Asshedescendedfromthecarriagethegirlwastremulousanduncertainofherselfandmuchoverpoweredbytheunbendingairoftheman—servantwhoreceivedherasifshewereaparcelinwhichitwasnopartofhisdutytotakethesmallestinterest。Asshemountedthestonestepsshecaughtaglimpseofbroadgloomwithinthethreshold,abig,square,dingyhallwheresomeotherservantsweredrawnupinarow。ShehadreadofsomethingofthesortinEnglishnovels,andshewassuddenlyembarrassedafreshbyherrealisationofthefactthatshedidnotknowwhattodoandthatifshemadeamistakeNigelwouldneverforgiveher。
Anelderlywomancameoutofaroomopeningintothehall。Shewasanuglywomanofarigidcarriage,which,withtheobviousintentionofbeingseverelymajestic,wasonlyantagonistic。Shehadaflaccidchin,andwascuriouslylikeNigel。Shehadalsohisexpressionwhenheintendedtobedisagreeable。ShewastheDowagerLadyAnstruthers,andbeinganentirelyrevoltingoldpersonatherbest,sheobjectedextremelytothetransatlanticbridewhohadmadeheradowager,thoughshewasdeterminedlypreparedtoprofitbyanypracticalbenefitlikelytoaccrue。
\"Well,Nigel,\"shesaidinadeepvoice。\"Hereyouareatlast。\"
Thiswasofcourseastatementnottoberefuted。Sheheldoutaleatherncheek,andasSirNigelalsopresentedhis,theircaressofgreetingwasasingularandnoteffusiveone。
\"Isthisyourwife?\"sheasked,givingRosalieabonyhand。
Andashedidnotindignantlydenythistobethefact,sheadded,\"Howdoyoudo?\"
Rosaliemurmuredareplyandtriedtocontrolherselfbymakinganotherefforttoswallowthelumpinherthroat。
Butshecouldnotswallowit。Shehadbeenkeepingadesperateholdonherselftoolong。Thebewilderedmiseryofherawakening,theawkwardnessofthepublicrowatthestation,thesulkswhichhadfilledthecarriagetorepletionthroughallthelongdrive,andfinallythejanglingbellswhichhadsorecalledthatlastjoyousdayathome——athome——hadbroughthertoapointwherethismeetingbetweenmotherandson——thesetwostony,unpleasantcreaturesexchangingareluctantrubofuninvitingcheeks——astwosavagesmighthaverubbednoses——provedthefinishingimpetustohysteria。Theyweresohideous,thesetwo,andsoghastlycomicandfantasticintheirunresponsiveglumness,thatthepoorgirllostallholduponherselfandbrokeintoatremblingshriekoflaughter。
\"Oh!\"shegaspedinterroratwhatshefelttobeherindecentmadness。\"Oh!how——how————\"AndthenseeingNigel’sfuriousstart,hismother’sglareandalltheservants’
alarmedstareather,sherushedstaggeringtotheonlycreatureshefeltsheknew——hermaidHannah,clutchedherandbrokedownintowildsobbing。
\"Oh,takemeaway!\"shecried。\"Oh,do!Oh,do!Oh,Hannah!
Oh,mother——mother!\"
\"Takeyourmistresstoherroom,\"commandedSirNigel。
\"Godownstairs,\"hecalledouttotheservants。\"Takeherupstairsatonceandthrowwaterinherface,\"totheexcitedHannah。
AndasthenewLadyAnstrutherswashalfled,halfdragged,inhumiliatedhystericdisorderupthestaircase,hetookhismotherbytheelbow,marchedherintothenearestroomandshutthedoor。Theretheystoodandstaredateachother,breathingquick,enragedbreathsandlookingparticularlyalikewiththeirheavy—featured,thick—skinned,infuriatedfaces。
ItwastheDowagerwhospokefirst,andherwholevoiceandmannerexpressedallsheintendedthattheyshould,allthederision,dislikeandscathingresignmenttoagrotesquefate。
\"Well,\"saidherladyship。\"SoTHISiswhatyouhavebroughthomefromAmerica!\"
CHAPTERIV
AMISTAKEOFTHEPOSTBOY’S
AstheweekspassedatStornhamCourttheAtlanticOceanseemedtoRosalieAnstrutherstowidenendlessly,andgay,happy,noisyNewYorktorecedeuntilitwasasfarawayassomememoryofheaven。Thegirlhadbeenborninthemidstoftherattling,rumblingbustle,andithadneverstruckherasassumingthecharacterofnoise;shehadonlythoughtofitasbeingthecheerfulconfusioninseparablefromtown。
ShehadbeensecretlyoffendedandhurtwhenstrangerssaidthatNewYorkwasnoisyanddirty;whentheycalleditvulgar,sheneverwhollyforgavethem。ShewasoftheNewYorkerswhoadoretheirNewYorkasParisiansadoreParisandwhofeelthatonlywithinitsbelovedboundariescanthebreathoflifebebreathed。Peoplewereoftentoohotortoocoldthere,buttherewasusuallyplentyofbrightglaringsun,andtheextremesoftheweatherhadatleastsomethingratherdramaticaboutthem。Thereweredramaticincidentsconnectedwiththem,atanyrate。Peoplefelldeadofsunstrokeorwerefrozentodeath,andthenewspaperswerefullofanecdotesduringa\"coldsnap\"ora\"torridwave,\"whichallmadeforexcitementandconversation。
ButatStornhamtherainseemedtoyoungLadyAnstrutherstodescendceaselessly。Theseasonwasawetone,andwhensheroseinthemorningandlookedoutoverthehugestretchoftreesandswardshethoughtshealwayssawtherainfallingeitherinhopelesssheetsormorehopelessdrizzle。Theoccasionsuponwhichthiswasadrearytruthblottedoutorblurredtheexceptions,wheninliquidultramarinedeepsofsky,floatedislandsandmountainsofsnow—whitefleece,ofabeautyofwhichshehadbeforehadnoconception。
IntheEnglishnovelsshehadread,placessuchasStornhamCourtwerealwaysfilledwith\"houseparties,\"madeupofwonderfultownwitsandbeauties,whoprovidedendlessentertainmentforeachother,whoplayedgames,whohuntedandshotpheasantsandshoneindazzlingamateurtheatricals。Therewere,however,novisitorsatStornham,andtherewereinfact,noaccommodationsforany。Therewerenumberlessbedrooms,butnonereallyfitforgueststooccupy。Carpetsandcurtainswereancientandragged,furniturewasdilapidated,chimneyswouldnotdraw,bedswerefallingtopieces。
TheDowagerLadyAnstruthershadnevereitherattracteddesired,orbeenabletoaffordcompany。Herson’swifesufferedfromtheresultingboredomandunpopularitywithoutbeingabletocomprehendthesignificanceofthesituation。
AstheweeksdraggedbyafewheavycarriagesdepositedattheCourtafewcallers。Someofthevisitorsboreimposingtitles,whichmadeRosalieverynervousandcausedherhastilytoarrayherselftoreceivethemintoilettesmuchtooprettyanddelicatefortheoccasion。Herinnocentideawasthatshemustdoherhusbandcreditbyappearingas\"stylish\"aspossible。
Asaresultshewasstaredat,eitherwithopendisfavour,orwithwell—bred,furtivecriticism,andwasdescribedafterwardsasbeingeither\"veryAmerican\"or\"veryover—
dressed。\"WhenshehadlivedinhugeroomsinFifthAvenue,Rosaliehadchangedherattireasmanytimesadayasshehadchangedherfancy;everyhourhadbeenfilledwithengagementsandamusements;theVanderpoelcarriageshaddrivenuptothedooranddrivenawayagainandagainthroughthemorningsandafternoonsanduntilmidnightandlater。Someonewasalwaysgoingoutorcomingin。Therehadbeeninthebighandsomehousenotmuchmoreofanairofreposethanonemightexpecttofindatarailwaystation;buttheflurry,thecomingandgoing,thecallingandchattinghadallbeencheery,amiable。AtStornham,Rosaliesatatbreakfastbeforeunchangingboiledeggs,unfailingtoastandunalterablebroiledbacon,morningaftermorning。SirNigelsatandmunchedoverthenewspapers,hismother,withanairofrelentlessdisapprovalfromaloftyheightofbothherfoodandcompanions,disposedofhereggsandherrasheratRosalie’srighthand。Shehadtransferredtoherdaughter—in—lawherpreviouslyoccupiedseatattheheadofthetable。Thishadbeendonewithacarefullypreparedsceneofintensethoughcorrectdisagreeableness,inwhichshehadmanagedtoconveyalltherancourofherdethronedspiritandherdisapprovalanddisdainofinternationalalliances。
\"Itisofcourseproperthatyoushouldsitattheheadofyourhusband’stable,\"shehadsaid,amongotheragreeablethings。\"Awomanhavingdevotedherlifetohersonmustrelinquishherpositiontothepersonhechoosestomarry。
Ifyoushouldhaveasonyouwillgiveupyourpositiontohiswife。SinceNigelhasmarriedyou,hehas,ofcourse,arighttoexpectthatyouwillatleastmakeanefforttolearnsomethingofwhatisrequiredofwomenofyourposition。\"
\"Sitdown,Rosalie,\"saidNigel。\"Ofcourseyoutaketheheadofthetable,andnaturallyyoumustlearnwhatisexpectedofmywife,butdon’ttalkconfoundedrubbish,mother,aboutdevotingyourlifetoyourson。Wehaveseenaboutaslittleofeachotheraswecouldhelp。Weneveragreed。\"Theywerebothbulliesandeachmadeoccasionaleffortsatbullyingtheotherwithoutanyparticularresult。Buteachcouldatleastbullytheotherintointensifiedunpleasantness。
Thevicar’swifehavingmadehercallofceremonyuponthenewLadyAnstruthers,followeduptheacquaintance,andfoundherquiteexoticallyunlikehermother—in—law,whosecharitiesonemaybesurehadneitherbeenlavishnordispensedbyanyhandlessimpressivethanherown。Theyoungerwomanwasofwhollymalleablematerial。Hersympathieswereeasilyawakenedandherpursewaswellfilledandreadilyopened。
Smallfamiliesorlargeones,newlyborninfantsornewlyburiedones,oldwomenwith\"badlegs\"andoldmenwhoneededcomforts,equallytouchedherheart。SheinnocentlybestowedsovereignswhereanEnglishwomanwouldhaveknownthathalf—crownswouldhavebeensufficient。Asthevicaresswasheralmonerthatladyfeltherimportancerapidlyontheincrease。Whensheleftacottagesaying,\"I’llspeaktoyoungLadyAnstruthersaboutyou,\"thegoodwomanofthehousecurtsiedlowandherhusbandtouchedhisforeheadrespectfully。
ButthisdidnotadvancethefortunesofSirNigel,whopersonallyrequiredofherverydifferentthings。TwoweeksafterherarrivalatStornham,Rosaliebegantoseethatsomehowshewasregardedasapersonalmostimpudentlyinthewrong。
ItappearedthatifshehadbeenanEnglishgirlshewouldhavebeenquitedifferent,thatshewouldhavebeenanadvantageinsteadofadetriment。AsanAmericanshewasadetriment。
Thatseemedtogowithoutsaying。Shetriedtodoeverythingshewastold,andlearnsomethingfromeachcoldinsinuation。Shedidnotknowthatherveryamenabilityandtimiditywereherundoing。SirNigelandhismotherthoroughlyenjoyedthemselvesatherexpense。Theyknewtheycouldsayanythingtheychose,andthatatthemostshewouldonlybreakdownintocryingandafterwardsapologiseforbeingsobadlybehaved。Ifsomepractical,strong—mindedpersonhadbeenneartodefendhershemighthavebeenrescuedpromptlyandhertyrantsrouted。Butshewasayounggirl,tenderofheartandweakofnature。Sheusedtocryagreatdealwhenshewasalone,andwhenshewrotetohermothershewastoofrightenedtotellthetruthconcerningherunhappiness。
\"Oh,ifIcouldjustseesomeofthem!\"shewouldwailtoherself。\"IfIcouldjustseemotherorfatheroranybodyfromNewYork!Oh,IknowIshallneverseeNewYorkagain,orBroadwayorFifthAvenueorCentralPark——Inever——never——nevershall!\"Andshewouldgrovelamongherpillows,buryingherfaceandhalfstiflingherselflesthersobsshouldbeheard。Herfeelingforherhusbandhadbecomeoneofterrorandrepulsion。Shewasalmostmoreafraidofhispatronising,affectionatemomentsthanshewasofhistemper。
Hisconjugalcondescensionsmadeherfeelvaguely——
withoutknowingwhy——asifsheweresomelowerorderoflittleanimal。
Americanwomen,hesaid,hadnoconceptionofwifelydutiesandaffection。Hehadagreatdealtosayonthesubjectofwifelyduty。Itwaspartofherdutyasawifetobeentirelysatisfiedwithhissociety,andtobecompletelyhappyinthepleasureitaffordedher。ItwasherwifelydutynottotalkaboutherownfamilyandpalpitatinglyexpectlettersbyeveryAmericanmail。Heobjectedintenselytothisletterwritingandreceiving,andhismothersharedhisprejudices。
\"YouhavemarriedanEnglishman,\"herladyshipsaid。
\"YouhaveputitoutofhispowertomarryanEnglishwoman,andtheleastconsiderationyoucanshowistoletNewYorkandNine—hundredthstreetremainupontheothersideoftheAtlanticandnotinsistondraggingthemintoStornhamCourt。\"
TheDowagerLadyAnstrutherswasveryfineinherpictureofhermentalcondition,whensherealised,assheseemedperiodicallytodo,thatitwasnolongerpossibleforhersontomakearespectablemarriagewithawomanofhisownnation。TheunadornedfactwasthatbothsheandSirNigelwereinfuriatedbythesimplicitywhichmadeRosalieslowincomprehendingthatitwasproperthatthemoneyherfatherallowedhershouldbeplacedinherhusband’shands,andlefttherewithnoindelicatequestioning。IfshehadbeenanEnglishgirlmatterswouldhavebeenmadeplaintoherfromthefirstandarrangedsatisfactorilybeforehermarriage。SirNigel’smotherconsideredthathehadplayedthefool,andwouldnotbelievethatNewYorkfathersweresuchtouchy,sentimentalidiotsasnottoknowwhatwasexpectedofthem。
Theywastednotime,however,incomingtothepoint,andinameasureitwasthevicaresswhoaidedthem。Notsheentirely,however。
Sincehermother—in—law’sfirstmentionofapossiblesonwhosewifewouldeventuallythrustherfromherseatattheheadofthetable,Rosaliehadseveraltimesheardthissonreferredto。ItstruckherthatinEnglandsuchthingsseemeddiscussedwithmorefreedomthaninAmerica。Shehadneverheardayoungwoman’spossiblefamilyarrangedforandmadethesubjectofconversationinthemorecrudeatmosphereofNewYork。Itmadeherfeelratherawkwardatfirst。Thenshebegantorealisethatthesonwaspartofherwifelydutyalso;thatshewasexpectedtoprovideone,andthathewasinsomewayexpectedtoprovidefortheestate——torehabilitateit——andthatthiswasbecauseherfather,beingarichman,wouldprovideforhim。IthadalsostruckherthatinEnglandtherewasatendencytoexpectationthatsomeonewould\"provide\"forsomeoneelse,thatrelativesevenbymarriageweresupposedto\"makeallowances\"onwhichitwasquiteproperforotherpersonstolive。Rosaliehadbeenaccustomedtoacommunityinwhichevenrichmenworked,andinwhichyoungandable—bodiedmenwouldhavefeltratherindignantifauntsoruncleshadthoughtitnecessarytopensionthemoffasiftheyhadbeenimpotentpaupers。ItwasRosalie’ssonwhowastobe\"providedfor\"inthiscase,andwhowasto\"providefor\"hisfather。
\"Whenyouhaveason,\"hermother—in—lawhadremarkedseverely,\"IsupposesomethingwillbedoneforNigelandtheestate。\"
Thishadbeensaidbeforeshehadbeentendaysinthehouse,andhadsethernot—too—quickbrainworking。ShehadalreadybeguntoseethatlifeatStornhamCourtwasnottheluxuriousaffairitwasinthehouseinFifthAvenue。Thingswereshabbyandqueerandnotatallcomfortable。Fireswerenotlightedbecauseadaywaschillyandgloomy。Shehadonceaskedforoneinherbedroomandhermother—in—lawhadreprovedherforindecentextravaganceinamannerwhichtookherbreathaway。
\"IsupposeinAmericayouhaveyourhouseatfurnaceheatinJuly,\"shesaid。\"Merewastefulnessandself—indulgence!
ThatiswhyAmericansareoldwomenattwenty。Theyareshrivelledandwitheredbytheunhealthylivestheylead。
Stuffingthemselveswithsweetsandhotbreadandneverbreathingthefreshair。\"
Rosaliecouldnotatthemomentrecallanywitheredandshrivelledoldwomenoftwenty,butsheblushedandstammeredasusual。
\"ItisnevercoldenoughforfiresinJuly,\"sheanswered,\"butwe——weneverthinkfiresextravagantwhenwearenotcomfortablewithoutthem。\"
\"CoalmustbecheaperthanitisinEngland,\"saidherladyship。\"Whenyouhaveadaughter,IhopeyoudonotexpecttobringherupasgirlsarebroughtupinNewYork。\"
ThiswasthefirsttimeRosaliehadheardofherdaughter,andshewasnotreadyenoughtoreply。Shenaturallywentintoherroomandcriedagain,wonderingwhatherfatherandmotherwouldsayiftheyknewthatbedroomfireswereconsideredvulgarlyextravagantbyanimpressivememberoftheBritisharistocracy。
Shewasnotatallstrongatthetimeandwasgiventofeelingchillyandmiserableonwet,windydays。Sheusedtocrymorethaneverandwassodesolatethatthereweredayswhensheusedtogotothevicarageforcompanionship。Onsuchdaysthevicar’swifewouldentertainherwithstoriesofthevillagers’catastrophes,andshewouldemptyherpurseupontheteatableandfeelalittleconsoledbecauseshewasthemeansofconsolingsomeoneelse。
\"IsupposeitgratifiesyourvanitytoplaytheLadyBountiful,\"SirNigelsneeredoneevening,havingheardinthevillagewhatshewasdoing。
\"I——neverthoughtofsuchathing,\"shestammeredfeebly。
\"Mrs。Brentsaidtheyweresopoor。\"
\"Youthrowyourmoneyaboutasifyouwereachild,\"
saidhermother—in—law。\"Itisapityitisnotputinthehandsofsomepersonwithdiscretion。\"
IthadbeguntodawnuponRosaliethatherladyshipwasdeeplyconvincedthateitherherselforhersonwouldbeadmirablydiscreetcustodiansofthemoneyreferredto。Andeventhedawningofthisideahadfrightenedthegirl。ShewassoinexperiencedandignorantthatshefeltitmightbepossiblethatinEnglandone’shusbandandone’smother—in—lawcoulddowhattheyliked。Itmightbethattheycouldtakepossessionofone’smoneyastheyseemedtotakepossessionofone’sselfandone’sverysoul。Shewouldhavebeenverygladtogivethemmoney,andhadindeedwonderedfrequentlyifshemightdaretoofferittothem,iftheywouldbeoutragedandinsultedandslayherintheirwrathatherpurse—prouddaring。
Shehadtriedtoinventwaysinwhichshecouldapproachthesubject,buthadnotbeenabletoscrewuphercouragetoanystickingpoint。ShewassooverpoweredbyherconsciousnessthattheyseemedcontinuallytointimatethatAmericanswithmoneywereostentatiousandalwayslayingstressupontheamountoftheirpossessions。Shehadnoconceptionoftheprimevalsimplenessoftheirattitudeinsuchmatters,andthatnoceremonieswerenecessarysavetheprocessoftransferringsufficientlylargesumsasthoughtheywerethemererightoftherecipients。Shewastaughttounderstandthislater。Inthemeantime,however,readyasshewouldhavebeentogivelargesumsifshehadknownhow,shewasterrifiedbythethoughtthatitmightbepossiblethatshecouldbedeprivedofherbankaccountandreducedtotheconditionofasortofdependentuponthehumoursofherlatelyacquiredrelations。
Shethoughtoverthisagooddeal,andwouldhavefoundimmensereliefifshedaredhaveconsultedanyone。Butshecouldnotmakeuphermindtorevealherunhappinesstoherpeople。Shehadbeenmarriedsorecently,everybodyhadthoughthermarriagesodelightful,shecouldnotbearthatherfatherandmothershouldbedistressedbyknowingthatshewaswretched。ShealsoreflectedwithmiserythatNewYorkwouldtalkthematteroverexcitedlyandthatfinallythenewspaperswouldgetholdofthegossip。ShecouldevenimagineinterviewerscallingatthehouseinFifthAvenueandendeavouringtoobtainparticularsofthesituation。Herfatherwouldbeangryandrefusetogivethem,butthatwouldmakenodifference;thenewspaperswouldgivethemandeverybodywouldreadwhattheysaid,whetheritwastrueornot。Shecouldnotpossiblywritefacts,shethought,soherpoorlittleletterswererestrainedandunlikeherself,andtothewarm—heartedsoulsinNewYork,evenappearingstiffandunaffectionate,asifheraristocraticsurroundingshadchilledherloveforthem。Infact,itbecamefarfromeasyforhertowriteatall,sinceSirNigelsodisapprovedofherinterestintheAmericanmail。Hisobjectionshadindeedtakentheformofhisfeelinghimselfquitewithinhisrightswhenheoccasionallyinterceptedlettersfromherrelations,withaviewoffindingoutwhethertheycontainedcriticismsofhimself,whichwouldbetraythatshehadbeenguiltyofindiscreetconfidences。Hediscoveredthatshehadnotapparentlybeensoguilty,butitwasevidentthatthereweremomentswhenMrs。Vanderpoelwasuneasyanddisposedtoaskanxiousquestions。Whenthisoccurredhedestroyedtheletters,andasaresultofthisprecautiononhisparthermotherlyqueriesseemedtobeignored,andsheseveraltimesshedtearsinthebeliefthatRosyhadgrownsopatricianthatshewascapableofsnubbinghermotherinherresentmentatfeelingherprivacyintrudeduponandanunrefinedeffusivenessshown。
\"Ijustfeelasifshewasbeginningnottocareaboutusatall,Betty,\"shesaid。\"Icouldn’thavebelieveditofRosy。
Shewasalwayssuchanaffectionategirl。\"
\"Idon’tbelieveitnow,\"repliedBettysharply。\"Rosycouldn’tgrowhatefulandstuckup。It’sthatnastyNigelIknowitis。\"
SirNigel’sintentionwasthatthereshouldbeaslittleintercoursebetweenFifthAvenueandStornhamCourtaswaspossible。Amongotherthings,hedidnotintendthatalotofAmericanrelationsshouldcometumblinginwhentheychosetocrosstheAtlantic。Hewouldnothaveit,andtookdiscreetstepstopreventanyaccidentofthesort。HewrotetoAmericaoccasionallyhimself,andknowingwellhowtomakehimselfcivillyrepellent,sosubtlychilledhisparents—in—lawastodiscourageinthemmorethanoncetheirhalf—formedplanofpayingavisittotheirchildinhernewhome。Heopened,readandreclosedallepistlestoandfromNewYork,andwhileMrs。VanderpoelwasmuchhurttofindthatRosalienevercondescendedtomakeanyresponsetohertentativesconcerningherpossiblevisit,Rosalieherselfwasmystifiedbythefactthatthejourney\"toEurope\"wasneverspokenof。
\"Idon’tseewhytheyneverseemtothinkofcomingover,\"
shesaidplaintivelyoneday。\"Theyusedtotalksomuchaboutit。\"
\"They?\"ejaculatedtheDowagerLadyAnstruthers。\"Whommayyoumean?\"
\"MotherandfatherandBettyandsomeoftheothers。\"
Hermother—in—lawputuphereye—glassestostareather。
\"Thewholefamily?\"sheinquired。
\"Therearenotsomanyofthem,\"Rosalieanswered。
\"Afamilyisalwaystoomanytodescenduponayoungwomanwhensheismarried,\"observedherladyshipunmovedly。
NigelglancedoverthetopofhisTimes。
\"Imayaswelltellyouthatitwouldnotdoatall,\"heputin。
\"Why——whynot?\"exclaimedRosalie,aghast。
\"Americansdon’tdoinEnglishsociety,\"slightingly。
\"Buttheyarecomingoversomuch。TheylikeLondonso——
allAmericanslikeLondon。\"
\"Dothey?\"withadrawlwhichmadeRosalieblushuntilthetearsstartedtohereyes。\"Iamafraidthesentimentisscarcelymutual。\"
Rosalieturnedandfledfromtheroom。Sheturnedandfledbecausesherealisedthatsheshouldburstoutcryingifshewaitedtohearanotherword,andsherealisedthatoflatesheseemedalwaystobeburstingoutcryingbeforeoneortheotherofthosetwo。Shecouldnothelpit。Theyalwaysseemedtobeimplyingsomethingslightingorscathing。Theywerealwaysputtingherinthewrongandhurtingherfeelings。
Thedaywasdampandchill,butsheputonherhatandranoutintothepark。Shewentdowntheavenueandturnedintoacoppice。There,amongthewetbracken,shesankdownonthemossytrunkofafallentreeandhuddledherselfinasmallheap,herheadonherarms,actuallywailing。
\"Oh,mother!Oh,mother!\"shecriedhysterically。\"Oh,Idowishyouwouldcome。I’msocold,mother;I’msoill!
Ican’tbearit!Itseemsasifyou’dforgottenallaboutme!
You’reallsohappyinNewYorkthatperhapsyouhaveforgotten——
perhapsyouhave!Oh,don’t,mother——don’t!\"
Itwasamonthlaterthatthroughthevicar’swifeshereachedadiscoveryandaclimax。Shehadheardonemorningfromthisladyofamisfortunewhichhadbefallenasmallfarmer。Itwasamisfortunewhichwasanactualcatastrophetoamaninhisposition。Hishousehadcaughtfireduringagaleofwindandthefirehadspreadtotheoutbuildingsandrickyardandsweptawayallhisbelongings,hishouse,hisfurniture,hishayricks,andstoredgrain,andevenhisfewcowsandhorses。Hehadbeenapoor,hard—workingfellow,andhissmallinsurancehadlapsedthedaybeforethefire。Hewasabsolutelyruined,andwithhiswifeandsixchildrenstoodfacetofacewithbeggaryandstarvation。
RosalieAnstruthersenteredthevicaragetofindthepoorwomanwhowashiscompanionincalamitysobbinginthehall。Achildofafewweekswasinherarms,andtwosmallcreaturesclungcryingtoherskirts。
\"We’veworkedhard,\"shewept;\"wehave,ma’am。Father,he’salwaysbeensteady,an’upearlyan’late。P’r’apsit’stheLord’s’and,asyousay,ma’am,butwe’vebeendecentpeoplean’nevermissedchurchwhenwecould’elpit——fatherdidn’tdeserveit——thathedidn’t。\"
Shewasheartbrokeninherdowntroddenhopelessness。Rosalieliterallyquakedwithsympathy。Shepouredforthherpityinsuchwordsasthepoorwomanhadneverheardspokenbyagreatladytoahumblecreaturelikeherself。ThevillagersfoundthenewLadyAnstruthers’interviewswiththemcuriouslysimpleandsuggestiveofanequalitytheycouldnotunderstand。
Stornhamwasaconservativeoldvillage,wherethedistinctionbetweenthegentryandthepeasantswasclearlymarked。ThecottagerswerepuzzledbySirNigel’swife,buttheydecidedthatshewaskind,ifunusual。
AsRosalietalkedtothefarmer’swifeshelongedforherfather’spresence。Shehadrememberedatimewhenamaninhisemployhadlosthisallbyfire,thesmallhousehehadjustmadehislastpaymentuponhavingbeenburnedtotheground。Hehadlostoneofhischildreninthefire,andthedetailshadbeenheartrending。TheentireVanderpoelhouseholdhadweptonhearingthem,andMr。Vanderpoelhaddrawnachequewhichhadseemedlikeafortunetothesufferer。Anewhousehadbeenbought,andMrs。Vanderpoelandherdaughtersandfriendshadbestowedfurnitureandclothingenoughtomakethefamilycomfortabletothevergeofluxury。
\"See,youpoorthing,\"saidRosalie,glowingwithmemoriesofthisincident,herhomesickyoungsoulcomfortedbythemerelikenessinthetwocalamities。\"IbroughtmychequebookwithmebecauseImeanttohelpyou。Amanworkedformyfatherhadhishouseburned,justasyourswas,andmyfathermadeeverythingallrightforhimagain。
I’llmakeitallrightforyou;I’llmakeyouachequeforahundredpoundsnow,andthenwhenyourhusbandbeginstobuildI’llgivehimsomemore。\"
Thewomangaspedforbreathandturnedpale。Shewasfrightened。Itreallyseemedasifherladyshipmusthavelostherwitsalittle。Shecouldnotmeanthis。Thevicaressturnedpalealso。
\"LadyAnstruthers,\"shesaid,\"LadyAnstruthers,it——itistoomuch。SirNigel————\"