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类别:其他 作者:Stephen Crane字数:25746更新时间:19/01/05 16:03:17
AnEpisodeoftheAmericanCivilWarCHAPTERI。 THEcoldpassedreluctantlyfromtheearth,andtheretiringfogsrevealedanarmystretchedoutonthehills,resting。Asthelandscapechangedfrombrowntogreen,thearmyawak— ened,andbegantotremblewitheagernessatthenoiseofrumors。Itcastitseyesupontheroads,whichweregrowingfromlongtroughsofliquidmudtoproperthoroughfares。Ariver,amber— tintedintheshadowofitsbanks,purledatthearmy’sfeet;andatnight,whenthestreamhadbecomeofasorrowfulblackness,onecouldseeacrossitthered,eyelikegleamofhostilecamp— firessetinthelowbrowsofdistanthills。 Onceacertaintallsoldierdevelopedvirtuesandwentresolutelytowashashirt。Hecameflyingbackfromabrookwavinghisgarmentbannerlike。Hewasswelledwithatalehehadheardfromareliablefriend,whohadhearditfromatruthfulcavalryman,whohadhearditfromhistrustworthybrother,oneoftheorder— liesatdivisionheadquarters。Headoptedtheimportantairofaheraldinredandgold。 \"We’regoin’t’movet’morrah——sure,\"hesaidpompouslytoagroupinthecompanystreet。\"We’regoin’’wayuptheriver,cutacross,an’comearoundinbehint’em。\" Tohisattentiveaudiencehedrewaloudandelaborateplanofaverybrilliantcampaign。 Whenhehadfinished,theblue—clothedmenscatteredintosmallarguinggroupsbetweentherowsofsquatbrownhuts。Anegroteamsterwhohadbeendancinguponacrackerboxwiththehilariousencouragementoftwoscoresoldierswasdeserted。Hesatmournfullydown。Smokedriftedlazilyfromamultitudeofquaintchim— neys。 \"It’salie!that’sallitis——athunderin’lie!\" saidanotherprivateloudly。Hissmoothfacewasflushed,andhishandswerethrustsulkilyintohistrousers’pockets。Hetookthematterasanaffronttohim。\"Idon’tbelievethedernedoldarmy’severgoingtomove。We’reset。I’vegotreadytomoveeighttimesinthelasttwoweeks,andweain’tmovedyet。\" Thetallsoldierfeltcalledupontodefendthetruthofarumorhehimselfhadintro— duced。Heandtheloudonecameneartofight— ingoverit。 Acorporalbegantoswearbeforetheassem— blage。Hehadjustputacostlyboardfloorinhishouse,hesaid。Duringtheearlyspringhehadrefrainedfromaddingextensivelytothecomfortofhisenvironmentbecausehehadfeltthatthearmymightstartonthemarchatanymoment。Oflate,however,hehadbeenim— pressedthattheywereinasortofeternalcamp。 Manyofthemenengagedinaspiriteddebate。 Oneoutlinedinapeculiarlylucidmanneralltheplansofthecommandinggeneral。Hewasop— posedbymenwhoadvocatedthattherewereotherplansofcampaign。Theyclamoredateachother,numbersmakingfutilebidsforthepop— ularattention。Meanwhile,thesoldierwhohadfetchedtherumorbustledaboutwithmuchimportance。Hewascontinuallyassailedbyquestions。 \"What’sup,Jim?\" \"Th’army’sgoin’t’move。\" \"Ah,whatyehtalkin’about?Howyehknowitis?\" \"Well,yehkinb’lievemeernot,jestasyehlike。Idon’tcareahang。\" Therewasmuchfoodforthoughtintheman— nerinwhichhereplied。Hecameneartocon— vincingthembydisdainingtoproduceproofs。 Theygrewexcitedoverit。 Therewasayouthfulprivatewholistenedwitheagerearstothewordsofthetallsoldierandtothevariedcommentsofhiscomrades。 Afterreceivingafillofdiscussionsconcerningmarchesandattacks,hewenttohishutandcrawledthroughanintricateholethatserveditasadoor。Hewishedtobealonewithsomenewthoughtsthathadlatelycometohim。 Helaydownonawidebankthatstretchedacrosstheendoftheroom。Intheotherend,crackerboxesweremadetoserveasfurniture。 Theyweregroupedaboutthefireplace。Apic— turefromanillustratedweeklywasuponthelogwalls,andthreerifleswereparalleledonpegs。 Equipmentshuntonhandyprojections,andsometindisheslayuponasmallpileoffirewood。A foldedtentwasservingasaroof。Thesunlight,without,beatinguponit,madeitglowalightyellowshade。Asmallwindowshotanobliquesquareofwhiterlightupontheclutteredfloor。 Thesmokefromthefireattimesneglectedtheclaychimneyandwreathedintotheroom,andthisflimsychimneyofclayandsticksmadeend— lessthreatstosetablazethewholeestablishment。 Theyouthwasinalittletranceofastonish— ment。Sotheywereatlastgoingtofight。Onthemorrow,perhaps,therewouldbeabattle,andhewouldbeinit。Foratimehewasobligedtolabortomakehimselfbelieve。Hecouldnotacceptwithassuranceanomenthathewasabouttomingleinoneofthosegreataffairsoftheearth。 Hehad,ofcourse,dreamedofbattlesallhislife——ofvagueandbloodyconflictsthathadthrilledhimwiththeirsweepandfire。Invisionshehadseenhimselfinmanystruggles。Hehadimaginedpeoplessecureintheshadowofhiseagle—eyedprowess。Butawakehehadregardedbattlesascrimsonblotchesonthepagesofthepast。Hehadputthemasthingsofthebygonewithhisthought—imagesofheavycrownsandhighcastles。Therewasaportionoftheworld’shistorywhichhehadregardedasthetimeofwars,butit,hethought,hadbeenlonggoneoverthehorizonandhaddisappearedforever。 Fromhishomehisyouthfuleyeshadlookeduponthewarinhisowncountrywithdistrust。 Itmustbesomesortofaplayaffair。HehadlongdespairedofwitnessingaGreeklikestruggle。 Suchwouldbenomore,hehadsaid。Menwerebetter,ormoretimid。Secularandreligiouseducationhadeffacedthethroat—grapplingin— stinct,orelsefirmfinanceheldincheckthepas— sions。 Hehadburnedseveraltimestoenlist。Talesofgreatmovementsshooktheland。TheymightnotbedistinctlyHomeric,butthereseemedtobemuchgloryinthem。Hehadreadofmarches,sieges,conflicts,andhehadlongedtoseeitall。 Hisbusymindhaddrawnforhimlargepicturesextravagantincolor,luridwithbreathlessdeeds。 Buthismotherhaddiscouragedhim。Shehadaffectedtolookwithsomecontemptuponthequalityofhiswarardorandpatriotism。Shecouldcalmlyseatherselfandwithnoapparentdifficultygivehimmanyhundredsofreasonswhyhewasofvastlymoreimportanceonthefarmthanonthefieldofbattle。Shehadhadcertainwaysofexpressionthattoldhimthatherstatementsonthesubjectcamefromadeepcon— viction。Moreover,onherside,washisbeliefthatherethicalmotiveintheargumentwasimpregnable。 Atlast,however,hehadmadefirmrebellionagainstthisyellowlightthrownuponthecolorofhisambitions。Thenewspapers,thegossipofthevillage,hisownpicturingshadarousedhimtoanuncheckabledegree。Theywereintruthfightingfinelydownthere。Almosteverydaythenewspapersprintedaccountsofadecisivevictory。 Onenight,ashelayinbed,thewindshadcarriedtohimtheclangoringofthechurchbellassomeenthusiastjerkedtheropefranticallytotellthetwistednewsofagreatbattle。Thisvoiceofthepeoplerejoicinginthenighthadmadehimshiverinaprolongedecstasyofex— citement。Later,hehadgonedowntohismother’sroomandhadspokenthus:\"Ma,I’mgoingtoenlist。\" \"Henry,don’tyoubeafool,\"hismotherhadreplied。Shehadthencoveredherfacewiththequilt。Therewasanendtothematterforthatnight。 Nevertheless,thenextmorninghehadgonetoatownthatwasnearhismother’sfarmandhadenlistedinacompanythatwasformingthere。 Whenhehadreturnedhomehismotherwasmilkingthebrindlecow。Fourothersstoodwaiting。\"Ma,I’veenlisted,\"hehadsaidtoherdiffidently。Therewasashortsilence。\"TheLord’swillbedone,Henry,\"shehadfinallyreplied,andhadthencontinuedtomilkthebrindlecow。 Whenhehadstoodinthedoorwaywithhissoldier’sclothesonhisback,andwiththelightofexcitementandexpectancyinhiseyesalmostdefeatingtheglowofregretforthehomebonds,hehadseentwotearsleavingtheirtrailsonhismother’sscarredcheeks。 Still,shehaddisappointedhimbysayingnothingwhateveraboutreturningwithhisshieldoronit。Hehadprivatelyprimedhimselfforabeautifulscene。Hehadpreparedcertainsen— tenceswhichhethoughtcouldbeusedwithtouchingeffect。Butherwordsdestroyedhisplans。Shehaddoggedlypeeledpotatoesandaddressedhimasfollows:\"Youwatchout,Henry,an’takegoodcareofyerselfinthisherefightingbusiness——youwatchout,an’takegoodcareofyerself。Don’tgoa—thinkin’youcanlickthehullrebelarmyatthestart,becauseyehcan’t。Yerjestonelittlefelleramongstahulllotofothers,andyeh’vegottokeepquietan’dowhattheytellyeh。Iknowhowyouare,Henry。 \"I’veknetyeheightpairofsocks,Henry,andI’veputinallyerbestshirts,becauseIwantmyboytobejestaswarmandcomf’ableasanybodyinthearmy。Whenevertheygetholesin’em,I wantyehtosend’emright—awaybacktome,so’sIkindern’em。 \"An’allusbecarefulan’chooseyercomp’ny。 There’slotsofbadmeninthearmy,Henry。 Thearmymakes’emwild,andtheylikenothingbetterthanthejobofleadingoffayoungfellerlikeyou,asain’tneverbeenawayfromhomemuchandhasallushadamother,an’a—learning’emtodrinkandswear。Keepclearofthemfolks,Henry。Idon’twantyehtoeverdoany— thing,Henry,thatyehwouldbe’shamedtoletmeknowabout。JestthinkasifIwasa—watchin’ yeh。Ifyehkeepthatinyermindallus,Iguessyeh’llcomeoutaboutright。 \"Yehmustallusrememberyerfather,too,child,an’rememberheneverdrunkadropoflickerinhislife,andseldomsworeacrossoath。 \"Idon’tknowwhatelsetotellyeh,Henry,exceptingthatyehmustneverdonoshirking,child,onmyaccount。Ifsobeatimecomeswhenyehhavetobekiltordoameanthing,why,Henry,don’tthinkofanything’ceptwhat’sright,becausethere’smanyawomanhastobearup’ginstsechthingsthesetimes,andtheLord’lltakekeerofusall。 \"Don’tforgitaboutthesocksandtheshirts,child;andI’veputacupofblackberryjamwithyerbundle,becauseIknowyehlikeitaboveallthings。Good—by,Henry。Watchout,andbeagoodboy。\" Hehad,ofcourse,beenimpatientundertheordealofthisspeech。Ithadnotbeenquitewhatheexpected,andhehadborneitwithanairofirritation。Hedepartedfeelingvaguerelief。 Still,whenhehadlookedbackfromthegate,hehadseenhismotherkneelingamongthepo— tatoparings。Herbrownface,upraised,wasstainedwithtears,andherspareformwasquiver— 10REDBADGEOFCOURAGE。 ing。Hebowedhisheadandwenton,feelingsuddenlyashamedofhispurposes。 Fromhishomehehadgonetotheseminarytobidadieutomanyschoolmates。Theyhadthrongedabouthimwithwonderandadmiration。 Hehadfeltthegulfnowbetweenthemandhadswelledwithcalmpride。Heandsomeofhisfellowswhohaddonnedbluewerequiteover— whelmedwithprivilegesforallofoneafternoon,andithadbeenaverydeliciousthing。Theyhadstrutted。 Acertainlight—hairedgirlhadmadevivaciousfunathismartialspirit,buttherewasanotheranddarkergirlwhomhehadgazedatsteadfastly,andhethoughtshegrewdemureandsadatsightofhisblueandbrass。Ashehadwalkeddownthepathbetweentherowsofoaks,hehadturnedhisheadanddetectedheratawindowwatchinghisdeparture。Asheperceivedher,shehadim— mediatelybeguntostareupthroughthehightreebranchesatthesky。Hehadseenagooddealofflurryandhasteinhermovementasshechangedherattitude。Heoftenthoughtofit。 OnthewaytoWashingtonhisspirithadsoared。Theregimentwasfedandcaressedatstationafterstationuntiltheyouthhadbelievedthathemustbeahero。Therewasalavishex— penditureofbreadandcoldmeats,coffee,andpicklesandcheese。Ashebaskedinthesmilesofthegirlsandwaspattedandcomplimentedbytheoldmen,hehadfeltgrowingwithinhimthestrengthtodomightydeedsofarms。 Aftercomplicatedjourneyingswithmanypauses,therehadcomemonthsofmonotonouslifeinacamp。Hehadhadthebeliefthatrealwarwasaseriesofdeathstruggleswithsmalltimeinbetweenforsleepandmeals;butsincehisregimenthadcometothefieldthearmyhaddonelittlebutsitstillandtrytokeepwarm。 Hewasbroughtthengraduallybacktohisoldideas。Greeklikestruggleswouldbenomore。 Menwerebetter,ormoretimid。Secularandreligiouseducationhadeffacedthethroat—grap— plinginstinct,orelsefirmfinanceheldincheckthepassions。 Hehadgrowntoregardhimselfmerelyasapartofavastbluedemonstration。Hisprovincewastolookout,asfarashecould,forhisper— sonalcomfort。Forrecreationhecouldtwiddlehisthumbsandspeculateonthethoughtswhichmustagitatethemindsofthegenerals。Also,hewasdrilledanddrilledandreviewed,anddrilledanddrilledandreviewed。 Theonlyfoeshehadseenweresomepicketsalongtheriverbank。Theywereasun—tanned,philosophicallot,whosometimesshotreflectivelyatthebluepickets。Whenreproachedforthisafterward,theyusuallyexpressedsorrow,andsworebytheirgodsthatthegunshadexplodedwithouttheirpermission。Theyouth,onguarddutyonenight,conversedacrossthestreamwithoneofthem。Hewasaslightlyraggedman,whospatskillfullybetweenhisshoesandpossessedagreatfundofblandandinfantileassurance。Theyouthlikedhimpersonally。 \"Yank,\"theotherhadinformedhim,\"yerarightdumgoodfeller。\"Thissentiment,floatingtohimuponthestillair,hadmadehimtempo— rarilyregretwar。 Variousveteranshadtoldhimtales。Sometalkedofgray,bewhiskeredhordeswhowereadvancingwithrelentlesscursesandchewingtobaccowithunspeakablevalor;tremendousbodiesoffiercesoldierywhoweresweepingalongliketheHuns。Othersspokeoftatteredandeternallyhungrymenwhofireddespondentpowders。\"They’llchargethroughhell’sfirean’ brimstonet’gitaholtonahaversack,an’sechstomachsain’ta—lastin’long,\"hewastold。Fromthestories,theyouthimaginedthered,livebonesstickingoutthroughslitsinthefadeduniforms。 Still,hecouldnotputawholefaithinveter— ans’tales,forrecruitsweretheirprey。Theytalkedmuchofsmoke,fire,andblood,buthecouldnottellhowmuchmightbelies。Theypersistentlyyelled\"Freshfish!\"athim,andwereinnowisetobetrusted。 However,heperceivednowthatitdidnotgreatlymatterwhatkindofsoldiershewasgoingtofight,solongastheyfought,whichfactnoonedisputed。Therewasamoreseriousproblem。Helayinhisbunkponderinguponit。Hetriedtomathematicallyprovetohimselfthathewouldnotrunfromabattle。 Previouslyhehadneverfeltobligedtowrestletooseriouslywiththisquestion。Inhislifehehadtakencertainthingsforgranted,neverchalleng— inghisbeliefinultimatesuccess,andbotheringlittleaboutmeansandroads。Butherehewasconfrontedwithathingofmoment。Ithadsud— denlyappearedtohimthatperhapsinabattlehemightrun。Hewasforcedtoadmitthatasfaraswarwasconcernedheknewnothingofhimself。 Asufficienttimebeforehewouldhaveallowedtheproblemtokickitsheelsattheouterportalsofhismind,butnowhefeltcompelledtogiveseriousattentiontoit。 Alittlepanic—feargrewinhismind。Ashisimaginationwentforwardtoafight,hesawhide— ouspossibilities。Hecontemplatedthelurkingmenacesofthefuture,andfailedinanefforttoseehimselfstandingstoutlyinthemidstofthem。 Herecalledhisvisionsofbroken—bladedglory,butintheshadowoftheimpendingtumulthesuspectedthemtobeimpossiblepictures。 Hesprangfromthebunkandbegantopacenervouslytoandfro。\"GoodLord,what’sth’ matterwithme?\"hesaidaloud。 Hefeltthatinthiscrisishislawsoflifewereuseless。Whateverhehadlearnedofhimselfwashereofnoavail。Hewasanunknownquantity。 Hesawthathewouldagainbeobligedtoexperi— mentashehadinearlyyouth。Hemustaccumu— lateinformationofhimself,andmeanwhilehere— solvedtoremaincloseuponhisguardlestthosequalitiesofwhichheknewnothingshouldever— lastinglydisgracehim。\"GoodLord!\"here— peatedindismay。 Afteratimethetallsoldiersliddexterouslythroughthehole。Theloudprivatefollowed。 Theywerewrangling。 \"That’sallright,\"saidthetallsoldierasheentered。Hewavedhishandexpressively。\"Youcanbelievemeornot,jestasyoulike。Allyougottodoistositdownandwaitasquietasyoucan。Thenprettysoonyou’llfindoutIwasright。\" Hiscomradegruntedstubbornly。Foramo— mentheseemedtobesearchingforaformidablereply。Finallyhesaid:\"Well,youdon’tknoweverythingintheworld,doyou?\" \"Didn’tsayIkneweverythingintheworld,\" retortedtheothersharply。Hebegantostowvariousarticlessnuglyintohisknapsack。 Theyouth,pausinginhisnervouswalk,lookeddownatthebusyfigure。\"Goingtobeabattle,sure,isthere,Jim?\"heasked。 \"Ofcoursethereis,\"repliedthetallsoldier。 \"Ofcoursethereis。Youjestwait’tilto—morrow,andyou’llseeoneofthebiggestbattleseverwas。 Youjestwait。\" \"Thunder!der!\"saidtheyouth。 \"Oh,you’llseefightingthistime,myboy,what’llberegularout—and—outfighting,\"addedthetallsoldier,withtheairofamanwhoisabouttoexhibitabattleforthebenefitofhisfriends。 \"Huh!\"saidtheloudonefromacorner。 \"Well,\"remarkedtheyouth,\"likeasnotthisstory’llturnoutjestlikethemothersdid。\" \"Notmuchitwon’t,\"repliedthetallsoldier,exasperated。\"Notmuchitwon’t。Didn’tthecavalryallstartthismorning?\"Heglaredabouthim。Noonedeniedhisstatement。\"Thecav— alrystartedthismorning,\"hecontinued。\"Theysaythereain’thardlyanycavalryleftincamp。 They’regoingtoRichmond,orsomeplace,whilewefightalltheJohnnies。It’ssomedodgelikethat。Theregiment’sgotorders,too。Afellerwhatseen’emgotoheadquarterstoldmealittlewhileago。Andthey’reraisingblazesallovercamp——anybodycanseethat。\" \"Shucks!\"saidtheloudone。 Theyouthremainedsilentforatime。Atlasthespoketothetallsoldier。\"Jim!\" \"What?\" \"Howdoyouthinkthereg’ment’lldo?\" \"Oh,they’llfightallright,Iguess,aftertheyoncegetintoit,\"saidtheotherwithcoldjudg— ment。Hemadeafineuseofthethirdperson。 \"There’sbeenheapsoffunpokedat’embecausethey’renew,ofcourse,andallthat;butthey’llfightallright,Iguess。\" \"Thinkanyoftheboys’llrun?\"persistedtheyouth。 \"Oh,theremaybeafewof’emrun,butthere’sthemkindineveryregiment,’speciallywhentheyfirstgoesunderfire,\"saidtheotherinatolerantway。\"Ofcourseitmighthappenthatthehullkit—and—boodlemightstartandrun,ifsomebigfightingcamefirst—off,andthenagaintheymightstayandfightlikefun。Butyoucan’tbetonnothing。Ofcoursetheyain’tneverbeenunderfireyet,anditain’tlikelythey’lllickthehullrebelarmyall—to—oncetthefirsttime;butI thinkthey’llfightbetterthansome,ifworsethanothers。That’sthewayIfigger。Theycallthereg’ment’Freshfish’andeverything;buttheboyscomeofgoodstock,andmostof’em’llfightlikesinaftertheyoncetgitshootin’,\"headded,withamightyemphasisonthelastfourwords。 \"Oh,youthinkyouknow——\"begantheloudsoldierwithscorn。 Theotherturnedsavagelyuponhim。Theyhadarapidaltercation,inwhichtheyfasteneduponeachothervariousstrangeepithets。 Theyouthatlastinterruptedthem。\"Didyoueverthinkyoumightrunyourself,Jim?\"heasked。Onconcludingthesentencehelaughedasifhehadmeanttoaimajoke。Theloudsol— dieralsogiggled。 Thetallprivatewavedhishand。\"Well,\"saidheprofoundly,\"I’vethoughtitmightgettoohotforJimConklininsomeofthemscrimmages,andifawholelotofboysstartedandrun,why,I s’poseI’dstartandrun。AndifIoncestartedtorun,I’drunlikethedevil,andnomistake。Butifeverybodywasa—standinganda—fighting,why,I’dstandandfight。Bejiminey,Iwould。I’llbetonit。\" \"Huh!\"saidtheloudone。 Theyouthofthistalefeltgratitudeforthesewordsofhiscomrade。Hehadfearedthatalloftheuntriedmenpossessedagreatandcorrectconfidence。Henowwasinameasurereassured。 chapter02 CHAPTERII。 THEnextmorningtheyouthdiscoveredthathistallcomradehadbeenthefast—flyingmessen— gerofamistake。Therewasmuchscoffingatthelatterbythosewhohadyesterdaybeenfirmadherentsofhisviews,andtherewasevenalit— tlesneeringbymenwhohadneverbelievedtherumor。ThetallonefoughtwithamanfromChatfieldCornersandbeathimseverely。 Theyouthfelt,however,thathisproblemwasinnowiseliftedfromhim。Therewas,onthecontrary,anirritatingprolongation。Thetalehadcreatedinhimagreatconcernforhimself。 Now,withthenewbornquestioninhismind,hewascompelledtosinkbackintohisoldplaceaspartofabluedemonstration。 Fordayshemadeceaselesscalculations,buttheywereallwondrouslyunsatisfactory。Hefoundthathecouldestablishnothing。Hefinal— lyconcludedthattheonlywaytoprovehimselfwastogointotheblaze,andthenfigurativelyto18 watchhislegstodiscovertheirmeritsandfaults。 Hereluctantlyadmittedthathecouldnotsitstillandwithamentalslateandpencilderiveananswer。Togainit,hemusthaveblaze,blood,anddanger,evenasachemistrequiresthis,that,andtheother。Sohefrettedforanopportunity。 Meanwhilehecontinuallytriedtomeasurehimselfbyhiscomrades。Thetallsoldier,forone,gavehimsomeassurance。Thisman’sse— reneunconcerndealthimameasureofcon— fidence,forhehadknownhimsincechildhood,andfromhisintimateknowledgehedidnotseehowhecouldbecapableofanythingthatwasbeyondhim,theyouth。Still,hethoughtthathiscomrademightbemistakenabouthimself。 Or,ontheotherhand,hemightbeamanhere— toforedoomedtopeaceandobscurity,but,inreality,madetoshineinwar。 Theyouthwouldhavelikedtohavediscov— eredanotherwhosuspectedhimself。Asympa— theticcomparisonofmentalnoteswouldhavebeenajoytohim。 Heoccasionallytriedtofathomacomradewithseductivesentences。Helookedabouttofindmeninthepropermood。Allattemptsfailedtobringforthanystatementwhichlookedinanywaylikeaconfessiontothosedoubtswhichheprivatelyacknowledgedinhimself。 Hewasafraidtomakeanopendeclarationofhisconcern,becausehedreadedtoplacesomeunscrupulousconfidantuponthehighplaneoftheunconfessedfromwhichelevationhecouldbederided。 Inregardtohiscompanionshismindwa— veredbetweentwoopinions,accordingtohismood。Sometimesheinclinedtobelievingthemallheroes。Infact,heusuallyadmittedinsecretthesuperiordevelopmentofthehigherqualitiesinothers。Hecouldconceiveofmengoingveryinsignificantlyabouttheworldbearingaloadofcourageunseen,andalthoughhehadknownmanyofhiscomradesthroughboyhood,hebe— gantofearthathisjudgmentofthemhadbeenblind。Then,inothermoments,hefloutedthesetheories,andassuredhimselfthathisfellowswereallprivatelywonderingandquaking。 Hisemotionsmadehimfeelstrangeinthepresenceofmenwhotalkedexcitedlyofapro— spectivebattleasofadramatheywereabouttowitness,withnothingbuteagernessandcuriosityapparentintheirfaces。Itwasoftenthathesus— pectedthemtobeliars。 Hedidnotpasssuchthoughtswithoutseverecondemnationofhimself。Hedinnedreproachesattimes。Hewasconvictedbyhimselfofmanyshamefulcrimesagainstthegodsoftraditions。 Inhisgreatanxietyhisheartwascontinuallyclamoringatwhatheconsideredtheintolerableslownessofthegenerals。Theyseemedcontenttoperchtranquillyontheriverbank,andleavehimboweddownbytheweightofagreatprob— lem。Hewanteditsettledforthwith。Hecouldnotlongbearsuchaload,hesaid。Sometimeshisangeratthecommandersreachedanacutestage,andhegrumbledaboutthecamplikeaveteran。 Onemorning,however,hefoundhimselfintheranksofhispreparedregiment。Themenwerewhisperingspeculationsandrecountingtheoldrumors。Inthegloombeforethebreakofthedaytheiruniformsglowedadeeppurplehue。Fromacrosstherivertheredeyeswerestillpeering。Intheeasternskytherewasayel— lowpatchlikearuglaidforthefeetofthecom— ingsun;andagainstit,blackandpatternlike,loomedthegiganticfigureofthecolonelonagigantichorse。 Fromoffinthedarknesscamethetramplingoffeet。Theyouthcouldoccasionallyseedarkshadowsthatmovedlikemonsters。Theregi— mentstoodatrestforwhatseemedalongtime。 Theyouthgrewimpatient。Itwasunendurablethewaytheseaffairsweremanaged。Hewon— deredhowlongtheyweretobekeptwaiting。 Ashelookedallabouthimandpondereduponthemysticgloom,hebegantobelievethatatanymomenttheominousdistancemightbeaflare,andtherollingcrashesofanengagementcometohisears。Staringonceattheredeyesacrosstheriver,heconceivedthemtobegrow— inglarger,astheorbsofarowofdragonsad— vancing。Heturnedtowardthecolonelandsawhimlifthisgiganticarmandcalmlystrokehismustache。 Atlastheheardfromalongtheroadatthefootofthehilltheclatterofahorse’sgallopinghoofs。Itmustbethecomingoforders。Hebentforward,scarcebreathing。Theexcitingclickety—click,asitgrewlouderandlouder,seemedtobebeatinguponhissoul。Presentlyahorsemanwithjanglingequipmentdrewreinbe— forethecoloneloftheregiment。Thetwoheldashort,sharp—wordedconversation。Themenintheforemostrankscranedtheirnecks。 Asthehorsemanwheeledhisanimalandgal— lopedawayheturnedtoshoutoverhisshoulder,\"Don’tforgetthatboxofcigars!\"Thecolonelmumbledinreply。Theyouthwonderedwhataboxofcigarshadtodowithwar。 Amomentlatertheregimentwentswingingoffintothedarkness。Itwasnowlikeoneofthosemovingmonsterswendingwithmanyfeet。 Theairwasheavy,andcoldwithdew。Amassofwetgrass,marchedupon,rustledlikesilk。 Therewasanoccasionalflashandglimmerofsteelfromthebacksofallthesehugecrawl— ingreptiles。Fromtheroadcamecreakingsandgrumblingsassomesurlygunsweredraggedaway。 Themenstumbledalongstillmutteringspecu— lations。Therewasasubdueddebate。Onceamanfelldown,andashereachedforhisrifleacomrade,unseeing,troduponhishand。Heoftheinjuredfingerssworebitterlyandaloud。A low,titteringlaughwentamonghisfellows。 Presentlytheypassedintoaroadwayandmarchedforwardwitheasystrides。Adarkregimentmovedbeforethem,andfrombehindalsocamethetinkleofequipmentsonthebodiesofmarchingmen。 Therushingyellowofthedevelopingdaywentonbehindtheirbacks。Whenthesunraysatlaststruckfullandmellowinglyupontheearth,theyouthsawthatthelandscapewasstreakedwithtwolong,thin,blackcolumnswhichdisappearedonthebrowofahillinfrontandrearwardvanishedinawood。Theywereliketwoserpentscrawlingfromthecavernofthenight。 Theriverwasnotinview。Thetallsoldierburstintopraisesofwhathethoughttobehispowersofperception。 Someofthetallone’scompanionscriedwithemphasisthatthey,too,hadevolvedthesamething,andtheycongratulatedthemselvesuponit。Buttherewereotherswhosaidthatthetallone’splanwasnotthetrueoneatall。Theyper— sistedwithothertheories。Therewasavigorousdiscussion。 Theyouthtooknopartinthem。Ashewalkedalongincarelesslinehewasengagedwithhisowneternaldebate。Hecouldnothin— derhimselffromdwellinguponit。Hewasde— spondentandsullen,andthrewshiftingglancesabouthim。Helookedahead,oftenexpectingtohearfromtheadvancetherattleoffiring。 Butthelongserpentscrawledslowlyfromhilltohillwithoutblusterofsmoke。Adun—col— oredcloudofdustfloatedawaytotheright。 Theskyoverheadwasofafairyblue。 Theyouthstudiedthefacesofhiscompan— ions,everonthewatchtodetectkindredemo— tions。Hesuffereddisappointment。Someardoroftheairwhichwascausingtheveterancom— mandstomovewithglee——almostwithsong—— hadinfectedthenewregiment。Themenbegantospeakofvictoryasofathingtheyknew。 Also,thetallsoldierreceivedhisvindication。 Theywerecertainlygoingtocomearoundinbehindtheenemy。Theyexpressedcommisera— tionforthatpartofthearmywhichhadbeenleftupontheriverbank,felicitatingthemselvesuponbeingapartofablastinghost。 Theyouth,consideringhimselfasseparatedfromtheothers,wassaddenedbytheblitheandmerryspeechesthatwentfromranktorank。 Thecompanywagsallmadetheirbestendeav— ors。Theregimenttrampedtothetuneoflaughter。 Theblatantsoldieroftenconvulsedwholefilesbyhisbitingsarcasmsaimedatthetallone。 Anditwasnotlongbeforeallthemenseemedtoforgettheirmission。Wholebrigadesgrinnedinunison,andregimentslaughed。 Aratherfatsoldierattemptedtopilferahorsefromadooryard。Heplannedtoloadhisknap— sackuponit。Hewasescapingwithhisprizewhenayounggirlrushedfromthehouseandgrabbedtheanimal’smane。Therefollowedawrangle。Theyounggirl,withpinkcheeksandshiningeyes,stoodlikeadauntlessstatue。 Theobservantregiment,standingatrestintheroadway,whoopedatonce,andenteredwhole—souleduponthesideofthemaiden。Themenbecamesoengrossedinthisaffairthattheyentirelyceasedtoremembertheirownlargewar。 Theyjeeredthepiraticalprivate,andcalledattentiontovariousdefectsinhispersonalap— pearance;andtheywerewildlyenthusiasticinsupportoftheyounggirl。 Toher,fromsomedistance,cameboldadvice。 \"Hithimwithastick。\" Therewerecrowsandcatcallsshowereduponhimwhenheretreatedwithoutthehorse。 Theregimentrejoicedathisdownfall。Loudandvociferouscongratulationswereshowereduponthemaiden,whostoodpantingandregard— ingthetroopswithdefiance。 Atnightfallthecolumnbrokeintoregimentalpieces,andthefragmentswentintothefieldstocamp。Tentsspranguplikestrangeplants。 Campfires,likered,peculiarblossoms,dottedthenight。 Theyouthkeptfromintercoursewithhiscompanionsasmuchascircumstanceswouldallowhim。Intheeveninghewanderedafewpacesintothegloom。Fromthislittledistancethemanyfires,withtheblackformsofmenpass— ingtoandfrobeforethecrimsonrays,madeweirdandsataniceffects。 Helaydowninthegrass。Thebladespressedtenderlyagainsthischeek。Themoonhadbeenlightedandwashunginatreetop。 Theliquidstillnessofthenightenvelopinghimmadehimfeelvastpityforhimself。Therewasacaressinthesoftwinds;andthewholemoodofthedarkness,hethought,wasoneofsympathyforhimselfinhisdistress。 Hewished,withoutreserve,thathewasathomeagainmakingtheendlessroundsfromthehousetothebarn,fromthebarntothefields,fromthefieldstothebarn,fromthebarntothehouse。Herememberedhehadoftencursedthebrindlecowandhermates,andhadsometimesflungmilkingstools。But,fromhispresentpointofview,therewasahaloofhappinessabouteachoftheirheads,andhewouldhavesacrificedallthebrassbuttonsonthecontinenttohavebeenenabledtoreturntothem。Hetoldhimselfthathewasnotformedforasoldier。Andhemusedseriouslyupontheradicaldifferencesbetweenhimselfandthosemenwhoweredodgingimp— likearoundthefires。 Ashemusedthusheheardtherustleofgrass,and,uponturninghishead,discoveredtheloudsoldier。Hecalledout,\"Oh,Wilson!\" Thelatterapproachedandlookeddown。 \"Why,hello,Henry;isityou?Whatyoudo— inghere?\" \"Oh,thinking,\"saidtheyouth。 Theothersatdownandcarefullylightedhispipe。\"You’regettingblue,myboy。You’relookingthunderingpeeked。Whatthedickensiswrongwithyou?\" \"Oh,nothing,\"saidtheyouth。 Theloudsoldierlaunchedthenintothesub— jectoftheanticipatedfight。\"Oh,we’vegot’emnow!\"Ashespokehisboyishfacewaswreathedinagleefulsmile,andhisvoicehadanexultantring。\"We’vegot’emnow。Atlast,bytheeternalthunders,we’lllick’emgood!\" \"Ifthetruthwasknown,\"headded,moresoberly,\"THEY’VElickedUSabouteveryclipuptonow;butthistime——thistime——we’lllick’emgood!\" \"Ithoughtyouwasobjectingtothismarchalittlewhileago,\"saidtheyouthcoldly。 \"Oh,itwasn’tthat,\"explainedtheother。\"I don’tmindmarching,ifthere’sgoingtobefight— ingattheendofit。WhatIhateisthisgettingmovedhereandmovedthere,withnogoodcom— ingofit,asfarasIcansee,exceptingsorefeetanddamnedshortrations。\" \"Well,JimConklinsayswe’llgetaplentyoffightingthistime。\" \"He’srightforonce,Iguess,thoughIcan’tseehowitcome。Thistimewe’reinforabigbattle,andwe’vegotthebestendofit,certainsure。Geerod!howwewillthump’em!\" Hearoseandbegantopacetoandfroexcit— edly。Thethrillofhisenthusiasmmadehimwalkwithanelasticstep。Hewassprightly,vigorous,fieryinhisbeliefinsuccess。Helookedintothefuturewithclear,proudeye,andhesworewiththeairofanoldsoldier。 Theyouthwatchedhimforamomentinsilence。Whenhefinallyspokehisvoicewasasbitterasdregs。\"Oh,you’regoingtodogreatthings,Is’pose!\" Theloudsoldierblewathoughtfulcloudofsmokefromhispipe。\"Oh,Idon’tknow,\"heremarkedwithdignity;\"Idon’tknow。Is’poseI’lldoaswellastherest。I’mgoingtotrylikethunder。\"Heevidentlycomplimentedhimselfuponthemodestyofthisstatement。 \"Howdoyouknowyouwon’trunwhenthetimecomes?\"askedtheyouth。 \"Run?\"saidtheloudone;\"run?——ofcoursenot!\"Helaughed。 \"Well,\"continuedtheyouth,\"lotsofgood— a—’noughmenhavethoughttheywasgoingtodogreatthingsbeforethefight,butwhenthetimecometheyskedaddled。\" \"Oh,that’salltrue,Is’pose,\"repliedtheother;\"butI’mnotgoingtoskedaddle。Themanthatbetsonmyrunningwilllosehismoney,that’sall。\"Henoddedconfidently。 \"Oh,shucks!\"saidtheyouth。\"Youain’tthebravestmanintheworld,areyou?\" \"No,Iain’t,\"exclaimedtheloudsoldierin— dignantly;\"andIdidn’tsayIwasthebravestmanintheworld,neither。IsaidIwasgoingtodomyshareoffighting——that’swhatIsaid。AndIam,too。Whoareyou,anyhow。YoutalkasifyouthoughtyouwasNapoleonBonaparte。\" Heglaredattheyouthforamoment,andthenstrodeaway。 Theyouthcalledinasavagevoiceafterhiscomrade:\"Well,youneedn’tgitmadaboutit!\" Buttheothercontinuedonhiswayandmadenoreply。 Hefeltaloneinspacewhenhisinjuredcom— radehaddisappeared。Hisfailuretodiscoveranymiteofresemblanceintheirviewpointsmadehimmoremiserablethanbefore。Nooneseemedtobewrestlingwithsuchaterrificper— sonalproblem。Hewasamentaloutcast。 Hewentslowlytohistentandstretchedhim— selfonablanketbythesideofthesnoringtallsoldier。Inthedarknesshesawvisionsofathou— sand—tonguedfearthatwouldbabbleathisbackandcausehimtoflee,whileothersweregoingcoollyabouttheircountry’sbusiness。Headmit— tedthathewouldnotbeabletocopewiththismonster。Hefeltthateverynerveinhisbodywouldbeaneartohearthevoices,whileothermenwouldremainstolidanddeaf。 Andashesweatedwiththepainofthesethoughts,hecouldhearlow,serenesentences。 \"I’llbidfive。\"\"Makeitsix。\"\"Seven。\" \"Sevengoes。\" Hestaredatthered,shiveringreflectionofafireonthewhitewallofhistentuntil,ex— haustedandillfromthemonotonyofhissuf— fering,hefellasleep。 chapter03 CHAPTERIII。 WHENanothernightcamethecolumns,changedtopurplestreaks,filedacrosstwopon— toonbridges。Aglaringfirewine—tintedthewatersoftheriver。Itsrays,shininguponthemovingmassesoftroops,broughtforthhereandtheresuddengleamsofsilverorgold。Upontheothershoreadarkandmysteriousrangeofhillswascurvedagainstthesky。Theinsectvoicesofthenightsangsolemnly。 Afterthiscrossingtheyouthassuredhimselfthatatanymomenttheymightbesuddenlyandfearfullyassaultedfromthecavesoftheloweringwoods。Hekepthiseyeswatchfullyuponthedarkness。 Buthisregimentwentunmolestedtoacamp— ingplace,anditssoldierssleptthebravesleepofweariedmen。Inthemorningtheywereroutedoutwithearlyenergy,andhustledalonganarrowroadthatleddeepintotheforest。 Itwasduringthisrapidmarchthattheregimentlostmanyofthemarksofanewcom— mand。 Themenhadbeguntocountthemilesupontheirfingers,andtheygrewtired。\"Sorefeetan’damnedshortrations,that’sall,\"saidtheloudsoldier。Therewasperspirationandgrum— blings。Afteratimetheybegantoshedtheirknapsacks。Sometossedthemunconcernedlydown;othershidthemcarefully,assertingtheirplanstoreturnforthematsomeconvenienttime。Menextricatedthemselvesfromthickshirts。Presentlyfewcarriedanythingbuttheirnecessaryclothing,blankets,haversacks,canteens,andarmsandammunition。\"Youcannoweatandshoot,\"saidthetallsoldiertotheyouth。 \"That’sallyouwanttodo。\" Therewassuddenchangefromtheponderousinfantryoftheorytothelightandspeedyinfantryofpractice。Theregiment,relievedofaburden,receivedanewimpetus。Buttherewasmuchlossofvaluableknapsacks,and,onthewhole,verygoodshirts。 Buttheregimentwasnotyetveteranlikeinappearance。Veteranregimentsinthearmywerelikelytobeverysmallaggregationsofmen。 Once,whenthecommandhadfirstcometothefield,someperambulatingveterans,notingthelengthoftheircolumn,hadaccostedthemthus: \"Hey,fellers,whatbrigadeisthat?\"Andwhenthemenhadrepliedthattheyformedaregimentandnotabrigade,theoldersoldiershadlaughed,andsaid,\"OGawd!\" Also,therewastoogreatasimilarityinthehats。Thehatsofaregimentshouldproperlyrepresentthehistoryofheadgearforaperiodofyears。And,moreover,therewerenolettersoffadedgoldspeakingfromthecolors。Theywerenewandbeautiful,andthecolorbearerhabitu— allyoiledthepole。 Presentlythearmyagainsatdowntothink。 Theodorofthepeacefulpineswasinthemen’snostrils。Thesoundofmonotonousaxeblowsrangthroughtheforest,andtheinsects,noddingupontheirperches,croonedlikeoldwomen。 Theyouthreturnedtohistheoryofabluedem— onstration。 Onegraydawn,however,hewaskickedinthelegbythetallsoldier,andthen,beforehewasentirelyawake,hefoundhimselfrunningdownawoodroadinthemidstofmenwhowerepantingfromthefirsteffectsofspeed。Hiscan— teenbangedrhythmicallyuponhisthigh,andhishaversackbobbedsoftly。Hismusketbouncedatriflefromhisshoulderateachstrideandmadehiscapfeeluncertainuponhishead。 Hecouldhearthemenwhisperjerkysen— tences:\"Say——what’sallthis——about?\"\"Whatth’thunder——we——skedaddlin’thiswayfer?\" \"Billie——keepoffm’feet。Yehrun——likeacow。\" Andtheloudsoldier’sshrillvoicecouldbeheard:\"Whatth’deviltheyinsichahurryfor?\" Theyouththoughtthedampfogofearlymorningmovedfromtherushofagreatbodyoftroops。Fromthedistancecameasuddenspatteroffiring。 Hewasbewildered。Asheranwithhiscom— radeshestrenuouslytriedtothink,butallheknewwasthatifhefelldownthosecomingbehindwouldtreaduponhim。Allhisfacultiesseemedtobeneededtoguidehimoverandpastobstruc— tions。Hefeltcarriedalongbyamob。 Thesunspreaddisclosingrays,and,onebyone,regimentsburstintoviewlikearmedmenjustbornoftheearth。Theyouthperceivedthatthetimehadcome。Hewasabouttobemeasured。Foramomenthefeltinthefaceofhisgreattriallikeababe,andthefleshoverhisheartseemedverythin。Heseizedtimetolookabouthimcalculatingly。 Butheinstantlysawthatitwouldbeimpossi— bleforhimtoescapefromtheregiment。Itin— closedhim。Andtherewereironlawsoftradi— tionandlawonfoursides。Hewasinamovingbox。 Asheperceivedthisfactitoccurredtohimthathehadneverwishedtocometothewar。 Hehadnotenlistedofhisfreewill。Hehadbeendraggedbythemercilessgovernment。Andnowtheyweretakinghimouttobeslaughtered。 Theregimentsliddownabankandwallowedacrossalittlestream。Themournfulcurrentmovedslowlyon,andfromthewater,shadedblack,somewhitebubbleeyeslookedatthemen。 Astheyclimbedthehillonthefarthersideartillerybegantoboom。Heretheyouthforgotmanythingsashefeltasuddenimpulseofcuri— osity。Hescrambledupthebankwithaspeedthatcouldnotbeexceededbyabloodthirstyman。 Heexpectedabattlescene。 Thereweresomelittlefieldsgirtedandsqueezedbyaforest。Spreadoverthegrassandinamongthetreetrunks,hecouldseeknotsandwavinglinesofskirmisherswhowererunninghitherandthitherandfiringatthelandscape。 Adarkbattlelinelayuponasunstruckclearingthatgleamedorangecolor。Aflagfluttered。 Otherregimentsflounderedupthebank。Thebrigadewasformedinlineofbattle,andafterapausestartedslowlythroughthewoodsintherearoftherecedingskirmishers,whowerecon— tinuallymeltingintothescenetoappearagainfartheron。Theywerealwaysbusyasbees,deeplyabsorbedintheirlittlecombats。 Theyouthtriedtoobserveeverything。Hedidnotusecaretoavoidtreesandbranches,andhisforgottenfeetwereconstantlyknockingagainststonesorgettingentangledinbriers。 Hewasawarethatthesebattalionswiththeircommotionswerewovenredandstartlingintothegentlefabricofsoftenedgreensandbrowns。 Itlookedtobeawrongplaceforabattlefield。 Theskirmishersinadvancefascinatedhim。 Theirshotsintothicketsandatdistantandprominenttreesspoketohimoftragedies——hid— den,mysterious,solemn。 Oncethelineencounteredthebodyofadeadsoldier。Helayuponhisbackstaringatthesky。 Hewasdressedinanawkwardsuitofyellowishbrown。Theyouthcouldseethatthesolesofhisshoeshadbeenworntothethinnessofwritingpaper,andfromagreatrentinonethedeadfootprojectedpiteously。Anditwasasiffatehadbetrayedthesoldier。Indeathitexposedtohisenemiesthatpovertywhichinlifehehadperhapsconcealedfromhisfriends。 Theranksopenedcovertlytoavoidthecorpse。 Theinvulnerabledeadmanforcedawayforhim— self。Theyouthlookedkeenlyattheashenface。 Thewindraisedthetawnybeard。Itmovedasifahandwerestrokingit。Hevaguelydesiredtowalkaroundandaroundthebodyandstare; theimpulseofthelivingtotrytoreadindeadeyestheanswertotheQuestion。 Duringthemarchtheardorwhichtheyouthhadacquiredwhenoutofviewofthefieldrapidlyfadedtonothing。Hiscuriositywasquiteeasilysatisfied。Ifanintensescenehadcaughthimwithitswildswingashecametothetopofthebank,hemighthavegoneroaringon。ThisadvanceuponNaturewastoocalm。Hehadopportunitytoreflect。Hehadtimeinwhichtowonderabouthimselfandtoattempttoprobehissensa— tions。 Absurdideastookholduponhim。Hethoughtthathedidnotrelishthelandscape。 Itthreatenedhim。Acoldnesssweptoverhisback,anditistruethathistrousersfelttohimthattheywerenofitforhislegsatall。 Ahousestandingplacidlyindistantfieldshadtohimanominouslook。Theshadowsofthewoodswereformidable。Hewascertainthatinthisvistatherelurkedfierce—eyedhosts。Theswiftthoughtcametohimthatthegeneralsdidnotknowwhattheywereabout。Itwasallatrap。Suddenlythosecloseforestswouldbristlewithriflebarrels。Ironlikebrigadeswouldap— pearintherear。Theywereallgoingtobesacrificed。Thegeneralswerestupids。Theenemywouldpresentlyswallowthewholecom— mand。Heglaredabouthim,expectingtoseethestealthyapproachofhisdeath。 Hethoughtthathemustbreakfromtheranksandharanguehiscomrades。Theymustnotallbekilledlikepigs;andhewassureitwouldcometopassunlesstheywereinformedofthesedangers。Thegeneralswereidiotstosendthemmarchingintoaregularpen。Therewasbutonepairofeyesinthecorps。Hewouldstepforthandmakeaspeech。Shrillandpassionatewordscametohislips。 Theline,brokenintomovingfragmentsbytheground,wentcalmlyonthroughfieldsandwoods。 Theyouthlookedatthemennearesthim,andsaw,forthemostpart,expressionsofdeepinter— est,asiftheywereinvestigatingsomethingthathadfascinatedthem。Oneortwosteppedwithovervaliantairsasiftheywerealreadyplungedintowar。Otherswalkedasuponthinice。Thegreaterpartoftheuntestedmenappearedquietandabsorbed。Theyweregoingtolookatwar,theredanimal——war,theblood—swollengod。Andtheyweredeeplyengrossedinthismarch。 Ashelookedtheyouthgrippedhisoutcryathisthroat。Hesawthatevenifthemenweretotteringwithfeartheywouldlaughathiswarn— ing。Theywouldjeerhim,and,ifpracticable,pelthimwithmissiles。Admittingthathemightbewrong,afrenzieddeclamationofthekindwouldturnhimintoaworm。 Heassumed,then,thedemeanorofonewhoknowsthatheisdoomedalonetounwrittenre— sponsibilities。Helagged,withtragicglancesatthesky。 Hewassurprisedpresentlybytheyounglieu— tenantofhiscompany,whobeganheartilytobeathimwithasword,callingoutinaloudandinsolentvoice:\"Come,youngman,getupintoranksthere。Noskulking’lldohere。\"Hemend— edhispacewithsuitablehaste。Andhehatedthelieutenant,whohadnoappreciationoffineminds。Hewasamerebrute。 Afteratimethebrigadewashaltedinthecathedrallightofaforest。Thebusyskirmish— erswerestillpopping。Throughtheaislesofthewoodcouldbeseenthefloatingsmokefromtheirrifles。Sometimesitwentupinlittleballs,whiteandcompact。 Duringthishaltmanymenintheregimentbeganerectingtinyhillsinfrontofthem。Theyusedstones,sticks,earth,andanythingtheythoughtmightturnabullet。Somebuiltcom— parativelylargeones,whileothersseemedcon— tentwithlittleones。 Thisprocedurecausedadiscussionamongthemen。Somewishedtofightlikeduelists,believ— ingittobecorrecttostanderectandbe,fromtheirfeettotheirforeheads,amark。Theysaidtheyscornedthedevicesofthecautious。Buttheothersscoffedinreply,andpointedtotheveteransontheflankswhowerediggingatthegroundliketerriers。Inashorttimetherewasquiteabarricadealongtheregimentalfronts。 Directly,however,theywereorderedtowith— drawfromthatplace。 Thisastoundedtheyouth。Heforgothisstewingovertheadvancemovement。\"Well,then,whatdidtheymarchusoutherefor?\"hedemandedofthetallsoldier。Thelatterwithcalmfaithbeganaheavyexplanation,althoughhehadbeencompelledtoleavealittleprotectionofstonesanddirttowhichhehaddevotedmuchcareandskill。 Whentheregimentwasalignedinanotherpositioneachman’sregardforhissafetycausedanotherlineofsmallintrenchments。Theyatetheirnoonmealbehindathirdone。Theyweremovedfromthisonealso。Theyweremarchedfromplacetoplacewithapparentaimlessness。 Theyouthhadbeentaughtthatamanbe— cameanotherthinginabattle。Hesawhissal— vationinsuchachange。Hencethiswaitingwasanordealtohim。Hewasinafeverofim— patience。Heconsideredthattherewasdenotedalackofpurposeonthepartofthegenerals。 Hebegantocomplaintothetallsoldier。\"I can’tstandthismuchlonger,\"hecried。\"I don’tseewhatgooditdoestomakeuswearoutourlegsfornothin’。\"Hewishedtoreturntocamp,knowingthatthisaffairwasabluedemonstration;orelsetogointoabattleanddiscoverthathehadbeenafoolinhisdoubts,andwas,intruth,amanoftraditionalcourage。 Thestrainofpresentcircumstanceshefelttobeintolerable。 Thephilosophicaltallsoldiermeasuredasand— wichofcrackerandporkandswalloweditinanonchalantmanner。\"Oh,Isupposewemustgoreconnoiteringaroundthecountryjesttokeep’emfromgettingtooclose,ortodevelop’em,orsomething。\" \"Huh!\"saidtheloudsoldier。 \"Well,\"criedtheyouth,stillfidgeting,\"I’dratherdoanything’mostthangotramping’roundthecountryalldaydoingnogoodtonobodyandjesttiringourselvesout。\" \"SowouldI,\"saidtheloudsoldier。\"Itain’tright。Itellyouifanybodywithanysensewasa—runnin’thisarmyit——\" \"Oh,shutup!\"roaredthetallprivate。\"Youlittlefool。Youlittledamn’cuss。Youain’thadthattherecoatandthempantsonforsixmonths,andyetyoutalkasif——\" \"Well,Iwantadosomefightinganyway,\" interruptedtheother。\"Ididn’tcomeheretowalk。Icould’avewalkedtohome——’roundan’ ’roundthebarn,ifIjestwantedtowalk。\" Thetallone,red—faced,swallowedanothersandwichasiftakingpoisonindespair。 Butgradually,ashechewed,hisfacebecameagainquietandcontented。Hecouldnotrageinfierceargumentinthepresenceofsuchsand— wiches。Duringhismealshealwaysworeanairofblissfulcontemplationofthefoodhehadswal— lowed。Hisspiritseemedthentobecommuningwiththeviands。 Heacceptednewenvironmentandcircum— stancewithgreatcoolness,eatingfromhishaver— sackateveryopportunity。Onthemarchhewentalongwiththestrideofahunter,object— ingtoneithergaitnordistance。Andhehadnotraisedhisvoicewhenhehadbeenorderedawayfromthreelittleprotectivepilesofearthandstone,eachofwhichhadbeenanengineer— ingfeatworthyofbeingmadesacredtothenameofhisgrandmother。 Intheafternoontheregimentwentoutoverthesamegroundithadtakeninthemorn— ing。Thelandscapethenceasedtothreatentheyouth。Hehadbeenclosetoitandbecomefamiliarwithit。 When,however,theybegantopassintoanewregion,hisoldfearsofstupidityandin— competencereassailedhim,butthistimehedog— gedlyletthembabble。Hewasoccupiedwithhisproblem,andinhisdesperationheconcludedthatthestupiditydidnotgreatlymatter。 Oncehethoughthehadconcludedthatitwouldbebettertogetkilleddirectlyandendhistroubles。Regardingdeaththusoutofthecornerofhiseye,heconceivedittobenoth— ingbutrest,andhewasfilledwithamomen— taryastonishmentthatheshouldhavemadeanextraordinarycommotionoverthemerematterofgettingkilled。Hewoulddie;hewouldgotosomeplacewherehewouldbeunderstood。 Itwasuselesstoexpectappreciationofhispro— foundandfinesensesfromsuchmenasthelieu— tenant。Hemustlooktothegraveforcompre— hension。 Theskirmishfireincreasedtoalongchatter— ingsound。Withitwasmingledfar—awaycheer— ing。Abatteryspoke。 Directlytheyouthwouldseetheskirmishersrunning。Theywerepursuedbythesoundofmusketryfire。Afteratimethehot,dangerousflashesoftherifleswerevisible。Smokecloudswentslowlyandinsolentlyacrossthefieldslikeobservantphantoms。Thedinbecamecrescendo,liketheroarofanoncomingtrain。 Abrigadeaheadofthemandontherightwentintoactionwitharendingroar。Itwasasifithadexploded。Andthereafteritlaystretchedinthedistancebehindalonggraywall,thatonewasobligedtolooktwiceattomakesurethatitwassmoke。 Theyouth,forgettinghisneatplanofgettingkilled,gazedspellbound。Hiseyesgrewwideandbusywiththeactionofthescene。Hismouthwasalittlewaysopen。 Ofasuddenhefeltaheavyandsadhandlaiduponhisshoulder。Awakeningfromhistranceofobservationheturnedandbeheldtheloudsoldier。 \"It’smyfirstandlastbattle,oldboy,\"saidthelatter,withintensegloom。Hewasquitepaleandhisgirlishlipwastrembling。 \"Eh?\"murmuredtheyouthingreataston— ishment。 \"It’smyfirstandlastbattle,oldboy,\" continuedtheloudsoldier。\"Somethingtellsme——\" \"What?\" \"I’magonecoonthisfirsttimeand——andI w—wantyoutotaketheseherethings——to——my—— folks。\"Heendedinaquaveringsobofpityforhimself。Hehandedtheyouthalittlepacketdoneupinayellowenvelope。 \"Why,whatthedevil——\"begantheyouthagain。 Buttheothergavehimaglanceasfromthedepthsofatomb,andraisedhislimphandinapropheticmannerandturnedaway。 chapter04 CHAPTERIV。 THEbrigadewashaltedinthefringeofagrove。Themencrouchedamongthetreesandpointedtheirrestlessgunsoutatthefields。 Theytriedtolookbeyondthesmoke。 Outofthishazetheycouldseerunningmen。 Someshoutedinformationandgesturedastheyhurried。 Themenofthenewregimentwatchedandlistenedeagerly,whiletheirtonguesranoningossipofthebattle。Theymouthedrumorsthathadflownlikebirdsoutoftheunknown。 \"TheysayPerryhasbeendriveninwithbigloss。\" \"Yes,Carrottwentt’th’hospital。Hesaidhewassick。Thatsmartlieutenantiscommanding’G’Company。Th’boyssaytheywon’tbeunderCarrottnomoreiftheyallhavet’desert。 Theyallusknewhewasa——\" \"Hannises’batt’ryistook。\" \"Itain’teither。IsawHannises’batt’ryoffonth’leftnotmore’nfifteenminutesago。\" 47 \"Well——\" \"Th’general,hesesheisgoin’t’taketh’hullcammandofth’304thwhenwegointehaction,an’thenheseswe’lldosechfightin’asneveranotheronereg’mentdone。\" \"Theysaywe’recatchin’itoveronth’left。 Theysayth’enemydriv’ourlineintehadevilofaswampan’tookHannises’batt’ry。\" \"Nosechthing。Hannises’batt’rywas’longhere’boutaminuteago。\" \"ThatyoungHasbrouck,hemakesagoodoff’cer。Heain’tafraid’anothin’。\" \"Imetoneofth’148thMaineboysan’heseshisbrigadefitth’hullrebelarmyferfourhoursoveronth’turnpikeroadan’killedaboutfivethousandof’em。Hesesonemoresechfightasthatan’th’war’llbeover。\" \"Billwasn’tscaredeither。No,sir!Itwasn’tthat。Billain’ta—gittin’scaredeasy。Hewasjestmad,that’swhathewas。Whenthatfellertrodonhishand,heupan’sedthathewaswillin’ t’givehishandt’hiscountry,buthebedumbedifhewasgoin’t’haveeverydumbbushwhackerinth’kentrywalkin’’roundonit。Sehewentt’ th’hospitaldisregardlessofth’fight。Threefingerswascrunched。Th’derndoctorwantedt’amputate’m,an’Bill,heraisedaheluvarow,I hear。He’safunnyfeller。\" Thedininfrontswelledtoatremendouschorus。Theyouthandhisfellowswerefrozentosilence。Theycouldseeaflagthattossedinthesmokeangrily。Nearitweretheblurredandagitatedformsoftroops。Therecameaturbulentstreamofmenacrossthefields。Abatterychang— ingpositionatafranticgallopscatteredthestragglersrightandleft。 Ashellscreaminglikeastormbansheewentoverthehuddledheadsofthereserves。Itlandedinthegrove,andexplodingredlyflungthebrownearth。Therewasalittleshowerofpineneedles。 Bulletsbegantowhistleamongthebranchesandnipatthetrees。Twigsandleavescamesailingdown。Itwasasifathousandaxes,weeandinvisible,werebeingwielded。Manyofthemenwereconstantlydodgingandduckingtheirheads。 Thelieutenantoftheyouth’scompanywasshotinthehand。Hebegantoswearsowon— drouslythatanervouslaughwentalongtheregi— mentalline。Theofficer’sprofanitysoundedconventional。Itrelievedthetightenedsensesofthenewmen。Itwasasifhehadhithisfingerswithatackhammerathome。 Heheldthewoundedmembercarefullyawayfromhissidesothatthebloodwouldnotdripuponhistrousers。 Thecaptainofthecompany,tuckinghisswordunderhisarm,producedahandkerchiefandbegantobindwithitthelieutenant’swound。 Andtheydisputedastohowthebindingshouldbedone。 Thebattleflaginthedistancejerkedaboutmadly。Itseemedtobestrugglingtofreeitselffromanagony。Thebillowingsmokewasfilledwithhorizontalflashes。 Menrunningswiftlyemergedfromit。Theygrewinnumbersuntilitwasseenthatthewholecommandwasfleeing。Theflagsuddenlysankdownasifdying。Itsmotionasitfellwasagestureofdespair。 Wildyellscamefrombehindthewallsofsmoke。Asketchingrayandreddissolvedintoamoblikebodyofmenwhogallopedlikewildhorses。 Theveteranregimentsontherightandleftofthe304thimmediatelybegantojeer。Withthepassionatesongofthebulletsandthebansheeshrieksofshellsweremingledloudcatcallsandbitsoffacetiousadviceconcerningplacesofsafety。 Butthenewregimentwasbreathlesswithhor— ror。\"Gawd!Saunders’sgotcrushed!\"whis— peredthemanattheyouth’selbow。Theyshrankbackandcrouchedasifcompelledtoawaitaflood。 Theyouthshotaswiftglancealongtheblueranksoftheregiment。Theprofilesweremotion— less,carven;andafterwardherememberedthatthecolorsergeantwasstandingwithhislegsapart,asifheexpectedtobepushedtotheground。 Thefollowingthrongwentwhirlingaroundtheflank。Hereandtherewereofficerscarriedalongonthestreamlikeexasperatedchips。Theywerestrikingaboutthemwiththeirswordsandwiththeirleftfists,punchingeveryheadtheycouldreach。Theycursedlikehighway— men。 Amountedofficerdisplayedthefuriousangerofaspoiledchild。Heragedwithhishead,hisarms,andhislegs。 Another,thecommanderofthebrigade,wasgallopingaboutbawling。Hishatwasgoneandhisclotheswereawry。Heresembledamanwhohascomefrombedtogotoafire。Thehoofsofhishorseoftenthreatenedtheheadsoftherunningmen,buttheyscamperedwithsin— gularfortune。Inthisrushtheywereapparentlyalldeafandblind。Theyheedednotthelargestandlongestoftheoathsthatwerethrownatthemfromalldirections。 Frequentlyoverthistumultcouldbeheardthegrimjokesofthecriticalveterans;buttheretreatingmenapparentlywerenotevencon— sciousofthepresenceofanaudience。 Thebattlereflectionthatshoneforaninstantinthefacesonthemadcurrentmadetheyouthfeelthatforcefulhandsfromheavenwouldnothavebeenabletohaveheldhiminplaceifhecouldhavegotintelligentcontrolofhislegs。 Therewasanappallingimprintuponthesefaces。Thestruggleinthesmokehadpicturedanexaggerationofitselfonthebleachedcheeksandintheeyeswildwithonedesire。 Thesightofthisstampedeexertedafloodlikeforcethatseemedabletodragsticksandstonesandmenfromtheground。Theyofthereserveshadtoholdon。Theygrewpaleandfirm,andredandquaking。 Theyouthachievedonelittlethoughtinthemidstofthischaos。Thecompositemonsterwhichhadcausedtheothertroopstofleehadnotthenappeared。Heresolvedtogetaviewofit,andthen,hethoughthemightverylikelyrunbetterthanthebestofthem。 chapter05 CHAPTERV。 THEREweremomentsofwaiting。Theyouththoughtofthevillagestreetathomebeforethearrivalofthecircusparadeonadayinthespring。Herememberedhowhehadstood,asmall,thrillfulboy,preparedtofollowthedingyladyuponthewhitehorse,orthebandinitsfadedchariot。Hesawtheyellowroad,thelinesofexpectantpeople,andthesoberhouses。 Heparticularlyrememberedanoldfellowwhousedtosituponacrackerboxinfrontofthestoreandfeigntodespisesuchexhibitions。A thousanddetailsofcolorandformsurgedinhismind。Theoldfellowuponthecrackerboxap— pearedinmiddleprominence。 Someonecried,\"Heretheycome!\" Therewasrustlingandmutteringamongthemen。Theydisplayedafeverishdesiretohaveeverypossiblecartridgereadytotheirhands。 Theboxeswerepulledaroundintovariousposi— tions,andadjustedwithgreatcare。Itwasasifsevenhundrednewbonnetswerebeingtriedon。 Thetallsoldier,havingpreparedhisrifle,pro— ducedaredhandkerchiefofsomekind。Hewasengagedinknittingitabouthisthroatwithex— quisiteattentiontoitsposition,whenthecrywasrepeatedupanddownthelineinamuffledroarofsound。 \"Heretheycome!Heretheycome!\"Gunlocksclicked。 Acrossthesmoke—infestedfieldscameabrownswarmofrunningmenwhoweregivingshrillyells。Theycameon,stoopingandswingingtheirriflesatallangles。Aflag,tiltedforward,spednearthefront。 Ashecaughtsightofthemtheyouthwasmomentarilystartledbyathoughtthatperhapshisgunwasnotloaded。Hestoodtryingtorallyhisfalteringintellectsothathemightrec— ollectthemomentwhenhehadloaded,buthecouldnot。