Presently,thetimearrivedwhenIwastoremovetoMissMatilda’shouse。Ifoundhertimidandanxiousaboutthearrangementsformycomfort。Manyatime,whileIwasunpacking,didshecomebackwardsandforwardstostirthefirewhichburnedalltheworseforbeingsofrequentlypoked。
\"Haveyoudrawersenough,dear?\"askedshe。\"Idon’tknowexactlyhowmysisterusedtoarrangethem。Shehadcapitalmethods。Iamsureshewouldhavetrainedaservantinaweektomakeabetterfirethanthis,andFannyhasbeenwithmefourmonths。\"
Thissubjectofservantswasastandinggrievance,andIcouldnotwondermuchatit;forifgentlemenwerescarce,andalmostunheardofinthe\"genteelsociety\"ofCranford,theyortheircounterparts—handsomeyoungmen—aboundedinthelowerclasses。Theprettyneatservant—maidshadtheirchoiceofdesirable\"followers\";andtheirmistresses,withouthavingthesortofmysteriousdreadofmenandmatrimonythatMissMatildahad,mightwellfeelalittleanxiouslesttheheadsoftheircomelymaidsshouldbeturnedbythejoiner,orthebutcher,orthegardener,whowereobliged,bytheircallings,tocometothehouse,andwho,asill—luckwouldhaveit,weregenerallyhandsomeandunmarried。Fanny’slovers,ifshehadany—andMissMatildasuspectedherofsomanyflirtationsthat,ifshehadnotbeenverypretty,Ishouldhavedoubtedherhavingone—wereaconstantanxietytohermistress。Shewasforbidden,bythearticlesofherengagement,tohave\"followers\";
andthoughshehadanswered,innocentlyenough,doublingupthehemofherapronasshespoke,\"Please,ma’am,Ineverhadmorethanoneatatime,\"MissMattyprohibitedthatone。Butavisionofamanseemedtohauntthekitchen。Fannyassuredmethatitwasallfancy,orelseIshouldhavesaidmyselfthatIhadseenaman’scoat—tailswhiskintothesculleryonce,whenIwentonanerrandintothestore—roomatnight;andanotherevening,when,ourwatcheshavingstopped,Iwenttolookattheclock,therewasaveryoddappearance,singularlylikeayoungmansqueezedupbetweentheclockandthebackoftheopenkitchen—door:andI
thoughtFannysnatchedupthecandleveryhastily,soastothrowtheshadowontheclockface,whilesheverypositivelytoldmethetimehalf—an—hourtooearly,aswefoundoutafterwardsbythechurchclock。ButIdidnotaddtoMissMatty’sanxietiesbynamingmysuspicions,especiallyasFannysaidtome,thenextday,thatitwassuchaqueerkitchenforhavingoddshadowsaboutit,shereallywasalmostafraidtostay;\"foryouknow,miss,\"sheadded,\"Idon’tseeacreaturefromsixo’clocktea,tillMissusringsthebellforprayersatten。\"
However,itsofelloutthatFannyhadtoleaveandMissMatildabeggedmetostayand\"settleher\"withthenewmaid;towhichI
consented,afterIhadheardfrommyfatherthathedidnotwantmeathome。Thenewservantwasarough,honest—looking,countrygirl,whohadonlylivedinafarmplacebefore;butIlikedherlookswhenshecametobehired;andIpromisedMissMatildatoputherinthewaysofthehouse。ThesaidwayswerereligiouslysuchasMissMatildathoughthersisterwouldapprove。ManyadomesticruleandregulationhadbeenasubjectofplaintivewhisperedmurmurtomeduringMissJenkyns’slife;butnowthatshewasgone,IdonotthinkthatevenI,whowasafavourite,dursthavesuggestedanalteration。Togiveaninstance:weconstantlyadheredtotheformswhichwereobserved,atmeal—times,in\"myfather,therector’shouse。\"Accordingly,wehadalwayswineanddessert;butthedecanterswereonlyfilledwhentherewasaparty,andwhatremainedwasseldomtouched,thoughwehadtwowine—
glassesapieceeverydayafterdinner,untilthenextfestiveoccasionarrived,whenthestateoftheremainderwinewasexaminedintoinafamilycouncil。Thedregswereoftengiventothepoor:
butoccasionally,whenagooddealhadbeenleftatthelastparty(fivemonthsago,itmightbe),itwasaddedtosomeofafreshbottle,broughtupfromthecellar。IfancypoorCaptainBrowndidnotmuchlikewine,forInoticedheneverfinishedhisfirstglass,andmostmilitarymentakeseveral。Then,astoourdessert,MissJenkynsusedtogathercurrantsandgooseberriesforitherself,whichIsometimesthoughtwouldhavetastedbetterfreshfromthetrees;butthen,asMissJenkynsobserved,therewouldhavebeennothingfordessertinsummer—time。Asitwas,wefeltverygenteelwithourtwoglassesapiece,andadishofgooseberriesatthetop,ofcurrantsandbiscuitsatthesides,andtwodecantersatthebottom。Whenorangescamein,acuriousproceedingwasgonethrough。MissJenkynsdidnotliketocutthefruit;for,assheobserved,thejuiceallranoutnobodyknewwhere;sucking(onlyIthinksheusedsomemorereconditeword)wasinfacttheonlywayofenjoyingoranges;butthentherewastheunpleasantassociationwithaceremonyfrequentlygonethroughbylittlebabies;andso,afterdessert,inorangeseason,MissJenkynsandMissMattyusedtoriseup,possessthemselveseachofanorangeinsilence,andwithdrawtotheprivacyoftheirownroomstoindulgeinsuckingoranges。
Ihadonceortwicetried,onsuchoccasions,toprevailonMissMattytostay,andhadsucceededinhersister’slifetime。Iheldupascreen,anddidnotlook,and,asshesaid,shetriednottomakethenoiseveryoffensive;butnowthatshewasleftalone,sheseemedquitehorrifiedwhenIbeggedhertoremainwithmeinthewarmdining—parlour,andenjoyherorangeasshelikedbest。Andsoitwasineverything。MissJenkyns’srulesweremademorestringentthanever,becausetheframerofthemwasgonewheretherecouldbenoappeal。InallthingselseMissMatildawasmeekandundecidedtoafault。IhaveheardFannyturnherroundtwentytimesinamorningaboutdinner,justasthelittlehussychose;
andIsometimesfanciedsheworkedonMissMatilda’sweaknessinordertobewilderher,andtomakeherfeelmoreinthepowerofhercleverservant。IdeterminedthatIwouldnotleavehertillI
hadseenwhatsortofapersonMarthawas;and,ifIfoundhertrustworthy,Iwouldtellhernottotroublehermistresswitheverylittledecision。
Marthawasbluntandplain—spokentoafault;otherwiseshewasabrisk,well—meaning,butveryignorantgirl。ShehadnotbeenwithusaweekbeforeMissMatildaandIwereastoundedonemorningbythereceiptofaletterfromacousinofhers,whohadbeentwentyorthirtyyearsinIndia,andwhohadlately,aswehadseenbythe\"ArmyList,\"returnedtoEngland,bringingwithhimaninvalidwifewhohadneverbeenintroducedtoherEnglishrelations。MajorJenkynswrotetoproposethatheandhiswifeshouldspendanightatCranford,onhiswaytoScotland—attheinn,ifitdidnotsuitMissMatildatoreceivethemintoherhouse;inwhichcasetheyshouldhopetobewithherasmuchaspossibleduringtheday。
OfcourseitMUSTsuither,asshesaid;forallCranfordknewthatshehadhersister’sbedroomatliberty;butIamsureshewishedtheMajorhadstoppedinIndiaandforgottenhiscousinsoutandout。
\"Oh!howmustImanage?\"askedshehelplessly。\"IfDeborahhadbeenaliveshewouldhaveknownwhattodowithagentleman—
visitor。MustIputrazorsinhisdressing—room?Dear!dear!andI’vegotnone。Deborahwouldhavehadthem。Andslippers,andcoat—brushes?\"Isuggestedthatprobablyhewouldbringallthesethingswithhim。\"Andafterdinner,howamItoknowwhentogetupandleavehimtohiswine?Deborahwouldhavedoneitsowell;
shewouldhavebeenquiteinherelement。Willhewantcoffee,doyouthink?\"Iundertookthemanagementofthecoffee,andtoldherIwouldinstructMarthaintheartofwaiting—inwhichitmustbeownedshewasterriblydeficient—andthatIhadnodoubtMajorandMrsJenkynswouldunderstandthequietmodeinwhichaladylivedbyherselfinacountrytown。Butshewassadlyfluttered。
Imadeheremptyherdecantersandbringuptwofreshbottlesofwine。IwishedIcouldhavepreventedherfrombeingpresentatmyinstructionstoMartha,forshefrequentlycutinwithsomefreshdirection,muddlingthepoorgirl’smindasshestoodopen—mouthed,listeningtousboth。
\"Handthevegetablesround,\"saidI(foolishly,Iseenow—foritwasaimingatmorethanwecouldaccomplishwithquietnessandsimplicity);andthen,seeingherlookbewildered,Iadded,\"takethevegetablesroundtopeople,andletthemhelpthemselves。\"
\"Andmindyougofirsttotheladies,\"putinMissMatilda。
\"Alwaysgototheladiesbeforegentlemenwhenyouarewaiting。\"
\"I’lldoitasyoutellme,ma’am,\"saidMartha;\"butIlikeladsbest。\"
WefeltveryuncomfortableandshockedatthisspeechofMartha’s,yetIdon’tthinkshemeantanyharm;and,onthewhole,sheattendedverywelltoourdirections,exceptthatshe\"nudged\"theMajorwhenhedidnothelphimselfassoonassheexpectedtothepotatoes,whileshewashandingthemround。
Themajorandhiswifewerequietunpretendingpeopleenoughwhentheydidcome;languid,asallEastIndiansare,Isuppose。Wewereratherdismayedattheirbringingtwoservantswiththem,aHindoobody—servantfortheMajor,andasteadyelderlymaidforhiswife;buttheysleptattheinn,andtookoffagooddealoftheresponsibilitybyattendingcarefullytotheirmaster’sandmistress’scomfort。Martha,tobesure,hadneverendedherstaringattheEastIndian’swhiteturbanandbrowncomplexion,andIsawthatMissMatildashrunkawayfromhimalittleashewaitedatdinner。Indeed,sheaskedme,whentheyweregone,ifhedidnotremindmeofBlueBeard?Onthewhole,thevisitwasmostsatisfactory,andisasubjectofconversationevennowwithMissMatilda;atthetimeitgreatlyexcitedCranford,andevenstirreduptheapatheticandHonourableMrsJamiesontosomeexpressionofinterest,whenIwenttocallandthankherforthekindanswersshehadvouchsafedtoMissMatilda’sinquiriesastothearrangementofagentleman’sdressing—room—answerswhichImustconfessshehadgivenintheweariedmanneroftheScandinavianprophetess—
\"Leaveme,leavemetorepose。\"
AndNOWIcometotheloveaffair。
ItseemsthatMissPolehadacousin,onceortwiceremoved,whohadofferedtoMissMattylongago。NowthiscousinlivedfourorfivemilesfromCranfordonhisownestate;buthispropertywasnotlargeenoughtoentitlehimtorankhigherthanayeoman;orrather,withsomethingofthe\"pridewhichapeshumility,\"hehadrefusedtopushhimselfon,assomanyofhisclasshaddone,intotheranksofthesquires。HewouldnotallowhimselftobecalledThomasHolbrook,ESQ。;heevensentbackletterswiththisaddress,tellingthepost—mistressatCranfordthathisnamewasMRThomasHolbrook,yeoman。Herejectedalldomesticinnovations;hewouldhavethehousedoorstandopeninsummerandshutinwinter,withoutknockerorbelltosummonaservant。Theclosedfistortheknobofastickdidthisofficeforhimifhefoundthedoorlocked。Hedespisedeveryrefinementwhichhadnotitsrootdeepdowninhumanity。Ifpeoplewerenotill,hesawnonecessityformoderatinghisvoice。Hespokethedialectofthecountryinperfection,andconstantlyuseditinconversation;althoughMissPole(whogavemetheseparticulars)added,thathereadaloudmorebeautifullyandwithmorefeelingthananyoneshehadeverheard,exceptthelaterector。
\"AndhowcameMissMatildanottomarryhim?\"askedI。
\"Oh,Idon’tknow。Shewaswillingenough,Ithink;butyouknowCousinThomaswouldnothavebeenenoughofagentlemanfortherectorandMissJenkyns。\"
\"Well!buttheywerenottomarryhim,\"saidI,impatiently。
\"No;buttheydidnotlikeMissMattytomarrybelowherrank。Youknowshewastherector’sdaughter,andsomehowtheyarerelatedtoSirPeterArley:MissJenkynsthoughtadealofthat。\"
\"PoorMissMatty!\"saidI。
\"Nay,now,Idon’tknowanythingmorethanthatheofferedandwasrefused。MissMattymightnotlikehim—andMissJenkynsmightneverhavesaidaword—itisonlyaguessofmine。\"
\"Hassheneverseenhimsince?\"Iinquired。
\"No,Ithinknot。YouseeWoodley,CousinThomas’shouse,lieshalf—waybetweenCranfordandMisselton;andIknowhemadeMisseltonhismarket—townverysoonafterhehadofferedtoMissMatty;andIdon’tthinkhehasbeenintoCranfordaboveonceortwicesince—once,whenIwaswalkingwithMissMatty,inHighStreet,andsuddenlyshedartedfromme,andwentupShireLane。A
fewminutesafterIwasstartledbymeetingCousinThomas。\"
\"Howoldishe?\"Iasked,afterapauseofcastle—building。
\"Hemustbeaboutseventy,Ithink,mydear,\"saidMissPole,blowingupmycastle,asifbygun—powder,intosmallfragments。
Verysoonafter—atleastduringmylongvisittoMissMatilda—I
hadtheopportunityofseeingMrHolbrook;seeing,too,hisfirstencounterwithhisformerlove,afterthirtyorfortyyears’
separation。Iwashelpingtodecidewhetheranyofthenewassortmentofcolouredsilkswhichtheyhadjustreceivedattheshopwoulddotomatchagreyandblackmousseline—delainethatwantedanewbreadth,whenatall,thin,DonQuixote—lookingoldmancameintotheshopforsomewoollengloves。Ihadneverseentheperson(whowasratherstriking)before,andIwatchedhimratherattentivelywhileMissMattylistenedtotheshopman。Thestrangerworeabluecoatwithbrassbuttons,drabbreeches,andgaiters,anddrummedwithhisfingersonthecounteruntilhewasattendedto。Whenheansweredtheshop—boy’squestion,\"WhatcanI
havethepleasureofshowingyouto—day,sir?\"IsawMissMatildastart,andthensuddenlysitdown;andinstantlyIguessedwhoitwas。Shehadmadesomeinquirywhichhadtobecarriedroundtotheothershopman。
\"MissJenkynswantstheblacksarsenettwo—and—twopencetheyard\";
andMrHolbrookhadcaughtthename,andwasacrosstheshopintwostrides。
\"Matty—MissMatilda—MissJenkyns!Godblessmysoul!Ishouldnothaveknownyou。Howareyou?howareyou?\"Hekeptshakingherhandinawaywhichprovedthewarmthofhisfriendship;butherepeatedsooften,asiftohimself,\"Ishouldnothaveknownyou!\"
thatanysentimentalromancewhichImightbeinclinedtobuildwasquitedoneawaywithbyhismanner。
However,hekepttalkingtousallthetimewewereintheshop;
andthenwavingtheshopmanwiththeunpurchasedglovesononeside,with\"Anothertime,sir!anothertime!\"hewalkedhomewithus。Iamhappytosaymyclient,MissMatilda,alsolefttheshopinanequallybewilderedstate,nothavingpurchasedeithergreenorredsilk。MrHolbrookwasevidentlyfullwithhonestloud—
spokenjoyatmeetinghisoldloveagain;hetouchedonthechangesthathadtakenplace;heevenspokeofMissJenkynsas\"Yourpoorsister!Well,well!wehaveallourfaults\";andbadeusgood—byewithmanyahopethatheshouldsoonseeMissMattyagain。Shewentstraighttoherroom,andnevercamebacktillourearlytea—
time,whenIthoughtshelookedasifshehadbeencrying。
CHAPTERIV—AVISITTOANOLDBACHELOR
AFEWdaysafter,anotecamefromMrHolbrook,askingus—
impartiallyaskingbothofus—inaformal,old—fashionedstyle,tospendadayathishouse—alongJuneday—foritwasJunenow。Henamedthathehadalsoinvitedhiscousin,MissPole;sothatwemightjoininafly,whichcouldbeputupathishouse。
IexpectedMissMattytojumpatthisinvitation;but,no!MissPoleandIhadthegreatestdifficultyinpersuadinghertogo。
Shethoughtitwasimproper;andwasevenhalfannoyedwhenweutterlyignoredtheideaofanyimproprietyinhergoingwithtwootherladiestoseeheroldlover。Thencameamoreseriousdifficulty。ShedidnotthinkDeborahwouldhavelikedhertogo。
Thistookushalfaday’sgoodhardtalkingtogetover;but,atthefirstsentenceofrelenting,Iseizedtheopportunity,andwroteanddespatchedanacceptanceinhername—fixingdayandhour,thatallmightbedecidedanddonewith。
ThenextmorningsheaskedmeifIwouldgodowntotheshopwithher;andthere,aftermuchhesitation,wechoseoutthreecapstobesenthomeandtriedon,thatthemostbecomingmightbeselectedtotakewithusonThursday。
ShewasinastateofsilentagitationallthewaytoWoodley。Shehadevidentlyneverbeentherebefore;and,althoughshelittledreamtIknewanythingofherearlystory,Icouldperceiveshewasinatremoratthethoughtofseeingtheplacewhichmighthavebeenherhome,androundwhichitisprobablethatmanyofherinnocentgirlishimaginationshadclustered。Itwasalongdrivethere,throughpavedjoltinglanes。MissMatildasatboltupright,andlookedwistfullyoutofthewindowsaswedrewneartheendofourjourney。Theaspectofthecountrywasquietandpastoral。
Woodleystoodamongfields;andtherewasanold—fashionedgardenwhererosesandcurrant—bushestouchedeachother,andwherethefeatheryasparagusformedaprettybackgroundtothepinksandgilly—flowers;therewasnodriveuptothedoor。Wegotoutatalittlegate,andwalkedupastraightbox—edgedpath。
\"Mycousinmightmakeadrive,Ithink,\"saidMissPole,whowasafraidofear—ache,andhadonlyhercapon。
\"Ithinkitisverypretty,\"saidMissMatty,withasoftplaintivenessinhervoice,andalmostinawhisper,forjustthenMrHolbrookappearedatthedoor,rubbinghishandsinveryeffervescenceofhospitality。HelookedmorelikemyideaofDonQuixotethanever,andyetthelikenesswasonlyexternal。Hisrespectablehousekeeperstoodmodestlyatthedoortobiduswelcome;and,whilesheledtheelderladiesupstairstoabedroom,Ibeggedtolookaboutthegarden。Myrequestevidentlypleasedtheoldgentleman,whotookmeallroundtheplaceandshowedmehissix—and—twentycows,namedafterthedifferentlettersofthealphabet。Aswewentalong,hesurprisedmeoccasionallybyrepeatingaptandbeautifulquotationsfromthepoets,rangingeasilyfromShakespeareandGeorgeHerberttothoseofourownday。
Hedidthisasnaturallyasifhewerethinkingaloud,andtheirtrueandbeautifulwordswerethebestexpressionhecouldfindforwhathewasthinkingorfeeling。TobesurehecalledByron\"myLordByrron,\"andpronouncedthenameofGoethestrictlyinaccordancewiththeEnglishsoundoftheletters—\"AsGoethesays,’Yeever—verdantpalaces,’\"&c。Altogether,Inevermetwithaman,beforeorsince,whohadspentsolongalifeinasecludedandnotimpressivecountry,withever—increasingdelightinthedailyandyearlychangeofseasonandbeauty。
WhenheandIwentin,wefoundthatdinnerwasnearlyreadyinthekitchen—forsoIsupposetheroomoughttobecalled,astherewereoakdressersandcupboardsallround,alloverbythesideofthefireplace,andonlyasmallTurkeycarpetinthemiddleoftheflag—floor。Theroommighthavebeeneasilymadeintoahandsomedarkoakdining—parlourbyremovingtheovenandafewotherappurtenancesofakitchen,whichwereevidentlyneverused,therealcooking—placebeingatsomedistance。Theroominwhichwewereexpectedtositwasastiffly—furnished,uglyapartment;butthatinwhichwedidsitwaswhatMrHolbrookcalledthecounting—
house,wherehepaidhislabourerstheirweeklywagesatagreatdesknearthedoor。Therestoftheprettysitting—room—lookingintotheorchard,andallcoveredoverwithdancingtree—shadows—
wasfilledwithbooks。Theylayontheground,theycoveredthewalls,theystrewedthetable。Hewasevidentlyhalfashamedandhalfproudofhisextravaganceinthisrespect。Theywereofallkinds—poetryandwildweirdtalesprevailing。Heevidentlychosehisbooksinaccordancewithhisowntastes,notbecausesuchandsuchwereclassicalorestablishedfavourites。
\"Ah!\"hesaid,\"wefarmersoughtnottohavemuchtimeforreading;
yetsomehowonecan’thelpit。\"
\"Whataprettyroom!\"saidMissMatty,SOTTOVOCE。
\"Whatapleasantplace!\"saidI,aloud,almostsimultaneously。
\"Nay!ifyoulikeit,\"repliedhe;\"butcanyousitonthesegreat,blackleather,three—corneredchairs?Ilikeitbetterthanthebestparlour;butIthoughtladieswouldtakethatforthesmarterplace。\"
Itwasthesmarterplace,but,likemostsmartthings,notatallpretty,orpleasant,orhome—like;so,whilewewereatdinner,theservant—girldustedandscrubbedthecounting—housechairs,andwesattherealltherestoftheday。
Wehadpuddingbeforemeat;andIthoughtMrHolbrookwasgoingtomakesomeapologyforhisold—fashionedways,forhebegan—
\"Idon’tknowwhetheryoulikenewfangledways。\"
\"Oh,notatall!\"saidMissMatty。
\"NomoredoI,\"saidhe。\"Myhouse—keeperWILLhavetheseinhernewfashion;orelseItellherthat,whenIwasayoungman,weusedtokeepstrictlytomyfather’srule,’Nobroth,noball;noball,nobeef’;andalwaysbegandinnerwithbroth。Thenwehadsuetpuddings,boiledinthebrothwiththebeef:andthenthemeatitself。Ifwedidnotsupourbroth,wehadnoball,whichwelikedadealbetter;andthebeefcamelastofall,andonlythosehaditwhohaddonejusticetothebrothandtheball。Nowfolksbeginwithsweetthings,andturntheirdinnerstopsy—turvy。\"
Whentheducksandgreenpeascame,welookedateachotherindismay;wehadonlytwo—pronged,black—handledforks。Itistruethesteelwasasbrightassilver;butwhatwerewetodo?MissMattypickedupherpeas,onebyone,onthepointoftheprongs,muchasAmineatehergrainsofriceafterherpreviousfeastwiththeGhoul。MissPolesighedoverherdelicateyoungpeasassheleftthemononesideofherplateuntasted,fortheyWOULDdropbetweentheprongs。Ilookedatmyhost:thepeasweregoingwholesaleintohiscapaciousmouth,shovelledupbyhislargeround—endedknife。Isaw,Iimitated,Isurvived!Myfriends,inspiteofmyprecedent,couldnotmusterupcourageenoughtodoanungenteelthing;and,ifMrHolbrookhadnotbeensoheartilyhungry,hewouldprobablyhaveseenthatthegoodpeaswentawayalmostuntouched。
Afterdinner,aclaypipewasbroughtin,andaspittoon;and,askingustoretiretoanotherroom,wherehewouldsoonjoinus,ifwedislikedtobacco—smoke,hepresentedhispipetoMissMatty,andrequestedhertofillthebowl。Thiswasacomplimenttoaladyinhisyouth;butitwasratherinappropriatetoproposeitasanhonourtoMissMatty,whohadbeentrainedbyhersistertoholdsmokingofeverykindinutterabhorrence。Butifitwasashocktoherrefinement,itwasalsoagratificationtoherfeelingstobethusselected;soshedaintilystuffedthestrongtobaccointothepipe,andthenwewithdrew。
\"Itisverypleasantdiningwithabachelor,\"saidMissMattysoftly,aswesettledourselvesinthecounting—house。\"Ionlyhopeitisnotimproper;somanypleasantthingsare!\"
\"Whatanumberofbookshehas!\"saidMissPole,lookingroundtheroom。\"Andhowdustytheyare!\"
\"IthinkitmustbelikeoneofthegreatDrJohnson’srooms,\"saidMissMatty。\"Whatasuperiormanyourcousinmustbe!\"
\"Yes!\"saidMissPole,\"he’sagreatreader;butIamafraidhehasgotintoveryuncouthhabitswithlivingalone。\"
\"Oh!uncouthistoohardaword。Ishouldcallhimeccentric;verycleverpeoplealwaysare!\"repliedMissMatty。
WhenMrHolbrookreturned,heproposedawalkinthefields;butthetwoelderladieswereafraidofdamp,anddirt,andhadonlyveryunbecomingcalashestoputonovertheircaps;sotheydeclined,andIwasagainhiscompanioninaturnwhichhesaidhewasobligedtotaketoseeafterhismen。Hestrodealong,eitherwhollyforgettingmyexistence,orsoothedintosilencebyhispipe—andyetitwasnotsilenceexactly。Hewalkedbeforemewithastoopinggait,hishandsclaspedbehindhim;and,assometreeorcloud,orglimpseofdistantuplandpastures,struckhim,hequotedpoetrytohimself,sayingitoutloudinagrandsonorousvoice,withjusttheemphasisthattruefeelingandappreciationgive。Wecameuponanoldcedartree,whichstoodatoneendofthehouse—
\"Thecedarspreadshisdark—greenlayersofshade。\"
\"Capitalterm—’layers!’Wonderfulman!\"Ididnotknowwhetherhewasspeakingtomeornot;butIputinanassenting\"wonderful,\"althoughIknewnothingaboutit,justbecauseIwastiredofbeingforgotten,andofbeingconsequentlysilent。
Heturnedsharpround。\"Ay!youmaysay’wonderful。’Why,whenI
sawthereviewofhispoemsinBLACKWOOD,Isetoffwithinanhour,andwalkedsevenmilestoMisselton(forthehorseswerenotintheway)andorderedthem。Now,whatcolourareash—budsinMarch?\"
Isthemangoingmad?thoughtI。HeisverylikeDonQuixote。
\"Whatcolourarethey,Isay?\"repeatedhevehemently。
\"IamsureIdon’tknow,sir,\"saidI,withthemeeknessofignorance。
\"Iknewyoudidn’t。NomoredidI—anoldfoolthatIam!—tillthisyoungmancomesandtellsme。Blackasash—budsinMarch。
AndI’velivedallmylifeinthecountry;moreshameformenottoknow。Black:theyarejet—black,madam。\"Andhewentoffagain,swingingalongtothemusicofsomerhymehehadgotholdof。
Whenwecameback,nothingwouldservehimbuthemustreadusthepoemshehadbeenspeakingof;andMissPoleencouragedhiminhisproposal,Ithought,becauseshewishedmetohearhisbeautifulreading,ofwhichshehadboasted;butsheafterwardssaiditwasbecauseshehadgottoadifficultpartofhercrochet,andwantedtocountherstitcheswithouthavingtotalk。WhateverhehadproposedwouldhavebeenrighttoMissMatty;althoughshedidfallsoundasleepwithinfiveminutesafterhehadbegunalongpoem,called\"LocksleyHall,\"andhadacomfortablenap,unobserved,tillheended;whenthecessationofhisvoicewakenedherup,andshesaid,feelingthatsomethingwasexpected,andthatMissPolewascounting—
\"Whataprettybook!\"
\"Pretty,madam!it’sbeautiful!Pretty,indeed!\"
\"Ohyes!Imeantbeautiful\"saidshe,flutteredathisdisapprovalofherword。\"ItissolikethatbeautifulpoemofDrJohnson’smysisterusedtoread—Iforgetthenameofit;whatwasit,mydear?\"turningtome。
\"Whichdoyoumean,ma’am?Whatwasitabout?\"
\"Idon’trememberwhatitwasabout,andI’vequiteforgottenwhatthenameofitwas;butitwaswrittenbyDrJohnson,andwasverybeautiful,andverylikewhatMrHolbrookhasjustbeenreading。\"
\"Idon’trememberit,\"saidhereflectively。\"ButIdon’tknowDrJohnson’spoemswell。Imustreadthem。\"
Asweweregettingintotheflytoreturn,IheardMrHolbrooksayheshouldcallontheladiessoon,andinquirehowtheygothome;
andthisevidentlypleasedandflutteredMissMattyatthetimehesaidit;butafterwehadlostsightoftheoldhouseamongthetreeshersentimentstowardsthemasterofitweregraduallyabsorbedintoadistressingwonderastowhetherMarthahadbrokenherword,andseizedontheopportunityofhermistress’sabsencetohavea\"follower。\"Marthalookedgood,andsteady,andcomposedenough,asshecametohelpusout;shewasalwayscarefulofMissMatty,andto—nightshemadeuseofthisunluckyspeech—
\"Eh!dearma’am,tothinkofyourgoingoutinaneveninginsuchathinshawl!It’snobetterthanmuslin。Atyourage,ma’am,youshouldbecareful。\"
\"Myage!\"saidMissMatty,almostspeakingcrossly,forher,forshewasusuallygentle—\"Myage!Why,howolddoyouthinkIam,thatyoutalkaboutmyage?\"
\"Well,ma’am,Ishouldsayyouwerenotfarshortofsixty:butfolks’looksisoftenagainstthem—andI’msureImeantnoharm。\"
\"Martha,I’mnotyetfifty—two!\"saidMissMatty,withgraveemphasis;forprobablytheremembranceofheryouthhadcomeveryvividlybeforeherthisday,andshewasannoyedatfindingthatgoldentimesofarawayinthepast。
ButsheneverspokeofanyformerandmoreintimateacquaintancewithMrHolbrook。Shehadprobablymetwithsolittlesympathyinherearlylove,thatshehadshutitupcloseinherheart;anditwasonlybyasortofwatching,whichIcouldhardlyavoidsinceMissPole’sconfidence,thatIsawhowfaithfulherpoorhearthadbeeninitssorrowanditssilence。
Shegavemesomegoodreasonforwearingherbestcapeveryday,andsatnearthewindow,inspiteofherrheumatism,inordertosee,withoutbeingseen,downintothestreet。
Hecame。Heputhisopenpalmsuponhisknees,whichwerefarapart,ashesatwithhisheadbentdown,whistling,afterwehadrepliedtohisinquiriesaboutoursafereturn。Suddenlyhejumpedup—
\"Well,madam!haveyouanycommandsforParis?Iamgoingthereinaweekortwo。\"
\"ToParis!\"webothexclaimed。
\"Yes,madam!I’veneverbeenthere,andalwayshadawishtogo;
andIthinkifIdon’tgosoon,Imayn’tgoatall;soassoonasthehayisgotinIshallgo,beforeharvesttime。\"
Weweresomuchastonishedthatwehadnocommissions。
Justashewasgoingoutoftheroom,heturnedback,withhisfavouriteexclamation—
\"Godblessmysoul,madam!butInearlyforgothalfmyerrand。
Herearethepoemsforyouyouadmiredsomuchtheothereveningatmyhouse。\"Hetuggedawayataparcelinhiscoat—pocket。\"Good—
bye,miss,\"saidhe;\"good—bye,Matty!takecareofyourself。\"Andhewasgone。
Buthehadgivenherabook,andhehadcalledherMatty,justasheusedtodothirtyyearsto。
\"IwishhewouldnotgotoParis,\"saidMissMatildaanxiously。\"I
don’tbelievefrogswillagreewithhim;heusedtohavetobeverycarefulwhatheate,whichwascuriousinsostrong—lookingayoungman。\"
SoonafterthisItookmyleave,givingmanyaninjunctiontoMarthatolookafterhermistress,andtoletmeknowifshethoughtthatMissMatildawasnotsowell;inwhichcaseIwouldvolunteeravisittomyoldfriend,withoutnoticingMartha’sintelligencetoher。
AccordinglyIreceivedalineortwofromMarthaeverynowandthen;and,aboutNovemberIhadanotetosayhermistresswas\"verylowandsadlyoffherfood\";andtheaccountmademesouneasythat,althoughMarthadidnotdecidedlysummonme,Ipackedupmythingsandwent。
Ireceivedawarmwelcome,inspiteofthelittleflurryproducedbymyimpromptuvisit,forIhadonlybeenabletogiveaday’snotice。MissMatildalookedmiserablyill;andIpreparedtocomfortandcossether。
IwentdowntohaveaprivatetalkwithMartha。
\"Howlonghasyourmistressbeensopoorly?\"Iasked,asIstoodbythekitchenfire。
\"Well!Ithinkitsbetterthanafortnight;itis,Iknow;itwasoneTuesday,afterMissPolehadbeen,thatshewentintothismopingway。Ithoughtshewastired,anditwouldgooffwithanight’srest;butno!shehasgoneonandoneversince,tillI
thoughtitmydutytowritetoyou,ma’am。\"
\"Youdidquiteright,Martha。Itisacomforttothinkshehassofaithfulaservantabouther。AndIhopeyoufindyourplacecomfortable?\"
\"Well,ma’am,missusisverykind,andthere’splentytoeatanddrink,andnomoreworkbutwhatIcandoeasily—but—\"Marthahesitated。
\"Butwhat,Martha?\"
\"Why,itseemssohardofmissusnottoletmehaveanyfollowers;
there’ssuchlotsofyoungfellowsinthetown;andmanyaonehasasmuchasofferedtokeepcompanywithme;andImayneverbeinsuchalikelyplaceagain,andit’slikewastinganopportunity。
ManyagirlasIknowwouldhave’emunbeknownsttomissus;butI’vegivenmyword,andI’llsticktoit;orelsethisisjustthehouseformissusnevertobethewiseriftheydidcome:andit’ssuchacapablekitchen—there’ssuchdarkcornersinit—I’dbeboundtohideanyone。IcounteduplastSundaynight—forI’llnotdenyIwascryingbecauseIhadtoshutthedoorinJemHearn’sface,andhe’sasteadyyoungman,fitforanygirl;onlyIhadgivenmissusmyword。\"Marthawasallbutcryingagain;andIhadlittlecomforttogiveher,forIknew,fromoldexperience,ofthehorrorwithwhichboththeMissJenkynseslookedupon\"followers\";
andinMissMatty’spresentnervousstatethisdreadwasnotlikelytobelessened。
IwenttoseeMissPolethenextday,andtookhercompletelybysurprise,forshehadnotbeentoseeMissMatildafortwodays。
\"AndnowImustgobackwithyou,mydear,forIpromisedtoletherknowhowThomasHolbrookwenton;and,I’msorrytosay,hishousekeeperhassentmewordto—daythathehasn’tlongtolive。
PoorThomas!thatjourneytoPariswasquitetoomuchforhim。Hishousekeepersayshehashardlyeverbeenroundhisfieldssince,butjustsitswithhishandsonhiskneesinthecounting—house,notreadingoranything,butonlysayingwhatawonderfulcityPariswas!Parishasmuchtoanswerforifit’skilledmycousinThomas,forabettermanneverlived。\"
\"DoesMissMatildaknowofhisillness?\"askedI—anewlightastothecauseofherindispositiondawninguponme。
\"Dear!tobesure,yes!Hasnotshetoldyou?Iletherknowafortnightago,ormore,whenfirstIheardofit。Howoddsheshouldn’thavetoldyou!\"
Notatall,Ithought;butIdidnotsayanything。Ifeltalmostguiltyofhavingspiedtoocuriouslyintothattenderheart,andI
wasnotgoingtospeakofitssecrets—hidden,MissMattybelieved,fromalltheworld。IusheredMissPoleintoMissMatilda’slittledrawing—room,andthenleftthemalone。ButIwasnotsurprisedwhenMarthacametomybedroomdoor,toaskmetogodowntodinneralone,forthatmissushadoneofherbadheadaches。
Shecameintothedrawing—roomattea—time,butitwasevidentlyanefforttoher;and,asiftomakeupforsomereproachfulfeelingagainstherlatesister,MissJenkyns,whichhadbeentroublingheralltheafternoon,andforwhichshenowfeltpenitent,shekepttellingmehowgoodandhowcleverDeborahwasinheryouth;howsheusedtosettlewhatgownstheyweretowearatalltheparties(faint,ghostlyideasofgrimparties,farawayinthedistance,whenMissMattyandMissPolewereyoung!);andhowDeborahandhermotherhadstartedthebenefitsocietyforthepoor,andtaughtgirlscookingandplainsewing;andhowDeborahhadoncedancedwithalord;andhowsheusedtovisitatSirPeterArley’s,andtriedtoremodelthequietrectoryestablishmentontheplansofArleyHall,wheretheykeptthirtyservants;andhowshehadnursedMissMattythroughalong,longillness,ofwhichIhadneverheardbefore,butwhichInowdatedinmyownmindasfollowingthedismissalofthesuitofMrHolbrook。SowetalkedsoftlyandquietlyofoldtimesthroughthelongNovemberevening。
ThenextdayMissPolebroughtuswordthatMrHolbrookwasdead。
MissMattyheardthenewsinsilence;infact,fromtheaccountofthepreviousday,itwasonlywhatwehadtoexpect。MissPolekeptcallinguponusforsomeexpressionofregret,byaskingifitwasnotsadthathewasgone,andsaying—
\"TothinkofthatpleasantdaylastJune,whenheseemedsowell!
AndhemighthavelivedthisdozenyearsifhehadnotgonetothatwickedParis,wheretheyarealwayshavingrevolutions。\"
Shepausedforsomedemonstrationonourpart。IsawMissMattycouldnotspeak,shewastremblingsonervously;soIsaidwhatI
reallyfelt;andafteracallofsomeduration—allthetimeofwhichIhavenodoubtMissPolethoughtMissMattyreceivedthenewsverycalmly—ourvisitortookherleave。
MissMattymadeastrongefforttoconcealherfeelings—aconcealmentshepractisedevenwithme,forshehasneveralludedtoMrHolbrookagain,althoughthebookhegaveherlieswithherBibleonthelittletablebyherbedside。ShedidnotthinkI
heardherwhensheaskedthelittlemillinerofCranfordtomakehercapssomethingliketheHonourableMrsJamieson’s,orthatI
noticedthereply—
\"Butshewearswidows’caps,ma’am?\"
\"Oh!Ionlymeantsomethinginthatstyle;notwidows’,ofcourse,butratherlikeMrsJamieson’s。\"
ThiseffortatconcealmentwasthebeginningofthetremulousmotionofheadandhandswhichIhaveseeneversinceinMissMatty。
TheeveningofthedayonwhichweheardofMrHolbrook’sdeath,MissMatildawasverysilentandthoughtful;afterprayersshecalledMarthabackandthenshestooduncertainwhattosay。
\"Martha!\"shesaid,atlast,\"youareyoung\"—andthenshemadesolongapausethatMartha,toremindherofherhalf—finishedsentence,droppedacurtsey,andsaid—
\"Yes,please,ma’am;two—and—twentylastthirdofOctober,please,ma’am。\"
\"And,perhaps,Martha,youmaysometimemeetwithayoungmanyoulike,andwholikesyou。Ididsayyouwerenottohavefollowers;
butifyoumeetwithsuchayoungman,andtellme,andIfindheisrespectable,Ihavenoobjectiontohiscomingtoseeyouonceaweek。Godforbid!\"saidsheinalowvoice,\"thatIshouldgrieveanyyounghearts。\"Shespokeasifshewereprovidingforsomedistantcontingency,andwasratherstartledwhenMarthamadeherreadyeageranswer—
\"Please,ma’am,there’sJemHearn,andhe’sajoinermakingthree—
and—sixpencea—day,andsixfootoneinhisstocking—feet,please,ma’am;andifyou’llaskabouthimto—morrowmorning,everyonewillgivehimacharacterforsteadiness;andhe’llbegladenoughtocometo—morrownight,I’llbebound。\"
ThoughMissMattywasstartled,shesubmittedtoFateandLove。
CHAPTERV—OLDLETTERS
IHAVEoftennoticedthatalmosteveryonehashisownindividualsmalleconomies—carefulhabitsofsavingfractionsofpenniesinsomeonepeculiardirection—anydisturbanceofwhichannoyshimmorethanspendingshillingsorpoundsonsomerealextravagance。
Anoldgentlemanofmyacquaintance,whotooktheintelligenceofthefailureofaJoint—StockBank,inwhichsomeofhismoneywasinvested,withstoicalmildness,worriedhisfamilyallthroughalongsummer’sdaybecauseoneofthemhadtorn(insteadofcutting)
outthewrittenleavesofhisnowuselessbank—book;ofcourse,thecorrespondingpagesattheotherendcameoutaswell,andthislittleunnecessarywasteofpaper(hisprivateeconomy)chafedhimmorethanallthelossofhismoney。Envelopesfrettedhissoulterriblywhentheyfirstcamein;theonlywayinwhichhecouldreconcilehimselftosuchwasteofhischerishedarticlewasbypatientlyturninginsideoutallthatweresenttohim,andsomakingthemserveagain。Evennow,thoughtamedbyage,Iseehimcastingwistfulglancesathisdaughterswhentheysendawholeinsideofahalf—sheetofnotepaper,withthethreelinesofacceptancetoaninvitation,writtenononlyoneofthesides。I
amnotaboveowningthatIhavethishumanweaknessmyself。Stringismyfoible。Mypocketsgetfulloflittlehanksofit,pickedupandtwistedtogether,readyforusesthatnevercome。Iamseriouslyannoyedifanyonecutsthestringofaparcelinsteadofpatientlyandfaithfullyundoingitfoldbyfold。Howpeoplecanbringthemselvestouseindia—rubberrings,whichareasortofdeificationofstring,aslightlyastheydo,Icannotimagine。Tomeanindia—rubberringisaprecioustreasure。Ihaveonewhichisnotnew—onethatIpickedupoffthefloornearlysixyearsago。Ihavereallytriedtouseit,butmyheartfailedme,andI
couldnotcommittheextravagance。
Smallpiecesofbuttergrieveothers。Theycannotattendtoconversationbecauseoftheannoyanceoccasionedbythehabitwhichsomepeoplehaveofinvariablytakingmorebutterthantheywant。
Haveyounotseentheanxiouslook(almostmesmeric)whichsuchpersonsfixonthearticle?Theywouldfeelitareliefiftheymightburyitoutoftheirsightbypoppingitintotheirownmouthsandswallowingitdown;andtheyarereallymadehappyifthepersononwhoseplateitliesunusedsuddenlybreaksoffapieceoftoast(whichhedoesnotwantatall)andeatsuphisbutter。Theythinkthatthisisnotwaste。
NowMissMattyJenkynswascharyofcandles。Wehadmanydevicestouseasfewaspossible。Inthewinterafternoonsshewouldsitknittingfortwoorthreehours—shecoulddothisinthedark,orbyfirelight—andwhenIaskedifImightnotringforcandlestofinishstitchingmywristbands,shetoldmeto\"keepblindman’sholiday。\"Theywereusuallybroughtinwithtea;butweonlyburntoneatatime。Aswelivedinconstantpreparationforafriendwhomightcomeinanyevening(butwhoneverdid),itrequiredsomecontrivancetokeepourtwocandlesofthesamelength,readytobelighted,andtolookasifweburnttwoalways。Thecandlestookitinturns;and,whateverwemightbetalkingaboutordoing,MissMatty’seyeswerehabituallyfixeduponthecandle,readytojumpupandextinguishitandtolighttheotherbeforetheyhadbecometoouneveninlengthtoberestoredtoequalityinthecourseoftheevening。
Onenight,Irememberthiscandleeconomyparticularlyannoyedme。
Ihadbeenverymuchtiredofmycompulsory\"blindman’sholiday,\"
especiallyasMissMattyhadfallenasleep,andIdidnotliketostirthefireandruntheriskofawakeningher;soIcouldnotevensitontherug,andscorchmyselfwithsewingbyfirelight,accordingtomyusualcustom。IfanciedMissMattymustbedreamingofherearlylife;forshespokeoneortwowordsinheruneasysleepbearingreferencetopersonswhoweredeadlongbefore。WhenMarthabroughtinthelightedcandleandtea,MissMattystartedintowakefulness,withastrange,bewilderedlookaround,asifwewerenotthepeoplesheexpectedtoseeabouther。
Therewasalittlesadexpressionthatshadowedherfaceassherecognisedme;butimmediatelyafterwardsshetriedtogivemeherusualsmile。Allthroughtea—timehertalkranuponthedaysofherchildhoodandyouth。Perhapsthisremindedherofthedesirablenessoflookingoveralltheoldfamilyletters,anddestroyingsuchasoughtnottobeallowedtofallintothehandsofstrangers;forshehadoftenspokenofthenecessityofthistask,buthadalwaysshrunkfromit,withatimiddreadofsomethingpainful。To—night,however,sheroseupafterteaandwentforthem—inthedark;forshepiquedherselfonthepreciseneatnessofallherchamberarrangements,andusedtolookuneasilyatmewhenIlightedabed—candletogotoanotherroomforanything。Whenshereturnedtherewasafaint,pleasantsmellofTonquinbeansintheroom。Ihadalwaysnoticedthisscentaboutanyofthethingswhichhadbelongedtohermother;andmanyoftheletterswereaddressedtoher—yellowbundlesoflove—letters,sixtyorseventyyearsold。
MissMattyundidthepacketwithasigh;butshestifleditdirectly,asifitwerehardlyrighttoregrettheflightoftime,oroflifeeither。Weagreedtolookthemoverseparately,eachtakingadifferentletteroutofthesamebundleanddescribingitscontentstotheotherbeforedestroyingit。Ineverknewwhatsadworkthereadingofold—letterswasbeforethatevening,thoughI
couldhardlytellwhy。Theletterswereashappyasletterscouldbe—atleastthoseearlyletterswere。Therewasinthemavividandintensesenseofthepresenttime,whichseemedsostrongandfull,asifitcouldneverpassaway,andasifthewarm,livingheartsthatsoexpressedthemselvescouldneverdie,andbeasnothingtothesunnyearth。Ishouldhavefeltlessmelancholy,I
believe,ifthelettershadbeenmoreso。Isawthetearsstealingdownthewell—wornfurrowsofMissMatty’scheeks,andherspectaclesoftenwantedwiping。Itrustedatlastthatshewouldlighttheothercandle,formyowneyeswereratherdim,andI
wantedmorelighttoseethepale,fadedink;butno,eventhroughhertears,shesawandrememberedherlittleeconomicalways。
Theearliestsetoflettersweretwobundlestiedtogether,andticketed(inMissJenkyns’shandwriting)\"Lettersinterchangedbetweenmyever—honouredfatherandmydearly—belovedmother,priortotheirmarriage,inJuly1774。\"IshouldguessthattherectorofCranfordwasabouttwenty—sevenyearsofagewhenhewrotethoseletters;andMissMattytoldmethathermotherwasjusteighteenatthetimeofherwedding。Withmyideaoftherectorderivedfromapictureinthedining—parlour,stiffandstately,inahugefull—bottomedwig,withgown,cassock,andbands,andhishanduponacopyoftheonlysermonheeverpublished—itwasstrangetoreadtheseletters。Theywerefullofeager,passionateardour;
shorthomelysentences,rightfreshfromtheheart(verydifferentfromthegrandLatinised,Johnsonianstyleoftheprintedsermonpreachedbeforesomejudgeatassizetime)。Hisletterswereacuriouscontrasttothoseofhisgirl—bride。Shewasevidentlyratherannoyedathisdemandsuponherforexpressionsoflove,andcouldnotquiteunderstandwhathemeantbyrepeatingthesamethingoverinsomanydifferentways;butwhatshewasquiteclearaboutwasalongingforawhite\"Paduasoy\"—whateverthatmightbe;andsixorsevenletterswereprincipallyoccupiedinaskingherlovertousehisinfluencewithherparents(whoevidentlykeptheringoodorder)toobtainthisorthatarticleofdress,moreespeciallythewhite\"Paduasoy。\"Hecarednothinghowshewasdressed;shewasalwayslovelyenoughforhim,ashetookpainstoassureher,whenshebeggedhimtoexpressinhisanswersapredilectionforparticularpiecesoffinery,inorderthatshemightshowwhathesaidtoherparents。Butatlengthheseemedtofindoutthatshewouldnotbemarriedtillshehada\"trousseau\"
tohermind;andthenhesentheraletter,whichhadevidentlyaccompaniedawholeboxfulloffinery,andinwhichherequestedthatshemightbedressedineverythingherheartdesired。Thiswasthefirstletter,ticketedinafrail,delicatehand,\"FrommydearestJohn。\"Shortlyafterwardstheyweremarried,Isuppose,fromtheintermissionintheircorrespondence。
\"Wemustburnthem,Ithink,\"saidMissMatty,lookingdoubtfullyatme。\"NoonewillcareforthemwhenIamgone。\"Andonebyoneshedroppedthemintothemiddleofthefire,watchingeachblazeup,dieout,andriseaway,infaint,white,ghostlysemblance,upthechimney,beforeshegaveanothertothesamefate。Theroomwaslightenoughnow;butI,likeher,wasfascinatedintowatchingthedestructionofthoseletters,intowhichthehonestwarmthofamanlyhearthadbeenpouredforth。
Thenextletter,likewisedocketedbyMissJenkyns,wasendorsed,\"Letterofpiouscongratulationandexhortationfrommyvenerablegrandfathertomybelovedmother,onoccasionofmyownbirth。
Alsosomepracticalremarksonthedesirabilityofkeepingwarmtheextremitiesofinfants,frommyexcellentgrandmother。\"
Thefirstpartwas,indeed,asevereandforciblepictureoftheresponsibilitiesofmothers,andawarningagainsttheevilsthatwereintheworld,andlyinginghastlywaitforthelittlebabyoftwodaysold。Hiswifedidnotwrite,saidtheoldgentleman,becausehehadforbiddenit,shebeingindisposedwithasprainedankle,which(hesaid)quiteincapacitatedherfromholdingapen。
However,atthefootofthepagewasasmall\"T。O。,\"andonturningitover,sureenough,therewasaletterto\"mydear,dearestMolly,\"beggingher,whensheleftherroom,whatevershedid,togoUPstairsbeforegoingDOWN:andtellinghertowrapherbaby’sfeetupinflannel,andkeepitwarmbythefire,althoughitwassummer,forbabiesweresotender。
Itwasprettytoseefromtheletters,whichwereevidentlyexchangedwithsomefrequencybetweentheyoungmotherandthegrandmother,howthegirlishvanitywasbeingweededoutofherheartbyloveforherbaby。Thewhite\"Paduasoy\"figuredagainintheletters,withalmostasmuchvigourasbefore。Inone,itwasbeingmadeintoachristeningcloakforthebaby。ItdeckeditwhenitwentwithitsparentstospendadayortwoatArleyHall。
Itaddedtoitscharms,whenitwas\"theprettiestlittlebabythateverwasseen。Dearmother,Iwishyoucouldseeher!Withoutanypershality,Idothinkshewillgrowuparegularbewty!\"I
thoughtofMissJenkyns,grey,withered,andwrinkled,andI
wonderedifhermotherhadknownherinthecourtsofheaven:andthenIknewthatshehad,andthattheystoodthereinangelicguise。
Therewasagreatgapbeforeanyoftherector’slettersappeared。
Andthenhiswifehadchangedhermodeofherendorsement。Itwasnolongerfrom,\"MydearestJohn;\"itwasfrom\"MyHonouredHusband。\"Theletterswerewrittenonoccasionofthepublicationofthesamesermonwhichwasrepresentedinthepicture。Thepreachingbefore\"MyLordJudge,\"andthe\"publishingbyrequest,\"
wasevidentlytheculminatingpoint—theeventofhislife。IthadbeennecessaryforhimtogouptoLondontosuperintenditthroughthepress。Manyfriendshadtobecalleduponandconsultedbeforehecoulddecideonanyprinterfitforsoonerousatask;andatlengthitwasarrangedthatJ。andJ。Rivingtonsweretohavethehonourableresponsibility。Theworthyrectorseemedtobestrungupbytheoccasiontoahighliterarypitch,forhecouldhardlywritealettertohiswifewithoutcroppingoutintoLatin。Iremembertheendofoneofhislettersranthus:\"I
shalleverholdthevirtuousqualitiesofmyMollyinremembrance,DUMMEMORIPSEMEI,DUMSPIRITUSREGITARTUS,\"which,consideringthattheEnglishofhiscorrespondentwassometimesatfaultingrammar,andofteninspelling,mightbetakenasaproofofhowmuchhe\"idealisedhisMolly;\"and,asMissJenkynsusedtosay,\"Peopletalkagreatdealaboutidealisingnow—a—days,whateverthatmaymean。\"Butthiswasnothingtoafitofwritingclassicalpoetrywhichsoonseizedhim,inwhichhisMollyfiguredawayas\"Maria。\"ThelettercontainingtheCARMENwasendorsedbyher,\"Hebrewversessentmebymyhonouredhusband。Ithowttohavehadaletteraboutkillingthepig,butmustwait。Mem。,tosendthepoetrytoSirPeterArley,asmyhusbanddesires。\"Andinapost—
scriptumnoteinhishandwritingitwasstatedthattheOdehadappearedintheGENTLEMAN’SMAGAZINE,December1782。
Herlettersbacktoherhusband(treasuredasfondlybyhimasiftheyhadbeenM。T。CICERONISEPISTOLAE)weremoresatisfactorytoanabsenthusbandandfatherthanhiscouldeverhavebeentoher。