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类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:8989更新时间:19/01/07 14:37:59
butreasonhavingnowsomewhatrecovereditselfhesankintotaciturnity。 Oneeveningwhenhewasthusstandinginthegarden,abstractedlyspuddingupaweedwithhisstick,abonyfigureturnedthecornerofthehouseandcameuptohim。 \"Christian,isn’tit?\"saidClym。\"Iamgladyouhavefoundmeout。IshallsoonwantyoutogotoBlooms— Endandassistmeinputtingthehouseinorder。 IsupposeitisalllockedupasIleftit?\" \"Yes,MisterClym。\" \"Haveyoudugupthepotatoesandotherroots?\" \"Yes,withoutadropo’rain,thankGod。ButIwascomingtotell’eeofsomethingelsewhichisquitedifferentfromwhatwehavelatelyhadinthefamily。 IamsentbytherichgentlemanattheWoman,thatweusedtocallthelandlord,totell’eethatMrs。Wildeveisdoingwellofagirl,whichwasbornpunctuallyatoneo’clockatnoon,orafewminutesmoreorless; and’tissaidthatexpectingofthisincreaseiswhathavekept’emtheresincetheycameintotheirmoney。\" \"Andsheisgettingonwell,yousay?\" \"Yes,sir。OnlyMr。Wildeveistwankybecause’tisn’taboy——that’swhattheysayinthekitchen,butIwasnotsupposedtonoticethat。\" \"Christian,nowlistentome。\" \"Yes,sure,Mr。Yeobright。\" \"Didyouseemymotherthedaybeforeshedied?\" \"No,Ididnot。\" Yeobright’sfaceexpresseddisappointment。 \"ButIzeedherthemorningofthesamedayshedied。\" Clym’slooklightedup。\"That’snearerstilltomymeaning,\" hesaid。 \"Yes,Iknow’twasthesameday;forshesaid,’Ibegoingtoseehim,Christian;soIshallnotwantanyvegetablesbroughtinfordinner。’\" \"Seewhom?\" \"Seeyou。Shewasgoingtoyourhouse,youunderstand。\" YeobrightregardedChristianwithintensesurprise。 \"Whydidyounevermentionthis?\"hesaid。\"Areyousureitwasmyhouseshewascomingto?\" \"Oyes。Ididn’tmentionitbecauseI’veneverzeedyoulately。Andasshedidn’tgetthereitwasallnought,andnothingtotell。\" \"AndIhavebeenwonderingwhysheshouldhavewalkedintheheathonthathotday!Well,didshesaywhatshewascomingfor?Itisathing,Christian,Iamveryanxioustoknow。\" \"Yes,MisterClym。Shedidn’tsayittome,thoughI thinkshedidtoonehereandthere。\" \"Doyouknowonepersontowhomshespokeofit?\" \"Thereisoneman,please,sir,butIhopeyouwon’tmentionmynametohim,asIhaveseenhiminstrangeplaces,particularindreams。OnenightlastsummerheglaredatmelikeFamineandSword,anditmademefeelsolowthatIdidn’tcomboutmyfewhairsfortwodays。 Hewasstanding,asitmightbe,MisterYeobright,inthemiddleofthepathtoMistover,andyourmothercameup,lookingaspale——\" \"Yes,whenwasthat?\" \"Lastsummer,inmydream。\" \"Pooh!Who’stheman?\" \"Diggory,thereddleman。Hecalleduponherandsatwithhertheeveningbeforeshesetouttoseeyou。 Ihadn’tgonehomefromworkwhenhecameuptothegate。\" \"ImustseeVenn——IwishIhadknownitbefore,\" saidClymanxiously。\"Iwonderwhyhehasnotcometotellme?\" \"HewentoutofEgdonHeaththenextday,sowouldnotbelikelytoknowyouwantedhim。\" \"Christian,\"saidClym,\"youmustgoandfindVenn。 Iamotherwiseengaged,orIwouldgomyself。Findhimatonce,andtellhimIwanttospeaktohim。\" \"Iamagoodhandathuntingupfolkbyday,\"saidChristian,lookingdubiouslyroundatthedeclininglight; \"butastonight—time,neverissuchabadhandasI,MisterYeobright。\" \"Searchtheheathwhenyouwill,sothatyoubringhimsoon。 Bringhimtomorrow,ifyoucan。\" Christianthendeparted。Themorrowcame,butnoVenn。 IntheeveningChristianarrived,lookingveryweary。 Hehadbeensearchingallday,andhadheardnothingofthereddleman。 \"Inquireasmuchasyoucantomorrowwithoutneglectingyourwork,\"saidYeobright。\"Don’tcomeagaintillyouhavefoundhim。\" ThenextdayYeobrightsetoutfortheoldhouseatBlooms—End,which,withthegarden,wasnowhisown。 Hissevereillnesshadhinderedallpreparationsforhisremovalthither;butithadbecomenecessarythatheshouldgoandoverlookitscontents,asadministratortohismother’slittleproperty;forwhichpurposehedecidedtopassthenextnightonthepremises。 Hejourneyedonward,notquicklyordecisively,butintheslowwalkofonewhohasbeenawakenedfromastupefyingsleep。 Itwasearlyafternoonwhenhereachedthevalley。 Theexpressionoftheplace,thetoneofthehour,werepreciselythoseofmanysuchoccasionsindaysgoneby; andtheseantecedentsimilaritiesfosteredtheillusionthatshe,whowastherenolonger,wouldcomeouttowelcomehim。 Thegardengatewaslockedandtheshutterswereclosed,justashehimselfhadleftthemontheeveningafterthefuneral。Heunlockedthegate,andfoundthataspiderhadalreadyconstructedalargeweb,tyingthedoortothelintel,onthesuppositionthatitwasnevertobeopenedagain。Whenhehadenteredthehouseandflungbacktheshuttershesetabouthistaskofoverhaulingthecupboardsandclosets,burningpapers,andconsideringhowbesttoarrangetheplaceforEustacia’sreception,untilsuchtimeashemightbeinapositiontocarryouthislong—delayedscheme,shouldthattimeeverarrive。 Ashesurveyedtheroomshefeltstronglydisinclinedforthealterationswhichwouldhavetobemadeinthetime—honouredfurnishingofhisparentsandgrandparents,tosuitEustacia’smodernideas。Thegauntoak—casedclock,withthepictureoftheAscensiononthedoorpanelandtheMiraculousDraughtofFishesonthebase; hisgrandmother’scornercupboardwiththeglassdoor,throughwhichthespottedchinawasvisible;thedumb—waiter; thewoodenteatrays;thehangingfountainwiththebrasstap——whitherwouldthesevenerablearticleshavetobebanished? Henoticedthattheflowersinthewindowhaddiedforwantofwater,andheplacedthemoutupontheledge,thattheymightbetakenaway。Whilethusengagedheheardfootstepsonthegravelwithout,andsomebodyknockedatthedoor。 Yeobrightopenedit,andVennwasstandingbeforehim。 \"Goodmorning,\"saidthereddleman。\"IsMrs。Yeobrightathome?\" Yeobrightlookedupontheground。\"ThenyouhavenotseenChristianoranyoftheEgdonfolks?\"hesaid。 \"No。Ihaveonlyjustreturnedafteralongstayaway。 IcalledherethedaybeforeIleft。\" \"Andyouhaveheardnothing?\" \"Nothing。\" \"Mymotheris——dead。\" \"Dead!\"saidVennmechanically。 \"HerhomenowiswhereIshouldn’tmindhavingmine。\" Vennregardedhim,andthensaid,\"IfIdidn’tseeyourfaceIcouldneverbelieveyourwords。Haveyoubeenill?\" \"Ihadanillness。\" \"Well,thechange!WhenIpartedfromheramonthagoeverythingseemedtosaythatshewasgoingtobeginanewlife。\" \"Andwhatseemedcametrue。\" \"Yousayright,nodoubt。Troublehastaughtyouadeeperveinoftalkthanmine。AllImeantwasregardingherlifehere。Shehasdiedtoosoon。\" \"Perhapsthroughmylivingtoolong。Ihavehadabitterexperienceonthatscorethislastmonth,Diggory。 Butcomein;Ihavebeenwantingtoseeyou。\" HeconductedthereddlemanintothelargeroomwherethedancinghadtakenplacethepreviousChristmas,andtheysatdowninthesettletogether。\"There’sthecoldfireplace,yousee,\"saidClym。\"Whenthathalf— burntlogandthosecinderswerealightshewasalive! Littlehasbeenchangedhereyet。Icandonothing。 Mylifecreepslikeasnail。\" \"Howcameshetodie?\"saidVenn。 Yeobrightgavehimsomeparticularsofherillnessanddeath,andcontinued:\"Afterthisnokindofpainwilleverseemmorethananindispositiontome。 IbegansayingthatIwantedtoaskyousomething,butI strayfromsubjectslikeadrunkenman。Iamanxioustoknowwhatmymothersaidtoyouwhenshelastsawyou。 Youtalkedwithheralongtime,Ithink?\" \"Italkedwithhermorethanhalfanhour。\" \"Aboutme?\" \"Yes。Anditmusthavebeenonaccountofwhatwesaidthatshewasontheheath。Withoutquestionshewascomingtoseeyou。\" \"Butwhyshouldshecometoseemeifshefeltsobitterlyagainstme?There’sthemystery。\" \"YetIknowshequiteforgave’ee。\" \"But,Diggory——wouldawoman,whohadquiteforgivenherson,say,whenshefeltherselfillonthewaytohishouse,thatshewasbroken—heartedbecauseofhisill—usage?Never!\" \"WhatIknowisthatshedidn’tblameyouatall。 Sheblamedherselfforwhathadhappened,andonlyherself。 Ihaditfromherownlips。\" \"YouhaditfromherlipsthatIhadNOTill—treatedher; andatthesametimeanotherhaditfromherlipsthatI HADill—treatedher?Mymotherwasnoimpulsivewomanwhochangedheropinioneveryhourwithoutreason。 Howcanitbe,Venn,thatsheshouldhavetoldsuchdifferentstoriesinclosesuccession?\" \"Icannotsay。Itiscertainlyodd,whenshehadforgivenyou,andhadforgivenyourwife,andwasgoingtoseeyeonpurposetomakefriends。\" \"Iftherewasonethingwantingtobewildermeitwasthisincomprehensiblething!……Diggory,ifwe,whoremainalive,wereonlyallowedtoholdconversationwiththedead——justonce,abareminute,eventhroughascreenofironbars,aswithpersonsinprison——whatwemightlearn!Howmanywhonowridesmilingwouldhidetheirheads!Andthismystery——Ishouldthenbeatthebottomofitatonce。 Butthegravehasforevershutherin;andhowshallitbefoundoutnow?\" Noreplywasreturnedbyhiscompanion,sincenonecouldbegiven;andwhenVennleft,afewminuteslater,Clymhadpassedfromthedullnessofsorrowtothefluctuationofcarkingincertitude。 Hecontinuedinthesamestatealltheafternoon。 Abedwasmadeupforhiminthesamehousebyaneighbour,thathemightnothavetoreturnagainthenextday; andwhenheretiredtorestinthedesertedplaceitwasonlytoremainawakehourafterhourthinkingthesamethoughts。Howtodiscoverasolutiontothisriddleofdeathseemedaqueryofmoreimportancethanhighestproblemsoftheliving。TherewashousedinhismemoryavividpictureofthefaceofalittleboyasheenteredthehovelwhereClym’smotherlay。Theroundeyes,eagergaze,thepipingvoicewhichenunciatedthewords,hadoperatedlikestilettosonhisbrain。 Avisittotheboysuggesteditselfasameansofgleaningnewparticulars;thoughitmightbequiteunproductive。 Toprobeachild’smindafterthelapseofsixweeks,notforfactswhichthechildhadseenandunderstood,buttogetatthosewhichwereintheirnaturebeyondhim,didnotpromisemuch;yetwheneveryobviouschannelisblockedwegropetowardsthesmallandobscure。 Therewasnothingelselefttodo;afterthathewouldallowtheenigmatodropintotheabyssofundiscoverablethings。 Itwasaboutdaybreakwhenhehadreachedthisdecision,andheatoncearose。Helockedupthehouseandwentoutintothegreenpatchwhichmergedinheatherfurtheron。 Infrontofthewhitegarden—palingsthepathbranchedintothreelikeabroadarrow。TheroadtotherightledtotheQuietWomananditsneighbourhood;themiddletrackledtoMistoverKnap;theleft—handtrackledoverthehilltoanotherpartofMistover,wherethechildlived。 OnincliningintothelatterpathYeobrightfeltacreepingchilliness,familiarenoughtomostpeople,andprobablycausedbytheunsunnedmorningair。Inafterdayshethoughtofitasathingofsingularsignificance。 WhenYeobrightreachedthecottageofSusanNunsuch,themotheroftheboyhesought,hefoundthattheinmateswerenotyetastir。Butinuplandhamletsthetransitionfroma—bedtoabroadissurprisinglyswiftandeasy。 Therenodensepartitionofyawnsandtoiletsdivideshumanitybynightfromhumanitybyday。Yeobrighttappedattheupperwindowsill,whichhecouldreachwithhiswalkingstick;andinthreeorfourminutesthewomancamedown。 ItwasnottillthismomentthatClymrecollectedhertobethepersonwhohadbehavedsobarbarouslytoEustacia。 Itpartlyexplainedtheinsuavitywithwhichthewomangreetedhim。Moreover,theboyhadbeenailingagain; andSusannow,aseversincethenightwhenhehadbeenpressedintoEustacia’sserviceatthebonfire,attributedhisindispositionstoEustacia’sinfluenceasawitch。Itwasoneofthosesentimentswhichlurklikemolesunderneaththevisiblesurfaceofmanners,andmayhavebeenkeptalivebyEustacia’sentreatytothecaptain,atthetimethathehadintendedtoprosecuteSusanfortheprickinginchurch,toletthematterdrop; whichheaccordinglyhaddone。 Yeobrightovercamehisrepugnance,forSusanhadatleastbornehismothernoill—will。Heaskedkindlyfortheboy; buthermannerdidnotimprove。 \"Iwishtoseehim,\"continuedYeobright,withsomehesitation,\"toaskhimifheremembersanythingmoreofhiswalkwithmymotherthanwhathehaspreviouslytold。\" Sheregardedhiminapeculiarandcriticizingmanner。 Toanybodybutahalf—blindmanitwouldhavesaid,\"Youwantanotheroftheknockswhichhavealreadylaidyousolow。\" Shecalledtheboydownstairs,askedClymtositdownonastool,andcontinued,\"Now,Johnny,tellMr。Yeobrightanythingyoucancalltomind。\" \"Youhavenotforgottenhowyouwalkedwiththepoorladyonthathotday?\"saidClym。 \"No,\"saidtheboy。 \"Andwhatshesaidtoyou?\" Theboyrepeatedtheexactwordshehadusedonenteringthehut。 Yeobrightrestedhiselbowonthetableandshadedhisfacewithhishand;andthemotherlookedasifshewonderedhowamancouldwantmoreofwhathadstunghimsodeeply。 \"ShewasgoingtoAlderworthwhenyoufirstmether?\" \"No;shewascomingaway。\" \"Thatcan’tbe。\" \"Yes;shewalkedalongwithme。Iwascomingaway,too。\" \"Thenwheredidyoufirstseeher?\" \"Atyourhouse。\" \"Attend,andspeakthetruth!\"saidClymsternly。 \"Yes,sir;atyourhousewaswhereIseedherfirst。\" Clymstartedup,andSusansmiledinanexpectantwaywhichdidnotembellishherface;itseemedtomean,\"Somethingsinisteriscoming!\" \"Whatdidshedoatmyhouse?\" \"ShewentandsatunderthetreesattheDevil’sBellows。\" \"GoodGod!thisisallnewstome!\" \"Younevertoldmethisbefore?\"saidSusan。 \"No,Mother;becauseIdidn’tliketotell’eeIhadbeensofar。Iwaspickingblackhearts,andwentfurtherthanImeant。\" \"Whatdidshedothen?\"saidYeobright。 \"Lookedatamanwhocameupandwentintoyourhouse。\" \"Thatwasmyself——afurze—cutter,withbramblesinhishand。\" \"No;’twasnotyou。’Twasagentleman。Youhadgoneinafore。\" \"Whowashe?\" \"Idon’tknow。\" \"Nowtellmewhathappenednext。\" \"Thepoorladywentandknockedatyourdoor,andtheladywithblackhairlookedoutofthesidewindowather。\" Theboy’smotherturnedtoClymandsaid,\"Thisissomethingyoudidn’texpect?\" Yeobrighttooknomorenoticeofherthanifhehadbeenofstone。\"Goon,goon,\"hesaidhoarselytotheboy。 \"Andwhenshesawtheyoungladylookoutofthewindowtheoldladyknockedagain;andwhennobodycameshetookupthefurze—hookandlookedatit,andputitdownagain,andthenshelookedatthefaggot—bonds;andthenshewentaway,andwalkedacrosstome,andblowedherbreathveryhard,likethis。Wewalkedontogether,sheandI,andItalkedtoherandshetalkedtomeabit,butnotmuch,becauseshecouldn’tblowherbreath。\" \"O!\"murmuredClym,inalowtone,andbowedhishead。 \"Let’shavemore,\"hesaid。 \"Shecouldn’ttalkmuch,andshecouldn’twalk;andherfacewas,Osoqueer!\" \"Howwasherface?\" \"Likeyoursisnow。\" ThewomanlookedatYeobright,andbeheldhimcolourless,inacoldsweat。\"Isn’ttheremeaninginit?\" shesaidstealthily。\"Whatdoyouthinkofhernow?\" \"Silence!\"saidClymfiercely。And,turningtotheboy,\"Andthenyoulefthertodie?\" \"No,\"saidthewoman,quicklyandangrily。\"Hedidnotleavehertodie!Shesenthimaway。Whoeversaysheforsookhersayswhat’snottrue。\" \"Troublenomoreaboutthat,\"answeredClym,withaquiveringmouth。\"Whathedidisatrifleincomparisonwithwhathesaw。Doorkeptshut,didyousay?Keptshut,shelookingoutofwindow?GoodheartofGod!——whatdoesitmean?\" Thechildshrankawayfromthegazeofhisquestioner。 \"Hesaidso,\"answeredthemother,\"andJohnny’saGod— fearingboyandtellsnolies。\" \"’Castoffbymyson!’No,bymybestlife,dearmother,itisnotso!Butbyyourson’s,yourson’s——Mayallmurderessesgetthetormenttheydeserve!\" WiththesewordsYeobrightwentforthfromthelittledwelling。 Thepupilsofhiseyes,fixedsteadfastlyonblankness,werevaguelylitwithanicyshine;hismouthhadpassedintothephasemoreorlessimaginativelyrenderedinstudiesofOedipus。Thestrangestdeedswerepossibletohismood。 Buttheywerenotpossibletohissituation。InsteadoftherebeingbeforehimthepalefaceofEustacia,andamasculineshapeunknown,therewasonlytheimperturbablecountenanceoftheheath,which,havingdefiedthecataclysmalonsetsofcenturies,reducedtoinsignificancebyitsseamedandantiquefeaturesthewildestturmoilofasingleman。 3—EustaciaDressesHerselfonaBlackMorningAconsciousnessofavastimpassivityinallwhichlayaroundhimtookpossessionevenofYeobrightinhiswildwalktowardsAlderworth。Hehadoncebeforefeltinhisownpersonthisoverpoweringofthefervidbytheinanimate; butthenithadtendedtoenervateapassionfarsweeterthanthatwhichatpresentpervadedhim。ItwasoncewhenhestoodpartingfromEustaciainthemoiststilllevelsbeyondthehills。 Butdismissingallthishewentonwardhome,andcametothefrontofhishouse。TheblindsofEustacia’sbedroomwerestillcloselydrawn,forshewasnoearlyriser。 Allthelifevisiblewasintheshapeofasolitarythrushcrackingasmallsnailuponthedoor—stoneforhisbreakfast,andhistappingseemedaloudnoiseinthegeneralsilencewhichprevailed;butongoingtothedoorClymfounditunfastened,theyounggirlwhoattendeduponEustaciabeingastirinthebackpartofthepremises。 Yeobrightenteredandwentstraighttohiswife’sroom。 Thenoiseofhisarrivalmusthavearousedher,forwhenheopenedthedoorshewasstandingbeforethelookingglassinhernightdress,theendsofherhairgatheredintoonehand,withwhichshewascoilingthewholemassroundherhead,previoustobeginningtoiletteoperations。 Shewasnotawomangiventospeakingfirstatameeting,andsheallowedClymtowalkacrossinsilence,withoutturningherhead。Hecamebehindher,andshesawhisfaceintheglass。Itwasashy,haggard,andterrible。 Insteadofstartingtowardshiminsorrowfulsurprise,asevenEustacia,undemonstrativewifeasshewas,wouldhavedoneindaysbeforesheburdenedherselfwithasecret,sheremainedmotionless,lookingathimintheglass。 Andwhileshelookedthecarmineflushwithwhichwarmthandsoundsleephadsuffusedhercheeksandneckdissolvedfromview,andthedeathlikepallorinhisfaceflewacrossintohers。Hewascloseenoughtoseethis,andthesightinstigatedhistongue。 \"Youknowwhatisthematter,\"hesaidhuskily。 \"Iseeitinyourface。\" Herhandrelinquishedtheropeofhairanddroppedtoherside,andthepileoftresses,nolongersupported,fellfromthecrownofherheadabouthershouldersandoverthewhitenightgown。Shemadenoreply。 \"Speaktome,\"saidYeobrightperemptorily。 Theblanchingprocessdidnotceaseinher,andherlipsnowbecameaswhiteasherface。Sheturnedtohimandsaid,\"Yes,Clym,I’llspeaktoyou。Whydoyoureturnsoearly?CanIdoanythingforyou?\" \"Yes,youcanlistentome。Itseemsthatmywifeisnotverywell?\" \"Why?\" \"Yourface,mydear;yourface。Orperhapsitisthepalemorninglightwhichtakesyourcolouraway? NowIamgoingtorevealasecrettoyou。Ha—ha!\" \"O,thatisghastly!\" \"What?\" \"Yourlaugh。\" \"There’sreasonforghastliness。Eustacia,youhaveheldmyhappinessinthehollowofyourhand,andlikeadevilyouhavedasheditdown!\" Shestartedbackfromthedressing—table,retreatedafewstepsfromhim,andlookedhimintheface。\"Ah!youthinktofrightenme,\"shesaid,withaslightlaugh。 \"Isitworthwhile?Iamundefended,andalone。\" \"Howextraordinary!\" \"Whatdoyoumean?\" \"AsthereisampletimeIwilltellyou,thoughyouknowwellenough。Imeanthatitisextraordinarythatyoushouldbealoneinmyabsence。Tellme,now,whereishewhowaswithyouontheafternoonofthethirty— firstofAugust?Underthebed?Upthechimney?\" Ashudderovercameherandshookthelightfabricofhernightdressthroughout。\"Idonotrememberdatessoexactly,\" shesaid。\"Icannotrecollectthatanybodywaswithmebesidesyourself。\" \"ThedayImean,\"saidYeobright,hisvoicegrowinglouderandharsher,\"wasthedayyoushutthedooragainstmymotherandkilledher。O,itistoomuch——toobad!\" Heleantoverthefootpieceofthebedsteadforafewmoments,withhisbacktowardsher;thenrisingagain——\"Tellme,tellme!tellme——doyouhear?\"hecried,rushinguptoherandseizingherbytheloosefoldsofhersleeve。 Thesuperstratumoftimiditywhichoftenoverliesthosewhoaredaringanddefiantathearthadbeenpassedthrough,andthemettlesomesubstanceofthewomanwasreached。 Theredbloodinundatedherface,previouslysopale。 \"Whatareyougoingtodo?\"shesaidinalowvoice,regardinghimwithaproudsmile。\"Youwillnotalarmmebyholdingonso;butitwouldbeapitytotearmysleeve。\"