第19章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:9350更新时间:19/01/07 14:37:59
Shelookedanotherway,disconcerted,andwonderedhowlongthispurgatorywastolast。Afterlingeringafewsecondshepassedonagain。 Tocourttheirowndiscomfiturebyloveisacommoninstinctwithcertainperfervidwomen。Conflictingsensationsoflove,fear,andshamereducedEustaciatoastateoftheutmostuneasiness。Toescapewashergreatandimmediatedesire。Theothermummersappearedtobeinnohurrytoleave;andmurmuringtotheladwhosatnexttoherthatshepreferredwaitingforthemoutsidethehouse,shemovedtothedoorasimperceptiblyaspossible,openedit,andslippedout。 Thecalm,lonescenereassuredher。Shewentforwardtothepalingsandleantoverthem,lookingatthemoon。 Shehadstoodthusbutalittletimewhenthedooragainopened。 ExpectingtoseetheremainderofthebandEustaciaturned; butno——ClymYeobrightcameoutassoftlyasshehaddone,andclosedthedoorbehindhim。 Headvancedandstoodbesideher。\"Ihaveanoddopinion,\" hesaid,\"andshouldliketoaskyouaquestion。Areyouawoman——oramIwrong?\" \"Iamawoman。\" Hiseyeslingeredonherwithgreatinterest。\"Dogirlsoftenplayasmummersnow?Theyneverusedto。\" \"Theydon’tnow。\" \"Whydidyou?\" \"Togetexcitementandshakeoffdepression,\"shesaidinlowtones。 \"Whatdepressedyou?\" \"Life。\" \"That’sacauseofdepressionagoodmanyhavetoputupwith。\" \"Yes。\" Alongsilence。\"Anddoyoufindexcitement?\"askedClymatlast。 \"Atthismoment,perhaps。\" \"Thenyouarevexedatbeingdiscovered?\" \"Yes;thoughIthoughtImightbe。\" \"IwouldgladlyhaveaskedyoutoourpartyhadIknownyouwishedtocome。HaveIeverbeenacquaintedwithyouinmyyouth?\" \"Never。\" \"Won’tyoucomeinagain,andstayaslongasyoulike?\" \"No。Iwishnottobefurtherrecognized。\" \"Well,youaresafewithme。\"Afterremaininginthoughtaminuteheaddedgently,\"Iwillnotintrudeuponyoulonger。 Itisastrangewayofmeeting,andIwillnotaskwhyIfindacultivatedwomanplayingsuchapartasthis。\" Shedidnotvolunteerthereasonwhichheseemedtohopefor,andhewishedhergoodnight,goingthenceroundtothebackofthehouse,wherehewalkedupanddownbyhimselfforsometimebeforere—entering。 Eustacia,warmedwithaninnerfire,couldnotwaitforhercompanionsafterthis。Sheflungbacktheribbonsfromherface,openedthegate,andatoncestruckintotheheath。Shedidnothastenalong。Hergrandfatherwasinbedatthishour,forshesofrequentlywalkeduponthehillsonmoonlightnightsthathetooknonoticeofhercomingsandgoings,and,enjoyinghimselfinhisownway,lefthertodolikewise。Amoreimportantsubjectthanthatofgettingindoorsnowengrossedher。 Yeobright,ifhehadtheleastcuriosity,wouldinfalliblydiscoverhername。Whatthen?Shefirstfeltasortofexultationatthewayinwhichtheadventurehadterminated,eventhoughatmomentsbetweenherexultationsshewasabashedandblushful。Thenthisconsiderationrecurredtochillher:Whatwastheuseofherexploit?ShewasatpresentatotalstrangertotheYeobrightfamily。 Theunreasonablenimbusofromancewithwhichshehadencircledthatmanmightbehermisery。Howcouldsheallowherselftobecomesoinfatuatedwithastranger?AndtofillthecupofhersorrowtherewouldbeThomasin,livingdayafterdayininflammableproximitytohim; forshehadjustlearntthat,contrarytoherfirstbelief,hewasgoingtostayathomesomeconsiderabletime。 ShereachedthewicketatMistoverKnap,butbeforeopeningitsheturnedandfacedtheheathoncemore。 TheformofRainbarrowstoodabovethehills,andthemoonstoodaboveRainbarrow。Theairwaschargedwithsilenceandfrost。ThesceneremindedEustaciaofacircumstancewhichtillthatmomentshehadtotallyforgotten。 ShehadpromisedtomeetWildevebytheBarrowthisverynightateight,togiveafinalanswertohispleadingforanelopement。 Sheherselfhadfixedtheeveningandthehour。 Hehadprobablycometothespot,waitedthereinthecold,andbeengreatlydisappointed。 \"Well,somuchthebetter——itdidnothurthim,\" shesaidserenely。Wildevehadatpresenttheraylessoutlineofthesunthroughsmokedglass,andshecouldsaysuchthingsasthatwiththegreatestfacility。 Sheremaineddeeplypondering;andThomasin’swinningmannertowardshercousinaroseagainuponEustacia’smind。 \"OthatshehadbeenmarriedtoDamonbeforethis!\" shesaid。\"Andshewouldifithadn’tbeenforme!IfI hadonlyknown——ifIhadonlyknown!\" Eustaciaoncemoreliftedherdeepstormyeyestothemoonlight,and,sighingthattragicsighofherswhichwassomuchlikeashudder,enteredtheshadowoftheroof。Shethrewoffhertrappingsintheouthouse,rolledthemup,andwentindoorstoherchamber。 7—ACoalitionbetweenBeautyandOddnessTheoldcaptain’sprevailingindifferencetohisgranddaughter’smovementsleftherfreeasabirdtofollowherowncourses;butitsohappenedthathedidtakeuponhimselfthenextmorningtoaskherwhyshehadwalkedoutsolate。 \"Onlyinsearchofevents,Grandfather,\"shesaid,lookingoutofthewindowwiththatdrowsylatencyofmannerwhichdiscoveredsomuchforcebehinditwheneverthetriggerwaspressed。 \"Searchofevents——onewouldthinkyouwereoneofthebucksIknewatone—and—twenty。\" \"Itislonelyhere。\" \"Somuchthebetter。IfIwerelivinginatownmywholetimewouldbetakenupinlookingafteryou。 IfullyexpectedyouwouldhavebeenhomewhenIreturnedfromtheWoman。\" \"Iwon’tconcealwhatIdid。Iwantedanadventure,andIwentwiththemummers。IplayedthepartoftheTurkishKnight。\" \"No,never?Ha,ha!Goodgad!Ididn’texpectitofyou,Eustacia。\" \"Itwasmyfirstperformance,anditcertainlywillbemylast。NowIhavetoldyou——andrememberitisasecret。\" \"Ofcourse。But,Eustacia,youneverdid——ha!ha!Dammy,how’twouldhavepleasedmefortyyearsago!Butremember,nomoreofit,mygirl。Youmaywalkontheheathnightorday,asyouchoose,sothatyoudon’tbotherme; butnofiguringinbreechesagain。\" \"Youneedhavenofearforme,Grandpapa。\" Heretheconversationceased,Eustacia’smoraltrainingneverexceedinginseverityadialogueofthissort,which,ifiteverbecameprofitabletogoodworks,wouldbearesultnotdearattheprice。Butherthoughtssoonstrayedfarfromherownpersonality;and,fullofapassionateandindescribablesolicitudeforonetowhomshewasnotevenaname,shewentforthintotheamplitudeoftannedwildaroundher,restlessasAhasuerustheJew。 Shewasabouthalfamilefromherresidencewhenshebeheldasinisterrednessarisingfromaravinealittlewayinadvance——dullandluridlikeaflameinsunlightandsheguessedittosignifyDiggoryVenn。 WhenthefarmerswhohadwishedtobuyinanewstockofreddleduringthelastmonthhadinquiredwhereVennwastobefound,peoplereplied,\"OnEgdonHeath。\" Dayafterdaytheanswerwasthesame。Now,sinceEgdonwaspopulatedwithheath—croppersandfurze—cuttersratherthanwithsheepandshepherds,andthedownswheremostofthelatterweretobefoundlaysometothenorth,sometothewestofEgdon,hisreasonforcampingabouttherelikeIsraelinZinwasnotapparent。 Thepositionwascentralandoccasionallydesirable。 ButthesaleofreddlewasnotDiggory’sprimaryobjectinremainingontheheath,particularlyatsolateaperiodoftheyear,whenmosttravellersofhisclasshadgoneintowinterquarters。 Eustacialookedatthelonelyman。WildevehadtoldherattheirlastmeetingthatVennhadbeenthrustforwardbyMrs。YeobrightasonereadyandanxioustotakehisplaceasThomasin’sbetrothed。Hisfigurewasperfect,hisfaceyoungandwelloutlined,hiseyebright,hisintelligencekeen,andhispositiononewhichhecouldreadilybetterifhechose。ButinspiteofpossibilitiesitwasnotlikelythatThomasinwouldacceptthisIshmaelitishcreaturewhileshehadacousinlikeYeobrightatherelbow,andWildeveatthesametimenotabsolutelyindifferent。 EustaciawasnotlonginguessingthatpoorMrs。Yeobright,inheranxietyforherniece’sfuture,hadmentionedthislovertostimulatethezealoftheother。 EustaciawasonthesideoftheYeobrightsnow,andenteredintothespiritoftheaunt’sdesire。 \"Goodmorning,miss,\"saidthereddleman,takingoffhiscapofhareskin,andapparentlybearinghernoill— willfromrecollectionoftheirlastmeeting。 \"Goodmorning,reddleman,\"shesaid,hardlytroublingtoliftherheavilyshadedeyestohis。\"Ididnotknowyouweresonear。Isyourvanheretoo?\" Vennmovedhiselbowtowardsahollowinwhichadensebrakeofpurple—stemmedbrambleshadgrowntosuchvastdimensionsasalmosttoformadell。Brambles,thoughchurlishwhenhandled,arekindlyshelterinearlywinter,beingthelatestofthedeciduousbushestolosetheirleaves。 TheroofandchimneyofVenn’scaravanshowedbehindthetraceryandtanglesofthebrake。 \"Youremainnearthispart?\"sheaskedwithmoreinterest。 \"Yes,Ihavebusinesshere。\" \"Notaltogetherthesellingofreddle?\" \"Ithasnothingtodowiththat。\" \"IthastodowithMissYeobright?\" Herfaceseemedtoaskforanarmedpeace,andhethereforesaidfrankly,\"Yes,miss;itisonaccountofher。\" \"Onaccountofyourapproachingmarriagewithher?\" Vennflushedthroughhisstain。\"Don’tmakesportofme,MissVye,\"hesaid。 \"Itisn’ttrue?\" \"Certainlynot。\" ShewasthusconvincedthatthereddlemanwasamerepisallerinMrs。Yeobright’smind;one,moreover,whohadnotevenbeeninformedofhispromotiontothatlowlystanding。\"Itwasamerenotionofmine,\" shesaidquietly;andwasabouttopassbywithoutfurtherspeech,when,lookingroundtotheright,shesawapainfullywell—knownfigureserpentiningupwardsbyoneofthelittlepathswhichledtothetopwhereshestood。 Owingtothenecessarywindingsofhiscoursehisbackwasatpresenttowardsthem。Sheglancedquicklyround; toescapethatmantherewasonlyoneway。TurningtoVenn,shesaid,\"Wouldyouallowmetorestafewminutesinyourvan?Thebanksaredampforsittingon。\" \"Certainly,miss;I’llmakeaplaceforyou。\" ShefollowedhimbehindthedellofbramblestohiswheeleddwellingintowhichVennmounted,placingthethree—leggedstooljustwithinthedoor。 \"ThatisthebestIcandoforyou,\"hesaid,steppingdownandretiringtothepath,whereheresumedthesmokingofhispipeashewalkedupanddown。 Eustaciaboundedintothevehicleandsatonthestool,ensconcedfromviewonthesidetowardsthetrackway。 Soonsheheardthebrushingofotherfeetthanthereddleman’s,anotveryfriendly\"Goodday\"utteredbytwomeninpassingeachother,andthenthedwindlingofthefoot—fallofoneoftheminadirectiononwards。 Eustaciastretchedherneckforwardtillshecaughtaglimpseofarecedingbackandshoulders;andshefeltawretchedtwingeofmisery,sheknewnotwhy。 Itwasthesickeningfeelingwhich,ifthechangedhearthasanygenerosityatallinitscomposition,accompaniesthesuddensightofaonce—lovedonewhoisbelovednomore。 WhenEustaciadescendedtoproceedonherwaythereddlemancamenear。\"ThatwasMr。Wildevewhopassed,miss,\"hesaidslowly,andexpressedbyhisfacethatheexpectedhertofeelvexedathavingbeensittingunseen。 \"Yes,Isawhimcomingupthehill,\"repliedEustacia。 \"Whyshouldyoutellmethat?\"Itwasaboldquestion,consideringthereddleman’sknowledgeofherpastlove; butherundemonstrativemannerhadpowertorepresstheopinionsofthoseshetreatedasremotefromher。 \"Iamgladtohearthatyoucanaskit,\"saidthereddlemanbluntly。\"And,nowIthinkofit,itagreeswithwhatIsawlastnight。\" \"Ah——whatwasthat?\"Eustaciawishedtoleavehim,butwishedtoknow。 \"Mr。WildevestayedatRainbarrowalongtimewaitingforaladywhodidn’tcome。\" \"Youwaitedtoo,itseems?\" \"Yes,Ialwaysdo。Iwasgladtoseehimdisappointed。 Hewillbethereagaintonight。\" \"Tobeagaindisappointed。Thetruthis,reddleman,thatthatlady,sofarfromwishingtostandinthewayofThomasin’smarriagewithMr。Wildeve,wouldbeverygladtopromoteit。\" Vennfeltmuchastonishmentatthisavowal,thoughhedidnotshowitclearly;thatexhibitionmaygreetremarkswhichareoneremovefromexpectation,butitisusuallywithheldincomplicatedcasesoftworemovesandupwards。 \"Indeed,miss,\"hereplied。 \"HowdoyouknowthatMr。WildevewillcometoRainbarrowagaintonight?\"sheasked。 \"Iheardhimsaytohimselfthathewould。He’sinaregulartemper。\" Eustacialookedforamomentwhatshefelt,andshemurmured,liftingherdeepdarkeyesanxiouslytohis,\"IwishI knewwhattodo。Idon’twanttobeunciviltohim; butIdon’twishtoseehimagain;andIhavesomefewlittlethingstoreturntohim。\" \"Ifyouchoosetosend’embyme,miss,andanotetotellhimthatyouwishtosaynomoretohim,I’lltakeitforyouquiteprivately。Thatwouldbethemoststraightforwardwayoflettinghimknowyourmind。\" \"Verywell,\"saidEustacia。\"Cometowardsmyhouse,andIwillbringitouttoyou。\" Shewenton,andasthepathwasaninfinitelysmallpartingintheshaggylocksoftheheath,thereddlemanfollowedexactlyinhertrail。Shesawfromadistancethatthecaptainwasonthebanksweepingthehorizonwithhistelescope;andbiddingVenntowaitwherehestoodsheenteredthehousealone。 Intenminutesshereturnedwithaparcelandanote,andsaid,inplacingtheminhishand,\"Whyareyousoreadytotaketheseforme?\" \"Canyouaskthat?\" \"IsupposeyouthinktoserveThomasininsomewaybyit。 Areyouasanxiousasevertohelponhermarriage?\" Vennwasalittlemoved。\"Iwouldsoonerhavemarriedhermyself,\"hesaidinalowvoice。\"ButwhatIfeelisthatifshecannotbehappywithouthimIwilldomydutyinhelpinghertogethim,asamanought。\" Eustacialookedcuriouslyatthesingularmanwhospokethus。 Whatastrangesortoflove,tobeentirelyfreefromthatqualityofselfishnesswhichisfrequentlythechiefconstituentofthepassion,andsometimesitsonlyone!Thereddleman’sdisinterestednesswassowelldeservingofrespectthatitovershotrespectbybeingbarelycomprehended;andshealmostthoughtitabsurd。 \"Thenwearebothofonemindatlast,\"shesaid。 \"Yes,\"repliedVenngloomily。\"Butifyouwouldtellme,miss,whyyoutakesuchaninterestinher,Ishouldbeeasier。Itissosuddenandstrange。\" Eustaciaappearedataloss。\"Icannottellyouthat,reddleman,\"shesaidcoldly。 Vennsaidnomore。Hepocketedtheletter,and,bowingtoEustacia,wentaway。 RainbarrowhadagainbecomeblendedwithnightwhenWildeveascendedthelongacclivityatitsbase。 Onhisreachingthetopashapegrewupfromtheearthimmediatelybehindhim。ItwasthatofEustacia’semissary。 HeslappedWildeveontheshoulder。Thefeverishyounginn—keeperandex—engineerstartedlikeSatanatthetouchofIthuriel’sspear。 \"Themeetingisalwaysateighto’clock,atthisplace,\" saidVenn,\"andhereweare——wethree。\" \"Wethree?\"saidWildeve,lookingquicklyround。 \"Yes;you,andI,andshe。Thisisshe。\"Hehelduptheletterandparcel。 Wildevetookthemwonderingly。\"Idon’tquiteseewhatthismeans,\"hesaid。\"Howdoyoucomehere? Theremustbesomemistake。\" \"Itwillbeclearedfromyourmindwhenyouhavereadtheletter。Lanternsforone。\"Thereddlemanstruckalight,kindledaninchoftallow—candlewhichhehadbrought,andsheltereditwithhiscap。 \"Whoareyou?\"saidWildeve,discerningbythecandle— lightanobscurerubicundityofpersoninhiscompanion。 \"YouarethereddlemanIsawonthehillthismorning——why,youarethemanwho————\" \"Pleasereadtheletter。\" \"IfyouhadcomefromtheotheroneIshouldn’thavebeensurprised,\"murmuredWildeveasheopenedtheletterandread。Hisfacegrewserious。 TOMR。WILDEVE。 AftersomethoughtIhavedecidedonceandforallthatwemustholdnofurthercommunication。ThemoreIconsiderthematterthemoreIamconvincedthattheremustbeanendtoouracquaintance。Hadyoubeenuniformlyfaithfultomethroughoutthesetwoyearsyoumightnowhavesomegroundforaccusingmeofheartlessness; butifyoucalmlyconsiderwhatIboreduringtheperiodofyourdesertion,andhowIpassivelyputupwithyourcourtshipofanotherwithoutonceinterfering,youwill,Ithink,ownthatIhavearighttoconsultmyownfeelingswhenyoucomebacktomeagain。Thatthesearenotwhattheyweretowardsyoumay,perhaps,beafaultinme,butitisonewhichyoucanscarcelyreproachmeforwhenyourememberhowyouleftmeforThomasin。 Thelittlearticlesyougavemeintheearlypartofourfriendshiparereturnedbythebearerofthisletter。 TheyshouldrightlyhavebeensentbackwhenIfirstheardofyourengagementtoher。 EUSTACIA。 BythetimethatWildevereachedhernametheblanknesswithwhichhehadreadthefirsthalfoftheletterintensifiedtomortification。\"Iammadeagreatfoolof,onewayandanother,\"hesaidpettishly。\"Doyouknowwhatisinthisletter?\" Thereddlemanhummedatune。 \"Can’tyouanswerme?\"askedWildevewarmly。 \"Ru—um—tum—tum,\"sangthereddleman。 WildevestoodlookingonthegroundbesideVenn’sfeet,tillheallowedhiseyestotravelupwardsoverDiggory’sform,asilluminatedbythecandle,tohisheadandface。 \"Ha—ha!Well,IsupposeIdeserveit,consideringhowIhaveplayedwiththemboth,\"hesaidatlast,asmuchtohimselfastoVenn。\"ButofalltheoddthingsthateverIknew,theoddestisthatyoushouldsoruncountertoyourowninterestsastobringthistome。\" \"Myinterests?\" \"Certainly。’TwasyourinterestnottodoanythingwhichwouldsendmecourtingThomasinagain,nowshehasacceptedyou——orsomethinglikeit。Mrs。Yeobrightsaysyouaretomarryher。’Tisn’ttrue,then?\" \"GoodLord!Iheardofthisbefore,butdidn’tbelieveit。 Whendidshesayso?\" Wildevebeganhummingasthereddlemanhaddone。 \"Idon’tbelieveitnow,\"criedVenn。 \"Ru—um—tum—tum,\"sangWildeve。 \"OLord——howwecanimitate!\"saidVenncontemptuously。 \"I’llhavethisout。I’llgostraighttoher。\" Diggorywithdrewwithanemphaticstep,Wildeve’seyepassingoverhisforminwitheringderision,asifhewerenomorethanaheath—cropper。Whenthereddleman’sfigurecouldnolongerbeseen,Wildevehimselfdescendedandplungedintotheraylesshollowofthevale。 Tolosethetwowomen——hewhohadbeenthewell—belovedofboth——wastooironicalanissuetobeendured。 HecouldonlydecentlysavehimselfbyThomasin; andoncehebecameherhusband,Eustacia’srepentance,hethought,wouldsetinforalongandbitterterm。 ItwasnowonderthatWildeve,ignorantofthenewmanatthebackofthescene,shouldhavesupposedEustaciatobeplayingapart。Tobelievethattheletterwasnottheresultofsomemomentarypique,toinferthatshereallygavehimuptoThomasin,wouldhaverequiredpreviousknowledgeofhertransfigurationbythatman’sinfluence。 Whowastoknowthatshehadgrowngenerousinthegreedinessofanewpassion,thatincovetingonecousinshewasdealingliberallywithanother,thatinhereagernesstoappropriateshegaveway? Fullofthisresolvetomarryinhaste,andwringtheheartoftheproudgirl,Wildevewenthisway。 MeanwhileDiggoryVennhadreturnedtohisvan,wherehestoodlookingthoughtfullyintothestove。 Anewvistawasopeneduptohim。But,howeverpromisingMrs。Yeobright’sviewsofhimmightbeasacandidateforherniece’shand,oneconditionwasindispensabletothefavourofThomasinherself,andthatwasarenunciationofhispresentwildmodeoflife。Inthishesawlittledifficulty。 HecouldnotaffordtowaittillthenextdaybeforeseeingThomasinanddetailinghisplan。Hespeedilyplungedhimselfintotoiletoperations,pulledasuitofclothclothesfromabox,andinabouttwentyminutesstoodbeforethevan—lanternasareddlemaninnothingbuthisface,thevermilionshadesofwhichwerenottoberemovedinaday。Closingthedoorandfasteningitwithapadlock,VennsetofftowardsBlooms—End。 Hehadreachedthewhitepalingsandlaidhishanduponthegatewhenthedoorofthehouseopened,andquicklyclosedagain。Afemaleformhadglidedin。 Atthesametimeaman,whohadseeminglybeenstandingwiththewomanintheporch,cameforwardfromthehousetillhewasfacetofacewithVenn。ItwasWildeveagain。 \"Manalive,you’vebeenquickatit,\"saidDiggorysarcastically。 \"Andyouslow,asyouwillfind,\"saidWildeve。 \"And,\"loweringhisvoice,\"youmayaswellgobackagainnow。I’veclaimedher,andgother。 Goodnight,reddleman!\"ThereuponWildevewalkedaway。 Venn’sheartsankwithinhim,thoughithadnotrisenundulyhigh。Hestoodleaningoverthepalingsinanindecisivemoodfornearlyaquarterofanhour。 Thenhewentupthegardenpath,knocked,andaskedforMrs。Yeobright。 Insteadofrequestinghimtoentershecametotheporch。 Adiscoursewascarriedonbetweentheminlowmeasuredtonesforthespaceoftenminutesormore。AttheendofthetimeMrs。Yeobrightwentin,andVennsadlyretracedhisstepsintotheheath。Whenhehadagainregainedhisvanhelitthelantern,andwithanapatheticfaceatoncebegantopulloffhisbestclothes,tillinthecourseofafewminuteshereappearedastheconfirmedandirretrievablereddlemanthathehadseemedbefore。 8—FirmnessIsDiscoveredinaGentleHeartOnthateveningtheinteriorofBlooms—End,thoughcosyandcomfortable,hadbeenrathersilent。ClymYeobrightwasnotathome。SincetheChristmaspartyhehadgoneonafewdays’visittoafriendabouttenmilesoff。 TheshadowyformseenbyVenntopartfromWildeveintheporch,andquicklywithdrawintothehouse,wasThomasin’s。Onenteringshethrewdownacloakwhichhadbeencarelesslywrappedroundher,andcameforwardtothelight,whereMrs。Yeobrightsatatherwork—table,drawnupwithinthesettle,sothatpartofitprojectedintothechimney—corner。