第15章

类别:其他 作者:Henry, Jr.James字数:9949更新时间:19/01/07 14:51:50
\"Callitthen,ifyoudon’tliketheword,yoursympathy。\" Ihadgivenhertime,however,toproduceatlastsomethingthat,itvisiblyoccurredtoher,mightpass。\"AssoonasIwasnotwithyou——I meanwithyoupersonally——youNEVERhadmysympathy。\" \"Ismypersonthensoirresistible?\" Well,shewasbrave。\"ItWAS。Butit’snot,thankGod,now!\" \"Thenthereweareagainatourmystery!Idon’tthink,youknow,\"I madeoutforher,\"itwasmyperson,really,thatgaveitscharmtomytheory;Ithinkitwasmuchmoremytheorythatgaveitscharmtomyperson。 Myperson,Iflattermyself,hasremainedthroughthesefewhours——hoursoftension,butofatension,yousee,purelyintellectual——asgoodasever;sothatifwe’renot,eveninouranomaloussituation,indangerfromanysuchsource,it’ssimplythatmytheoryisdeadandthattheblightoftherestisinvolved。\" Mywordswereindeedmany,butsheplumpedstraightthroughthem。\"AssoonasIwasawayfromyouIhatedyou。\" \"HatedME?\" \"Well,hatedwhatyoucall’therest’——hatedyourtheory。\" \"Isee。Yet,\"Ireflected,\"you’renotatpresent——thoughyouwishtogoodness,nodoubt,youWERE——awayfromme。\" \"Oh,Idon’tcarenow,\"shesaidwithcourage;\"since——foryouseeI believeyou——we’reawayfromyourdelusions。\" \"Youwouldn’t,inspiteofyourbelief,\"——Ismiledather——\"liketobealittlefurtheroffyet?\"Butbeforeshecouldanswer,andbecausealso,doubtless,thequestionhadtoomuchthesoundofataunt,Icameup,asifforherrealconvenience,quiteinanotherplace。\"Perhapsmyidea——mytiming,thatis,ofyourcrisis——istheresult,inmymind,ofmyownassociationwiththatparticularinstant。ItcomesbacktomethatwhatIwasmostfullofwhileyourfacesignedtomeandyourvoicethensograciouslyconfirmedit,andwhiletoo,asI’vesaid,Longwalkedaway——whatIwasmostfullof,asaconsequenceofanothergo,justended,atLadyJohn,was,oncemore,thissameLadyJohn’swantofadjustabilitytothecharacteryouandI,inourassociatedspeculationofthemorning,hadsocandidlytriedtofitherwith。Iwasstilleventhen,yousee,speculating——allonmyownhook,alas!——andithadjustrolledovermewithrenewedforcethatshewasnothingwhatever,nottheleastlittlebit,toourpurpose。 Themoment,inotherwords,ifyouunderstand,happenedtobeoneofMY moments;sothat,bythesametoken,Isimplywonderedifitmightn’tlikewisehavehappenedtobeoneofyours。\" \"ItWASoneofmine,\"Mrs。BrissrepliedaspromptlyasIcouldreasonablyhaveexpected;\"inthesensethat——asyou’veonlytoconsider——itwastoleadmoreorlessdirectlytothesepresentwordsofours。\" IfIhadonlytoconsider,nothingwasmoreeasy;buteachtimeIconsidered,Iwasreadytoshow,thelessthereseemedleftbytheact。\"Ah,butyouhadthenALREADYbackedout。Won’tyouunderstand——foryou’realittlediscouraging——thatIwanttocatchyouattheearlierstage?\" \"To’catch’me?\"Ihadindeedexpressions! \"Absolutelycatch!Focusyouunderthefirstshockoftheobservationthatwastomakeeverythingfalltopiecesforyou。\" \"ButI’vetoldyou,\"shestoutlyresisted,\"thattherewasno’first’ shock。\" \"Well,then,thesecondorthethird。\" \"Therewasnoshock,\"Mrs。Brissmagnificentlysaid,\"atall。\" Itmademesomehowbreakintolaughter。\"Youfounditsonaturalthen——andyousoratherlikedit——tomakeupyourmindofasuddenthatyouhadbeensteepedinthelastintellectualintimacywithamaniac?\" Shethoughtoncemore,andthen,asImyselfhadjustpreviouslydone,cameupinanotherplace。\"IhadatthemomentyouspeakofwhollygivenupanyideaofLadyJohn。\" Butitwassofeebleitmademesmile。\"Ofcourseyouhad,youpoorinnocent!Youcouldn’totherwise,hoursbefore,havestrappedthesaddlesotightonanotherwoman。\" \"Ihadgivenupeverything,\"shestubbornlycontinued。 \"It’sexactlywhat,inreferencetothatjuncture,Iperfectlyembrace。\" \"Well,eveninreferencetothatjuncture,\"sheresumed,\"youmaycatchmeasmuchasyoulike。\"Withwhich,suddenly,duringsomeseconds,Isawherholdherselfforaleap。\"Youtalkof’focussing,’butwhatelse,eveninthoseminutes,wereyouinfactengagedin?\" \"Ah,then,youdorecognisethem,\"Icried——\"thoseminutes?\" Shetookherjump,thoughwithsomethingofaflop。\"Yes——as,consentingthustobecatechised,Icudgelmybrainforyouramusement——Idorecognisethem。IrememberwhatIthought。Youfocussed——Ifeltyoufocus。Isawyouwonderwhereabouts,inwhatyoucallourassociatedspeculation,I wouldbythattimebe。Iaskedmyselfwhetheryou’dunderstandifIshouldtrytoconveytoyousimplybymyexpressionsuchalookaswouldtellyouall。By’all’Imeantthefactthat,sorryasIwasforyou——orperhapsformyself——ithadstruckmeasonlyfairtoletyouknowasstraightaspossiblethatIwasnowhere。ThatwaswhyIstaredso,andIofcoursecouldn’texplaintoyou,\"shelucidlypursued,\"towhommystarehadreference。\" Ihungonherlips。\"ButyoucanNOW?\" \"Perfectly。ToMr。Long。\" Iremainedsuspended。\"Ah,butthisislovely!It’swhatIwant。\" IsawIshouldhavemoreofit,andmoreinfactcame。\"Youweresayingjustnowwhatyouwerefullof,andIcandothesame。IwasfullofHIM。\" I,onmyside,wasnowfullofeagerness。\"Yes?Hehadleftyoufullashewalkedaway?\" Shewincedalittleatthisrenewedevocationofhisretreat,butshetookitasshehadnotdonebefore,andIfeltthatwithanotherpushshewouldbefairlyafloat。\"Hehadreasontowalk!\" Iwondered。\"Whathadyousaidtohim?\" Shepieceditout。\"Nothing——orverylittle。ButIhadlistened。\" \"AndtoWHAT?\" \"Towhathesays。Tohisplatitudes。\" \"Hisplatitudes?\"Istared。\"Long’s?\" \"Why,don’tyouknowhe’saprizefool?\" Imused,scepticalbutreasonable。\"HeWAS。\" \"HeIS!\" Mrs。Brisswassuperb,but,asIquicklyfeltImightremindher,therewasherpossiblyweakjudgment。\"Yourconfidenceissplendid;onlymustn’tIrememberthatyoursenseofthefinerkindsofclevernessisn’tperhapsabsolutelysecure?Don’tyouknow?——youalso,tilljustnow,thoughtME aprizefool。\" IfIhadhoped,however,heretotripherup,Ihadreckonedwithouttheimpulse,andevenperhapstheexample,thatsheproperlyowedtome。 \"Oh,no——notanythingofthatsort,you,atall。Onlyanintelligentmangonewrong。\" Ifollowed,butbeforeIcaughtup,\"WhereasLong’sonlyastupidmangoneright?\"Ithrewout。 Itcheckedhertoobriefly,andtherewasindeedsomethingofmyownitbroughtstraightback。\"Ithoughtthatjustwhatyoutoldme,thismorningoryesterday,wasthatyouhadneverknownacaseoftheconversionofanidiot。\" Ilaughedatherreadiness。Well,Ihadwantedtomakeherfight!\"It’strueitwouldhavebeentheonlyone。\" \"Ah,you’llhavetodowithoutit!\"Oh,shewasbrisknow。\"AndifyouknowwhatIthinkofhim,youknownomorethanHEdoes。\" \"Youmeanyoutoldhim?\" Shehungfirebutaninstant。\"Itoldhim,practically——anditwasinfactallIdidhavetosaytohim。Itwasenough,however,andhedisgustedlyleftmeonit。Thenitwasthat,asyougavemethechance,Itriedtotelegraphyou——tosaytoyouonthespotandunderthesharpimpression: ’Whatonearthdoyoumeanbyyournonsense?Itdoesn’tholdwater!’It’sapityIdidn’tsucceed!\"shecontinued——forshehadbecomealmostvoluble。 \"Itwouldhavesettledthequestion,andIshouldhavegonetobed。\" Iweigheditwiththegrimacethat,Ifeared,hadbecomealmostasfixedasMrs。Server’s。\"Itwouldhavesettledthequestionperhaps;butIshouldhavelostthisimpressionofyou。\" \"Oh,thisimpressionofme!\" \"Ah,butdon’tundervalueit:it’swhatIwant!WhatwasitthenLonghadsaid?\" Shehaditmoreandmore,butshehaditasnothingatall。\"Notawordtorepeat——youwouldn’tbelieve!Hedoessaynothingatall。Onecan’tremember。It’swhatImean。Itriedhimonpurpose,whileIthoughtofyou。Buthe’sperfectlystupid。Idon’tseehowwecanhavefancied——!\" Ihadinterruptedherbythemovementwithwhichagain,uncontrollablytossedononeofmysurgesofcertitude,Iturnedaway。HOWdeeptheymusthavebeenintogetherforhertohavesoatlastgatheredherselfup,andinhowdoublyinterestingalight,aboveall,itseemedtopresentLongforthefuture!Thatwas,whileIwarnedmyself,whatImostreadin——literallyanimplicationoftheenhancementofthislattersideoftheprodigy。Ifhiscleverness,underthealarmthat,firststirringtheirconsciousnessbutdimly,hadsoswiftlydevelopedastomakenextofeachamirrorfortheother,andthentoprecipitateforthem,insomesilencedeeperthandarkness,theexchangeofrecognitions,admissionsand,astheycertainlywouldhavephrasedit,tips——ifhisexcitedacutenesswashenceforthtoprotectitselfbydissimulation,whatwouldn’tperhaps,forone’sdiversion,bethenewspectacleandwonder?IcouldinamanneralreadymeasurethislargerplaybytheamplitudefreshlydeterminedinMrs。Briss,andIwasforamomentactuallyheldbythethoughtofthepossiblefinishourfriendwouldfinditinhimtogivetoarepresented,afictiveineptitude。Thesharpestjostletomythought,inthisrush,mightwellhavebeen,Iconfess,thereflectionthatasitwasIwhohadarrested,whohadspoiledtheirunconsciousness,soitwasnaturaltheyshouldfightagainstmeforapossiblelifeinthestateIhadgiventheminstead。Ihadspoiledtheirunconsciousness,Ihaddestroyedit,anditwasconsciousnessalonethatcouldmakethemeffectivelycruel。Therefore,iftheywerecruel,itwasIwhohaddeterminedit,inasmuchas,consciously,theycouldonlywant,theycouldonlyintend,tolive。Wouldn’tthatquestionhavebeen,Imanagedevennowtoaskmyself,theverybasisonwhichtheyhadinscrutablycometogether?\"It’slife,youknow,\"eachhadsaidtotheother,\"andI,accordingly,canonlyclingtomine。Butyou,poordear——shallYOUgiveup?\"\"Giveup?\"theotherhadreplied:\"forwhatdoyoutakeme?Ishallfightbyyourside,please,andwecancompareandexchangeweaponsandmanoeuvres,andyoumayineverywaycountuponme。\" Thatwaswhat,withgreatervividness,wasfortherestoftheoccasionbeforeme,orbehindme;andthatIhaddoneitallandhadonlymyselftothankforitwaswhat,fromthisminute,bythesametoken,wasmoreandmoreformetheinneressenceofMrs。Briss’sattitude。Iknownotwhatheavyadmonitionofmyresponsibilityhadthussuddenlydescendedonme;butnothing,underit,wasindeedmoresensiblethanthatpracticallyitparalysedme。AndIcouldonlysaytomyselfthatthiswastheprice——thepriceofthesecretsuccess,thelonelylibertyandtheintellectualjoy。 Therewerethingsthatforsoprivateandsplendidarevel——thatoftheexclusivekingwithhisWagneropera——Icouldonlyletgo,andthespecialtormentofmycasewasthattheconditionoflight,ofthesatisfactionofcuriosityandoftheattestationoftriumph,wasinthisdirectwaythesacrificeoffeeling。Therewasnopointatwhichmyassurancecould,bythescientificmethod,judgeitselfcompleteenoughnottoregardfeelingasaninterferenceand,inconsequence,asapossiblecheck。IfithadtogoIknewwellwhowentwithit,butIwasn’ttheretosaveTHEM。I wastheretosavemypricelesspearlofaninquiryandtoharden,tothatend,myheart。Ishouldneedindeedallmyhardness,aswellasmybrightness,moreover,tomeetMrs。BrissonthehighleveltowhichIhadatlastinducedhertomount,and,evenwhileIprolongedthemovementbywhichIhadmomentarilystayedher,theintermissionofherspeechbecameitselfformeahintofthepeculiarpertinenceofcaution。Itlastedlongenough,thisdrop,tosuggestthatherattentionwasthesharperformyhavingturnedawayfromit,andIshouldhavefearedarenewedchallengeifshehadn’t,bygoodluck,presentlygoneon:\"There’sreallynothinginhimatall!\" Chapter14 Ihadfacedheragainjustintimetotakeit,andIimmediatelymadeupmymindhowbesttodoso。\"ThenIgoutterlytopieces!\" \"Youshouldn’thaveperchedyourself,\"shelaughed——shecouldbythistimealmostcoarselylaugh——\"insuchapreposterousplace!\" \"Ah,that’smyaffair,\"Ireturned,\"andifIaccepttheconsequencesIdon’tquiteseewhatyou’vetosaytoit。ThatIdoacceptthem——sofarasImakethemoutasnottoointolerableandyouasnotintendingthemtobe——thatIdoacceptthemiswhatI’vebeentryingtosignifytoyou。 Onlymyfall,\"Iadded,\"isaninevitableshock。Youremarkedtomeafewminutessincethatyoudidn’trecoveryourselfinaflash。Idifferfromyou,yousee,inthatido;Itakemycollapseallatonce。HerethenI am。I’msmashed。Idon’tsee,asIlookaboutme,apieceIcanpickup。 Idon’tattempttoaccountformygoingwrong;Idon’tattempttoaccountforyourswithme;Idon’tattempttoaccountforanything。IfLongIS justwhathealwayswasitsettlesthematter,andthespecialclincherforuscanbebutyourhonestfinalimpression,madepreciselymoreawareofitselfbyrepentanceforthelevitywithwhichyouhadoriginallyyieldedtomycontagion。\" Shedidn’tinsistonherrepentance;shewastootakenupwiththefactsthemselves。\"Oh,butaddtomyimpressioneveryoneelse’simpression!Hasanyonenoticedanything?\" \"Ah,Idon’tknowwhatanyonehasnoticed。Ihaven’t,\"Ibrooded,\"ventured——asyouknow——toaskanyone。\" \"Well,ifyouhadyou’dhaveseen——seen,Imean,alltheydon’tsee。 Iftheyhadbeenconsciousthey’dhavetalked。\" Ithought。\"Tome?\" \"Well,I’mnotsuretoyou;peoplehavesuchanotionofwhatyouembroideronthingsthatthey’reratherafraidtocommitthemselvesortoleadyouon:they’resometimesin,youknow,\"sheluminouslyremindedme,\"formorethantheybargainfor,thantheyquiteknowwhattodowith,orthantheycaretohaveontheirhands。\" Itriedtodojusticetothisaccountofmyself。\"YoumeanIseesomuch?\" Itwasadelicatematter,butsheriskedit。\"Don’tyousometimesseehorrors?\" Iwondered。\"Well,namesareaconvenience。Peoplecatchmeintheact?\" \"Theycertainlythinkyoucritical。\" \"Andiscriticismthevisionofhorrors?\" Shecouldn’tquitebesurewhereIwastakingher。\"Itisn’t,perhaps,somuchthatyouseethem——\" Istarted。\"AsthatIperpetratethem?\" Shewassurenow,however,andwouldn’thaveit,forshewasserious。 \"Dearno——youdon’tperpetrateanything。Perhapsitwouldbebetterifyoudid!\"shetossedoffwithanoddlaugh。\"But——alwaysbypeople’sidea——youlikethem。\" Ifollowed。\"Horrors?\" \"Well,youdon’t——\" \"Yes——?\" Butshewouldn’tbehurriednow。\"Youtakethemtoomuchforwhattheyare。Youdon’tseemtowant——\" \"Tocomedownonthemstrong?Oh,butIoftendo!\" \"Somuchthebetterthen。\" \"ThoughIdolike——whetherforthatornot,\"Ihastenedtoconfess,\"tolookthemfirstwellintheface。\" Oureyesmet,withthis,foraminute,butshemadenothingofthat。 \"WhentheyHAVEnoface,then,youcan’tdoit!Itisn’tatalleventsnowaquestion,\"shewenton,\"ofpeople’skeepinganythingback,andyou’reperhapsinanycasenotthepersontowhomitwouldfirsthavecome。\" Itriedtothinkthenwhothepersonwouldbe。\"ItwouldhavecometoLonghimself?\" Butshewasimpatientofthis。\"Oh,onedoesn’tknowwhatcomes——orwhatdoesn’t——toLonghimself!I’mnotsurehe’stoomodesttomisrepresent——ifhehadtheintelligencetoplayapart。\" \"Whichhehasn’t!\"Iconcluded。 \"Whichhehasn’t。It’stoMEtheymighthavespoken——ortoeachother。\" \"ButIthoughtyouexactlyheldtheyHADchatteredinaccountingforhisstatebytheinfluenceofLadyJohn。\" Shegotthematterinstantlystraight。\"Notabit。Thatchatterwasmineonly——andproducedtomeetyours。Therehadso,byyourtheory,tobeawoman——\" \"That,toobligeme,youinventedHER?Precisely。ButIthought——\" \"Youneedn’thavethought!\"Mrs。Brissbrokein。\"Ididn’tinventher。\" \"Thenwhatareyoutalkingabout?\" \"Ididn’tinventher,\"sherepeated,lookingatmehard。\"She’strue。\" Iechoeditinvagueness,thoughinstinctivelyagaininprotest;yetI heldmybreath,forthiswasreallythepointatwhichIfeltmycompanion’sforcesmosttohavemustered。Hermannernowmoreovergavemeagreatideaofthem,andherwholeairwasoftakingimmediateadvantageofmyimpression。 \"Well,seehere:sinceyou’vewantedit,I’mafraidthat,howeverlittleyoumaylikeit,you’llhavetotakeit。You’vepressedmeforexplanationsanddrivenmemuchharderthanyoumusthaveseenIfoundconvenient。IfI’veseemedtobeataboutthebushit’sbecauseIhadn’tonlymyselftothinkof。Onecanbesimpleforone’sself——onecan’tbe,always,forothers。\" \"Ah,towhomdoyousayit?\"Iencouraginglysighed;notevenyetquiteseeingforwhatissueshewasheading。 Shecontinuedtomakeforthespot,whateveritwas,withacertainmajesty。\"IshouldhavepreferredtotellyounothingmorethanwhatI HAVEtoldyou。Ishouldhavepreferredtocloseourconversationonthesimpleannouncementofmyrecoveredsenseofproportion。ButyouHAVE,Isee,gotmeintoodeep。\" \"O—oh!\"Icourteouslyattenuated。 \"You’vemadeofme,\"shelucidlyinsisted,\"toobigatalker,toobigathinker,ofnonsense。\" \"Thankyou,\"Ilaughed,\"forintimatingthatItriflesoagreeably。\" \"Oh,YOU’VEappearednottomind!Butletmethenatlastnotfailoftheluxuryofadmittingthatimind。Yes,Imindparticularly。Imay,bebad,butI’veagrainofgumption。\" \"’Bad’?\"Itseemedmorecloselytoconcernme。 \"BadImaybe。Infact,\"shepursuedatthishighpitchandpressure; \"there’snodoubtwhateverIAM。\" \"I’mdelightedtohearit,\"Icried,\"foritwasexactlysomethingstrongIwantedofyou!\" \"ItISthenstrong\"——andIcouldseeindeedshewasreadytosatisfyme。\"You’veworriedmeformymotiveandharassedmeformy’moment,’andI’vehadtoprotectothersand,atthecostofadecentappearance,topretendtobemyselfhalfanidiot。I’vehadeven,forthesamepurpose——ifyoumusthaveit——todepartfromthetruth;togiveyou,thatis,afalseaccountofthemannerofmyescapefromyourtangle。Butnowthetruthshallbetold,andotherscantakecareofthemselves!\"Shehadsowoundherselfupwiththis,reachedsothepointoffairlyheavingwithcourageandcandour,thatIforaninstantalmostmiscalculatedherdirectionandbelievedshewasreallythrowinguphercards。Itwasasifshehaddecided,onsomestillfinerlines,justtorubmynoseintowhatIhadbeenspellingout;whichwouldhavebeenananticipationofmyownjourney’scrownofthemostdisconcertingsort。Iwantedmypersonalconfidence,butIwantednobody’sconfession,andwithoutthejourney’scrownwhereWASthepersonalconfidence?Withoutthepersonalconfidence,moreover,wherewasthepersonalhonour?ThatwouldbereallythesinglethingtowhichIcouldattachauthority,foraconfessionmight,afterall,beitselfalie。Anybody,atallevents,couldfittheshoetoone。Myfriend’sintention,however,remainedbutbrieflyequivocal;mydangerpassed,andIrecognisedinitsplaceastillricherassurance。Itwasnottheunnamed,inshort,whoweretobenamed。 \"LadyJohnISthewoman。\" Yeteventhiswasprodigious。\"ButIthoughtyourpresentpositionwasjustthatshe’sNOT!\" \"LadyJohnISthewoman,\"Mrs。Brissagainannounced。 \"ButIthoughtyourpresentpositionwasjustthatnobodyis!\" \"LadyJohnISthewoman,\"sheathirdtimedeclared。 Itnaturallyleftmegaping。\"ThenthereISone?\"Icriedbetweenbewildermentandjoy。 \"Awoman?There’sHER!\"Mrs。Brissrepliedwithmoreforcethangrammar。 \"Iknow,\"shebriskly,almostbreezilyadded,\"thatIsaidshewouldn’tdo(asIhadoriginallysaidshewoulddobetterthananyone),whenyouawhileagomentionedher。Butthatwastosaveher。\" \"Andyoudon’tcarenow,\"Ismiled,\"ifshe’slost!\" Shehesitated。\"SheISlost。Butshecantakecareofherself。\" Icouldbuthelplesslythinkofher。\"I’mafraidindeedthat,withwhatyou’vedonewithher,ican’ttakecareofher。Butwhyisshenowtothepurpose,\"Iarticulatelywondered,\"anymorethanshewas?\" \"Why?Ontheverysystemyouyourselflaiddown。Whenwetookhimforbrilliant,shecouldn’tbe。Butnowthatweseehimasheis——\" \"WecanonlyseeheralsoasSHEis?\"Well,Itried,asfarasmyamusementwouldpermit,sotoseeher;butstillthereweredifficulties。\"Possibly!\" Iatmostconceded。\"Doyouoweyourdiscovery,however,whollytomysystem? Mysystem,wheresomuchmadeforprotection,\"Iexplained,\"wasn’tintendedtohavetheeffectofexposure。\" \"Itappearstohavebeenatalleventsintended,\"mycompanionreturned,\"tohavetheeffectofdrivingmetothewall;andtheconsequenceofthateffectisnobody’sfaultbutyourown。\" Shewasalllogicnow,andIcouldeasilysee,betweenmylightandmydarkness,howshewouldremainso。YetIwasscarcesatisfied。\"Andit’sonlyon’thateffect’——?\" \"ThatI’vemadeupmymind?\"Shewaspositivelyfreeatlasttoenjoymydiscomfort。\"Wouldn’titbesurely,ifyourideaswereworthanything,enough?Butitisn’t,\"sheadded,\"onlyonthat。It’sonsomethingelse。\" Ihadafteraninstantextractedfromthisthesinglemeaningitcouldappeartoyield。\"I’mtounderstandthatyouKNOW?\" \"Thatthey’reintimateenoughforanything?\"Shefaltered,butshebroughtitout。\"Iknow。\" Itwastheoddestthingintheworldforalittle,thewaythisaffectedmewithoutmyatallbelievingit。Itwaspreposterous,hangthoughitwouldwithhersomersault,andshehadquitesucceededingivingitthenoteofsincerity。Itwasthemeresoundofitthat,asIfeltevenatthetime,madeitalittleofablow——ablowofthesmartofwhichIwasconsciousjustlongenoughinwardlytomurmur:\"WhatifsheSHOULDberight?\" Shehadforthesesecondstheadvantageofstirringwithinmethememoryofherhavingindeed,thedayprevious,atPaddington,\"known\"asIhadn’t。 IthadbeenreallyonwhatsheTHENknewthatweoriginallystarted,andanelementofourstarthadbeenthatIadmiredherfreedom。Theformofit,atleast——sobeautifullyhadsherecoveredherself——wasalltherenow。 Well,Iatanyratereflected,itwasn’ttheformthatneedtroubleme,andIquicklyenoughputheraquestionthatrelatedonlytothematter。 \"Ofcourseifsheis——itISsmash!\" \"Andhaven’tyouyetgotusedtoitsbeing?\" Ikeptmyeyesonher;Itracedtheburiedfigureintheruins。\"She’sgoodenoughforafool;andso\"——Imadeitout——\"ishe!IfheISthesameass——yes——theyMIGHTbe。\" \"ANDheis,\"saidMrs。Briss,\"thesameass!\" Icontinuedtolookather。\"Hewouldhavenoneedthenofherhavingtransformedandinspiredhim。\" \"OrofherhavingDEformedandidiotisedherself,\"myfriendsubjoined。 Oh,howitsharpenedmylook!\"No,no——shewouldn’tneedthat。\" \"ThegreatpointisthatHEwouldn’t!\"Mrs。Brisslaughed。 Ikeptitup。\"Shewoulddoperfectly。\" Mrs。Brisswasnotbehind。\"Mydearman,shehasgottodo!\" Thiswasbriskerstill,butIheldmyway。\"Almostanyonewoulddo。\" Itseemedforalittle,betweenhumourandsadness,tostrikeher。\"AlmostanyoneWOULD。Still,\"shelesspensivelydeclared,\"wewanttherightone。\" \"Surely;therightone\"——Icouldonlyechoit。\"Buthow,\"Ithenproceeded,\"hasithappilybeenconfirmedtoyou?\" Itpulledherupatrifle。\"’Confirmed’——?\" \"Thathe’sherlover。\"