第12章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:9852更新时间:19/01/07 14:37:59
Hiswalkwasrapidashecamedown,andhewentwithaspringytrend。Beforeenteringuponhismother’spremiseshestoppedandbreathed。Thelightwhichshoneforthonhimfromthewindowrevealedthathisfacewasflushedandhiseyebright。Whatitdidnotshowwassomethingwhichlingereduponhislipslikeasealsetthere。 Theabidingpresenceofthisimpresswassorealthathehardlydaredtoenterthehouse,foritseemedasifhismothermightsay,\"Whatredspotisthatglowinguponyourmouthsovividly?\" Butheenteredsoonafter。Theteawasready,andhesatdownoppositehismother。Shedidnotspeakmanywords; andasforhim,somethinghadbeenjustdoneandsomewordshadbeenjustsaidonthehillwhichpreventedhimfrombeginningadesultorychat。Hismother’staciturnitywasnotwithoutominousness,butheappearednottocare。 Heknewwhyshesaidsolittle,buthecouldnotremovethecauseofherbearingtowardshim。Thesehalf—silentsittingswerefarfromuncommonwiththemnow。AtlastYeobrightmadeabeginningofwhatwasintendedtostrikeatthewholerootofthematter。 \"Fivedayshavewesatlikethisatmealswithscarcelyaword。What’stheuseofit,Mother?\" \"None,\"saidshe,inaheart—swollentone。\"Butthereisonlytoogoodareason。\" \"Notwhenyouknowall。Ihavebeenwantingtospeakaboutthis,andIamgladthesubjectisbegun。Thereason,ofcourse,isEustaciaVye。Well,IconfessIhaveseenherlately,andhaveseenheragoodmanytimes。\" \"Yes,yes;andIknowwhatthatamountsto。Ittroublesme,Clym。Youarewastingyourlifehere;anditissolelyonaccountofher。Ifithadnotbeenforthatwomanyouwouldneverhaveentertainedthisteachingschemeatall。\" Clymlookedhardathismother。\"Youknowthatisnotit,\" hesaid。 \"Well,Iknowyouhaddecidedtoattemptitbeforeyousawher;butthatwouldhaveendedinintentions。Itwasverywelltotalkof,butridiculoustoputinpractice。 Ifullyexpectedthatinthecourseofamonthortwoyouwouldhaveseenthefollyofsuchself—sacrifice,andwouldhavebeenbythistimebackagaintoParisinsomebusinessorother。Icanunderstandobjectionstothediamondtrade——Ireallywasthinkingthatitmightbeinadequatetothelifeofamanlikeyoueventhoughitmighthavemadeyouamillionaire。 ButnowIseehowmistakenyouareaboutthisgirlIdoubtifyoucouldbecorrectaboutotherthings。\" \"HowamImistakeninher?\" \"Sheislazyanddissatisfied。Butthatisnotallofit。 Supposinghertobeasgoodawomanasanyyoucanfind,whichshecertainlyisnot,whydoyouwishtoconnectyourselfwithanybodyatpresent?\" \"Well,therearepracticalreasons,\"Clymbegan,andthenalmostbrokeoffunderanoverpoweringsenseoftheweightofargumentwhichcouldbebroughtagainsthisstatement。 \"IfItakeaschoolaneducatedwomanwouldbeinvaluableasahelptome。\" \"What!youreallymeantomarryher?\" \"Itwouldbeprematuretostatethatplainly。Butconsiderwhatobviousadvantagestherewouldbeindoingit。She————\" \"Don’tsupposeshehasanymoney。Shehasn’tafarthing。\" \"Sheisexcellentlyeducated,andwouldmakeagoodmatroninaboarding—school。IcandidlyownthatI havemodifiedmyviewsalittle,indeferencetoyou; anditshouldsatisfyyou。Inolongeradheretomyintentionofgivingwithmyownmouthrudimentaryeducationtothelowestclass。Icandobetter。Icanestablishagoodprivateschoolforfarmers’sons,andwithoutstoppingtheschoolIcanmanagetopassexaminations。 Bythismeans,andbytheassistanceofawifelikeher————\" \"Oh,Clym!\" \"Ishallultimately,Ihope,beattheheadofoneofthebestschoolsinthecounty。\" Yeobrighthadenunciatedtheword\"her\"withafervourwhich,inconversationwithamother,wasabsurdlyindiscreet。 Hardlyamaternalheartwithinthefourseascouldinsuchcircumstances,havehelpedbeingirritatedatthatill—timedbetrayaloffeelingforanewwoman。 \"Youareblinded,Clym,\"shesaidwarmly。\"Itwasabaddayforyouwhenyoufirstseteyesonher。 Andyourschemeismerelyacastleintheairbuiltonpurposetojustifythisfollywhichhasseizedyou,andtosalveyourconscienceontheirrationalsituationyouarein。\" \"Mother,that’snottrue,\"hefirmlyanswered。 \"CanyoumaintainthatIsitandtelluntruths,whenallIwishtodoistosaveyoufromsorrow?Forshame,Clym!Butitisallthroughthatwoman——ahussy!\" Clymreddenedlikefireandrose。Heplacedhishanduponhismother’sshoulderandsaid,inatonewhichhungstrangelybetweenentreatyandcommand,\"Iwon’thearit。 Imaybeledtoansweryouinawaywhichweshallbothregret。\" Hismotherpartedherlipstobeginsomeothervehementtruth,butonlookingathimshesawthatinhisfacewhichledhertoleavethewordsunsaid。Yeobrightwalkedonceortwiceacrosstheroom,andthensuddenlywentoutofthehouse。 Itwaseleveno’clockwhenhecamein,thoughhehadnotbeenfurtherthantheprecinctsofthegarden。 Hismotherwasgonetobed。Alightwasleftburningonthetable,andsupperwasspread。Withoutstoppingforanyfoodhesecuredthedoorsandwentupstairs。 4—AnHourofBlissandManyHoursofSadnessThenextdaywasgloomyenoughatBlooms—End。Yeobrightremainedinhisstudy,sittingovertheopenbooks; buttheworkofthosehourswasmiserablyscant。 Determinedthatthereshouldbenothinginhisconducttowardshismotherresemblingsullenness,hehadoccasionallyspokentoheronpassingmatters,andwouldtakenonoticeofthebrevityofherreplies。Withthesameresolvetokeepupashowofconversationhesaid,aboutseveno’clockintheevening,\"There’saneclipseofthemoontonight。 Iamgoingouttoseeit。\"And,puttingonhisovercoat,helefther。 Thelowmoonwasnotasyetvisiblefromthefrontofthehouse,andYeobrightclimbedoutofthevalleyuntilhestoodinthefullfloodofherlight。Butevennowhewalkedon,andhisstepswereinthedirectionofRainbarrow。 Inhalfanhourhestoodatthetop。Theskywasclearfromvergetoverge,andthemoonflungherraysoverthewholeheath,butwithoutsensiblylightingit,exceptwherepathsandwater—courseshadlaidbarethewhiteflintsandglisteningquartzsand,whichmadestreaksuponthegeneralshade。 Afterstandingawhilehestoopedandfelttheheather。 Itwasdry,andheflunghimselfdownuponthebarrow,hisfacetowardsthemoon,whichdepictedasmallimageofherselfineachofhiseyes。 Hehadoftencomeupherewithoutstatinghispurposetohismother;butthiswasthefirsttimethathehadbeenostensiblyfrankastohispurposewhilereallyconcealingit。 Itwasamoralsituationwhich,threemonthsearlier,hecouldhardlyhavecreditedofhimself。Inreturningtolabourinthissequesteredspothehadanticipatedanescapefromthechafingofsocialnecessities; yetbeholdtheywereherealso。Morethaneverhelongedtobeinsomeworldwherepersonalambitionwasnottheonlyrecognizedformofprogress——such,perhaps,asmighthavebeenthecaseatsometimeorotherinthesilveryglobethenshininguponhim。Hiseyetravelledoverthelengthandbreadthofthatdistantcountry——overtheBayofRainbows,thesombreSeaofCrises,theOceanofStorms,theLakeofDreams,thevastWalledPlains,andthewondrousRingMountains——tillhealmostfelthimselftobevoyagingbodilythroughitswildscenes,standingonitshollowhills,traversingitsdeserts,descendingitsvalesandoldseabottoms,ormountingtotheedgesofitscraters。 Whilehewatchedthefar—removedlandscapeatawnystaingrewintobeingonthelowerverge——theeclipsehadbegun。 Thismarkedapreconcertedmoment——fortheremotecelestialphenomenonhadbeenpressedintosublunaryserviceasalover’ssignal。Yeobright’smindflewbacktoearthatthesight;hearose,shookhimselfandlistened。 Minuteafterminutepassedby,perhapstenminutespassed,andtheshadowonthemoonperceptiblywidened。 Heheardarustlingonhislefthand,acloakedfigurewithanupturnedfaceappearedatthebaseoftheBarrow,andClymdescended。Inamomentthefigurewasinhisarms,andhislipsuponhers。 \"MyEustacia!\" \"Clym,dearest!\" Suchasituationhadlessthanthreemonthsbroughtforth。 Theyremainedlongwithoutasingleutterance,fornolanguagecouldreachtheleveloftheircondition——wordswereastherustyimplementsofaby—gonebarbarousepoch,andonlytobeoccasionallytolerated。 \"Ibegantowonderwhyyoudidnotcome,\"saidYeobright,whenshehadwithdrawnalittlefromhisembrace。 \"Yousaidtenminutesafterthefirstmarkofshadeontheedgeofthemoon,andthat’swhatitisnow。\" \"Well,letusonlythinkthathereweare。\" Then,holdingeachother’shand,theywereagainsilent,andtheshadowonthemoon’sdiscgrewalittlelarger。 \"Hasitseemedlongsinceyoulastsawme?\"sheasked。 \"Ithasseemedsad。\" \"Andnotlong?That’sbecauseyouoccupyyourself,andsoblindyourselftomyabsence。Tome,whocandonothing,ithasbeenlikelivingunderstagnantwater。\" \"Iwouldratherbeartediousness,dear,thanhavetimemadeshortbysuchmeansashaveshortenedmine。\" \"Inwhatwayisthat?Youhavebeenthinkingyouwishedyoudidnotloveme。\" \"Howcanamanwishthat,andyetloveon?No,Eustacia。\" \"Mencan,womencannot。\" \"Well,whateverImayhavethought,onethingiscertain——I doloveyou——pastallcompassanddescription。Iloveyoutooppressiveness——I,whohaveneverbeforefeltmorethanapleasantpassingfancyforanywomanIhaveeverseen。 Letmelookrightintoyourmoonlitfaceanddwelloneverylineandcurveinit!OnlyafewhairbreadthsmakethedifferencebetweenthisfaceandfacesIhaveseenmanytimesbeforeIknewyou;yetwhatadifference——thedifferencebetweeneverythingandnothingatall。 Onetouchonthatmouthagain!there,andthere,andthere。 Youreyesseemheavy,Eustacia。\" \"No,itismygeneralwayoflooking。IthinkitarisesfrommyfeelingsometimesanagonizingpityformyselfthatIeverwasborn。\" \"Youdon’tfeelitnow?\" \"No。YetIknowthatweshallnotlovelikethisalways。 Nothingcanensurethecontinuanceoflove。Itwillevaporatelikeaspirit,andsoIfeelfulloffears。\" \"Youneednot。\" \"Ah,youdon’tknow。YouhaveseenmorethanI,andhavebeenintocitiesandamongpeoplethatIhaveonlyheardof,andhavelivedmoreyearsthanI;butyetIamolderatthisthanyou。Ilovedanothermanonce,andnowIloveyou。\" \"InGod’smercydon’ttalkso,Eustacia!\" \"ButIdonotthinkIshallbetheonewhoweariesfirst。 Itwill,Ifear,endinthisway:yourmotherwillfindoutthatyoumeetme,andshewillinfluenceyouagainstme!\" \"Thatcanneverbe。Sheknowsofthesemeetingsalready。\" \"Andshespeaksagainstme?\" \"Iwillnotsay。\" \"There,goaway!Obeyher。Ishallruinyou。Itisfoolishofyoutomeetmelikethis。Kissme,andgoawayforever。 Forever——doyouhear?——forever!\" \"NotI。\" \"Itisyouronlychance。Manyaman’slovehasbeenacursetohim。\" \"Youaredesperate,fulloffancies,andwilful; andyoumisunderstand。Ihaveanadditionalreasonforseeingyoutonightbesidesloveofyou。Forthough,unlikeyou,Ifeelouraffectionmaybeeternal。 Ifeelwithyouinthis,thatourpresentmodeofexistencecannotlast。\" \"Oh!’tisyourmother。Yes,that’sit!Iknewit。\" \"Nevermindwhatitis。Believethis,Icannotletmyselfloseyou。Imusthaveyoualwayswithme。 ThisveryeveningIdonotliketoletyougo。 Thereisonlyonecureforthisanxiety,dearest——youmustbemywife。\" Shestarted——thenendeavouredtosaycalmly,\"Cynicssaythatcurestheanxietybycuringthelove。\" \"Butyoumustanswerme。ShallIclaimyousomeday——I don’tmeanatonce?\" \"Imustthink,\"Eustaciamurmured。\"AtpresentspeakofParistome。Isthereanyplacelikeitonearth?\" \"Itisverybeautiful。Butwillyoubemine?\" \"Iwillbenobodyelse’sintheworld——doesthatsatisfyyou?\" \"Yes,forthepresent。\" \"NowtellmeoftheTuileries,andtheLouvre,\" shecontinuedevasively。 \"IhatetalkingofParis!Well,IrememberonesunnyroomintheLouvrewhichwouldmakeafittingplaceforyoutolivein——theGaleried’Apollon。Itswindowsaremainlyeast; andintheearlymorning,whenthesunisbright,thewholeapartmentisinaperfectblazeofsplendour。 Theraysbristleanddartfromtheencrustationsofgildingtothemagnificentinlaidcoffers,fromthecofferstothegoldandsilverplate,fromtheplatetothejewelsandpreciousstones,fromthesetotheenamels,tillthereisaperfectnetworkoflightwhichquitedazzlestheeye。 Butnow,aboutourmarriage————\" \"AndVersailles——theKing’sGalleryissomesuchgorgeousroom,isitnot?\" \"Yes。Butwhat’stheuseoftalkingofgorgeousrooms? Bytheway,theLittleTrianonwouldsuitusbeautifullytolivein,andyoumightwalkinthegardensinthemoonlightandthinkyouwereinsomeEnglishshrubbery; ItislaidoutinEnglishfashion。\" \"Ishouldhatetothinkthat!\" \"ThenyoucouldkeeptothelawninfrontoftheGrandPalace。 Allaboutthereyouwoulddoubtlessfeelinaworldofhistoricalromance。\" Hewenton,sinceitwasallnewtoher,anddescribedFontainebleau,St。Cloud,theBois,andmanyotherfamiliarhauntsoftheParisians;tillshesaid—— \"Whenusedyoutogototheseplaces?\" \"OnSundays。\" \"Ah,yes。IdislikeEnglishSundays。HowIshouldchimeinwiththeirmannersoverthere!DearClym,you’llgobackagain?\" Clymshookhishead,andlookedattheeclipse。 \"Ifyou’llgobackagainI’ll——besomething,\" shesaidtenderly,puttingherheadnearhisbreast。 \"Ifyou’llagreeI’llgivemypromise,withoutmakingyouwaitaminutelonger。\" \"Howextraordinarythatyouandmymothershouldbeofonemindaboutthis!\"saidYeobright。\"Ihavevowednottogoback,Eustacia。ItisnottheplaceIdislike; itistheoccupation。\" \"Butyoucangoinsomeothercapacity。\" \"No。Besides,itwouldinterferewithmyscheme。 Don’tpressthat,Eustacia。Willyoumarryme?\" \"Icannottell。\" \"Now——nevermindParis;itisnobetterthanotherspots。 Promise,sweet!\" \"Youwillneveradheretoyoureducationplan,Iamquitesure;andthenitwillbeallrightforme; andsoIpromisetobeyoursforeverandever。\" Clymbroughtherfacetowardshisbyagentlepressureofthehand,andkissedher。 \"Ah!butyoudon’tknowwhatyouhavegotinme,\"shesaid。 \"SometimesIthinkthereisnotthatinEustaciaVyewhichwillmakeagoodhomespunwife。Well,letitgo——seehowourtimeisslipping,slipping,slipping!\"Shepointedtowardsthehalf—eclipsedmoon。 \"Youaretoomournful。\" \"No。OnlyIdreadtothinkofanythingbeyondthepresent。 Whatis,weknow。Wearetogethernow,anditisunknownhowlongweshallbeso;theunknownalwaysfillsmymindwithterriblepossibilities,evenwhenImayreasonablyexpectittobecheerful……Clym,theeclipsedmoonlightshinesuponyourfacewithastrangeforeigncolour,andshowsitsshapeasifitwerecutoutingold。 Thatmeansthatyoushouldbedoingbetterthingsthanthis。\" \"Youareambitious,Eustacia——no,notexactlyambitious,luxurious。Ioughttobeofthesamevein,tomakeyouhappy,Isuppose。Andyet,farfromthat,Icouldliveanddieinahermitagehere,withproperworktodo。\" Therewasthatinhistonewhichimplieddistrustofhispositionasasolicitouslover,adoubtifhewereactingfairlytowardsonewhosetastestouchedhisownonlyatrareandinfrequentpoints。Shesawhismeaning,andwhispered,inalow,fullaccentofeagerassurance\"Don’tmistakeme,Clym——thoughIshouldlikeParis,Iloveyouforyourselfalone。TobeyourwifeandliveinPariswouldbeheaventome;butIwouldratherlivewithyouinahermitageherethannotbeyoursatall。 Itisgaintomeeitherway,andverygreatgain。 There’smytoocandidconfession。\" \"Spokenlikeawoman。AndnowImustsoonleaveyou。 I’llwalkwithyoutowardsyourhouse。\" \"Butmustyougohomeyet?\"sheasked。\"Yes,thesandhasnearlyslippedaway,Isee,andtheeclipseiscreepingonmoreandmore。Don’tgoyet!Stoptillthehourhasrunitselfout;thenIwillnotpressyouanymore。 Youwillgohomeandsleepwell;Ikeepsighinginmysleep!Doyoueverdreamofme?\" \"Icannotrecollectacleardreamofyou。\" \"Iseeyourfaceineverysceneofmydreams,andhearyourvoiceineverysound。IwishIdidnot。ItistoomuchwhatIfeel。Theysaysuchloveneverlasts。 Butitmust!Andyetonce,Iremember,IsawanofficeroftheHussarsridedownthestreetatBudmouth,andthoughhewasatotalstrangerandneverspoketome,IlovedhimtillIthoughtIshouldreallydieoflove—— butIdidn’tdie,andatlastIleftoffcaringforhim。 HowterribleitwouldbeifatimeshouldcomewhenIcouldnotloveyou,myClym!\" \"Pleasedon’tsaysuchrecklessthings。Whenweseesuchatimeathandwewillsay,’Ihaveoutlivedmyfaithandpurpose,’anddie。There,thehourhasexpired——nowletuswalkon。\" HandinhandtheywentalongthepathtowardsMistover。 Whentheywerenearthehousehesaid,\"Itistoolateformetoseeyourgrandfathertonight。Doyouthinkhewillobjecttoit?\" \"Iwillspeaktohim。Iamsoaccustomedtobemyownmistressthatitdidnotoccurtomethatweshouldhavetoaskhim。\" Thentheylingeringlyseparated,andClymdescendedtowardsBlooms—End。 AndashewalkedfurtherandfurtherfromthecharmedatmosphereofhisOlympiangirlhisfacegrewsadwithanewsortofsadness。Aperceptionofthedilemmainwhichhislovehadplacedhimcamebackinfullforce。 InspiteofEustacia’sapparentwillingnesstowaitthroughtheperiodofanunpromisingengagement,tillheshouldbeestablishedinhisnewpursuit,hecouldnotbutperceiveatmomentsthatshelovedhimratherasavisitantfromagayworldtowhichsherightlybelongedthanasamanwithapurposeopposedtothatrecentpastofhiswhichsointerestedher。Itmeantthat,thoughshemadenoconditionsastohisreturntotheFrenchcapital,thiswaswhatshesecretlylongedforintheeventofmarriage; anditrobbedhimofmanyanotherwisepleasanthour。 Alongwiththatcamethewideningbreachbetweenhimselfandhismother。Wheneveranylittleoccurrencehadbroughtintomoreprominencethanusualthedisappointmentthathewascausingherithadsenthimonloneandmoodywalks; orhewaskeptawakeagreatpartofthenightbytheturmoilofspiritwhichsucharecognitioncreated。 IfMrs。YeobrightcouldonlyhavebeenledtoseewhatasoundandworthypurposethispurposeofhiswasandhowlittleitwasbeingaffectedbyhisdevotionstoEustacia,howdifferentlywouldsheregardhim! Thusashissightgrewaccustomedtothefirstblindinghalokindledabouthimbyloveandbeauty,Yeobrightbegantoperceivewhatastraithewasin。 SometimeshewishedthathehadneverknownEustacia,immediatelytoretractthewishasbrutal。Threeantagonisticgrowthshadtobekeptalive:hismother’strustinhim,hisplanforbecomingateacher,andEustacia’shappiness。 Hisfervidnaturecouldnotaffordtorelinquishoneofthese,thoughtwoofthethreewereasmanyashecouldhopetopreserve。ThoughhislovewasaschasteasthatofPetrarchforhisLaura,ithadmadefettersofwhatpreviouslywasonlyadifficulty。Apositionwhichwasnottoosimplewhenhestoodwhole—heartedhadbecomeindescribablycomplicatedbytheadditionofEustacia。 Justwhenhismotherwasbeginningtotolerateoneschemehehadintroducedanotherstillbittererthanthefirst,andthecombinationwasmorethanshecouldbear。 5—SharpWordsAreSpoken,andaCrisisEnsuesWhenYeobrightwasnotwithEustaciahewassittingslavishlyoverhisbooks;whenhewasnotreadinghewasmeetingher。 Thesemeetingswerecarriedonwiththegreatestsecrecy。 OneafternoonhismothercamehomefromamorningvisittoThomasin。Hecouldseefromadisturbanceinthelinesofherfacethatsomethinghadhappened。 \"Ihavebeentoldanincomprehensiblething,\" shesaidmournfully。\"ThecaptainhasletoutattheWomanthatyouandEustaciaVyeareengagedtobemarried。\" \"Weare,\"saidYeobright。\"Butitmaynotbeyetforaverylongtime。\" \"IshouldhardlythinkitWOULDbeyetforaverylongtime!YouwilltakehertoParis,Isuppose?\" Shespokewithwearyhopelessness。 \"IamnotgoingbacktoParis。\" \"Whatwillyoudowithawife,then?\" \"KeepaschoolinBudmouth,asIhavetoldyou。\" \"That’sincredible!Theplaceisoverrunwithschoolmasters。 Youhavenospecialqualifications。Whatpossiblechanceisthereforsuchasyou?\" \"Thereisnochanceofgettingrich。Butwithmysystemofeducation,whichisasnewasitistrue,Ishalldoagreatdealofgoodtomyfellow—creatures。\" \"Dreams,dreams!Iftherehadbeenanysystemlefttobeinventedtheywouldhavefounditoutattheuniversitieslongbeforethistime。\" \"Never,Mother。Theycannotfinditout,becausetheirteachersdon’tcomeincontactwiththeclasswhichdemandssuchasystem——thatis,thosewhohavehadnopreliminarytraining。Myplanisoneforinstillinghighknowledgeintoemptymindswithoutfirstcrammingthemwithwhathastobeuncrammedagainbeforetruestudybegins。\" \"Imighthavebelievedyouifyouhadkeptyourselffreefromentanglements;butthiswoman——ifshehadbeenagoodgirlitwouldhavebeenbadenough;butbeing————\" \"Sheisagoodgirl。\" \"Soyouthink。ACorfubandmaster’sdaughter!Whathasherlifebeen?Hersurnameevenisnothertrueone。\" \"SheisCaptainVye’sgranddaughter,andherfathermerelytookhermother’sname。Andsheisaladybyinstinct。\" \"Theycallhim’captain,’butanybodyiscaptain。\" \"HewasintheRoyalNavy!\" \"Nodoubthehasbeentoseainsometuborother。 Whydoesn’thelookafterher?Noladywouldroveabouttheheathatallhoursofthedayandnightasshedoes。 Butthat’snotallofit。TherewassomethingqueerbetweenherandThomasin’shusbandatonetime——IamassureofitasthatIstandhere。\" \"Eustaciahastoldme。Hedidpayheralittleattentionayearago;butthere’snoharminthat。 Ilikeherallthebetter。\" \"Clym,\"saidhismotherwithfirmness,\"Ihavenoproofsagainsther,unfortunately。Butifshemakesyouagoodwife,therehasneverbeenabadone。\" \"Believeme,youarealmostexasperating,\" saidYeobrightvehemently。\"AndthisverydayIhadintendedtoarrangeameetingbetweenyou。Butyougivemenopeace;youtrytothwartmywishesineverything。\" \"Ihatethethoughtofanysonofminemarryingbadly!I wishIhadneverlivedtoseethis;itistoomuchforme——itismorethanIdreamt!\"Sheturnedtothewindow。 Herbreathwascomingquickly,andherlipswerepale,parted,andtrembling。 \"Mother,\"saidClym,\"whateveryoudo,youwillalwaysbedeartome——thatyouknow。ButonethingIhavearighttosay,whichis,thatatmyageIamoldenoughtoknowwhatisbestforme。\" Mrs。Yeobrightremainedforsometimesilentandshaken,asifshecouldsaynomore。Thenshereplied,\"Best?Isitbestforyoutoinjureyourprospectsforsuchavoluptuous,idlewomanasthat?Don’tyouseethatbytheveryfactofyourchoosingheryouprovethatyoudonotknowwhatisbestforyou?Yougiveupyourwholethought——yousetyourwholesoul——topleaseawoman。\" \"Ido。Andthatwomanisyou。\" \"Howcanyoutreatmesoflippantly!\"saidhismother,turningagaintohimwithatearfullook。