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类别:其他 作者:Joseph Crosby Lincoln字数:10389更新时间:19/01/07 14:40:51
\"Hedidnotevencomehomeforsupper,\"shesaid。\"StayedovertoNellie’sprobably。You’llmostlikelyfindhimthere。\" ButIwasprettycertainhewasnotattheDeans’,forasIpassedtheirhouse,Inoticedthewindowsweredark,indicatingthatthefamily,likemostofrespectableDenboro,hadalreadyretired。I walkedontotheCorners。Eldredge’sstorewasclosed,butthebilliardroomwasradiantandnoisy。IcouldhearTimHallet’svoiceurgingsomeonetotakeanewcue,\"’causethatoneain’tpocketedmanyballsyet。\" Ilookedacrossatthebank。Thefrontportionofitwasblackenough,butthewindowofthedirectors’roomwasalight。Ihadlocatedtheobjectofmysearch;thecashierwasthere,workingovertime,ashedidsooftennowadays。 IhadmykeyinmypocketandIunlockedthebigdoorandenteredquietly。Thedoorofthedirectors’roomwasopenalittlewayandItiptoedoverandpeepedinthroughthecrack。Taylorwasseatedinachairbesidethebigtable,hiselbowsuponthetableandhisheadinhishands。AsIstoodthere,watchinghim,hetookhishandsawayandIsawhisface。Uponitwasanexpressionofabjectmiseryandutterdespair。Iopenedthedoorandentered。 Heheardthesoundoftheopeningdoorandleapedtohisfeet。Hischairfellbackwardonthefloorwithaclatter,buthepaidnoattentiontoit。 \"GoodGod!\"hecried,wildly。\"Who’sthat?\" Hewasdeathlypaleandtremblingviolently。Hisappearancestartledandalarmedme。 \"It’sallright,\"Isaid,hastily。\"ItisI——Paine。Isawthelightandknewyoumustbehere。Whatailsyou?WhatISthematter?\" Foramomenthestoodtherestaring。Thenheturnedandpickedupthefallenchair。 \"Oh,it’syou,Ros,isit?\"hefaltered。\"I——I——Lord,howyouscaredme!I——I——\" \"George!whatISthematterwithyou?Forheaven’ssake!standup,man!\"HewasswayingandIthoughthewasgoingtofaint。 \"George!GeorgeTaylor!Areyouill?Iamgoingforthedoctor。\" \"No,no!Staywhereyouare。Iain’tsick。I’llbeallrightinaminute。You——youscaredme,creepinginthatway。Sitdown,sitdown。\" Hesteadiedhimselfwithonehandonthetableandwiththeotherreachedtoshutadrawerwhichhadbeenopenbesidehim。Thedrawerwasalmostfullofpapers,and,lyinguponthosepapers,wasarevolver。 CHAPTERXVI BeforehecouldclosethedrawercompletelyIcaughthisarmandheldit。 \"George,\"Icried,\"George,whatisthematter?Tellme;youmusttellme。\" Hetriedtopullhisarmfree。FindingthatIwouldnotlethimdothishegaveuptheattemptand,withapoorattemptatalaugh,answered,\"Matter?Why,nothingisthematter。Iamtiredandnervous,sameasI’vetoldyouI’vebeenforthelasttwoorthreemonths,andyouscaredme,tiptoeinginlikeasneakthief,thistimeofnight。\" \"Timeofnight!Itisbutalittleafternine。Whatisthematterwithyou?\" \"Nothingisthematter,Itellyou。Letgoofmyarm,Ros。Whatdoyoumeanbyholdingontomelikethis?\" \"WhatdoYOUmean,George?WhatdoesTHATmean?\" Ipointedtothedrawer。Helookedand,withasuddeneffort,jerkedhisarmfreeandclosedthedrawer。 \"That?\"withaforcedlaugh。\"Oh,that’snothing。ItwaslateandIwasalonehere,so——\" \"Iknowbetter。George,you’refrighteningusall。Don’tyousupposewecanseethatsomethingiswrongwithyou?IhaveseeniteversinceIcameheretowork。Youareworryingyourfriends。 Youworryme。Giveusachancetohelpyou。GiveMEachance。 Youowemethat。TellmeyourtroubleandI’llpullyououtofit; seeifIdon’t。\" Myconfidencewas,ofcourse,onlypretence,butmyearnestnesshadsomeeffect。Helookedatmewistfully,andshookhishead。 \"Nobodycanpullmeout,\"hesaid。\"You’reagoodfellowtowanttohelp,butyoucan’t。Thereain’tanytrouble。I’mjustnervous——\" \"Iknowbetter。You’relying,George。Yes,youare;you’relying。\" \"Humph!You’reprettyplainspoken,RosPaine。Thereain’tmanypeopleI’dtakethatfrom。\" \"You’lltakeitfromme,becauseyoucan’thelpitandbecauseyouknowitistrue。Come,George;come。Youhavebeenafriendtome;theonlyrealfriendIhavehadinyears。Ihavebeenlookingforachancetogetevenforwhatyouhavedoneforme。Maybehereisthechance。Letmehelpyou。Iwill。\" Hewaswavering;Icouldseeit。Butagainheshookhishead。 \"Nobodycanhelpme,\"hesaid。 \"George,formysake——well,then,ifnotformysakeoryourown,thenforNellie’s,givemeachance。Youaren’ttreatingherright,George。Youshouldthinkofher。You——\" \"Stop!Damnyou,RosPaine!whatrighthaveyouto——\" \"Therightofafriend,herfriendandyours。You’refrighteningthepoorgirltodeath。Sheisbeginningtobeafraidyoudon’tcareforher。\" \"I?Idon’tcareforHER?Idon’t——Oh,myGod!\" Tomyutteramazementhebegantolaugh。Andthen,allatonce,hislaughterceased,heswayed,choked,and,suddenlycollapsinginthechair,droppedhisheaduponhisarmsonthetableandsobbed,sobsthatshookhimfromheadtoheel。 Foronestrong,healthy,normalmantoseeanothercryisadisconcertinganduncomfortableexperience。MasculinetearsdonotfloweasilyandpoorGeorge,onthevergeofhysterics,wasapitifulanddistressingspectacle。Iwasalmostascompletelydisorganizedashe。Ifeltashamedforhimandashamedofmyselfforhavingseenhiminsuchacondition。IwanteddesperatelytohelphimandIdidnotknowwhattodo,sobeyondpattinghimonthebackandbegginghimrepeatedlytobraceupandnotbehavelikethat,Ididnothing。Atlasthissobsceasedandhewassilent。I hadrisenfrommychairandnowIstoodtherewithahandonhisshoulder;thetickingoftheancienteight—sidedclockonthewallsoundedloudintheroom。 Suddenlyhesatupandthrewoffmyhand。 \"Well,\"hesaid,bitterly,\"I’mafinespecimenofaman,ain’tI。 Ain’tyouproudofme?\" \"Iammightysorryforyou,\"Ianswered。\"AndImeantohelpyou。\" \"Youcan’t。\" \"Howdoyouknow?\" \"BecauseIdoknow,Ros,\"heturnedandlookedmestraightintheeye。\"Iamgoingtogiveyousomegoodadvice。Takeit,foryourownsake。Clearoutofhereandleaveme。Don’thaveanythingmoretodowithme。Clearout。\" Ididnotmove。 \"AreyougoingtodoasItellyou?\"hedemanded。\"Mind,I’mtellingyouthisforyourowngood。Willyouclearoutandleaveme?\" Ismiled。\"Ofcoursenot,\"Ianswered。 \"Don’tbeafool。Youcan’taffordtobemyfriend。Clearoutandleaveme,doyouhear?\" \"Ihear。Now,George,whatisit?\" Hisfingerstappedthetable。Icouldseehewasmakinguphismind。 \"Youwanttoknow?\"hesaid。\"Youwon’tbesatisfieduntilyoudo?\" \"Ihavemadethatfairlyplain,Ihope。AtleastI’vetriedto。\" Hisfistclenchedandhestruckthetable。 \"Then,bytheAlmighty,I’lltellyou!\"hecried,fiercely。\"It’llbealloverthecountyinaweek。Youmightaswellknowitnow。 I’macrook。I’mathief。I’vestolenmoneyfromthisbankandI can’tpayitbackbecauseIhaven’tgotitandcan’tgetit。I’macrook,Itellyou,andinaweekorsoit’llbethecountyjailformine。Unless——unless,\"withasignificantglanceatthedrawer,\"somethingelsehappenstomeinthemeantime。There;nowyouknow。Areyousatisfied?Areyouhappybecauseyou’vefoundout?\" Ididnotanswer。TotellthetruthIwasnotentirelyovercomebysurpriseatthedisclosure。Ihadbeguntosuspectsomethingofthesort。Yet,nowthatmysuspicionswereconfirmed,Iwastoogreatlyshockedandhorrifiedtospeakatonce。 \"Well?\"hesneered。\"Nowwillyouclearoutandletmesettlethismyownway?\" Ipulledmychairforwardandsatdown。 \"Tellmeallaboutit,George,\"Isaid,ascalmlyasIcould。\"Howmuchisit?\" Hestaredatmeaghast。\"Youwon’tgo?\"hecried。\"You——youaregoingtostickbymeeven——even——\" \"There!there!pullyourselftogether,oldfellow。Wewon’tgiveuptheshipyet。Howmuchisit?Itcan’tbeagreatsum。\" \"Itain’t。But,Ros——you——youcan’t——youmustn’tbemixedupinthis。Ishan’tletyou。Don’tyousee?\" Iarguedandpleadedandreasonedwithhimforwhatseemedalongtimebeforehewouldconsenttotellmethewholestory。Andwhenitwastoldtherewasnothingnewornovelinit。Theoldtaleofanhonestmanwhohadnotmeanttogowrong,but,temptedbyoneofthosewilesofthedevil,an\"insidetip\"onthestockmarket,hadboughtheavilyonmargins,expectingtoclearahandsomeprofitinashorttime。ThestockwasLouisvilleandTranscontinentalandthestruggleforitscontrolbycertainbiginterestshadmadecopyforfinancialwritersfornearlyayear。Georgehadboughtatatimewhenonesyndicatehad,soitbelieved,securedthecontrol。 Thensomethingwentwronginthedealandthesharesbegantodeclineinvalue。Heputupmoremarginsandstillmore,butitcontinuedtodecline。Finallyunderthespurofanother\"tip,\"thelastofhisownsavingshavinggonetotheinsatiatebrokers,hesent,tobolsterhisaccountandtosavehimfromutterruin,somebondsbelongingtothebank。 \"Notmuch,\"hedeclared,\"onlyaboutthirty—fivehundreddollars’ worth,that’sall。Ineverwouldhavedoneit,Ros,butIwaswild,desperate,yousee。HereIwas,gettingreadytobemarried; NellieandCap’nJedandtherestbelievingmetobecomfortablyfixed。It’seasyenoughnowtosaythatIoughttohavegonetoherandtoldher。IfIhadn’tbeencertainthatthemarketwouldturnandI’dbeallrightinaweek,I’dhavedoneit。ButIwassureI’dbeallrightandIcouldn’ttakethechance。Iknewwhatherfatherwouldsayabouthermarryingapauper,andIjustcouldn’ttaketheriskoflosingher;Icouldn’t。Shemeansmoretomethan——than——oh,waituntilyourtimecomes!Waituntilthegirlcomesalongthatyoucareformorethanthewholeworld。Andthenseewhatyou’ddo。Seewhatitwouldmeantogiveherup! Justwait——waitandsee!\" \"Yes,yes,\"Iputin,hastily。\"Iunderstand,George。Butthestock,LouisvilleandTranscontinental,howisitnow?\" \"Justthesame。Itisdead,practicallyspeaking。Ithasn’tmovedhalfapointforsixweeks。I’vebeenexpectingitwould,butithasn’t。It’sallright;thevalueisthere;Iknowit。IfIcouldonlyhangonandwaitIcouldgetmymoneyback,partofit,anyhow。ButIcan’t。Ican’twait。Andthebrokerpeoplehavegotthosebonds。Ros,I’vebeenfightingthisthingforweeksandweeks。Iain’tsleptanightforyears,orsoitseems。Andnextweek——nextWEEKIwastobemarried。MyGod!thinkofit!\" \"Here,here!Don’tdothat,\"Iurged。\"Braceup。YouandImustworkthisout。Wasn’tthereanyoneyoucouldgoto?Anyoneyoucouldborrowthemoneyof?Thirty—fivehundredisn’tsuchalot。\" \"WhomcouldIgoto?Itried。LordknowsItried!IdidborrowathousandofCap’nElishaWarren;trumpedupsomeexcuseorotherandgotthat。Butthatwasallhecouldletmehave。AndIknowhethoughtmyaskingforthatwasqueer。\" \"DidyouconsidergoingstraighttoCap’nDeanand——\" \"Dean?Cap’nJed?Herfather?Oh,Ros,don’tbeafoolaltogether! Ibegyourpardon,oldman!Idon’tmeanit。Youmustn’tmind。I ain’tresponsibleforwhatIsayjustnow。ButIcouldn’tgotoCap’nJed。Youknowhim。He’sasstraightandsquareandhonestasheisobstinateandcranky。IfIwenttohimIcouldn’ttellhimthetruth。AndifIliedhe’dsuspectandwanttoknowwhyIneededtoborrowmoney。AndNellie——don’tyousee?There’stherealawfulnessofthewholething。Icouldn’tgotoherandtellherI wasathief。Icouldn’tseeherfacewhenItoldher。Andyetshe’sgottoknowit。She’sgottoknowit!\" \"Butwhy?Thestockmaygoupanydayandthenyoucouldwithdrawpartofyourmargin。\" Hestruckthetablewithanotherblow。\"Thestockain’tmovedforsixweeks,Itellyou,\"hedeclared。\"And,Ros,\"heleanedforward,hishaggardfaceworkingwithemotion,\"thosebondsain’tinoursafehere,wheretheyshouldbe,andthebankexaminerisdueherewithinthenextfourdays。He’satMiddleboronow。I ’phonedBearse,thecashierthere,thisveryforenoononamatterofbusiness,andhehappenedtomentionthattheexaminerwasinhisbankandworkinghiswaydowntheCape。It’sallupwithme! Allup!AndNellie!poorgirl;Ican’tbeherewhenshefindsitout。IknowyouthinkI’mapoorspecimenofaman,Ros,butI can’tfacethemusic。No,\"desperately,\"andIwon’t。\" Hewasgivingwayagain,butIseizedhisshoulderandshookhim。 \"Stopit!\"Icommanded。\"Stopit,George!Letmethink。Bequietnowandletmethink。Theremustbeawayoutsomewhere。Letmethink。\" Heleanedbackinhischair。\"Allright,\"hesaid,hopelessly; \"think,ifyouwantto。ThoughwhyyoushouldwanttothinkaboutathinglikemeIdon’tsee。AndIusedtodespiseacrookasmuchasanyone!andacowardstillmore!AndnowI’mbothacrookandacoward。\" IknewhiscowardicewasmerelyonNellie’saccount。GeorgeTaylorwasnocowardintheordinarysenseoftheword,norwasheacrook。Iroseandpacedupanddowntheroom。Hewatchedmelistlessly;itwasplainthathefeltnoconfidencewhateverinmybeingabletohelphim。Afteratimehespoke。 \"It’snouse,Ros,\"hesaid。\"Don’tworryyourheadaboutme;I ain’tworthit。Iftherewasanywayout,anywayatall,I’dhavesighteditlongago。Thereain’t。Takemyadviceandleaveme。 Youdon’twanttobemixedupwithanembezzler。\" Iturnedonhim,impatiently。\"Ihavebeenmixedup,asyoucallit,withonebefore,\"Isaid,sharply。\"IsmyownfamilyrecordsocleanthatIneedtopretend——there,George!don’tbeanidiot。 Letmethink。\" Theclockchimedten。Istoppedinmywalkandturnedtohim。 \"George,\"Isaid,\"tellmethis:Ifyouhadthemoneytobuybackthesebondsbelongingtothebankyouwouldbeallright,wouldn’tyou?Ifyouhaditinyourhandsbyto—morrowmorning,Imean。\" \"Yes;IFIhadit——butIhaven’t。\" \"Youcouldsendthemoneytothebrokersand——\" \"Send!Iwouldn’tsend;I’dgomyselfandfetchthebondsbackwithme。OnceIhadtheminthatsafeagainI——\" \"Andyouwouldnottakeanymorerisks,evenifthemarketdroppedandtheyhadtoselloutyouraccount?Evenifyoulosteverycentofyourinvestment?\" Thefierceearnestnessofhisanswersatisfiedevenme。\"WhatdoyouthinkIam?\"hedemanded。\"Investmentbehanged!It’smynameasanhonestmanthatIcareabout。OnceletmegetthatbackagainandI’llfacethepoorhouse。Yes,andI’lltellNelliethetruth,allexceptthatIwasathief;Ican’ttellherthat。ButI willtellherthatIhaven’tgotacentexceptmysalary。Thenifshewantstogivemeup,allright。I’llbearitasbestIcan。 Or,ifshedoesn’t,andIlosemyjobhere,I’llgetanotheronesomewhereelse;I’llworkatanything。SheandIcanwaitand…… Butwhatistheuseoftalkinglikethis?I’vebeenovereveryinchofthegroundathousandtimes。Thereain’tarayoflightanywhere。Theexaminerwillbehere,thebondswillbemissing,andI——I’llbeinjail,orinhell,oneortheother。\" \"No,youwon’t,\"Isaid,firmly。 \"Iwon’t!Whynot?\" \"BecausethereISarayoflight。Morethanaray。George,yougohomeandgotobed。To—morrowmorningImayhavenewsforyou,goodnews。\" Thebloodrushedtohisface。Heseizedthearmofhischair。 \"Goodnews!\"hegasped。\"GoodnewsforME!Ros——Ros,fortheLord’ssake,whatdoyoumean?Youdon’tmeanyouseeawayto——\" \"NevermindwhatImean。ButIshouldliketoknowwhatyoumeanbynotcomingtomebefore?Whatarefriendsfor,ifnottohelpeachother?WhotoldyouthatIwasdeadbroke?\" \"You?Why,youain’tgot……Haveyou?RosPaine,youain’tgotthirty—fivehundredtospare。Why,youtoldmeyourself——\" \"Shutup!Getupfromthatchairandcomewithme。Yes,you;andnow,thisminute。Givemethatthingyou’vegotinthedrawerthere。No,I’lltakeitmyself。Yououghttobeashamedofitsbeingthere,George。Iamashamedofyou,and,ifIthoughtyoureallymeanttouseit,Ishouldbestillmoreashamed。Come! don’tkeepmewaiting。\" \"But——butRos——\" \"WillyoudoasItellyou?\" Idraggedhim,almostliterallydraggedhim,fromthechair。Then,afterextinguishingthelamp,Iledhimtothedoorofthebankandlockedit,puttingthekeyinmypocket。 \"Now,\"saidI,\"Iwantyoutomakemeapromise。Iwantyoutoquitbehavinglikeacoward,becauseyouarenotone,andpromisemethatyouwillgostraighthomeandtobed。I’llseeyouagainthefirstthinginthemorning。Then,Ithink——yes,Ithinkyourtroubles,theworstpartofthem,willbeover。\" \"But,Ros,PLEASE——Ican’tbelieveit!Won’tyoutellme——\" \"Notaword。Willyoupromisemetobehavelikeamanandgohome? OrmustIgowithyou?\" \"No。I’ll——I’llpromise。I’llgostraighthome。But,ohRos,I can’tunderstand——\" \"Goodnight。\" Ilefthimstandingthere,stammeringincoherentlylikeamanawakeningfromanightmare,andhurriedaway。 IcouldnotdescribemyprogressdownthedarkLowerRoadandalongtheShoreLane。Idonotrememberanyportionofit。IthinkI ranmostofthewayandifImetanyone——whichisnotlikely,consideringthetime——heorshemusthavethoughtmecrazy。Mythoughtswerecenteredupononefixedpurpose。Ihadmadeupmymindtodoacertainthingand,ifpossible,todoitthatverynight。IfIdidnot,ifIhadtimeinwhichtoreflect,toconsiderconsequences,Imightlosemynerveanditwouldnotbedoneatall。 Itwaswithafeelingofgreatreliefthat,asIcameinsightoftheColtonhouse,Isawlightsintheroomsonthelowerfloor。 Thefamily,notbeingnativebornDenboroites,hadnotretiredeventhoughitwaswellafterten。Ihastenedupthelongdrive,andstoodbeforethebigdoor,myhandupraisedtotheknocker。Andthen,justforamoment,Ihesitated。 IfIliftedthatknockerandletitfall;ifIsummonedtheservantandannouncedthatIwishedtospeakwithMr。Colton;ifIdidwhatIhadcometheretodo,itwouldbealloverwithmeinthevillage。Mynewbornpopularity,therespectwhichCap’nWarrenandCap’nJedandtherestofthetownspeoplehadshowntowardmeoflate,thecordialrecognitionwhichhadbeenmineduringthepastfewweeksandwhich,inspiteofpretendedindifference,Ihadcometoexpectandenjoy,allthesewouldbelostifIpersistedinmypurpose。MyfutureinDenborodependeduponwhetherornotI knockedatthatdoor。Anditwasnottoolatetobackout,evenyet。IhadonlytoturnquietlyawayandtellGeorge,whenIsawhiminthemorning,thatIcouldnothelphimasIhadhoped。AndthenIthoughtofhisfaceasIsawitwhenIenteredthebank——andofNellie’slettertome。 Iseizedtheknockerandrappedsharply。 Forafewmomentsmyknockwasunanswered。ThenIheardfootstepsandthedoorwasopened。Johnson,thebutler,openedit,andhisclericalcountenanceassumedamostastonishedexpressionwhenhesawmestandingbeforehim。 \"IsMr。Coltonin?\"Iasked。 \"What?What——sir?\"stammeredJohnson。The\"sir\"wasaddedunderprotest。Hedidnotwishtoshowmorerespectthanwasabsolutelynecessarytoacountryman,buthescarcelydaredspeakasdisrespectfullyashefelt。Thereforehecompromisedbyvoicingtherespectandlookingtheotherway。 \"IsMr。Coltonin?\"Irepeated。 \"Idon’tknow。I——Idon’tthinkso——sir。\" Thewindowsatmyleftwere,Iknew,thoseofthelibrary,theroomwhere\"BigJim\"andIhadhadourfirstlivelydiscussionoftheShoreLanematter。Iglancedatthem。 \"Ithinkheis,\"Isaid。\"InfactIknowit;thereishisshadowonthecurtain。TellhimMr。Painewishestospeakwithhim。\" Johnsonlookedasinsolentashedared,andstillhesitated。 \"Itisverylate,\"hesaid。\"Mr。Coltonisnotinthe’abitofreceivingcallersatthistimeofnightand——\" Hewasinterrupted。Thedoorbehindhim,thedoorleadingfromthelibrarytothehall,openedandColtonhimselfappeared。 \"Whatisit,Johnson?\"heasked。\"Anythingwrong?\" Thebutlerhastenedtoexplain。 \"Nosir,\"hesaid;\"nothingwrongexactly,sir。Thereisaperson’eretoseeyou,sir,and——\" \"Toseeme,eh?Whoisit?Why,hello,Paine!isthatyou?\" \"Mr。Colton,\"saidI,\"Iamsorrytodisturbyouatsuchalatehour,but——\" \"Comein,comein,\"heinterrupted。\"Whatareyoustandingouttherefor?Johnson,whydidn’tyouaskMr。Painein?Whatdoyoumeanbykeepinghimoutthere?\" Mr。Johnsonlookedtroubled。 \"Itwassolate,sir,\"hestammered,\"Ithought——\" \"Youthought!IfIhadwantedanyonetothinkInevershouldhavehiredyou。Comein,Paine。Comeintothelibrary。\" HeledthewaytothelibraryandIfollowedhim。Itwasmysecondvisittothebig,handsomelyfurnishedroomandagain,asonthefirstoccasion,thesightofthebooksandalltheotherrefinementsandluxurieswhichmoneybringstoitspossessorgavemeapangofenvyandresentment。Itaddedincreasedbitternesstothehumiliationofmyerrand。Ihadleftthatroomdefiantlyexpressingmyindependence。Ihadcomebacktoit——\" \"Sitdown,\"orderedColton,pullingforwardthebig,leather— coveredchair。\"Haveacigar?\" \"Nothankyou。\" \"Humph!That’swhatyousaidwhenyouwereherebefore。You’reyoung,Paine。WhenyougettobeasoldasIamyou’llneverrefuseagoodcigar,oranythingelsethatisgood,whenitisofferedyou。Well,you’restillstanding。Aren’tgoingtorefusetositdown,areyou?\" ThatwasexactlywhatIwasgoingtodo。Iwouldnotsitdowninthathouse。Iwouldnotaccepttheslightestcourtesyfromthismanoranyofhispeople。IwouldgetridoftheunpleasanttaskI hadcometodoandthengoaway,nevertoreturn。Theymightmakethemostofthetriumphwhichwastobetheirs,butIwouldcompelthemtounderstandthatIwasnotseekingtheirfavor。Iwouldnotaccepttheirpatronageandtheyshouldknowit。This,asIlookbackatitnow,seemssillyandchildishenough,butIwasnotmyselfthatnight。 \"Mr。Colton,\"saidI,ignoringtheprofferedchair,\"Ihavecometoseeyouonamatterofbusiness。\" \"Business,eh?Umph!Ithoughtprobablyyouweregoingtoaskmetogofishingwithyouagain。I’mallreadyforanothertusslewiththose——whatdoyoucall’em——squid——squit——goodLord!whatanameforadecentfish!ButIdon’tcareacontinentalwhatyoucall’em。I’mreadytogetat’emwhenyousaytheword。\" \"Mybusinesswillnotdetaineitherofuslong。I——\" \"Sitdown,man,sitdown。Youmakemenervousstandingthere。\" \"No。Iwon’tsit。\" Helookedatme。 \"Whatisthematterwithyou?\"heasked。\"Youhaven’tgotabalkydigestion,haveyou?I’vebeenfightingoneforthelastweek。 ThatfoolofacountrydoctortellsmeifI’mnotcarefulwhatI eatI’llkeeloverprettysoon。ItoldhimI’deatenwhatIdashedpleaseeversinceI’dhadteethandIwasn’tgoingtoquitnow。 ButIdofeellikethedevil。Lookit,don’tI?\" Hedidlookill,thatwasafact,thoughIhadnotnoticeditbeforeandwasfarfromfeelingpityforhimthen。InfactIwasrathergladtoknowthathewasuncomfortable。Iwantedhimtobe。 \"Whatisthematterwithyou?\"hedemanded。\"Youlookasifyouhadseenyourgrandmother’sghost。\" Iignoredthequestion。\"Mr。Colton,\"Ibeganagain。\"Youmadeanoffernotlongago。\" Ihadcaughthisattentionatlast。Heleanedbackinhischair。 \"Idid,\"hesaid。\"Ye—es,Idid。Doyoumeanyouaregoingtoacceptit?\" \"Inaway——yes。\" \"Inaway?Whatdoyoumeanbythat?Itellyoufrankly,Paine,ifyougotoworkformetheremustbeno’ifs’or’buts’aboutit。 You’llentermyofficeandyou’lldoasI,orthemenunderme,tellyoutodo。\" Iwasgladhesaidthat,gladthathemisunderstoodme。Itgavemeanopportunitytoexpressmyfeelingstowardhim——asIwasfeelingthen。 \"Don’tletthattroubleyou,\"Isaid,sarcastically。\"Therewillbeno’ifs’and’buts’sofarasthatisconcerned。Ihavenodesiretoworkforyou,Mr。Colton,andIdon’tintenddoingso。 ThatwasnottheofferImeant。\" Hewassurprised,Iamsure,buthedidnotexpressastonishment。 Hebentforwardandlookedatmemorekeenlythanever。 \"TherewasonlyoneotherofferthatIremembermakingyou,\"hesaid,slowly。\"Thatwasforthatlandofyours。Iofferedyoufivethousanddollarsforit。Doyoumeanyouacceptthatoffer?\" \"Notexactly。\" \"Humph!Paine,we’rewastingalotoftimehere,itseemstome。 Mytimeismoreorlessvaluable,andmydigestionis,asItoldyou,prettybad。Come!getitover。Whatdoyoumean?Areyougoingtosellmethatland?\" \"Yes。\" Hepuffeddeliberatelyathiscigar。Hisgazedidnotleavemyface。 \"Why?\"heasked,afteramoment。 \"Thatismyownaffair。Iwillsellyoutheland,butnotforfivethousanddollars。\"