第29章

类别:其他 作者:Joseph Crosby Lincoln字数:9607更新时间:19/01/07 14:40:51
Hestartedatthesoundofmyentranceandawoke。 \"I——Ibegyourpardon,sir,\"hestammered。\"I——Ibegyourpardon,sir,I’msure。I’vebeen——I’aven’tclosedmyeyesforthepasttwonights,sir,andIamtiredout。Mr。Coltonwishestoseeyouatonce,sir。Hewishesyoutocomeoverimmediately。\" Iwassurprisednow。\"MR。Coltonwishesit,\"Irepeated。\"YoumeanMissColton,don’tyou,Johnson。\" \"No,sir。ItisMr。Coltonthistime,sir。MissColtonisoutinthemotor,sir。\" \"ButMr。Coltonistooilltoseeme,oranyoneelse。\" \"No,sir,heisn’t。He’sverymuchbetter。He’squitehimself,sir,really。Andheisveryanxioustoseeyou。Onamatterofbusiness,hesays。\" Ihesitated。Ihadexpectedthis,thoughnotsosoon。Hewantedtoaskquestionsconcerningmycrazydipintohisfinancialaffairs,doubtless。Well,Ishouldhavetoseehimsometimeorother,anditmightaswellbenow。 IcalledtoDorinda,whowasinthekitchen,andbadehertellMother,ifsheinquiredforme,thatIhadgoneout,butwouldbebacksoon。ThenJohnsonandIwalkedbrisklyalongthebluffpath。 Weenteredthebighouse。 \"Mr。Coltonisinhisroom,sir,\"explainedthebutler。\"Youaretoseehimthere。Thisway,sir。\" ButbeforewereachedthefootofthestairsDoctorQuimbycameoutofthelibrary。HeandIshookhands。Thedoctorwasahappyman。 \"Well!\"heexclaimed,\"what’sthematterwiththeone—horse,country—jaydoctornow,hey!IfthereisanyoneoftheBostonspecialistsatahundredavisitwhocanyankamanoutofaserioussicknessandputhimonhisfeetquickerthanIcan,whytrothimalong,that’sall!Iwanttoseehim!I’vebeenthrowingbouquetsatmyselfforthelasttenhours。Ho!ho!Say,Ros,you’llthinkmyheadisswelledprettybad,won’tyou!Ho!ho!\" Iaskedhowthepatientwasgettingon。 \"Fine!Tip—top!Theonlytroubleisthatheoughttokeepperfectlyquietandnotdoathingorthinkofathing,exceptgettinghisstrengthback,forthenextweek。Buthehadn’tbeenconsciousmorethanacoupleofhoursbeforehewasaskingquestionsaboutbusinessandsoon。Heandhisdaughterhadalongconfabthismorningandafterthathewasneithertobindortie。 Hemustseeyou,that’salltherewastoit。Say,Ros,whatdidyouandPhinCahoonandtheColtongirldoyesterday?\" \"Oh,weputthroughoneofMr。Colton’slittletradesforhim,that’sall。\" \"That’sall,hey!Well,whatever’twas,heandIoweyouavoteofthanks。Hebegantogetbettertheminuteheheardit。He’sfeelingsochipperthat,ifitwasn’tthatIsworeheshouldn’t,he’dhavegotoutofbedbythistime。Youmustgoupandseehim,Isuppose,butdon’tstaytoolong。He’sawonderforstrengthandrecuperativepowers,butdon’ttirehimtoomuch。IfthatwifeofhiswasinEuropeorsomewhere,I’dfeeleasier。She’sthemosttiringthinginthehouse。\" Johnsonledthewayupstairs。Atthechamberdoorheknockedandannouncedmypresence。 \"Bringhimin!Whatishewaitingfor?\"demandedavoicewhich,consideringhowrecentlyitsownerhadbeenatdeath’sdoor,wassurprisinglystrong。Ienteredtheroom。 Hewasinbed,proppedupwithpillows。BesidehimsatMrs。 Colton。Ofthetwoshelookedthemoredisturbed。Hereyeswerewetandshewasdabbingatthemwithalacehandkerchief。Hermorninggownwasawondrouscreation。\"BigJim,\"withhisiron— grayhairawryandhiseyessnapping,lookedremarkablywideawakeandalive。 \"Howareyou,Paine?\"hesaid。\"Gladtoseeyou。Sorrytobringyouoverhere,butIhadtoseeyouandthatdoctorsaysImuststayinthisroomforawhileyet。Hemayberight。Myunderstandingisprettyshaky,I’lladmit。You’vemetMrs。Colton,haven’tyou?\" Ibowedandexpressedmypleasureatmeetingthelady。Herbowwasrathercurt,butsheregardedmewithanastonishingamountofagitatedinterest。Alsosheshowedsymptomsofmoretears。 \"Idon’trememberwhetherornotMr。PaineandIhaveeverbeenformallyintroduced,\"sheobserved。\"Ifwehaven’titmakesnodifference,Isuppose。Theothermembersofthefamilyseemtoknowhimwellenough。And——andmothersnowadaysarenotconsidered。I——Imustsaythat——\" Shehadrecoursetothelacehandkerchief。Icouldunderstandwhatthedoctormeantbycallingherthe\"mosttiringthinginthehouse。\"Herhusbandlaidahandonhers。 \"There,there,mydear,\"hesaid,soothingly,\"don’tbefoolish。 Sitdown,Paine。Henrietta,perhapsyouhadbetterleaveMr。PaineandItogether。Wehavesome——er——businessmatterstodiscussandyouaretiredandnervous。Ishouldgotomyroomandliedown,ifIwereyou。\" Mrs。Coltonacceptedthesuggestion,butheracceptancewasnotthemostgracious。 \"Iamintheway,asusual,\"sheobserved,chokingly。\"Verywell,Ishouldberesignedtothatbythistime,nodoubt。Iwillgo。 ButJames,formysake,don’tbeweak。Rememberwhat——Oh,rememberallwehadhopedandplanned!WhenIthinkofit,I——I—— Anobody!Apersonwithout……WhatSHALLIdo?\" Thehandkerchiefwasinactiveoperation。Shesweptpastmetothedoor。Theresheturned。 \"Imayforgiveyousometime,Mr。Paine,\"shesobbed。\"IsupposeI shallhaveto。Ican’tdoanythingelse。Butdon’taskmetodoitnow。ThatwouldbeTOOmuch!\" ThedoorclosedandIheardhersobsasshemarcheddownthehall。 TosaythatIwasamazedanddecidedlyuncomfortablewouldbeaverymildestimateofmyfeelings。WhyshouldIexpecthertoforgiveme?WhathadIdone?I——orluckandItogether——hadsavedoneofherhusband’sstockspeculationsfromendinginsmash;butthatwasnoinjuryforwhichIshouldbegforgiveness。AtleastI couldnotseethatitwas。 Coltonlookedafterherwithatroubledexpression。 \"Nervesarethedevil,aren’tthey,\"heobserved。\"Andnervesandawomantogetherareworsethanthat。Mywife,Paine,is——well,shehasn’tbeeningoodhealthforalongtimeandMabelandIhavedoneourbesttogiveherherownway。Whenyou’vehadyourownwayforyearsitratherhurtstobecheckmated。Iknowthatfromexperience。She’llfeelbetteraboutitbyandby。\" \"Betteraboutwhat?\"Idemanded,involuntarily。\"Idon’tunderstandMrs。Colton’smeaningintheleast。\" Helookedatmekeenlyforamomentwithoutspeaking。 \"Don’tyou?\"heasked。\"Youaresureyoudon’t?\" \"CertainlyIamsure。WhatIhavedonethatrequiresforgivenessI don’tsee。\" Anotherpauseandmorescrutiny。 \"Soyoudon’tunderstandwhatshemeans,hey?\"hesaidagain。\"Allright,allright!Wewon’tdiscussthatyetawhile。Ifyoudon’tunderstand——nevermind。Timeenoughforustotalkofthatwhenyoudo。But,say,Paine,\"withoneofhisdrysmiles,\"whotaughtyoutobuckastockpool?\" ThisquestionIcouldunderstand。Ihadexpectedthis。 \"Noonetaughtme,\"Ianswered。\"IfIhadanyknowledgeatallinthatdirectionIwasbornwithit,Iguess。Aformoforiginalsin。\" \"It’samightyprofitablesortofwickedness——forme。Youngman,doyourealizewhatyoudid?Howdoyouexpectmetothankyouforthat,hey?\" \"Idon’texpectyoutothankmeatall。Itwasbullluckthatwonforyou,Mr。Colton。Bullluckanddesperationonmypart。MissColtonsentformetohelpher。Yourconfidentialman,Davis,refusedtomakeamovewithoutordersfromyou。Youcouldn’tgiveanyorders。Someonehadtodosomething,or,soitseemedtoyourdaughterandme,yourLouisvilleandTranscontinentaldealwasagonegoose。\" \"Itwasmorethanthat。Imighthavecomeprettynearbeingagonegoosealongwithit。Notquitegone,perhaps——Ishouldhavehadafewcentsleftinthestocking——butIshouldhavelostalotmorethanIcaretolose。Soitwasbullluck,hey?Idon’tbelieveit。Tellmethewholestory,frombeginningtoend,willyou? Mabelhastoldmesome,butIwanttohearitall。Goahead!\" IthoughtofQuimby’swarning。\"I’mafraidIshouldtireyou,Mr。 Colton。Itisalongstory,ifIgiveparticulars。\" \"Nevermind,yougivethem。That’tiring’businessissomemoreofthatdoctor’sfoolishness。HEmakesmetired,allright。YoutellmewhatIwanttoknoworI’llgetoutofthisbedandshakeitoutofyou。\" Helookedasifhemeanttocarryouthisthreat。Ibeganmytaleatthebeginningandwentontotheastonishingend。 \"Don’taskmewhyIdidthisorthat,Mr。Colton,\"Iconcluded。\"I don’tknow。IthinkIwasoffmyheadpartofthetime。ButsomethingHADtobedone。Itriedtolookattheaffairinacommon—senseway,and——\" \"And,HAVINGcommon—sense,youusedit。Paine,you’reabrick! Yourkindofcommon—senseissorarethatit’sworthpayinganypricefor。Ha!ha!SoitwasKeeneandhis’DevelopmentCompany’ thatgaveyoutheidea。That’sgood!Thatlittlefailureofminewasn’taltogetherafailure,afterall。Yousawitwasacasewhereabluffmightwin,andyouhadthesandtobluffitthrough。 Thatcomesoflivingsolongwherethereismoresandthananythingelse,Iimagine,hey!Ha!ha!Well,bullluckorinsanityorwhateveryoucallit,itdidthetrick。OfcourseI’mmoreobligedtoyouthanIcantell。Youknowthat。\" \"That’sallright,Mr。Colton。NowIthinkImustbegoing。 You’vetalkedenough。\" \"Yousitstill。Ihaven’tbeguntotalkyet。Paine,beforeyoudidthisthingformeIhadtakenafancytoyou。IbelievedtherewasgoodstuffinyouandthatIcoulduseyouinmybusiness。NowIknowIcan’taffordtodowithoutyou……Stop!letmefinish。Youngman,ItoldyouoncethatwhenImadeupmymindtodoathing,Ialwaysdidit。ALWAYS;doyouunderstand?Iamgoingtogetyou。Youarecomingwithme。\" Ihadforeseenthis,ofcourse。ButIhadhopedtogetawayfromthatroombeforehereachedthepoint。Hehadreachedit,however,andperhapsitwasaswellhehad。Wewouldendthisforalltime。 \"Mr。Colton,\"Ianswered,\"youhaveamonopolyofsomethings,butofothersyouhavenot。Iamjustasdeterminedtohavemyownwayinthismatterasyouare。IshallNOTacceptyourofferofemployment。Thatisfinal。\" \"Finalbedamned!Youngman——\" \"Mr。Colton,ifyoupersistIshallgoaway。\" \"Goaway!BeforeItellyouto?Why,you——\" Irose。\"Thedoctortoldmethatyoumustnotexciteyourself,\"I said。\"Iamgoing。Good—by。\" Hewasexcited,therewasnodoubtofthat。Hesatupinbed。 \"Youcomeback!\"heordered。\"Comeback!Ifyoudon’t——Well,bytheLord,ifyoudon’tI’llgetupandcomeafteryou!\" Ibelievehewouldhavetriedtodoit。Iwasfrightened,onhisaccount。Iturnedreluctantly。Hesankbackonthepillow,grinningtriumphantly。 \"Sitdownthere,\"hepanted。\"Sitdown。NowIwantyoutotellmetherealreasonwhyyouwon’tworkforme。Bygad!you’rethefirstoneinmanyadayIhavehadtoasktwice。Why?Tellmethetruth!Why?\" Ihesitated。\"Well,foronereason,\"Isaid,\"Idon’tcareforyourbusiness。\" \"Don’tCAREforit!Afterwhatyoujustdid!\" \"IdidthatbecauseIwasdriventoit。ButIdon’tcareforthestockgame。OnceIusedtothinkIlikedthatsortofthing;nowI knowIdon’t。IfIamanythingIamabankman,apoorsortofone,perhaps,but——\" \"Bankman!Why,youidiot!Idon’tcarewhatyouare。Icanuseyouinadozenplaces。Youdon’thavetobuckthemarket。I’lldothatmyself。Butthereareplentyofplaceswhereyourbrainsandthatcommon—senseyoutalkaboutwillbeinvaluabletome。Idoabankingbusiness,ontheside,myself。Iownaminingproperty,agoodone,outWest。Itneedsafinancialmanager,andneedsonebadly。Youcomewithme,doyouhear!I’llplaceyouwhereyoufit,beforeIgetthroughwithyou,andI’llmakeyouarichmanintenyears。There!nowwillyousayyes?\" Ishookmyhead。\"No,\"Isaid。 \"NO!Youareenoughtodriveawellmancrazy,tosaynothingofahalf—sickreliclikeme。_I_sayyes——yes——YES!SoonerorlaterI’llMAKEyou。You’velostyourplacehere。YoutoldmeyourselfthatthatoldcrankDeanisgoingtomakethistowntoohottoholdyou。You’llHAVEtogoaway。Nowwon’tyou?\" Inodded。\"Ishallgoaway,\"Ianswered。\"Ihavemadeupmymindtogo,nowthatMotherseemswellenoughformetoleaveher。\" \"Wherewillyougo?\" \"Idon’tknow。\" Hestaredatmeinsilenceforwhatseemedalongtime。Ithoughthemustbeexhausted,andoncemoreIrosetogo。 \"Stop!Staywhereyouare,\"heordered。\"Ihaven’tgottheanswertoyouyet,andIknowit。There’ssomethingbackofallthis,somethingIdon’tknowabout。I’mgoingtofindoutwhatitis,ifittakesmeayear。Youcantellmenow,ifyouwantto。Itwillsavetime。Whatistherealreasonwhyyouwon’ttakemyoffer?\" Idon’tknowwhyIdidit。Ihadkeptthesecretalltheyearsandcertainly,whenIenteredthatroom,Ihadnointentionofrevealingit。Yet,now,whenheaskedthisquestionIturnedonhimandblurtedoutwhatIhadswornnoone——leastofallheorhis——shouldeverknow。 \"I’lltellyouwhy,\"Icried,desperately。\"Ican’ttaketheplaceyouofferbecauseyouknownothingaboutme。Youdon’tknowwhoI am。Ifyoudidyou……Mr。Colton,youdon’tevenknowmyname。\" Helookedatmeandshookhishead,impatiently。\"EitheryouARE crazy,orIam,\"hemuttered。\"Don’tknowyourname!\" \"No,youdon’t!YouthinkIamRoscoePaine。Iamnot。IamRoscoeBennett,andmyfatherwasCarletonBennett,theembezzler。\" Ihadsaidit。AndthemomentafterwardIwassorry。Iwouldhavegivenanythingtotakebackthewords,butrepentancecametoolate。Ihadsaidit。 Iheardhimdrawadeepbreath。Ididnotlookathim。IdidnotcaretoseehisfaceandreadonitthedisgustandcontemptIwassureitexpressed。 \"Humph!\"heexclaimed。\"Humph!DoyoumeantotellmethatyourfatherwasCarletonBennett——BennettofBennettandCompany?\" \"Yes。\" \"Well!well!well!CarletonBennett!Nowondertherewassomethingfamiliaraboutyourmother,somethingthatIseemedtoremember。Imetheryearsago。Well!well!Soyou’reCarletonBennett’sson?\" \"Yes,Iamhisson。\" \"Well,whatofit?\" Ilookedathimnow。Hewassmiling,actuallysmiling。Hisillnesshadaffectedhismind。 \"WhatOFit!\"Igasped。 \"Ye—es,whatofit?Whathasthatgottodowithyourworkingforme?\" Icouldhavestruckhim。IfhehadnotbeenweakandillandirresponsibleforwhathewassayingIthinkIshould。 \"Mr。Colton,\"Isaid,strivingtospeakcalmly,\"youdon’tunderstand。MyfatherwasCarletonBennett,theembezzler,thethief,themanwhosenamewasandisadisgracealloverthecountry。MotherandIcameheretohidefromthatdisgrace,tobeginanew,cleanlifeunderacleanname。Doyouthink——?Oh,youdon’tunderstand!\" \"Iunderstandallright。ThisisthefirsttimeIHAVEunderstood。 IseenowwhyaclevermanlikeyouwaswillingtospendhisdaysinaplacelikeDenboro。Well,youaren’tgoingtospendanymoreofthemthere。You’regoingtoletmemakesomethingworthwhileoutofyou。\" Thissounded,inoneway,likesanity。Butinanother—— \"Mr。Colton,\"Icried,\"evenifyoumeantit,whichyoudon’t——doyousupposeIwouldgobacktoNewYork,wheresomanyknowme,andenteryouremployunderanassumedname?Runtheriskof——\" \"Hush!Enteritunderyourownname。It’sagoodname。TheBennettsareoneofouroldestfamilies。Askmywife;she’lltellyouthat。\" \"Agoodname!\" \"Yes。Ideclare,Paine——Bennett,Imean——Ishallbegintobelieveyouhaven’tgotthesenseIcreditedyouwith。Icanseewhathasbeenthematterwithyou。Youcamehere,youandyoursickmother,withthescandalofyourfather’scrookednesshangingoveryouandhersicknessmakinghersuper—sensitive,andyoutwokeptthesecretandbroodedoveritsolongthatyouhavecometothinkyouarecriminals,too。You’renot。Youhaven’tdoneanythingcrooked。What’sthematterwithyou,man?Besensible!\" \"Sensible!\" \"Yes,sensible,ifyoucan。Idon’tcarewhoyourfatherwas。Hewasasmartbanker,beforehewentwrong,andIcanseenowwhereyouinheritedyourability。Butnevermindthat。He’sdead;lethimstayso。I’mnottryingtogethim。It’syouIwant。\" \"YouwantME!Doyoumeanyouwouldtakemeintoyouremploy,knowingwhoIam?\" \"Sure!ItisbecauseIknowWHATyouarethatIwantyou。\" \"Mr。Colton,you——Idon’tknowwhattosaytoyou。\" \"Trysaying’yes’andseehowitseems。Itwillbeachange,anyhow。\" \"No,no!Icannot;itisimpossible。\" \"Oh,youmakemeweary!……Humph!Whatisitnow?Anymore’reasons’?\" ’Yes。\"Ifacedhimsquarely。\"Yes,\"Isaid,\"thereisanotherreason,onethatmakesitimpossible,utterlyimpossible,ifnothingelsedid。WhenItellyouwhatitisyouwillunderstandwhatImeanandagreewithme。YourdaughterandIhavebeenthrowntogetheragreatdealsinceshecametoDenboro。Ourmeetingshavenotbeenofmyseeking,norofhers。OflateIhaverealizedthat,formyownsake,forthesakeofmypeaceofmind,I mustnotmeether。Imustnotbewheresheis。I——\" \"Here!Stop!\"hebrokeinsharply。\"Whatisthis?DoyoumeantotellmethatyouandMabel——\" \"Itisnotherfault。Itismyown,entirely。Mr。Colton,I——\" \"Stop,Itellyou!Doyoumeantotellmethatyouare——thatyouhavebeenmakinglovetomydaughter?\" \"No。Certainlynot。\" \"Thenwhatdoyoumean?Thatshehasbeenmakinglovetoyou?\" \"Mr。Colton——\" \"There!Don’tactliketheWildManofBorneo。Doyoumeanthatyouareinlovewithher?\" \"Don’tyouseenowwhyIcannotaccept?Imustgoaway。Iamgoing。\" \"Humph!Thatwilldo……Humph!Well,Paine——Bennett,I shouldsay;itishardtokeeptrackofyournames——youarerather—— er——reckless,itseemstome。MabelisouronlychildandhermotherandI,naturally,hadplannedforherfuture……Haveyoutoldherofyour——recklessness?\" \"Ofcoursenot!Ishallnotseeheragain。IshallleaveDenboroassoonasIcan。Shewillneverknow。\" \"Humph!Isee……Isee……Well,Idon’tknowthatthereisanythingformetosay。\" \"Thereisnot。\" \"Iamsorryforyou,ofcourse。\" \"Thankyou。\" Therewasasharprapatthedoor。DoctorQuimbyopeneditandenteredtheroom。Heglancedfrommetohispatientandhisfaceexpressedsharpdisapproval。 \"You’dbettergo,Ros,\"hesnapped。\"Whatisthematterwithyou? Didn’tItellyounottoexcitehim。\" \"I’Mnotexcited,\"observedColton,drily。 \"Clearoutthisminute!\"continuedtheangrydoctor。\"RosPaine,I thoughtyouhadmoresense。\" \"SodidI,\"thisfrom\"BigJim\"。\"However,Iamlearningalotthesedays。Good—by,Paine。\" Iwasatthedoor。 \"Oh,bytheway,\"hecalledafterme,\"letmemakeasuggestion。 IfIwereyou,Roscoe,Iwouldn’tleaveDenboroto—day。Notbeforeto—morrowmorning,atanyrate。\" IdidnotunderstandhimandIaskedfornoexplanation。ItwasthefirsttimehehadaddressedmebymyChristianname,butitwasnotuntilafterwardthatIrememberedthatfact。 ThatafternoonIwasaloneinmyhavenofrefuge,theboathouse。 MotherandIhadhadalongtalk。Itoldhereverythingthathadtranspired。Ikeptbacknothing,eitherofmyactsormyfeelings。 ShesaidshewasnotsorryforwhatIhaddone。Shewasratherglad,thanotherwise,thatIhaddisclosedoursecrettoMr。 Colton。 \"Heknowsnow,Roscoe,\"shesaid。\"Andhewasright,too。YouandIhavebroodedoveroursorrowandwhatweconsideredourdisgracemuchmorethanweshould。Heisright,Boy。Weareinnocentofanywrong—doing。\" \"Yes,Mother,\"Ianswered,\"Isupposeweare。Butwemustkeepthesecretstill。NooneelseinDenboromustknow。Youknowwhatgossiptherewouldbe。Thereisenoughnow。IpresumeIamcalledatraitorandablackguardbyeverypersoninthetown。\" \"Whyno,youarenot。Thatisthestrangethingaboutit。Lutherwasupatthepost—officethismorningandnooneseemstoknowofyoursaleoftheland。CaptainDeanhas,apparently,keptthenewstohimself。Whydoyousupposehedoesthat?\" \"Idon’tknow。Idon’tknow,unlessitisbecausehe——no,Ican’tunderstanditatall。However,theywillknowsoonenough。Bytheway,IhaveneveraskedDorindawhereLutewasthatnoon——itseemsagesago——whenhewasmissingatdinnertime。AndhowdidheknowofMr。Colton’sillness?\" Shesmiled。\"PoorLuther!\"shesaid。\"Heannouncedhisintentionofrunningaway,youremember。AsamatteroffacthemettheColtons’chauffeurinthemotorcarandthechauffeurinvitedhimtogotoBayportwithhim。Thechauffeurhadanerrandthere。 Luteaccepted——ashesays,automobileridesdon’tcomehiswayeverydayintheweek——andtheyhadtroublewiththeengineanddidnotgetbackuntilalmostnight。ThenMissColtontoldhimofherfather’sseizureandgavehimthenoteforyou。Itwastoyousheturnedinhertrouble,Boy。Shetrustsyou。Roscoe,I——Ithinkshe——\" \"Don’tsayit,Mother。Allthatisended。Iamgoingtoforget—— ifIcan。\" Therestofourconversationneednotbewrittenhere。Shesaidmanythings,suchasfondmotherssaytotheirsonsandwhichthesonsknowtoowelltheydonotdeserve。WediscussedmyleavingDenboroandshewassobraveandself—sacrificingthatmyconsciencesmoteme。 \"I’llstay,Mother,\"Isaid。\"Ican’tleaveyou。I’llstayandfightitoutwithyou。Afterall,itwillnotbemuchworsethanitwasbeforeIwenttothebank。\" Butshewouldnothearofmystaying。IhadafriendinChicago,adistantrelativewhoknewourstory。Perhapshecouldhelpmetoastartsomewhere。Shekissedmeandbademekeepupmycourage,andIlefther。Iateahurriedmeal,acombinationofbreakfastanddinner,and,dodgingLute,whowasinthebackyardwaitingtoquestionmeconcerningtheColtons,walkeddowntotheboathouse。 There,inmyarmchair,Itriedtothink,tomapoutsomesortofplanformyfuture。 Itwasahopelesstask。Iwasnotinterestedinit。Ididnotmuchcarewhatbecameofme。IfitwerenotforMotherIshouldnothavecaredatall。Nevertheless,forhersake,Imusttrytoplan,andIdid。 IwasstilltryingwhenIheardfootstepsapproachingthedoor,thesmalldoorattheside,notthebigoneinfront。Ididnotrisetoopenthedoor,nordidIturnmyhead。ThevisitorwasLute,probably,andifIkeptstillhemightthinkIwasnotwithinandgoawayagain。 Thedooropened。\"Hereheis,\"saidavoice,avoicethatI recognized。Iturnedquicklyandsprangtomyfeet。StandingbehindmewasCaptainJedediahDeanandwithhimGeorgeTaylor—— GeorgeTaylor,whoshouldhavebeen——whomIhadsupposedtobeinWashingtonwithhisbride! \"Hereheis,\"saidCaptainJed,again。\"Well,Ros,we’vecometoseeyou。\" ButIpaidnoattentiontohim。ItwashiscompanionIwasstaringat。Whatwashedoinghere? \"George!\"Icried。\"GEORGE!\" Hesteppedforwardandheldouthishand。Hewassmiling,buttherewasalookinhiseyewhichexpressedtheexactoppositeofsmiles。 \"Ros,\"hesaid,quietly,\"RosPaine,youbull—headed,big—heartedoldchump,howareyou?\"