butreasonhavingnowsomewhatrecovereditselfhesankintotaciturnity。
Oneeveningwhenhewasthusstandinginthegarden,abstractedlyspuddingupaweedwithhisstick,abonyfigureturnedthecornerofthehouseandcameuptohim。
\"Christian,isn’tit?\"saidClym。\"Iamgladyouhavefoundmeout。IshallsoonwantyoutogotoBlooms—
Endandassistmeinputtingthehouseinorder。
IsupposeitisalllockedupasIleftit?\"
\"Yes,MisterClym。\"
\"Haveyoudugupthepotatoesandotherroots?\"
\"Yes,withoutadropo’rain,thankGod。ButIwascomingtotell’eeofsomethingelsewhichisquitedifferentfromwhatwehavelatelyhadinthefamily。
IamsentbytherichgentlemanattheWoman,thatweusedtocallthelandlord,totell’eethatMrs。Wildeveisdoingwellofagirl,whichwasbornpunctuallyatoneo’clockatnoon,orafewminutesmoreorless;
and’tissaidthatexpectingofthisincreaseiswhathavekept’emtheresincetheycameintotheirmoney。\"
\"Andsheisgettingonwell,yousay?\"
\"Yes,sir。OnlyMr。Wildeveistwankybecause’tisn’taboy——that’swhattheysayinthekitchen,butIwasnotsupposedtonoticethat。\"
\"Christian,nowlistentome。\"
\"Yes,sure,Mr。Yeobright。\"
\"Didyouseemymotherthedaybeforeshedied?\"
\"No,Ididnot。\"
Yeobright’sfaceexpresseddisappointment。
\"ButIzeedherthemorningofthesamedayshedied。\"
Clym’slooklightedup。\"That’snearerstilltomymeaning,\"
hesaid。
\"Yes,Iknow’twasthesameday;forshesaid,’Ibegoingtoseehim,Christian;soIshallnotwantanyvegetablesbroughtinfordinner。’\"
\"Seewhom?\"
\"Seeyou。Shewasgoingtoyourhouse,youunderstand。\"
YeobrightregardedChristianwithintensesurprise。
\"Whydidyounevermentionthis?\"hesaid。\"Areyousureitwasmyhouseshewascomingto?\"
\"Oyes。Ididn’tmentionitbecauseI’veneverzeedyoulately。Andasshedidn’tgetthereitwasallnought,andnothingtotell。\"
\"AndIhavebeenwonderingwhysheshouldhavewalkedintheheathonthathotday!Well,didshesaywhatshewascomingfor?Itisathing,Christian,Iamveryanxioustoknow。\"
\"Yes,MisterClym。Shedidn’tsayittome,thoughI
thinkshedidtoonehereandthere。\"
\"Doyouknowonepersontowhomshespokeofit?\"
\"Thereisoneman,please,sir,butIhopeyouwon’tmentionmynametohim,asIhaveseenhiminstrangeplaces,particularindreams。OnenightlastsummerheglaredatmelikeFamineandSword,anditmademefeelsolowthatIdidn’tcomboutmyfewhairsfortwodays。
Hewasstanding,asitmightbe,MisterYeobright,inthemiddleofthepathtoMistover,andyourmothercameup,lookingaspale——\"
\"Yes,whenwasthat?\"
\"Lastsummer,inmydream。\"
\"Pooh!Who’stheman?\"
\"Diggory,thereddleman。Hecalleduponherandsatwithhertheeveningbeforeshesetouttoseeyou。
Ihadn’tgonehomefromworkwhenhecameuptothegate。\"
\"ImustseeVenn——IwishIhadknownitbefore,\"
saidClymanxiously。\"Iwonderwhyhehasnotcometotellme?\"
\"HewentoutofEgdonHeaththenextday,sowouldnotbelikelytoknowyouwantedhim。\"
\"Christian,\"saidClym,\"youmustgoandfindVenn。
Iamotherwiseengaged,orIwouldgomyself。Findhimatonce,andtellhimIwanttospeaktohim。\"
\"Iamagoodhandathuntingupfolkbyday,\"saidChristian,lookingdubiouslyroundatthedeclininglight;
\"butastonight—time,neverissuchabadhandasI,MisterYeobright。\"
\"Searchtheheathwhenyouwill,sothatyoubringhimsoon。
Bringhimtomorrow,ifyoucan。\"
Christianthendeparted。Themorrowcame,butnoVenn。
IntheeveningChristianarrived,lookingveryweary。
Hehadbeensearchingallday,andhadheardnothingofthereddleman。
\"Inquireasmuchasyoucantomorrowwithoutneglectingyourwork,\"saidYeobright。\"Don’tcomeagaintillyouhavefoundhim。\"
ThenextdayYeobrightsetoutfortheoldhouseatBlooms—End,which,withthegarden,wasnowhisown。
Hissevereillnesshadhinderedallpreparationsforhisremovalthither;butithadbecomenecessarythatheshouldgoandoverlookitscontents,asadministratortohismother’slittleproperty;forwhichpurposehedecidedtopassthenextnightonthepremises。
Hejourneyedonward,notquicklyordecisively,butintheslowwalkofonewhohasbeenawakenedfromastupefyingsleep。
Itwasearlyafternoonwhenhereachedthevalley。
Theexpressionoftheplace,thetoneofthehour,werepreciselythoseofmanysuchoccasionsindaysgoneby;
andtheseantecedentsimilaritiesfosteredtheillusionthatshe,whowastherenolonger,wouldcomeouttowelcomehim。
Thegardengatewaslockedandtheshutterswereclosed,justashehimselfhadleftthemontheeveningafterthefuneral。Heunlockedthegate,andfoundthataspiderhadalreadyconstructedalargeweb,tyingthedoortothelintel,onthesuppositionthatitwasnevertobeopenedagain。Whenhehadenteredthehouseandflungbacktheshuttershesetabouthistaskofoverhaulingthecupboardsandclosets,burningpapers,andconsideringhowbesttoarrangetheplaceforEustacia’sreception,untilsuchtimeashemightbeinapositiontocarryouthislong—delayedscheme,shouldthattimeeverarrive。
Ashesurveyedtheroomshefeltstronglydisinclinedforthealterationswhichwouldhavetobemadeinthetime—honouredfurnishingofhisparentsandgrandparents,tosuitEustacia’smodernideas。Thegauntoak—casedclock,withthepictureoftheAscensiononthedoorpanelandtheMiraculousDraughtofFishesonthebase;
hisgrandmother’scornercupboardwiththeglassdoor,throughwhichthespottedchinawasvisible;thedumb—waiter;
thewoodenteatrays;thehangingfountainwiththebrasstap——whitherwouldthesevenerablearticleshavetobebanished?
Henoticedthattheflowersinthewindowhaddiedforwantofwater,andheplacedthemoutupontheledge,thattheymightbetakenaway。Whilethusengagedheheardfootstepsonthegravelwithout,andsomebodyknockedatthedoor。
Yeobrightopenedit,andVennwasstandingbeforehim。
\"Goodmorning,\"saidthereddleman。\"IsMrs。Yeobrightathome?\"
Yeobrightlookedupontheground。\"ThenyouhavenotseenChristianoranyoftheEgdonfolks?\"hesaid。
\"No。Ihaveonlyjustreturnedafteralongstayaway。
IcalledherethedaybeforeIleft。\"
\"Andyouhaveheardnothing?\"
\"Nothing。\"
\"Mymotheris——dead。\"
\"Dead!\"saidVennmechanically。
\"HerhomenowiswhereIshouldn’tmindhavingmine。\"
Vennregardedhim,andthensaid,\"IfIdidn’tseeyourfaceIcouldneverbelieveyourwords。Haveyoubeenill?\"
\"Ihadanillness。\"
\"Well,thechange!WhenIpartedfromheramonthagoeverythingseemedtosaythatshewasgoingtobeginanewlife。\"
\"Andwhatseemedcametrue。\"
\"Yousayright,nodoubt。Troublehastaughtyouadeeperveinoftalkthanmine。AllImeantwasregardingherlifehere。Shehasdiedtoosoon。\"
\"Perhapsthroughmylivingtoolong。Ihavehadabitterexperienceonthatscorethislastmonth,Diggory。
Butcomein;Ihavebeenwantingtoseeyou。\"
HeconductedthereddlemanintothelargeroomwherethedancinghadtakenplacethepreviousChristmas,andtheysatdowninthesettletogether。\"There’sthecoldfireplace,yousee,\"saidClym。\"Whenthathalf—
burntlogandthosecinderswerealightshewasalive!
Littlehasbeenchangedhereyet。Icandonothing。
Mylifecreepslikeasnail。\"
\"Howcameshetodie?\"saidVenn。
Yeobrightgavehimsomeparticularsofherillnessanddeath,andcontinued:\"Afterthisnokindofpainwilleverseemmorethananindispositiontome。
IbegansayingthatIwantedtoaskyousomething,butI
strayfromsubjectslikeadrunkenman。Iamanxioustoknowwhatmymothersaidtoyouwhenshelastsawyou。
Youtalkedwithheralongtime,Ithink?\"
\"Italkedwithhermorethanhalfanhour。\"
\"Aboutme?\"
\"Yes。Anditmusthavebeenonaccountofwhatwesaidthatshewasontheheath。Withoutquestionshewascomingtoseeyou。\"
\"Butwhyshouldshecometoseemeifshefeltsobitterlyagainstme?There’sthemystery。\"
\"YetIknowshequiteforgave’ee。\"
\"But,Diggory——wouldawoman,whohadquiteforgivenherson,say,whenshefeltherselfillonthewaytohishouse,thatshewasbroken—heartedbecauseofhisill—usage?Never!\"
\"WhatIknowisthatshedidn’tblameyouatall。
Sheblamedherselfforwhathadhappened,andonlyherself。
Ihaditfromherownlips。\"
\"YouhaditfromherlipsthatIhadNOTill—treatedher;
andatthesametimeanotherhaditfromherlipsthatI
HADill—treatedher?Mymotherwasnoimpulsivewomanwhochangedheropinioneveryhourwithoutreason。
Howcanitbe,Venn,thatsheshouldhavetoldsuchdifferentstoriesinclosesuccession?\"
\"Icannotsay。Itiscertainlyodd,whenshehadforgivenyou,andhadforgivenyourwife,andwasgoingtoseeyeonpurposetomakefriends。\"
\"Iftherewasonethingwantingtobewildermeitwasthisincomprehensiblething!……Diggory,ifwe,whoremainalive,wereonlyallowedtoholdconversationwiththedead——justonce,abareminute,eventhroughascreenofironbars,aswithpersonsinprison——whatwemightlearn!Howmanywhonowridesmilingwouldhidetheirheads!Andthismystery——Ishouldthenbeatthebottomofitatonce。
Butthegravehasforevershutherin;andhowshallitbefoundoutnow?\"
Noreplywasreturnedbyhiscompanion,sincenonecouldbegiven;andwhenVennleft,afewminuteslater,Clymhadpassedfromthedullnessofsorrowtothefluctuationofcarkingincertitude。
Hecontinuedinthesamestatealltheafternoon。
Abedwasmadeupforhiminthesamehousebyaneighbour,thathemightnothavetoreturnagainthenextday;
andwhenheretiredtorestinthedesertedplaceitwasonlytoremainawakehourafterhourthinkingthesamethoughts。Howtodiscoverasolutiontothisriddleofdeathseemedaqueryofmoreimportancethanhighestproblemsoftheliving。TherewashousedinhismemoryavividpictureofthefaceofalittleboyasheenteredthehovelwhereClym’smotherlay。Theroundeyes,eagergaze,thepipingvoicewhichenunciatedthewords,hadoperatedlikestilettosonhisbrain。
Avisittotheboysuggesteditselfasameansofgleaningnewparticulars;thoughitmightbequiteunproductive。
Toprobeachild’smindafterthelapseofsixweeks,notforfactswhichthechildhadseenandunderstood,buttogetatthosewhichwereintheirnaturebeyondhim,didnotpromisemuch;yetwheneveryobviouschannelisblockedwegropetowardsthesmallandobscure。
Therewasnothingelselefttodo;afterthathewouldallowtheenigmatodropintotheabyssofundiscoverablethings。
Itwasaboutdaybreakwhenhehadreachedthisdecision,andheatoncearose。Helockedupthehouseandwentoutintothegreenpatchwhichmergedinheatherfurtheron。
Infrontofthewhitegarden—palingsthepathbranchedintothreelikeabroadarrow。TheroadtotherightledtotheQuietWomananditsneighbourhood;themiddletrackledtoMistoverKnap;theleft—handtrackledoverthehilltoanotherpartofMistover,wherethechildlived。
OnincliningintothelatterpathYeobrightfeltacreepingchilliness,familiarenoughtomostpeople,andprobablycausedbytheunsunnedmorningair。Inafterdayshethoughtofitasathingofsingularsignificance。
WhenYeobrightreachedthecottageofSusanNunsuch,themotheroftheboyhesought,hefoundthattheinmateswerenotyetastir。Butinuplandhamletsthetransitionfroma—bedtoabroadissurprisinglyswiftandeasy。
Therenodensepartitionofyawnsandtoiletsdivideshumanitybynightfromhumanitybyday。Yeobrighttappedattheupperwindowsill,whichhecouldreachwithhiswalkingstick;andinthreeorfourminutesthewomancamedown。
ItwasnottillthismomentthatClymrecollectedhertobethepersonwhohadbehavedsobarbarouslytoEustacia。
Itpartlyexplainedtheinsuavitywithwhichthewomangreetedhim。Moreover,theboyhadbeenailingagain;
andSusannow,aseversincethenightwhenhehadbeenpressedintoEustacia’sserviceatthebonfire,attributedhisindispositionstoEustacia’sinfluenceasawitch。Itwasoneofthosesentimentswhichlurklikemolesunderneaththevisiblesurfaceofmanners,andmayhavebeenkeptalivebyEustacia’sentreatytothecaptain,atthetimethathehadintendedtoprosecuteSusanfortheprickinginchurch,toletthematterdrop;
whichheaccordinglyhaddone。
Yeobrightovercamehisrepugnance,forSusanhadatleastbornehismothernoill—will。Heaskedkindlyfortheboy;
buthermannerdidnotimprove。
\"Iwishtoseehim,\"continuedYeobright,withsomehesitation,\"toaskhimifheremembersanythingmoreofhiswalkwithmymotherthanwhathehaspreviouslytold。\"
Sheregardedhiminapeculiarandcriticizingmanner。
Toanybodybutahalf—blindmanitwouldhavesaid,\"Youwantanotheroftheknockswhichhavealreadylaidyousolow。\"
Shecalledtheboydownstairs,askedClymtositdownonastool,andcontinued,\"Now,Johnny,tellMr。Yeobrightanythingyoucancalltomind。\"
\"Youhavenotforgottenhowyouwalkedwiththepoorladyonthathotday?\"saidClym。
\"No,\"saidtheboy。
\"Andwhatshesaidtoyou?\"
Theboyrepeatedtheexactwordshehadusedonenteringthehut。
Yeobrightrestedhiselbowonthetableandshadedhisfacewithhishand;andthemotherlookedasifshewonderedhowamancouldwantmoreofwhathadstunghimsodeeply。
\"ShewasgoingtoAlderworthwhenyoufirstmether?\"
\"No;shewascomingaway。\"
\"Thatcan’tbe。\"
\"Yes;shewalkedalongwithme。Iwascomingaway,too。\"
\"Thenwheredidyoufirstseeher?\"
\"Atyourhouse。\"
\"Attend,andspeakthetruth!\"saidClymsternly。
\"Yes,sir;atyourhousewaswhereIseedherfirst。\"
Clymstartedup,andSusansmiledinanexpectantwaywhichdidnotembellishherface;itseemedtomean,\"Somethingsinisteriscoming!\"
\"Whatdidshedoatmyhouse?\"
\"ShewentandsatunderthetreesattheDevil’sBellows。\"
\"GoodGod!thisisallnewstome!\"
\"Younevertoldmethisbefore?\"saidSusan。
\"No,Mother;becauseIdidn’tliketotell’eeIhadbeensofar。Iwaspickingblackhearts,andwentfurtherthanImeant。\"
\"Whatdidshedothen?\"saidYeobright。
\"Lookedatamanwhocameupandwentintoyourhouse。\"
\"Thatwasmyself——afurze—cutter,withbramblesinhishand。\"
\"No;’twasnotyou。’Twasagentleman。Youhadgoneinafore。\"
\"Whowashe?\"
\"Idon’tknow。\"
\"Nowtellmewhathappenednext。\"
\"Thepoorladywentandknockedatyourdoor,andtheladywithblackhairlookedoutofthesidewindowather。\"
Theboy’smotherturnedtoClymandsaid,\"Thisissomethingyoudidn’texpect?\"
Yeobrighttooknomorenoticeofherthanifhehadbeenofstone。\"Goon,goon,\"hesaidhoarselytotheboy。
\"Andwhenshesawtheyoungladylookoutofthewindowtheoldladyknockedagain;andwhennobodycameshetookupthefurze—hookandlookedatit,andputitdownagain,andthenshelookedatthefaggot—bonds;andthenshewentaway,andwalkedacrosstome,andblowedherbreathveryhard,likethis。Wewalkedontogether,sheandI,andItalkedtoherandshetalkedtomeabit,butnotmuch,becauseshecouldn’tblowherbreath。\"
\"O!\"murmuredClym,inalowtone,andbowedhishead。
\"Let’shavemore,\"hesaid。
\"Shecouldn’ttalkmuch,andshecouldn’twalk;andherfacewas,Osoqueer!\"
\"Howwasherface?\"
\"Likeyoursisnow。\"
ThewomanlookedatYeobright,andbeheldhimcolourless,inacoldsweat。\"Isn’ttheremeaninginit?\"
shesaidstealthily。\"Whatdoyouthinkofhernow?\"
\"Silence!\"saidClymfiercely。And,turningtotheboy,\"Andthenyoulefthertodie?\"
\"No,\"saidthewoman,quicklyandangrily。\"Hedidnotleavehertodie!Shesenthimaway。Whoeversaysheforsookhersayswhat’snottrue。\"
\"Troublenomoreaboutthat,\"answeredClym,withaquiveringmouth。\"Whathedidisatrifleincomparisonwithwhathesaw。Doorkeptshut,didyousay?Keptshut,shelookingoutofwindow?GoodheartofGod!——whatdoesitmean?\"
Thechildshrankawayfromthegazeofhisquestioner。
\"Hesaidso,\"answeredthemother,\"andJohnny’saGod—
fearingboyandtellsnolies。\"
\"’Castoffbymyson!’No,bymybestlife,dearmother,itisnotso!Butbyyourson’s,yourson’s——Mayallmurderessesgetthetormenttheydeserve!\"
WiththesewordsYeobrightwentforthfromthelittledwelling。
Thepupilsofhiseyes,fixedsteadfastlyonblankness,werevaguelylitwithanicyshine;hismouthhadpassedintothephasemoreorlessimaginativelyrenderedinstudiesofOedipus。Thestrangestdeedswerepossibletohismood。
Buttheywerenotpossibletohissituation。InsteadoftherebeingbeforehimthepalefaceofEustacia,andamasculineshapeunknown,therewasonlytheimperturbablecountenanceoftheheath,which,havingdefiedthecataclysmalonsetsofcenturies,reducedtoinsignificancebyitsseamedandantiquefeaturesthewildestturmoilofasingleman。
3—EustaciaDressesHerselfonaBlackMorningAconsciousnessofavastimpassivityinallwhichlayaroundhimtookpossessionevenofYeobrightinhiswildwalktowardsAlderworth。Hehadoncebeforefeltinhisownpersonthisoverpoweringofthefervidbytheinanimate;
butthenithadtendedtoenervateapassionfarsweeterthanthatwhichatpresentpervadedhim。ItwasoncewhenhestoodpartingfromEustaciainthemoiststilllevelsbeyondthehills。
Butdismissingallthishewentonwardhome,andcametothefrontofhishouse。TheblindsofEustacia’sbedroomwerestillcloselydrawn,forshewasnoearlyriser。
Allthelifevisiblewasintheshapeofasolitarythrushcrackingasmallsnailuponthedoor—stoneforhisbreakfast,andhistappingseemedaloudnoiseinthegeneralsilencewhichprevailed;butongoingtothedoorClymfounditunfastened,theyounggirlwhoattendeduponEustaciabeingastirinthebackpartofthepremises。
Yeobrightenteredandwentstraighttohiswife’sroom。
Thenoiseofhisarrivalmusthavearousedher,forwhenheopenedthedoorshewasstandingbeforethelookingglassinhernightdress,theendsofherhairgatheredintoonehand,withwhichshewascoilingthewholemassroundherhead,previoustobeginningtoiletteoperations。
Shewasnotawomangiventospeakingfirstatameeting,andsheallowedClymtowalkacrossinsilence,withoutturningherhead。Hecamebehindher,andshesawhisfaceintheglass。Itwasashy,haggard,andterrible。
Insteadofstartingtowardshiminsorrowfulsurprise,asevenEustacia,undemonstrativewifeasshewas,wouldhavedoneindaysbeforesheburdenedherselfwithasecret,sheremainedmotionless,lookingathimintheglass。
Andwhileshelookedthecarmineflushwithwhichwarmthandsoundsleephadsuffusedhercheeksandneckdissolvedfromview,andthedeathlikepallorinhisfaceflewacrossintohers。Hewascloseenoughtoseethis,andthesightinstigatedhistongue。
\"Youknowwhatisthematter,\"hesaidhuskily。
\"Iseeitinyourface。\"
Herhandrelinquishedtheropeofhairanddroppedtoherside,andthepileoftresses,nolongersupported,fellfromthecrownofherheadabouthershouldersandoverthewhitenightgown。Shemadenoreply。
\"Speaktome,\"saidYeobrightperemptorily。
Theblanchingprocessdidnotceaseinher,andherlipsnowbecameaswhiteasherface。Sheturnedtohimandsaid,\"Yes,Clym,I’llspeaktoyou。Whydoyoureturnsoearly?CanIdoanythingforyou?\"
\"Yes,youcanlistentome。Itseemsthatmywifeisnotverywell?\"
\"Why?\"
\"Yourface,mydear;yourface。Orperhapsitisthepalemorninglightwhichtakesyourcolouraway?
NowIamgoingtorevealasecrettoyou。Ha—ha!\"
\"O,thatisghastly!\"
\"What?\"
\"Yourlaugh。\"
\"There’sreasonforghastliness。Eustacia,youhaveheldmyhappinessinthehollowofyourhand,andlikeadevilyouhavedasheditdown!\"
Shestartedbackfromthedressing—table,retreatedafewstepsfromhim,andlookedhimintheface。\"Ah!youthinktofrightenme,\"shesaid,withaslightlaugh。
\"Isitworthwhile?Iamundefended,andalone。\"
\"Howextraordinary!\"
\"Whatdoyoumean?\"
\"AsthereisampletimeIwilltellyou,thoughyouknowwellenough。Imeanthatitisextraordinarythatyoushouldbealoneinmyabsence。Tellme,now,whereishewhowaswithyouontheafternoonofthethirty—
firstofAugust?Underthebed?Upthechimney?\"
Ashudderovercameherandshookthelightfabricofhernightdressthroughout。\"Idonotrememberdatessoexactly,\"
shesaid。\"Icannotrecollectthatanybodywaswithmebesidesyourself。\"
\"ThedayImean,\"saidYeobright,hisvoicegrowinglouderandharsher,\"wasthedayyoushutthedooragainstmymotherandkilledher。O,itistoomuch——toobad!\"
Heleantoverthefootpieceofthebedsteadforafewmoments,withhisbacktowardsher;thenrisingagain——\"Tellme,tellme!tellme——doyouhear?\"hecried,rushinguptoherandseizingherbytheloosefoldsofhersleeve。
Thesuperstratumoftimiditywhichoftenoverliesthosewhoaredaringanddefiantathearthadbeenpassedthrough,andthemettlesomesubstanceofthewomanwasreached。
Theredbloodinundatedherface,previouslysopale。
\"Whatareyougoingtodo?\"shesaidinalowvoice,regardinghimwithaproudsmile。\"Youwillnotalarmmebyholdingonso;butitwouldbeapitytotearmysleeve。\"