第7章

类别:其他 作者:Anton Chekhov字数:15919更新时间:19/01/04 17:25:24
\"Youdon’tunderstand?\"whisperedFatherGrigory,steppingbackinastonishmentandclaspinghishands。\"Whathaveyougotonyourshoulders,aheadorsomeotherobject?Yousendanoteuptothealtar,andwriteawordinitwhichitwouldbeunseemlyeventoutterinthestreet!Whyareyourollingyoureyes? Surelyyouknowthemeaningoftheword?\" \"Areyoureferringtothewordharlot?\"mutteredtheshopkeeper,flushingcrimsonandblinking。\"Butyouknow,theLordinHismercy……forgavethisverything,……forgaveaharlot……Hehaspreparedaplaceforher,andindeedfromthelifeoftheholysaint,MariyaofEgypt,onemayseeinwhatsensethewordisused——excuseme……\" Theshopkeeperwantedtobringforwardsomeotherargumentinhisjustification,buttookfrightandwipedhislipswithhissleeve\"Sothat’swhatyoumakeofit!\"criedFatherGrigory,claspinghishands。\"ButyouseeGodhasforgivenher——doyouunderstand?Hehasforgiven,butyoujudgeher,youslanderher,callherbyanunseemlyname,andwhom!Yourowndeceaseddaughter!NotonlyinHolyScripture,buteveninworldlyliteratureyouwon’treadofsuchasin!Itellyouagain,Andrey,youmustn’tbeover-subtle!No,no,youmustn’tbeover-subtle,brother!IfGodhasgivenyouaninquiringmind,andifyoucannotdirectit,betternotgointothings……Don’tgointothings,andholdyourpeace!\" \"Butyouknow,she,……excusemymentioningit,wasanactress!\"articulatedAndreyAndreyitch,overwhelmed。 \"Anactress!Butwhatevershewas,yououghttoforgetitallnowsheisdead,insteadofwritingitonthenote。\" \"Justso,……\"theshopkeeperassented。 \"Yououghttodopenance,\"boomedthedeaconfromthedepthsofthealtar,lookingcontemptuouslyatAndreyAndreyitch’sembarrassedface,\"thatwouldteachyoutoleaveoffbeingsoclever!Yourdaughterwasawell-knownactress。Therewereevennoticesofherdeathinthenewspapers……Philosopher!\" \"Tobesure,……certainly,\"mutteredtheshopkeeper,\"thewordisnotaseemlyone;butIdidnotsayittojudgeher,FatherGrigory,Ionlymeanttospeakspiritually,……thatitmightbeclearertoyouforwhomyouwerepraying。Theywriteinthememorialnotesthevariouscallings,suchastheinfantJohn,thedrownedwomanPelagea,thewarriorYegor,themurderedPavel,andsoon……Imeanttodothesame。\" \"Itwasfoolish,Andrey!Godwillforgiveyou,butbewareanothertime。Aboveall,don’tbesubtle,butthinklikeotherpeople。 Maketenbowsandgoyourway。\" \"Iobey,\"saidtheshopkeeper,relievedthatthelecturewasover,andallowinghisfacetoresumeitsexpressionofimportanceanddignity。\"Tenbows?Verygood,Iunderstand。Butnow,Father,allowmetoaskyouafavor……SeeingthatIam,anyway,herfather,……youknowyourself,whatevershewas,shewasstillmydaughter,soIwas,……excuseme,meaningtoaskyoutosingtherequiemtoday。Andallowmetoaskyou,FatherDeacon!\" \"Well,that’sgood,\"saidFatherGrigory,takingoffhisvestments。\"ThatIcommend。Icanapproveofthat!Well,goyourway。Wewillcomeoutimmediately。\" AndreyAndreyitchwalkedwithdignityfromthealtar,andwithasolemn,requiem-likeexpressiononhisredfacetookhisstandinthemiddleofthechurch。ThevergerMatveysetbeforehimalittletablewiththememorialfooduponit,andalittlelatertherequiemservicebegan。 Therewasperfectstillnessinthechurch。Nothingcouldbeheardbutthemetallicclickofthecenserandslowsinging……NearAndreyAndreyitchstoodthevergerMatvey,themidwifeMakaryevna,andherone-armedsonMitka。Therewasnooneelse。 Thesacristansangbadlyinanunpleasant,hollowbass,butthetuneandthewordsweresomournfulthattheshopkeeperlittlebylittlelosttheexpressionofdignityandwasplungedinsadness。 HethoughtofhisMashutka,……herememberedshehadbeenbornwhenhewasstillalackeyintheserviceoftheownerofVerhnyZaprudy。Inhisbusylifeasalackeyhehadnotnoticedhowhisgirlhadgrownup。Thatlongperiodduringwhichshewasbeingshapedintoagracefulcreature,withalittleflaxenheadanddreamyeyesasbigaskopeck-piecespassedunnoticedbyhim。Shehadbeenbroughtuplikeallthechildrenoffavoritelackeys,ineaseandcomfortinthecompanyoftheyoungladies。Thegentry,tofilluptheiridletime,hadtaughthertoread,towrite,todance;hehadhadnohandinherbringingup。Onlyfromtimetotimecasuallymeetingheratthegateoronthelandingofthestairs,hewouldrememberthatshewashisdaughter,andwould,sofarashehadleisureforit,beginteachinghertheprayersandthescripture。Oh,eventhenhehadthereputationofanauthorityonthechurchrulesandtheholyscriptures!Forbiddingandstolidasherfather’sfacewas,yetthegirllistenedreadily。Sherepeatedtheprayersafterhimyawning,butontheotherhand,whenhe,hesitatingandtryingtoexpresshimselfelaborately,begantellingherstories,shewasallattention。Esau’spottage,thepunishmentofSodom,andthetroublesoftheboyJosephmadeherturnpaleandopenherblueeyeswide。 Afterwardswhenhegaveupbeingalackey,andwiththemoneyhehadsavedopenedashopinthevillage,MashutkahadgoneawaytoMoscowwithhismaster’sfamily…… Threeyearsbeforeherdeathshehadcometoseeherfather。Hehadscarcelyrecognizedher。Shewasagracefulyoungwomanwiththemannersofayounglady,anddressedlikeone。Shetalkedcleverly,asthoughfromabook,smoked,andslepttillmidday。 WhenAndreyAndreyitchaskedherwhatshewasdoing,shehadannounced,lookinghimboldlystraightintheface:\"Iamanactress。\"Suchfranknessstrucktheformerflunkeyastheacmeofcynicism。Mashutkahadbegunboastingofhersuccessesandherstagelife;butseeingthatherfatheronlyturnedcrimsonandthrewuphishands,sheceased。Andtheyspentafortnighttogetherwithoutspeakingorlookingatoneanothertillthedayshewentaway。Beforeshewentawaysheaskedherfathertocomeforawalkonthebankoftheriver。Painfulasitwasforhimtowalkinthelightofday,inthesightofallhonestpeople,withadaughterwhowasanactress,heyieldedtoherrequest。 \"Whatalovelyplaceyoulivein!\"shesaidenthusiastically。 \"Whatravinesandmarshes!Goodheavens,howlovelymynativeplaceis!\" Andshehadburstintotears。 \"Theplaceissimplytakinguproom,……\"AndreyAndreyvitchhadthought,lookingblanklyattheravines,notunderstandinghisdaughter’senthusiasm。\"Thereisnomoreprofitfromthemthanmilkfromabilly-goat。\" Andshehadcriedandcried,drawingherbreathgreedilywithherwholechest,asthoughshefeltshehadnotalongtimelefttobreathe。 AndreyAndreyitchshookhisheadlikeahorsethathasbeenbitten,andtostiflepainfulmemoriesbeganrapidlycrossinghimself…… \"Bemindful,OLord,\"hemuttered,\"ofThydepartedservant,theharlotMariya,andforgivehersins,voluntaryorinvoluntary……\" Theunseemlyworddroppedfromhislipsagain,buthedidnotnoticeit:whatisfirmlyimbeddedintheconsciousnesscannotbedrivenoutbyFatherGrigory’sexhortationsorevenknockedoutbyanail。Makaryevnasighedandwhisperedsomething,drawinginadeepbreath,whileone-armedMitkawasbroodingoversomething…… \"Wherethereisnosickness,norgrief,norsighing,\"dronedthesacristan,coveringhisrightcheekwithhishand。 Bluishsmokecoiledupfromthecenserandbathedinthebroad,slantingpatchofsunshinewhichcutacrossthegloomy,lifelessemptinessofthechurch。Anditseemedasthoughthesoulofthedeadwomanweresoaringintothesunlighttogetherwiththesmoke。Thecoilsofsmokelikeachild’scurlseddiedroundandround,floatingupwardstothewindowand,asitwere,holdingalooffromthewoesandtribulationsofwhichthatpoorsoulwasfull。 INTHECOACH-HOUSE ITwasbetweennineandteno’clockintheevening。Stepanthecoachman,Mihailothehouse-porter,Alyoshkathecoachman’sgrandson,whohadcomeupfromthevillagetostaywithhisgrandfather,andNikandr,anoldmanofseventy,whousedtocomeintotheyardeveryeveningtosellsaltherrings,weresittingroundalanterninthebigcoach-house,playing\"kings。\"Throughthewide-opendoorcouldbeseenthewholeyard,thebighouse,wherethemaster’sfamilylived,thegates,thecellars,andtheporter’slodge。Itwasallshroudedinthedarknessofnight,andonlythefourwindowsofoneofthelodgeswhichwasletwerebrightlylitup。Theshadowsofthecoachesandsledgeswiththeirshaftstippedupwardsstretchedfromthewallstothedoors,quiveringandcuttingacrosstheshadowscastbythelanternandtheplayers……Ontheothersideofthethinpartitionthatdividedthecoach-housefromthestablewerethehorses。Therewasascentofhay,andadisagreeablesmellofsaltherringscomingfromoldNikandr。 Theporterwonandwasking;heassumedanattitudesuchaswasinhisopinionbefittingaking,andblewhisnoseloudlyonared-checkedhandkerchief。 \"NowifIlikeIcanchopoffanybody’shead,\"hesaid。Alyoshka,aboyofeightwithaheadofflaxenhair,leftlonguncut,whohadonlymissedbeingkingbytwotricks,lookedangrilyandwithenvyattheporter。Hepoutedandfrowned。 \"Ishallgiveyouthetrick,grandfather,\"hesaid,ponderingoverhiscards;\"Iknowyouhavegotthequeenofdiamonds。\" \"Well,well,littlesilly,youhavethoughtenough!\" Alyoshkatimidlyplayedtheknaveofdiamonds。Atthatmomentaringwasheardfromtheyard。 \"Oh,hangyou!\"mutteredtheporter,gettingup。\"Goandopenthegate,Oking!\" Whenhecamebackalittlelater,Alyoshkawasalreadyaprince,thefish-hawkerasoldier,andthecoachmanapeasant。 \"It’sanastybusiness,\"saidtheporter,sittingdowntothecardsagain。\"Ihavejustletthedoctorsout。Theyhavenotextractedit。\" \"Howcouldthey?Justthink,theywouldhavetopickopenthebrains。Ifthereisabulletinthehead,ofwhatusearedoctors?\" \"Heislyingunconscious,\"theporterwenton。\"Heisboundtodie。Alyoshka,don’tlookatthecards,youlittlepuppy,orI willpullyourears!Yes,Iletthedoctorsout,andthefatherandmotherin……Theyhaveonlyjustarrived。Suchcryingandwailing,Lordpreserveus!Theysayheistheonlyson…… It’sagrief!\" AllexceptAlyoshka,whowasabsorbedinthegame,lookedroundatthebrightlylightedwindowsofthelodge。 \"Ihaveorderstogotothepolicestationtomorrow,\"saidtheporter。\"Therewillbeaninquiry……ButwhatdoIknowaboutit?Isawnothingofit。Hecalledmethismorning,gavemealetter,andsaid:’Putitintheletter-boxforme。’Andhiseyeswereredwithcrying。Hiswifeandchildrenwerenotathome。Theyhadgoneoutforawalk。SowhenIhadgonewiththeletter,heputabulletintohisforeheadfromarevolver。WhenI camebackhiscookwaswailingforthewholeyardtohear。\" \"It’sagreatsin,\"saidthefish-hawkerinahuskyvoice,andheshookhishead,\"agreatsin!\" \"Fromtoomuchlearning,\"saidtheporter,takingatrick;\"hiswitsoutstrippedhiswisdom。Sometimeshewouldsitwritingpapersallnight……Play,peasant!……Buthewasanicegentleman。Andsowhiteskinned,black-hairedandtall!…… Hewasagoodlodger。\" \"Itseemsthefairsexisatthebottomofit,\"saidthecoachman,slappingthenineoftrumpsonthekingofdiamonds。 \"Itseemshewasfondofanotherman’swifeanddislikedhisown; itdoeshappen。\" \"Thekingrebels,\"saidtheporter。 Atthatmomenttherewasagainaringfromtheyard。Therebelliouskingspatwithvexationandwentout。Shadowslikedancingcouplesflittedacrossthewindowsofthelodge。Therewasthesoundofvoicesandhurriedfootstepsintheyard。 \"Isupposethedoctorshavecomeagain,\"saidthecoachman。\"OurMihailoisrunoffhislegs……\" Astrangewailingvoicerangoutforamomentintheair。 Alyoshkalookedinalarmathisgrandfather,thecoachman;thenatthewindows,andsaid: \"Hestrokedmeontheheadatthegateyesterday,andsaid,’Whatdistrictdoyoucomefrom,boy?’Grandfather,whowasthathowledjustnow?\" Hisgrandfathertrimmedthelightinthelanternandmadenoanswer。 \"Themanislost,\"hesaidalittlelater,withayawn。\"Heislost,andhischildrenareruined,too。It’sadisgraceforhischildrenfortherestoftheirlivesnow。\" Theportercamebackandsatdownbythelantern。 \"Heisdead,\"hesaid。\"Theyhavesenttothealmshousefortheoldwomentolayhimout。\" \"Thekingdomofheavenandeternalpeacetohim!\"whisperedthecoachman,andhecrossedhimself。 Lookingathim,Alyoshkacrossedhimselftoo。 \"Youcan’tprayforsuchashim,\"saidthefish-hawker。 \"Whynot?\" \"It’sasin。\" \"That’strue,\"theporterassented。\"Nowhissoulhasgonestraighttohell,tothedevil……\" \"It’sasin,\"repeatedthefish-hawker;\"suchashehavenofuneral,norequiem,butareburiedlikecarrionwithnorespect。\" Theoldmanputonhiscapandgotup。 \"Itwasthesamethingatourlady’s,\"hesaid,pullinghiscaponfurther。\"Wewereserfsinthosedays;theyoungersonofourmistress,theGeneral’slady,shothimselfthroughthemouthwithapistol,fromtoomuchlearning,too。Itseemsthatbylawsuchhavetobeburiedoutsidethecemetery,withoutpriests,withoutarequiemservice;buttosavedisgraceourlady,youknow,bribedthepoliceandthedoctors,andtheygaveherapapertosayhersonhaddoneitwhendelirious,notknowingwhathewasdoing。Youcandoanythingwithmoney。Sohehadafuneralwithpriestsandeveryhonor,themusicplayed,andhewasburiedinthechurch;forthedeceasedGeneralhadbuiltthatchurchwithhisownmoney,andallhisfamilywereburiedthere。Onlythisiswhathappened,friends。Onemonthpassed,andthenanother,anditwasallright。InthethirdmonththeyinformedtheGeneral’sladythatthewatchmenhadcomefromthatsamechurch。 Whatdidtheywant?Theywerebroughttoher,theyfellatherfeet。’Wecan’tgoonserving,yourexcellency,’theysaid。’Lookoutforotherwatchmenandgraciouslydismissus。’’Whatfor?’ ’No,’theysaid,’wecan’tpossibly;yoursonhowlsunderthechurchallnight。’\" Alyoshkashuddered,andpressedhisfacetothecoachman’sbacksoasnottoseethewindows。 \"AtfirsttheGeneral’sladywouldnotlisten,\"continuedtheoldman。\"’Allthisisyourfancy,yousimplefolkhavesuchnotions,’shesaid。’Adeadmancannothowl。’Sometimeafterwardsthewatchmencametoheragain,andwiththemthesacristan。Sothesacristan,too,hadheardhimhowling。TheGeneral’sladysawthatitwasabadjob;shelockedherselfinherbedroomwiththewatchmen。’Here,myfriends,herearetwenty-fiveroublesforyou,andforthatgobynightinsecret,sothatnooneshouldhearorseeyou,digupmyunhappyson,andburyhim,’shesaid,’outsidethecemetery。’AndIsupposeshestoodthemaglass……Andthewatchmendidso。Thestonewiththeinscriptiononitistheretothisday,buthehimself,theGeneral’sson,isoutsidethecemetery……OLord,forgiveusourtransgressions!\"sighedthefish-hawker。\"Thereisonlyonedayintheyearwhenonemayprayforsuchpeople:theSaturdaybeforeTrinity……Youmustn’tgivealmstobeggarsfortheirsake,itisasin,butyoumayfeedthebirdsfortherestoftheirsouls。TheGeneral’sladyusedtogoouttothecrossroadseverythreedaystofeedthebirds。Onceatthecross-roadsablackdogsuddenlyappeared;itranuptothebread,andwassucha……weallknowwhatthatdogwas。TheGeneral’sladywaslikeahalf-crazycreatureforfivedaysafterwards,sheneitheratenordrank……Allatonceshefellonherkneesinthegarden,andprayedandprayed……Well,good-by,friends,theblessingofGodandtheHeavenlyMotherbewithyou。Letusgo,Mihailo,you’llopenthegateforme。\" Thefish-hawkerandtheporterwentout。ThecoachmanandAlyoshkawentouttoo,soasnottobeleftinthecoach-house。 \"Themanwaslivingandisdead!\"saidthecoachman,lookingtowardsthewindowswhereshadowswerestillflittingtoandfro。 \"Onlythismorninghewaswalkingabouttheyard,andnowheislyingdead。\" \"Thetimewillcomeandweshalldietoo,\"saidtheporter,walkingawaywiththefish-hawker,andatoncetheybothvanishedfromsightinthedarkness。 Thecoachman,andAlyoshkaafterhim,somewhattimidlywentuptothelightedwindows。Averypaleladywithlargetearstainedeyes,andafine-lookinggrayheadedmanweremovingtwocard-tablesintothemiddleoftheroom,probablywiththeintentionoflayingthedeadmanuponthem,andonthegreenclothofthetablenumberscouldstillbeseenwritteninchalk。 Thecookwhohadrunabouttheyardwailinginthemorningwasnowstandingonachair,stretchinguptotryandcoverthelookingglasswithatowel。 \"Grandfatherwhataretheydoing?\"askedAlyoshkainawhisper。 \"Theyarejustgoingtolayhimonthetables,\"answeredhisgrandfather。\"Letusgo,child,itisbedtime。\" ThecoachmanandAlyoshkawentbacktothecoach-house。Theysaidtheirprayers,andtookofftheirboots。Stepanlaydowninacorneronthefloor,Alyoshkainasledge。Thedoorsofthecoachhousewereshut,therewasahorriblestenchfromtheextinguishedlantern。AlittlelaterAlyoshkasatupandlookedabouthim;throughthecrackofthedoorhecouldstillseealightfromthoselightedwindows。 \"Grandfather,Iamfrightened!\"hesaid。 \"Come,gotosleep,gotosleep!……\" \"ItellyouIamfrightened!\" \"Whatareyoufrightenedof?Whatababy!\" Theyweresilent。 Alyoshkasuddenlyjumpedoutofthesledgeand,loudlyweeping,rantohisgrandfather。 \"Whatisit?What’sthematter?\"criedthecoachmaninafright,gettingupalso。 \"He’showling!\" \"Whoishowling?\" \"Iamfrightened,grandfather,doyouhear?\" Thecoachmanlistened。 \"It’stheircrying,\"hesaid。\"Come!there,littlesilly!Theyaresad,sotheyarecrying。\" \"Iwanttogohome,……\"hisgrandsonwentonsobbingandtremblingallover。\"Grandfather,letusgobacktothevillage,tomammy;come,grandfatherdear,Godwillgiveyoutheheavenlykingdomforit……\" \"Whatasilly,ah!Come,bequiet,bequiet!Bequiet,Iwilllightthelantern,……silly!\" Thecoachmanfumbledforthematchesandlightedthelantern。ButthelightdidnotcomfortAlyoshka。 \"GrandfatherStepan,let’sgotothevillage!\"hebesoughthim,weeping。\"Iamfrightenedhere;oh,oh,howfrightenedIam!Andwhydidyoubringmefromthevillage,accursedman?\" \"Who’sanaccursedman?Youmustn’tusesuchdisrespectablewordstoyourlawfulgrandfather。Ishallwhipyou。\" \"Dowhipme,grandfather,do;beatmelikeSidor’sgoat,butonlytakemetomammy,forGod’smercy!……\" \"Come,come,grandson,come!\"thecoachmansaidkindly。\"It’sallright,don’tbefrightened……Iamfrightenedmyself…… Sayyourprayers!\" Thedoorcreakedandtheporter’sheadappeared。\"Aren’tyouasleep,Stepan?\"heasked。\"Ishan’tgetanysleepallnight,\"hesaid,comingin。\"Ishallbeopeningandshuttingthegatesallnight……Whatareyoucryingfor,Alyoshka?\" \"Heisfrightened,\"thecoachmanansweredforhisgrandson。 Againtherewasthesoundofawailingvoiceintheair。Theportersaid: \"Theyarecrying。Themothercan’tbelievehereyes……It’sdreadfulhowupsetsheis。\" \"Andisthefatherthere?\" \"Yes……Thefatherisallright。Hesitsinthecornerandsaysnothing。Theyhavetakenthechildrentorelations…… Well,Stepan,shallwehaveagameoftrumps?\" \"Yes,\"thecoachmanagreed,scratchinghimself,\"andyou,Alyoshka,gotosleep。Almostbigenoughtobemarried,andblubbering,yourascal。Come,goalong,grandson,goalong…… ThepresenceoftheporterreassuredAlyoshka。Hewent,notveryresolutely,towardsthesledgeandlaydown。Andwhilehewasfallingasleepheheardahalf-whisper。 \"Ibeatandcover,\"saidhisgrandfather。 \"Ibeatandcover,\"repeatedtheporter。 Thebellrangintheyard,thedoorcreakedandseemedalsosaying:\"Ibeatandcover。\"WhenAlyoshkadreamedofthegentlemanand,frightenedbyhiseyes,jumpedupandburstoutcrying,itwasmorning,hisgrandfatherwassnoring,andthecoach-housenolongerseemedterrible。 PANICFEARS DURINGalltheyearsIhavebeenlivinginthisworldIhaveonlythreetimesbeenterrified。 Thefirstrealterror,whichmademyhairstandonendandmadeshiversrunalloverme,wascausedbyatrivialbutstrangephenomenon。Ithappenedthat,havingnothingtodooneJulyevening,Idrovetothestationforthenewspapers。Itwasastill,warm,almostsultryevening,likeallthosemonotonouseveningsinJulywhich,whenoncetheyhavesetin,goonforaweek,afortnight,orsometimeslonger,inregularunbrokensuccession,andaresuddenlycutshortbyaviolentthunderstormandalavishdownpourofrainthatrefresheseverythingforalongtime。 Thesunhadsetsometimebefore,andanunbrokengraydusklayallovertheland。Themawkishlysweetscentsofthegrassandflowerswereheavyinthemotionless,stagnantair。 Iwasdrivinginaroughtrolley。Behindmybackthegardener’ssonPashka,aboyofeightyearsold,whomIhadtakenwithmetolookafterthehorseincaseofnecessity,wasgentlysnoring,withhisheadonasackofoats。Ourwaylayalonganarrowby-road,straightasaruler,whichlayhidlikeagreatsnakeinthetallthickrye。Therewasapalelightfromtheafterglowofsunset;astreakoflightcutitswaythroughanarrow,uncouth-lookingcloud,whichseemedsometimeslikeaboatandsometimeslikeamanwrappedinaquilt…… Ihaddrivenamileandahalf,ortwomiles,whenagainstthepalebackgroundoftheeveningglowtherecameintosightoneafteranothersomegracefultallpoplars;ariverglimmeredbeyondthem,andagorgeouspicturesuddenly,asthoughbymagic,laystretchedbeforeme。Ihadtostopthehorse,forourstraightroadbrokeoffabruptlyandrandownasteepinclineovergrownwithbushes。Wewerestandingonthehillsideandbeneathusatthebottomlayahugeholefulloftwilight,offantasticshapes,andofspace。Atthebottomofthishole,inawideplainguardedbythepoplarsandcaressedbythegleamingriver,nestledavillage。Itwasnowsleeping……Itshuts,itschurchwiththebelfry,itstrees,stoodoutagainstthegraytwilightandwerereflecteddarklyinthesmoothsurfaceoftheriver。 IwakedPashkaforfearheshouldfalloutandbegancautiouslygoingdown。 \"HavewegottoLukovo?\"askedPashka,liftinghisheadlazily。 \"Yes。Holdthereins!……\" Iledthehorsedownthehillandlookedatthevillage。Atthefirstglanceonestrangecircumstancecaughtmyattention:attheverytopofthebelfry,inthetinywindowbetweenthecupolaandthebells,alightwastwinkling。Thislightwaslikethatofasmolderinglamp,atonemomentdyingdown,atanotherflickeringup。Whatcoulditcomefrom? Itssourcewasbeyondmycomprehension。Itcouldnotbeburningatthewindow,fortherewereneitherikonsnorlampsinthetopturretofthebelfry;therewasnothingthere,asIknew,butbeams,dust,andspiders’webs。Itwashardtoclimbupintothatturret,forthepassagetoitfromthebelfrywascloselyblockedup。 Itwasmorelikelythananythingelsetobethereflectionofsomeoutsidelight,butthoughIstrainedmyeyestotheutmost,Icouldnotseeoneotherspeckoflightinthevastexpansethatlaybeforeme。Therewasnomoon。Thepaleand,bynow,quitedimstreakoftheafterglowcouldnothavebeenreflected,forthewindowlookednottothewest,buttotheeast。TheseandothersimilarconsiderationswerestrayingthroughmymindallthewhilethatIwasgoingdowntheslopewiththehorse。AtthebottomIsatdownbytheroadsideandlookedagainatthelight。 Asbeforeitwasglimmeringandflaringup。 \"Strange,\"Ithought,lostinconjecture。\"Verystrange。\" AndlittlebylittleIwasovercomebyanunpleasantfeeling。AtfirstIthoughtthatthiswasvexationatnotbeingabletoexplainasimplephenomenon;butafterwards,whenIsuddenlyturnedawayfromthelightinhorrorandcaughtholdofPashkawithonehand,itbecameclearthatIwasovercomewithterror…… Iwasseizedwithafeelingofloneliness,misery,andhorror,asthoughIhadbeenflungdownagainstmywillintothisgreatholefullofshadows,whereIwasstandingallalonewiththebelfrylookingatmewithitsredeye。 \"Pashka!\"Icried,closingmyeyesinhorror。 \"Well?\" \"Pashka,what’sthatgleamingonthebelfry?\" Pashkalookedovermyshoulderatthebelfryandgaveayawn。 \"Whocantell?\" Thisbriefconversationwiththeboyreassuredmeforalittle,butnotforlong。Pashka,seeingmyuneasiness,fastenedhisbigeyesuponthelight,lookedatmeagain,thenagainatthelight…… \"Iamfrightened,\"hewhispered。 Atthispoint,besidemyselfwithterror,Iclutchedtheboywithonehand,huddleduptohim,andgavethehorseaviolentlash。 \"It’sstupid!\"Isaidtomyself。\"ThatphenomenonisonlyterriblebecauseIdon’tunderstandit;everythingwedon’tunderstandismysterious。\" Itriedtopersuademyself,butatthesametimeIdidnotleaveofflashingthehorse。WhenwereachedthepostingstationI purposelystayedforafullhourchattingwiththeoverseer,andreadthroughtwoorthreenewspapers,butthefeelingofuneasinessdidnotleaveme。Onthewaybackthelightwasnottobeseen,butontheotherhandthesilhouettesofthehuts,ofthepoplars,andofthehillupwhichIhadtodrive,seemedtomeasthoughanimated。AndwhythelightwasthereIdon’tknowtothisday。 ThesecondterrorIexperiencedwasexcitedbyacircumstancenolesstrivial……Iwasreturningfromaromanticinterview。Itwasoneo’clockatnight,thetimewhennatureisburiedinthesoundest,sweetestsleepbeforethedawn。Thattimenaturewasnotsleeping,andonecouldnotcallthenightastillone。 Corncrakes,quails,nightingales,andwoodcockswerecalling,cricketsandgrasshopperswerechirruping。Therewasalightmistoverthegrass,andcloudswerescurryingstraightaheadacrosstheskynearthemoon。Naturewasawake,asthoughafraidofmissingthebestmomentsofherlife。 Iwalkedalonganarrowpathattheveryedgeofarailwayembankment。Themoonlightglidedoverthelineswhichwerealreadycoveredwithdew。Greatshadowsfromthecloudskeptflittingovertheembankment。Farahead,adimgreenlightwasglimmeringpeacefully。 \"Soeverythingiswell,\"Ithought,lookingatthem。 Ihadaquiet,peaceful,comfortablefeelinginmyheart。Iwasreturningfromatryst,Ihadnoneedtohurry;Iwasnotsleepy,andIwasconsciousofyouthandhealthineverysigh,everystepItook,rousingadullechointhemonotonoushumofthenight。Idon’tknowwhatIwasfeelingthen,butIrememberIwashappy,veryhappy。 Ihadgonenotmorethanthree-quartersofamilewhenIsuddenlyheardbehindmeamonotonoussound,arumbling,ratherliketheroarofagreatstream。Itgrewlouderandloudereverysecond,andsoundednearerandnearer。Ilookedround;ahundredpacesfrommewasthedarkcopsefromwhichIhadonlyjustcome;theretheembankmentturnedtotherightinagracefulcurveandvanishedamongthetrees。Istoodstillinperplexityandwaited。 Ahugeblackbodyappearedatonceattheturn,noisilydartedtowardsme,andwiththeswiftnessofabirdflewpastmealongtherails。Lessthanhalfaminutepassedandtheblurhadvanished,therumblemeltedawayintothenoiseofthenight。 Itwasanordinarygoodstruck。Therewasnothingpeculiaraboutitinitself,butitsappearancewithoutanengineandinthenightpuzzledme。Wherecouldithavecomefromandwhatforcesentitflyingsorapidlyalongtherails?Wherediditcomefromandwherewasitflyingto? IfIhadbeensuperstitiousIshouldhavemadeupmyminditwasapartyofdemonsandwitchesjourneyingtoadevils’sabbath,andshouldhavegoneonmyway;butasitwas,thephenomenonwasabsolutelyinexplicabletome。Ididnotbelievemyeyes,andwasentangledinconjectureslikeaflyinaspider’sweb…… IsuddenlyrealizedthatIwasutterlyaloneonthewholevastplain;thatthenight,whichbynowseemedinhospitable,waspeepingintomyfaceanddoggingmyfootsteps;allthesounds,thecriesofthebirds,thewhisperingsofthetrees,seemedsinister,andexistingsimplytoalarmmyimagination。Idashedonlikeamadman,andwithoutrealizingwhatIwasdoingIran,tryingtorunfasterandfaster。AndatonceIheardsomethingtowhichIhadpaidnoattentionbefore:thatis,theplaintivewhiningofthetelegraphwires。 \"Thisisbeyondeverything,\"Isaid,tryingtoshamemyself。 \"It’scowardice!it’ssilly!\" Butcowardicewasstrongerthancommonsense。IonlyslackenedmypacewhenIreachedthegreenlight,whereIsawadarksignal-box,andnearitontheembankmentthefigureofaman,probablythesignalman。 \"Didyouseeit?\"Iaskedbreathlessly。 \"Seewhom?What?\" \"Why,atruckranby。\" \"Isawit,……\"thepeasantsaidreluctantly。\"Itbrokeawayfromthegoodstrain。Thereisaninclineattheninetiethmile……;thetrainisdraggeduphill。Thecouplingonthelasttruckgaveway,soitbrokeoffandranback……Thereisnocatchingitnow!……\" Thestrangephenomenonwasexplainedanditsfantasticcharactervanished。MypanicwasoverandIwasabletogoonmyway。 MythirdfrightcameuponmeasIwasgoinghomefromstandshootinginearlyspring。Itwasintheduskofevening。Theforestroadwascoveredwithpoolsfromarecentshowerofrain,andtheearthsquelchedunderone’sfeet。Thecrimsonglowofsunsetfloodedthewholeforest,coloringthewhitestemsofthebirchesandtheyoungleaves。Iwasexhaustedandcouldhardlymove。 Fourorfivemilesfromhome,walkingalongtheforestroad,I suddenlymetabigblackdogofthewaterspanielbreed。Asheranby,thedoglookedintentlyatme,straightinmyface,andranon。 \"Anicedog!\"Ithought。\"Whoseisit?\" Ilookedround。Thedogwasstandingtenpacesoffwithhiseyesfixedonme。Foraminutewescannedeachotherinsilence,thenthedog,probablyflatteredbymyattention,cameslowlyuptomeandwaggedhistail。 Iwalkedon,thedogfollowingme。 \"Whosedogcanitbe?\"Ikeptaskingmyself。\"Wheredoeshecomefrom?\" Iknewallthecountrygentryfortwentyorthirtymilesround,andknewalltheirdogs。Notoneofthemhadaspaniellikethat。 Howdidhecometobeinthedepthsoftheforest,onatrackusedfornothingbutcartingtimber?Hecouldhardlyhavedroppedbehindsomeonepassingthrough,fortherewasnowhereforthegentrytodrivetoalongthatroad。 Isatdownonastumptorest,andbeganscrutinizingmycompanion。He,too,satdown,raisedhishead,andfasteneduponmeanintentstare。Hegazedatmewithoutblinking。Idon’tknowwhetheritwastheinfluenceofthestillness,theshadowsandsoundsoftheforest,orperhapsaresultofexhaustion,butI suddenlyfeltuneasyunderthesteadygazeofhisordinarydoggyeyes。IthoughtofFaustandhisbulldog,andofthefactthatnervouspeoplesometimeswhenexhaustedhavehallucinations。 Thatwasenoughtomakemegetuphurriedlyandhurriedlywalkon。Thedogfollowedme。 \"Goaway!\"Ishouted。 Thedogprobablylikedmyvoice,forhegaveagleefuljumpandranaboutinfrontofme。 \"Goaway!\"Ishoutedagain。 Thedoglookedround,staredatmeintently,andwaggedhistailgood-humoredly。Evidentlymythreateningtoneamusedhim。Ioughttohavepattedhim,butIcouldnotgetFaust’sdogoutofmyhead,andthefeelingofpanicgrewmoreandmoreacute…… Darknesswascomingon,whichcompletedmyconfusion,andeverytimethedogranuptomeandhitmewithhistail,likeacowardIshutmyeyes。Thesamethinghappenedaswiththelightinthebelfryandthetruckontherailway:Icouldnotstanditandrushedaway。 AthomeIfoundavisitor,anoldfriend,who,aftergreetingme,begantocomplainthatashewasdrivingtomehehadlosthiswayintheforest,andasplendidvaluabledogofhishaddroppedbehind。 THEBET ITWASadarkautumnnight。Theoldbankerwaswalkingupanddownhisstudyandrememberinghow,fifteenyearsbefore,hehadgivenapartyoneautumnevening。Therehadbeenmanyclevermenthere,andtherehadbeeninterestingconversations。Amongotherthingstheyhadtalkedofcapitalpunishment。Themajorityoftheguests,amongwhomweremanyjournalistsandintellectualmen,disapprovedofthedeathpenalty。Theyconsideredthatformofpunishmentoutofdate,immoral,andunsuitableforChristianStates。Intheopinionofsomeofthemthedeathpenaltyoughttobereplacedeverywherebyimprisonmentforlife。 \"Idon’tagreewithyou,\"saidtheirhostthebanker。\"Ihavenottriedeitherthedeathpenaltyorimprisonmentforlife,butifonemayjudge_apriori_,thedeathpenaltyismoremoralandmorehumanethanimprisonmentforlife。Capitalpunishmentkillsamanatonce,butlifelongimprisonmentkillshimslowly。Whichexecutioneristhemorehumane,hewhokillsyouinafewminutesorhewhodragsthelifeoutofyouinthecourseofmanyyears?\" \"Bothareequallyimmoral,\"observedoneoftheguests,\"fortheybothhavethesameobject——totakeawaylife。TheStateisnotGod。Ithasnottherighttotakeawaywhatitcannotrestorewhenitwantsto。\" Amongtheguestswasayounglawyer,ayoungmanoffive-and-twenty。Whenhewasaskedhisopinion,hesaid: \"Thedeathsentenceandthelifesentenceareequallyimmoral,butifIhadtochoosebetweenthedeathpenaltyandimprisonmentforlife,Iwouldcertainlychoosethesecond。Toliveanyhowisbetterthannotatall。\" Alivelydiscussionarose。Thebanker,whowasyoungerandmorenervousinthosedays,wassuddenlycarriedawaybyexcitement; hestruckthetablewithhisfistandshoutedattheyoungman: \"It’snottrue!I’llbetyoutwomillionsyouwouldn’tstayinsolitaryconfinementforfiveyears。\" \"Ifyoumeanthatinearnest,\"saidtheyoungman,\"I’lltakethebet,butIwouldstaynotfivebutfifteenyears。\" \"Fifteen?Done!\"criedthebanker。\"Gentlemen,Istaketwomillions!\" \"Agreed!YoustakeyourmillionsandIstakemyfreedom!\"saidtheyoungman。 Andthiswild,senselessbetwascarriedout!Thebanker,spoiltandfrivolous,withmillionsbeyondhisreckoning,wasdelightedatthebet。Atsupperhemadefunoftheyoungman,andsaid: \"Thinkbetterofit,youngman,whilethereisstilltime。Tometwomillionsareatrifle,butyouarelosingthreeorfourofthebestyearsofyourlife。Isaythreeorfour,becauseyouwon’tstaylonger。Don’tforgeteither,youunhappyman,thatvoluntaryconfinementisagreatdealhardertobearthancompulsory。Thethoughtthatyouhavetherighttostepoutinlibertyatanymomentwillpoisonyourwholeexistenceinprison。 Iamsorryforyou。\" Andnowthebanker,walkingtoandfro,rememberedallthis,andaskedhimself:\"Whatwastheobjectofthatbet?Whatisthegoodofthatman’slosingfifteenyearsofhislifeandmythrowingawaytwomillions?Canitprovethatthedeathpenaltyisbetterorworsethanimprisonmentforlife?No,no。Itwasallnonsensicalandmeaningless。Onmypartitwasthecapriceofapamperedman,andonhispartsimplegreedformoney……\" Thenherememberedwhatfollowedthatevening。Itwasdecidedthattheyoungmanshouldspendtheyearsofhiscaptivityunderthestrictestsupervisioninoneofthelodgesinthebanker’sgarden。Itwasagreedthatforfifteenyearsheshouldnotbefreetocrossthethresholdofthelodge,toseehumanbeings,tohearthehumanvoice,ortoreceivelettersandnewspapers。Hewasallowedtohaveamusicalinstrumentandbooks,andwasallowedtowriteletters,todrinkwine,andtosmoke。Bythetermsoftheagreement,theonlyrelationshecouldhavewiththeouterworldwerebyalittlewindowmadepurposelyforthatobject。Hemighthaveanythinghewanted—— books,music,wine,andsoon——inanyquantityhedesiredbywritinganorder,butcouldonlyreceivethemthroughthewindow。Theagreementprovidedforeverydetailandeverytriflethatwouldmakehisimprisonmentstrictlysolitary,andboundtheyoungmantostaythere_exactly_fifteenyears,beginningfromtwelveo’clockofNovember14,1870,andendingattwelveo’clockofNovember14,1885。Theslightestattemptonhisparttobreaktheconditions,ifonlytwominutesbeforetheend,releasedthebankerfromtheobligationtopayhimtwomillions。 Forthefirstyearofhisconfinement,asfarasonecouldjudgefromhisbriefnotes,theprisonersufferedseverelyfromlonelinessanddepression。Thesoundsofthepianocouldbeheardcontinuallydayandnightfromhislodge。Herefusedwineandtobacco。Wine,hewrote,excitesthedesires,anddesiresaretheworstfoesoftheprisoner;andbesides,nothingcouldbemoredrearythandrinkinggoodwineandseeingnoone。Andtobaccospoilttheairofhisroom。Inthefirstyearthebookshesentforwereprincipallyofalightcharacter;novelswithacomplicatedloveplot,sensationalandfantasticstories,andsoon。