第2章

类别:其他 作者:Elizabeth Cleghorn Gaskell字数:21257更新时间:19/01/07 08:58:28
Presently,thetimearrivedwhenIwastoremovetoMissMatilda’shouse。Ifoundhertimidandanxiousaboutthearrangementsformycomfort。Manyatime,whileIwasunpacking,didshecomebackwardsandforwardstostirthefirewhichburnedalltheworseforbeingsofrequentlypoked。 \"Haveyoudrawersenough,dear?\"askedshe。\"Idon’tknowexactlyhowmysisterusedtoarrangethem。Shehadcapitalmethods。Iamsureshewouldhavetrainedaservantinaweektomakeabetterfirethanthis,andFannyhasbeenwithmefourmonths。\" Thissubjectofservantswasastandinggrievance,andIcouldnotwondermuchatit;forifgentlemenwerescarce,andalmostunheardofinthe\"genteelsociety\"ofCranford,theyortheircounterparts—handsomeyoungmen—aboundedinthelowerclasses。Theprettyneatservant—maidshadtheirchoiceofdesirable\"followers\";andtheirmistresses,withouthavingthesortofmysteriousdreadofmenandmatrimonythatMissMatildahad,mightwellfeelalittleanxiouslesttheheadsoftheircomelymaidsshouldbeturnedbythejoiner,orthebutcher,orthegardener,whowereobliged,bytheircallings,tocometothehouse,andwho,asill—luckwouldhaveit,weregenerallyhandsomeandunmarried。Fanny’slovers,ifshehadany—andMissMatildasuspectedherofsomanyflirtationsthat,ifshehadnotbeenverypretty,Ishouldhavedoubtedherhavingone—wereaconstantanxietytohermistress。Shewasforbidden,bythearticlesofherengagement,tohave\"followers\"; andthoughshehadanswered,innocentlyenough,doublingupthehemofherapronasshespoke,\"Please,ma’am,Ineverhadmorethanoneatatime,\"MissMattyprohibitedthatone。Butavisionofamanseemedtohauntthekitchen。Fannyassuredmethatitwasallfancy,orelseIshouldhavesaidmyselfthatIhadseenaman’scoat—tailswhiskintothesculleryonce,whenIwentonanerrandintothestore—roomatnight;andanotherevening,when,ourwatcheshavingstopped,Iwenttolookattheclock,therewasaveryoddappearance,singularlylikeayoungmansqueezedupbetweentheclockandthebackoftheopenkitchen—door:andI thoughtFannysnatchedupthecandleveryhastily,soastothrowtheshadowontheclockface,whilesheverypositivelytoldmethetimehalf—an—hourtooearly,aswefoundoutafterwardsbythechurchclock。ButIdidnotaddtoMissMatty’sanxietiesbynamingmysuspicions,especiallyasFannysaidtome,thenextday,thatitwassuchaqueerkitchenforhavingoddshadowsaboutit,shereallywasalmostafraidtostay;\"foryouknow,miss,\"sheadded,\"Idon’tseeacreaturefromsixo’clocktea,tillMissusringsthebellforprayersatten。\" However,itsofelloutthatFannyhadtoleaveandMissMatildabeggedmetostayand\"settleher\"withthenewmaid;towhichI consented,afterIhadheardfrommyfatherthathedidnotwantmeathome。Thenewservantwasarough,honest—looking,countrygirl,whohadonlylivedinafarmplacebefore;butIlikedherlookswhenshecametobehired;andIpromisedMissMatildatoputherinthewaysofthehouse。ThesaidwayswerereligiouslysuchasMissMatildathoughthersisterwouldapprove。ManyadomesticruleandregulationhadbeenasubjectofplaintivewhisperedmurmurtomeduringMissJenkyns’slife;butnowthatshewasgone,IdonotthinkthatevenI,whowasafavourite,dursthavesuggestedanalteration。Togiveaninstance:weconstantlyadheredtotheformswhichwereobserved,atmeal—times,in\"myfather,therector’shouse。\"Accordingly,wehadalwayswineanddessert;butthedecanterswereonlyfilledwhentherewasaparty,andwhatremainedwasseldomtouched,thoughwehadtwowine— glassesapieceeverydayafterdinner,untilthenextfestiveoccasionarrived,whenthestateoftheremainderwinewasexaminedintoinafamilycouncil。Thedregswereoftengiventothepoor: butoccasionally,whenagooddealhadbeenleftatthelastparty(fivemonthsago,itmightbe),itwasaddedtosomeofafreshbottle,broughtupfromthecellar。IfancypoorCaptainBrowndidnotmuchlikewine,forInoticedheneverfinishedhisfirstglass,andmostmilitarymentakeseveral。Then,astoourdessert,MissJenkynsusedtogathercurrantsandgooseberriesforitherself,whichIsometimesthoughtwouldhavetastedbetterfreshfromthetrees;butthen,asMissJenkynsobserved,therewouldhavebeennothingfordessertinsummer—time。Asitwas,wefeltverygenteelwithourtwoglassesapiece,andadishofgooseberriesatthetop,ofcurrantsandbiscuitsatthesides,andtwodecantersatthebottom。Whenorangescamein,acuriousproceedingwasgonethrough。MissJenkynsdidnotliketocutthefruit;for,assheobserved,thejuiceallranoutnobodyknewwhere;sucking(onlyIthinksheusedsomemorereconditeword)wasinfacttheonlywayofenjoyingoranges;butthentherewastheunpleasantassociationwithaceremonyfrequentlygonethroughbylittlebabies;andso,afterdessert,inorangeseason,MissJenkynsandMissMattyusedtoriseup,possessthemselveseachofanorangeinsilence,andwithdrawtotheprivacyoftheirownroomstoindulgeinsuckingoranges。 Ihadonceortwicetried,onsuchoccasions,toprevailonMissMattytostay,andhadsucceededinhersister’slifetime。Iheldupascreen,anddidnotlook,and,asshesaid,shetriednottomakethenoiseveryoffensive;butnowthatshewasleftalone,sheseemedquitehorrifiedwhenIbeggedhertoremainwithmeinthewarmdining—parlour,andenjoyherorangeasshelikedbest。Andsoitwasineverything。MissJenkyns’srulesweremademorestringentthanever,becausetheframerofthemwasgonewheretherecouldbenoappeal。InallthingselseMissMatildawasmeekandundecidedtoafault。IhaveheardFannyturnherroundtwentytimesinamorningaboutdinner,justasthelittlehussychose; andIsometimesfanciedsheworkedonMissMatilda’sweaknessinordertobewilderher,andtomakeherfeelmoreinthepowerofhercleverservant。IdeterminedthatIwouldnotleavehertillI hadseenwhatsortofapersonMarthawas;and,ifIfoundhertrustworthy,Iwouldtellhernottotroublehermistresswitheverylittledecision。 Marthawasbluntandplain—spokentoafault;otherwiseshewasabrisk,well—meaning,butveryignorantgirl。ShehadnotbeenwithusaweekbeforeMissMatildaandIwereastoundedonemorningbythereceiptofaletterfromacousinofhers,whohadbeentwentyorthirtyyearsinIndia,andwhohadlately,aswehadseenbythe\"ArmyList,\"returnedtoEngland,bringingwithhimaninvalidwifewhohadneverbeenintroducedtoherEnglishrelations。MajorJenkynswrotetoproposethatheandhiswifeshouldspendanightatCranford,onhiswaytoScotland—attheinn,ifitdidnotsuitMissMatildatoreceivethemintoherhouse;inwhichcasetheyshouldhopetobewithherasmuchaspossibleduringtheday。 OfcourseitMUSTsuither,asshesaid;forallCranfordknewthatshehadhersister’sbedroomatliberty;butIamsureshewishedtheMajorhadstoppedinIndiaandforgottenhiscousinsoutandout。 \"Oh!howmustImanage?\"askedshehelplessly。\"IfDeborahhadbeenaliveshewouldhaveknownwhattodowithagentleman— visitor。MustIputrazorsinhisdressing—room?Dear!dear!andI’vegotnone。Deborahwouldhavehadthem。Andslippers,andcoat—brushes?\"Isuggestedthatprobablyhewouldbringallthesethingswithhim。\"Andafterdinner,howamItoknowwhentogetupandleavehimtohiswine?Deborahwouldhavedoneitsowell; shewouldhavebeenquiteinherelement。Willhewantcoffee,doyouthink?\"Iundertookthemanagementofthecoffee,andtoldherIwouldinstructMarthaintheartofwaiting—inwhichitmustbeownedshewasterriblydeficient—andthatIhadnodoubtMajorandMrsJenkynswouldunderstandthequietmodeinwhichaladylivedbyherselfinacountrytown。Butshewassadlyfluttered。 Imadeheremptyherdecantersandbringuptwofreshbottlesofwine。IwishedIcouldhavepreventedherfrombeingpresentatmyinstructionstoMartha,forshefrequentlycutinwithsomefreshdirection,muddlingthepoorgirl’smindasshestoodopen—mouthed,listeningtousboth。 \"Handthevegetablesround,\"saidI(foolishly,Iseenow—foritwasaimingatmorethanwecouldaccomplishwithquietnessandsimplicity);andthen,seeingherlookbewildered,Iadded,\"takethevegetablesroundtopeople,andletthemhelpthemselves。\" \"Andmindyougofirsttotheladies,\"putinMissMatilda。 \"Alwaysgototheladiesbeforegentlemenwhenyouarewaiting。\" \"I’lldoitasyoutellme,ma’am,\"saidMartha;\"butIlikeladsbest。\" WefeltveryuncomfortableandshockedatthisspeechofMartha’s,yetIdon’tthinkshemeantanyharm;and,onthewhole,sheattendedverywelltoourdirections,exceptthatshe\"nudged\"theMajorwhenhedidnothelphimselfassoonassheexpectedtothepotatoes,whileshewashandingthemround。 Themajorandhiswifewerequietunpretendingpeopleenoughwhentheydidcome;languid,asallEastIndiansare,Isuppose。Wewereratherdismayedattheirbringingtwoservantswiththem,aHindoobody—servantfortheMajor,andasteadyelderlymaidforhiswife;buttheysleptattheinn,andtookoffagooddealoftheresponsibilitybyattendingcarefullytotheirmaster’sandmistress’scomfort。Martha,tobesure,hadneverendedherstaringattheEastIndian’swhiteturbanandbrowncomplexion,andIsawthatMissMatildashrunkawayfromhimalittleashewaitedatdinner。Indeed,sheaskedme,whentheyweregone,ifhedidnotremindmeofBlueBeard?Onthewhole,thevisitwasmostsatisfactory,andisasubjectofconversationevennowwithMissMatilda;atthetimeitgreatlyexcitedCranford,andevenstirreduptheapatheticandHonourableMrsJamiesontosomeexpressionofinterest,whenIwenttocallandthankherforthekindanswersshehadvouchsafedtoMissMatilda’sinquiriesastothearrangementofagentleman’sdressing—room—answerswhichImustconfessshehadgivenintheweariedmanneroftheScandinavianprophetess— \"Leaveme,leavemetorepose。\" AndNOWIcometotheloveaffair。 ItseemsthatMissPolehadacousin,onceortwiceremoved,whohadofferedtoMissMattylongago。NowthiscousinlivedfourorfivemilesfromCranfordonhisownestate;buthispropertywasnotlargeenoughtoentitlehimtorankhigherthanayeoman;orrather,withsomethingofthe\"pridewhichapeshumility,\"hehadrefusedtopushhimselfon,assomanyofhisclasshaddone,intotheranksofthesquires。HewouldnotallowhimselftobecalledThomasHolbrook,ESQ。;heevensentbackletterswiththisaddress,tellingthepost—mistressatCranfordthathisnamewasMRThomasHolbrook,yeoman。Herejectedalldomesticinnovations;hewouldhavethehousedoorstandopeninsummerandshutinwinter,withoutknockerorbelltosummonaservant。Theclosedfistortheknobofastickdidthisofficeforhimifhefoundthedoorlocked。Hedespisedeveryrefinementwhichhadnotitsrootdeepdowninhumanity。Ifpeoplewerenotill,hesawnonecessityformoderatinghisvoice。Hespokethedialectofthecountryinperfection,andconstantlyuseditinconversation;althoughMissPole(whogavemetheseparticulars)added,thathereadaloudmorebeautifullyandwithmorefeelingthananyoneshehadeverheard,exceptthelaterector。 \"AndhowcameMissMatildanottomarryhim?\"askedI。 \"Oh,Idon’tknow。Shewaswillingenough,Ithink;butyouknowCousinThomaswouldnothavebeenenoughofagentlemanfortherectorandMissJenkyns。\" \"Well!buttheywerenottomarryhim,\"saidI,impatiently。 \"No;buttheydidnotlikeMissMattytomarrybelowherrank。Youknowshewastherector’sdaughter,andsomehowtheyarerelatedtoSirPeterArley:MissJenkynsthoughtadealofthat。\" \"PoorMissMatty!\"saidI。 \"Nay,now,Idon’tknowanythingmorethanthatheofferedandwasrefused。MissMattymightnotlikehim—andMissJenkynsmightneverhavesaidaword—itisonlyaguessofmine。\" \"Hassheneverseenhimsince?\"Iinquired。 \"No,Ithinknot。YouseeWoodley,CousinThomas’shouse,lieshalf—waybetweenCranfordandMisselton;andIknowhemadeMisseltonhismarket—townverysoonafterhehadofferedtoMissMatty;andIdon’tthinkhehasbeenintoCranfordaboveonceortwicesince—once,whenIwaswalkingwithMissMatty,inHighStreet,andsuddenlyshedartedfromme,andwentupShireLane。A fewminutesafterIwasstartledbymeetingCousinThomas。\" \"Howoldishe?\"Iasked,afterapauseofcastle—building。 \"Hemustbeaboutseventy,Ithink,mydear,\"saidMissPole,blowingupmycastle,asifbygun—powder,intosmallfragments。 Verysoonafter—atleastduringmylongvisittoMissMatilda—I hadtheopportunityofseeingMrHolbrook;seeing,too,hisfirstencounterwithhisformerlove,afterthirtyorfortyyears’ separation。Iwashelpingtodecidewhetheranyofthenewassortmentofcolouredsilkswhichtheyhadjustreceivedattheshopwoulddotomatchagreyandblackmousseline—delainethatwantedanewbreadth,whenatall,thin,DonQuixote—lookingoldmancameintotheshopforsomewoollengloves。Ihadneverseentheperson(whowasratherstriking)before,andIwatchedhimratherattentivelywhileMissMattylistenedtotheshopman。Thestrangerworeabluecoatwithbrassbuttons,drabbreeches,andgaiters,anddrummedwithhisfingersonthecounteruntilhewasattendedto。Whenheansweredtheshop—boy’squestion,\"WhatcanI havethepleasureofshowingyouto—day,sir?\"IsawMissMatildastart,andthensuddenlysitdown;andinstantlyIguessedwhoitwas。Shehadmadesomeinquirywhichhadtobecarriedroundtotheothershopman。 \"MissJenkynswantstheblacksarsenettwo—and—twopencetheyard\"; andMrHolbrookhadcaughtthename,andwasacrosstheshopintwostrides。 \"Matty—MissMatilda—MissJenkyns!Godblessmysoul!Ishouldnothaveknownyou。Howareyou?howareyou?\"Hekeptshakingherhandinawaywhichprovedthewarmthofhisfriendship;butherepeatedsooften,asiftohimself,\"Ishouldnothaveknownyou!\" thatanysentimentalromancewhichImightbeinclinedtobuildwasquitedoneawaywithbyhismanner。 However,hekepttalkingtousallthetimewewereintheshop; andthenwavingtheshopmanwiththeunpurchasedglovesononeside,with\"Anothertime,sir!anothertime!\"hewalkedhomewithus。Iamhappytosaymyclient,MissMatilda,alsolefttheshopinanequallybewilderedstate,nothavingpurchasedeithergreenorredsilk。MrHolbrookwasevidentlyfullwithhonestloud— spokenjoyatmeetinghisoldloveagain;hetouchedonthechangesthathadtakenplace;heevenspokeofMissJenkynsas\"Yourpoorsister!Well,well!wehaveallourfaults\";andbadeusgood—byewithmanyahopethatheshouldsoonseeMissMattyagain。Shewentstraighttoherroom,andnevercamebacktillourearlytea— time,whenIthoughtshelookedasifshehadbeencrying。 CHAPTERIV—AVISITTOANOLDBACHELOR AFEWdaysafter,anotecamefromMrHolbrook,askingus— impartiallyaskingbothofus—inaformal,old—fashionedstyle,tospendadayathishouse—alongJuneday—foritwasJunenow。Henamedthathehadalsoinvitedhiscousin,MissPole;sothatwemightjoininafly,whichcouldbeputupathishouse。 IexpectedMissMattytojumpatthisinvitation;but,no!MissPoleandIhadthegreatestdifficultyinpersuadinghertogo。 Shethoughtitwasimproper;andwasevenhalfannoyedwhenweutterlyignoredtheideaofanyimproprietyinhergoingwithtwootherladiestoseeheroldlover。Thencameamoreseriousdifficulty。ShedidnotthinkDeborahwouldhavelikedhertogo。 Thistookushalfaday’sgoodhardtalkingtogetover;but,atthefirstsentenceofrelenting,Iseizedtheopportunity,andwroteanddespatchedanacceptanceinhername—fixingdayandhour,thatallmightbedecidedanddonewith。 ThenextmorningsheaskedmeifIwouldgodowntotheshopwithher;andthere,aftermuchhesitation,wechoseoutthreecapstobesenthomeandtriedon,thatthemostbecomingmightbeselectedtotakewithusonThursday。 ShewasinastateofsilentagitationallthewaytoWoodley。Shehadevidentlyneverbeentherebefore;and,althoughshelittledreamtIknewanythingofherearlystory,Icouldperceiveshewasinatremoratthethoughtofseeingtheplacewhichmighthavebeenherhome,androundwhichitisprobablethatmanyofherinnocentgirlishimaginationshadclustered。Itwasalongdrivethere,throughpavedjoltinglanes。MissMatildasatboltupright,andlookedwistfullyoutofthewindowsaswedrewneartheendofourjourney。Theaspectofthecountrywasquietandpastoral。 Woodleystoodamongfields;andtherewasanold—fashionedgardenwhererosesandcurrant—bushestouchedeachother,andwherethefeatheryasparagusformedaprettybackgroundtothepinksandgilly—flowers;therewasnodriveuptothedoor。Wegotoutatalittlegate,andwalkedupastraightbox—edgedpath。 \"Mycousinmightmakeadrive,Ithink,\"saidMissPole,whowasafraidofear—ache,andhadonlyhercapon。 \"Ithinkitisverypretty,\"saidMissMatty,withasoftplaintivenessinhervoice,andalmostinawhisper,forjustthenMrHolbrookappearedatthedoor,rubbinghishandsinveryeffervescenceofhospitality。HelookedmorelikemyideaofDonQuixotethanever,andyetthelikenesswasonlyexternal。Hisrespectablehousekeeperstoodmodestlyatthedoortobiduswelcome;and,whilesheledtheelderladiesupstairstoabedroom,Ibeggedtolookaboutthegarden。Myrequestevidentlypleasedtheoldgentleman,whotookmeallroundtheplaceandshowedmehissix—and—twentycows,namedafterthedifferentlettersofthealphabet。Aswewentalong,hesurprisedmeoccasionallybyrepeatingaptandbeautifulquotationsfromthepoets,rangingeasilyfromShakespeareandGeorgeHerberttothoseofourownday。 Hedidthisasnaturallyasifhewerethinkingaloud,andtheirtrueandbeautifulwordswerethebestexpressionhecouldfindforwhathewasthinkingorfeeling。TobesurehecalledByron\"myLordByrron,\"andpronouncedthenameofGoethestrictlyinaccordancewiththeEnglishsoundoftheletters—\"AsGoethesays,’Yeever—verdantpalaces,’\"&c。Altogether,Inevermetwithaman,beforeorsince,whohadspentsolongalifeinasecludedandnotimpressivecountry,withever—increasingdelightinthedailyandyearlychangeofseasonandbeauty。 WhenheandIwentin,wefoundthatdinnerwasnearlyreadyinthekitchen—forsoIsupposetheroomoughttobecalled,astherewereoakdressersandcupboardsallround,alloverbythesideofthefireplace,andonlyasmallTurkeycarpetinthemiddleoftheflag—floor。Theroommighthavebeeneasilymadeintoahandsomedarkoakdining—parlourbyremovingtheovenandafewotherappurtenancesofakitchen,whichwereevidentlyneverused,therealcooking—placebeingatsomedistance。Theroominwhichwewereexpectedtositwasastiffly—furnished,uglyapartment;butthatinwhichwedidsitwaswhatMrHolbrookcalledthecounting— house,wherehepaidhislabourerstheirweeklywagesatagreatdesknearthedoor。Therestoftheprettysitting—room—lookingintotheorchard,andallcoveredoverwithdancingtree—shadows— wasfilledwithbooks。Theylayontheground,theycoveredthewalls,theystrewedthetable。Hewasevidentlyhalfashamedandhalfproudofhisextravaganceinthisrespect。Theywereofallkinds—poetryandwildweirdtalesprevailing。Heevidentlychosehisbooksinaccordancewithhisowntastes,notbecausesuchandsuchwereclassicalorestablishedfavourites。 \"Ah!\"hesaid,\"wefarmersoughtnottohavemuchtimeforreading; yetsomehowonecan’thelpit。\" \"Whataprettyroom!\"saidMissMatty,SOTTOVOCE。 \"Whatapleasantplace!\"saidI,aloud,almostsimultaneously。 \"Nay!ifyoulikeit,\"repliedhe;\"butcanyousitonthesegreat,blackleather,three—corneredchairs?Ilikeitbetterthanthebestparlour;butIthoughtladieswouldtakethatforthesmarterplace。\" Itwasthesmarterplace,but,likemostsmartthings,notatallpretty,orpleasant,orhome—like;so,whilewewereatdinner,theservant—girldustedandscrubbedthecounting—housechairs,andwesattherealltherestoftheday。 Wehadpuddingbeforemeat;andIthoughtMrHolbrookwasgoingtomakesomeapologyforhisold—fashionedways,forhebegan— \"Idon’tknowwhetheryoulikenewfangledways。\" \"Oh,notatall!\"saidMissMatty。 \"NomoredoI,\"saidhe。\"Myhouse—keeperWILLhavetheseinhernewfashion;orelseItellherthat,whenIwasayoungman,weusedtokeepstrictlytomyfather’srule,’Nobroth,noball;noball,nobeef’;andalwaysbegandinnerwithbroth。Thenwehadsuetpuddings,boiledinthebrothwiththebeef:andthenthemeatitself。Ifwedidnotsupourbroth,wehadnoball,whichwelikedadealbetter;andthebeefcamelastofall,andonlythosehaditwhohaddonejusticetothebrothandtheball。Nowfolksbeginwithsweetthings,andturntheirdinnerstopsy—turvy。\" Whentheducksandgreenpeascame,welookedateachotherindismay;wehadonlytwo—pronged,black—handledforks。Itistruethesteelwasasbrightassilver;butwhatwerewetodo?MissMattypickedupherpeas,onebyone,onthepointoftheprongs,muchasAmineatehergrainsofriceafterherpreviousfeastwiththeGhoul。MissPolesighedoverherdelicateyoungpeasassheleftthemononesideofherplateuntasted,fortheyWOULDdropbetweentheprongs。Ilookedatmyhost:thepeasweregoingwholesaleintohiscapaciousmouth,shovelledupbyhislargeround—endedknife。Isaw,Iimitated,Isurvived!Myfriends,inspiteofmyprecedent,couldnotmusterupcourageenoughtodoanungenteelthing;and,ifMrHolbrookhadnotbeensoheartilyhungry,hewouldprobablyhaveseenthatthegoodpeaswentawayalmostuntouched。 Afterdinner,aclaypipewasbroughtin,andaspittoon;and,askingustoretiretoanotherroom,wherehewouldsoonjoinus,ifwedislikedtobacco—smoke,hepresentedhispipetoMissMatty,andrequestedhertofillthebowl。Thiswasacomplimenttoaladyinhisyouth;butitwasratherinappropriatetoproposeitasanhonourtoMissMatty,whohadbeentrainedbyhersistertoholdsmokingofeverykindinutterabhorrence。Butifitwasashocktoherrefinement,itwasalsoagratificationtoherfeelingstobethusselected;soshedaintilystuffedthestrongtobaccointothepipe,andthenwewithdrew。 \"Itisverypleasantdiningwithabachelor,\"saidMissMattysoftly,aswesettledourselvesinthecounting—house。\"Ionlyhopeitisnotimproper;somanypleasantthingsare!\" \"Whatanumberofbookshehas!\"saidMissPole,lookingroundtheroom。\"Andhowdustytheyare!\" \"IthinkitmustbelikeoneofthegreatDrJohnson’srooms,\"saidMissMatty。\"Whatasuperiormanyourcousinmustbe!\" \"Yes!\"saidMissPole,\"he’sagreatreader;butIamafraidhehasgotintoveryuncouthhabitswithlivingalone。\" \"Oh!uncouthistoohardaword。Ishouldcallhimeccentric;verycleverpeoplealwaysare!\"repliedMissMatty。 WhenMrHolbrookreturned,heproposedawalkinthefields;butthetwoelderladieswereafraidofdamp,anddirt,andhadonlyveryunbecomingcalashestoputonovertheircaps;sotheydeclined,andIwasagainhiscompanioninaturnwhichhesaidhewasobligedtotaketoseeafterhismen。Hestrodealong,eitherwhollyforgettingmyexistence,orsoothedintosilencebyhispipe—andyetitwasnotsilenceexactly。Hewalkedbeforemewithastoopinggait,hishandsclaspedbehindhim;and,assometreeorcloud,orglimpseofdistantuplandpastures,struckhim,hequotedpoetrytohimself,sayingitoutloudinagrandsonorousvoice,withjusttheemphasisthattruefeelingandappreciationgive。Wecameuponanoldcedartree,whichstoodatoneendofthehouse— \"Thecedarspreadshisdark—greenlayersofshade。\" \"Capitalterm—’layers!’Wonderfulman!\"Ididnotknowwhetherhewasspeakingtomeornot;butIputinanassenting\"wonderful,\"althoughIknewnothingaboutit,justbecauseIwastiredofbeingforgotten,andofbeingconsequentlysilent。 Heturnedsharpround。\"Ay!youmaysay’wonderful。’Why,whenI sawthereviewofhispoemsinBLACKWOOD,Isetoffwithinanhour,andwalkedsevenmilestoMisselton(forthehorseswerenotintheway)andorderedthem。Now,whatcolourareash—budsinMarch?\" Isthemangoingmad?thoughtI。HeisverylikeDonQuixote。 \"Whatcolourarethey,Isay?\"repeatedhevehemently。 \"IamsureIdon’tknow,sir,\"saidI,withthemeeknessofignorance。 \"Iknewyoudidn’t。NomoredidI—anoldfoolthatIam!—tillthisyoungmancomesandtellsme。Blackasash—budsinMarch。 AndI’velivedallmylifeinthecountry;moreshameformenottoknow。Black:theyarejet—black,madam。\"Andhewentoffagain,swingingalongtothemusicofsomerhymehehadgotholdof。 Whenwecameback,nothingwouldservehimbuthemustreadusthepoemshehadbeenspeakingof;andMissPoleencouragedhiminhisproposal,Ithought,becauseshewishedmetohearhisbeautifulreading,ofwhichshehadboasted;butsheafterwardssaiditwasbecauseshehadgottoadifficultpartofhercrochet,andwantedtocountherstitcheswithouthavingtotalk。WhateverhehadproposedwouldhavebeenrighttoMissMatty;althoughshedidfallsoundasleepwithinfiveminutesafterhehadbegunalongpoem,called\"LocksleyHall,\"andhadacomfortablenap,unobserved,tillheended;whenthecessationofhisvoicewakenedherup,andshesaid,feelingthatsomethingwasexpected,andthatMissPolewascounting— \"Whataprettybook!\" \"Pretty,madam!it’sbeautiful!Pretty,indeed!\" \"Ohyes!Imeantbeautiful\"saidshe,flutteredathisdisapprovalofherword。\"ItissolikethatbeautifulpoemofDrJohnson’smysisterusedtoread—Iforgetthenameofit;whatwasit,mydear?\"turningtome。 \"Whichdoyoumean,ma’am?Whatwasitabout?\" \"Idon’trememberwhatitwasabout,andI’vequiteforgottenwhatthenameofitwas;butitwaswrittenbyDrJohnson,andwasverybeautiful,andverylikewhatMrHolbrookhasjustbeenreading。\" \"Idon’trememberit,\"saidhereflectively。\"ButIdon’tknowDrJohnson’spoemswell。Imustreadthem。\" Asweweregettingintotheflytoreturn,IheardMrHolbrooksayheshouldcallontheladiessoon,andinquirehowtheygothome; andthisevidentlypleasedandflutteredMissMattyatthetimehesaidit;butafterwehadlostsightoftheoldhouseamongthetreeshersentimentstowardsthemasterofitweregraduallyabsorbedintoadistressingwonderastowhetherMarthahadbrokenherword,andseizedontheopportunityofhermistress’sabsencetohavea\"follower。\"Marthalookedgood,andsteady,andcomposedenough,asshecametohelpusout;shewasalwayscarefulofMissMatty,andto—nightshemadeuseofthisunluckyspeech— \"Eh!dearma’am,tothinkofyourgoingoutinaneveninginsuchathinshawl!It’snobetterthanmuslin。Atyourage,ma’am,youshouldbecareful。\" \"Myage!\"saidMissMatty,almostspeakingcrossly,forher,forshewasusuallygentle—\"Myage!Why,howolddoyouthinkIam,thatyoutalkaboutmyage?\" \"Well,ma’am,Ishouldsayyouwerenotfarshortofsixty:butfolks’looksisoftenagainstthem—andI’msureImeantnoharm。\" \"Martha,I’mnotyetfifty—two!\"saidMissMatty,withgraveemphasis;forprobablytheremembranceofheryouthhadcomeveryvividlybeforeherthisday,andshewasannoyedatfindingthatgoldentimesofarawayinthepast。 ButsheneverspokeofanyformerandmoreintimateacquaintancewithMrHolbrook。Shehadprobablymetwithsolittlesympathyinherearlylove,thatshehadshutitupcloseinherheart;anditwasonlybyasortofwatching,whichIcouldhardlyavoidsinceMissPole’sconfidence,thatIsawhowfaithfulherpoorhearthadbeeninitssorrowanditssilence。 Shegavemesomegoodreasonforwearingherbestcapeveryday,andsatnearthewindow,inspiteofherrheumatism,inordertosee,withoutbeingseen,downintothestreet。 Hecame。Heputhisopenpalmsuponhisknees,whichwerefarapart,ashesatwithhisheadbentdown,whistling,afterwehadrepliedtohisinquiriesaboutoursafereturn。Suddenlyhejumpedup— \"Well,madam!haveyouanycommandsforParis?Iamgoingthereinaweekortwo。\" \"ToParis!\"webothexclaimed。 \"Yes,madam!I’veneverbeenthere,andalwayshadawishtogo; andIthinkifIdon’tgosoon,Imayn’tgoatall;soassoonasthehayisgotinIshallgo,beforeharvesttime。\" Weweresomuchastonishedthatwehadnocommissions。 Justashewasgoingoutoftheroom,heturnedback,withhisfavouriteexclamation— \"Godblessmysoul,madam!butInearlyforgothalfmyerrand。 Herearethepoemsforyouyouadmiredsomuchtheothereveningatmyhouse。\"Hetuggedawayataparcelinhiscoat—pocket。\"Good— bye,miss,\"saidhe;\"good—bye,Matty!takecareofyourself。\"Andhewasgone。 Buthehadgivenherabook,andhehadcalledherMatty,justasheusedtodothirtyyearsto。 \"IwishhewouldnotgotoParis,\"saidMissMatildaanxiously。\"I don’tbelievefrogswillagreewithhim;heusedtohavetobeverycarefulwhatheate,whichwascuriousinsostrong—lookingayoungman。\" SoonafterthisItookmyleave,givingmanyaninjunctiontoMarthatolookafterhermistress,andtoletmeknowifshethoughtthatMissMatildawasnotsowell;inwhichcaseIwouldvolunteeravisittomyoldfriend,withoutnoticingMartha’sintelligencetoher。 AccordinglyIreceivedalineortwofromMarthaeverynowandthen;and,aboutNovemberIhadanotetosayhermistresswas\"verylowandsadlyoffherfood\";andtheaccountmademesouneasythat,althoughMarthadidnotdecidedlysummonme,Ipackedupmythingsandwent。 Ireceivedawarmwelcome,inspiteofthelittleflurryproducedbymyimpromptuvisit,forIhadonlybeenabletogiveaday’snotice。MissMatildalookedmiserablyill;andIpreparedtocomfortandcossether。 IwentdowntohaveaprivatetalkwithMartha。 \"Howlonghasyourmistressbeensopoorly?\"Iasked,asIstoodbythekitchenfire。 \"Well!Ithinkitsbetterthanafortnight;itis,Iknow;itwasoneTuesday,afterMissPolehadbeen,thatshewentintothismopingway。Ithoughtshewastired,anditwouldgooffwithanight’srest;butno!shehasgoneonandoneversince,tillI thoughtitmydutytowritetoyou,ma’am。\" \"Youdidquiteright,Martha。Itisacomforttothinkshehassofaithfulaservantabouther。AndIhopeyoufindyourplacecomfortable?\" \"Well,ma’am,missusisverykind,andthere’splentytoeatanddrink,andnomoreworkbutwhatIcandoeasily—but—\"Marthahesitated。 \"Butwhat,Martha?\" \"Why,itseemssohardofmissusnottoletmehaveanyfollowers; there’ssuchlotsofyoungfellowsinthetown;andmanyaonehasasmuchasofferedtokeepcompanywithme;andImayneverbeinsuchalikelyplaceagain,andit’slikewastinganopportunity。 ManyagirlasIknowwouldhave’emunbeknownsttomissus;butI’vegivenmyword,andI’llsticktoit;orelsethisisjustthehouseformissusnevertobethewiseriftheydidcome:andit’ssuchacapablekitchen—there’ssuchdarkcornersinit—I’dbeboundtohideanyone。IcounteduplastSundaynight—forI’llnotdenyIwascryingbecauseIhadtoshutthedoorinJemHearn’sface,andhe’sasteadyyoungman,fitforanygirl;onlyIhadgivenmissusmyword。\"Marthawasallbutcryingagain;andIhadlittlecomforttogiveher,forIknew,fromoldexperience,ofthehorrorwithwhichboththeMissJenkynseslookedupon\"followers\"; andinMissMatty’spresentnervousstatethisdreadwasnotlikelytobelessened。 IwenttoseeMissPolethenextday,andtookhercompletelybysurprise,forshehadnotbeentoseeMissMatildafortwodays。 \"AndnowImustgobackwithyou,mydear,forIpromisedtoletherknowhowThomasHolbrookwenton;and,I’msorrytosay,hishousekeeperhassentmewordto—daythathehasn’tlongtolive。 PoorThomas!thatjourneytoPariswasquitetoomuchforhim。Hishousekeepersayshehashardlyeverbeenroundhisfieldssince,butjustsitswithhishandsonhiskneesinthecounting—house,notreadingoranything,butonlysayingwhatawonderfulcityPariswas!Parishasmuchtoanswerforifit’skilledmycousinThomas,forabettermanneverlived。\" \"DoesMissMatildaknowofhisillness?\"askedI—anewlightastothecauseofherindispositiondawninguponme。 \"Dear!tobesure,yes!Hasnotshetoldyou?Iletherknowafortnightago,ormore,whenfirstIheardofit。Howoddsheshouldn’thavetoldyou!\" Notatall,Ithought;butIdidnotsayanything。Ifeltalmostguiltyofhavingspiedtoocuriouslyintothattenderheart,andI wasnotgoingtospeakofitssecrets—hidden,MissMattybelieved,fromalltheworld。IusheredMissPoleintoMissMatilda’slittledrawing—room,andthenleftthemalone。ButIwasnotsurprisedwhenMarthacametomybedroomdoor,toaskmetogodowntodinneralone,forthatmissushadoneofherbadheadaches。 Shecameintothedrawing—roomattea—time,butitwasevidentlyanefforttoher;and,asiftomakeupforsomereproachfulfeelingagainstherlatesister,MissJenkyns,whichhadbeentroublingheralltheafternoon,andforwhichshenowfeltpenitent,shekepttellingmehowgoodandhowcleverDeborahwasinheryouth;howsheusedtosettlewhatgownstheyweretowearatalltheparties(faint,ghostlyideasofgrimparties,farawayinthedistance,whenMissMattyandMissPolewereyoung!);andhowDeborahandhermotherhadstartedthebenefitsocietyforthepoor,andtaughtgirlscookingandplainsewing;andhowDeborahhadoncedancedwithalord;andhowsheusedtovisitatSirPeterArley’s,andtriedtoremodelthequietrectoryestablishmentontheplansofArleyHall,wheretheykeptthirtyservants;andhowshehadnursedMissMattythroughalong,longillness,ofwhichIhadneverheardbefore,butwhichInowdatedinmyownmindasfollowingthedismissalofthesuitofMrHolbrook。SowetalkedsoftlyandquietlyofoldtimesthroughthelongNovemberevening。 ThenextdayMissPolebroughtuswordthatMrHolbrookwasdead。 MissMattyheardthenewsinsilence;infact,fromtheaccountofthepreviousday,itwasonlywhatwehadtoexpect。MissPolekeptcallinguponusforsomeexpressionofregret,byaskingifitwasnotsadthathewasgone,andsaying— \"TothinkofthatpleasantdaylastJune,whenheseemedsowell! AndhemighthavelivedthisdozenyearsifhehadnotgonetothatwickedParis,wheretheyarealwayshavingrevolutions。\" Shepausedforsomedemonstrationonourpart。IsawMissMattycouldnotspeak,shewastremblingsonervously;soIsaidwhatI reallyfelt;andafteracallofsomeduration—allthetimeofwhichIhavenodoubtMissPolethoughtMissMattyreceivedthenewsverycalmly—ourvisitortookherleave。 MissMattymadeastrongefforttoconcealherfeelings—aconcealmentshepractisedevenwithme,forshehasneveralludedtoMrHolbrookagain,althoughthebookhegaveherlieswithherBibleonthelittletablebyherbedside。ShedidnotthinkI heardherwhensheaskedthelittlemillinerofCranfordtomakehercapssomethingliketheHonourableMrsJamieson’s,orthatI noticedthereply— \"Butshewearswidows’caps,ma’am?\" \"Oh!Ionlymeantsomethinginthatstyle;notwidows’,ofcourse,butratherlikeMrsJamieson’s。\" ThiseffortatconcealmentwasthebeginningofthetremulousmotionofheadandhandswhichIhaveseeneversinceinMissMatty。 TheeveningofthedayonwhichweheardofMrHolbrook’sdeath,MissMatildawasverysilentandthoughtful;afterprayersshecalledMarthabackandthenshestooduncertainwhattosay。 \"Martha!\"shesaid,atlast,\"youareyoung\"—andthenshemadesolongapausethatMartha,toremindherofherhalf—finishedsentence,droppedacurtsey,andsaid— \"Yes,please,ma’am;two—and—twentylastthirdofOctober,please,ma’am。\" \"And,perhaps,Martha,youmaysometimemeetwithayoungmanyoulike,andwholikesyou。Ididsayyouwerenottohavefollowers; butifyoumeetwithsuchayoungman,andtellme,andIfindheisrespectable,Ihavenoobjectiontohiscomingtoseeyouonceaweek。Godforbid!\"saidsheinalowvoice,\"thatIshouldgrieveanyyounghearts。\"Shespokeasifshewereprovidingforsomedistantcontingency,andwasratherstartledwhenMarthamadeherreadyeageranswer— \"Please,ma’am,there’sJemHearn,andhe’sajoinermakingthree— and—sixpencea—day,andsixfootoneinhisstocking—feet,please,ma’am;andifyou’llaskabouthimto—morrowmorning,everyonewillgivehimacharacterforsteadiness;andhe’llbegladenoughtocometo—morrownight,I’llbebound。\" ThoughMissMattywasstartled,shesubmittedtoFateandLove。 CHAPTERV—OLDLETTERS IHAVEoftennoticedthatalmosteveryonehashisownindividualsmalleconomies—carefulhabitsofsavingfractionsofpenniesinsomeonepeculiardirection—anydisturbanceofwhichannoyshimmorethanspendingshillingsorpoundsonsomerealextravagance。 Anoldgentlemanofmyacquaintance,whotooktheintelligenceofthefailureofaJoint—StockBank,inwhichsomeofhismoneywasinvested,withstoicalmildness,worriedhisfamilyallthroughalongsummer’sdaybecauseoneofthemhadtorn(insteadofcutting) outthewrittenleavesofhisnowuselessbank—book;ofcourse,thecorrespondingpagesattheotherendcameoutaswell,andthislittleunnecessarywasteofpaper(hisprivateeconomy)chafedhimmorethanallthelossofhismoney。Envelopesfrettedhissoulterriblywhentheyfirstcamein;theonlywayinwhichhecouldreconcilehimselftosuchwasteofhischerishedarticlewasbypatientlyturninginsideoutallthatweresenttohim,andsomakingthemserveagain。Evennow,thoughtamedbyage,Iseehimcastingwistfulglancesathisdaughterswhentheysendawholeinsideofahalf—sheetofnotepaper,withthethreelinesofacceptancetoaninvitation,writtenononlyoneofthesides。I amnotaboveowningthatIhavethishumanweaknessmyself。Stringismyfoible。Mypocketsgetfulloflittlehanksofit,pickedupandtwistedtogether,readyforusesthatnevercome。Iamseriouslyannoyedifanyonecutsthestringofaparcelinsteadofpatientlyandfaithfullyundoingitfoldbyfold。Howpeoplecanbringthemselvestouseindia—rubberrings,whichareasortofdeificationofstring,aslightlyastheydo,Icannotimagine。Tomeanindia—rubberringisaprecioustreasure。Ihaveonewhichisnotnew—onethatIpickedupoffthefloornearlysixyearsago。Ihavereallytriedtouseit,butmyheartfailedme,andI couldnotcommittheextravagance。 Smallpiecesofbuttergrieveothers。Theycannotattendtoconversationbecauseoftheannoyanceoccasionedbythehabitwhichsomepeoplehaveofinvariablytakingmorebutterthantheywant。 Haveyounotseentheanxiouslook(almostmesmeric)whichsuchpersonsfixonthearticle?Theywouldfeelitareliefiftheymightburyitoutoftheirsightbypoppingitintotheirownmouthsandswallowingitdown;andtheyarereallymadehappyifthepersononwhoseplateitliesunusedsuddenlybreaksoffapieceoftoast(whichhedoesnotwantatall)andeatsuphisbutter。Theythinkthatthisisnotwaste。 NowMissMattyJenkynswascharyofcandles。Wehadmanydevicestouseasfewaspossible。Inthewinterafternoonsshewouldsitknittingfortwoorthreehours—shecoulddothisinthedark,orbyfirelight—andwhenIaskedifImightnotringforcandlestofinishstitchingmywristbands,shetoldmeto\"keepblindman’sholiday。\"Theywereusuallybroughtinwithtea;butweonlyburntoneatatime。Aswelivedinconstantpreparationforafriendwhomightcomeinanyevening(butwhoneverdid),itrequiredsomecontrivancetokeepourtwocandlesofthesamelength,readytobelighted,andtolookasifweburnttwoalways。Thecandlestookitinturns;and,whateverwemightbetalkingaboutordoing,MissMatty’seyeswerehabituallyfixeduponthecandle,readytojumpupandextinguishitandtolighttheotherbeforetheyhadbecometoouneveninlengthtoberestoredtoequalityinthecourseoftheevening。 Onenight,Irememberthiscandleeconomyparticularlyannoyedme。 Ihadbeenverymuchtiredofmycompulsory\"blindman’sholiday,\" especiallyasMissMattyhadfallenasleep,andIdidnotliketostirthefireandruntheriskofawakeningher;soIcouldnotevensitontherug,andscorchmyselfwithsewingbyfirelight,accordingtomyusualcustom。IfanciedMissMattymustbedreamingofherearlylife;forshespokeoneortwowordsinheruneasysleepbearingreferencetopersonswhoweredeadlongbefore。WhenMarthabroughtinthelightedcandleandtea,MissMattystartedintowakefulness,withastrange,bewilderedlookaround,asifwewerenotthepeoplesheexpectedtoseeabouther。 Therewasalittlesadexpressionthatshadowedherfaceassherecognisedme;butimmediatelyafterwardsshetriedtogivemeherusualsmile。Allthroughtea—timehertalkranuponthedaysofherchildhoodandyouth。Perhapsthisremindedherofthedesirablenessoflookingoveralltheoldfamilyletters,anddestroyingsuchasoughtnottobeallowedtofallintothehandsofstrangers;forshehadoftenspokenofthenecessityofthistask,buthadalwaysshrunkfromit,withatimiddreadofsomethingpainful。To—night,however,sheroseupafterteaandwentforthem—inthedark;forshepiquedherselfonthepreciseneatnessofallherchamberarrangements,andusedtolookuneasilyatmewhenIlightedabed—candletogotoanotherroomforanything。Whenshereturnedtherewasafaint,pleasantsmellofTonquinbeansintheroom。Ihadalwaysnoticedthisscentaboutanyofthethingswhichhadbelongedtohermother;andmanyoftheletterswereaddressedtoher—yellowbundlesoflove—letters,sixtyorseventyyearsold。 MissMattyundidthepacketwithasigh;butshestifleditdirectly,asifitwerehardlyrighttoregrettheflightoftime,oroflifeeither。Weagreedtolookthemoverseparately,eachtakingadifferentletteroutofthesamebundleanddescribingitscontentstotheotherbeforedestroyingit。Ineverknewwhatsadworkthereadingofold—letterswasbeforethatevening,thoughI couldhardlytellwhy。Theletterswereashappyasletterscouldbe—atleastthoseearlyletterswere。Therewasinthemavividandintensesenseofthepresenttime,whichseemedsostrongandfull,asifitcouldneverpassaway,andasifthewarm,livingheartsthatsoexpressedthemselvescouldneverdie,andbeasnothingtothesunnyearth。Ishouldhavefeltlessmelancholy,I believe,ifthelettershadbeenmoreso。Isawthetearsstealingdownthewell—wornfurrowsofMissMatty’scheeks,andherspectaclesoftenwantedwiping。Itrustedatlastthatshewouldlighttheothercandle,formyowneyeswereratherdim,andI wantedmorelighttoseethepale,fadedink;butno,eventhroughhertears,shesawandrememberedherlittleeconomicalways。 Theearliestsetoflettersweretwobundlestiedtogether,andticketed(inMissJenkyns’shandwriting)\"Lettersinterchangedbetweenmyever—honouredfatherandmydearly—belovedmother,priortotheirmarriage,inJuly1774。\"IshouldguessthattherectorofCranfordwasabouttwenty—sevenyearsofagewhenhewrotethoseletters;andMissMattytoldmethathermotherwasjusteighteenatthetimeofherwedding。Withmyideaoftherectorderivedfromapictureinthedining—parlour,stiffandstately,inahugefull—bottomedwig,withgown,cassock,andbands,andhishanduponacopyoftheonlysermonheeverpublished—itwasstrangetoreadtheseletters。Theywerefullofeager,passionateardour; shorthomelysentences,rightfreshfromtheheart(verydifferentfromthegrandLatinised,Johnsonianstyleoftheprintedsermonpreachedbeforesomejudgeatassizetime)。Hisletterswereacuriouscontrasttothoseofhisgirl—bride。Shewasevidentlyratherannoyedathisdemandsuponherforexpressionsoflove,andcouldnotquiteunderstandwhathemeantbyrepeatingthesamethingoverinsomanydifferentways;butwhatshewasquiteclearaboutwasalongingforawhite\"Paduasoy\"—whateverthatmightbe;andsixorsevenletterswereprincipallyoccupiedinaskingherlovertousehisinfluencewithherparents(whoevidentlykeptheringoodorder)toobtainthisorthatarticleofdress,moreespeciallythewhite\"Paduasoy。\"Hecarednothinghowshewasdressed;shewasalwayslovelyenoughforhim,ashetookpainstoassureher,whenshebeggedhimtoexpressinhisanswersapredilectionforparticularpiecesoffinery,inorderthatshemightshowwhathesaidtoherparents。Butatlengthheseemedtofindoutthatshewouldnotbemarriedtillshehada\"trousseau\" tohermind;andthenhesentheraletter,whichhadevidentlyaccompaniedawholeboxfulloffinery,andinwhichherequestedthatshemightbedressedineverythingherheartdesired。Thiswasthefirstletter,ticketedinafrail,delicatehand,\"FrommydearestJohn。\"Shortlyafterwardstheyweremarried,Isuppose,fromtheintermissionintheircorrespondence。 \"Wemustburnthem,Ithink,\"saidMissMatty,lookingdoubtfullyatme。\"NoonewillcareforthemwhenIamgone。\"Andonebyoneshedroppedthemintothemiddleofthefire,watchingeachblazeup,dieout,andriseaway,infaint,white,ghostlysemblance,upthechimney,beforeshegaveanothertothesamefate。Theroomwaslightenoughnow;butI,likeher,wasfascinatedintowatchingthedestructionofthoseletters,intowhichthehonestwarmthofamanlyhearthadbeenpouredforth。 Thenextletter,likewisedocketedbyMissJenkyns,wasendorsed,\"Letterofpiouscongratulationandexhortationfrommyvenerablegrandfathertomybelovedmother,onoccasionofmyownbirth。 Alsosomepracticalremarksonthedesirabilityofkeepingwarmtheextremitiesofinfants,frommyexcellentgrandmother。\" Thefirstpartwas,indeed,asevereandforciblepictureoftheresponsibilitiesofmothers,andawarningagainsttheevilsthatwereintheworld,andlyinginghastlywaitforthelittlebabyoftwodaysold。Hiswifedidnotwrite,saidtheoldgentleman,becausehehadforbiddenit,shebeingindisposedwithasprainedankle,which(hesaid)quiteincapacitatedherfromholdingapen。 However,atthefootofthepagewasasmall\"T。O。,\"andonturningitover,sureenough,therewasaletterto\"mydear,dearestMolly,\"beggingher,whensheleftherroom,whatevershedid,togoUPstairsbeforegoingDOWN:andtellinghertowrapherbaby’sfeetupinflannel,andkeepitwarmbythefire,althoughitwassummer,forbabiesweresotender。 Itwasprettytoseefromtheletters,whichwereevidentlyexchangedwithsomefrequencybetweentheyoungmotherandthegrandmother,howthegirlishvanitywasbeingweededoutofherheartbyloveforherbaby。Thewhite\"Paduasoy\"figuredagainintheletters,withalmostasmuchvigourasbefore。Inone,itwasbeingmadeintoachristeningcloakforthebaby。ItdeckeditwhenitwentwithitsparentstospendadayortwoatArleyHall。 Itaddedtoitscharms,whenitwas\"theprettiestlittlebabythateverwasseen。Dearmother,Iwishyoucouldseeher!Withoutanypershality,Idothinkshewillgrowuparegularbewty!\"I thoughtofMissJenkyns,grey,withered,andwrinkled,andI wonderedifhermotherhadknownherinthecourtsofheaven:andthenIknewthatshehad,andthattheystoodthereinangelicguise。 Therewasagreatgapbeforeanyoftherector’slettersappeared。 Andthenhiswifehadchangedhermodeofherendorsement。Itwasnolongerfrom,\"MydearestJohn;\"itwasfrom\"MyHonouredHusband。\"Theletterswerewrittenonoccasionofthepublicationofthesamesermonwhichwasrepresentedinthepicture。Thepreachingbefore\"MyLordJudge,\"andthe\"publishingbyrequest,\" wasevidentlytheculminatingpoint—theeventofhislife。IthadbeennecessaryforhimtogouptoLondontosuperintenditthroughthepress。Manyfriendshadtobecalleduponandconsultedbeforehecoulddecideonanyprinterfitforsoonerousatask;andatlengthitwasarrangedthatJ。andJ。Rivingtonsweretohavethehonourableresponsibility。Theworthyrectorseemedtobestrungupbytheoccasiontoahighliterarypitch,forhecouldhardlywritealettertohiswifewithoutcroppingoutintoLatin。Iremembertheendofoneofhislettersranthus:\"I shalleverholdthevirtuousqualitiesofmyMollyinremembrance,DUMMEMORIPSEMEI,DUMSPIRITUSREGITARTUS,\"which,consideringthattheEnglishofhiscorrespondentwassometimesatfaultingrammar,andofteninspelling,mightbetakenasaproofofhowmuchhe\"idealisedhisMolly;\"and,asMissJenkynsusedtosay,\"Peopletalkagreatdealaboutidealisingnow—a—days,whateverthatmaymean。\"Butthiswasnothingtoafitofwritingclassicalpoetrywhichsoonseizedhim,inwhichhisMollyfiguredawayas\"Maria。\"ThelettercontainingtheCARMENwasendorsedbyher,\"Hebrewversessentmebymyhonouredhusband。Ithowttohavehadaletteraboutkillingthepig,butmustwait。Mem。,tosendthepoetrytoSirPeterArley,asmyhusbanddesires。\"Andinapost— scriptumnoteinhishandwritingitwasstatedthattheOdehadappearedintheGENTLEMAN’SMAGAZINE,December1782。 Herlettersbacktoherhusband(treasuredasfondlybyhimasiftheyhadbeenM。T。CICERONISEPISTOLAE)weremoresatisfactorytoanabsenthusbandandfatherthanhiscouldeverhavebeentoher。