第9章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:9209更新时间:19/01/07 14:37:59
Thisdidnotoriginateininherentshamelessness,butinherlivingtoofarfromtheworldtofeeltheimpactofpublicopinion。ZenobiainthedesertcouldhardlyhavecaredwhatwassaidaboutheratRome。AsfarassocialethicswereconcernedEustaciaapproachedthesavagestate,thoughinemotionshewasallthewhileanepicure。 Shehadadvancedtothesecretrecessesofsensuousness,yethadhardlycrossedthethresholdofconventionality。 11—TheDishonestyofanHonestWomanThereddlemanhadleftEustacia’spresencewithdespondingviewsonThomasin’sfuturehappiness;buthewasawakenedtothefactthatoneotherchannelremaineduntriedbyseeing,ashefollowedthewaytohisvan,theformofMrs。YeobrightslowlywalkingtowardstheQuietWoman。 Hewentacrosstoher;andcouldalmostperceiveinheranxiousfacethatthisjourneyofherstoWildevewasundertakenwiththesameobjectashisowntoEustacia。 Shedidnotconcealthefact。\"Then,\"saidthereddleman,\"youmayaswellleaveitalone,Mrs。Yeobright。\" \"Ihalfthinksomyself,\"shesaid。\"Butnothingelseremainstobedonebesidespressingthequestionuponhim。\" \"Ishouldliketosayawordfirst,\"saidVennfirmly。 \"Mr。WildeveisnottheonlymanwhohasaskedThomasintomarryhim;andwhyshouldnotanotherhaveachance? Mrs。Yeobright,Ishouldbegladtomarryyourniece。 andwouldhavedoneitanytimetheselasttwoyears。 There,nowitisout,andIhavenevertoldanybodybeforebutherself。\" Mrs。Yeobrightwasnotdemonstrative,buthereyesinvoluntarilyglancedtowardshissingularthoughshapelyfigure。 \"Looksarenoteverything,\"saidthereddleman,noticingtheglance。\"There’smanyacallingthatdon’tbringinsomuchasmine,ifitcomestomoney;andperhapsIamnotsomuchworseoffthanWildeve。Thereisnobodysopoorastheseprofessionalfellowswhohavefailed; andifyoushouldn’tlikemyredness——well,Iamnotredbybirth,youknow;Ionlytooktothisbusinessforafreak; andImightturnmyhandtosomethingelseingoodtime。\" \"Iammuchobligedtoyouforyourinterestinmyniece; butIfeartherewouldbeobjections。Morethanthat,sheisdevotedtothisman。\" \"True;orIshouldn’thavedonewhatIhavethismorning。\" \"Otherwisetherewouldbenopaininthecase,andyouwouldnotseemegoingtohishousenow。WhatwasThomasin’sanswerwhenyoutoldherofyourfeelings?\" \"Shewrotethatyouwouldobjecttome;andotherthings。\" \"Shewasinameasureright。Youmustnottakethisunkindly——Imerelystateitasatruth。Youhavebeengoodtoher,andwedonotforgetit。Butasshewasunwillingonherownaccounttobeyourwife,thatsettlesthepointwithoutmywishesbeingconcerned。\" \"Yes。Butthereisadifferencebetweenthenandnow,ma’am。Sheisdistressednow,andIhavethoughtthatifyouweretotalktoheraboutme,andthinkfavourablyofmeyourself,theremightbeachanceofwinningherround,andgettingherquiteindependentofthisWildeve’sbackwardandforwardplay,andhisnotknowingwhetherhe’llhaveherorno。\" Mrs。Yeobrightshookherhead。\"Thomasinthinks,andI thinkwithher,thatsheoughttobeWildeve’swife,ifshemeanstoappearbeforetheworldwithoutasluruponhername。Iftheymarrysoon,everybodywillbelievethatanaccidentdidreallypreventthewedding。Ifnot,itmaycastashadeuponhercharacter——atanyratemakeherridiculous。Inshort,ifitisanyhowpossibletheymustmarrynow。\" \"Ithoughtthattillhalfanhourago。But,afterall,whyshouldhergoingoffwithhimtoAngleburyforafewhoursdoheranyharm?Anybodywhoknowshowpuresheiswillfeelanysuchthoughttobequiteunjust。 IhavebeentryingthismorningtohelponthismarriagewithWildeve——yes,I,ma’am——inthebeliefthatIoughttodoit,becauseshewassowrappedupinhim。ButImuchquestionifIwasright,afterall。However,nothingcameofit。 AndnowIoffermyself。\" Mrs。Yeobrightappeareddisinclinedtoenterfurtherintothequestion。\"IfearImustgoon,\"shesaid。 \"Idonotseethatanythingelsecanbedone。\" Andshewenton。ButthoughthisconversationdidnotdivertThomasin’sauntfromherpurposedinterviewwithWildeve,itmadeaconsiderabledifferenceinhermodeofconductingthatinterview。ShethankedGodfortheweaponwhichthereddlemanhadputintoherhands。 Wildevewasathomewhenshereachedtheinn。Heshowedhersilentlyintotheparlour,andclosedthedoor。 Mrs。Yeobrightbegan—— \"Ihavethoughtitmydutytocalltoday。Anewproposalhasbeenmadetome,whichhasratherastonishedme。 ItwillaffectThomasingreatly;andIhavedecidedthatitshouldatleastbementionedtoyou。\" \"Yes?Whatisit?\"hesaidcivilly。 \"Itis,ofcourse,inreferencetoherfuture。YoumaynotbeawarethatanothermanhasshownhimselfanxioustomarryThomasin。Now,thoughIhavenotencouragedhimyet,Icannotconscientiouslyrefusehimachanceanylonger。 Idon’twishtobeshortwithyou;butImustbefairtohimandtoher。\" \"Whoistheman?\"saidWildevewithsurprise。 \"Onewhohasbeeninlovewithherlongerthanshehaswithyou。Heproposedtohertwoyearsago。 Atthattimesherefusedhim。\" \"Well?\" \"Hehasseenherlately,andhasaskedmeforpermissiontopayhisaddressestoher。Shemaynotrefusehimtwice。\" \"Whatishisname?\" Mrs。Yeobrightdeclinedtosay。\"HeisamanThomasinlikes,\" sheadded,\"andonewhoseconstancysherespectsatleast。 Itseemstomethatwhatsherefusedthenshewouldbegladtogetnow。Sheismuchannoyedatherawkwardposition。\" \"Sheneveroncetoldmeofthisoldlover。\" \"ThegentlestwomenarenotsuchfoolsastoshowEVERYcard。\" \"Well,ifshewantshimIsupposeshemusthavehim。\" \"Itiseasyenoughtosaythat;butyoudon’tseethedifficulty。Hewantshermuchmorethanshewantshim; andbeforeIcanencourageanythingofthesortImusthaveaclearunderstandingfromyouthatyouwillnotinterferetoinjureanarrangementwhichIpromoteinthebeliefthatitisforthebest。Suppose,whentheyareengaged,andeverythingissmoothlyarrangedfortheirmarriage,thatyoushouldstepbetweenthemandrenewyoursuit?Youmightnotwinherback,butyoumightcausemuchunhappiness。\" \"OfcourseIshoulddonosuchthing,\"saidWildeve\"Buttheyarenotengagedyet。HowdoyouknowthatThomasinwouldaccepthim?\" \"That’saquestionIhavecarefullyputtomyself; anduponthewholetheprobabilitiesareinfavourofheracceptinghimintime。IflattermyselfthatI havesomeinfluenceoverher。Sheispliable,andI canbestronginmyrecommendationsofhim。\" \"Andinyourdisparagementofmeatthesametime。\" \"Well,youmaydependuponmynotpraisingyou,\" shesaiddrily。\"Andifthisseemslikemanoeuvring,youmustrememberthatherpositionispeculiar,andthatshehasbeenhardlyused。Ishallalsobehelpedinmakingthematchbyherowndesiretoescapefromthehumiliationofherpresentstate;andawoman’sprideinthesecaseswillleadheraverygreatway。 Alittlemanagingmayberequiredtobringherround; butIamequaltothat,providedthatyouagreetotheonethingindispensable;thatis,tomakeadistinctdeclarationthatsheistothinknomoreofyouasapossiblehusband。 Thatwillpiqueherintoacceptinghim。\" \"Icanhardlysaythatjustnow,Mrs。Yeobright。 Itissosudden。\" \"Andsomywholeplanisinterferedwith!Itisveryinconvenientthatyourefusetohelpmyfamilyeventothesmallextentofsayingdistinctlyyouwillhavenothingtodowithus。\" Wildevereflecteduncomfortably。\"IconfessIwasnotpreparedforthis,\"hesaid。\"OfcourseI’llgiveherupifyouwish,ifitisnecessary。ButIthoughtImightbeherhusband。\" \"Wehaveheardthatbefore。\" \"Now,Mrs。Yeobright,don’tletusdisagree。Givemeafairtime。Idon’twanttostandinthewayofanybetterchanceshemayhave;onlyIwishyouhadletmeknowearlier。Iwillwritetoyouorcallinadayortwo。 Willthatsuffice?\" \"Yes,\"shereplied,\"providedyoupromisenottocommunicatewithThomasinwithoutmyknowledge。\" \"Ipromisethat,\"hesaid。Andtheinterviewthenterminated,Mrs。Yeobrightreturninghomewardasshehadcome。 Byfarthegreatesteffectofhersimplestrategyonthatdaywas,asoftenhappens,inaquarterquiteoutsideherviewwhenarrangingit。Inthefirstplace,hervisitsentWildevethesameeveningafterdarktoEustacia’shouseatMistover。 Atthishourthelonelydwellingwascloselyblindedandshutteredfromthechillanddarknesswithout。 Wildeve’sclandestineplanwithherwastotakealittlegravelinhishandandholdittothecreviceatthetopofthewindowshutter,whichwasontheoutside,sothatitshouldfallwithagentlerustle,resemblingthatofamouse,betweenshutterandglass。 Thisprecautioninattractingherattentionwastoavoidarousingthesuspicionsofhergrandfather。 Thesoftwords,\"Ihear;waitforme,\"inEustacia’svoicefromwithintoldhimthatshewasalone。 Hewaitedinhiscustomarymannerbywalkingroundtheenclosureandidlingbythepool,forWildevewasneveraskedintothehousebyhisproudthoughcondescendingmistress。 Sheshowednosignofcomingoutinahurry。Thetimeworeon,andhebegantogrowimpatient。Inthecourseoftwentyminutessheappearedfromroundthecorner,andadvancedasifmerelytakinganairing。 \"YouwouldnothavekeptmesolonghadyouknownwhatI comeabout,\"hesaidwithbitterness。\"Still,youareworthwaitingfor。\" \"Whathashappened?\"saidEustacia。\"Ididnotknowyouwereintrouble。Itooamgloomyenough。\" \"Iamnotintrouble,\"saidhe。\"Itismerelythataffairshavecometoahead,andImusttakeaclearcourse。\" \"Whatcourseisthat?\"sheaskedwithattentiveinterest。 \"AndcanyouforgetsosoonwhatIproposedtoyoutheothernight?Why,takeyoufromthisplace,andcarryyouawaywithmeabroad。\" \"Ihavenotforgotten。Butwhyhaveyoucomesounexpectedlytorepeatthequestion,whenyouonlypromisedtocomenextSaturday?IthoughtIwastohaveplentyoftimetoconsider。\" \"Yes,butthesituationisdifferentnow。\" \"Explaintome。\" \"Idon’twanttoexplain,forImaypainyou。\" \"ButImustknowthereasonofthishurry。\" \"Itissimplymyardour,dearEustacia。Everythingissmoothnow。\" \"Thenwhyareyousoruffled?\" \"Iamnotawareofit。Allisasitshouldbe。 Mrs。Yeobright——butsheisnothingtous。\" \"Ah,Iknewshehadsomethingtodowithit!Come,Idon’tlikereserve。\" \"No——shehasnothing。SheonlysaysshewishesmetogiveupThomasinbecauseanothermanisanxioustomarryher。 Thewoman,nowshenolongerneedsme,actuallyshowsoff!\" Wildeve’svexationhasescapedhiminspiteofhimself。 Eustaciawassilentalongwhile。\"Youareintheawkwardpositionofanofficialwhoisnolongerwanted,\" shesaidinachangedtone。 \"Itseemsso。ButIhavenotyetseenThomasin。\" \"Andthatirritatesyou。Don’tdenyit,Damon。Youareactuallynettledbythisslightfromanunexpectedquarter。\" \"Well?\" \"Andyoucometogetmebecauseyoucannotgether。 Thisiscertainlyanewpositionaltogether。Iamtobeastop—gap。\" \"PleaserememberthatIproposedthesamethingtheotherday。\" Eustaciaagainremainedinasortofstupefiedsilence。 Whatcuriousfeelingwasthiscomingoverher?WasitreallypossiblethatherinterestinWildevehadbeensoentirelytheresultofantagonismthatthegloryandthedreamdepartedfromthemanwiththefirstsoundthathewasnolongercovetedbyherrival?Shewas,then,secureofhimatlast。Thomasinnolongerrequiredhim。 Whatahumiliatingvictory!Helovedherbest,shethought; andyet——daredshetomurmursuchtreacherouscriticismeversosoftly?——whatwasthemanworthwhomawomaninferiortoherselfdidnotvalue?Thesentimentwhichlurksmoreorlessinallanimatenature——thatofnotdesiringtheundesiredofothers——waslivelyasapassioninthesupersubtle,epicureanheartofEustacia。Hersocialsuperiorityoverhim,whichhithertohadscarcelyeverimpressedher,becameunpleasantlyinsistent,andforthefirsttimeshefeltthatshehadstoopedinlovinghim。 \"Well,darling,youagree?\"saidWildeve。 \"IfitcouldbeLondon,orevenBudmouth,insteadofAmerica,\" shemurmuredlanguidly。\"Well,Iwillthink。 Itistoogreatathingformetodecideoffhand。 IwishIhatedtheheathless——orlovedyoumore。\" \"Youcanbepainfullyfrank。Youlovedmeamonthagowarmlyenoughtogoanywherewithme。\" \"AndyoulovedThomasin。\" \"Yes,perhapsthatwaswherethereasonlay,\"hereturned,withalmostasneer。\"Idon’thatehernow。\" \"Exactly。Theonlythingisthatyoucannolongergether。\" \"Come——notaunts,Eustacia,orweshallquarrel。 Ifyoudon’tagreetogowithme,andagreeshortly,Ishallgobymyself。\" \"OrtryThomasinagain。Damon,howstrangeitseemsthatyoucouldhavemarriedherormeindifferently,andonlyhavecometomebecauseIam——cheapest!Yes,yes——itistrue。TherewasatimewhenIshouldhaveexclaimedagainstamanofthatsort,andbeenquitewild; butitisallpastnow。\" \"Willyougo,dearest?ComesecretlywithmetoBristol,marryme,andturnourbacksuponthisdog—holeofEnglandforever?SayYes。\" \"Iwanttogetawayfromhereatalmostanycost,\" shesaidwithweariness,\"butIdon’tliketogowithyou。 Givememoretimetodecide。\" \"Ihavealready,\"saidWildeve。\"Well,Igiveyouonemoreweek。\" \"Alittlelonger,sothatImaytellyoudecisively。 Ihavetoconsidersomanythings。FancyThomasinbeinganxioustogetridofyou!Icannotforgetit。\" \"Nevermindthat。SayMondayweek。Iwillbeherepreciselyatthistime。\" \"LetitbeatRainbarrow,\"saidshe。\"Thisistoonearhome; mygrandfathermaybewalkingout。\" \"Thankyou,dear。OnMondayweekatthistimeIwillbeattheBarrow。Tillthengood—bye。\" \"Good—bye。No,no,youmustnottouchmenow。 ShakinghandsisenoughtillIhavemadeupmymind。\" Eustaciawatchedhisshadowyformtillithaddisappeared。 Sheplacedherhandtoherforeheadandbreathedheavily; andthenherrich,romanticlipspartedunderthathomelyimpulse——ayawn。Shewasimmediatelyangryathavingbetrayedeventoherselfthepossibleevanescenceofherpassionforhim。ShecouldnotadmitatoncethatshemighthaveoverestimatedWildeve,fortoperceivehismediocritynowwastoadmitherowngreatfollyheretofore。 Andthediscoverythatshewastheownerofadispositionsopurelythatofthedoginthemangerhadsomethinginitwhichatfirstmadeherashamed。 ThefruitofMrs。Yeobright’sdiplomacywasindeedremarkable,thoughnotasyetofthekindshehadanticipated。 IthadappreciablyinfluencedWildeve,butitwasinfluencingEustaciafarmore。Herloverwasnolongertoheranexcitingmanwhommanywomenstrovefor,andherselfcouldonlyretainbystrivingwiththem。 Hewasasuperfluity。 Shewentindoorsinthatpeculiarstateofmiserywhichisnotexactlygrief,andwhichespeciallyattendsthedawningsofreasoninthelatterdaysofanill—judged,transientlove。Tobeconsciousthattheendofthedreamisapproaching,andyethasnotabsolutelycome,isoneofthemostwearisomeaswellasthemostcuriousstagesalongthecoursebetweenthebeginningofapassionanditsend。 Hergrandfatherhadreturned,andwasbusilyengagedinpouringsomegallonsofnewlyarrivedrumintothesquarebottlesofhissquarecellaret。WheneverthesehomesupplieswereexhaustedhewouldgototheQuietWoman,and,standingwithhisbacktothefire,groginhand,tellremarkablestoriesofhowhehadlivedsevenyearsunderthewaterlineofhisship,andothernavalwonders,tothenatives,whohopedtooearnestlyforatreatofalefromthetellertoexhibitanydoubtsofhistruth。 Hehadbeentherethisevening。\"IsupposeyouhaveheardtheEgdonnews,Eustacia?\"hesaid,withoutlookingupfromthebottles。\"ThemenhavebeentalkingaboutitattheWomanasifitwereofnationalimportance。\" \"Ihaveheardnone,\"shesaid。 \"YoungClymYeobright,astheycallhim,iscominghomenextweektospendChristmaswithhismother。 Heisafinefellowbythistime,itseems。Isupposeyourememberhim?\" \"Ineversawhiminmylife。\" \"Ah,true;heleftbeforeyoucamehere。Iwellrememberhimasapromisingboy。\" \"Wherehashebeenlivingalltheseyears?\" \"Inthatrookeryofpompandvanity,Paris,Ibelieve。\" bookthreeTHEFASCINATION 1—\"MyMindtoMeaKingdomIs\" InClymYeobright’sfacecouldbedimlyseenthetypicalcountenanceofthefuture。Shouldtherebeaclassicperiodtoarthereafter,itsPheidiasmayproducesuchfaces。 Theviewoflifeasathingtobeputupwith,replacingthatzestforexistencewhichwassointenseinearlycivilizations,mustultimatelyentersothoroughlyintotheconstitutionoftheadvancedracesthatitsfacialexpressionwillbecomeacceptedasanewartisticdeparture。Peoplealreadyfeelthatamanwholiveswithoutdisturbingacurveoffeature,orsettingamarkofmentalconcernanywhereuponhimself,istoofarremovedfrommodernperceptivenesstobeamoderntype。Physicallybeautifulmen——thegloryoftheracewhenitwasyoung——arealmostananachronismnow; andwemaywonderwhether,atsometimeorother,physicallybeautifulwomenmaynotbeananachronismlikewise。 ThetruthseemstobethatalonglineofdisillusivecenturieshaspermanentlydisplacedtheHellenicideaoflife,orwhateveritmaybecalled。WhattheGreeksonlysuspectedweknowwell;whattheirAeschylusimaginedournurserychildrenfeel。Thatold—fashionedrevellinginthegeneralsituationgrowslessandlesspossibleasweuncoverthedefectsofnaturallaws,andseethequandarythatmanisinbytheiroperation。 ThelineamentswhichwillgetembodiedinidealsbaseduponthisnewrecognitionwillprobablybeakintothoseofYeobright。Theobserver’seyewasarrested,notbyhisfaceasapicture,butbyhisfaceasapage; notbywhatitwas,butbywhatitrecorded。Hisfeatureswereattractiveinthelightofsymbols,assoundsintrinsicallycommonbecomeattractiveinlanguage,andasshapesintrinsicallysimplebecomeinterestinginwriting。 Hehadbeenaladofwhomsomethingwasexpected。 Beyondthisallhadbeenchaos。Thathewouldbesuccessfulinanoriginalway,orthathewouldgotothedogsinanoriginalway,seemedequallyprobable。 Theonlyabsolutecertaintyabouthimwasthathewouldnotstandstillinthecircumstancesamidwhichhewasborn。 Hence,whenhisnamewascasuallymentionedbyneighbouringyeomen,thelistenersaid,\"Ah,ClymYeobright——whatishedoingnow?\"Whentheinstinctivequestionaboutapersonis,Whatishedoing?itisfeltthathewillbefoundtobe,likemostofus,doingnothinginparticular。Thereisanindefinitesensethathemustbeinvadingsomeregionofsingularity,goodorbad。Thedevouthopeisthatheisdoingwell。Thesecretfaithisthatheismakingamessofit。Halfadozencomfortablemarket—men,whowerehabitualcallersattheQuietWomanastheypassedbyintheircarts,werepartialtothetopic。Infact,thoughtheywerenotEgdonmen,theycouldhardlyavoiditwhiletheysuckedtheirlongclaytubesandregardedtheheaththroughthewindow。Clymhadbeensoinwovenwiththeheathinhisboyhoodthathardlyanybodycouldlookuponitwithoutthinkingofhim。Sothesubjectrecurred:ifheweremakingafortuneandaname,somuchthebetterforhim;ifheweremakingatragicalfigureintheworld,somuchthebetterforanarrative。 ThefactwasthatYeobright’sfamehadspreadtoanawkwardextentbeforehelefthome。\"Itisbadwhenyourfameoutrunsyourmeans,\"saidtheSpanishJesuitGracian。 AttheageofsixhehadaskedaScriptureriddle:\"Whowasthefirstmanknowntowearbreeches?\"andapplausehadresoundedfromtheveryvergeoftheheath。AtsevenhepaintedtheBattleofWaterloowithtiger—lilypollenandblack—currantjuice,intheabsenceofwater—colours。Bythetimehereachedtwelvehehadinthismannerbeenheardofasartistandscholarforatleasttwomilesround。 Anindividualwhosefamespreadsthreeorfourthousandyardsinthetimetakenbythefameofotherssimilarlysituatedtotravelsixoreighthundred,mustofnecessityhavesomethinginhim。PossiblyClym’sfame,likeHomer’s,owedsomethingtotheaccidentsofhissituation; neverthelessfamoushewas。 Hegrewupandwashelpedoutinlife。ThatwaggeryoffatewhichstartedCliveasawritingclerk,Gayasalinen—draper,Keatsasasurgeon,andathousandothersinathousandotheroddways,banishedthewildandasceticheathladtoatradewhosesoleconcernwaswiththeespecialsymbolsofself—indulgenceandvainglory。 Thedetailsofthischoiceofabusinessforhimitisnotnecessarytogive。Atthedeathofhisfatheraneighbouringgentlemanhadkindlyundertakentogivetheboyastart,andthisassumedtheformofsendinghimtoBudmouth。 Yeobrightdidnotwishtogothere,butitwastheonlyfeasibleopening。ThencehewenttoLondon;andthence,shortlyafter,toParis,wherehehadremainedtillnow。 Somethingbeingexpectedofhim,hehadnotbeenathomemanydaysbeforeagreatcuriosityastowhyhestayedonsolongbegantoariseintheheath。Thenaturaltermofaholidayhadpassed,yethestillremained。 OntheSundaymorningfollowingtheweekofThomasin’smarriageadiscussiononthissubjectwasinprogressatahair—cuttingbeforeFairway’shouse。Herethelocalbarberingwasalwaysdoneatthishouronthisday,tobefollowedbythegreatSundaywashoftheinhabitantsatnoon,whichinitsturnwasfollowedbythegreatSundaydressinganhourlater。OnEgdonHeathSundayproperdidnotbegintilldinner—time,andeventhenitwasasomewhatbatteredspecimenoftheday。