel。 Nomancanbearthis;andisthisthelast,orwillthenextonebethelast?——Howmuchlonger?OGod!howmuchlonger?Hishandweighedheavierunconsciouslyonthegirl\'sshoulder,andshespokethelastwordsofherstorycrouchingathisfeetwithtearsofpainandshameandanger。Washerrevengetofailher? Thiswhitemanwaslikeasenselessstone。Toolate!Toolate! \"Andyousawhergo?\"Almayer\'svoicesoundedharshlyaboveherhead。