\"Oh,Betty,Betty!\"shecried,\"youtalkasif——youareso————!\"
Thefact,sosimpletothemembersoftheabnormalclasstowhichsheofatruthbelonged,theclasswhichheapedupitsmillions,theabsoluteknowledgethattherewasagreatdealofmoneyintheworldandthatshewasofthosewhowereamongitschiefowners,hadceasedtoseemafact,andhadvanishedintotheregionoffairystories。
ThatshecouldnotbelieveitarealityrevealeditselftoBettina,asbyaflash,whichwasalsoarevelationofmanythings。Therewouldbeunpleasingtruthstobelearned,andshehadnotmadeherpilgrimagefornothing。But——inanyevent——therewereadvantageswithoutdoubtinthecircumstancewhichsubjectedonetobeingperpetuallypointedoutasadaughterofamulti—millionaire。Asthisargueditselfoutforherwithrapidlucidity,shebentandkissedRosyoncemore。Sheeventriedtodoitlightly,andnottoallowtherushofloveandpityinhersoultobetrayher。
\"Italkasif——asifIwereBetty,\"shesaid。\"Youhaveforgotten。Ihavenot。Ihavebeenlookingforwardtothisforyears。IhavebeenplanningtocometoyousinceIwaselevenyearsold。Andherewesit。\"
\"Youdidn’tforget?Youdidn’t?\"falteredthepoorwreckofRosy。\"Oh!Oh!Ithoughtyouhadallforgottenme——quite——quite!\"
Andherfacewentdowninherspare,smallhands,andshebegantocryagain。
CHAPTERXII
UGHTRED
Bettinastoodaloneinherbedroomacoupleofhourslater。
LadyAnstruthershadtakenhertoit,preparingherforitslimitationsbyexplainingthatshewouldfinditquitedifferentfromherroominNewYork。Shehadbeenpatheticallynervousandflushedaboutit,andBettinahadalsobeenawarethattheapartmentitselfhadbeenhastily,andwithmuchmovingofobjectsfromonechambertoanother,madereadyforher。
Theroomwaslargeandsquareandlow。Itwaspanelledinsmallsquaresofwhitewood。Thepanelswereoldenoughtobecrackedhereandthere,andthepaintwasstainedandyellowwithtime,whereitwasnotknockedorwornoff。
Therewasasmallpaned,leadedwindowwhichfilledalargepartofonesideoftheroom,anditsdeepseatwasanagreeablefeature。Sittinginit,onelookedoutoverseveralred—
walledgardens,andthroughbreaksinthetreesoftheparktoafairbeyond。Bettinastoodbeforethiswindowforafewmoments,andthentookaseatintheembrasure,thatshemightgazeoutandreflectatleisure。
Hergenius,ashasbeforebeenmentioned,wasthegeniusforliving,forbeingvital。Manypeoplemerelyexist,arekeptalivebyothers,orcontinuetovegetatebecausethepersistentactionofnormalfunctionswillallowoftheirdoingnoless。BettinaVanderpoelhadlivedvividly,andinthemidstofaself—createdatmosphereofactionfromherfirsthour。Itwasnotpossibleforhertobeoneofthehordeofmerespectators。Wheresoevershemovedtherewassomeoccultstirringofthemental,andevenphysical,air。Herpulsesbeattoostrongly,herbloodrantoofasttoallowofinactionofmindorbody。When,inpassingthroughthevillage,shehadseenthebrokenwindowsandthehangingpalingsofthecottages,ithadbeeninevitablethat,atonce,sheshould,inthought,repairthem,setthemstraight。Disorderfilledherwithasortofimpatiencewhichwasakintophysicaldistress。Ifshehadbeenbornapoorwomanshewouldhaveworkedhardforherliving,andfoundaninterest,almostanexhilaration,inherlabour。Suchgiftsasshehadwouldhavebeenappliedtothetaskssheundertook。Ithadfrequentlygivenherpleasuretoimagineherselfearningherlivelihoodasaseamstress,ahousemaid,anurse。Sheknewwhatshecouldhaveputintoherservice,andhowshecouldhavefounditabsorbing。Imaginationandinitiativecouldmakeanyserviceabsorbing。Theactualtruthwasthatifshehadbeenahousemaid,theroomshesetinorderwouldhavetakenacharacterunderhertouch;ifshehadbeenaseamstress,herworkwouldhavebeenswiftlydone,herimaginationwouldhaveinventedforhercombinationsofformandcolour;ifshehadbeenanursemaid,thechildrenunderhercarewouldneverhavebeensufficientlyboredtobecometiresomeorintractable,andtheyalsowouldhavegainedcharactertowhichwouldhavebeenaddedanundeniablevividnessofoutlook。
Shecouldnothaveleftthemalone,sotospeak。Inobeyingthemerelawsofherbeing,shewouldhavestimulatedthem。
Unconsciouslyshehadstimulatedherfellowpupilsatschool;
whenshewashiscompanion,herfatherhadalwaysfelthimselfstirredtointerestandenterprise。
\"Yououghttohavebeenaman,Betty,\"heusedtosaytohersometimes。
ButBettyhadnotagreedwithhim。
\"Yousaythat,\"sheoncerepliedtohim,\"becauseyouseeIaminclinedtodothings,tochangethem,iftheyneedchanging。Well,oneiseitherbornlikethat,oroneisnot。
SometimesIthinkthatperhapsthepeoplewhomustACTareofadistinctrace。Akindofvigorousrestlessnessdrivesthem。
IrememberthatwhenIwasachildIcouldnotseeapinlyinguponthegroundwithoutpickingitup,orpassadrawerwhichneededclosing,withoutgivingitapush。Buttherehasalwaysbeenasmuchforwomentodoasformen。\"
Therewasmuchtobedonehereofonesortofthingandanother。Thatwascertain。Asshegazedthroughthesmallpanesofherlargewindows,shefoundherselfoverlookingpartofawildernessofgarden,whichrevealeditselfthroughanarchinanovergrownlaurelhedge。Shehadglimpsesofunkemptgrasspathsandunclippedtopiaryworkwhichhadlostitsoriginalform。Amongatangleofweedsrosetheheadsofclumpsofdaffodils,stirredbyapassingwindofspring。Intheparkbeyondacuckoowascalling。
Shewasconsciousbothoftheforlornbeautyandsignificanceoftheneglectedgarden,andoftheclearquaintnessofthecuckoocall,asshethoughtofotherthings。
\"Herspiritandherhealtharebroken,\"washersummingup。\"Herprettinesshasfadedtoarag。Sheisasnervousasanill—treatedchild。Shehaslostherwits。Idonotknowwheretobeginwithher。Imustlethertellmethingsasgraduallyasshechooses。UntilIseeNigelIshallnotknowwhathismethodwithherhasbeen。Shelooksasifshehadceasedtocareforthings,evenforherself。WhatshallIwritetomother?\"
Sheknewwhatsheshouldwritetoherfather。Withhimshecouldbeexplicit。Shecouldrecordwhatshehadfoundandwhatitsuggestedtoher。Shecouldalsomakeclearherreasonforhesitanceanddeliberation。Hisdiscretionandaffectionwouldcomprehendthethingwhichsheherselffeltandwhichaffectionnotcombinedwithdiscretionmightnottakein。Hewouldunderstand,whenshetoldhimthatoneofthefirstthingswhichhadstruckher,hadbeenthatRosyherself,herhelplessnessandtimidity,might,foraperiodatleast,formobstaclesintheirpathofaction。HenotonlylovedRosy,butrealisedhowslightasweetthingshehadalwaysbeen,andhewouldknowhowfaraslightcreature’sgentlenessmightbeoverpoweredandbeatendown。
Therewassomuchthathermothermustbespared,therewasindeedsolittlethatitwouldbewisetotellher,thatBettinasatgentlyrubbingherforeheadasshethoughtofit。
Thetruthwasthatshemusttellhernothing,untilallwasover,accomplished,decided。Whatsoevertherewastobe\"over,\"whatsoevertheactionfinallytaken,mustbeamatterlyingasfaraspossiblebetweenherfatherandherself。
Mrs。Vanderpoel’stroublewouldbetookeen,heranxietytoogreattokeeptoherself,evenifshewerenotoverwhelmedbythem。ShemustbetoldofthebeautiesanddimensionsofStornham,allrelatabledetailsofRosy’slifemustbegenerouslydwelton。AboveallRosymustbemadetowriteletters,andwithanairoffreedomhoweverspecious。
Aknockonthedoorbrokethethreadofherreflection。Itwasalow—soundingknock,andsheansweredthesummonsherself,becauseshethoughtitmightbeRosy’s。
ItwasnotLadyAnstrutherswhostoodoutside,butUghtred,whobalancedhimselfonhiscrutches,andliftedhissmall,toomature,face。
\"MayIcomein?\"heasked。
Herewastheunexpectedagain,butshedidnotallowhimtoseehersurprise。
\"Yes,\"shesaid。\"Certainlyyoumay。\"
Heswunginandthenturnedtospeaktoher。
\"Pleaseshutthedoorandlockit,\"hesaid。
Therewassuddenilluminationinthis,butofanorderalmostwhimsical。Thatmodernpeopleinmoderndaysshouldfeelboltsandbarsanecessityofordinaryintercoursewassuggestive。Shewasplainlyabouttoreceiveenlightenment。Sheturnedthekeyandfollowedthehaltingfigureacrosstheroom。
\"Whatareyouafraidof?\"sheasked。
\"WhenmotherandItalkthingsover,\"hesaid,\"wealwaysdoitwherenoonecanseeorhear。It’stheonlywaytobesafe。\"
\"Safefromwhat?\"
Hiseyesfixedthemselvesonherasheansweredheralmostsullenly。
\"Safefrompeoplewhomightlistenandgoandtellthatwehadbeentalking。\"
Inhisthwarted—looking,oddchild—facetherewasashadeofappealnotwhollyhiddenbyhisevidentwishnottobeboylike。Bettyfeltadesiretokneeldownsuddenlyandembracehim,butsheknewhewasnotpreparedforsuchademonstration。Helookedlikeacreaturewhohadlivedcontinuallyatbay,andhadlearnedtoadjusthimselftoanysituationwithcautionandrestraint。
\"Sitdown,Ughtred,\"shesaid,andwhenhedidsosheherselfsatdown,butnottoonearhim。
Restinghischinonthehandleofacrutch,hegazedatheralmostprotestingly。
\"Ialwayshavetodothesethings,\"hesaid,\"andIamnotcleverenough,oroldenough。Iamonlyeleven。\"
Thementionofthenumberofhisyearswasplainlynotapologetic,butwasamerestatementofhislimitations。Therethefactwas,andhemustmakethebestofithecould。
\"Whatthingsdoyoumean?\"
\"Tryingtomakethingseasier——explainingthingswhenshecannotthinkofexcuses。To—dayitistellingyouwhatsheistoofrightenedtotellyouherself。Isaidtoherthatyoumustbetold。Itmadehernervousandmiserable,butIknewyoumust。\"
\"Yes,Imust,\"Bettyanswered。\"Iamgladshehasyoutodependon,Ughtred。\"
Hiscrutchgratedonthefloorandhisboyeyesforbadehertobelievethattheirsuddenlustrewasinanywayconnectedwithrestrainedemotion。
\"IknowIseemqueerandlikealittleoldman,\"hesaid。
\"Mothercriesaboutitsometimes。Butitcan’tbehelped。
Itisbecauseshehasneverhadanyonebutmetohelpher。
WhenIwasverylittle,Ifoundouthowfrightenedandmiserableshewas。Afterhisrages,\"heusednoname,\"sheusedtorunintomynurseryandsnatchmeupinherarmsandhideherfaceinmypinafore。Sometimesshestuffeditintohermouthandbitittokeepherselffromscreaming。Once——
beforeIwasseven——Iranintotheirroomandshoutedout,andtriedtofightforher。Hewasgoingout,andhadhisridingwhipinhishand,andhecaughtholdofmeandstruckmewithit——untilhewastired。\"
Bettystoodupright。
\"What!What!What!\"shecriedout。
Hemerelynoddedhisheadshortly。Shesawwhatthethinghadbeenbythewayhisfacelostcolour。
\"OfcoursehesaiditwasbecauseIwasimpudent,andneededpunishment,\"hesaid。\"HesaidshehadencouragedmeinAmericanimpudence。Itwasworseforherthanforme。Shekneeleddownandscreamedoutasifshewascrazy,thatshewouldgivehimwhathewantedifhewouldstop。\"
\"Wait,\"saidBetty,drawinginherbreathsharply。\"`He,’
isSirNigel?Andhewantedsomething。\"
Henoddedagain\"Tellme,\"shedemanded,\"hasheeverstruckher?\"
\"Once,\"heansweredslowly,\"beforeIwasborn——hestruckherandshefellagainstsomething。ThatiswhyIamlikethis。\"Andhetouchedhisshoulder。
ThefeelingwhichsurgedthroughBettyVanderpoel’sbeingforcedhertogoandstandwithherfaceturnedtowardsthewindows,herhandsholdingeachothertightlybehindherback。
\"Imustkeepstill,\"shesaid。\"Imustmakemyselfkeepstill。\"
Shespokeunconsciouslyhalfaloud,andUghtredheardherandrepliedhurriedly。
\"Yes,\"hesaid,\"youmustmakeyourselfkeepstill。Thatiswhatwehavetodowhateverhappens。Thatisoneofthethingsmotherwantedyoutoknow。Sheisafraid。Shedaren’tletyou————\"
Sheturnedfromthewindow,standingatherfullheightandlookingverytallforagirl。
\"Sheisafraid?Shedaren’t?See——thatwillcometoanendnow。Therearethingswhichcanbedone。\"
Heflushednervously。
\"Thatiswhatshewasafraidyouwouldsay,\"hespokefastandhishandstrembled。\"Sheisnearlywildaboutit,becausesheknowshewilltrytodosomethingthatwillmakeyoufeelasifshedoesnotwantyou。\"
\"Sheisafraidofthat?\"Bettyexclaimed。
\"He’ddoit!He’ddoit——ifyoudidnotknowbeforehand。\"
\"Oh!\"saidBetty,withunflinchingclearness。\"Heisaliar,ishe?\"
Thehelplessrageintheunchildisheyes,theshakingvoice,ashecriedoutinanswer,wereashock。Itwasasifhewildlyrejoicedthatshehadspokentheword。
\"Yes,he’saliar——aliar!\"heshrilled。\"He’saliarandabullyandacoward。He’d——he’dbeamurdererifhedared——buthedaren’t。\"Andhisfacedroppedonhisarmsfoldedonhiscrutch,andhebrokeintoapassionofcrying。ThenBettyknewshemightgotohim。Shewentandkneltdownandputherarmroundhim。
\"Ughtred,\"shesaid,\"cry,ifyoulike,Ishoulddoit,ifIwereyou。ButItellyouitcanallbealtered——anditshallbe。\"
Heseemedquitelikealittleboywhenheputouthishandtohersandspokesobbingly:
\"She——shesays——thatbecauseyouhaveonlyjustcomefromAmerica——andinAmericapeople——candothings——youwillthinkyoucandothingshere——andyoudon’tknow。Hewilltellliesaboutyouliesyoucan’tbear。Shesatwringingherhandswhenshethoughtofit。Shewon’tletyoubehurtbecauseyouwanttohelpher。\"Hestoppedabruptlyandclutchedhershoulder。
\"AuntBetty!AuntBetty——whateverhappens——whateverhemakesherseemlike——youaretoknowthatitisnottrue。
Nowyouhavecome——nowshehasseenyouitwouldKILLherifyouweredrivenawayandthoughtshewantedyoutogo。\"
\"Ishallnotthinkthat,\"sheanswered,slowly,becausesherealisedthatitwaswellthatshehadbeenwarnedintime。
\"Ughtred,areyoutryingtotellmethataboveallthingsI
mustnotlethimthinkthatIcameheretohelpyou,becauseifheisangryhewillmakeusallsuffer——andyourmothermostofall?\"
\"He’llfindaway。Wealwaysknowhewill。Hewouldeitherbesorudethatyouwouldnotstayhere——orhewouldmakemotherseemrude——orhewouldwriteliestograndfather。
AuntBetty,shescarcelybelievesyouarerealyet。Ifshewon’ttellyouthingsatfirst,pleasedon’tmind。\"Helookedquitelikeachildagaininhisappealtoher,totrytounderstandastateofaffairssocomplicated。\"Couldyou——
couldyouwaituntilyouhaveletherget——getusedtoyou?\"
\"Usedtothinkingthattheremaybesomeoneintheworldtohelpher?\"slowly。\"Yes,Iwill。Hasanyoneevertriedtohelpher?\"
\"Onceortwicepeoplefoundoutandweresorryatfirst,butitonlymadeitworse,becausehemadethembelievethings。\"
\"IshallnotTRY,Ughtred,\"saidBetty,aremotesparkkindlinginthedeepsofthepupilsofhersteel—blueeyes。\"I
shallnotTRY。NowIamgoingtoaskyousomequestions。\"
Beforehelefthershehadaskedmanyquestionswhichwerepertinentandsearching,andshehadlearnedthingssherealisedshecouldhavelearnedinnootherwayandfromnootherperson。Butforhisuncannysenseoftheresponsibilityheclearlyhadassumedinthedayswhenheworepinafores,andwhichhadbroughthimtoherroomtopreparehermindforwhatshewouldfindherselfconfrontedwithinthewayofapparentlyunexplainableobstacles,therewasastronglikelihoodthatattheoutsetshemighthavefoundherselfmorethanoncedangerouslyataloss。Yes,shewouldhavebeenataloss,puzzled,perhapsgreatlydiscouraged。Shewasfacetofacewithacomplicationsoextraordinary。
Thatoneman,throughmerepersistentsteadinessineviltemperanddomestictyranny,shouldhavesobrokenthecreaturesofhishouseholdintoabjectsubmissionandhopelessness,seemedtooincredible。SuchapowerappearedasremotefromcivilisedexistenceinLondonandNewYorkasdidthatwhichhadinflictedtorturesinthedungeonsofcastlesofold。
Prisonersinsuchdungeonscouldutternocrywhichcouldreachtheoutsideworld;theprisonersatStornhamCourt,notfourhoursfromHydeParkCorner,couldutternonetheworldcouldhear,orcomprehendifitheardit。Sheerlackofpowertoresistboundthemhandandfoot。Andshe,BettyVanderpoel,washereuponthespot,and,asfarasshecouldunderstand,wasbeingimploredtotakenosteps,todonothing。
Theatmosphereinwhichshehadspentherlife,theworldshehadbeenborninto,hadnotmadeforfearfulnessthatonewouldbeatanytimedefencelessagainstcircumstancesandbeobligedtosubmittooutrage。TobeaVanderpoelwas,itwastrue,tobeashiningmarkforenvyasforadmiration,butthefactremovedobstaclesasarule,andtofindone’sselfstandingbeforeasituationwithone’shands,figurativelyspeaking,tied,wasnewenoughtoarouseunusualsensations。Sherecalled,withanironicsenseofbewilderment,asasortofmaterialevidenceofherownreality,thefactthatnotaweekagoshehadsteppedontoEnglishsoilfromthegangwayofasolidAtlanticliner。ItaidedhertoresistthefeelingthatshehadbeensweptbackintotheMiddleAges。
\"Whenheisangry,\"wasoneofthefirstquestionssheputtoUghtred,\"whatdoeshegiveashisreason?Hemustprofesstohaveareason。\"
\"Whenhegetsinaragehesaysitisbecausemotherissillyandcommon,andIambadlybroughtup。Butwealwaysknowhewantsmoney,anditmakeshimfurious。Hecouldkilluswithrage。\"
\"Oh!\"saidBetty。\"Isee。\"
\"Itbeganthattimewhenhestruckher。Hesaidthenthatitwasnotdecentthatawomanwhowasmarriedshouldkeepherownmoney。Hemadehergivehimalmosteverythingshehad,butshewantstokeepsomeforme。Hetriestomakehergetmorefromgrandfather,butshewillnotwritebeggingletters,andshewon’tgivehimwhatsheissavingforme。\"
Itwasasimpleandsordidenoughexplanationinonesense,anditwasoneofwhichBettinahadknown,notoneparallel,butseveral。Havingmarriedtoensurehimselfpoweroverunquestionedresources,themanhadfelthimselfdisgustinglytakenin,andavengedhimselfaccordingly。Inhimhadbeenbornthemakingsofadomestictyrantwho,evenhadhebeenfavouredbyfortune,wouldhavewreakedhishumoursuponthedefencelessthingsmadehispropertybytiesofbloodandmarriage,andwho,beingunfavoured,woulddoworse。BettycouldseewhattheyearshadheldforRosy,andhowherweaknessandtimidityhadbeenconsideredaspositiveassets。A
womanwhowillcrywhensheisbullied,maybecountedupontosubmitaftershehascried。Rosyhadsubmitteduptoacertainpointandthen,withthestubbornnessofaweakcreature,hadstoodattimidbayforheryoung。
WhatBettygatheredwasthat,afterthelongandterribleillnesswhichhadfollowedUghtred’sbirth,shehadrisenfromwhathadbeensonearlyherdeathbed,prostratedinbothmindandbody。Ughtreddidnotknowallthatherevealedwhenhetoucheduponthetimewhichhesaidhismothercouldnotquiteremember——whenshehadsatformonthsstaringvacantlyoutofherwindow,tryingtorecallsomethingterriblewhichhadhappened,andwhichshewantedtotellhermother,ifthedayevercamewhenshecouldwritetoheragain。Shehadneverrememberedclearlythedetailsofthethingshehadwantedtotell,andNigelhadinsistedthatherfancywaspartofherpastdelirium。Hehadsaidthatatthebeginningofherdeliriumshehadattackedandinsultedhismotherandhimselfbuttheyhadexcusedherbecausetheyrealisedafterwardswhatthecauseofherexcitementhadbeen。Foralongtimeshehadbeentoobrokenlyweaktoquestionordisbelieve,but,latershehadvaguelyknownthathehadbeenlyingtoher,thoughshecouldnotrefutewhathesaid。Sherecalled,incourseoftime,ahorriblesceneinwhichallthreeofthemhadravedateachother,andsheherselfhadshriekedandlaughedandhurledwildwordsatNigel,andhehadstruckher。Thatsheknewandneverforgot。Shehadbeenillayear,herhairhadfallenout,herskinhadfadedandshehadbeguntofeellikeanervous,tiredoldwomaninsteadofagirl。Girlhood,withallthepast,hadbecomeunrealandtoofarawaytobemorethanadream。NothinghadremainedrealbutStornhamandNigelandthelittlehunchbackedbaby。ShewasgladwhentheDowagerdiedandwhenNigelspenthistimeinLondonorontheContinentandleftherwithUghtred。Whenhesaidthathemustspendhermoneyontheestate,shehadacquiescedwithoutcomment,becausethatinsuredhisgoingaway。Shesawthatnoimprovementorrepairsweremade,butshecoulddonothingandwastoolistlesstomaketheattempt。SheonlywantedtobeleftalonewithUghtred,andsheexhibitedwill—
poweronlyindefenceofherchildandinherobstinacywithregardtoaskingmoneyofherfather。
\"Shethought,somehow,thatgrandfatherandgrandmotherdidnotcareforheranymore——thattheyhadforgottenherandonlycaredforyou,\"Ughtredexplained。\"Sheusedtotalktomeaboutyou。Shesaidyoumustbesocleverandsohandsomethatnoonecouldrememberher。Sometimesshecriedandsaidshedidnotwantanyofyoutoseeheragain,becauseshewasonlyahideous,little,thin,yellowoldwoman。
WhenIwasverylittleshetoldmestoriesaboutNewYorkandFifthAvenue。Ithoughttheywerenotrealplaces——I
thoughtheywereplacesinfairyland。\"
Bettypattedhisshoulderandlookedawayforamomentwhenhesaidthis。Inherremoteandhelplessloneliness,toRosy’shomesick,yearningsoul,noisy,rattlingNewYork,FifthAvenuewithitstrafficandpeople,itsbrown—stonehousesandrickettystages,hadseemedlikeTHAT——sosplendidandbrightandheart—filling,thatshehadpaintedthemincolourswhichcouldbelongonlytofairyland。Itsaidsomuch。
Thethingshehadsuspectedasshehadtalkedtohersisterwas,beforetheinterviewended,madecuriouslyclear。Thefirstobstacleinherpathwaywouldbetheshrinkingofacreaturewhohadbeensolongunderdominionthatthemerethoughtofseeinganystepstakentowardsherrescuefilledherwithalarm。Onemightbepreparedforheralmostprayingtobeletalone,becauseshefeltthattheprocessofhersalvationwouldbringaboutsuchshocksandtormentsasshecouldnotendurethefacingof。
\"Shewillhavetogetusedtoyou,\"Ughtredkeptsaying。
\"Shewillhavetogetusedtothinkingthings。\"
\"Iwillbecareful,\"Bettinaanswered。\"Sheshallnotbetroubled。Ididnotcometotroubleher,\"
CHAPTERXIII
ONEOFTHENEWYORKDRESSES
Asshewentdownthestaircaselater,onherwaytodinner,MissVanderpoelsawonallsidessignsoftheextentofthenakednessoftheland。Shewasinafineoldhouse,strippedofmostofitssaleablebelongings,uncaredfor,deterioratingyearbyyear,graduallygoingtoruin。Oneneednotpossessparticularkeennessofsighttoobservethis,andshehadchancedtoseeoldhousesinlikeconditioninothercountriesthanEngland。Aman—servant,inashabbylivery,openedthedrawing—
roomdoorforher。Hewasnotapicturesqueservitoroffallenfortunes,butanawkwardpersonwhowasnotaccustomedtohisduties。Bettywonderedifhehadbeencalledinfromthegardenstomeetthenecessitiesofthemoment。Hisfurtiveglanceatthetallyoungwomanwhopassedhim,tookinwithsuddenembarrassmentthefactthatsheplainlydidnotbelongtothedispiritedworldboundedbyStornhamCourt。Withoutsparklinggemsortrailingrichnessinherwake,shewassuggestivelysplendid。Hedidnotknowwhetheritwasherhairorthebuildofherneckandshouldersthatdidit,butitwasrevealedtohimthattiarasandcollarsofstoneswhichblazedbelongedwithoutdoubttoherequipment。HerecalledthattherewasalegendtotheeffectthatthepresentLadyAnstruthers,wholookedlikearagdoll,hadbeenthedaughterofarichAmerican,andthatbetterthingsmighthavebeenexpectedofherifshehadnotbeensuchapoor—spiritedcreature。
Ifthiswashersister,sheperhapswasayoungwomanoffortune,andthatshewasnotofpoorspiritwasplain。
Thelargedrawing—roompresentedbutanotheraspectofthebarenessoftherestofthehouse。Intimesprobablylongpast,possiblyintheDowagerLadyAnstruthers’earlyyearsofmarriage,thewallshadbeenhungwithwhiteandgoldpaperofapatternwhichdominatedthescene,andhadbeenfurnishedwithgildedchairs,tables,andottomans。Someoftheselasthadevidentlybeenremovedastheybecametoomuchoutofrepairforuseorornament。Suchasremained,tarnishedastogildingandworninthematterofupholstery,stoodsparselyscatteredonadesertofcarpet,whosehuge,floweredmedallionshadfadedalmostfromview。
LadyAnstruthers,lookingshyandawkwardasshefingeredanornamentonasmalltable,seemedsingularlyapartofherbackground。Hereveningdress,slippingoffherthinshoulders,wasasfadedandoutofdateashercarpet。Ithadoncebeendelicatelyblueandgauzy,butitsgauzinesshungincrushedfoldsanditsbluewasalmostgrey。Itwasalsothedressofagirl,notthatofacolourless,wornwoman,andherconsciousnessofitsunfitnessshowedinhersmall—featuredfaceasshecameforward。
\"Doyou——recogniseit,Betty?\"sheaskedhesitatingly。\"ItwasoneofmyNewYorkdresses。Iputitonbecause——
because————\"andherstammeringendedhelplessly。
\"Becauseyouwantedtoremindme,\"Bettysaid。Ifshefeltiteasiertobeginwithanexcusesheshouldbeprovidedwithone。
PerhapsbutforthisreadinesstofallintoanytoneshechosetoadoptRosymighthaveendeavouredtocarryherpoorfarceon,butasitwasshesuddenlygaveitup。
\"IputitonbecauseIhavenoother,\"shesaid。\"WeneverhavevisitorsandIhaven’tdressedfordinnerforsolongthatIseemtohavenothingleftthatisfittowear。Idraggedthisoutbecauseitwasbetterthananythingelse。Itwasprettyonce————\"shegavealittlelaugh,\"twelveyearsago。Howlongyearsseem!WasI——wasIpretty,Betty——twelveyearsago?\"
\"Twelveyearsisnotsuchalongtime。\"Bettytookherhandanddrewhertoasofa。\"Letussitdownandtalkaboutit。\"
\"Thereisnothingmuchtotalkabout。Thisisit————\"
takingintheroomwithawaveofherhand。\"Iamit。
Ughtredisit。\"