第3章

类别:其他 作者:JOSEPH CONRAD字数:18523更新时间:19/01/04 16:59:13
\"Thesightofallthismademethinkofhim,\"hewenton,withhisfaceneartheglass……andIcouldseeanotherman,powerfulandbearded,peeringathimintentlyfromamongstthedarkandpolishedtubesthatcancuresomanyillusions。\"Yes;itmademethinkofhim,\" hecontinued,slowly。\"Isawapaperthismorning;theyarefightingoverthereagain。He’ssuretobeinit。Hewillmakeithotforthecaballeros。Well,goodlucktohim,poordevil!Hewasperfectlystunning。\" Wewalkedon。 \"Iwonderwhetherthecharmworked——yourememberHollis’scharm,ofcourse。Ifitdid……Neverwasasixpencewastedtobetteradvantage!Poordevil!Iwonderwhetherhegotridofthatfriendofhis。Hopeso……Doyouknow,Isometimesthinkthat——\" Istoodstillandlookedathim。 \"Yes……Imean,whetherthethingwasso,youknow……whetheritreallyhappenedtohim……Whatdoyouthink?\" \"Mydearchap,\"Icried,\"youhavebeentoolongawayfromhome。Whataquestiontoask!Onlylookatallthis。\" Awaterygleamofsunshineflashedfromthewestandwentoutbetweentwolonglinesofwalls;andthenthebrokenconfusionofroofs,thechimney-stacks,thegoldletterssprawlingoverthefrontsofhouses,thesombrepolishofwindows,stoodresignedandsullenunderthefallinggloom。Thewholelengthofthestreet,deepasawellandnarrowlikeacorridor,wasfullofasombreandceaselessstir。Ourearswerefilledbyaheadlongshuffleandbeatofrapidfootstepsandbyanunderlyingrumour——arumourvast,faint,pulsating,asofpantingbreaths,ofbeatinghearts,ofgaspingvoices。Innumerableeyesstaredstraightinfront,feetmovedhurriedly,blankfacesflowed,armsswung。Overall,anarrowraggedstripofsmokyskywoundaboutbetweenthehighroofs,extendedandmotionless,likeasoiledstreamerflyingabovetheroutofamob。 \"Ye-e-e-s,\"saidJackson,meditatively。 Thebigwheelsofhansomsturnedslowlyalongtheedgeofside-walks; apale-facedyouthstrolled,overcomebyweariness,bythesideofhisstickandwiththetailsofhisovercoatflappinggentlynearhisheels;horsessteppedgingerlyonthegreasypavement,tossingtheirheads;twoyounggirlspassedby,talkingvivaciouslyandwithshiningeyes;afineoldfellowstrutted,red-faced,strokingawhitemoustache;andalineofyellowboardswithbluelettersonthemapproachedusslowly,tossingonhighbehindoneanotherlikesomequeerwreckageadriftuponariverofhats。 \"Ye-e-es,\"repeatedJackson。Hisclearblueeyeslookedabout,contemptuous,amusedandhard,liketheeyesofaboy。Aclumsystringofred,yellow,andgreenomnibusesrolledswaying,monstrousandgaudy;twoshabbychildrenranacrosstheroad;aknotofdirtymenwithredneckerchiefsroundtheirbarethroatslurchedalong,discussingfilthily;araggedoldmanwithafaceofdespairyelledhorriblyinthemudthenameofapaper;whilefaroff,amongstthetossingheadsofhorses,thedullflashofharnesses,thejumbleoflustrouspanelsandroofsofcarriages,wecouldseeapoliceman,helmetedanddark,stretchingoutarigidarmatthecrossingofthestreets。 \"Yes;Iseeit,\"saidJackson,slowly。\"Itisthere;itpants,itruns,itrolls;itisstrongandalive;itwouldsmashyouifyoudidn’tlookout;butI’llbehangedifitisyetasrealtomeas……astheotherthing……say,Karain’sstory。\" Ithinkthat,decidedly,hehadbeentoolongawayfromhome。 THEIDIOTS WeweredrivingalongtheroadfromTreguiertoKervanda。Wepassedatasmarttrotbetweenthehedgestoppinganearthwalloneachsideoftheroad;thenatthefootofthesteepascentbeforePloumarthehorsedroppedintoawalk,andthedriverjumpeddownheavilyfromthebox。Heflickedhiswhipandclimbedtheincline,steppingclumsilyuphillbythesideofthecarriage,onehandonthefootboard,hiseyesontheground。Afterawhileheliftedhishead,pointeduptheroadwiththeendofthewhip,andsaid—— \"Theidiot!\" Thesunwasshiningviolentlyupontheundulatingsurfaceoftheland。 Therisesweretoppedbyclumpsofmeagretrees,withtheirbranchesshowinghighontheskyasiftheyhadbeenpercheduponstilts。Thesmallfields,cutupbyhedgesandstonewallsthatzig-zaggedovertheslopes,layinrectangularpatchesofvividgreensandyellows,resemblingtheunskilfuldaubsofanaivepicture。Andthelandscapewasdividedintwobythewhitestreakofaroadstretchinginlongloopsfaraway,likeariverofdustcrawlingoutofthehillsonitswaytothesea。 \"Hereheis,\"saidthedriver,again。 Inthelonggrassborderingtheroadafaceglidedpastthecarriageatthelevelofthewheelsaswedroveslowlyby。Theimbecilefacewasred,andthebulletheadwithclose-croppedhairseemedtoliealone,itschininthedust。Thebodywaslostinthebushesgrowingthickalongthebottomofthedeepditch。 Itwasaboy’sface。Hemighthavebeensixteen,judgingfromthesize——perhapsless,perhapsmore。Suchcreaturesareforgottenbytime,andliveuntouchedbyyearstilldeathgathersthemupintoitscompassionatebosom;thefaithfuldeaththatneverforgetsinthepressofworkthemostinsignificantofitschildren。 \"Ah!there’sanother,\"saidtheman,withacertainsatisfactioninhistone,asifhehadcaughtsightofsomethingexpected。 Therewasanother。Thatonestoodnearlyinthemiddleoftheroadintheblazeofsunshineattheendofhisownshortshadow。Andhestoodwithhandspushedintotheoppositesleevesofhislongcoat,hisheadsunkbetweentheshoulders,allhunchedupinthefloodofheat。Fromadistancehehadtheaspectofonesufferingfromintensecold。 \"Thosearetwins,\"explainedthedriver。 Theidiotshuffledtwopacesoutofthewayandlookedatusoverhisshoulderwhenwebrushedpasthim。Theglancewasunseeingandstaring,afascinatedglance;buthedidnotturntolookafterus。 Probablytheimagepassedbeforetheeyeswithoutleavinganytraceonthemisshapenbrainofthecreature。WhenwehadtoppedtheascentI lookedoverthehood。Hestoodintheroadjustwherewehadlefthim。 Thedriverclamberedintohisseat,clickedhistongue,andwewentdownhill。Thebrakesqueakedhorriblyfromtimetotime。Atthefootheeasedoffthenoisymechanismandsaid,turninghalfroundonhisbox—— \"Weshallseesomemoreofthemby-and-by。\" \"Moreidiots?Howmanyofthemarethere,then?\"Iasked。 \"There’sfourofthem——childrenofafarmernearPloumarhere…… Theparentsaredeadnow,\"headded,afterawhile。\"Thegrandmotherlivesonthefarm。Inthedaytimetheyknockaboutonthisroad,andtheycomehomeatduskalongwiththecattle……It’sagoodfarm。\" Wesawtheothertwo:aboyandagirl,asthedriversaid。Theyweredressedexactlyalike,inshapelessgarmentswithpetticoat-likeskirts。Theimperfectthingthatlivedwithinthemmovedthosebeingstohowlatusfromthetopofthebank,wheretheysprawledamongstthetoughstalksoffurze。Theircroppedblackheadsstuckoutfromthebrightyellowwallofcountlesssmallblossoms。Thefaceswerepurplewiththestrainofyelling;thevoicessoundedblankandcrackedlikeamechanicalimitationofoldpeople’svoices;andsuddenlyceasedwhenweturnedintoalane。 Isawthemmanytimesinmywanderingaboutthecountry。Theylivedonthatroad,driftingalongitslengthhereandthere,accordingtotheinexplicableimpulsesoftheirmonstrousdarkness。Theywereanoffencetothesunshine,areproachtoemptyheaven,ablightontheconcentratedandpurposefulvigourofthewildlandscape。Intimethestoryoftheirparentsshapeditselfbeforemeoutofthelistlessanswerstomyquestions,outoftheindifferentwordsheardinwaysideinnsorontheveryroadthoseidiotshaunted。Someofitwastoldbyanemaciatedandscepticaloldfellowwithatremendouswhip,whilewetrudgedtogetheroverthesandsbythesideofatwo-wheeledcartloadedwithdrippingseaweed。Thenatothertimesotherpeopleconfirmedandcompletedthestory:tillitstoodatlastbeforeme,ataleformidableandsimple,astheyalwaysare,thosedisclosuresofobscuretrialsenduredbyignoranthearts。 WhenhereturnedfromhismilitaryserviceJean-PierreBacadoufoundtheoldpeopleverymuchaged。Heremarkedwithpainthattheworkofthefarmwasnotsatisfactorilydone。Thefatherhadnottheenergyofolddays。Thehandsdidnotfeeloverthemtheeyeofthemaster。 Jean-Pierrenotedwithsorrowthattheheapofmanureinthecourtyardbeforetheonlyentrancetothehousewasnotsolargeasitshouldhavebeen。Thefenceswereoutofrepair,andthecattlesufferedfromneglect。Athomethemotherwaspracticallybedridden,andthegirlschatteredloudlyinthebigkitchen,unrebuked,frommorningtonight。 Hesaidtohimself:\"Wemustchangeallthis。\"Hetalkedthematteroverwithhisfatheroneeveningwhentheraysofthesettingsunenteringtheyardbetweentheouthousesruledtheheavyshadowswithluminousstreaks。Overthemanureheapfloatedamist,opal-tintedandodorous,andthemaraudinghenswouldstopintheirscratchingtoexaminewithasuddenglanceoftheirroundeyethetwomen,bothleanandtall,talkinginhoarsetones。Theoldman,alltwistedwithrheumatismandbowedwithyearsofwork,theyoungerbonyandstraight,spokewithoutgesturesintheindifferentmannerofpeasants,graveandslow。Butbeforethesunhadsetthefatherhadsubmittedtothesensibleargumentsoftheson。\"ItisnotformethatIamspeaking,\"insistedJean-Pierre。\"Itisfortheland。It’sapitytoseeitbadlyused。Iamnotimpatientformyself。\"Theoldfellownoddedoverhisstick。\"Idaresay;Idaresay,\"hemuttered。\"Youmayberight。Dowhatyoulike。It’sthemotherthatwillbepleased。\" Themotherwaspleasedwithherdaughter-in-law。Jean-Pierrebroughtthetwo-wheeledspring-cartwitharushintotheyard。Thegrayhorsegallopedclumsily,andthebrideandbridegroom,sittingsidebyside,werejerkedbackwardsandforwardsbytheupanddownmotionoftheshafts,inamannerregularandbrusque。Ontheroadthedistancedweddingguestsstraggledinpairsandgroups。Themenadvancedwithheavysteps,swingingtheiridlearms。Theywerecladintownclothes; jacketscutwithclumsysmartness,hardblackhats,immenseboots,polishedhighly。Theirwomenallinsimpleblack,withwhitecapsandshawlsoffadedtintsfoldedtriangularlyontheback,strolledlightlybytheirside。Infronttheviolinsangastridenttune,andthebiniousnoredandhummed,whiletheplayercaperedsolemnly,liftinghighhisheavyclogs。Thesombreprocessiondriftedinandoutofthenarrowlanes,throughsunshineandthroughshade,betweenfieldsandhedgerows,scaringthelittlebirdsthatdartedawayintroopsrightandleft。IntheyardofBacadou’sfarmthedarkribbonwounditselfupintoamassofmenandwomenpushingatthedoorwithcriesandgreetings。Theweddingdinnerwasrememberedformonths。Itwasasplendidfeastintheorchard。Farmersofconsiderablemeansandexcellentreputeweretobefoundsleepinginditches,allalongtheroadtoTreguier,evenaslateastheafternoonofthenextday。 AllthecountrysideparticipatedinthehappinessofJean-Pierre。Heremainedsober,and,togetherwithhisquietwife,keptoutoftheway,lettingfatherandmotherreaptheirdueofhonourandthanks。 Butthenextdayhetookholdstrongly,andtheoldfolksfeltashadow——precursorofthegrave——falluponthemfinally。Theworldistotheyoung。 Whenthetwinswereborntherewasplentyofroominthehouse,forthemotherofJean-PierrehadgoneawaytodwellunderaheavystoneinthecemeteryofPloumar。Onthatday,forthefirsttimesincehisson’smarriage,theelderBacadou,neglectedbythecacklinglotofstrangewomenwhothrongedthekitchen,leftinthemorninghisseatunderthemantelofthefireplace,andwentintotheemptycow-house,shakinghiswhitelocksdismally。Grandsonswereallverywell,buthewantedhissoupatmidday。Whenshownthebabies,hestaredatthemwithafixedgaze,andmutteredsomethinglike:\"It’stoomuch。\" Whetherhemeanttoomuchhappiness,orsimplycommenteduponthenumberofhisdescendants,itisimpossibletosay。Helookedoffended——asfarashisoldwoodenfacecouldexpressanything;andfordaysafterwardscouldbeseen,almostanytimeoftheday,sittingatthegate,withhisnoseoverhisknees,apipebetweenhisgums,andgatheredupintoakindofragingconcentratedsulkiness。Oncehespoketohisson,alludingtothenewcomerswithagroan:\"Theywillquarrelovertheland。\"\"Don’tbotheraboutthat,father,\"answeredJean-Pierre,stolidly,andpassed,bentdouble,towingarecalcitrantcowoverhisshoulder。 Hewashappy,andsowasSusan,hiswife。Itwasnotanetherealjoywelcomingnewsoulstostruggle,perchancetovictory。Infourteenyearsbothboyswouldbeahelp;and,lateron,Jean-Pierrepicturedtwobigsonsstridingoverthelandfrompatchtopatch,wringingtributefromtheearthbelovedandfruitful。Susanwashappytoo,forshedidnotwanttobespokenofastheunfortunatewoman,andnowshehadchildrennoonecouldcallherthat。Bothherselfandherhusbandhadseensomethingofthelargerworld——heduringthetimeofhisservice;whileshehadspentayearorsoinPariswithaBretonfamily;buthadbeentoohome-sicktoremainlongerawayfromthehillyandgreencountry,setinabarrencircleofrocksandsands,whereshehadbeenborn。Shethoughtthatoneoftheboysoughtperhapstobeapriest,butsaidnothingtoherhusband,whowasarepublican,andhatedthe\"crows,\"ashecalledtheministersofreligion。Thechristeningwasasplendidaffair。Allthecommunecametoit,fortheBacadouswererichandinfluential,and,nowandthen,didnotmindtheexpense。Thegrandfatherhadanewcoat。 Somemonthsafterwards,oneeveningwhenthekitchenhadbeenswept,andthedoorlocked,Jean-Pierre,lookingatthecot,askedhiswife: \"What’sthematterwiththosechildren?\"And,asifthesewords,spokencalmly,hadbeentheportentofmisfortune,sheansweredwithaloudwailthatmusthavebeenheardacrosstheyardinthepig-sty; forthepigs(theBacadoushadthefinestpigsinthecountry)stirredandgruntedcomplaininglyinthenight。Thehusbandwentongrindinghisbreadandbutterslowly,gazingatthewall,thesoup-platesmokingunderhischin。Hehadreturnedlatefromthemarket,wherehehadoverheard(notforthefirsttime)whispersbehindhisback。Herevolvedthewordsinhismindashedroveback。\"Simple!Bothofthem……Neveranyuse!……Well!Maybe,maybe。Onemustsee。 Wouldaskhiswife。\"Thiswasheranswer。Hefeltlikeablowonhischest,butsaidonly:\"Go,drawmesomecider。Iamthirsty!\" Shewentoutmoaning,anemptyjuginherhand。Thenhearose,tookupthelight,andmovedslowlytowardsthecradle。Theyslept。Helookedatthemsideways,finishedhismouthfulthere,wentbackheavily,andsatdownbeforehisplate。Whenhiswifereturnedheneverlookedup,butswallowedacoupleofspoonfulsnoisily,andremarked,inadullmanner—— \"Whentheysleeptheyarelikeotherpeople’schildren。\" Shesatdownsuddenlyonastoolnearby,andshookwithasilenttempestofsobs,unabletospeak。Hefinishedhismeal,andremainedidlythrownbackinhischair,hiseyeslostamongsttheblackraftersoftheceiling。Beforehimthetallowcandleflaredredandstraight,sendingupaslenderthreadofsmoke。Thelightlayontherough,sunburntskinofhisthroat;thesunkcheekswerelikepatchesofdarkness,andhisaspectwasmournfullystolid,asifhehadruminatedwithdifficultyendlessideas。Thenhesaid,deliberately—— \"Wemustsee……consultpeople。Don’tcry……Theywon’tallbelikethat……surely!Wemustsleepnow。\" Afterthethirdchild,alsoaboy,wasborn,Jean-Pierrewentabouthisworkwithtensehopefulness。Hislipsseemedmorenarrow,moretightlycompressedthanbefore;asifforfearoflettingtheearthhetilledhearthevoiceofhopethatmurmuredwithinhisbreast。Hewatchedthechild,steppinguptothecotwithaheavyclangofsabotsonthestonefloor,andglancedin,alonghisshoulder,withthatindifferencewhichislikeadeformityofpeasanthumanity。Liketheearththeymasterandserve,thosemen,slowofeyeandspeech,donotshowtheinnerfire;sothat,atlast,itbecomesaquestionwiththemaswiththeearth,whatthereisinthecore:heat,violence,aforcemysteriousandterrible——ornothingbutaclod,amassfertileandinert,coldandunfeeling,readytobearacropofplantsthatsustainlifeorgivedeath。 Themotherwatchedwithothereyes;listenedwithotherwiseexpectantears。Underthehighhangingshelvessupportinggreatsidesofbaconoverhead,herbodywasbusybythegreatfireplace,attentivetothepotswingingonirongallows,scrubbingthelongtablewherethefieldhandswouldsitdowndirectlytotheireveningmeal。Hermindremainedbythecradle,nightanddayonthewatch,tohopeandsuffer。Thatchild,liketheothertwo,neversmiled,neverstretcheditshandstoher,neverspoke;neverhadaglanceofrecognitionforherinitsbigblackeyes,whichcouldonlystarefixedlyatanyglitter,butfailedhopelesslytofollowthebrillianceofasun-rayslippingslowlyalongthefloor。Whenthemenwereatworkshespentlongdaysbetweenherthreeidiotchildrenandthechildishgrandfather,whosatgrim,angular,andimmovable,withhisfeetnearthewarmashesofthefire。Thefeebleoldfellowseemedtosuspectthattherewassomethingwrongwithhisgrandsons。Onlyonce,movedeitherbyaffectionorbythesenseofproprieties,heattemptedtonursetheyoungest。Hetooktheboyupfromthefloor,clickedhistongueathim,andessayedashakygallopofhisbonyknees。Thenhelookedcloselywithhismistyeyesatthechild’sfaceanddepositedhimdowngentlyontheflooragain。Andhesat,hisleanshankscrossed,noddingatthesteamescapingfromthecooking-potwithagazesenileandworried。 ThenmuteafflictiondweltinBacadou’sfarmhouse,sharingthebreathandthebreadofitsinhabitants;andthepriestofthePloumarparishhadgreatcauseforcongratulation。Hecalledupontherichlandowner,theMarquisdeChavanes,onpurposetodeliverhimselfwithjoyfulunctionofsolemnplatitudesabouttheinscrutablewaysofProvidence。Inthevastdimnessofthecurtaineddrawing-room,thelittleman,resemblingablackbolster,leanedtowardsacouch,hishatonhisknees,andgesticulatedwithafathandattheelongated,gracefully-flowinglinesoftheclearParisiantoilettefromwhichthehalf-amused,half-boredmarquiselistenedwithgraciouslanguor。Hewasexultingandhumble,proudandawed。Theimpossiblehadcometopass。Jean-PierreBacadou,theenragedrepublicanfarmer,hadbeentomasslastSunday——hadproposedtoentertainthevisitingpriestsatthenextfestivalofPloumar!ItwasatriumphfortheChurchandforthegoodcause。\"IthoughtIwouldcomeatoncetotellMonsieurleMarquis。Iknowhowanxiousheisforthewelfareofourcountry,\" declaredthepriest,wipinghisface。Hewasaskedtostaytodinner。 TheChavanesreturningthatevening,afterseeingtheirguesttothemaingateofthepark,discussedthematterwhiletheystrolledinthemoonlight,trailingtheirlongshadowsupthestraightavenueofchestnuts。Themarquise,aroyalistofcourse,hadbeenmayorofthecommunewhichincludesPloumar,thescatteredhamletsofthecoast,andthestonyislandsthatfringetheyellowflatnessofthesands。Hehadfelthispositioninsecure,fortherewasastrongrepublicanelementinthatpartofthecountry;butnowtheconversionofJean-Pierremadehimsafe。Hewasverypleased。\"Youhavenoideahowinfluentialthosepeopleare,\"heexplainedtohiswife。\"Now,Iamsure,thenextcommunalelectionwillgoallright。Ishallbere- elected。\"\"Yourambitionisperfectlyinsatiable,Charles,\"exclaimedthemarquise,gaily。\"But,machereamie,\"arguedthehusband,seriously,\"it’smostimportantthattherightmanshouldbemayorthisyear,becauseoftheelectionstotheChamber。Ifyouthinkitamusesme……\" Jean-Pierrehadsurrenderedtohiswife’smother。MadameLevaillewasawomanofbusiness,knownandrespectedwithinaradiusofatleastfifteenmiles。Thick-setandstout,shewasseenaboutthecountry,onfootorinanacquaintance’scart,perpetuallymoving,inspiteofherfifty-eightyears,insteadypursuitofbusiness。Shehadhousesinallthehamlets,sheworkedquarriesofgranite,shefreightedcoasterswithstone——eventradedwiththeChannelIslands。Shewasbroad-cheeked,wide-eyed,persuasiveinspeech:carryingherpointwiththeplacidandinvincibleobstinacyofanoldwomanwhoknowsherownmind。Sheveryseldomsleptfortwonightstogetherinthesamehouse;andthewaysideinnswerethebestplacestoinquireinastoherwhereabouts。Shehadeitherpassed,orwasexpectedtopassthereatsix;orsomebody,comingin,hadseenherinthemorning,orexpectedtomeetherthatevening。Aftertheinnsthatcommandtheroads,thechurcheswerethebuildingsshefrequentedmost。MenofliberalopinionswouldinducesmallchildrentorunintosacrededificestoseewhetherMadameLevaillewasthere,andtotellherthatso-and-sowasintheroadwaitingtospeaktoheraboutpotatoes,orflour,orstones,orhouses;andshewouldcurtailherdevotions,comeoutblinkingandcrossingherselfintothesunshine;readytodiscussbusinessmattersinacalm,sensiblewayacrossatableinthekitchenoftheinnopposite。Latterlyshehadstayedforafewdaysseveraltimeswithherson-in-law,arguingagainstsorrowandmisfortunewithcomposedfaceandgentletones。Jean-Pierrefelttheconvictionsimbibedintheregimenttornoutofhisbreast——notbyargumentsbutbyfacts。Stridingoverhisfieldshethoughtitover。 Therewerethreeofthem。Three!Allalike!Why?Suchthingsdidnothappentoeverybody——tonobodyheeverheardof。One——mightpass。Butthree!Allthree。Foreveruseless,tobefedwhilehelivedand…… Whatwouldbecomeofthelandwhenhedied?Thismustbeseento。Hewouldsacrificehisconvictions。Onedayhetoldhiswife—— \"SeewhatyourGodwilldoforus。Payforsomemasses。\" Susanembracedherman。Hestoodunbending,thenturnedonhisheelsandwentout。Butafterwards,whenablacksoutanedarkenedhisdoorway,hedidnotobject;evenofferedsomeciderhimselftothepriest。Helistenedtothetalkmeekly;wenttomassbetweenthetwowomen;accomplishedwhatthepriestcalled\"hisreligiousduties\"atEaster。Thatmorninghefeltlikeamanwhohadsoldhissoul。Intheafternoonhefoughtferociouslywithanoldfriendandneighbourwhohadremarkedthatthepriestshadthebestofitandwerenowgoingtoeatthepriest-eater。Hecamehomedishevelledandbleeding,andhappeningtocatchsightofhischildren(theywerekeptgenerallyoutoftheway),cursedandsworeincoherently,bangingthetable。Susanwept。MadameLevaillesatserenelyunmoved。Sheassuredherdaughterthat\"Itwillpass;\"andtakingupherthickumbrella,departedinhastetoseeafteraschoonershewasgoingtoloadwithgranitefromherquarry。 Ayearorsoafterwardsthegirlwasborn。Agirl。Jean-Pierreheardofitinthefields,andwassoupsetbythenewsthathesatdownontheboundarywallandremainedtheretilltheevening,insteadofgoinghomeashewasurgedtodo。Agirl!Hefelthalfcheated。 However,whenhegothomehewaspartlyreconciledtohisfate。Onecouldmarryhertoagoodfellow——nottoagoodfornothing,buttoafellowwithsomeunderstandingandagoodpairofarms。Besides,thenextmaybeaboy,hethought。Ofcoursetheywouldbeallright。Hisnewcredulityknewofnodoubt。Theillluckwasbroken。Hespokecheerilytohiswife。Shewasalsohopeful。Threepriestscametothatchristening,andMadameLevaillewasgodmother。Thechildturnedoutanidiottoo。 ThenonmarketdaysJean-Pierrewasseenbargainingbitterly,quarrelsomeandgreedy;thengettingdrunkwithtaciturnearnestness; thendrivinghomeintheduskataratefitforawedding,butwithafacegloomyenoughforafuneral。Sometimeshewouldinsistonhiswifecomingwithhim;andtheywoulddriveintheearlymorning,shakingsidebysideonthenarrowseatabovethehelplesspig,that,withtiedlegs,gruntedamelancholysighateveryrut。Themorningdrivesweresilent;butintheevening,cominghome,Jean-Pierre,tipsy,wasviciouslymuttering,andgrowledattheconfoundedwomanwhocouldnotrearchildrenthatwerelikeanybodyelse’s。Susan,holdingonagainsttheerraticswayingsofthecart,pretendednottohear。Once,astheyweredrivingthroughPloumar,someobscureanddrunkenimpulsecausedhimtopullupsharplyoppositethechurch。Themoonswamamongstlightwhiteclouds。Thetombstonesgleamedpaleunderthefrettedshadowsofthetreesinthechurchyard。Eventhevillagedogsslept。Onlythenightingales,awake,spunoutthethrilloftheirsongabovethesilenceofgraves。Jean-Pierresaidthicklytohiswife—— \"Whatdoyouthinkisthere?\" Hepointedhiswhipatthetower——inwhichthebigdialoftheclockappearedhighinthemoonlightlikeapallidfacewithouteyes——andgettingoutcarefully,felldownatoncebythewheel。Hepickedhimselfupandclimbedonebyonethefewstepstotheirongateofthechurchyard。Heputhisfacetothebarsandcalledoutindistinctly—— \"Heythere!Comeout!\" \"Jean!Return!Return!\"entreatedhiswifeinlowtones。 Hetooknonotice,andseemedtowaitthere。Thesongofnightingalesbeatonallsidesagainstthehighwallsofthechurch,andflowedbackbetweenstonecrossesandflatgrayslabs,engravedwithwordsofhopeandsorrow。 \"Hey!Comeout!\"shoutedJean-Pierre,loudly。 Thenightingalesceasedtosing。 \"Nobody?\"wentonJean-Pierre。\"Nobodythere。Aswindleofthecrows。 That’swhatthisis。Nobodyanywhere。Idespiseit。Allez!Houp!\" Heshookthegatewithallhisstrength,andtheironbarsrattledwithafrightfulclanging,likeachaindraggedoverstonesteps。A dognearbybarkedhurriedly。Jean-Pierrestaggeredback,andafterthreesuccessivedashesgotintohiscart。Susansatveryquietandstill。Hesaidtoherwithdrunkenseverity—— \"See?Nobody。I’vebeenmadeafool!Malheur!Somebodywillpayforit。ThenextoneIseenearthehouseIwilllaymywhipon……ontheblackspine……Iwill。Idon’twanthiminthere……heonlyhelpsthecarrioncrowstorobpoorfolk。Iamaman……WewillseeifIcan’thavechildrenlikeanybodyelse……nowyoumind……Theywon’tbeall……all……wesee……\" Sheburstoutthroughthefingersthathidherface—— \"Don’tsaythat,Jean;don’tsaythat,myman!\" Hestruckheraswingingblowontheheadwiththebackofhishandandknockedherintothebottomofthecart,whereshecrouched,thrownaboutlamentablybyeveryjolt。Hedrovefuriously,standingup,brandishinghiswhip,shakingthereinsoverthegrayhorsethatgallopedponderously,makingtheheavyharnessleapuponhisbroadquarters。Thecountryrangclamorousinthenightwiththeirritatedbarkingoffarmdogs,thatfollowedtherattleofwheelsallalongtheroad。Acoupleofbelatedwayfarershadonlyjusttimetostepintotheditch。Athisowngatehecaughtthepostandwasshotoutofthecartheadfirst。Thehorsewentonslowlytothedoor。AtSusan’spiercingcriesthefarmhandsrushedout。Shethoughthimdead,buthewasonlysleepingwherehefell,andcursedhismen,whohastenedtohim,fordisturbinghisslumbers。 Autumncame。Thecloudedskydescendedlowupontheblackcontoursofthehills;andthedeadleavesdancedinspiralwhirlsundernakedtrees,tillthewind,sighingprofoundly,laidthemtorestinthehollowsofbarevalleys。Andfrommorningtillnightonecouldseealloverthelandblackdenudedboughs,theboughsgnarledandtwisted,asifcontortedwithpain,swayingsadlybetweenthewetcloudsandthesoakedearth。Theclearandgentlestreamsofsummerdaysrusheddiscolouredandragingatthestonesthatbarredthewaytothesea,withthefuryofmadnessbentuponsuicide。Fromhorizontohorizonthegreatroadtothesandslaybetweenthehillsinadullglitterofemptycurves,resemblinganunnavigableriverofmud。 Jean-Pierrewentfromfieldtofield,movingblurredandtallinthedrizzle,orstridingonthecrestsofrises,lonelyandhighuponthegraycurtainofdriftingclouds,asifhehadbeenpacingalongtheveryedgeoftheuniverse。Helookedattheblackearth,attheearthmuteandpromising,atthemysteriousearthdoingitsworkoflifeindeath-likestillnessundertheveiledsorrowofthesky。Anditseemedtohimthattoamanworsethanchildlesstherewasnopromiseinthefertilityoffields,thatfromhimtheearthescaped,defiedhim,frownedathimliketheclouds,sombreandhurriedabovehishead。Havingtofacealonehisownfields,hefelttheinferiorityofmanwhopassesawaybeforetheclodthatremains。Musthegiveupthehopeofhavingbyhissideasonwhowouldlookattheturned-upsodswithamaster’seye?Amanthatwouldthinkashethought,thatwouldfeelashefelt;amanwhowouldbepartofhimself,andyetremaintotramplemasterfullyonthatearthwhenhewasgone?Hethoughtofsomedistantrelations,andfeltsavageenoughtocursethemaloud。They!Never!Heturnedhomewards,goingstraightattheroofofhisdwelling,visiblebetweentheenlacedskeletonsoftrees。 Asheswunghislegsoverthestileacawingflockofbirdssettledslowlyonthefield;droppeddownbehindhisback,noiselessandfluttering,likeflakesofsoot。 ThatdayMadameLevaillehadgoneearlyintheafternoontothehouseshehadnearKervanion。Shehadtopaysomeofthemenwhoworkedinhergranitequarrythere,andshewentingoodtimebecauseherlittlehousecontainedashopwheretheworkmencouldspendtheirwageswithoutthetroubleofgoingtotown。Thehousestoodaloneamongstrocks。Alaneofmudandstonesendedatthedoor。Thesea-windscomingashoreonStonecutter’spoint,freshfromthefierceturmoilofthewaves,howledviolentlyattheunmovedheapsofblackbouldersholdingupsteadilyshort-armed,highcrossesagainstthetremendousrushoftheinvisible。Inthesweepofgalesthesheltereddwellingstoodinacalmresonantanddisquieting,likethecalminthecentreofahurricane。Onstormynights,whenthetidewasout,thebayofFougere,fiftyfeetbelowthehouse,resembledanimmenseblackpit,fromwhichascendedmutteringsandsighsasifthesandsdowntherehadbeenaliveandcomplaining。Athightidethereturningwaterassaultedtheledgesofrockinshortrushes,endinginburstsoflividlightandcolumnsofspray,thatflewinland,stingingtodeaththegrassofpastures。 Thedarknesscamefromthehills,flowedoverthecoast,putouttheredfiresofsunset,andwentontoseawardpursuingtheretiringtide。Thewinddroppedwiththesun,leavingamaddenedseaandadevastatedsky。Theheavensabovethehouseseemedtobedrapedinblackrags,helduphereandtherebypinsoffire。MadameLevaille,forthiseveningtheservantofherownworkmen,triedtoinducethemtodepart。\"Anoldwomanlikemeoughttobeinbedatthislatehour,\"shegood-humouredlyrepeated。Thequarrymendrank,askedformore。Theyshoutedoverthetableasiftheyhadbeentalkingacrossafield。Atoneendfourofthemplayedcards,bangingthewoodwiththeirhardknuckles,andswearingateverylead。Onesatwithalostgaze,hummingabarofsomesong,whichherepeatedendlessly。Twoothers,inacorner,werequarrellingconfidentiallyandfiercelyoversomewoman,lookingcloseintooneanother’seyesasiftheyhadwantedtotearthemout,butspeakinginwhispersthatpromisedviolenceandmurderdiscreetly,inavenomoussibillationofsubduedwords。Theatmosphereintherewasthickenoughtoslicewithaknife。 Threecandlesburningaboutthelongroomglowedredanddulllikesparksexpiringinashes。 Theslightclickoftheironlatchwasatthatlatehourasunexpectedandstartlingasathunder-clap。MadameLevailleputdownabottlesheheldabovealiqueurglass;theplayersturnedtheirheads;thewhisperedquarrelceased;onlythesinger,afterdartingaglanceatthedoor,wentonhummingwithastolidface。Susanappearedinthedoorway,steppedin,flungthedoorto,andputherbackagainstit,saying,halfaloud—— \"Mother!\" MadameLevaille,takingupthebottleagain,saidcalmly:\"Hereyouare,mygirl。Whatastateyouarein!\"Theneckofthebottlerangontherimoftheglass,fortheoldwomanwasstartled,andtheideathatthefarmhadcaughtfirehadenteredherhead。Shecouldthinkofnoothercauseforherdaughter’sappearance。 Susan,soakedandmuddy,staredthewholelengthoftheroomtowardsthemenatthefarend。Hermotherasked—— \"Whathashappened?Godguardusfrommisfortune!\" Susanmovedherlips。Nosoundcame。MadameLevaillesteppeduptoherdaughter,tookherbythearm,lookedintoherface。 \"InGod’sname,\"shesaid,shakily,\"what’sthematter?Youhavebeenrollinginmud……Whydidyoucome?……Where’sJean?\" Themenhadallgotupandapproachedslowly,staringwithdullsurprise。MadameLevaillejerkedherdaughterawayfromthedoor,swungherrounduponaseatclosetothewall。Thensheturnedfiercelytothemen—— \"Enoughofthis!Outyougo——youothers!Iclose。\" Oneofthemobserved,lookingdownatSusancollapsedontheseat: \"Sheis——onemaysay——halfdead。\" MadameLevailleflungthedooropen。 \"Getout!March!\"shecried,shakingnervously。 Theydroppedoutintothenight,laughingstupidly。Outside,thetwoLothariosbrokeoutintoloudshouts。Theotherstriedtosoothethem,alltalkingatonce。Thenoisewentawayupthelanewiththemen,whostaggeredtogetherinatightknot,remonstratingwithoneanotherfoolishly。 \"Speak,Susan。Whatisit?Speak!\"entreatedMadameLevaille,assoonasthedoorwasshut。 Susanpronouncedsomeincomprehensiblewords,glaringatthetable。 Theoldwomanclappedherhandsaboveherhead,letthemdrop,andstoodlookingatherdaughterwithdisconsolateeyes。Herhusbandhadbeen\"derangedinhishead\"forafewyearsbeforehedied,andnowshebegantosuspectherdaughterwasgoingmad。Sheasked,pressingly—— \"DoesJeanknowwhereyouare?WhereisJean?\" \"Heknows……heisdead。\" \"What!\"criedtheoldwoman。Shecameupnear,andpeeringatherdaughter,repeatedthreetimes:\"Whatdoyousay?Whatdoyousay? Whatdoyousay?\" Susansatdry-eyedandstonybeforeMadameLevaille,whocontemplatedher,feelingastrangesenseofinexplicablehorrorcreepintothesilenceofthehouse。Shehadhardlyrealisedthenews,furtherthantounderstandthatshehadbeenbroughtinoneshortmomentfacetofacewithsomethingunexpectedandfinal。Itdidnotevenoccurtohertoaskforanyexplanation。Shethought: accident——terribleaccident——bloodtothehead——felldownatrapdoorintheloft……Sheremainedthere,distractedandmute,blinkingheroldeyes。 Suddenly,Susansaid—— \"Ihavekilledhim。\" Foramomentthemotherstoodstill,almostunbreathing,butwithcomposedface。Thenextsecondsheburstoutintoashout—— \"Youmiserablemadwoman……theywillcutyourneck……\" Shefanciedthegendarmesenteringthehouse,sayingtoher:\"Wewantyourdaughter;giveherup:\"thegendarmeswiththesevere,hardfacesofmenonduty。Sheknewthebrigadierwell——anoldfriend,familiarandrespectful,sayingheartily,\"Toyourgoodhealth,Madame!\"beforeliftingtohislipsthesmallglassofcognac——outofthespecialbottleshekeptforfriends。Andnow!……Shewaslosingherhead。 Sherushedhereandthere,asiflookingforsomethingurgentlyneeded——gavethatup,stoodstockstillinthemiddleoftheroom,andscreamedatherdaughter—— \"Why?Say!Say!Why?\" Theotherseemedtoleapoutofherstrangeapathy。 \"DoyouthinkIammadeofstone?\"sheshoutedback,stridingtowardshermother。 \"No!It’simpossible……\"saidMadameLevaille,inaconvincedtone。 \"Yougoandsee,mother,\"retortedSusan,lookingatherwithblazingeyes。\"There’snomoneyinheaven——nojustice。No!……Ididnotknow……DoyouthinkIhavenoheart?DoyouthinkIhaveneverheardpeoplejeeringatme,pityingme,wonderingatme?Doyouknowhowsomeofthemwerecallingme?Themotherofidiots——thatwasmynickname!Andmychildrenneverwouldknowme,neverspeaktome。Theywouldknownothing;neithermen——norGod。Haven’tIprayed!ButtheMotherofGodherselfwouldnothearme。Amother!……Whoisaccursed——I,orthemanwhoisdead?Eh?Tellme。Itookcareofmyself。DoyouthinkIwoulddefytheangerofGodandhavemyhousefullofthosethings——thatareworsethananimalswhoknowthehandthatfeedsthem?Whoblasphemedinthenightattheverychurchdoor? WasitI?……Ionlyweptandprayedformercy……andIfeelthecurseateverymomentoftheday——Iseeitroundmefrommorningtonight……I’vegottokeepthemalive——totakecareofmymisfortuneandshame。Andhewouldcome。IbeggedhimandHeavenformercy…… No!……Thenweshallsee……Hecamethisevening。Ithoughttomyself:’Ah!again!’……Ihadmylongscissors。Iheardhimshouting……Isawhimnear……Imust——mustI?……Thentake!……AndIstruckhiminthethroatabovethebreastbone……I neverheardhimevensigh……Ilefthimstanding……Itwasaminuteago。HowdidIcomehere?\" MadameLevailleshivered。Awaveofcoldrandownherback,downherfatarmsunderhertightsleeves,madeherstampgentlywhereshestood。Quiversranoverthebroadcheeks,acrossthethinlips,ranamongstthewrinklesatthecornersofhersteadyoldeyes。Shestammered—— \"Youwickedwoman——youdisgraceme。Butthere!Youalwaysresembledyourfather。Whatdoyouthinkwillbecomeofyou……intheotherworld?Inthis……Ohmisery!\" Shewasveryhotnow。Shefeltburninginside。Shewrungherperspiringhands——andsuddenly,startingingreathaste,begantolookforherbigshawlandumbrella,feverishly,neveronceglancingatherdaughter,whostoodinthemiddleoftheroomfollowingherwithagazedistractedandcold。 \"Nothingworsethaninthis,\"saidSusan。 Hermother,umbrellainhandandtrailingtheshawloverthefloor,groanedprofoundly。 \"Imustgotothepriest,\"sheburstoutpassionately。\"Idonotknowwhetheryouevenspeakthetruth!Youareahorriblewoman。Theywillfindyouanywhere。Youmaystayhere——orgo。Thereisnoroomforyouinthisworld。\" Readynowtodepart,sheyetwanderedaimlesslyabouttheroom,puttingthebottlesontheshelf,tryingtofitwithtremblinghandsthecoversoncardboardboxes。Whenevertherealsenseofwhatshehadheardemergedforasecondfromthehazeofherthoughtsshewouldfancythatsomethinghadexplodedinherbrainwithout,unfortunately,burstingherheadtopieces——whichwouldhavebeenarelief。Sheblewthecandlesoutonebyonewithoutknowingit,andwashorriblystartledbythedarkness。Shefellonabenchandbegantowhimper。 Afterawhilesheceased,andsatlisteningtothebreathingofherdaughter,whomshecouldhardlysee,stillandupright,givingnoothersignoflife。Shewasbecomingoldrapidlyatlast,duringthoseminutes。Shespokeintonesunsteady,cutaboutbytherattleofteeth,likeoneshakenbyadeadlycoldfitofague。 \"Iwishyouhaddiedlittle。Iwillneverdaretoshowmyoldheadinthesunshineagain。Thereareworsemisfortunesthanidiotchildren。I wishyouhadbeenborntomesimple——likeyourown……\" Shesawthefigureofherdaughterpassbeforethefaintandlividclearnessofawindow。Thenitappearedinthedoorwayforasecond,andthedoorswungtowithaclang。MadameLevaille,asifawakenedbythenoisefromalongnightmare,rushedout。 \"Susan!\"sheshoutedfromthedoorstep。 Sheheardastonerollalongtimedownthedeclivityoftherockybeachabovethesands。Shesteppedforwardcautiously,onehandonthewallofthehouse,andpeereddownintothesmoothdarknessoftheemptybay。Onceagainshecried—— \"Susan!Youwillkillyourselfthere。\" Thestonehadtakenitslastleapinthedark,andsheheardnothingnow。Asuddenthoughtseemedtostrangleher,andshecallednomore。 SheturnedherbackupontheblacksilenceofthepitandwentupthelanetowardsPloumar,stumblingalongwithsombredetermination,asifshehadstartedonadesperatejourneythatwouldlast,perhaps,totheendofherlife。Asullenandperiodicclamourofwavesrollingoverreefsfollowedherfarinlandbetweenthehighhedgesshelteringthegloomysolitudeofthefields。 Susanhadrunout,swervingsharptotheleftatthedoor,andontheedgeoftheslopecroucheddownbehindaboulder。Adislodgedstonewentondownwards,rattlingasitleaped。WhenMadameLevaillecalledout,Susancouldhave,bystretchingherhand,touchedhermother’sskirt,hadshehadthecouragetomovealimb。Shesawtheoldwomangoaway,andsheremainedstill,closinghereyesandpressinghersidetothehardandruggedsurfaceoftherock。Afterawhileafamiliarfacewithfixedeyesandanopenmouthbecamevisibleintheintenseobscurityamongsttheboulders。Sheutteredalowcryandstoodup。Thefacevanished,leavinghertogaspandshiveraloneinthewildernessofstoneheaps。Butassoonasshehadcroucheddownagaintorest,withherheadagainsttherock,thefacereturned,cameverynear,appearedeagertofinishthespeechthathadbeencutshortbydeath,onlyamomentago。Shescrambledquicklytoherfeetandsaid:\"Goaway,orIwilldoitagain。\"Thethingwavered,swungtotheright,totheleft。Shemovedthiswayandthat,steppedback,fanciedherselfscreamingatit,andwasappalledbytheunbrokenstillnessofthenight。Shetotteredonthebrink,feltthesteepdeclivityunderherfeet,andrusheddownblindlytosaveherselffromaheadlongfall。Theshingleseemedtowakeup;thepebblesbegantorollbeforeher,pursuedherfromabove,raceddownwithheronbothsides,rollingpastwithanincreasingclatter。Inthepeaceofthenightthenoisegrew,deepeningtoarumour,continuousandviolent,asifthewholesemicircleofthestonybeachhadstartedtotumbledownintothebay。Susan’sfeethardlytouchedtheslopethatseemedtorundownwithher。Atthebottomshestumbled,shotforward,throwingherarmsout,andfellheavily。Shejumpedupatonceandturnedswiftlytolookback,herclenchedhandsfullofsandshehadclutchedinherfall。Thefacewasthere,keepingitsdistance,visibleinitsownsheenthatmadeapalestaininthenight。Sheshouted,\"Goaway!\"——sheshoutedatitwithpain,withfear,withalltherageofthatuselessstabthatcouldnotkeephimquiet,keephimoutofhersight。Whatdidhewantnow?Hewasdead。Deadmenhavenochildren。Wouldheneverleaveheralone?Sheshriekedatit——wavedheroutstretchedhands。Sheseemedtofeelthebreathofpartedlips,and,withalongcryofdiscouragement,fledacrossthelevelbottomofthebay。