Shetookitinwithherpresentoddmixtureofthereceptiveandthederisive。\"Arrangedwhat?\"
\"Oh,askHER!\"
\"IwouldifIcouldfindher!\"Afterwhich,foramoment,myinterlocutressagainconsidered。\"ButIthoughtitwasjustyourcontentionthatSHEdoesn’tshine。Ifit’sLadyJohn’sperfectrepairthatputsthatsortofthingoutofthequestion,yourimage,itseemstome,breaksdown。\"
Itdidalittle,Isaw,butIgaveitatiltup。\"Notatall。It’sacaseofshiningasBrissendenshines。\"IwonderedifImightgofurther——thenriskedit。\"Bysacrifice。\"
IperceivedatoncethatIneedn’tfear:herconsciencewastoogood——shewasonlyamused。\"Sacrifice,formercy’ssake,ofwhat?\"
\"Well——formercy’ssake——ofhistime。\"
\"Histime?\"Shestared。\"Hasn’theallthetimehewants?\"
\"Mydearlady,\"Ismiled,\"hehasn’tallthetimeYOUwant!\"
ButsheevidentlyhadnotaglimmeringofwhatImeant。\"Don’tImakethingsofanease,don’tImakelifeofacharm,forhim?\"
I’mafraidIlaughedout。\"That’sperhapsexactlyit!It’swhatGilbertLongdoesforHISvictim——makesthings,makeslife,ofaneaseandacharm。\"
Shestoppedyetagain,reallywonderingatmenow。\"Thenit’sthewoman,simply,who’shappiest?\"
\"BecauseBrissenden’sthemanwhois?Precisely!\"
Onwhichforaminute,withouthergoingon,welookedateachother。
\"DoyoureallymeanthatifyouonlyknewMEasIam,itwouldcometoyouinthesamewaytohuntformyconfederate?Imeanifheweren’tmadeobvious,youknow,byhisbeingmyhusband。\"
Iturnedthisover。\"Ifyouwereonlyinflirtation——asyouremindedmejustnowthatyou’renot?Surely!\"Ideclared。\"Ishouldarriveathim,perfectly,afteralleliminations,ontheprincipleoflookingforthegreatesthappiness——\"
\"Ofthesmallestnumber?Well,hemaybeasmallnumber,\"sheindulgentlysighed,\"buthe’swhollycontent!Lookathimnowthere,\"sheaddedthenextmoment,\"andjudge。\"Wehadresumedourwalkandturnedthecornerofthehouse,amovementthatbroughtusintoviewofacouplejustroundtheangleoftheterrace,acouplewho,likeourselves,musthavepausedinasociablestroll。Thelady,withherbacktous,leanedalittleonthebalustradeandlookedatthegardens;thegentlemanclosetoher,withthesamesupport,offeredusthefaceofGuyBrissenden,asrecognisableatadistanceasthenumberedcardofa\"turn\"——theblackfigureuponwhite——atamusic—hall。Onseeingushesaidawordtohiscompanion,whoquicklyjerkedround。Thenhiswifeexclaimedtome——onlywithmoresharpness——asshehadexclaimedatMme。deDreuil:\"Byallthat’slovely——MayServer!\"
Itookit,onthespot,forakindof\"Eureka!\"butwithoutcatchingmyfriend’sidea。Iwasonlyawareatfirstthatthisidealeftmeasunconvincedaswhentheotherpossibilitieshadpassedbeforeus。Wasn’titsimplytheresultofthislady’sbeingtheonlyonewehadhappenednottoeliminate?
Shehadnotevenoccurredtous。Shewasprettyenoughperhapsforanymagic,butshehadn’ttheothersigns。Ididn’tbelieve,somehow——certainlynotonsuchshortnotice——eitherinherhappinessorinherflatness。Therewasavaguesuggestion,ofasort,inourhavingfoundhertherewithBrissenden:
therewouldhavebeenapertinence,toourcuriosity,oratleasttomine,inthisjuxtapositionofthetwopersonswhopaid,asIhadamusedmyselfwithcallingit,soheroically;yetIhadonlytohaveitmarkedforme(toseethem,thatis,sidebyside,)inordertofeelhowlittle——atanyratesuperficially——thegraceful,natural,charmingwomanrangedherselfwiththesuperannuatedyouth。
Shehadsaidawordtohimatsightofus,inanswertohisown,andinaminuteortwotheyhadmetus。Thishadgivenmetimeformorethanonereflection。IthadalsogivenMrs。Brissendentimetoinsisttomeonheridentification,whichIcouldseeshewouldbemuchlessquicktodropthanintheformercases。\"Wehaveher,\"shemurmured;\"wehaveher;
it’sSHE!\"Itwasbyherinsistanceinfactthatmythoughtwasquickened。
Itevenfeltakindofchill——anoddrevulsion——atthetouchofhereagerness。
Singularperhapsthatonlythen——yetquitecertainlythen——thecuriositytowhichIhadsofreelysurrenderedmyselfbegantostrikemeaswantingintaste。ItwasreflectedinMrs。Brissendenquitebymyfault,andI
can’tsayjustwhatcauseforshame,aftersomuchtalkofoursearchandourscent,Ifoundinourawakenedandconfirmedkeenness。Whyintheworldhadn’tIfounditbefore?Myscruple,inshort,wasathingoftheinstant;
itwasinapositiveflashthattheamusingquestionwasstampedformeasnoneofmybusiness。OneofthereflectionsIhavejustmentionedwasthatIhadnothadahappyhandinmakingitsocompletelyMrs。Brissenden’s。
Anotherwas,however,thatnothing,fortunately,thathadhappenedbetweenusreallysignified。Forwhathadsosuddenlyovertakenmewastheconsciousnessofthisanomaly:thatIwasatthesametimeasdisgustedasifIhadexposedMrs。ServerandabsolutelyconvincedthatIhadyetNOTexposedher。
While,aftertheothershadgreetedusandwestoodinvaguetalk,I
caughtafreshtheeffectoftheirjuxtaposition,Igrasped,withaprivatejoythatwasquiteextravagant——assobeyondtheneededmark——atthereassuranceitoffered。Thisreassurancesprangstraightfromaspecialsource。Brissenden’ssecretwassoawareofitselfastobealwaysonthedefensive。Shyandsuspicious,itwasasmuchonthedefensiveatpresentasIhadfeltittobe——sofarasIwasconcerned——thenightbefore。WhatwasthereaccordinglyinMrs。Server——frankandfragrantinthemorningair——tocorrespondtoanysuchconsciousness?Nothingwhatever——notasymptom。Whateversecretsshemighthavehad,shehadnotTHATone;shewasnotinthesamebox;
thesacredfount,inher,wasnotthreatenedwithexhaustion。Weallsoonre—enteredthehousetogether,butMrs。Brissenden,duringthefewminutesthatfollowed,managedtopossessherselfofthesubjectofherdenunciation。
SheputmeoffwithGuy,andIcouldn’thelpfeelingitasasignofherconcentration。ShewarmedtothequestionjustasIhadthrownitover;
andIaskedmyselfratherruefullywhatonearthIhadbeenthinkingof。
Ihadn’tintheleasthaditinmindto\"compromise\"anindividual;butanindividualwouldbecompromisedifIdidn’tnowtakecare。
Chapter4
IHAVEsaidthatIdidmanythingsonthiswonderfulday,butperhapsthesimplestwaytodescribetherestofthemisasasustainedattempttoavertthatdisaster。Isucceeded,byvigilance,inpreventingmylatecompanionfromcarryingMrs。Serveroff;Ihadnowishtoseeherstudied——byanyonebutmyselfatleast——inthelightofmytheory。IfeltbythistimethatIunderstoodmytheory,butIwasnotobligedtobelievethatMrs。
Brissendendid。IamafraidImustfranklyconfessthatIcalleddeceptiontomyaid;toseparatethetwoladiesIgavethemoreinitiatedalookinwhichIinvitedhertoreadvolumes。Thislook,orratherthelookshereturned,comesbacktomeasthefirstnoteofatolerablytight,tenselittledrama,alittledramaofwhichourremaininghoursatNewmarchwerethealltooamplestage。Sheunderstoodme,asImeant,thatshehadbetterleavemetogetatthetruth——owingmesomeobligation,asshedid,forsomuchofitasIhadalreadycommunicated。Thisstepwasofcourseatacitpledgethatsheshouldhavetherestfrommelateron。Iknewofsomepicturesinoneoftheroomsthathadnotbeenlightedthepreviousevening,andImadethesemypretextfortheeffectIdesired。IaskedMrs。Serverifshewouldn’tcomeandseethemwithme,admittingatthesametimethatIcouldscarceexpecthertoforgivemeformyshareintheinvasionofthequietcornerinwhichpoorBrisshadevidentlymanagedsotointeresther。
\"Oh,yes,\"sherepliedaswewentourway,\"heHADmanagedtointerestme。Isn’thecuriouslyinteresting?ButIhadn’t,\"shecontinuedonmybeingtoostruckwithherquestionforanimmediateanswer——\"Ihadn’tmanagedtointerestHIM。Ofcourseyouknowwhy!\"shelaughed。\"NooneinterestshimbutLadyJohn,andhecouldthinkofnothing,whileIkepthimthere,butofhowsoonhecouldreturntoher。\"
Theseremarks——ofwhichIgiveratherthesensethantheform,fortheywerealittlescatteredandtroubled,andIhelpedthemoutandpiecedthemtogether——theseremarkshadforme,Iwastofind,unexpectedsuggestions,notallofwhichwasIpreparedonthespottotakeup。\"AndisLadyJohninterestedinourfriend?\"
\"Not,Isuppose,givenhersituation,somuchashewouldperhapsdesire。
Youdon’tknowwhathersituationIS?\"shewentonwhileIdoubtlessappearedtobesunkininnocence。\"Isn’titrathermarkedthatthere’sonlyonepersonshe’sinterestedin?\"
\"Oneperson?\"Iwasthoroughlyatsea。
ButwehadreachedwithitthegreatpicturedsaloonwithwhichIhadproposedtoassisthertorenewacquaintanceandinwhichtwovisitorshadanticipatedus。\"Why,hereheis!\"sheexclaimedaswepaused,foradmiration,inthedoorway。Thehighfrescoedceilingarchedoverafloorsohighlypolishedthatitseemedtoreflectthefadedpastelsset,inrococoborders,inthewallsandconstitutingthedistinctionoftheplace。
Ourcompanions,examiningtogetheroneoftheportraitsandturningtheirbacks,wereattheoppositeend,andoneofthemwasGilbertLong。
Iimmediatelynamedtheother。\"DoyoumeanFordObert?\"
Shegaveme,withalaugh,oneofherbeautifullooks。\"Yes!\"
Itwasanswerenoughforthemoment,andthemannerofitshowedmetowhatlegendshewascommitted。Iaskedmyself,whilethetwomenfacedabouttomeetus,whyshewascommittedtoit,andIfurtherconsideredthatifGraceBrissenden,againsteveryappearance,wasright,therewouldnowbesomethingformetosee。Whichofthetwo——theagentortheobjectofthesacrifice——wouldtakemostprecautions?Ikeptmycompanionpurposely,foralittlewhile,onoursideoftheroom,leavingtheothers,interestedintheirobservations,totaketheirtimetojoinus。Itgavemeoccasiontowonderifthequestionmightn’tbecleareduponthespot。ThereWAS
noquestion,Ihadcompunctiouslymadeupmymind,forMrs。Server;butnowIshouldseetheproofofthatconclusion。Theproofofitwouldbe,betweenherandherimputedlover,theabsenceofanythingthatwasnotperfectlynatural。Mrs。Server,withhereyesraisedtothepainteddome,withresponsecharmedalmosttosolemnityinherexquisiteface,struckmeatthismoment,Ihadtoconcede,asmorethaneverapersontohavealoverimputed。Theplace,saveforitspicturesoflaterdate,atriumphofthefloriddecorationoftwocenturiesago,evidentlymetherspecialtaste,andakindofprofanepietyhaddroppedonher,drizzlingdown,inthecoldlight,insilver,incrystal,infaint,mixeddelicaciesofcolour,almostasonapilgrimatashrine。Idon’tknowwhatitwasinher——save,thatis,thepositivepitchofdelicacyinherbeauty——thatmadeher,soimpressedandpresented,indescribablytouching。Shewaslikeanawestruckchild;shemighthavebeenherself——allGreuzetints,allpalepinksandbluesandpearlywhitesandcandideyes——anolddeadpastelunderglass。
Shewasnottooreducedtothisstate,however,nottotake,soonenough,herownprecaution——ifaprecautionitwastobedeemed。IwasacutelyconsciousthatthenaturalnesstowhichIhavejustalludedwouldbe,foreitherparty,theonlyprecautionworthspeakingof。Wemovedslowlyroundtheroom,pausinghereandthereforcuriosity;duringwhichtimethetwomenremainedwherewehadfoundthem。Shehadbegunatlasttowatchthemandhadproposedthatweshouldseeinwhattheyweresoabsorbed;butIcheckedherinthemovement,raisingmyhandinafriendlyadmonitiontowait。Wewaitedthen,facetoface,lookingateachotherasiftocatchastrainofmusic。ThiswaswhatIhadintended,forithadjustcometomethatoneofthevoiceswasintheairandthatithadimposedcloseattention。Thedistinguishedpainterlistenedwhile——toallappearance——GilbertLongdid,inthepresenceofthepicture,theexplaining。FordObertmoved,afteralittle,butnotsoastointerrupt——onlysoastoshowmehisfaceinarecallofwhathadpassedbetweenusthenightbeforeinthesmoking—room。
IturnedmyeyesfromMrs。Server’s;Iallowedmyselftocommunealittle,acrosstheshiningspace,withthoseofourfellow—auditor。Theoccasionhadthusforaminutetheoddestlittleairofanaestheticlecturepromptedbyaccidental,butimmense,suggestionsanddeliveredbyGilbertLong。
Icouldn’t,atthedistance,withmycompanion,quitefollowit,butObertwasclearlypatientenoughtobetraythathewasstruck。HisimpressionwasatanyratedoubtlesshisshareofsurpriseatLong’sgiftoftalk。
Thiswaswhathiseyesindeedmostseemedtothrowovertome——\"Whatanunexpecteddemonofacritic!\"Itwasextraordinarilyinteresting——Idon’tmeanthespecialdriftofLong’seloquence,whichIcouldn’t,asIsay,catch;butthephenomenonofhis,ofallpeople,dealinginthatarticle。
Itputbeforemethequestionofwhether,inthesestrangerelationsthatIbelievedIhadthusgotmyglimpseof,theactionoftheperson\"sacrificed\"
mightn’tbequiteoutofproportiontotheresourcesofthatperson。Itwasasiftheseelementsmightreallymultiplyinthetransfermadeofthem;asiftheborrowerpracticallyfoundhimself——orherself——inpossessionofagreatersumthantheknownpropertyofthecreditor。Thesurrender,inthisway,added,bypurebeauty,tothethingsurrendered。WeallknowtheFrenchadageaboutthatplusbellefilledumondewhocangivebutwhatshehas;yetifMrs。Server,forinstance,HADbeentheheroineofthisparticularconnection,thecommunicationofherintelligencetoherfriendwouldquitehavefalsifiedit。Shewouldhavegivenmuchmorethanshehad。
WhenLonghadfinishedhisdemonstrationandhischargedvoicehaddropped,wecrossedtoclaimacquaintancewiththeworkthathadinspiredhim。TheplacehadnotbeencompletelynewtoMrs。Serveranymorethantomyself,andtheimpressionnowmadeonherwasbuttheintenservibrationofachordalreadystirred;neverthelessIwasstruckwithhersaying,asaresultofmoreremembrancethanIhadattributedtoher\"Ohyes,——themanwiththemaskinhishand!\"OnourjoiningtheothersIexpressedregretatourhavingturneduptoolatefortheideasthat,onathemesopromising,theywouldhavebeensuretoproduce,andObert,quiteagreeingthatwehadlostatreat,saidfrankly,inreferencetoLong,butaddressinghimselfmoreespeciallytoMrs。Server:\"He’sperfectlyamazing,youknow——he’sperfectlyamazing!\"
IobservedthatasaconsequenceofthisLonglookedneitheratMrs。
ServernoratObert;helookedonlyatme,andwithquiteapenetrableshadeofshyness。Thenagainastrangethinghappened,astrangerthingeventhanmyquicksense,thepreviousafternoonatthestation,thathewasachangedman。Itwasasifhewerestillmorechanged——hadalteredasmuchsincetheeveningbeforeasduringthesomuchlongerintervalofwhichIhadoriginallytotakeaccount。HehadalteredalmostlikeGraceBrissenden——helookedfairlydistinguished。Isaidtomyselfthat,withouthisstatureandcertainsignsinhisdress,Ishouldprobablynothaveplacedhim。EngrossedaninstantwiththisviewandwithnotlosingtouchoftheuneasinessthatIconceivedIhadfastenedonhim,IbecameawareonlyaftershehadspokenthatMrs。ServerhadgailyandgracefullyaskedofObertwhyintheworldsocleveramanshouldNOThavebeenclever。
\"Obert,\"Iaccordinglytookuponmyselftoremark,\"hadevidentlylabouredundersomeextraordinarydelusion。HemustliterallyhavedoubtedifLongWASclever。\"
\"Fancy!\"Mrs。ServerexplainedwithacharmingsmileatLong,who,stilllookingpleasantlycompetentandnottoofatuous,amiablyreturnedit。
\"They’renatural,they’renatural,\"Iprivatelyreflected;\"thatis,he’snaturaltoHER,buthe’snotsotome。\"Andasifseeingdepthsinthis,andtotryit,Iappealedtohim。\"Do,mydearman,letushaveitagain。It’sthepicture,ofallpictures,thatmostneedsaninterpreter。
DON’Twewant,\"IaskedofMrs。Server,\"toknowwhatitmeans?\"Thefigurerepresentedisayoungmaninblack——aquaint,tightblackdress,fashionedinyearslongpast;withapale,lean,lividfaceandastare,fromeyeswithouteyebrows,likethatofsomewhitenedold—worldclown。Inhishandheholdsanobjectthatstrikesthespectatoratfirstsimplyassomeobscure,someambiguousworkofart,butthatonasecondviewbecomesarepresentationofahumanface,modelledandcoloured,inwax,inenamelledmetal,insomesubstancenothuman。Theobjectthusappearsacompletemask,suchasmighthavebeenfantasticallyfittedandworn。
\"Yes,whatintheworlddoesitmean?\"Mrs。Serverreplied。\"Onecouldcallit——thoughthatdoesn’tgetonemuchfurther——theMaskofDeath。\"
\"Whyso?\"Idemandedwhileweallagainlookedatthepicture。\"Isn’titmuchrathertheMaskofLife?It’stheman’sownfacethat’sDeath。
Theotherone,bloomingandbeautiful——\"
\"Ah,butwithanawfulgrimace!\"Mrs。Serverbrokein。
\"Theotherone,bloomingandbeautiful,\"Irepeated,\"isLife,andhe’sgoingtoputiton;unlessindeedhehasjusttakenitoff。\"
\"He’sdreadful,he’sawful——that’swhatImean,\"saidMrs。Server。\"ButwhatdoesMr。Longthink?\"
\"Theartificialface,ontheotherhand,\"Iwenton,asLongnowsaidnothing,\"isextremelystudiedand,whenyoucarefullylookatit,charminglypretty。Idon’tseethegrimace。\"
\"Idon’tseeanythingelse!\"Mrs。Servergood—humouredlyinsisted。\"AndwhatdoesMr。Obertthink?\"
Hekepthiseyesonheramomentbeforereplying。\"Hethinksitlookslikealovelylady。\"
\"Thatgrinningmask?Whatlovelylady?\"
\"Itdoes,\"Ideclaredtohim,reallyseeingwhathemeant——\"itdoeslookremarkablylikeMrs。Server。\"
Shelaughed,butforgivingly。\"I’mimmenselyobliged。Youdeserve,\"
shecontinuedtome,\"thatIshouldsaythegentleman’sownfaceistheimageofacertainothergentleman’s。\"
\"Itisn’ttheimageofyours,\"Obertsaidtome,fittingthecap,\"butit’safunnythingthatitshouldreallyrecalltoonesomefaceamongushere,onthisoccasion——Imeansomefaceinourparty——thatIcan’tthinkof。\"Wehadoureyesagainontheominousfigure。\"We’veseenhimyesterday——we’veseenhimalreadythismorning。\"Obert,oddlyenough,stillcouldn’tcatchit。\"Whothedeuceisit?\"
\"Iknow,\"Ireturnedafteramoment——ourfriend’sreferencehavingagain,inaflash,becomeilluminating。\"Butnothingwouldinducemetotell。\"
\"Ifiweretheflatteredindividual,\"Longobserved,speakingforthefirsttime,\"I’veanideathatyou’dgivemethebenefitofthecompliment。
Thereforeit’sprobablynotme。\"
\"Oh,it’snotyouintheleast,\"Mrs。Serverblandlytookuponherselftoobserve。\"Thisfaceissobad——\"
\"Andmineissogood?\"ourcompanionlaughed。\"Thankyouforsavingme!\"
Iwatchedthemlookateachother,fortherehadbeenasyetbetweenthemnocompleteexchange。Yes,theywerenatural。Icouldn’thavemadeitoutthattheywerenot。Buttherewassomething,allthesame,thatIwantedtoknow,andIputitimmediatelytoLong。\"Whydoyoubringagainstmesuchanaccusation?\"
Hemetthequestion——singularlyenough——asifhisreadinesshadsuddenlydesertedhim。\"Idon’tknow!\"——andheturnedofftoanotherpicture。
ItleftthethreeofusallthemoreconfrontedwiththeconundrumlaunchedbyObert,andMrs。Server’scuriosityremained。\"DOname,\"shesaidtome,\"theflatteredindividual。\"
\"No,it’saresponsibilityIleavetoObert。\"
Buthewasclearlystillatfault;hewaslikeamandesiring,butunable,tosneeze。\"Iseethefellow——yetIdon’t。Nevermind。\"Heturnedawaytoo。\"He’llcometome。\"
\"Theresemblance,\"saidLong,onthis,atadistancefromusandnotturning,\"theresemblance,whichIshouldn’tthinkwouldpuzzleanyone,issimplyto’poorBriss’!\"
\"Oh,ofcourse!\"——andObertgaveajumpround。
\"Ah——Idoseeit,\"Mrs。Serverconcededwithherheadononeside,butasifspeakingratherforharmony。
Ididn’tbelieveshesawit,butthatonlymadeherthemorenatural;
whichwasalsotheairshehadongoingtojoinLong,inhisnewcontemplation,afterIhadadmittedthatitwasofBrissendenImyselfhadthought。ObertandIremainedtogetherinthepresenceoftheManwiththeMask,and,theothersbeingoutofearshot,heremindedmethatIhadpromisedhimthenightbeforeinthesmoking—roomtogivehimto—daytheknowledgeI
hadthenwithheld。IfIhadannouncedthatIwasonthetrackofadiscovery,prayhadImadeityet,andwhatwasit,atanyrate,thatIproposedtodiscover?Ifeltnow,intruth,moreuncomfortablethanIhadexpectedinbeingkepttomyobligation,andIbeataboutthebushalittletill,insteadofmeetingit,Iwasabletoputthenaturalquestion:\"WhatwonderfulthingswasLongjustsayingtoyou?\"
\"Oh,characteristiconesenough——whimsical,fanciful,funny。Thethingshesays,youknow。\"
Itwasindeedafreshview。\"Theystrikeyouascharacteristic?\"
\"Ofthemanhimselfandhistypeofmind?Surely。Don’tYOU?Hetalkstotalk,buthe’sreallyamusing。\"
Iwaswatchingourcompanions。\"Indeedheis——extraordinarilyamusing。\"
ItwashighlyinterestingtometohearatlastofLong’s\"typeofmind。\"
\"SeehowamusingheisatthepresentmomenttoMrs。Server。\"
Oberttookthisin;shewasconvulsed,intheextravagancealwayssoprettyastobepardonable,withlaughter,andsheevenlookedoveratusasiftointimatewithhershining,lingeringeyesthatwewouldn’tbesurprisedathertransportsifwesuspectedwhatherentertainer,whomshehadneverknownforsuchahumourist,wassaying。Insteadofgoingtofindout,allthesame,weremainedanotherminutetogether。Itwasforme,now,Icouldsee,thatOberthadhisbestattention。\"What’sthematterwiththem?\"
Itstartledmealmostasmuchasifhehadaskedmewhatwasthematterwithmyself——forthatsomethingWAS,underthishead,Iwasbythistimeunabletoignore。NottwentyminuteshadelapsedsinceourmeetingwithMrs。ServerontheterracehaddeterminedGraceBrissenden’selation,butitwasafactthatmynervousnesshadtakenanextraordinarystride。I
hadperhapsnottillthisinstantbeenfullyawareofit——itwasreallybroughtoutbythewayObertlookedatmeasifhefanciedhehadheardmeshake。Mrs。Servermightbenatural,andGilbertLongmightbe,butIshouldnotpreservethatcalmunlessIpulledmyselfwelltogether。I
madetheeffort,facingmysharpinterlocutor;andIthinkitwasatthispointthatIfullymeasuredmydismay。Ihadgrown——thatwaswhatwasthematterwithmeprecipitately,preposterouslyanxious。Insteadofdropping,thediscomfortproducedinmebyMrs。Brissendenhaddeepenedtoagitation,andthisinspiteofthefactthatinthebriefintervalnothingworse,nothingbutwhatwasright,hadhappened。HadImyselfsuddenlyfallensomuchinlovewithMrs。Serverthatthecareforherreputationhadbecomewithmeanobsession?ItwasofnousesayingIsimplypitiedher:whatdidIpityherforifshewasn’tindanger?SheWASindanger:thatrushedovermeatpresent——rushedovermewhileItriedtolookeasyanddelayedtoanswermyfriend。SheWASindanger——ifonlybecauseshehadcaughtandheldthesearchlightofObert’sattention。Itookuphisinquiry。\"Thematterwiththem?Idon’tknowanythingbutthatthey’reyoungandhandsomeandhappy——children,aswhoshouldsay,oftheworld;childrenofleisureandpleasureandprivilege。\"
Obert’seyeswentbacktothem。\"DoyourememberwhatIsaidtoyouaboutheryesterdayafternoon?Shedartsfromflowertoflower,butsheclings,forthetime,toeach。You’vebeenfeeling,Ijudge,theforceofmyremark。\"
\"Oh,shedidn’tatall’dart,’\"Ireplied,\"justnowatme。Idarted,muchrather,atHER。\"
\"Longdidn’t,then,\"Obertsaid,stillwithhiseyesonthem。
Ihadtowaitamoment。\"Doyoumeanhestruckyouasavoidingher?\"
Heinturnconsidered。\"Hestruckmeashavingnoticedwithwhatintensity,eversincewecamedown,shehaskeptalighting。Sheinauguratedit,theinstantshearrived,withme,andeverymanofushashadhisturn。Idaresayit’sonlyfair,certainly,thatLongshouldhave。\"
\"He’sluckytogetit,thebrute!She’sascharmingasshecanpossiblybe。\"
\"That’sit,precisely;andit’swhatnowomanoughttobe——ascharmingasshepossiblycan!——morethanonceortwiceinherlife。Thisladyissoeveryblessedminute,andtoeveryblessedmale。It’sasifsheweretooawfullyafraidonewouldn’ttakeitin。Ifshebutknewhowonedoes!
However,\"myfriendcontinued,\"you’llrecollectthatwedifferedaboutheryesterday——andwhatdoesitsignify?Oneshouldofcoursebearlightlyonanythingsolight。ButIsticktoitthatshe’sdifferent。\"
Ipondered。\"Differentfromwhom?\"
\"Differentfromherself——asshewaswhenIpaintedher。There’ssomethingthematterwithher。\"