第8章

类别:其他 作者:Joseph Conrad字数:14474更新时间:19/01/04 14:21:26
\"What?\"saidAlmayer。 \"Sheiscrying,\"murmuredDain,softly。 \"Sheiscrying!Why?\"askedAlmayer,indifferently。 \"Icametoaskyou。MyRaneesmileswhenlookingatthemansheloves。Itisthewhitewomanthatiscryingnow。Youwouldknow。\" Almayershruggedhisshouldersandturnedawayagaintowardsthesea。 \"Go,TuanPutih,\"urgedDain。\"Gotoher;hertearsaremoreterribletomethantheangerofgods。\" \"Arethey?Youwillseethemmorethanonce。Shetoldmeshecouldnotlivewithoutyou,\"answeredAlmayer,speakingwithoutthefaintestsparkofexpressioninhisface,\"soitbehovesyoutogotoherquick,forfearyoumayfindherdead。\" HeburstintoaloudandunpleasantlaughwhichmadeDainstareathimwithsomeapprehension,butgotoffthegunwaleoftheboatandmovedslowlytowardsNina,glancingupatthesunashewalked。 \"Andyougowhenthesunisoverhead?\"hesaid。 \"Yes,Tuan。Thenwego,\"answeredDain。 \"Ihavenotlongtowait,\"mutteredAlmayer。\"Itismostimportantformetoseeyougo。Bothofyou。Mostimportant,\" herepeated,stoppingshortandlookingatDainfixedly。 HewentonagaintowardsNina,andDainremainedbehind。Almayerapproachedhisdaughterandstoodforatimelookingdownonher。 Shedidnotopenhereyes,buthearingfootstepsnearher,murmuredinalowsob,\"Dain。\" Almayerhesitatedforaminuteandthensankonthesandbyherside。She,nothearingaresponsiveword,notfeelingatouch,openedhereyes——sawherfather,andsatupsuddenlywithamovementofterror。 \"Oh,father!\"shemurmuredfaintly,andinthatwordtherewasexpressedregretandfearanddawninghope。 \"Ishallneverforgiveyou,Nina,\"saidAlmayer,inadispassionatevoice。\"YouhavetornmyheartfrommewhileI dreamtofyourhappiness。Youhavedeceivedme。Youreyesthatformewereliketruthitselfliedtomeineveryglance——forhowlong?Youknowthatbest。Whenyouwerecaressingmycheekyouwerecountingtheminutestothesunsetthatwasthesignalforyourmeetingwiththatman——there!\" Heceased,andtheybothsatsilentsidebyside,notlookingateachother,butgazingatthevastexpanseofthesea。Almayer\'swordshaddriedNina\'stears,andherlookgrewhardasshestaredbeforeherintothelimitlesssheetofbluethatshonelimpid,unwaving,andsteadylikeheavenitself。Helookedatitalso,buthisfeatureshadlostallexpression,andlifeinhiseyesseemedtohavegoneout。Thefacewasablank,withoutasignofemotion,feeling,reason,orevenknowledgeofitself。 Allpassion,regret,grief,hope,oranger——allweregone,erasedbythehandoffate,asifafterthislaststrokeeverythingwasoverandtherewasnoneedforanyrecord。 ThosefewwhosawAlmayerduringtheshortperiodofhisremainingdayswerealwaysimpressedbythesightofthatfacethatseemedtoknownothingofwhatwentonwithin:liketheblankwallofaprisonenclosingsin,regrets,andpain,andwastedlife,inthecoldindifferenceofmortarandstones。 \"Whatistheretoforgive?\"askedNina,notaddressingAlmayerdirectly,butmoreasifarguingwithherself。\"CanInotlivemyownlifeasyouhavelivedyours?Thepathyouwouldhavewishedmetofollowhasbeenclosedtomebynofaultofmine。\" \"Younevertoldme,\"mutteredAlmayer。 \"Youneveraskedme,\"sheanswered,\"andIthoughtyouwereliketheothersanddidnotcare。Iborethememoryofmyhumiliationalone,andwhyshouldItellyouthatitcametomebecauseIamyourdaughter?Iknewyoucouldnotavengeme。\" \"AndyetIwasthinkingofthatonly,\"interruptedAlmayer,\"andIwantedtogiveyouyearsofhappinessfortheshortdayofyoursuffering。Ionlyknewofoneway。\" \"Ah!butitwasnotmyway!\"shereplied。\"Couldyougivemehappinesswithoutlife?Life!\"sherepeatedwithsuddenenergythatsentthewordringingoverthesea。\"Lifethatmeanspowerandlove,\"sheaddedinalowvoice。 \"That!\"saidAlmayer,pointinghisfingeratDainstandingclosebyandlookingatthemincuriouswonder。 \"Yes,that!\"shereplied,lookingherfatherfullinthefaceandnoticingforthefirsttimewithaslightgaspoffeartheunnaturalrigidityofhisfeatures。 \"Iwouldhaveratherstrangledyouwithmyownhands,\"saidAlmayer,inanexpressionlessvoicewhichwassuchacontrasttothedesperatebitternessofhisfeelingsthatitsurprisedevenhimself。Heaskedhimselfwhospoke,and,afterlookingslowlyroundasifexpectingtoseesomebody,turnedagainhiseyestowardsthesea。 \"Yousaythatbecauseyoudonotunderstandthemeaningofmywords,\"shesaidsadly。\"Betweenyouandmymotherthereneverwasanylove。WhenIreturnedtoSambirIfoundtheplacewhichIthoughtwouldbeapeacefulrefugeformyheart,filledwithwearinessandhatred——andmutualcontempt。Ihavelistenedtoyourvoiceandtohervoice。ThenIsawthatyoucouldnotunderstandme;forwasInotpartofthatwoman?Ofherwhowastheregretandshameofyourlife?Ihadtochoose——Ihesitated。 Whywereyousoblind?Didyounotseemestrugglingbeforeyoureyes?But,whenhecame,alldoubtdisappeared,andIsawonlythelightoftheblueandcloudlessheaven——\" \"Iwilltellyoutherest,\"interruptedAlmayer:\"whenthatmancameIalsosawtheblueandthesunshineofthesky。A thunderbolthasfallenfromthatsky,andsuddenlyallisstillanddarkaroundmeforever。Iwillneverforgiveyou,Nina;andto-morrowIshallforgetyou!Ishallneverforgiveyou,\"herepeatedwithmechanicalobstinacywhileshesat,herheadboweddownasifafraidtolookatherfather。 Tohimitseemedoftheutmostimportancethatheshouldassureherofhisintentionofneverforgiving。Hewasconvincedthathisfaithinherhadbeenthefoundationofhishopes,themotiveofhiscourage,ofhisdeterminationtoliveandstruggle,andtobevictoriousforhersake。Andnowhisfaithwasgone,destroyedbyherownhands;destroyedcruelly,treacherously,inthedark;intheverymomentofsuccess。Intheutterwreckofhisaffectionsandofallhisfeelings,inthechaoticdisorderofhisthoughts,abovetheconfusedsensationofphysicalpainthatwrappedhimupinastingasofawhiplashcurlingroundhimfromhisshouldersdowntohisfeet,onlyoneidearemainedclearanddefinite——nottoforgiveher;onlyonevividdesire——toforgether。Andthismustbemadecleartoher——andtohimself——byfrequentrepetition。Thatwashisideaofhisdutytohimself——tohisrace——tohisrespectableconnections;tothewholeuniverseunsettledandshakenbythisfrightfulcatastropheofhislife。Hesawitclearlyandbelievedhewasastrongman。 Hehadalwayspridedhimselfuponhisunflinchingfirmness。Andyethewasafraid。Shehadbeenallinalltohim。Whatifheshouldletthememoryofhisloveforherweakenthesenseofhisdignity?Shewasaremarkablewoman;hecouldseethat;allthelatentgreatnessofhisnature——inwhichhehonestlybelieved——hadbeentransfusedintothatslight,girlishfigure。 Greatthingscouldbedone!Whatifheshouldsuddenlytakehertohisheart,forgethisshame,andpain,andanger,and——followher!Whatifhechangedhisheartifnothisskinandmadeherlifeeasierbetweenthetwolovesthatwouldguardherfromanymischance!Hisheartyearnedforher。Whatifheshouldsaythathisloveforherwasgreaterthan…… \"Iwillneverforgiveyou,Nina!\"heshouted,leapingupmadlyinthesuddenfearofhisdream。 Thiswasthelasttimeinhislifethathewasheardtoraisehisvoice。Henceforthhespokealwaysinamonotonouswhisperlikeaninstrumentofwhichallthestringsbutonearebrokeninalastringingclamourunderaheavyblow。 Sherosetoherfeetandlookedathim。Theveryviolenceofhiscrysoothedherinanintuitiveconvictionofhislove,andshehuggedtoherbreastthelamentableremnantsofthataffectionwiththeunscrupulousgreedinessofwomenwhoclingdesperatelytotheveryscrapsandragsoflove,anykindoflove,asathingthatofrightbelongstothemandistheverybreathoftheirlife。SheputbothherhandsonAlmayer\'sshoulders,andlookingathimhalftenderly,halfplayfully,shesaid—— \"Youspeaksobecauseyouloveme。\" Almayershookhishead。 \"Yes,youdo,\"sheinsistedsoftly;thenafterashortpausesheadded,\"andyouwillneverforgetme。\" Almayershiveredslightly。Shecouldnothavesaidamorecruelthing。 \"Hereistheboatcomingnow,\"saidDain,hisarmoutstretchedtowardsablackspeckonthewaterbetweenthecoastandtheislet。 Theyalllookedatitandremainedstandinginsilencetillthelittlecanoecamegentlyonthebeachandamanlandedandwalkedtowardsthem。Hestoppedsomedistanceoffandhesitated。 \"Whatnews?\"askedDain。 \"Wehavehadorderssecretlyandinthenighttotakeofffromthisisletamanandawoman。Iseethewoman。Whichofyouistheman?\" \"Come,delightofmyeyes,\"saidDaintoNina。\"Nowwego,andyourvoiceshallbeformyearsonly。YouhavespokenyourlastwordstotheTuanPutih,yourfather。Come。\" Shehesitatedforawhile,lookingatAlmayer,whokepthiseyessteadilyonthesea,thenshetouchedhisforeheadinalingeringkiss,andatear——oneofhertears——fellonhischeekandrandownhisimmovableface。 \"Goodbye,\"shewhispered,andremainedirresolutetillhepushedhersuddenlyintoDain\'sarms。 \"Ifyouhaveanypityforme,\"murmuredAlmayer,asifrepeatingsomesentencelearnedbyheart,\"takethatwomanaway。\" Hestoodverystraight,hisshouldersthrownback,hisheadheldhigh,andlookedatthemastheywentdownthebeachtothecanoe,walkingenlacedineachother\'sarms。Helookedatthelineoftheirfootstepsmarkedinthesand。Hefollowedtheirfiguresmovinginthecrudeblazeoftheverticalsun,inthatlightviolentandvibrating,likeatriumphalflourishofbrazentrumpets。Helookedattheman\'sbrownshoulders,attheredsarongroundhiswaist;atthetall,slender,dazzlingwhitefigurehesupported。Helookedatthewhitedress,atthefallingmassesofthelongblackhair。Helookedatthemembarking,andatthecanoegrowingsmallerinthedistance,withrage,despair,andregretinhisheart,andonhisfaceapeaceasthatofacarvedimageofoblivion。Inwardlyhefelthimselftorntopieces,butAli——whonowaroused——stoodclosetohismaster,sawonhisfeaturestheblankexpressionofthosewholiveinthathopelesscalmwhichsightlesseyesonlycangive。 Thecanoedisappeared,andAlmayerstoodmotionlesswithhiseyesfixedonitswake。Alifromundertheshadeofhishandexaminedthecoastcuriously。Asthesundeclined,thesea-breezesprangupfromthenorthwardandshiveredwithitsbreaththeglassysurfaceofthewater。 \"Dapat!\"exclaimedAli,joyously。\"Gothim,master!Gotprau! Notthere!LookmoreTanahMirrahside。Aha!Thatway! Master,see?Nowplain。See?\" AlmayerfollowedAli\'sforefingerwithhiseyesforalongtimeinvain。AtlasthesightedatriangularpatchofyellowlightontheredbackgroundofthecliffsofTanjongMirrah。Itwasthesailoftheprauthathadcaughtthesunlightandstoodout,distinctwithitsgaytint,onthedarkredofthecape。Theyellowtrianglecreptslowlyfromclifftocliff,tillitclearedthelastpointoflandandshonebrilliantlyforafleetingminuteontheblueoftheopensea。Thentheprauboreuptothesouthward:thelightwentoutofthesail,andallatoncethevesselitselfdisappeared,vanishingintheshadowofthesteepheadlandthatlookedon,patientandlonely,watchingovertheemptysea。 Almayernevermoved。Roundthelittleislettheairwasfullofthetalkoftheripplingwater。Thecrestedwaveletsranupthebeachaudaciously,joyously,withthelightnessofyounglife,anddiedquickly,unresistingly,andgraciously,inthewidecurvesoftransparentfoamontheyellowsand。Above,thewhitecloudssailedrapidlysouthwardsasifintentuponovertakingsomething。Aliseemedanxious。 \"Master,\"hesaidtimidly,\"timetogethousenow。Longwayofftopull。Allready,sir。\" \"Wait,\"whisperedAlmayer。 Nowshewasgonehisbusinesswastoforget,andhehadastrangenotionthatitshouldbedonesystematicallyandinorder。ToAli\'sgreatdismayhefellonhishandsandknees,and,creepingalongthesand,erasedcarefullywithhishandalltracesofNina\'sfootsteps。Hepiledupsmallheapsofsand,leavingbehindhimalineofminiaturegravesrightdowntothewater。 AfterburyingthelastslightimprintofNina\'sslipperhestoodup,and,turninghisfacetowardstheheadlandwherehehadlastseentheprau,hemadeanefforttoshoutoutloudagainhisfirmresolvetoneverforgive。Aliwatchinghimuneasilysawonlyhislipsmove,butheardnosound。Hebroughthisfootdownwithastamp。Hewasafirmman——firmasarock。Lethergo。 Heneverhadadaughter。Hewouldforget。Hewasforgettingalready。 Aliapproachedhimagain,insistingonimmediatedeparture,andthistimeheconsented,andtheywenttogethertowardstheircanoe,Almayerleading。Forallhisfirmnesshelookedverydejectedandfeebleashedraggedhisfeetslowlythroughthesandonthebeach;andbyhisside——invisibletoAli——stalkedthatparticularfiendwhosemissionitistojogthememoriesofmen,lesttheyshouldforgetthemeaningoflife。HewhisperedintoAlmayer\'searachildishprattleofmanyyearsago。 Almayer,hisheadbentononeside,seemedtolistentohisinvisiblecompanion,buthisfacewaslikethefaceofamanthathasdiedstruckfrombehind——afacefromwhichallfeelingsandallexpressionaresuddenlywipedoffbythehandofunexpecteddeath。 Theysleptontheriverthatnight,mooringtheircanoeunderthebushesandlyingdowninthebottomsidebyside,intheabsoluteexhaustionthatkillshunger,thirst,allfeelingandallthoughtintheoverpoweringdesireforthatdeepsleepwhichislikethetemporaryannihilationofthetiredbody。Nextdaytheystartedagainandfoughtdoggedlywiththecurrentallthemorning,tillaboutmiddaytheyreachedthesettlementandmadefasttheirlittlecrafttothejettyofLingardandCo。Almayerwalkedstraighttothehouse,andAlifollowed,paddlesonshoulder,thinkingthathewouldliketoeatsomething。Astheycrossedthefrontcourtyardtheynoticedtheabandonedlookoftheplace。 Alilookedinatthedifferentservants\'houses:allwereempty。 Inthebackcourtyardtherewasthesameabsenceofsoundandlife。Inthecooking-shedthefirewasoutandtheblackemberswerecold。Atall,leanmancamestealthilyoutofthebananaplantation,andwentawayrapidlyacrosstheopenspacelookingatthemwithbig,frightenedeyesoverhisshoulder。Somevagabondwithoutamaster;thereweremanysuchinthesettlement,andtheylookeduponAlmayerastheirpatron。Theyprowledabouthispremisesandpickedtheirlivingthere,surethatnothingworsecouldbefallthemthanashowerofcurseswhentheygotinthewayofthewhiteman,whomtheytrustedandliked,andcalledafoolamongstthemselves。Inthehouse,whichAlmayerenteredthroughthebackverandah,theonlylivingthingthatmethiseyeswashissmallmonkeywhich,hungryandunnoticedforthelasttwodays,begantocryandcomplaininmonkeylanguageassoonasitcaughtsightofthefamiliarface。 AlmayersootheditwithafewwordsandorderedAlitobringinsomebananas,thenwhileAliwasgonetogetthemhestoodinthedoorwayofthefrontverandahlookingatthechaosofoverturnedfurniture。Finallyhepickedupthetableandsatonitwhilethemonkeyletitselfdownfromtheroof-stickbyitschainandperchedonhisshoulder。Whenthebananascametheyhadtheirbreakfasttogether;bothhungry,botheatinggreedilyandshoweringtheskinsroundthemrecklessly,inthetrustingsilenceofperfectfriendship。Aliwentaway,grumbling,tocooksomericehimself,forallthewomenaboutthehousehaddisappeared;hedidnotknowwhere。Almayerdidnotseemtocare,and,afterhefinishedeating,hesatonthetableswinginghislegsandstaringattheriverasiflostinthought。 Aftersometimehegotupandwenttothedoorofaroomontherightoftheverandah。Thatwastheoffice。TheofficeofLingardandCo。Heveryseldomwentinthere。Therewasnobusinessnow,andhedidnotwantanoffice。Thedoorwaslocked,andhestoodbitinghislowerlip,tryingtothinkoftheplacewherethekeycouldbe。Suddenlyheremembered:inthewomen\'sroomhunguponanail。Hewentovertothedoorwaywheretheredcurtainhungdowninmotionlessfolds,andhesitatedforamomentbeforepushingitasidewithhisshoulderasifbreakingdownsomesolidobstacle。Agreatsquareofsunshineenteringthroughthewindowlayonthefloor。OnthelefthesawMrs。 Almayer\'sbigwoodenchest,thelidthrownback,empty;nearitthebrassnailsofNina\'sEuropeantrunkshoneinthelargeinitialsN。A。onthecover。AfewofNina\'sdresseshungonwoodenpegs,stiffenedinalookofoffendeddignityattheirabandonment。Herememberedmakingthepegshimselfandnoticedthattheywereverygoodpegs。Wherewasthekey?Helookedroundandsawitnearthedoorwherehestood。Itwasredwithrust。Hefeltverymuchannoyedatthat,anddirectlyafterwardswonderedathisownfeeling。Whatdiditmatter?Theresoonwouldbenokey——nodoor——nothing!Hepaused,keyinhand,andaskedhimselfwhetherheknewwellwhathewasabout。Hewentoutagainontheverandahandstoodbythetablethinking。Themonkeyjumpeddown,and,snatchingabananaskin,absorbeditselfinpickingittoshredsindustriously。 \"Forget!\"mutteredAlmayer,andthatwordstartedbeforehimasequenceofevents,adetailedprogrammeofthingstodo。Heknewperfectlywellwhatwastobedonenow。Firstthis,thenthat,andthenforgetfulnesswouldcomeeasy。Veryeasy。 Hehadafixedideathatifheshouldnotforgetbeforehediedhewouldhavetoremembertoalleternity。Certainthingshadtobetakenoutofhislife,stampedoutofsight,destroyed,forgotten。Foralongtimehestoodindeepthought,lostinthealarmingpossibilitiesofunconquerablememory,withthefearofdeathandeternitybeforehim。\"Eternity!\"hesaidaloud,andthesoundofthatwordrecalledhimoutofhisreverie。Themonkeystarted,droppedtheskin,andgrinnedupathimamicably。 Hewenttowardstheofficedoorandwithsomedifficultymanagedtoopenit。Heenteredinacloudofdustthatroseunderhisfeet。 Booksopenwithtornpagesbestrewedthefloor;otherbookslayaboutgrimyandblack,lookingasiftheyhadneverbeenopened。 Accountbooks。Inthosebookshehadintendedtokeepdaybydayarecordofhisrisingfortunes。Longtimeago。Averylongtime。Formanyyearstherehasbeennorecordtokeepontheblueandredruledpages!Inthemiddleoftheroomthebigofficedesk,withoneofitslegsbroken,careenedoverlikethehullofastrandedship;mostofthedrawershadfallenout,disclosingheapsofpaperyellowwithageanddirt。Therevolvingofficechairstoodinitsplace,buthefoundthepivotsetfastwhenhetriedtoturnit。Nomatter。Hedesisted,andhiseyeswanderedslowlyfromobjecttoobject。Allthosethingshadcostalotofmoneyatthetime。Thedesk,thepaper,thetornbooks,andthebrokenshelves,allunderathickcoatofdust。Theverydustandbonesofadeadandgonebusiness。 Helookedatallthesethings,allthatwasleftaftersomanyyearsofwork,ofstrife,ofweariness,ofdiscouragement,conqueredsomanytimes。Andallforwhat?Hestoodthinkingmournfullyofhispastlifetillhehearddistinctlytheclearvoiceofachildspeakingamongstallthiswreck,ruin,andwaste。Hestartedwithagreatfearinhisheart,andfeverishlybegantorakeinthepapersscatteredonthefloor,brokethechairintobits,splinteredthedrawersbybangingthemagainstthedesk,andmadeabigheapofallthatrubbishinonecorneroftheroom。 Hecameoutquickly,slammedthedoorafterhim,turnedthekey,and,takingitout,rantothefrontrailoftheverandah,and,withagreatswingofhisarm,sentthekeywhizzingintotheriver。Thisdonehewentbackslowlytothetable,calledthemonkeydown,unhookeditschain,andinducedittoremainquietinthebreastofhisjacket。Thenhesatagainonthetableandlookedfixedlyatthedooroftheroomhehadjustleft。Helistenedalsointently。Heheardadrysoundofrustling;sharpcracksasofdrywoodsnapping;awhirrlikeofabird\'swingswhenitrisessuddenly,andthenhesawathinstreamofsmokecomethroughthekeyhole。Themonkeystruggledunderhiscoat。 Aliappearedwithhiseyesstartingoutofhishead。 \"Master!Houseburn!\"heshouted。 Almayerstoodupholdingbythetable。Hecouldheartheyellsofalarmandsurpriseinthesettlement。Aliwrunghishands,lamentingaloud。 \"Stopthisnoise,fool!\"saidAlmayer,quietly。\"Pickupmyhammockandblanketsandtakethemtotheotherhouse。Quick,now!\" Thesmokeburstthroughthecrevicesofthedoor,andAli,withthehammockinhisarms,clearedinoneboundthestepsoftheverandah。 \"Ithascaughtwell,\"mutteredAlmayertohimself。\"Bequiet,Jack,\"headded,asthemonkeymadeafranticefforttoescapefromitsconfinement。 Thedoorsplitfromtoptobottom,andarushofflameandsmokedroveAlmayerawayfromthetabletothefrontrailoftheverandah。Heheldontheretillagreatroaroverheadassuredhimthattheroofwasablaze。Thenherandownthestepsoftheverandah,coughing,halfchokedwiththesmokethatpursuedhiminbluishwreathscurlingabouthishead。 Ontheothersideoftheditch,separatingAlmayer\'scourtyardfromthesettlement,acrowdoftheinhabitantsofSambirlookedattheburninghouseofthewhiteman。Inthecalmairtheflamesrusheduponhigh,colouredpalebrick-red,withvioletgleamsinthestrongsunshine。Thethincolumnofsmokeascendedstraightandunwaveringtillitlostitselfintheclearblueofthesky,and,inthegreatemptyspacebetweenthetwohousestheinterestedspectatorscouldseethetallfigureoftheTuanPutih,withbowedheadanddraggingfeet,walkingslowlyawayfromthefiretowardstheshelterof\"Almayer\'sFolly。\" InthatmannerdidAlmayermoveintohisnewhouse。Hetookpossessionofthenewruin,andintheundyingfollyofhisheartsethimselftowaitinanxietyandpainforthatforgetfulnesswhichwassoslowtocome。Hehaddoneallhecould。EveryvestigeofNina\'sexistencehadbeendestroyed;andnowwitheverysunriseheaskedhimselfwhetherthelonged-foroblivionwouldcomebeforesunset,whetheritwouldcomebeforehedied? Hewantedtoliveonlylongenoughtobeabletoforget,andthetenacityofhismemoryfilledhimwithdreadandhorrorofdeath; forshoulditcomebeforehecouldaccomplishthepurposeofhislifehewouldhavetorememberforever!Healsolongedforloneliness。Hewantedtobealone。Buthewasnot。 Inthedimlightoftheroomswiththeirclosedshutters,inthebrightsunshineoftheverandah,whereverhewent,whicheverwayheturned,hesawthesmallfigureofalittlemaidenwithprettyoliveface,withlongblackhair,herlittlepinkrobeslippingoffhershoulders,herbigeyeslookingupathiminthetendertrustfulnessofapettedchild。Alididnotseeanything,buthealsowasawareofthepresenceofachildinthehouse。InhislongtalksbytheeveningfiresofthesettlementheusedtotellhisintimatefriendsofAlmayer\'sstrangedoings。Hismasterhadturnedsorcererinhisoldage。AlisaidthatoftenwhenTuanPutihhadretiredforthenighthecouldhearhimtalkingtosomethinginhisroom。Alithoughtthatitwasaspiritintheshapeofachild。Heknewhismasterspoketoachildfromcertainexpressionsandwordshismasterused。HismasterspokeinMalayalittle,butmostlyinEnglish,whichhe,Ali,couldunderstand。Masterspoketothechildattimestenderly,thenhewouldweepoverit,laughatit,scoldit,begofittogoaway; curseit。Itwasabadandstubbornspirit。Alithoughthismasterhadimprudentlycalleditup,andnowcouldnotgetridofit。Hismasterwasverybrave;hewasnotafraidtocursethisspiritintheveryPresence;andoncehefoughtwithit。Alihadheardagreatnoiseasofrunningaboutinsidetheroomandgroans。Hismastergroaned。Spiritsdonotgroan。 Hismasterwasbrave,butfoolish。Youcannothurtaspirit。Aliexpectedtofindhismasterdeadnextmorning,buthecameoutveryearly,lookingmucholderthanthedaybefore,andhadnofoodallday。 SofarAlitothesettlement。ToCaptainFordhewasmuchmorecommunicative,forthegoodreasonthatCaptainFordhadthepurseandgaveorders。OneachofFord\'smonthlyvisitstoSambirAlihadtogoonboardwithareportabouttheinhabitantof\"Almayer\'sFolly。\"OnhisfirstvisittoSambir,afterNina\'sdeparture,FordhadtakenchargeofAlmayer\'saffairs。Theywerenotcumbersome。Theshedforthestorageofgoodswasempty,theboatshaddisappeared,appropriated——generallyinnight-time——byvariouscitizensofSambirinneedofmeansoftransport。DuringagreatfloodthejettyofLingardandCo。leftthebankandfloateddowntheriver,probablyinsearchofmorecheerfulsurroundings;eventheflockofgeese——\"theonlygeeseontheeastcoast\"——departedsomewhere,preferringtheunknowndangersofthebushtothedesolationoftheiroldhome。Astimewentonthegrassgrewovertheblackpatchofgroundwheretheoldhouseusedtostand,andnothingremainedtomarktheplaceofthedwellingthathadshelteredAlmayer\'syounghopes,hisfoolishdreamofsplendidfuture,hisawakening,andhisdespair。 ForddidnotoftenvisitAlmayer,forvisitingAlmayerwasnotapleasanttask。Atfirstheusedtorespondlistlesslytotheoldseaman\'sboisterousinquiriesabouthishealth;heevenmadeeffortstotalk,askingfornewsinavoicethatmadeitperfectlyclearthatnonewsfromthisworldhadanyinterestforhim。Thengraduallyhebecamemoresilent——notsulkily——butasifhewasforgettinghowtospeak。Heusedalsotohideinthedarkestroomsofthehouse,whereFordhadtoseekhimoutguidedbythepatterofthemonkeygallopingbeforehim。ThemonkeywasalwaystheretoreceiveandintroduceFord。Thelittleanimalseemedtohavetakencompletechargeofitsmaster,andwheneveritwishedforhispresenceontheverandahitwouldtugperseveringlyathisjacket,tillAlmayerobedientlycameoutintothesunshine,whichheseemedtodislikesomuch。 OnemorningFordfoundhimsittingontheflooroftheverandah,hisbackagainstthewall,hislegsstretchedstifflyout,hisarmshangingbyhisside。Hisexpressionlessface,hiseyesopenwidewithimmobilepupils,andtherigidityofhispose,madehimlooklikeanimmenseman-dollbrokenandflungthereoutoftheway。AsFordcameupthestepsheturnedhisheadslowly。 \"Ford,\"hemurmuredfromthefloor,\"Icannotforget。\" \"Can\'tyou?\"saidFord,innocently,withanattemptatjoviality: \"IwishIwaslikeyou。Iamlosingmymemory——age,Isuppose; onlytheotherdaymymate——\" Hestopped,forAlmayerhadgotup,stumbled,andsteadiedhimselfonhisfriend\'sarm。 \"Hallo!Youarebetterto-day。Soonbeallright,\"saidFord,cheerfully,butfeelingratherscared。 Almayerletgohisarmandstoodverystraightwithhisheadupandshouldersthrownback,lookingstonilyatthemultitudeofsunsshininginripplesoftheriver。Hisjacketandhisloosetrousersflappedinthebreezeonhisthinlimbs。 \"Lethergo!\"hewhisperedinagratingvoice。\"Lethergo。 To- morrowIshallforget。Iamafirmman,……firmasa…… rock,……firm……\" Fordlookedathisface——andfled。Theskipperwasatolerablyfirmmanhimself——asthosewhohadsailedwithhimcouldtestify—— butAlmayer\'sfirmnesswasaltogethertoomuchforhisfortitude。 NexttimethesteamercalledinSambirAlicameonboardearlywithagrievance。HecomplainedtoFordthatJim-EngtheChinamanhadinvadedAlmayer\'shouse,andactuallyhadlivedthereforthelastmonth。 \"Andtheybothsmoke,\"addedAli。 \"Phew!Opium,youmean?\" Alinodded,andFordremainedthoughtful;thenhemutteredtohimself,\"Poordevil!Thesoonerthebetternow。\"Intheafternoonhewalkeduptothehouse。 \"Whatareyoudoinghere?\"heaskedofJim-Eng,whomhefoundstrollingaboutontheverandah。 Jim-EngexplainedinbadMalay,andspeakinginthatmonotonous,uninterestedvoiceofanopiumsmokerprettyfargone,thathishousewasold,theroofleaked,andthefloorwasrotten。So,beinganoldfriendformany,manyyears,hetookhismoney,hisopium,andtwopipes,andcametoliveinthisbighouse。 \"Thereisplentyofroom。Hesmokes,andIlivehere。Hewillnotsmokelong,\"heconcluded。 \"Whereishenow?\"askedFord。 \"Inside。Hesleeps,\"answeredJim-Eng,wearily。Fordglancedinthroughthedoorway。InthedimlightoftheroomhecouldseeAlmayerlyingonhisbackonthefloor,hisheadonawoodenpillow,thelongwhitebeardscatteredoverhisbreast,theyellowskinoftheface,thehalf-closedeyelidsshowingthewhitesoftheeyeonly…… Heshudderedandturnedaway。Ashewasleavinghenoticedalongstripoffadedredsilk,withsomeChineselettersonit,whichJim-Enghadjustfastenedtooneofthepillars。 \"What\'sthat?\"heasked。 \"That,\"saidJim-Eng,inhiscolourlessvoice,\"thatisthenameofthehouse。Allthesamelikemyhouse。Verygoodname。\" Fordlookedathimforawhileandwentaway。Hedidnotknowwhatthecrazy-lookingmazeoftheChineseinscriptionontheredsilkmeant。HadheaskedJim-Eng,thatpatientChinamanwouldhaveinformedhimwithproperpridethatitsmeaningwas:\"Houseofheavenlydelight。\" IntheeveningofthesamedayBabalatchicalledonCaptainFord。 Thecaptain\'scabinopenedondeck,andBabalatchisatastrideonthehighstep,whileFordsmokedhispipeonthesetteeinside。 Thesteamerwasleavingnextmorning,andtheoldstatesmancameasusualforalastchat。 \"WehadnewsfromBalilastmoon,\"remarkedBabalatchi。\"A grandsonisborntotheoldRajah,andthereisgreatrejoicing。\" Fordsatupinterested。 \"Yes,\"wentonBabalatchi,inanswertoFord\'slook。\"Itoldhim。Thatwasbeforehebegantosmoke。\" \"Well,andwhat?\"askedFord。 \"Iescapedwithmylife,\"saidBabalatchi,withperfectgravity,\"becausethewhitemanisveryweakandfellasherusheduponme。\"Then,afterapause,headded,\"Sheismadwithjoy。\" \"Mrs。Almayer,youmean?\" \"Yes,shelivesinourRajah\'shouse。Shewillnotdiesoon。 Suchwomenlivealongtime,\"saidBabalatchi,withaslighttingeofregretinhisvoice。\"Shehasdollars,andshehasburiedthem,butweknowwhere。Wehadmuchtroublewiththosepeople。Wehadtopayafineandlistentothreatsfromthewhitemen,andnowwehavetobecareful。\"Hesighedandremainedsilentforalongwhile。Thenwithenergy: \"Therewillbefighting。Thereisabreathofwarontheislands。ShallIlivelongenoughtosee?……Ah,Tuan!\"hewenton,morequietly,\"theoldtimeswerebest。EvenIhavesailedwithLanunmen,andboardedinthenightsilentshipswithwhitesails。ThatwasbeforeanEnglishRajahruledinKuching。 Thenwefoughtamongstourselvesandwerehappy。Nowwhenwefightwithyouwecanonlydie!\" Herosetogo。\"Tuan,\"hesaid,\"yourememberthegirlthatmanBulangihad?Herthatcausedallthetrouble?\" \"Yes,\"saidFord。\"Whatofher?\" \"Shegrewthinandcouldnotwork。ThenBulangi,whoisathiefandapig-eater,gavehertomeforfiftydollars。Isentheramongstmywomentogrowfat。Iwantedtohearthesoundofherlaughter,butshemusthavebeenbewitched,and……shediedtwodaysago。Nay,Tuan。Whydoyouspeakbadwords? Iamold——thatistrue——butwhyshouldInotlikethesightofayoungfaceandthesoundofayoungvoiceinmyhouse?\"Hepaused,andthenaddedwithalittlemournfullaugh,\"Iamlikeawhitemantalkingtoomuchofwhatisnotmen\'stalkwhentheyspeaktooneanother。\" Andhewentofflookingverysad。 Thecrowdmassedinasemicirclebeforethestepsof\"Almayer\'sFolly,\"swayedsilentlybackwardsandforwards,andopenedoutbeforethegroupofwhite-robedandturbanedmenadvancingthroughthegrasstowardsthehouse。Abdullawalkedfirst,supportedbyReshidandfollowedbyalltheArabsinSambir。Astheyenteredthelanemadebytherespectfulthrongtherewasasubduedmurmurofvoices,wheretheword\"Mati\"wastheonlyonedistinctlyaudible。Abdullastoppedandlookedroundslowly。 \"Ishedead?\"heasked。 \"Mayyoulive!\"answeredthecrowdinoneshout,andthentheresucceededabreathlesssilence。 Abdullamadeafewpacesforwardandfoundhimselfforthelasttimefacetofacewithhisoldenemy。Whateverhemighthavebeenoncehewasnotdangerousnow,lyingstiffandlifelessinthetenderlightoftheearlyday。Theonlywhitemanontheeastcoastwasdead,andhissoul,deliveredfromthetrammelsofhisearthlyfolly,stoodnowinthepresenceofInfiniteWisdom。 Ontheupturnedfacetherewasthatserenelookwhichfollowsthesuddenrelieffromanguishandpain,andittestifiedsilentlybeforethecloudlessheaventhatthemanlyingthereunderthegazeofindifferenteyeshadbeenpermittedtoforgetbeforehedied。 AbdullalookeddownsadlyatthisInfidelhehadfoughtsolongandhadbestedsomanytimes。SuchwastherewardoftheFaithful! YetintheArab\'soldhearttherewasafeelingofregretforthatthinggoneoutofhislife。Hewasleavingfastbehindhimfriendships,andenmities,successes,anddisappointments——allthatmakesupalife;andbeforehimwasonlytheend。PrayerwouldfilluptheremainderofthedaysallottedtotheTrueBeliever!Hetookinhishandthebeadsthathungathiswaist。 \"Ifoundhimhere,likethis,inthemorning,\"saidAli,inalowandawedvoice。 Abdullaglancedcoldlyoncemoreatthesereneface。 \"Letusgo,\"hesaid,addressingReshid。 Andastheypassedthroughthecrowdthatfellbackbeforethem,thebeadsinAbdulla\'shandclicked,whileinasolemnwhisperhebreathedoutpiouslythenameofAllah!TheMerciful!TheCompassionate!