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类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:9322更新时间:19/01/07 14:37:59
HisprogresswhenactuallywalkingwasmorerapidthanMrs。Yeobright’s;butshewasenabledtokeepatanequabledistancefromhimbyhishabitofstoppingwheneverhecametoabrakeofbrambles,wherehepausedawhile。 Oncominginherturntoeachofthesespotsshefoundhalfadozenlonglimpbrambleswhichhehadcutfromthebushduringhishaltandlaidoutstraightbesidethepath。 Theywereevidentlyintendedforfurze—faggotbondswhichhemeanttocollectonhisreturn。 Thesilentbeingwhothusoccupiedhimselfseemedtobeofnomoreaccountinlifethananinsect。 Heappearedasamereparasiteoftheheath,frettingitssurfaceinhisdailylabourasamothfretsagarment,entirelyengrossedwithitsproducts,havingnoknowledgeofanythingintheworldbutfern,furze,heath,lichens,andmoss。 Thefurze—cutterwassoabsorbedinthebusinessofhisjourneythatheneverturnedhishead;andhisleather— leggedandgauntletedformatlengthbecametoherasnothingmorethanamovinghandposttoshowhertheway。 Suddenlyshewasattractedtohisindividualitybyobservingpeculiaritiesinhiswalk。Itwasagaitshehadseensomewherebefore;andthegaitrevealedthemantoher,asthegaitofAhimaazinthedistantplainmadehimknowntothewatchmanoftheking。\"Hiswalkisexactlyasmyhusband’susedtobe,\"shesaid;andthenthethoughtburstuponherthatthefurze—cutterwasherson。 Shewasscarcelyabletofamiliarizeherselfwiththisstrangereality。ShehadbeentoldthatClymwasinthehabitofcuttingfurze,butshehadsupposedthatheoccupiedhimselfwiththelabouronlyatoddtimes,bywayofusefulpastime;yetshenowbeheldhimasafurze—cutterandnothingmore——wearingtheregulationdressofthecraft,andthinkingtheregulationthoughts,tojudgebyhismotions。PlanningadozenhastyschemesforatoncepreservinghimandEustaciafromthismodeoflife,shethrobbinglyfollowedtheway,andsawhimenterhisowndoor。 AtonesideofClym’shousewasaknoll,andonthetopoftheknollaclumpoffirtreessohighlythrustupintotheskythattheirfoliagefromadistanceappearedasablackspotintheairabovethecrownofthehill。OnreachingthisplaceMrs。Yeobrightfeltdistressinglyagitated,weary,andunwell。Sheascended,andsatdownundertheirshadetorecoverherself,andtoconsiderhowbesttobreakthegroundwithEustacia,soasnottoirritateawomanunderneathwhoseapparentindolencelurkedpassionsevenstrongerandmoreactivethanherown。 Thetreesbeneathwhichshesatweresingularlybattered,rude,andwild,andforafewminutesMrs。Yeobrightdismissedthoughtsofherownstorm—brokenandexhaustedstatetocontemplatetheirs。Notaboughintheninetreeswhichcomposedthegroupbutwassplintered,lopped,anddistortedbythefierceweatherthatthereheldthematitsmercywheneveritprevailed。Somewereblastedandsplitasifbylightning,blackstainsasfromfiremarkingtheirsides,whilethegroundattheirfeetwasstrewnwithdeadfir—needlesandheapsofconesblowndowninthegalesofpastyears。TheplacewascalledtheDevil’sBellows,anditwasonlynecessarytocomethereonaMarchorNovembernighttodiscovertheforciblereasonsforthatname。Onthepresentheatedafternoon,whennoperceptiblewindwasblowing,thetreeskeptupaperpetualmoanwhichonecouldhardlybelievetobecausedbytheair。 Hereshesatfortwentyminutesormoreereshecouldsummonresolutiontogodowntothedoor,hercouragebeingloweredtozerobyherphysicallassitude。 Toanyotherpersonthanamotheritmighthaveseemedalittlehumiliatingthatshe,theelderofthetwowomen,shouldbethefirsttomakeadvances。ButMrs。Yeobrighthadwellconsideredallthat,andsheonlythoughthowbesttomakehervisitappeartoEustacianotabjectbutwise。 Fromherelevatedpositiontheexhaustedwomancouldperceivetheroofofthehousebelow,andthegardenandthewholeenclosureofthelittledomicile。Andnow,atthemomentofrising,shesawasecondmanapproachingthegate。Hismannerwaspeculiar,hesitating,andnotthatofapersoncomeonbusinessorbyinvitation。 Hesurveyedthehousewithinterest,andthenwalkedroundandscannedtheouterboundaryofthegarden,asonemighthavedonehaditbeenthebirthplaceofShakespeare,theprisonofMaryStuart,ortheChateauofHougomont。 Afterpassingroundandagainreachingthegatehewentin。 Mrs。Yeobrightwasvexedatthis,havingreckonedonfindinghersonandhiswifebythemselves;butamoment’sthoughtshowedherthatthepresenceofanacquaintancewouldtakeofftheawkwardnessofherfirstappearanceinthehouse,byconfiningthetalktogeneralmattersuntilshehadbeguntofeelcomfortablewiththem。 Shecamedownthehilltothegate,andlookedintothehotgarden。 Therelaythecatasleeponthebaregravelofthepath,asifbeds,rugs,andcarpetswereunendurable。Theleavesofthehollyhockshunglikehalf—closedumbrellas,thesapalmostsimmeredinthestems,andfoliagewithasmoothsurfaceglaredlikemetallicmirrors。Asmallappletree,ofthesortcalledRatheripe,grewjustinsidethegate,theonlyonewhichthroveinthegarden,byreasonofthelightnessofthesoil;andamongthefallenapplesonthegroundbeneathwerewaspsrollingdrunkwiththejuice,orcreepingaboutthelittlecavesineachfruitwhichtheyhadeatenoutbeforestupefiedbyitssweetness。 BythedoorlayClym’sfurze—hookandthelasthandfuloffaggot—bondsshehadseenhimgather;theyhadplainlybeenthrowndownthereasheenteredthehouse。 6—AConjuncture,andItsResultuponthePedestrianWildeve,ashasbeenstated,wasdeterminedtovisitEustaciaboldly,byday,andontheeasytermsofarelation,sincethereddlemanhadspiedoutandspoilthiswalkstoherbynight。Thespellthatshehadthrownoverhiminthemoonlightdancemadeitimpossibleforamanhavingnostrongpuritanicforcewithinhimtokeepawayaltogether。Hemerelycalculatedonmeetingherandherhusbandinanordinarymanner,chattingalittlewhile,andleavingagain。Everyoutwardsignwastobeconventional; buttheonegreatfactwouldbetheretosatisfyhim——hewouldseeher。HedidnotevendesireClym’sabsence,sinceitwasjustpossiblethatEustaciamightresentanysituationwhichcouldcompromiseherdignityasawife,whateverthestateofherhearttowardshim。Womenwereoftenso。 Hewentaccordingly;andithappenedthatthetimeofhisarrivalcoincidedwiththatofMrs。Yeobright’spauseonthehillnearthehouse。Whenhehadlookedroundthepremisesinthemannershehadnoticedhewentandknockedatthedoor。 Therewasafewminutes’interval,andthenthekeyturnedinthelock,thedooropened,andEustaciaherselfconfrontedhim。 Nobodycouldhaveimaginedfromherbearingnowthatherestoodthewomanwhohadjoinedwithhimintheimpassioneddanceoftheweekbefore,unlessindeedhecouldhavepenetratedbelowthesurfaceandgaugedtherealdepthofthatstillstream。 \"Ihopeyoureachedhomesafely?\"saidWildeve。 \"Oyes,\"shecarelesslyreturned。 \"Andwereyounottiredthenextday?Ifearedyoumightbe。\" \"Iwasrather。Youneednotspeaklow——nobodywillover—hearus。Mysmallservantisgoneonanerrandtothevillage。\" \"ThenClymisnotathome?\" \"Yes,heis。\" \"O!Ithoughtthatperhapsyouhadlockedthedoorbecauseyouwerealoneandwereafraidoftramps。\" \"No——hereismyhusband。\" Theyhadbeenstandingintheentry。Closingthefrontdoorandturningthekey,asbefore,shethrewopenthedooroftheadjoiningroomandaskedhimtowalkin。 Wildeveentered,theroomappearingtobeempty; butassoonashehadadvancedafewstepshestarted。 OnthehearthruglayClymasleep。Besidehimweretheleggings,thickboots,leathergloves,andsleeve— waistcoatinwhichheworked。 \"Youmaygoin;youwillnotdisturbhim,\"shesaid,followingbehind。\"Myreasonforfasteningthedooristhathemaynotbeintrudeduponbyanychancecomerwhilelyinghere,ifIshouldbeinthegardenorupstairs。\" \"Whyishesleepingthere?\"saidWildeveinlowtones。 \"Heisveryweary。Hewentoutathalf—pastfourthismorning,andhasbeenworkingeversince。Hecutsfurzebecauseitistheonlythinghecandothatdoesnotputanystrainuponhispooreyes。\"Thecontrastbetweenthesleeper’sappearanceandWildeve’satthismomentwaspainfullyapparenttoEustacia,Wildevebeingelegantlydressedinanewsummersuitandlighthat; andshecontinued:\"Ah!youdon’tknowhowdifferentlyheappearedwhenIfirstmethim,thoughitissuchalittlewhileago。Hishandswereaswhiteandsoftasmine; andlookatthemnow,howroughandbrowntheyare! Hiscomplexionisbynaturefair,andthatrustylookhehasnow,allofacolourwithhisleatherclothes,iscausedbytheburningofthesun。\" \"Whydoeshegooutatall!\"Wildevewhispered。 \"Becausehehatestobeidle;thoughwhatheearnsdoesn’taddmuchtoourexchequer。However,hesaysthatwhenpeoplearelivingupontheircapitaltheymustkeepdowncurrentexpensesbyturningapennywheretheycan。\" \"Thefateshavenotbeenkindtoyou,EustaciaYeobright。\" \"Ihavenothingtothankthemfor。\" \"Norhashe——exceptfortheironegreatgifttohim。\" \"What’sthat?\" Wildevelookedherintheeyes。 Eustaciablushedforthefirsttimethatday。 \"Well,Iamaquestionablegift,\"shesaidquietly。 \"Ithoughtyoumeantthegiftofcontent——whichhehas,andIhavenot。\" \"Icanunderstandcontentinsuchacase——thoughhowtheoutwardsituationcanattracthimpuzzlesme。\" \"That’sbecauseyoudon’tknowhim。He’sanenthusiastaboutideas,andcarelessaboutoutwardthings。 HeoftenremindsmeoftheApostlePaul。\" \"Iamgladtohearthathe’ssograndincharacterasthat。\" \"Yes;buttheworstofitisthatthoughPaulwasexcellentasamanintheBiblehewouldhardlyhavedoneinreallife。\" Theirvoiceshadinstinctivelydroppedlower,thoughatfirsttheyhadtakennoparticularcaretoavoidawakeningClym。 \"Well,ifthatmeansthatyourmarriageisamisfortunetoyou,youknowwhoistoblame,\"saidWildeve。 \"Themarriageisnomisfortuneinitself,\"sheretortedwithsomelittlepetulance。\"Itissimplytheaccidentwhichhashappenedsincethathasbeenthecauseofmyruin。 Ihavecertainlygotthistlesforfigsinaworldlysense,buthowcouldItellwhattimewouldbringforth?\" \"Sometimes,Eustacia,Ithinkitisajudgmentuponyou。 Yourightlybelongedtome,youknow;andIhadnoideaoflosingyou。\" \"No,itwasnotmyfault!Twocouldnotbelongtoyou; andrememberthat,beforeIwasaware,youturnedasidetoanotherwoman。Itwascruellevityinyoutodothat。 Ineverdreamtofplayingsuchagameonmysidetillyoubeganitonyours。\" \"Imeantnothingbyit,\"repliedWildeve。\"Itwasamereinterlude。Menaregiventothetrickofhavingapassingfancyforsomebodyelseinthemidstofapermanentlove,whichreassertsitselfafterwardsjustasbefore。 OnaccountofyourrebelliousmannertomeIwastemptedtogofurtherthanIshouldhavedone;andwhenyoustillwouldkeepplayingthesametantalizingpartIwentfurtherstill,andmarriedher。\"TurningandlookingagainattheunconsciousformofClym,hemurmured,\"Iamafraidthatyoudon’tvalueyourprize,Clym……HeoughttobehappierthanIinonethingatleast。 Hemayknowwhatitistocomedownintheworld,andtobeafflictedwithagreatpersonalcalamity; butheprobablydoesn’tknowwhatitistolosethewomanheloved。\" \"Heisnotungratefulforwinningher,\"whisperedEustacia,\"andinthatrespectheisagoodman。Manywomenwouldgofarforsuchahusband。ButdoIdesireunreasonablymuchinwantingwhatiscalledlife—— music,poetry,passion,war,andallthebeatingandpulsingthataregoingoninthegreatarteriesoftheworld?Thatwastheshapeofmyyouthfuldream; butIdidnotgetit。YetIthoughtIsawthewaytoitinmyClym。\" \"Andyouonlymarriedhimonthataccount?\" \"Thereyoumistakeme。ImarriedhimbecauseIlovedhim,butIwon’tsaythatIdidn’tlovehimpartlybecauseI thoughtIsawapromiseofthatlifeinhim。\" \"Youhavedroppedintoyouroldmournfulkey。\" \"ButIamnotgoingtobedepressed,\"shecriedperversely。 \"Ibegananewsystembygoingtothatdance,andImeantosticktoit。Clymcansingmerrily;whyshouldnotI?\" Wildevelookedthoughtfullyather。\"Itiseasiertosayyouwillsingthantodoit;thoughifIcouldI wouldencourageyouinyourattempt。Butaslifemeansnothingtome,withoutonethingwhichisnowimpossible,youwillforgivemefornotbeingabletoencourageyou。\" \"Damon,whatisthematterwithyou,thatyouspeaklikethat?\"sheasked,raisingherdeepshadyeyestohis。 \"That’sathingIshallnevertellplainly;andperhapsifI trytotellyouinriddlesyouwillnotcaretoguessthem。\" Eustaciaremainedsilentforaminute,andshesaid,\"Weareinastrangerelationshiptoday。Youmincematterstoanuncommonnicety。Youmean,Damon,thatyoustillloveme。Well,thatgivesmesorrow,forIamnotmadesoentirelyhappybymymarriagethatIamwillingtospurnyoufortheinformation,asIoughttodo。 Butwehavesaidtoomuchaboutthis。Doyoumeantowaituntilmyhusbandisawake?\" \"Ithoughttospeaktohim;butitisunnecessary,Eustacia,ifIoffendyoubynotforgettingyou,youarerighttomentionit;butdonottalkofspurning。\" Shedidnotreply,andtheystoodlookingmusinglyatClymashesleptoninthatprofoundsleepwhichistheresultofphysicallabourcarriedonincircumstancesthatwakenonervousfear。 \"God,howIenvyhimthatsweetsleep!\"saidWildeve。 \"IhavenotsleptlikethatsinceIwasaboy——yearsandyearsago。\" Whiletheythuswatchedhimaclickatthegatewasaudible,andaknockcametothedoor。Eustaciawenttoawindowandlookedout。 Hercountenancechanged。Firstshebecamecrimson,andthentheredsubsidedtillitevenpartiallyleftherlips。 \"ShallIgoaway?\"saidWildeve,standingup。 \"Ihardlyknow。\" \"Whoisit?\" \"Mrs。Yeobright。O,whatshesaidtomethatday!I cannotunderstandthisvisit——whatdoesshemean?Andshesuspectsthatpasttimeofours。\" \"Iaminyourhands。IfyouthinkshehadbetternotseemehereI’llgointothenextroom。\" \"Well,yes——go。\" Wildeveatoncewithdrew;butbeforehehadbeenhalfaminuteintheadjoiningapartmentEustaciacameafterhim。 \"No,\"shesaid,\"wewon’thaveanyofthis。Ifshecomesinshemustseeyou——andthinkifshelikesthere’ssomethingwrong!ButhowcanIopenthedoortoher,whenshedislikesme——wishestoseenotme,butherson? Iwon’topenthedoor!\" Mrs。Yeobrightknockedagainmoreloudly。 \"Herknockingwill,inalllikelihood,awakenhim,\" continuedEustacia,\"andthenhewillletherinhimself。 Ah——listen。\" TheycouldhearClymmovingintheotherroom,asifdisturbedbytheknocking,andheutteredtheword\"Mother。\" \"Yes——heisawake——hewillgotothedoor,\" shesaid,withabreathofrelief。\"Comethisway。 Ihaveabadnamewithher,andyoumustnotbeseen。 ThusIamobligedtoactbystealth,notbecauseIdoill,butbecauseothersarepleasedtosayso。\" Bythistimeshehadtakenhimtothebackdoor,whichwasopen,disclosingapathleadingdownthegarden。 \"Now,oneword,Damon,\"sheremarkedashesteppedforth。 \"Thisisyourfirstvisithere;letitbeyourlast。 Wehavebeenhotloversinourtime,butitwon’tdonow。 Good—bye。\" \"Good—bye,\"saidWildeve。\"IhavehadallIcamefor,andIamsatisfied。\" \"Whatwasit?\" \"Asightofyou。UponmyeternalhonourIcamefornomore。\" Wildevekissedhishandtothebeautifulgirlheaddressed,andpassedintothegarden,whereshewatchedhimdownthepath,overthestileattheend,andintothefernsoutside,whichbrushedhishipsashewentalongtillhebecamelostintheirthickets。Whenhehadquitegonesheslowlyturned,anddirectedherattentiontotheinteriorofthehouse。 ButitwaspossiblethatherpresencemightnotbedesiredbyClymandhismotheratthismomentoftheirfirstmeeting,orthatitwouldbesuperfluous。 Atallevents,shewasinnohurrytomeetMrs。Yeobright。 SheresolvedtowaittillClymcametolookforher,andglidedbackintothegarden。Heresheidlyoccupiedherselfforafewminutes,tillfindingnonoticewastakenofhersheretracedherstepsthroughthehousetothefront,whereshelistenedforvoicesintheparlour。 Buthearingnonesheopenedthedoorandwentin。 ToherastonishmentClymlaypreciselyasWildeveandherselfhadlefthim,hissleepapparentlyunbroken。Hehadbeendisturbedandmadetodreamandmurmurbytheknocking,buthehadnotawakened。Eustaciahastenedtothedoor,andinspiteofherreluctancetoopenittoawomanwhohadspokenofhersobitterly,sheunfasteneditandlookedout。 Nobodywastobeseen。There,bythescraper,layClym’shookandthehandfuloffaggot—bondshehadbroughthome; infrontofherweretheemptypath,thegardengatestandingslightlyajar;and,beyond,thegreatvalleyofpurpleheaththrillingsilentlyinthesun。Mrs。Yeobrightwasgone。 Clym’smotherwasatthistimefollowingapathwhichlayhiddenfromEustaciabyashoulderofthehill。Herwalkthitherfromthegardengatehadbeenhastyanddetermined,asofawomanwhowasnownolessanxioustoescapefromthescenethanshehadpreviouslybeentoenterit。 Hereyeswerefixedontheground;withinhertwosightsweregraven——thatofClym’shookandbramblesatthedoor,andthatofawoman’sfaceatawindow。Herlipstrembled,becomingunnaturallythinasshemurmured,\"’Tistoomuch——Clym,howcanhebeartodoit!Heisathome; andyetheletshershutthedooragainstme!\" Inheranxietytogetoutofthedirectviewofthehouseshehaddivergedfromthestraightestpathhomeward,andwhilelookingabouttoregainitshecameuponalittleboygatheringwhortleberriesinahollow。 TheboywasJohnnyNunsuch,whohadbeenEustacia’sstokeratthebonfire,and,withthetendencyofaminutebodytogravitatetowardsagreater,hebeganhoveringroundMrs。Yeobrightassoonassheappeared,andtrottedonbesideherwithoutperceptibleconsciousnessofhisact。 Mrs。Yeobrightspoketohimasoneinamesmericsleep。 \"’Tisalongwayhome,mychild,andweshallnotgettheretillevening。\" \"Ishall,\"saidhersmallcompanion。\"Iamgoingtoplaymarnelsaforesupper,andwegotosupperatsixo’clock,becauseFathercomeshome。Doesyourfathercomehomeatsixtoo?\" \"No,henevercomes;normysoneither,noranybody。\" \"Whathavemadeyousodown?Haveyouseenaooser?\" \"Ihaveseenwhat’sworse——awoman’sfacelookingatmethroughawindowpane。\" \"Isthatabadsight?\" \"Yes。Itisalwaysabadsighttoseeawomanlookingoutatawearywayfarerandnotlettingherin。\" \"OncewhenIwenttoThroopeGreatPondtocatcheffetsIseedmyselflookingupatmyself,andIwasfrightenedandjumpedbacklikeanything。\"……\"Iftheyhadonlyshownsignsofmeetingmyadvanceshalfwayhowwellitmighthavebeendone!Butthereisnochance。Shutout!Shemusthavesethimagainstme。 Cantherebebeautifulbodieswithoutheartsinside?I thinkso。Iwouldnothavedoneitagainstaneighbour’scatonsuchafierydayasthis!\" \"Whatisityousay?\" \"Neveragain——never!Noteveniftheysendforme!\" \"Youmustbeaverycuriouswomantotalklikethat。\" \"Ono,notatall,\"shesaid,returningtotheboy’sprattle。 \"MostpeoplewhogrowupandhavechildrentalkasIdo。 WhenyougrowupyourmotherwilltalkasIdotoo。\" \"Ihopeshewon’t;because’tisverybadtotalknonsense。\" \"Yes,child;itisnonsense,Isuppose。Areyounotnearlyspentwiththeheat?\" \"Yes。Butnotsomuchasyoube。\" \"Howdoyouknow?\" \"Yourfaceiswhiteandwet,andyourheadishanging—down—like。\" \"Ah,Iamexhaustedfrominside。\" \"Whydoyou,everytimeyoutakeastep,golikethis?\" Thechildinspeakinggavetohismotionthejerkandlimpofaninvalid。 \"BecauseIhaveaburdenwhichismorethanIcanbear。\" Thelittleboyremainedsilentlypondering,andtheytotteredonsidebysideuntilmorethanaquarterofanhourhadelapsed,whenMrs。Yeobright,whoseweaknessplainlyincreased,saidtohim,\"Imustsitdownheretorest。\" Whenshehadseatedherselfhelookedlonginherfaceandsaid,\"Howfunnyyoudrawyourbreath——likealambwhenyoudrivehimtillhe’snearlydonefor。 Doyoualwaysdrawyourbreathlikethat?\" \"Notalways。\"Hervoicewasnowsolowastobescarcelyaboveawhisper。 \"Youwillgotosleepthere,Isuppose,won’tyou?Youhaveshutyoureyesalready。\" \"No。Ishallnotsleepmuchtill——anotherday,andthenIhopetohavealong,longone——verylong。NowcanyoutellmeifRimsmoorPondisdrythissummer?\" \"RimsmoorPondis,butOker’sPoolisn’t,becauseheisdeep,andisneverdry——’tisjustoverthere。\" \"Isthewaterclear?\" \"Yes,middling——exceptwheretheheath—cropperswalkintoit。\" \"Then,takethis,andgoasfastasyoucan,anddipmeuptheclearestyoucanfind。Iamveryfaint。\" Shedrewfromthesmallwillowreticulethatshecarriedinherhandanold—fashionedchinateacupwithoutahandle;itwasoneofhalfadozenofthesamesortlyinginthereticule,whichshehadpreservedeversinceherchildhood,andhadbroughtwithhertodayasasmallpresentforClymandEustacia。 Theboystartedonhiserrand,andsooncamebackwiththewater,suchasitwas。Mrs。Yeobrightattemptedtodrink,butitwassowarmastogivehernausea,andshethrewitaway。Afterwardsshestillremainedsitting,withhereyesclosed。 Theboywaited,playednearher,caughtseveralofthelittlebrownbutterflieswhichabounded,andthensaidashewaitedagain,\"Ilikegoingonbetterthanbidingstill。 Willyousoonstartagain?\" \"Idon’tknow。\" \"IwishImightgoonbymyself,\"heresumed,fearing,apparently,thathewastobepressedintosomeunpleasantservice。\"Doyouwantmeanymore,please?\" Mrs。Yeobrightmadenoreply。 \"WhatshallItellMother?\"theboycontinued。