CHAPTER26。
IFSHEHADDISTURBEDherniece\'stemper-shebeganfromthismomentforwardtotalkagooddealaboutCatherine\'stemper,anarticlewhichuptothattimehadneverbeenmentionedinconnectionwithourheroine-Catherinehadopportunityonthemorrowtorecoverherserenity。Mrs。PennimanhadgivenheramessagefromMorrisTownsendtotheeffectthathewouldcomeandwelcomeherhomeonthedayafterherarrival。Hecameintheafternoon;but,asmaybeimagined,hewasnotonthisoccasionmadefreeofDoctorSloper\'sstudy。Hehadbeencomingandgoing,forthepastyear,socomfortablyandirresponsibly,thathehadacertainsenseofbeingwrongedbyfindinghimselfremindedthathemustnowlimithishorizontothefrontparlor,whichwasCatherine\'sparticularprovince。
\"Iamverygladyouhavecomeback,\"hesaid。\"Itmakesmeveryhappytoseeyouagain。\"Andhelookedather,smiling,fromheadtofoot,thoughitdidnotappearafterwardthatheagreedwithMrs。
Penniman(who,womanlike,wentmoreintodetails,inthinkingherembellished)。
ToCatherineheappearedresplendent;itwassometimebeforeshecouldbelieveagainthatthisbeautifulyoungmanwasherownexclusiveproperty。Theyhadagreatdealofcharacteristiclovers\'
talk-asoftexchangeofinquiriesandassurances。InthesemattersMorrishadanexcellentgrace,whichflungapicturesqueinterestevenovertheaccountofhisdebutinthecommissionbusiness-asubjectastowhichhiscompanionearnestlyquestionedhim。Fromtimetotimehegotupfromthesofawheretheysattogether,andwalkedabouttheroom;afterwhichhecameback,smilingandpassinghishandthroughhishair。Hewasunquiet,aswasnaturalinayoungmanwhohasjustbeenreunitedtoalong-absentmistress,andCatherinemadethereflectionthatshehadneverseenhimsoexcited。Itgaveherpleasure,somehow,tonotethisfact。Heaskedherquestionsabouthertravels,tosomeofwhichshewasunabletoreply,forshehadforgottenthenamesofplacesandtheorderofherfather\'sjourney。
Butforthemomentshewassohappy,soliftedupbythebeliefthathertroublesatlastwereover,thatsheforgottobeashamedofhermeageranswers。Itseemedtohernowthatshecouldmarryhimwithouttheremnantofascruple,orasingletremorsavethosethatbelongedtojoy。Withoutwaitingforhimtoask,shetoldhimthatherfatherhadcomebackinexactlythesamestateofmind-thathehadnotyieldedaninch。
\"Wemustnotexpectitnow,\"shesaid,\"andwemustdowithoutit。\"
Morrissatlookingandsmiling。\"Mypoor,deargirl!\"heexclaimed。
\"Youmustn\'tpityme,\"saidCatherine。\"Idon\'tminditnow;Iamusedtoit。\"
Morriscontinuedtosmile,andthenhegotupandwalkedaboutagain。\"Youhadbetterletmetryhim。\"
\"Trytobringhimover?Youwouldonlymakehimworse,\"Catherineanswered,resolutely。
\"YousaythatbecauseImanageditsobadlybefore。ButIshouldmanageitdifferentlynow。Iammuchwiser;Ihavehadayeartothinkofit。Ihavemoretact。\"
\"Isthatwhatyouhavebeenthinkingofforayear?\"
\"Muchofthetime。Yousee,theideasticksinmycrop。Idon\'tliketobebeaten。\"
\"Howareyoubeatenifwemarry?\"
\"OfcourseIamnotbeatenonthemainissue;butIam,don\'tyousee,onalltherestofit-onthequestionofmyreputation,ofmyrelationswithyourfather,ofmyrelationswithmyownchildren,ifweshouldhaveany。\"
\"Weshallhaveenoughforourchildren;weshallhaveenoughforeverything。Don\'tyouexpecttosucceedinbusiness?\"
\"Brilliantly,andweshallcertainlybeverycomfortable。Butitisn\'tofthemerematerialcomfortIspeak;itisofthemoralcomfort,\"saidMorris,\"oftheintellectualsatisfaction。\"
\"Ihavegreatmoralcomfortnow,\"Catherinedeclared,verysimply。
\"Ofcourseyouhave。Butwithmeitisdifferent。Ihavestakedmyprideonprovingtoyourfatherthatheiswrong,andnowthatIamattheheadofaflourishingbusiness,Icandealwithhimasanequal,I
haveacapitalplan-doletmegoathim!\"
Hestoodbeforeherwithhisbrightface,hisjauntyair,hishandsinhispockets;andshegotup,withhereyesrestingonhisown。\"Pleasedon\'t,Morris;pleasedon\'t,\"shesaid;andtherewasacertainmild,sadfirmnessinhertonewhichheheardforthefirsttime。\"Wemustasknofavorsofhim-wemustasknothingmore。Hewon\'trelent,andnothinggoodwillcomeofit。Iknowitnow-I
haveaverygoodreason。\"
\"Andpraywhatisyourreason?\"
Shehesitatedtobringitout,butatlastitcame。\"Heisnotveryfondofme。\"
\"Oh,bother!\"criedMorris,angrily。
\"Iwouldn\'tsaysuchathingwithoutbeingsure。Isawit,Ifeltit,inEngland,justbeforehecameaway。Hetalkedtomeonenight-
thelastnight-andthenitcameoverme。Youcantellwhenapersonfeelsthatway。Iwouldn\'taccusehimifhehadn\'tmademefeelthatway。Idon\'taccusehim;Ijusttellyouthatthat\'showitis。Hecan\'thelpit;wecan\'tgovernouraffections。DoIgovernmine?
Mightn\'thesaythattome?It\'sbecauseheissofondofmymother,whomwelostsolongago。Shewasbeautiful,andvery,verybrilliant;
heisalwaysthinkingofher。Iamnotatalllikeher;AuntPennimanhastoldmethat。Ofcourseitisn\'tmyfault;butneitherisithisfault。AllImeanis,it\'strue;andit\'sastrongerreason,forhisneverbeingreconciledthansimplyhisdislikeforyou。\"
\"Simply\'?\"criedMorris,withalaugh。\"Iammuchobligedforthat。\"
\"Idon\'tmindabouthisdislikingyounow;Imindeverythingless。I
feeldifferently;Ifeelseparatedfrommyfather。\"
\"Uponmyword,\"saidMorris,\"youareaqueerfamily。\"
\"Don\'tsaythat-don\'tsayanythingunkind,\"thegirlentreated。
\"Youmustbeverykindtomenow,because,Morris,because\"-andshehesitatedamoment-\"becauseIhavedoneagreatdealforyou。\"
\"Oh,Iknowthat,mydear。\"
Shehadspokenuptothismomentwithoutvehemenceoroutwardsignofemotion,gently,reasoningly,onlytryingtoexplain。Butheremotionhadbeenineffectuallysmothered,anditbetrayeditselfatlastinthetremblingofhervoice。\"Itisagreatthingtobeseparatedlikethatfromyourfather,whenyouhaveworshippedhimbefore。Ithasmademeveryunhappy;oritwouldhavemademesoifIdidn\'tloveyou。Youcantellwhenapersonspeakstoyouasif-
asif-\"
\"Asifwhat?\"
\"Asiftheydespisedyou!\"saidCatherine,passionately。\"Hespokethatwaythenightbeforewesailed。Itwasn\'tmuch,butitwasenough,andIthoughtofitonthevoyageallthetime。ThenImadeupmymind。Iwillneveraskhimforanythingagain,orexpectanythingfromhim。Itwouldnotbenaturalnow。Wemustbeveryhappytogether,andwemustnotseemtodependuponhisforgiveness。And,Morris,Morris,youmustneverdespiseme!\"
Thiswasaneasypromisetomake,andMorrismadeitwithfineeffect。Butforthemomentheundertooknothingmoreonerous。
CHAPTER27。
THEDOCTORofcourse,onhisreturn,hadagooddealoftalkwithhissisters。HewasatnogreatpainstonarratehistravelsortocommunicatehisimpressionsofdistantlandstoMrs。Penniman,uponwhomhecontentedhimselfwithbestowingamementoofhisenviableexperienceintheshapeofavelvetgown。Butheconversedwithheratsomelengthaboutmattersnearerhome,andlostnotimeinassuringherthathewasstillaninflexiblefather。
\"IhavenodoubtyouhaveseenagreatdealofMr。Townsend,anddoneyourbesttoconsolehimforCatherine\'sabsence,\"hesaid。\"I
don\'taskyouandyouneedn\'tdenyit。Iwouldn\'tputthequestiontoyoufortheworld,andexposeyoutotheinconvenienceofhavingto-a-excogitateananswer。Noonehasbetrayedyou,andtherehasbeennospyuponyourproceedings。Elizabethhastoldnotales,andhasnevermentionedyouexcepttopraiseyourgoodlooksandgoodspirits。Thethingissimplyaninferenceofmyown-aninduction,asthephilosopherssay。Itseemstomelikelythatyouwouldhaveofferedanasylumtoaninterestingsufferer。Mr。Townsendhasbeenagooddealinthehouse;thereissomethinginthehousethattellsmeso。Wedoctors,youknow,endbyacquiringfineperceptions,anditisimpresseduponmysensoriumthathehassatinthesechairs,inaveryeasyattitude,andwarmedhimselfatthatfire。Idon\'tgrudgehimthecomfortofit;itistheonlyonehewilleverenjoyatmyexpense。Itseemslikely,indeed,thatIshallbeabletoeconomizeathisown。Idon\'tknowwhatyoumayhavesaidtohim,orwhatyoumaysayhereafter;butIshouldlikeyoutoknowthatifyouhaveencouragedhimtobelievethathewillgainanythingbyhangingon,orthatIhavebudgedahairbreadthfromthepositionItookupayearago,youhaveplayedhimatrickforwhichhemayexactreparation。
I\'mnotsurethathemaynotbringasuitagainstyou。Ofcourseyouhavedoneitconscientiously;youhavemadeyourselfbelievethatI
canbetiredout。Thisisthemostbaselesshallucinationthatevervisitedthebrainofagenialoptimist。Iamnotintheleasttired;I
amasfreshaswhenIstarted;Iamgoodforfiftyyearsyet。
Catherineappearsnottohavebudgedanincheither;sheisequallyfresh;soweareaboutwherewewerebefore。This,however,youknowaswellasI。WhatIwishissimplytogiveyounoticeofmyownstateofmind。Takeittoheart,dearLavinia。Bewareofthejustresentmentofadeludedfortunehunter!\"
\"Ican\'tsayIexpectedit,\"saidMrs。Penniman。\"AndIhadasortoffoolishhopethatyouwouldcomehomewithoutthatodiousironicaltonewithwhichyoutreatthemostsacredsubjects。\"
\"Don\'tundervalueirony;itisoftenofgreatuse。Itisnot,however,alwaysnecessary,andIwillshowyouhowgracefullyIcanlayitaside。IshouldliketoknowwhetheryouthinkMorrisTownsendwillhangon?\"
\"Iwillansweryouwithyourownweapons,\"saidMrs。Penniman。
\"Youhadbetterwaitandsee。\"
\"Doyoucallsuchaspeechasthatoneofmyownweapons?Ineversaidanythingsorough。\"
\"Hewillhangonlongenoughtomakeyouveryuncomfortable,then。\"
\"MydearLavinia,\"exclaimedthedoctor,\"doyoucallthatirony?
Icallitpugilism。\"
Mrs。Penniman,however,inspiteofherpugilism,wasagooddealfrightened,andshetookcounselofherfears。Herbrothermeanwhiletookcounsel,withmanyreservations,ofMrs。Almond,towhomhewasnolessgenerousthantoLavinia,andagooddealmorecommunicative。
\"Isupposeshehashadhimthereallthewhile,\"hesaid。\"Imustlookintothestateofmywine。Youneedn\'tmindtellingmenow;I
havealreadysaidallImeantosaytoheronthesubject。\"
\"Ibelievehewasinthehouseagooddeal,\"Mrs。Almondanswered。
\"ButyoumustadmitthatyourleavingLaviniaquitealonewasagreatchangeforher,andthatitwasnaturalsheshouldwantsomesociety。\"
\"Idoadmitthat,andthatiswhyIshallmakenorowaboutthewine;IshallsetitdownascompensationtoLavinia。Sheiscapableoftellingmethatshedrankitallherself。Thinkoftheinconceivablebadtaste,inthecircumstances,ofthatfellowmakingfreewiththehouse-orcomingthereatall!Ifthatdoesn\'tdescribehim,heisindescribable。\"
\"Hisplanistogetwhathecan。Laviniawillhavesupportedhimayear,\"saidMrs。Almond。\"It\'ssomuchgained。\"
\"Shewillhavetosupporthimfortherestofhislife,then,\"criedthedoctor,\"butwithoutwine,astheysayatthetablesd\'hote。\"
\"Catherinetellsmehehassetupabusiness,andismakingagreatdealofmoney。\"
Thedoctorstared。\"Shehasnottoldmethat-andLaviniadidn\'tdeign。Ah!\"hecried,\"Catherinehasgivenmeup。Notthatitmatters,forallthatthebusinessamountsto。\"
\"ShehasnotgivenupMr。Townsend,\"saidMrs。Almond。\"Isawthatinthefirsthalf-minute。Shehascomehomeexactlythesame。\"
\"Exactlythesame;notagrainmoreintelligent。Shedidn\'tnoticeastickorastoneallthewhilewewereaway-notapicturenoraview,notastatuenoracathedral。\"
\"Howcouldshenotice?Shehadotherthingstothinkof;theyareneverforaninstantoutofhermind。Shetouchesmeverymuch。\"
\"Shewouldtouchmeifshedidn\'tirritateme。That\'stheeffectshehasuponmenow。Ihavetriedeverythinguponher;Ireallyhavebeenquitemerciless。Butitisofnousewhatever;sheisabsolutelyglued。Ihavepassed,inconsequence,intotheexasperatedstage。AtfirstIhadagooddealofacertaingenialcuriosityaboutit;Iwantedtoseeifshereallywouldstick。But,goodLord,one\'scuriosityissatisfied!Iseesheiscapableofit,andnowshecanletgo。\"
\"Shewillneverletgo,\"saidMrs。Almond。
\"Takecare,oryouwillexasperatemetoo。Ifshedoesn\'tletgo,shewillbeshakenoff-senttumblingintothedust。That\'sanicepositionformydaughter。Shecan\'tseethatifyouaregoingtobepushed,youhadbetterjump。Andthenshewillcomplainofherbruises。\"
\"Shewillnevercomplain,\"saidMrs。Almond。
\"ThatIshallobjecttoevenmore。ButthedeucewillbethatI
can\'tpreventanything。\"
\"Ifsheistohaveafall,\"saidMrs。Almond,withagentlelaugh,\"wemustspreadasmanycarpetsaswecan。\"Andshecarriedoutthisideabyshowingagreatdealofmotherlykindnesstothegirl。
Mrs。PennimanimmediatelywrotetoMorrisTownsend。Theintimacybetweenthesetwowasbythistimeconsummate,butImustcontentmyselfwithnotingbutafewofitsfeatures。Mrs。Penniman\'sownshareinitwasasingularsentiment,whichmighthavebeenmisinterpreted,butwhichinitselfwasnotdiscreditabletothepoorlady。Itwasaromanticinterestinthisattractiveandunfortunateyoungman,andyetitwasnotsuchaninterestasCatherinemighthavebeenjealousof。Mrs。Pennimanhadnotaparticleofjealousyofherniece。Forherself,shefeltasifshewereMorris\'smotherorsister-amotherorsisterofanemotionaltemperament-andshehadanabsorbingdesiretomakehimcomfortableandhappy。Shehadstriventodosoduringtheyearthatherbrotherleftheranopenfield,andhereffortshadbeenattendedwiththesuccessthathasbeenpointedout。Shehadneverhadachildofherown,andCatherine,whomshehaddoneherbesttoinvestwiththeimportancethatwouldnaturallybelongtoayouthfulPenniman,hadonlypartlyrewardedherzeal。Catherine,asanobjectofaffectionandsolicitude,hadneverhadthatpicturesquecharmwhich(asitseemedtoher)wouldhavebeenanaturalattributeofherownprogeny。
EventhematernalpassioninMrs。Pennimanwouldhavebeenromanticandfactitious,andCatherinewasnotconstitutedtoinspirearomanticpassion。Mrs。Pennimanwasasfondofherasever,butshehadgrowntofeelthatwithCatherineshelackedopportunity。
Sentimentallyspeaking,therefore,shehad(thoughshehadnotdisinheritedherniece)adoptedMorrisTownsend,whogaveheropportunityinabundance。Shewouldhavebeenveryhappytohaveahandsomeandtyrannicalson,andwouldhavetakenanextremeinterestinhisloveaffairs。ThiswasthelightinwhichshehadcometoregardMorris,whohadconciliatedheratfirst,andmadehisimpressionbyhisdelicateandcalculateddeference-asortofexhibitiontowhichMrs。Pennimanwasparticularlysensitive。Hehadlargelyabatedhisdeferenceafterward,forheeconomizedhisresources,buttheimpressionwasmade,andtheyoungman\'sverybrutalitycametohaveasortoffilialvalue。IfMrs。Pennimanhadhadason,shewouldprobablyhavebeenafraidofhim,andatthisstageofournarrativeshewascertainlyafraidofMorrisTownsend。
ThiswasoneoftheresultsofhisdomesticationinWashingtonSquare。
Hetookhiseasewithher-as,forthatmatter,hewouldcertainlyhavedonewithhisownmother。
CHAPTER28。
THELETTERwasawordofwarning;itinformedhimthatthedoctorhadcomehomemoreimpracticablethanever。ShemighthavereflectedthatCatherinewouldsupplyhimwithalltheinformationheneededonthispoint;butweknowthatMrs。Penniman\'sreflectionswererarelyjust;and,moreover,shefeltthatitwasnotforhertodependonwhatCatherinemightdo。Ihavesaidthatheryoungfriendtookhiseasewithher,anditisanillustrationofthefactthathemadenoanswertoherletter。Hetooknoteofitamply;buthelightedhiscigarwithit,andhewaited,intranquilconfidencethatheshouldreceiveanother。\"Hisstateofmindreallyfreezesmyblood,\"Mrs。
Pennimanhadwritten,alludingtoherbrother;anditwouldhaveseemedthatuponthisstatementshecouldhardlyimprove。
Nevertheless,shewroteagain,expressingherselfwiththeaidofadifferentfigure。\"Hishatredofyouburnswithaluridflame-theflamethatneverdies,\"shewrote。\"Butitdoesn\'tlightupthedarknessofyourfuture。Ifmyaffectioncoulddoso,alltheyearsofyourlifewouldbeaneternalsunshine。IcanextractnothingfromC。;
sheissoterriblysecretive,likeherfather。Sheseemstoexpecttobemarriedverysoon,andhasevidentlymadepreparationsinEurope-quantitiesofclothing,tenpairsofshoes,etc。Mydearfriend,youcannotsetupinmarriedlifesimplywithafewpairsofshoes,canyou?Tellmewhatyouthinkofthis。Iamintenselyanxioustoseeyou,Ihavesomuchtosay。Imissyoudreadfully;thehouseseemssoemptywithoutyou。Whatisthenewsdowntown?Isthebusinessextending?Thatdearlittlebusiness。Ithinkit\'ssobraveofyou!
Couldn\'tIcometoyouroffice-justforthreeminutes?Imightpassforacustomer-isthatwhatyoucallthem?Imightcomeintobuysomething-somesharesorsomerailroadthings。Tellmewhatyouthinkofthatplan。Iwouldcarryalittlereticule,likeawomanofthepeople。\"
Inspiteofthesuggestionaboutthereticule,Morrisappearedtothinkpoorlyoftheplan,forhegaveMrs。Pennimannoencouragementwhatevertovisithisoffice,whichhehadalreadyrepresentedtoherasaplacepeculiarlyandunnaturallydifficulttofind。Butasshepersistedindesiringaninterview-uptothelast,aftermonthsofintimatecolloquy,shecalledthesemeetings\"interviews\"-sheagreedthattheyshouldtakeawalktogether,andwasevenkindenoughtoleavehisofficeforthispurposeduringthehoursatwhichbusinessmighthavebeensupposedtobeliveliest。Itwasnosurprisetohim,whentheymetatastreetcorner,inaregionofemptylotsandundevelopedpavements(Mrs。Pennimanbeingattiredasmuchaspossiblelikea\"womanofthepeople\"),tofindthat,inspiteofherurgency,whatshechieflyhadtoconveytohimwastheassuranceofhersympathy。Ofsuchassurances,however,hehadalreadyavoluminouscollection,anditwouldnothavebeenworthhiswhiletoforsakeafruitfulavocationmerelytohearMrs。Pennimansay,forthethousandthtime,thatshehadmadehiscauseherown。Morrishadsomethingofhisowntosay。Itwasnotaneasythingtobringout,andwhileheturneditover,thedifficultymadehimacrimonious。
\"Ohyes,Iknowperfectlythathecombinesthepropertiesofalumpoficeandared-hotcoal,\"heobserved。\"Catherinehasmadeitthoroughlyclear,andyouhavetoldmesotillIamsickofit。Youneedn\'ttellmeagain;Iamperfectlysatisfied。HewillnevergiveusaPenny;Iregardthatasmathematicallyproved。\"
Mrs。Pennimanatthispointhadaninspiration。
\"Couldn\'tyoubringalawsuitagainsthim?\"Shewonderedthatthissimpleexpedienthadneveroccurredtoherbefore。
\"Iwillbringalawsuitagainstyou,\"saidMorris,\"ifyouaskmeanymoresuchaggravatingquestions。Amanshouldknowwhenheisbeaten,\"headded,inamoment。\"Imustgiveherup!\"
Mrs。Pennimanreceivedthisdeclarationinsilence,thoughitmadeherheartbeatalittle。Itfoundherbynomeansunprepared,forshehadaccustomedherselftothethoughtthat,ifMorrisshoulddecidedlynotbeabletogetherbrother\'smoney,itwouldnotdoforhimtomarryCatherinewithoutit。\"Itwouldnotdo,\"wasavaguewayofputtingthething;butMrs。Penniman\'snaturalaffectioncompletedtheidea,which,thoughithadnotasyetbeensocrudelyexpressedbetweenthemasintheformthatMorrishadjustgivenit,hadneverthelessbeenimpliedsooften,incertaineasyintervalsoftalk,ashesatstretchinghislegsinthedoctor\'swell-stuffedarmchairs,thatshehadgrownfirsttoregarditwithanemotionwhichsheflatteredherselfwasphilosophic,andthentohaveasecrettendernessforit。Thefactthatshekepthertendernesssecretproves,ofcourse,thatshewasashamedofit;butshemanagedtoblinkhershamebyremindingherselfthatshewas,afterall,theofficialprotectorofherniece\'smarriage。Herlogicwouldscarcelyhavepassedmusterwiththedoctor。Inthefirstplace,Morrismustgetthemoney,andshewouldhelphimtoit。Inthesecond,itwasplainitwouldnevercometohim,anditwouldbeagrievouspityheshouldmarrywithoutit-ayoungmanwhomightsoeasilyfindsomethingbetter。Afterherbrotherhaddeliveredhimself,onhisreturnfromEurope,ofthatincisivelittleaddressthathasbeenquoted,Morris\'scauseseemedsohopelessthatMrs。Pennimanfixedherattentionexclusivelyuponthelatterbranchofherargument。IfMorrishadbeenherson,shewouldcertainlyhavesacrificedCatherinetoasuperiorconceptionofhisfuture;andtobereadytodoso,asthecasestood,wasthereforeevenafinerdegreeofdevotion。Nevertheless,itcheekedherbreathalittletohavethesacrificialknife,asitwere,suddenlythrustintoherhand。
Morriswalkedalongamoment,andthenherepeated,harshly,\"Imustgiveherup!\"
\"IthinkIunderstandyou,\"saidMrs。Penniman,gently。
\"Icertainlysayitdistinctlyenough-brutallyandvulgarlyenough。\"
Hewasashamedofhimself,andhisshamewasuncomfortable;andashewasextremelyintolerantofdiscomfort,hefeltviciousandcruel。Hewantedtoabusesomebody,andhebegan,cautiously-forhewasalwayscautious-withhimself。
\"Couldn\'tyoutakeherdownalittle?\"heasked。
\"Takeherdown?\"
\"Prepareher-tryandeasemeoff。\"
Mrs。Pennimanstopped,lookingathimverysolemnly。
\"MypoorMorris,doyouknowhowmuchshelovesyou?\"
\"No,Idon\'t。Idon\'twanttoknow。Ihavealwaystriedtokeepfromknowing。Itwouldbetoopainful。\"
\"Shewillsuffermuch,\"saidMrs。Penniman。
\"Youmustconsoleher。Ifyouareasgoodafriendtomeasyoupretendtobe,youwillmanageit。\"
Mrs。Pennimanshookherheadsadly。
\"Youtalkofmy\'pretending\'tolikeyou;butIcan\'tpretendtohateyou。IcanonlytellherIthinkveryhighlyofyou;andhowwillthatconsoleherforlosingyou?\"
\"Thedoctorwillhelpyou。Hewillbedelightedatthethingbeingbrokenoff;andasheisaknowingfellow,hewillinventsomethingtocomforther。\"
\"Hewillinventanewtorture,\"criedMrs。Penniman。\"Heavendeliverherfromherfather\'scomfort!Itwillconsistofhiscrowingoverher,andsaying,\'Ialwaystoldyouso!\'\"
Morriscoloredamostuncomfortablered。
\"Ifyoudon\'tconsoleheranybetterthanyouconsoleme,youcertainlywon\'tbeofmuchuse。It\'sadamneddisagreeablenecessity;Ifeelitextremely,andyououghttomakeiteasyforme。\"
\"Iwillbeyourfriendforlife,\"Mrs。Pennimandeclared。
\"Bemyfriendnow!\"andMorriswalkedon。
Shewentwithhim;shewasalmosttrembling。
\"Shouldyoulikemetotellher?\"sheasked。
\"Youmustn\'ttellher,butyoucan-youcan-\"Andhehesitated,tryingtothinkwhatMrs。Pennimancoulddo。\"Youcanexplaintoherwhyitis。It\'sbecauseIcan\'tbringmyselftostepinbetweenherandherfather-togivehimthepretexthegraspsatsoeagerly(it\'sahideoussight!)fordeprivingherofherrights。\"
Mrs。Pennimanfeltwithremarkablepromptitudethecharmofthisformula。
\"That\'ssolikeyou,\"shesaid。\"It\'ssofinelyfelt。\"
Morrisgavehisstickanangryswing。
\"Ohdamnation!\"heexclaimed,perversely。
Mrs。Penniman,however,wasnotdiscouraged。
\"Itmayturnoutbetterthanyouthink。Catherineis,afterall,soverypeculiar。\"Andshethoughtshemighttakeituponherselftoassurehimthat,whateverhappened,thegirlwouldbeveryquiet-
shewouldn\'tmakeanoise。Theyextendedtheirwalk,andwhiletheyproceededMrs。Pennimantookuponherselfotherthingsbesides,andendedbyhavingassumedaconsiderableburden;Morrisbeingreadyenough,asmaybeimagined,toputeverythingoffuponher。Buthewasnotforasingleinstantthedupeofherblunderingalacrity;heknewthatofwhatshepromisedshewascompetenttoperformbutaninsignificantfraction,andthemoresheprofessedherwillingnesstoservehim,thegreaterfoolhethoughther。
\"Whatwillyoudoifyoudon\'tmarryher?\"sheventuredtoinquireinthecourseofthisconversation。
\"Somethingbrilliant,\"saidMorris。\"Shouldn\'tyoulikemetodosomethingbrilliant?\"
TheideagaveMrs。Pennimanexceedingpleasure。
\"Ishallfeelsadlytakeninifyoudon\'t。\"
\"Ishallhaveto,tomakeupforthis。Thisisn\'tatallbrilliant,youknow。\"
Mrs。Pennimanmusedalittle,asiftheremightbesomewayofmakingoutthatitwas;butshehadtogiveuptheattempt,and,tocarryofftheawkwardnessoffailure,sheriskedanewinquiry。
\"Doyoumean-doyoumeananothermarriage?\"
Morrisgreetedthisquestionwithareflectionwhichwashardlythelessimpudentfrombeinginaudible。\"Surelywomenaremorecrudethanmen!\"Andthenheanswered,audibly,\"Neverintheworld!\"
Mrs。Pennimanfeltdisappointedandsnubbed,andsherelievedherselfinalittlevaguelysarcasticcry。Hewascertainlyperverse。
\"Igiveherup,notforanotherwoman,butforawidercareer,\"
Morrisannounced。
Thiswasverygrand;butstillMrs。Penniman,whofeltthatshehadexposedherself,wasfaintlyrancorous。
\"Doyoumeannevertocometoseeheragain?\"sheasked,withsomesharpness。
\"Ohno,Ishallcomeagain;butwhatistheuseofdraggingitout?Ihavebeenfourtimessinceshecameback,andit\'sterriblyawkwardwork。Ican\'tkeepitupindefinitely;sheoughtn\'ttoexpectthat,youknow。Awomanshouldneverkeepamandangling,\"headded,finely。
\"Ah,butyoumusthaveyourlastparting!\"urgedhiscompanion,inwhoseimaginationtheideaoflastpartingsoccupiedaplaceinferiorindignityonlytothatoffirstmeetings。
CHAPTER29。
HECAMEAGAIN,withoutmanagingthelastparting;andagainandagain,withoutfindingthatMrs。Pennimanhadasyetdonemuchtopavethepathofretreatwithflowers。Itwasdevilishawkward,ashesaid,andhefeltalivelyanimosityforCatherine\'saunt,who,ashehadnowquiteformedthehabitofsayingtohimself,haddraggedhimintothemess,andwasboundincommoncharitytogethimoutofit。
Mrs。Penniman,totellthetruth,had,intheseclusionofherownapartment-and,Imayadd,amidthesuggestivenessofCatherine\'s,whichworeinthosedaystheappearanceofthatofayoungladylayingouthertrousseau-Mrs。Pennimanhadmeasuredherresponsibilities,andtakenfrightattheirmagnitude。ThetaskofpreparingCatherineandeasingoffMorrispresenteddifficultieswhichincreasedintheexecution,andevenledtheimpulsiveLaviniatoaskherselfwhetherthemodificationoftheyoungman\'soriginalprojecthadbeenconceivedinahappyspirit。Abrilliantfuture,awidercareer,aconscienceexemptfromthereproachofinterferencebetweenayoungladyandhernaturalrights-theseexcellentthingsmightbetootroublesomelypurchased。FromCatherineherselfMrs。Pennimanreceivednoassistancewhatever;thepoorgirlwasapparentlywithoutsuspicionofherdanger。Shelookedatherloverwitheyesofundiminishedtrust,andthoughshehadlessconfidenceinherauntthaninayoungmanwithwhomshehadexchangedsomanytendervows,shegavehernohandleforexplainingorconfessing。Mrs。Penniman,falteringandwavering,declaredCatherinewasverystupid,putoffthegreatscene,asshewouldhavecalledit,fromdaytoday,andwanderedabout,veryuncomfortably,withherunexplodedbombinherhands。
Morris\'sownsceneswereverysmallonesjustnow;buteventhesewerebeyondhisstrength。Hemadehisvisitsasbriefaspossible,and,whilehesatwithhismistress,foundterriblylittletotalkabout。
Shewaswaitingforhim,invulgarparlance,tonametheday;andsolongashewasunpreparedtobeexplicitonthispoint,itseemedamockerytopretendtotalkaboutmattersmoreabstract。Shehadnoairsandnoarts;sheneverattemptedtodisguiseherexpectancy。
Shewaswaitingonhisgoodpleasure,andwouldwaitmodestlyandpatiently;hishangingbackatthissupremetimemightappearstrange,butofcoursehemusthaveagoodreasonforit。Catherinewouldhavemadeawifeofthegentle,old-fashionedpattern-regardingreasonsasfavorsandwindfalls,butnomoreexpectingoneeverydaythanshewouldhaveexpectedabouquetofcamellias。Duringtheperiodofherengagement,however,ayoungladyevenofthemostslenderpretensionscountsuponmorebouquetsthanatothertimes;andtherewasawantofperfumeintheairatthismomentwhichatlastexcitedthegirl\'salarm。
\"Areyousick?\"sheaskedofMorris。\"Youseemsorestless,andyoulookpale。\"
\"Iamnotatallwell,\"saidMorris;anditoccurredtohimthat,ifhecouldonlymakeherpityhimenough,hemightgetoff。
\"Iamafraidyouareoverworked;yououghtn\'ttoworksomuch。\"
\"Imustdothat。\"Andthenheadded,withasortofcalculatedbrutality,\"Idon\'twanttooweyoueverything。\"
\"Ah,howcanyousaythat?\"
\"Iamtooproud,\"saidMorris。
\"Yes-youaretooproud。\"
\"Well,youmusttakemeasIam,\"hewenton。\"Youcanneverchangeme。\"
\"Idon\'twanttochangeyou,\"shesaid,gently。\"Iwilltakeyouasyouare。\"Andshestoodlookingathim。
\"Youknowpeopletalktremendouslyaboutaman\'smarryingarichgirl,\"Morrisremarked。\"It\'sexcessivelydisagreeable。\"
\"ButIamnotrich,\"saidCatherine。
\"Youarerichenoughtomakemetalkedabout。\"
\"Ofcourseyouaretalkedabout。It\'sanhonor。\"
\"It\'sanhonorIcouldeasilydispensewith。\"
Shewasonthepointofaskinghimwhetheritwasnotacompensationforthisannoyancethatthepoorgirlwhohadthemisfortunetobringituponhimlovedhimsodearlyandbelievedinhimsotruly;
butshehesitated,thinkingthatthiswouldperhapsseemanexactingspeech,andwhileshehesitated,hesuddenlylefther。
Thenexttimehecame,however,shebroughtitout,andshetoldhimagainthathewastooproud。Herepeatedthathecouldn\'tchange,andthistimeshefelttheimpulsetosaythatwithalittleefforthemightchange。
Sometimeshethoughtthatifhecouldonlymakeaquarrelwithheritmighthelphim;butthequestionwashowtoquarrelwithayoungwomanwhohadsuchtreasuresofconcession。\"Isupposeyouthinktheeffortisallonyourside,\"hebrokeout。\"Don\'tyoubelievethatI
havemyownefforttomake?\"
\"It\'sallyoursnow,\"shesaid。\"Myeffortisfinishedanddonewith。\"
\"Well,mineisnot。\"
\"Wemustbearthingstogether,\"saidCatherine。\"That\'swhatweoughttodo。\"
Morrisattemptedanaturalsmile。\"Therearesomethingswhichwecan\'tverywellbeartogether-forinstance,separation。\"
\"Whydoyouspeakofseparation?\"
\"Ah,youdon\'tlikeit;Iknewyouwouldn\'t。\"
\"Whereareyougoing,Morris?\"shesuddenlyasked。
Hefixedhiseyeonheramoment,andforapartofthatmomentshewasafraidofit。\"Willyoupromisenottomakeascene?\"
\"Ascene-doImakescenes?\"
\"Allwomendo!\"saidMorris,withthetoneoflargeexperience。
\"Idon\'t。Whereareyougoing?\"
\"IfIshouldsayIwasgoingawayonbusiness,shouldyouthinkitverystrange?\"
Shewonderedamoment,gazingathim。\"Yes-no。Notifyouwilltakemewithyou。\"
\"Takeyouwithme-onbusiness?\"
\"Whatisyourbusiness?Yourbusinessistobewithme。\"
\"Idon\'tearnmylivingwithyou,\"saidMorris。\"Or,rather,\"hecried,withasuddeninspiration,\"that\'sjustwhatIdo-orwhattheworldsaysIdo!\"
Thisoughtperhapstohavebeenagreatstroke,butitmiscarried。
\"Whereareyougoing?\"Catherinesimplyrepeated。
\"ToNewOrleans-aboutbuyingsomecotton。\"
\"IamperfectlywillingtogotoNewOrleans,\"Catherinesaid。
\"DoyousupposeIwouldtakeyoutoanestofyellowfever?\"criedMorris。\"DoyousupposeIwouldexposeyouatsuchatimeasthis?\"
\"Ifthereisyellowfever,whyshouldyougo?Morris,youmustnotgo。\"
\"Itistomakesixthousanddollars,\"saidMorris。\"Doyougrudgemethatsatisfaction?\"
\"Wehavenoneedofsixthousanddollars。Youthinktoomuchaboutmoney。\"
\"Youcanaffordtosaythat。Thisisagreatchance;weheardofitlastnight。\"Andheexplainedtoherinwhatthechanceconsisted;andtoldheralongstory,goingovermorethanonceseveralofthedetails,abouttheremarkablestrokeofbusinesswhichheandhispartnerhadplannedbetweenthem。
ButCatherine\'simagination,forreasonsbestknowntoherself,absolutelyrefusedtobefired。\"IfyoucangotoNewOrleans,Icango,\"shesaid。\"Whyshouldn\'tyoucatchyellowfeverquiteaseasilyasI?Iameverybitasstrongasyou,andnotintheleastafraidofanyfever。WhenwewereinEuropewewereinveryunhealthyplaces;
myfatherusedtomakemetakesomepills。Inevercaughtanything,andIneverwasnervous。Whatwillbetheuseofsixthousanddollarsifyoudieofafever?Whenpersonsaregoingtobemarriedtheyoughtn\'ttothinksomuchaboutbusiness。Youshouldn\'tthinkaboutcotton;youshouldthinkaboutme。YoucangotoNewOrleanssomeothertime-therewillalwaysbeplentyofcotton。Itisn\'tthemomenttochoose。Wehavewaitedtoolongalready。\"Shespokemoreforciblyandvolublythanhehadeverheardher,andsheheldhisarminhertwohands。
\"Yousaidyouwouldn\'tmakeascene,\"criedMorris。\"Icallthisascene。\"
\"It\'syouthataremakingit。Ihaveneveraskedyouanythingbefore。Wehavewaitedtoolongalready。\"Anditwasacomforttohertothinkthatshehadhithertoaskedsolittle;itseemedtomakeherrighttoinsistthegreaternow。
Morrisbethoughthimselfalittle。\"Verywell,then;wewon\'ttalkaboutitanymore。Iwilltransactmybusinessbyletter。\"Andhebegantosmoothhishat,asiftotakeleave。
\"Youwon\'tgo?\"andshestoodlookingupathim。
Hecouldnotgiveuphisideaofprovokingaquarrel;itwassomuchthesimplestway。Hebenthiseyesonherupturnedfacewiththedarkestfrownhecouldachieve。\"Youarenotdiscreet;youmustn\'tbullyme。\"
But,asusual,sheconcededeverything。\"No,Iamnotdiscreet;I
knowIamtoopressing。Butisn\'titnatural?Itisonlyforamoment。\"
\"Inamomentyoumaydoagreatdealofharm。TryandbecalmerthenexttimeIcome。\"
\"Whenwillyoucome?\"
\"Doyouwanttomakeconditions?\"Morrisasked。\"IwillcomenextSaturday。\"
\"Cometomorrow,\"Catherinebegged。\"Iwantyoutocometomorrow。I
willbeveryquiet,\"sheadded;andheragitationhadbythistimebecomesogreatthattheassurancewasnotunbecoming。Asuddenfearhadcomeoverher;itwaslikethesolidconjunctionofadozendisembodieddoubts,andherimagination,atasinglebound,hadtraversedanenormousdistance。Allherbeing,forthemoment,wascenteredinthewishtokeephimintheroom。
Morrisbenthisheadandkissedherforehead。\"Whenyouarequiet,youareperfection,\"hesaid,\"butwhenyouareviolent,youarenotincharacter。\"
ItwasCatherine\'swishthatthereshouldbenoviolenceabouthersavethebeatingofherheart,whichshecouldnothelp;andshewenton,asgentlyaspossible,\"Willyoupromisetocometomorrow?\"
\"IsaidSaturday!\"Morrisanswered,smiling。Hetriedafrownatonemoment,asmileatanother;hewasathiswit\'send。
\"Yes,Saturdaytoo,\"sheanswered,tryingtosmile。\"Buttomorrowfirst。\"Hewasgoingtothedoor,andshewentwithhimquickly。Sheleanedhershoulderagainstit;itseemedtoherthatshewoulddoanythingtokeephim。
\"IfIampreventedfromcomingtomorrow,youwillsayIhavedeceivedyou,\"hesaid。
\"Howcanyoubeprevented?Youcancomeifyouwill。\"
\"Iamabusyman-Iamnotadangler!\"criedMorris,sternly。
Hisvoicewassohardandunnaturalthat,withahelplesslookathim,sheturnedaway;andthenhequicklylaidhishandonthedoorknob。Hefeltasifhewereabsolutelyrunningawayfromher。
Butinaninstantshewasclosetohimagain,andmurmuringinatonenonethelesspenetratingforbeinglow,\"Morris,youaregoingtoleaveme。\"
\"Yes,foralittlewhile。\"
\"Forhowlong?\"
\"Tillyouarereasonableagain。\"
\"Ishallneverbereasonable,inthatway。\"Andshetriedtokeephimlonger;itwasalmostastruggle。\"ThinkofwhatIhavedone!\"shebrokeout。\"Morris,Ihavegivenupeverything。\"
\"Youshallhaveeverythingback。\"
\"Youwouldn\'tsaythatifyoudidn\'tmeansomething。Whatisit?
Whathashappened?WhathaveIdone?Whathaschangedyou?\"
\"Iwillwritetoyou-thatisbetter,\"Morrisstammered。
\"Ah,youwon\'tcomeback!\"shecried,burstingintotears。
\"DearCatherine,\"hesaid,\"don\'tbelievethat。Ipromiseyouthatyoushallseemeagain。\"Andhemanagedtogetaway,andtoclosethedoorbehindhim。
CHAPTER30。
ITWASALMOSTthelastoutbreakofpassionofherlife;atleast,sheneverindulgedinanotherthattheworldknewanythingabout。
Butthisonewaslongandterrible;sheflungherselfonthesofaandgaveherselfuptohergriefShehardlyknewwhathadhappened;
ostensiblyshehadonlyhadadifferencewithherlover,asothergirlshadhadbefore,andthethingwasnotonlynotarupture,butshewasundernoobligationtoregarditevenasamenace。
Nevertheless,shefeltawound,evenifhehadnotdealtit;itseemedtoherthatamaskhadsuddenlyfallenfromhisface。Hehadwishedtogetawayfromher;hehadbeenangryandcruel,andsaidstrangethings,withstrangelooks。Shewassmotheredandstunned;sheburiedherheadinthecushions,sobbingandtalkingtoherself。Butatlastsheraisedherself,withthefearthateitherherfatherorMrs。Pennimanwouldcomein;andthenshesatthere,staringbeforeher,whiletheroomgrewdarker。Shesaidtoherselfthatperhapshewouldcomebacktotellherhehadnotmeantwhathesaid;andshelistenedforhisringatthedoor,tryingtobelievethatthiswasprobable。Alongtimepassed,butMorrisremainedabsent;theshadowsgathered;theeveningsettleddownonthemeagereleganceofthelight,clear-coloredroom;thefirewentout。Whenithadgrowndark,Catherinewenttothewindowandlookedout;shestoodthereforhalfanhour,onthemerechancethathewouldcomeupthesteps。Atlastsheturnedaway,forshesawherfathercomein。Hehadseenheratthewindowlookingout,andhestoppedamomentatthebottomofthewhitesteps,andgravely,withanairofexaggeratedcourtesy,liftedhishattoher。Thegesturewassoincongruoustotheconditionshewasin,thisstatelytributeofrespecttoapoorgirldespisedandforsakenwassooutofplace,thatthethinggaveherakindofhorror,andshehurriedawaytoherroom。ItseemedtoherthatshehadgivenMorrisup。
Shehadtoshowherselfhalfanhourlater,andshewassustainedattablebytheimmensityofherdesirethatherfathershouldnotperceivethatanythinghadhappened。Thiswasagreathelptoherafterward,anditservedher(thoughneverasmuchasshesupposed)
fromthefirst。OnthisoccasionDoctorSloperwasrathertalkative。
Hetoldagreatmanystoriesaboutawonderfulpoodlethathehadseenatthehouseofanoldladywhomhevisitedprofessionally。
Catherinenotonlytriedtoappeartolistentotheanecdotesofthepoodle,butsheendeavoredtointerestherselfinthem,soasnottothinkofherscenewithMorris。Thatperhapswasanhallucination;
hewasmistaken,shewasjealous;peopledidn\'tchangelikethatfromonedaytoanother。Thensheknewthatshehadhaddoubtsbefore-
strangesuspicions,thatwereatoncevagueandacute-andthathehadbeendifferenteversinceherreturnfromEurope:whereuponshetriedagaintolistentoherfather,whotoldastorysoremarkablywell。Afterwardshewentstraighttoherownroom;itwasbeyondherstrengthtoundertaketospendtheeveningwithheraunt。Alltheevening,alone,shequestionedherself。Hertroublewasterrible;
butwasitathingofherimagination,engenderedbyanextravagantsensibility,ordiditrepresentaclear-cutreality,andhadtheworstthatwaspossibleactuallycometopass?Mrs。Penniman,withadegreeoftactthatwasasunusualasitwascommendable,tookthelineofleavingheralone。Thetruthis,thathersuspicionshavingbeenaroused,sheindulgedadesire,naturaltoatimidperson,thattheexplosionshouldbelocalized。Solongastheairstillvibratedshekeptoutoftheway。
ShepassedandrepassedCatherine\'sdoorseveraltimesinthecourseoftheevening,asifsheexpectedtohearaplaintivemoanbehindit。
Buttheroomremainedperfectlystill;andaccordinglythelastthingbeforeretiringtoherowncouch,sheappliedforadmittance。
Catherinewassittingup,andhadabookthatshepretendedtobereading。Shehadnowishtogotobed,forshehadnoexpectationofsleeping。AfterMrs。Pennimanhadlefthershesatuphalfthenight,andsheofferedhervisitornoinducementtoremain。Herauntcamestealinginverygently,andapproachedherwithgreatsolemnity。
\"Iamafraidyouareintrouble,mydear。CanIdoanythingtohelpyou?\"
\"Iamnotinanytroublewhatever,anddonotneedanyhelp,\"saidCatherine,fibbingroundly,andprovingtherebythatnotonlyourfaults,butourmostinvoluntarymisfortunes,tendtocorruptourmorals。
\"Hasnothinghappenedtoyou?\"
\"Nothingwhatever。\"
\"Areyouverysure,dear?\"
\"Perfectlysure。\"
\"AndcanIreallydonothingforyou?\"
\"Nothing,Aunt,butkindlyleavemealone,\"saidCatherine。
Mrs。Penniman,thoughshehadbeenafraidoftoowarmawelcomebefore,wasnowdisappointedatsocoldaone;andinrelatingafterward,asshedidtomanypersons,andwithconsiderablevariationsofdetail,thehistoryoftheterminationofherniece\'sengagement,shewasusuallycarefultomentionthattheyounglady,onacertainoccasion,had\"hustled\"heroutoftheroom。ItwascharacteristicofMrs。Pennimanthatsherelatedthisfact,notintheleastoutofmalignitytoCatherine,whomsheverysufficientlypitied,butsimplyfromanaturaldispositiontoembellishanysubjectthatshetouched。
Catherine,asIhavesaid,satuphalfthenight,asifshestillexpectedtohearMorrisTownsendringatthedoor。Onthemorrowthisexpectationwaslessunreasonable;butitwasnotgratifiedbythereappearanceoftheyoungman。Neitherhadhewritten;therewasnotawordofexplanationorreassurance。FortunatelyforCatherine,shecouldtakerefugefromherexcitement,whichhadnowbecomeintense,inherdeterminationthatherfathershouldseenothingofit。Howwellshedeceivedherfatherweshallhaveoccasiontolearn;butherinnocentartswereoflittleavailbeforeapersonoftherareperspicacityofMrs。Penniman。Thisladyeasilysawthatshewasagitated,andiftherewasanyagitationgoingforward,Mrs。
Pennimanwasnotapersontoforfeithernaturalshareinit。Shereturnedtothechargethenextevening,andrequestedherniecetoconfideinher-tounburdenherheart。Perhapssheshouldbeabletoexplaincertainthingsthatnowseemeddark,andthatsheknewmoreaboutthanCatherinesupposed。IfCatherinehadbeenfrigidthenightbefore,todayshewashaughty。
\"Youarecompletelymistaken,andIhavenottheleastideawhatyoumean。Idon\'tknowwhatyouaretryingtofastenonme,andIhaveneverhadlessneedofanyone\'sexplanationsinmylife。\"
Inthiswaythegirldeliveredherself,andfromhourtohourkeptherauntatbay。FromhourtohourMrs。Penniman\'scuriositygrew。ShewouldhavegivenherlittlefingertoknowwhatMorrishadsaidanddone,whattonehehadtaken,whatpretexthehadfound。Shewrotetohim,naturally,torequestaninterview;butshereceived,asnaturally,noanswertoherpetition。Morriswasnotinawritingmood;forCatherinehadaddressedhimtwoshortnoteswhichmetwithnoacknowledgment。ThesenotesweresobriefthatImaygivethementire。\"Won\'tyougivemesomesignthatyoudidn\'tmeantobesocruelasyouseemedonTuesday?\"-thatwasthefirst;theotherwasalittlelonger。\"IfIwasunreasonableorsuspiciousonTuesday-ifI
annoyedyouortroubledyouinanyway-Ibegyourforgiveness,andIpromiseneveragaintobesofoolish。Iampunishedenough,andI
don\'tunderstand。DearMorris,youarekillingme!\"ThesenotesweredispatchedontheFridayandSaturday;butSaturdayandSundaypassedwithoutbringingthepoorgirlthesatisfactionshedesired。