HisprogresswhenactuallywalkingwasmorerapidthanMrs。Yeobright’s;butshewasenabledtokeepatanequabledistancefromhimbyhishabitofstoppingwheneverhecametoabrakeofbrambles,wherehepausedawhile。
Oncominginherturntoeachofthesespotsshefoundhalfadozenlonglimpbrambleswhichhehadcutfromthebushduringhishaltandlaidoutstraightbesidethepath。
Theywereevidentlyintendedforfurze—faggotbondswhichhemeanttocollectonhisreturn。
Thesilentbeingwhothusoccupiedhimselfseemedtobeofnomoreaccountinlifethananinsect。
Heappearedasamereparasiteoftheheath,frettingitssurfaceinhisdailylabourasamothfretsagarment,entirelyengrossedwithitsproducts,havingnoknowledgeofanythingintheworldbutfern,furze,heath,lichens,andmoss。
Thefurze—cutterwassoabsorbedinthebusinessofhisjourneythatheneverturnedhishead;andhisleather—
leggedandgauntletedformatlengthbecametoherasnothingmorethanamovinghandposttoshowhertheway。
Suddenlyshewasattractedtohisindividualitybyobservingpeculiaritiesinhiswalk。Itwasagaitshehadseensomewherebefore;andthegaitrevealedthemantoher,asthegaitofAhimaazinthedistantplainmadehimknowntothewatchmanoftheking。\"Hiswalkisexactlyasmyhusband’susedtobe,\"shesaid;andthenthethoughtburstuponherthatthefurze—cutterwasherson。
Shewasscarcelyabletofamiliarizeherselfwiththisstrangereality。ShehadbeentoldthatClymwasinthehabitofcuttingfurze,butshehadsupposedthatheoccupiedhimselfwiththelabouronlyatoddtimes,bywayofusefulpastime;yetshenowbeheldhimasafurze—cutterandnothingmore——wearingtheregulationdressofthecraft,andthinkingtheregulationthoughts,tojudgebyhismotions。PlanningadozenhastyschemesforatoncepreservinghimandEustaciafromthismodeoflife,shethrobbinglyfollowedtheway,andsawhimenterhisowndoor。
AtonesideofClym’shousewasaknoll,andonthetopoftheknollaclumpoffirtreessohighlythrustupintotheskythattheirfoliagefromadistanceappearedasablackspotintheairabovethecrownofthehill。OnreachingthisplaceMrs。Yeobrightfeltdistressinglyagitated,weary,andunwell。Sheascended,andsatdownundertheirshadetorecoverherself,andtoconsiderhowbesttobreakthegroundwithEustacia,soasnottoirritateawomanunderneathwhoseapparentindolencelurkedpassionsevenstrongerandmoreactivethanherown。
Thetreesbeneathwhichshesatweresingularlybattered,rude,andwild,andforafewminutesMrs。Yeobrightdismissedthoughtsofherownstorm—brokenandexhaustedstatetocontemplatetheirs。Notaboughintheninetreeswhichcomposedthegroupbutwassplintered,lopped,anddistortedbythefierceweatherthatthereheldthematitsmercywheneveritprevailed。Somewereblastedandsplitasifbylightning,blackstainsasfromfiremarkingtheirsides,whilethegroundattheirfeetwasstrewnwithdeadfir—needlesandheapsofconesblowndowninthegalesofpastyears。TheplacewascalledtheDevil’sBellows,anditwasonlynecessarytocomethereonaMarchorNovembernighttodiscovertheforciblereasonsforthatname。Onthepresentheatedafternoon,whennoperceptiblewindwasblowing,thetreeskeptupaperpetualmoanwhichonecouldhardlybelievetobecausedbytheair。
Hereshesatfortwentyminutesormoreereshecouldsummonresolutiontogodowntothedoor,hercouragebeingloweredtozerobyherphysicallassitude。
Toanyotherpersonthanamotheritmighthaveseemedalittlehumiliatingthatshe,theelderofthetwowomen,shouldbethefirsttomakeadvances。ButMrs。Yeobrighthadwellconsideredallthat,andsheonlythoughthowbesttomakehervisitappeartoEustacianotabjectbutwise。
Fromherelevatedpositiontheexhaustedwomancouldperceivetheroofofthehousebelow,andthegardenandthewholeenclosureofthelittledomicile。Andnow,atthemomentofrising,shesawasecondmanapproachingthegate。Hismannerwaspeculiar,hesitating,andnotthatofapersoncomeonbusinessorbyinvitation。
Hesurveyedthehousewithinterest,andthenwalkedroundandscannedtheouterboundaryofthegarden,asonemighthavedonehaditbeenthebirthplaceofShakespeare,theprisonofMaryStuart,ortheChateauofHougomont。
Afterpassingroundandagainreachingthegatehewentin。
Mrs。Yeobrightwasvexedatthis,havingreckonedonfindinghersonandhiswifebythemselves;butamoment’sthoughtshowedherthatthepresenceofanacquaintancewouldtakeofftheawkwardnessofherfirstappearanceinthehouse,byconfiningthetalktogeneralmattersuntilshehadbeguntofeelcomfortablewiththem。
Shecamedownthehilltothegate,andlookedintothehotgarden。
Therelaythecatasleeponthebaregravelofthepath,asifbeds,rugs,andcarpetswereunendurable。Theleavesofthehollyhockshunglikehalf—closedumbrellas,thesapalmostsimmeredinthestems,andfoliagewithasmoothsurfaceglaredlikemetallicmirrors。Asmallappletree,ofthesortcalledRatheripe,grewjustinsidethegate,theonlyonewhichthroveinthegarden,byreasonofthelightnessofthesoil;andamongthefallenapplesonthegroundbeneathwerewaspsrollingdrunkwiththejuice,orcreepingaboutthelittlecavesineachfruitwhichtheyhadeatenoutbeforestupefiedbyitssweetness。
BythedoorlayClym’sfurze—hookandthelasthandfuloffaggot—bondsshehadseenhimgather;theyhadplainlybeenthrowndownthereasheenteredthehouse。
6—AConjuncture,andItsResultuponthePedestrianWildeve,ashasbeenstated,wasdeterminedtovisitEustaciaboldly,byday,andontheeasytermsofarelation,sincethereddlemanhadspiedoutandspoilthiswalkstoherbynight。Thespellthatshehadthrownoverhiminthemoonlightdancemadeitimpossibleforamanhavingnostrongpuritanicforcewithinhimtokeepawayaltogether。Hemerelycalculatedonmeetingherandherhusbandinanordinarymanner,chattingalittlewhile,andleavingagain。Everyoutwardsignwastobeconventional;
buttheonegreatfactwouldbetheretosatisfyhim——hewouldseeher。HedidnotevendesireClym’sabsence,sinceitwasjustpossiblethatEustaciamightresentanysituationwhichcouldcompromiseherdignityasawife,whateverthestateofherhearttowardshim。Womenwereoftenso。
Hewentaccordingly;andithappenedthatthetimeofhisarrivalcoincidedwiththatofMrs。Yeobright’spauseonthehillnearthehouse。Whenhehadlookedroundthepremisesinthemannershehadnoticedhewentandknockedatthedoor。
Therewasafewminutes’interval,andthenthekeyturnedinthelock,thedooropened,andEustaciaherselfconfrontedhim。
Nobodycouldhaveimaginedfromherbearingnowthatherestoodthewomanwhohadjoinedwithhimintheimpassioneddanceoftheweekbefore,unlessindeedhecouldhavepenetratedbelowthesurfaceandgaugedtherealdepthofthatstillstream。
\"Ihopeyoureachedhomesafely?\"saidWildeve。
\"Oyes,\"shecarelesslyreturned。
\"Andwereyounottiredthenextday?Ifearedyoumightbe。\"
\"Iwasrather。Youneednotspeaklow——nobodywillover—hearus。Mysmallservantisgoneonanerrandtothevillage。\"
\"ThenClymisnotathome?\"
\"Yes,heis。\"
\"O!Ithoughtthatperhapsyouhadlockedthedoorbecauseyouwerealoneandwereafraidoftramps。\"
\"No——hereismyhusband。\"
Theyhadbeenstandingintheentry。Closingthefrontdoorandturningthekey,asbefore,shethrewopenthedooroftheadjoiningroomandaskedhimtowalkin。
Wildeveentered,theroomappearingtobeempty;
butassoonashehadadvancedafewstepshestarted。
OnthehearthruglayClymasleep。Besidehimweretheleggings,thickboots,leathergloves,andsleeve—
waistcoatinwhichheworked。
\"Youmaygoin;youwillnotdisturbhim,\"shesaid,followingbehind。\"Myreasonforfasteningthedooristhathemaynotbeintrudeduponbyanychancecomerwhilelyinghere,ifIshouldbeinthegardenorupstairs。\"
\"Whyishesleepingthere?\"saidWildeveinlowtones。
\"Heisveryweary。Hewentoutathalf—pastfourthismorning,andhasbeenworkingeversince。Hecutsfurzebecauseitistheonlythinghecandothatdoesnotputanystrainuponhispooreyes。\"Thecontrastbetweenthesleeper’sappearanceandWildeve’satthismomentwaspainfullyapparenttoEustacia,Wildevebeingelegantlydressedinanewsummersuitandlighthat;
andshecontinued:\"Ah!youdon’tknowhowdifferentlyheappearedwhenIfirstmethim,thoughitissuchalittlewhileago。Hishandswereaswhiteandsoftasmine;
andlookatthemnow,howroughandbrowntheyare!
Hiscomplexionisbynaturefair,andthatrustylookhehasnow,allofacolourwithhisleatherclothes,iscausedbytheburningofthesun。\"
\"Whydoeshegooutatall!\"Wildevewhispered。
\"Becausehehatestobeidle;thoughwhatheearnsdoesn’taddmuchtoourexchequer。However,hesaysthatwhenpeoplearelivingupontheircapitaltheymustkeepdowncurrentexpensesbyturningapennywheretheycan。\"
\"Thefateshavenotbeenkindtoyou,EustaciaYeobright。\"
\"Ihavenothingtothankthemfor。\"
\"Norhashe——exceptfortheironegreatgifttohim。\"
\"What’sthat?\"
Wildevelookedherintheeyes。
Eustaciablushedforthefirsttimethatday。
\"Well,Iamaquestionablegift,\"shesaidquietly。
\"Ithoughtyoumeantthegiftofcontent——whichhehas,andIhavenot。\"
\"Icanunderstandcontentinsuchacase——thoughhowtheoutwardsituationcanattracthimpuzzlesme。\"
\"That’sbecauseyoudon’tknowhim。He’sanenthusiastaboutideas,andcarelessaboutoutwardthings。
HeoftenremindsmeoftheApostlePaul。\"
\"Iamgladtohearthathe’ssograndincharacterasthat。\"
\"Yes;buttheworstofitisthatthoughPaulwasexcellentasamanintheBiblehewouldhardlyhavedoneinreallife。\"
Theirvoiceshadinstinctivelydroppedlower,thoughatfirsttheyhadtakennoparticularcaretoavoidawakeningClym。
\"Well,ifthatmeansthatyourmarriageisamisfortunetoyou,youknowwhoistoblame,\"saidWildeve。
\"Themarriageisnomisfortuneinitself,\"sheretortedwithsomelittlepetulance。\"Itissimplytheaccidentwhichhashappenedsincethathasbeenthecauseofmyruin。
Ihavecertainlygotthistlesforfigsinaworldlysense,buthowcouldItellwhattimewouldbringforth?\"
\"Sometimes,Eustacia,Ithinkitisajudgmentuponyou。
Yourightlybelongedtome,youknow;andIhadnoideaoflosingyou。\"
\"No,itwasnotmyfault!Twocouldnotbelongtoyou;
andrememberthat,beforeIwasaware,youturnedasidetoanotherwoman。Itwascruellevityinyoutodothat。
Ineverdreamtofplayingsuchagameonmysidetillyoubeganitonyours。\"
\"Imeantnothingbyit,\"repliedWildeve。\"Itwasamereinterlude。Menaregiventothetrickofhavingapassingfancyforsomebodyelseinthemidstofapermanentlove,whichreassertsitselfafterwardsjustasbefore。
OnaccountofyourrebelliousmannertomeIwastemptedtogofurtherthanIshouldhavedone;andwhenyoustillwouldkeepplayingthesametantalizingpartIwentfurtherstill,andmarriedher。\"TurningandlookingagainattheunconsciousformofClym,hemurmured,\"Iamafraidthatyoudon’tvalueyourprize,Clym……HeoughttobehappierthanIinonethingatleast。
Hemayknowwhatitistocomedownintheworld,andtobeafflictedwithagreatpersonalcalamity;
butheprobablydoesn’tknowwhatitistolosethewomanheloved。\"
\"Heisnotungratefulforwinningher,\"whisperedEustacia,\"andinthatrespectheisagoodman。Manywomenwouldgofarforsuchahusband。ButdoIdesireunreasonablymuchinwantingwhatiscalledlife——
music,poetry,passion,war,andallthebeatingandpulsingthataregoingoninthegreatarteriesoftheworld?Thatwastheshapeofmyyouthfuldream;
butIdidnotgetit。YetIthoughtIsawthewaytoitinmyClym。\"
\"Andyouonlymarriedhimonthataccount?\"
\"Thereyoumistakeme。ImarriedhimbecauseIlovedhim,butIwon’tsaythatIdidn’tlovehimpartlybecauseI
thoughtIsawapromiseofthatlifeinhim。\"
\"Youhavedroppedintoyouroldmournfulkey。\"
\"ButIamnotgoingtobedepressed,\"shecriedperversely。
\"Ibegananewsystembygoingtothatdance,andImeantosticktoit。Clymcansingmerrily;whyshouldnotI?\"
Wildevelookedthoughtfullyather。\"Itiseasiertosayyouwillsingthantodoit;thoughifIcouldI
wouldencourageyouinyourattempt。Butaslifemeansnothingtome,withoutonethingwhichisnowimpossible,youwillforgivemefornotbeingabletoencourageyou。\"
\"Damon,whatisthematterwithyou,thatyouspeaklikethat?\"sheasked,raisingherdeepshadyeyestohis。
\"That’sathingIshallnevertellplainly;andperhapsifI
trytotellyouinriddlesyouwillnotcaretoguessthem。\"
Eustaciaremainedsilentforaminute,andshesaid,\"Weareinastrangerelationshiptoday。Youmincematterstoanuncommonnicety。Youmean,Damon,thatyoustillloveme。Well,thatgivesmesorrow,forIamnotmadesoentirelyhappybymymarriagethatIamwillingtospurnyoufortheinformation,asIoughttodo。
Butwehavesaidtoomuchaboutthis。Doyoumeantowaituntilmyhusbandisawake?\"
\"Ithoughttospeaktohim;butitisunnecessary,Eustacia,ifIoffendyoubynotforgettingyou,youarerighttomentionit;butdonottalkofspurning。\"
Shedidnotreply,andtheystoodlookingmusinglyatClymashesleptoninthatprofoundsleepwhichistheresultofphysicallabourcarriedonincircumstancesthatwakenonervousfear。
\"God,howIenvyhimthatsweetsleep!\"saidWildeve。
\"IhavenotsleptlikethatsinceIwasaboy——yearsandyearsago。\"
Whiletheythuswatchedhimaclickatthegatewasaudible,andaknockcametothedoor。Eustaciawenttoawindowandlookedout。
Hercountenancechanged。Firstshebecamecrimson,andthentheredsubsidedtillitevenpartiallyleftherlips。
\"ShallIgoaway?\"saidWildeve,standingup。
\"Ihardlyknow。\"
\"Whoisit?\"
\"Mrs。Yeobright。O,whatshesaidtomethatday!I
cannotunderstandthisvisit——whatdoesshemean?Andshesuspectsthatpasttimeofours。\"
\"Iaminyourhands。IfyouthinkshehadbetternotseemehereI’llgointothenextroom。\"
\"Well,yes——go。\"
Wildeveatoncewithdrew;butbeforehehadbeenhalfaminuteintheadjoiningapartmentEustaciacameafterhim。
\"No,\"shesaid,\"wewon’thaveanyofthis。Ifshecomesinshemustseeyou——andthinkifshelikesthere’ssomethingwrong!ButhowcanIopenthedoortoher,whenshedislikesme——wishestoseenotme,butherson?
Iwon’topenthedoor!\"
Mrs。Yeobrightknockedagainmoreloudly。
\"Herknockingwill,inalllikelihood,awakenhim,\"
continuedEustacia,\"andthenhewillletherinhimself。
Ah——listen。\"
TheycouldhearClymmovingintheotherroom,asifdisturbedbytheknocking,andheutteredtheword\"Mother。\"
\"Yes——heisawake——hewillgotothedoor,\"
shesaid,withabreathofrelief。\"Comethisway。
Ihaveabadnamewithher,andyoumustnotbeseen。
ThusIamobligedtoactbystealth,notbecauseIdoill,butbecauseothersarepleasedtosayso。\"
Bythistimeshehadtakenhimtothebackdoor,whichwasopen,disclosingapathleadingdownthegarden。
\"Now,oneword,Damon,\"sheremarkedashesteppedforth。
\"Thisisyourfirstvisithere;letitbeyourlast。
Wehavebeenhotloversinourtime,butitwon’tdonow。
Good—bye。\"
\"Good—bye,\"saidWildeve。\"IhavehadallIcamefor,andIamsatisfied。\"
\"Whatwasit?\"
\"Asightofyou。UponmyeternalhonourIcamefornomore。\"
Wildevekissedhishandtothebeautifulgirlheaddressed,andpassedintothegarden,whereshewatchedhimdownthepath,overthestileattheend,andintothefernsoutside,whichbrushedhishipsashewentalongtillhebecamelostintheirthickets。Whenhehadquitegonesheslowlyturned,anddirectedherattentiontotheinteriorofthehouse。
ButitwaspossiblethatherpresencemightnotbedesiredbyClymandhismotheratthismomentoftheirfirstmeeting,orthatitwouldbesuperfluous。
Atallevents,shewasinnohurrytomeetMrs。Yeobright。
SheresolvedtowaittillClymcametolookforher,andglidedbackintothegarden。Heresheidlyoccupiedherselfforafewminutes,tillfindingnonoticewastakenofhersheretracedherstepsthroughthehousetothefront,whereshelistenedforvoicesintheparlour。
Buthearingnonesheopenedthedoorandwentin。
ToherastonishmentClymlaypreciselyasWildeveandherselfhadlefthim,hissleepapparentlyunbroken。Hehadbeendisturbedandmadetodreamandmurmurbytheknocking,buthehadnotawakened。Eustaciahastenedtothedoor,andinspiteofherreluctancetoopenittoawomanwhohadspokenofhersobitterly,sheunfasteneditandlookedout。
Nobodywastobeseen。There,bythescraper,layClym’shookandthehandfuloffaggot—bondshehadbroughthome;
infrontofherweretheemptypath,thegardengatestandingslightlyajar;and,beyond,thegreatvalleyofpurpleheaththrillingsilentlyinthesun。Mrs。Yeobrightwasgone。
Clym’smotherwasatthistimefollowingapathwhichlayhiddenfromEustaciabyashoulderofthehill。Herwalkthitherfromthegardengatehadbeenhastyanddetermined,asofawomanwhowasnownolessanxioustoescapefromthescenethanshehadpreviouslybeentoenterit。
Hereyeswerefixedontheground;withinhertwosightsweregraven——thatofClym’shookandbramblesatthedoor,andthatofawoman’sfaceatawindow。Herlipstrembled,becomingunnaturallythinasshemurmured,\"’Tistoomuch——Clym,howcanhebeartodoit!Heisathome;
andyetheletshershutthedooragainstme!\"
Inheranxietytogetoutofthedirectviewofthehouseshehaddivergedfromthestraightestpathhomeward,andwhilelookingabouttoregainitshecameuponalittleboygatheringwhortleberriesinahollow。
TheboywasJohnnyNunsuch,whohadbeenEustacia’sstokeratthebonfire,and,withthetendencyofaminutebodytogravitatetowardsagreater,hebeganhoveringroundMrs。Yeobrightassoonassheappeared,andtrottedonbesideherwithoutperceptibleconsciousnessofhisact。
Mrs。Yeobrightspoketohimasoneinamesmericsleep。
\"’Tisalongwayhome,mychild,andweshallnotgettheretillevening。\"
\"Ishall,\"saidhersmallcompanion。\"Iamgoingtoplaymarnelsaforesupper,andwegotosupperatsixo’clock,becauseFathercomeshome。Doesyourfathercomehomeatsixtoo?\"
\"No,henevercomes;normysoneither,noranybody。\"
\"Whathavemadeyousodown?Haveyouseenaooser?\"
\"Ihaveseenwhat’sworse——awoman’sfacelookingatmethroughawindowpane。\"
\"Isthatabadsight?\"
\"Yes。Itisalwaysabadsighttoseeawomanlookingoutatawearywayfarerandnotlettingherin。\"
\"OncewhenIwenttoThroopeGreatPondtocatcheffetsIseedmyselflookingupatmyself,andIwasfrightenedandjumpedbacklikeanything。\"……\"Iftheyhadonlyshownsignsofmeetingmyadvanceshalfwayhowwellitmighthavebeendone!Butthereisnochance。Shutout!Shemusthavesethimagainstme。
Cantherebebeautifulbodieswithoutheartsinside?I
thinkso。Iwouldnothavedoneitagainstaneighbour’scatonsuchafierydayasthis!\"
\"Whatisityousay?\"
\"Neveragain——never!Noteveniftheysendforme!\"
\"Youmustbeaverycuriouswomantotalklikethat。\"
\"Ono,notatall,\"shesaid,returningtotheboy’sprattle。
\"MostpeoplewhogrowupandhavechildrentalkasIdo。
WhenyougrowupyourmotherwilltalkasIdotoo。\"
\"Ihopeshewon’t;because’tisverybadtotalknonsense。\"
\"Yes,child;itisnonsense,Isuppose。Areyounotnearlyspentwiththeheat?\"
\"Yes。Butnotsomuchasyoube。\"
\"Howdoyouknow?\"
\"Yourfaceiswhiteandwet,andyourheadishanging—down—like。\"
\"Ah,Iamexhaustedfrominside。\"
\"Whydoyou,everytimeyoutakeastep,golikethis?\"
Thechildinspeakinggavetohismotionthejerkandlimpofaninvalid。
\"BecauseIhaveaburdenwhichismorethanIcanbear。\"
Thelittleboyremainedsilentlypondering,andtheytotteredonsidebysideuntilmorethanaquarterofanhourhadelapsed,whenMrs。Yeobright,whoseweaknessplainlyincreased,saidtohim,\"Imustsitdownheretorest。\"
Whenshehadseatedherselfhelookedlonginherfaceandsaid,\"Howfunnyyoudrawyourbreath——likealambwhenyoudrivehimtillhe’snearlydonefor。
Doyoualwaysdrawyourbreathlikethat?\"
\"Notalways。\"Hervoicewasnowsolowastobescarcelyaboveawhisper。
\"Youwillgotosleepthere,Isuppose,won’tyou?Youhaveshutyoureyesalready。\"
\"No。Ishallnotsleepmuchtill——anotherday,andthenIhopetohavealong,longone——verylong。NowcanyoutellmeifRimsmoorPondisdrythissummer?\"
\"RimsmoorPondis,butOker’sPoolisn’t,becauseheisdeep,andisneverdry——’tisjustoverthere。\"
\"Isthewaterclear?\"
\"Yes,middling——exceptwheretheheath—cropperswalkintoit。\"
\"Then,takethis,andgoasfastasyoucan,anddipmeuptheclearestyoucanfind。Iamveryfaint。\"
Shedrewfromthesmallwillowreticulethatshecarriedinherhandanold—fashionedchinateacupwithoutahandle;itwasoneofhalfadozenofthesamesortlyinginthereticule,whichshehadpreservedeversinceherchildhood,andhadbroughtwithhertodayasasmallpresentforClymandEustacia。
Theboystartedonhiserrand,andsooncamebackwiththewater,suchasitwas。Mrs。Yeobrightattemptedtodrink,butitwassowarmastogivehernausea,andshethrewitaway。Afterwardsshestillremainedsitting,withhereyesclosed。
Theboywaited,playednearher,caughtseveralofthelittlebrownbutterflieswhichabounded,andthensaidashewaitedagain,\"Ilikegoingonbetterthanbidingstill。
Willyousoonstartagain?\"
\"Idon’tknow。\"
\"IwishImightgoonbymyself,\"heresumed,fearing,apparently,thathewastobepressedintosomeunpleasantservice。\"Doyouwantmeanymore,please?\"
Mrs。Yeobrightmadenoreply。
\"WhatshallItellMother?\"theboycontinued。