第11章

类别:其他 作者:Henry, Jr.James字数:9709更新时间:19/01/07 14:51:50
\"Not,Itrust,\"Ireturned,\"ofany’lie’their’soulhathspoken!’ Butnotoneofthemlingers?\" Heseemedtowonder。\"’Lingers?’Forwhat?\" \"Oh,Idon’tknow——inthishouse!\" Helookedatourlongvista,stilllighted——appearedtofeelwithmeourliberalease,whichimpliedthatunseenpowerswaitedonourgoodpleasureandsatupforus。Thereisnothinglikeitinfact,theliberaleaseatNewmarch。YetObertremindedme——ifIneededthereminder——thatImustn’tafterallpresumeonit。\"WasoneofthemtolingerforYOU?\" \"Well,sinceyouaskme,itwaswhatIhoped。Butsinceyouanswerforitthatmyhopehasnotbeenmet,Ibowtoasuperiorpropriety。\" \"Youmeanyou’llcomeandsmokewithme?Dothencome。\" \"What,ifIdo,\"Iaskedwithanidea,\"willyougiveme?\" \"I’mafraidIcanpromiseyounothingmorethatidealinthanabadcigarette。\" \"Andwhatthen,\"Iwenton,\"willyoutakefromme?\" Hehadmetmyeyes,andnowlookedatmealittlewithasmilethatIthoughtjustconscious。\"Well,I’mafraidICAN’Ttakeanymore——\" \"Ofthesortofstuff,\"Ilaughed,\"you’vealreadyhad?Sorrystuff,perhaps——apoorthingbutmineown!Suchasitis,Ionlyasktokeepitformyself,andthatisn’twhatImeant。Imeantwhatflowerwillyougather,whathavocwillyouplay——?\" \"Well?\"hesaidasIhesitated。 \"AmongsuperstitionsthatI,afterall,cherish。Monsiegeestfait——agreatglitteringcrystalpalace。Howmanypaneswillyourewardmeforamiablysittingupwithyoubysmashing?\" Itmighthavebeenmymerefancy——butitWASmyfancy——thathelookedatmeatrifleharder。\"HowonearthcanItellwhatyou’retalkingabout?\" Iwaitedamoment,thenwenton:\"Didyouhappentocountthem?\" \"Countwhom?\" \"Why,theladiesastheyfiledup。Wasthenumberthere?\" Hegaveajerkofimpatience。\"Goandseeforyourself!\" OncemoreIjustwaited。\"ButsupposeIshouldfindMrs。Server?\" \"Prowlingthereonthechanceofyou?Well——Ithoughtshewaswhatyouwanted。\" \"Then,\"Ireturned,\"youCOULDtellwhatIwastalkingabout!\"Foramomentafterthiswefacedeachotherwithoutmorespeech,butIpresentlycontinued:\"Youdidn’treallynoticeifanyladystayedbehind?\" \"Ithinkyouasktoomuchofme,\"heatlastbroughtout。\"Takecareofyourladies,mydearman,yourself!Go,\"herepeated,\"andsee。\" \"Certainly——it’sbetter;butI’llrejoinyouinthreeminutes。\"Andwhilehewenthiswaytothesmoking—roomIproceededwithoutmoredelaytoassuremyself,performingintheoppositesensethejourneyIhadmadetenminutesbefore。ItwasextraordinarywhatthesightofLongaloneintheouterdarknesshaddoneforme:myexpressionofitwouldhavebeenthatithadputme\"on\"againatthemomentofmydecidedlyfeelingmyselfoff。IbelievedthatifIhadn’tseenhimIcouldnowhavegonetobedwithoutseeingMrs。Briss;butmyrenewedimpressionhadsuddenlymadethedifference。Ifthatwasthewayhestruckme,howmightnot,ifIcouldgetather,she?Andshemight,afterall,intheprivacyatlastofferedusbyemptyrooms,bewaitingforme。Iwentthroughthemall,however,onlytofindthememptyindeed。InconformitywiththelargeallowancesofeverysortthatwerethelawofNewmarch,theywerestillopenandlighted,sothatifIhadbelievedinMrs。Briss’sreappearanceImightconveniently,onthespot,havegivenherfiveminutesmore。Iamnotsure,forthatmatter,thatIdidn’t。IrememberatleastwonderingifImightn’tringsomewhereforaservantandcauseaquestiontobesentuptoher。Ididn’tring,butImusthavelingeredalittleonthechanceofthearrivalofservantstoextinguishlightsandseethehousesafe。Theyhadnotarrived,however,bythetimeIagainfeltthatImustgiveup。 Chapter11 Igaveupbygoing,decidedly,tothesmoking—room,whereseveralmenhadgatheredandwhereObert,alittleapartfromthem,wasincharmedcommunionwiththebookshelves。Theyarewonderful,everywhere,atNewmarch,thebookshelves,butheputavolumebackashesawmecomein,andamomentlater,whenwewereseated,Isaidtohimagain,asarecallofourpreviouspassage,\"ThenyouCOULDtellwhatIwastalkingabout!\"AndIadded,tocompletemyreference,\"SinceyouthoughtMrs。Serverwasthepersonwhom,whenIstoppedyou,IwassorrytolearnfromyouIhadmissed。\" HismomentarysilenceappearedtoadmittheconnectionIestablished。 \"ThenyoufindyouHAVEmissedher?Shewasn’tthereforyou?\" \"There’snoone’thereforme’;sothatIfearthatifyouweren’t,asithappens,hereforme,myamusementwouldbequiteatanend。Ihad,infact,\"Icontinued,\"alreadygivenitupaslostwhenIcameuponyou,awhilesince,inconversationwiththeladywe’venamed。Atthat,Iconfess,myprospectsgavesomethingofaflare。IsaidtomyselfthatsinceYOUR interesthadn’tthenwhollydropped,why,evenattheworst,shouldmine? YoursWASmine,wasn’tit?foralittle,thismorning。Orwasitminethatwasyours?Weexchanged,atanyrate,somelivelyimpressions。Only,beforewehaddone,youreffortdroppedoryourdiscretionintervened:yougaveup,asnoneofyourbusiness,thequestionthathadsuddenlytemptedus。\" \"Andyougaveituptoo,\"saidmyfriend。 \"Yes,anditwasontheideathatitwasmineaslittleasyoursthatweseparated。\" \"Wellthen?\"Hekepthiseyes,withhisheadthrownback,onthewarmbindings,admirableforoldgiltandoldcolour,thatcoveredtheoppositewall。 \"Wellthen,ifI’vecorrectlygatheredthatyou’re,inspiteofourcommonrenunciation,stillinterested,IconfesstoyouthatIam。Itookmydetachmenttoosoonforgranted。Ihaven’tbeendetached。I’mnot,hangme!detachednow。Andit’sallbecauseyouwereoriginallysosuggestive。\" \"Originally?\" \"Why,fromthemomentwemethereyesterday——themomentofmyfirstseeingyouwithMrs。Server。Thelookyougavemethenwasreallythebeginningofeverything。Everything\"——andIspokenowwithrealconviction——\"wastraceablytospringfromit。\" \"Whatdoyoumean,\"heasked,\"byeverything?\" \"Well,thisfailureofdetachment。Whatyousaidtomeasweweregoingupyesterdayafternoontodress——whatyousaidtomethenisresponsibleforit。Andsinceitcomestothat,\"Ipursued,\"Imakeoutformyselfnowthatyou’renotdetachedeither——unless,thatis,simplydetachedfromME。IhadindeedasuspicionofthatasIpassedthroughtheroomthere。\" Hesmokedthroughanotherpause。\"You’veextraordinarynotionsofresponsibility。\" Iwatchedhimamoment,butheonlystaredatthebookswithoutlookinground。Somethinginhisvoicehadmadememorecertain,andmycertaintymademelaugh。\"IseeyouAREserious!\" Buthewentonquietlyenough。\"You’veextraordinarynotionsofresponsibility。 Idenyaltogethermine。\" \"YouAREserious——youARE!\"IrepeatedwithagaietythatImeantasinoffensiveandthatIbelieveremainedso。\"Butnomatter。You’renoworsethanI。\" \"I’mclearly,byyourownstory,nothalfsobad。But,asyousay,nomatter。Idon’tcare。\" Iventuredtokeepitup。\"Oh,don’tyou?\" Hisgoodnaturewasproof。\"Idon’tcare。\" \"Thenwhydidn’tyousomuchaslookatmeawhileago?\" \"Didn’tIlookatyou?\" \"Youknowperfectlyyoudidn’t。Mrs。Serverdid——withherunutterableintensity;makingmefeelafresh,bytheway,thatI’veneverseenawomancompromiseherselfsolittlebyproceedingssocompromising。Butthoughyousawherintensity,itneverdivertedyouforaninstantfromyourown。\" Helightedbeforeheansweredthisafreshcigarette。\"Amanengagedintalkwithacharmingwomanscarcelyselectsthatoccasionforwinkingatsomebodyelse。\" \"YoumeanhecontentshimselfwithwinkingatHER?Mydearfellow,thatwasn’tenoughforyouyesterday,anditwouldn’thavebeenenoughforyouthismorning,amongtheimpressionsthatledtoourlasttalk。Itwasjustthefactthatyoudidwink,thatyouHADwinked,atmethatwoundmeup。\" \"AndwhataboutthefactthatyouhadwinkedatME?YOURwinks——come\"——Obertlaughed——\"areportentous!\" \"Oh,ifwerecriminate,\"Icheerfullysaidafteramoment,\"weagree。\" \"I’mnotsosure,\"hereturned,\"thatweagree。\" \"Ah,then,ifwedifferit’sstillmoreinteresting。Because,youknow,wedidn’tdiffereitheryesterdayorthismorning。\" Withouthurryorflurry,butwithadecentconfusion,histhoughtswentback。\"Ithoughtyousaidjustnowwedid——recognising,asyouought,thatyouwerekeenaboutachaseofwhichIwashedmyhands。\" \"No——Iwasn’tkeen。You’vejustmentionedthatyouremembermygivingup。Iwashedmyhandstoo。\" Itseemedtoleavehimwiththemoralofthis。\"Then,ifourhandsareclean,whatarewetalkingabout?\" Iturned,onit,alittlemoretohim,andlookedathimsolongthathehadatlasttolookatme;withwhich,afterholdinghiseyesanothermoment,Imademypoint。\"Ourhandsarenotclean。\" \"Ah,speakforyourown!\"——andashemovedbackImightreallyhavethoughthimuneasy。Therewasahintofthesamenoteinthewayhewenton:\"IassureyouIdeclineallresponsibility。Iseetheresponsibilityasquitebeautifullyyours。\" \"Well,\"Isaid,\"Ionlywanttobefair。Youwerethefirsttobringitoutthatshewaschanged。\" \"Well,sheisn’tchanged!\"saidmyfriendwithanalmoststartlingeffect,forme,ofsuddenness。\"Orrather,\"heimmediatelyandincongruouslyadded,\"sheIS。She’schangedback。\" \"’Back’?\"Itmademestare。 \"Back,\"herepeatedwithacertainsharpnessandasiftohavedoneatlast,forhimself,withthemuddleofit。 Buttherewasthatinmethatcouldlethimseehehadfarfromdone; andsomething,aboveall,toldmenowthatheabsolutelymustn’thavebeforeIhad。IquicklymoreoversawthatImust,withanart,makehimwantnotto。\"Backtowhatshewaswhenyoupaintedher?\" Hehadtothinkaninstantforthis。\"No——notquitetothat。\" \"Towhatthen?\" Hetriedinamannertoobligeme。\"Tosomethingelse。\" Itseemedso,formythought,thegleamofsomethingthatfitted,thatIwasalmostafraidofquenchingthegleambypressure。ImustthengeteverythingIcouldfromhimwithoutaskingtoomuch。\"Youdon’tquiteknowtoWHATelse?\" \"No——Idon’tquiteknow。\"Buttherewasasoundinit,thistime,thatItookasthehintofawishtoknow——almostarecognitionthatImighthelphim。 IhelpedhimaccordinglyasIcouldand,Imayadd,asfarasthepositiveflutterhehadstirredinmesuffered。Itfitted——itfitted!\"Ifherchangeistosomethingother,Isupposethenachangebackisnotquitetheexactnameforit。\" \"Perhapsnot。\"Ifairlythrilledathistakingthesuggestionasifitwereanassistance。\"Sheisn’tatanyratewhatIthoughtheryesterday。\" Itwasamazingintowhatdepthsthisdroppedformeandwithwhatpossibilitiesitmingled。\"Irememberwhatyousaidofheryesterday。\" IdrewhimonsothatIbroughtbackforhimtheverywordshehadused。 \"Shewassobeastlyunhappy。\"Andheusedthemnowvisiblynotasaremembranceofwhathehadsaid,butforthecontrastofthefactwithwhatheatpresentperceived;sothatthevaluethisgaveformetowhatheatpresentperceivedwasimmense。 \"Anddoyoumeanthatthat’sgone?\" Hehungfire,however,alittleastosayingsomuchwhathemeant,andwhilehewaitedheagainlookedatme。\"WhatdoYOUmean?Don’tyouthinksoyourself?\" Ilaidmyhandonhisarmandheldhimamomentwithagripthatbetrayed,Idaresay,theeffortinmetokeepmythoughtstogetherandlosenotathread。Itbetrayedatonce,doubtless,thedangerofthatfailureandthesharpforetasteofsuccess。Irememberthatwithit,absolutely,I struckmyselfasknowingagainthejoyoftheintellectualmasteryofthingsunamenable,thatjoyofdetermining,almostofcreatingresults,whichIhavealreadymentionedasanexhilarationattachedtosomeofmyplungesofinsight。\"ItwouldtakelongtotellyouwhatImean。\" ThetoneofitmadehimfairlywatchmeasIhadbeenwatchinghim。 \"Well,haven’twegotthewholenight?\" \"Oh,itwouldtakemorethanthewholenight——evenifwehadit!\" \"Bywhichyousuggestthatwehaven’tit?\" \"No——wehaven’tit。Iwanttogetaway。\" \"Togotobed?Ithoughtyouweresokeen。\" \"IAMkeen。Keenisnowordforit。Idon’twanttogotobed。Iwanttogetaway。\" \"Toleavethehouse——inthemiddleofthenight?\" \"Yes——absurdasitmayseem。Youexcitemetoomuch。Youdon’tknowwhatyoudotome。\" Hecontinuedtolookatme;thenhegavealaughwhichwasnotthecontradiction,butquitetheattestation,oftheeffectproducedonhimbymygrip。IfIhadwantedtoholdhimIheldhim。ItonlycametomeeventhatIheldhimtoomuch。Ifeltthisinfactwiththenextthinghesaid。\"Ifyou’retooexcited,then,tobecoherentnow,willyoutellmeto—morrow?\" Itooktimemyselfnowtorelight。Ridiculousasitmaysound,Ihadmynervestosteady;whichisaproof,surely,thatforrealexcitementtherearenosuchadventuresasintellectualones。\"Oh,tomorrowIshallbeoffinspace!\" \"Certainlyweshallneitherofusbehere。Butcan’twearrange,say,tomeetintown,oreventogouptogetherinsuchconditionsaswillenableustotalk?\" Ipattedhisarmagain。\"Thankyouforyourpatience。It’sreallygoodofyou。WhoknowsifIshallbealiveto—morrow?WeAREmeeting。Wedotalk。\" ButwithallIhadtothinkofImusthavefallen,onthis,intothedeepestofsilences,forthenextthingIrememberishisreturning:\"Wedon’t!\"Irepeatedmygestureofreassurance,IconveyedthatIshouldbewithhimagaininaminute,andpresently,whilehegavemetime,hecamebacktosomethingofhisown。\"Mywink,atallevents,wouldhavebeennothingforanyquestionbetweenus,asI’vejustsaid,withoutyours。 That’swhatIcallyourresponsibility。Itwas,asweputthematter,thetorchofyouranalogy——\" \"Oh,thetorchofmyanalogy!\" Ihadsogroanedit——asifforveryecstasy——thatitpulledhimup,andIcouldseehiscuriosityasindeedreaffected。Buthewentonwithacoherencythatsomewhatadmonishedme:\"Itwasyourmakingme,asItoldyouthismorning,thinkoverwhatyouhadsaidaboutBrissendenandhiswife:itwasTHAT——\" \"Thatmadeyouthinkover\"——Itookhimstraightup——\"whatyouyourselfhadsaidaboutourtroubledlady?Yes,precisely。ThatWASthetorchofmyanalogy。WhatIshowedyouintheonecaseseemedtotellyouwhattolookforintheother。Youthoughtitover。IaccuseyouofnothingworsethanofHAVINGthoughtitover。Butyouseewhatthinkingitoverdoesforit。\" ThewayIsaidthisappearedtoamusehim。\"IseewhatitdoesforYOU!\" \"No,youdon’t!Notatallyet。That’sjusttheembarrassment。\" \"Justwhose?\"IfIhadthankedhimforhispatienceheshowedthathedeservedit。\"Justyours?\" \"Well,saymine。Butwhenyoudo——!\"AndIpausedasfortherichpromiseofit。 \"WhenIdoseewhereyouare,youmean?\" \"TheonlydifficultyiswhetheryouCANsee。Butwemusttry。You’vesetmewhirlinground,butwemustgostepbystep。Oh,butit’sallinyourgerm!\"——Ikeptthatup。\"Ifsheisn’tnowbeastlyunhappy\" \"She’sbeastlyhappy?\"hebrokein,gettingfirmerhold,ifnotoftherealimpressionhehadjustbeengatheringundermyeyes,thenatleastofsomethinghehadbeguntomakeoutthatmyargumentrequired。\"Well,thatISthewayIseeherdifference。Herdifference,Imean,\"headded,inhisevidentwishtoworkwithme,\"herdifferencefromherotherdifference! There!\"Helaughedasif,also,hehadfoundhimselffairlyfantastic。 \"Isn’tTHATclearforyou?\" \"CrystallineforME。Butthat’sbecauseIknowwhy。\" Icanseeagainnowthelonglookthat,onthis,hegaveme。Imadeoutalreadymuchofwhatwasinit。\"SothendoI!\" \"Buthowintheworld?Iknow,formyself,HOWIknow。\" \"SothendoI,\"heafteramomentrepeated。 \"Andcanyoutellme?\" \"Certainly。ButwhatI’vealreadynamedtoyou——thetorchofyouranalogy。\" Iturnedthisover。\"You’vemadeevidentlyanadmirableuseofit。Butthewonderfulthingisthatyouseemtohavedonesowithouthavingalltheelements。\" Heonhissideconsidered。\"Whatdoyoucallalltheelements?\" \"Oh,itwouldtakemelongtotellyou!\"Icouldn’thelplaughingatthecomparativesimplicitywithwhichheaskedit。\"That’sthesortofthingwejustnowspokeoftakingadayfor。Atanyrate,suchastheyare,theseelements,\"Iwenton,\"Ibelievemyselfpracticallyinpossessionofthem。ButwhatIdon’tquiteseeishowyoucanbe。\" Well,hewasabletotellme。\"Whyintheworldshouldn’tyouranalogyhaveputme?\"Hespokewithgaiety,butwithlucidity。\"I’mnotanidioteither。\" \"Isee。\"Buttherewassomuch! \"DidyouthinkIWAS?\"heamiablyasked。 \"No。Isee,\"Irepeated。YetIdidn’t,really,fully;whichhepresentlyperceived。 \"YoumademethinkofyourviewoftheBrissendenpairtillIcouldthinkofnothingelse。\" \"Yes——yes,\"Isaid。\"Goon。\" \"Well,asyouhadplantedthetheoryinme,itbegantobearfruit。 Ibegantowatchthem。Icontinuedtowatchthem。Ididnothingbutwatchthem。\" Thesuddenloweringofhisvoiceinthisconfession——asifithadrepresentedasortofdarkeningofhisconsciousness——againamusedme。\"Youtoo?Howthenwe’vebeenoccupied!ForI,yousee,havewatched——orhad,untilI foundyoujustnowwithMrs。Servereveryone,everythingBUTyou。\" \"Oh,I’vewatchedYOU,\"saidFordObertasifhehadthenperhapsafteralltheadvantageofme。\"IadmitthatImadeyououtformyselftobebackonthescent;forIthoughtImadeyououtbaffled。\" TolearnwhetherIreallyhadbeenwas,Isaw,whathewouldmosthaveliked;butIalsosawthathehad,astothis,ascrupleaboutaskingme。 WhatImostsaw,however,wasthattotellhimIshouldhavetounderstand。 \"Whatscentdoyoualludeto?\" HesmiledasifImighthavefanciedIcouldfence。\"Why,thepursuitoftheidentificationthat’snoneofourbusiness——theidentificationofherlover。\" \"Ah,it’sastothat,\"Iinstantlyreplied,\"you’vejudgedmebaffled? I’mafraid,\"Ialmostasquicklyadded,\"thatImustadmitIHAVEbeen。 Luckily,atallevents,itISnoneofourbusiness。\" \"Yes,\"saidmyfriend,amusedonhisside,\"nothing’sourbusinessthatwecan’tfindout。Isawyouhadn’tfoundhim。Andwhat,\"Obertcontinued,\"doeshematternow?\" Ittookbutamomenttoplacemeforseeingthatmycompanion’sconvictiononthispointwasaconvictiondecidedlytorespect;andeventhatamountofhesitationwasbuttheresultofmywonderinghowhehadreachedit。 \"What,indeed?\"Ipromptlyreplied。\"ButhowdidyouseeIhadfailed?\" \"ByseeingthatImyselfhad。ForI’vebeenlookingtoo。Heisn’there,\" saidFordObert。 DelightedasIwasthatheshouldbelieveit,Iwasyetstruckbythecomplacencyofhisconfidence,whichconnecteditselfagainwithmyobservationoftheirsorecentcolloquy。\"Oh,foryoutobesosure,hasMrs。Serversquaredyou?\" \"IShehere?\"heforallanswertothisinsistentlyasked。 Ifalteredbutaninstant。\"No;heisn’there。It’snothankstoone’sscruples,butperhapsit’sluckyforone’smanners。Ispeakatleastformine。Ifyou’vewatched,\"Ipursued,\"you’vedoubtlesssufficientlyseenwhathasalreadybecomeofmine。Heisn’there,atallevents,\"Irepeated,\"andwemustdowithouthisidentity。What,infact,areweshowingeachother,\"Iasked,\"butthatweHAVEdonewithoutit?\" \"ihave!\"myfrienddeclaredwithsupremefranknessandwithsomethingofthenote,asIwasobligedtorecognise,ofmyownconstructivejoy。 \"I’vedoneperfectlywithoutit。\" Isawinfactthathehad,anditstruckmereallyaswonderful。ButIcontrolledtheexpressionofmywonder。\"Sothatifyouspokethereforejustnowofwatchingthem——\" \"Imeantofcourse\"——hetookitstraightup——\"watchingtheBrissendens。 Andnaturally,aboveall,\"heasquicklysubjoined,\"thewife。\" Iwasnowfullofconcurrence。\"Ah,naturally,aboveall,thewife。\" Sofaraswasrequireditencouragedhim。\"Awoman’sloverdoesn’tmatter——doesn’tmatteratleasttoanyonebuthimself,doesn’tmattertoyouortomeortoher——whenonceshehasgivenhimup。\" Itmademe,thistestimonyofhisobservation,show,inspiteofmyhavingbythistimesocountedonit,somethingofthevivacityofmyemotion。 \"SheHASgivenhimup?\" Butthesurprisewithwhichhelookedroundputmebackonmyguard。 \"Ofwhatelsethenarewetalking?\" \"Ofnothingelse,ofcourse,\"Istammered。\"Butthewayyousee——!\" Ifoundmyrefugeinthegaspofmyadmiration。 \"Idosee。But\"——heWOULDcomebacktothat——\"onlythroughyourhavingseenfirst。Yougavemethepieces。I’vebutputthemtogether。YougavemetheBrissendens——boundhandandfoot;andI’vebutmadethem,inthatsorrystate,pullmethrough。I’veblownonmytorch,inotherwords,till,flaringandsmoking,ithasguidedme,throughamagnificentchiaroscuroofcolourandshadow,outintothelightofday。\" Iwasreallydazzledbyhisimage,foritrepresentedhispersonalwork。 \"You’vedonemorethanI,itstrikesme——andwithlesstodoitwith。IfIgaveyoutheBrissendensIgaveyouallIhad。\" \"Butallyouhadwasimmense,mydearman。TheBrissendensareimmense。\" \"OfcoursetheBrissendensareimmense!Iftheyhadn’tbeenimmensetheywouldn’thavebeen——NOTHINGwouldhavebeen——anything。\"Thenafterapause,\"Yourimageissplendid,\"Iwenton——\"yourbeingoutofthecave。 Butwhatisitexactly,\"Iinsidiouslythrewout,\"thatyouCALLthe’lightofday’?\" Iremainedamoment,however,notsurewhetherIhadbeentoosubtleortoosimple。Hehadanotherofhiscautions。\"WhatdoYOU——?\" ButIwasdeterminedtomakehimgiveitmeallhimself,foritwasfrommynotpromptinghimthatitsvaluewouldcome。\"Youtellme,\"Iaccordinglyrathercrudelypleaded,\"first。\" ItgaveusamomentduringwhichhesolookedasifIaskedtoomuch,thatIhadafearoflosingall。Heevenspokewithsomeimpatience。\"Ifyoureallyhaven’tfounditforyourself,youknow,IscarceseewhatyouCANhavefound。\" ThenIhadmyinspiration。Iriskedanapproachtoroughness,andallthemoreeasilythatmywordswerestricttruth。\"Oh,don’tbeafraid——greaterthingsthanyours!\" Itsucceeded,foritplayeduponhiscuriosity,andhevisiblyimaginedthat,withimpatiencecontrolled,heshouldlearnwhatthesethingswere。 Herelaxed,heresponded,andthenextmomentIwasinallbutfullenjoymentofthepiecewantedtomakeallmyotherpiecesright——rightbecauseofthatspecialbeautyinmyschemethroughwhichthewholedependedsooneachpartandeachpartsoguaranteedthewhole。\"WhatIcallthelightofdayisthesenseI’vearrivedatofhervision。\" \"Hervision?\"——Ijustbalancedintheair。 \"Ofwhattheyhaveincommon。HIS——poorchap’sextraordinarysituationtoo。\" \"Bravo!Andyouseeinthat——?\" \"What,allthesehours,hastouched,fascinated,drawnher。Ithasbeenaninstinctwithher。\" \"Bravissimo!\" Itsawhim,myapproval,safelyintoport。\"Theinstinctofsympathy,pity——theresponsetofellowshipinmisery;thesightofanotherfateasstrange,asmonstrousasherown。\"