第11章

类别:其他 作者:Frances Hodgson Burnett字数:11208更新时间:19/01/07 14:57:26
\"Oh,Betty,Betty!\"shecried,\"youtalkasif——youareso————!\" Thefact,sosimpletothemembersoftheabnormalclasstowhichsheofatruthbelonged,theclasswhichheapedupitsmillions,theabsoluteknowledgethattherewasagreatdealofmoneyintheworldandthatshewasofthosewhowereamongitschiefowners,hadceasedtoseemafact,andhadvanishedintotheregionoffairystories。 ThatshecouldnotbelieveitarealityrevealeditselftoBettina,asbyaflash,whichwasalsoarevelationofmanythings。Therewouldbeunpleasingtruthstobelearned,andshehadnotmadeherpilgrimagefornothing。But——inanyevent——therewereadvantageswithoutdoubtinthecircumstancewhichsubjectedonetobeingperpetuallypointedoutasadaughterofamulti—millionaire。Asthisargueditselfoutforherwithrapidlucidity,shebentandkissedRosyoncemore。Sheeventriedtodoitlightly,andnottoallowtherushofloveandpityinhersoultobetrayher。 \"Italkasif——asifIwereBetty,\"shesaid。\"Youhaveforgotten。Ihavenot。Ihavebeenlookingforwardtothisforyears。IhavebeenplanningtocometoyousinceIwaselevenyearsold。Andherewesit。\" \"Youdidn’tforget?Youdidn’t?\"falteredthepoorwreckofRosy。\"Oh!Oh!Ithoughtyouhadallforgottenme——quite——quite!\" Andherfacewentdowninherspare,smallhands,andshebegantocryagain。 CHAPTERXII UGHTRED Bettinastoodaloneinherbedroomacoupleofhourslater。 LadyAnstruthershadtakenhertoit,preparingherforitslimitationsbyexplainingthatshewouldfinditquitedifferentfromherroominNewYork。Shehadbeenpatheticallynervousandflushedaboutit,andBettinahadalsobeenawarethattheapartmentitselfhadbeenhastily,andwithmuchmovingofobjectsfromonechambertoanother,madereadyforher。 Theroomwaslargeandsquareandlow。Itwaspanelledinsmallsquaresofwhitewood。Thepanelswereoldenoughtobecrackedhereandthere,andthepaintwasstainedandyellowwithtime,whereitwasnotknockedorwornoff。 Therewasasmallpaned,leadedwindowwhichfilledalargepartofonesideoftheroom,anditsdeepseatwasanagreeablefeature。Sittinginit,onelookedoutoverseveralred— walledgardens,andthroughbreaksinthetreesoftheparktoafairbeyond。Bettinastoodbeforethiswindowforafewmoments,andthentookaseatintheembrasure,thatshemightgazeoutandreflectatleisure。 Hergenius,ashasbeforebeenmentioned,wasthegeniusforliving,forbeingvital。Manypeoplemerelyexist,arekeptalivebyothers,orcontinuetovegetatebecausethepersistentactionofnormalfunctionswillallowoftheirdoingnoless。BettinaVanderpoelhadlivedvividly,andinthemidstofaself—createdatmosphereofactionfromherfirsthour。Itwasnotpossibleforhertobeoneofthehordeofmerespectators。Wheresoevershemovedtherewassomeoccultstirringofthemental,andevenphysical,air。Herpulsesbeattoostrongly,herbloodrantoofasttoallowofinactionofmindorbody。When,inpassingthroughthevillage,shehadseenthebrokenwindowsandthehangingpalingsofthecottages,ithadbeeninevitablethat,atonce,sheshould,inthought,repairthem,setthemstraight。Disorderfilledherwithasortofimpatiencewhichwasakintophysicaldistress。Ifshehadbeenbornapoorwomanshewouldhaveworkedhardforherliving,andfoundaninterest,almostanexhilaration,inherlabour。Suchgiftsasshehadwouldhavebeenappliedtothetaskssheundertook。Ithadfrequentlygivenherpleasuretoimagineherselfearningherlivelihoodasaseamstress,ahousemaid,anurse。Sheknewwhatshecouldhaveputintoherservice,andhowshecouldhavefounditabsorbing。Imaginationandinitiativecouldmakeanyserviceabsorbing。Theactualtruthwasthatifshehadbeenahousemaid,theroomshesetinorderwouldhavetakenacharacterunderhertouch;ifshehadbeenaseamstress,herworkwouldhavebeenswiftlydone,herimaginationwouldhaveinventedforhercombinationsofformandcolour;ifshehadbeenanursemaid,thechildrenunderhercarewouldneverhavebeensufficientlyboredtobecometiresomeorintractable,andtheyalsowouldhavegainedcharactertowhichwouldhavebeenaddedanundeniablevividnessofoutlook。 Shecouldnothaveleftthemalone,sotospeak。Inobeyingthemerelawsofherbeing,shewouldhavestimulatedthem。 Unconsciouslyshehadstimulatedherfellowpupilsatschool; whenshewashiscompanion,herfatherhadalwaysfelthimselfstirredtointerestandenterprise。 \"Yououghttohavebeenaman,Betty,\"heusedtosaytohersometimes。 ButBettyhadnotagreedwithhim。 \"Yousaythat,\"sheoncerepliedtohim,\"becauseyouseeIaminclinedtodothings,tochangethem,iftheyneedchanging。Well,oneiseitherbornlikethat,oroneisnot。 SometimesIthinkthatperhapsthepeoplewhomustACTareofadistinctrace。Akindofvigorousrestlessnessdrivesthem。 IrememberthatwhenIwasachildIcouldnotseeapinlyinguponthegroundwithoutpickingitup,orpassadrawerwhichneededclosing,withoutgivingitapush。Buttherehasalwaysbeenasmuchforwomentodoasformen。\" Therewasmuchtobedonehereofonesortofthingandanother。Thatwascertain。Asshegazedthroughthesmallpanesofherlargewindows,shefoundherselfoverlookingpartofawildernessofgarden,whichrevealeditselfthroughanarchinanovergrownlaurelhedge。Shehadglimpsesofunkemptgrasspathsandunclippedtopiaryworkwhichhadlostitsoriginalform。Amongatangleofweedsrosetheheadsofclumpsofdaffodils,stirredbyapassingwindofspring。Intheparkbeyondacuckoowascalling。 Shewasconsciousbothoftheforlornbeautyandsignificanceoftheneglectedgarden,andoftheclearquaintnessofthecuckoocall,asshethoughtofotherthings。 \"Herspiritandherhealtharebroken,\"washersummingup。\"Herprettinesshasfadedtoarag。Sheisasnervousasanill—treatedchild。Shehaslostherwits。Idonotknowwheretobeginwithher。Imustlethertellmethingsasgraduallyasshechooses。UntilIseeNigelIshallnotknowwhathismethodwithherhasbeen。Shelooksasifshehadceasedtocareforthings,evenforherself。WhatshallIwritetomother?\" Sheknewwhatsheshouldwritetoherfather。Withhimshecouldbeexplicit。Shecouldrecordwhatshehadfoundandwhatitsuggestedtoher。Shecouldalsomakeclearherreasonforhesitanceanddeliberation。Hisdiscretionandaffectionwouldcomprehendthethingwhichsheherselffeltandwhichaffectionnotcombinedwithdiscretionmightnottakein。Hewouldunderstand,whenshetoldhimthatoneofthefirstthingswhichhadstruckher,hadbeenthatRosyherself,herhelplessnessandtimidity,might,foraperiodatleast,formobstaclesintheirpathofaction。HenotonlylovedRosy,butrealisedhowslightasweetthingshehadalwaysbeen,andhewouldknowhowfaraslightcreature’sgentlenessmightbeoverpoweredandbeatendown。 Therewassomuchthathermothermustbespared,therewasindeedsolittlethatitwouldbewisetotellher,thatBettinasatgentlyrubbingherforeheadasshethoughtofit。 Thetruthwasthatshemusttellhernothing,untilallwasover,accomplished,decided。Whatsoevertherewastobe\"over,\"whatsoevertheactionfinallytaken,mustbeamatterlyingasfaraspossiblebetweenherfatherandherself。 Mrs。Vanderpoel’stroublewouldbetookeen,heranxietytoogreattokeeptoherself,evenifshewerenotoverwhelmedbythem。ShemustbetoldofthebeautiesanddimensionsofStornham,allrelatabledetailsofRosy’slifemustbegenerouslydwelton。AboveallRosymustbemadetowriteletters,andwithanairoffreedomhoweverspecious。 Aknockonthedoorbrokethethreadofherreflection。Itwasalow—soundingknock,andsheansweredthesummonsherself,becauseshethoughtitmightbeRosy’s。 ItwasnotLadyAnstrutherswhostoodoutside,butUghtred,whobalancedhimselfonhiscrutches,andliftedhissmall,toomature,face。 \"MayIcomein?\"heasked。 Herewastheunexpectedagain,butshedidnotallowhimtoseehersurprise。 \"Yes,\"shesaid。\"Certainlyyoumay。\" Heswunginandthenturnedtospeaktoher。 \"Pleaseshutthedoorandlockit,\"hesaid。 Therewassuddenilluminationinthis,butofanorderalmostwhimsical。Thatmodernpeopleinmoderndaysshouldfeelboltsandbarsanecessityofordinaryintercoursewassuggestive。Shewasplainlyabouttoreceiveenlightenment。Sheturnedthekeyandfollowedthehaltingfigureacrosstheroom。 \"Whatareyouafraidof?\"sheasked。 \"WhenmotherandItalkthingsover,\"hesaid,\"wealwaysdoitwherenoonecanseeorhear。It’stheonlywaytobesafe。\" \"Safefromwhat?\" Hiseyesfixedthemselvesonherasheansweredheralmostsullenly。 \"Safefrompeoplewhomightlistenandgoandtellthatwehadbeentalking。\" Inhisthwarted—looking,oddchild—facetherewasashadeofappealnotwhollyhiddenbyhisevidentwishnottobeboylike。Bettyfeltadesiretokneeldownsuddenlyandembracehim,butsheknewhewasnotpreparedforsuchademonstration。Helookedlikeacreaturewhohadlivedcontinuallyatbay,andhadlearnedtoadjusthimselftoanysituationwithcautionandrestraint。 \"Sitdown,Ughtred,\"shesaid,andwhenhedidsosheherselfsatdown,butnottoonearhim。 Restinghischinonthehandleofacrutch,hegazedatheralmostprotestingly。 \"Ialwayshavetodothesethings,\"hesaid,\"andIamnotcleverenough,oroldenough。Iamonlyeleven。\" Thementionofthenumberofhisyearswasplainlynotapologetic,butwasamerestatementofhislimitations。Therethefactwas,andhemustmakethebestofithecould。 \"Whatthingsdoyoumean?\" \"Tryingtomakethingseasier——explainingthingswhenshecannotthinkofexcuses。To—dayitistellingyouwhatsheistoofrightenedtotellyouherself。Isaidtoherthatyoumustbetold。Itmadehernervousandmiserable,butIknewyoumust。\" \"Yes,Imust,\"Bettyanswered。\"Iamgladshehasyoutodependon,Ughtred。\" Hiscrutchgratedonthefloorandhisboyeyesforbadehertobelievethattheirsuddenlustrewasinanywayconnectedwithrestrainedemotion。 \"IknowIseemqueerandlikealittleoldman,\"hesaid。 \"Mothercriesaboutitsometimes。Butitcan’tbehelped。 Itisbecauseshehasneverhadanyonebutmetohelpher。 WhenIwasverylittle,Ifoundouthowfrightenedandmiserableshewas。Afterhisrages,\"heusednoname,\"sheusedtorunintomynurseryandsnatchmeupinherarmsandhideherfaceinmypinafore。Sometimesshestuffeditintohermouthandbitittokeepherselffromscreaming。Once—— beforeIwasseven——Iranintotheirroomandshoutedout,andtriedtofightforher。Hewasgoingout,andhadhisridingwhipinhishand,andhecaughtholdofmeandstruckmewithit——untilhewastired。\" Bettystoodupright。 \"What!What!What!\"shecriedout。 Hemerelynoddedhisheadshortly。Shesawwhatthethinghadbeenbythewayhisfacelostcolour。 \"OfcoursehesaiditwasbecauseIwasimpudent,andneededpunishment,\"hesaid。\"HesaidshehadencouragedmeinAmericanimpudence。Itwasworseforherthanforme。Shekneeleddownandscreamedoutasifshewascrazy,thatshewouldgivehimwhathewantedifhewouldstop。\" \"Wait,\"saidBetty,drawinginherbreathsharply。\"`He,’ isSirNigel?Andhewantedsomething。\" Henoddedagain\"Tellme,\"shedemanded,\"hasheeverstruckher?\" \"Once,\"heansweredslowly,\"beforeIwasborn——hestruckherandshefellagainstsomething。ThatiswhyIamlikethis。\"Andhetouchedhisshoulder。 ThefeelingwhichsurgedthroughBettyVanderpoel’sbeingforcedhertogoandstandwithherfaceturnedtowardsthewindows,herhandsholdingeachothertightlybehindherback。 \"Imustkeepstill,\"shesaid。\"Imustmakemyselfkeepstill。\" Shespokeunconsciouslyhalfaloud,andUghtredheardherandrepliedhurriedly。 \"Yes,\"hesaid,\"youmustmakeyourselfkeepstill。Thatiswhatwehavetodowhateverhappens。Thatisoneofthethingsmotherwantedyoutoknow。Sheisafraid。Shedaren’tletyou————\" Sheturnedfromthewindow,standingatherfullheightandlookingverytallforagirl。 \"Sheisafraid?Shedaren’t?See——thatwillcometoanendnow。Therearethingswhichcanbedone。\" Heflushednervously。 \"Thatiswhatshewasafraidyouwouldsay,\"hespokefastandhishandstrembled。\"Sheisnearlywildaboutit,becausesheknowshewilltrytodosomethingthatwillmakeyoufeelasifshedoesnotwantyou。\" \"Sheisafraidofthat?\"Bettyexclaimed。 \"He’ddoit!He’ddoit——ifyoudidnotknowbeforehand。\" \"Oh!\"saidBetty,withunflinchingclearness。\"Heisaliar,ishe?\" Thehelplessrageintheunchildisheyes,theshakingvoice,ashecriedoutinanswer,wereashock。Itwasasifhewildlyrejoicedthatshehadspokentheword。 \"Yes,he’saliar——aliar!\"heshrilled。\"He’saliarandabullyandacoward。He’d——he’dbeamurdererifhedared——buthedaren’t。\"Andhisfacedroppedonhisarmsfoldedonhiscrutch,andhebrokeintoapassionofcrying。ThenBettyknewshemightgotohim。Shewentandkneltdownandputherarmroundhim。 \"Ughtred,\"shesaid,\"cry,ifyoulike,Ishoulddoit,ifIwereyou。ButItellyouitcanallbealtered——anditshallbe。\" Heseemedquitelikealittleboywhenheputouthishandtohersandspokesobbingly: \"She——shesays——thatbecauseyouhaveonlyjustcomefromAmerica——andinAmericapeople——candothings——youwillthinkyoucandothingshere——andyoudon’tknow。Hewilltellliesaboutyouliesyoucan’tbear。Shesatwringingherhandswhenshethoughtofit。Shewon’tletyoubehurtbecauseyouwanttohelpher。\"Hestoppedabruptlyandclutchedhershoulder。 \"AuntBetty!AuntBetty——whateverhappens——whateverhemakesherseemlike——youaretoknowthatitisnottrue。 Nowyouhavecome——nowshehasseenyouitwouldKILLherifyouweredrivenawayandthoughtshewantedyoutogo。\" \"Ishallnotthinkthat,\"sheanswered,slowly,becausesherealisedthatitwaswellthatshehadbeenwarnedintime。 \"Ughtred,areyoutryingtotellmethataboveallthingsI mustnotlethimthinkthatIcameheretohelpyou,becauseifheisangryhewillmakeusallsuffer——andyourmothermostofall?\" \"He’llfindaway。Wealwaysknowhewill。Hewouldeitherbesorudethatyouwouldnotstayhere——orhewouldmakemotherseemrude——orhewouldwriteliestograndfather。 AuntBetty,shescarcelybelievesyouarerealyet。Ifshewon’ttellyouthingsatfirst,pleasedon’tmind。\"Helookedquitelikeachildagaininhisappealtoher,totrytounderstandastateofaffairssocomplicated。\"Couldyou—— couldyouwaituntilyouhaveletherget——getusedtoyou?\" \"Usedtothinkingthattheremaybesomeoneintheworldtohelpher?\"slowly。\"Yes,Iwill。Hasanyoneevertriedtohelpher?\" \"Onceortwicepeoplefoundoutandweresorryatfirst,butitonlymadeitworse,becausehemadethembelievethings。\" \"IshallnotTRY,Ughtred,\"saidBetty,aremotesparkkindlinginthedeepsofthepupilsofhersteel—blueeyes。\"I shallnotTRY。NowIamgoingtoaskyousomequestions。\" Beforehelefthershehadaskedmanyquestionswhichwerepertinentandsearching,andshehadlearnedthingssherealisedshecouldhavelearnedinnootherwayandfromnootherperson。Butforhisuncannysenseoftheresponsibilityheclearlyhadassumedinthedayswhenheworepinafores,andwhichhadbroughthimtoherroomtopreparehermindforwhatshewouldfindherselfconfrontedwithinthewayofapparentlyunexplainableobstacles,therewasastronglikelihoodthatattheoutsetshemighthavefoundherselfmorethanoncedangerouslyataloss。Yes,shewouldhavebeenataloss,puzzled,perhapsgreatlydiscouraged。Shewasfacetofacewithacomplicationsoextraordinary。 Thatoneman,throughmerepersistentsteadinessineviltemperanddomestictyranny,shouldhavesobrokenthecreaturesofhishouseholdintoabjectsubmissionandhopelessness,seemedtooincredible。SuchapowerappearedasremotefromcivilisedexistenceinLondonandNewYorkasdidthatwhichhadinflictedtorturesinthedungeonsofcastlesofold。 Prisonersinsuchdungeonscouldutternocrywhichcouldreachtheoutsideworld;theprisonersatStornhamCourt,notfourhoursfromHydeParkCorner,couldutternonetheworldcouldhear,orcomprehendifitheardit。Sheerlackofpowertoresistboundthemhandandfoot。Andshe,BettyVanderpoel,washereuponthespot,and,asfarasshecouldunderstand,wasbeingimploredtotakenosteps,todonothing。 Theatmosphereinwhichshehadspentherlife,theworldshehadbeenborninto,hadnotmadeforfearfulnessthatonewouldbeatanytimedefencelessagainstcircumstancesandbeobligedtosubmittooutrage。TobeaVanderpoelwas,itwastrue,tobeashiningmarkforenvyasforadmiration,butthefactremovedobstaclesasarule,andtofindone’sselfstandingbeforeasituationwithone’shands,figurativelyspeaking,tied,wasnewenoughtoarouseunusualsensations。Sherecalled,withanironicsenseofbewilderment,asasortofmaterialevidenceofherownreality,thefactthatnotaweekagoshehadsteppedontoEnglishsoilfromthegangwayofasolidAtlanticliner。ItaidedhertoresistthefeelingthatshehadbeensweptbackintotheMiddleAges。 \"Whenheisangry,\"wasoneofthefirstquestionssheputtoUghtred,\"whatdoeshegiveashisreason?Hemustprofesstohaveareason。\" \"Whenhegetsinaragehesaysitisbecausemotherissillyandcommon,andIambadlybroughtup。Butwealwaysknowhewantsmoney,anditmakeshimfurious。Hecouldkilluswithrage。\" \"Oh!\"saidBetty。\"Isee。\" \"Itbeganthattimewhenhestruckher。Hesaidthenthatitwasnotdecentthatawomanwhowasmarriedshouldkeepherownmoney。Hemadehergivehimalmosteverythingshehad,butshewantstokeepsomeforme。Hetriestomakehergetmorefromgrandfather,butshewillnotwritebeggingletters,andshewon’tgivehimwhatsheissavingforme。\" Itwasasimpleandsordidenoughexplanationinonesense,anditwasoneofwhichBettinahadknown,notoneparallel,butseveral。Havingmarriedtoensurehimselfpoweroverunquestionedresources,themanhadfelthimselfdisgustinglytakenin,andavengedhimselfaccordingly。Inhimhadbeenbornthemakingsofadomestictyrantwho,evenhadhebeenfavouredbyfortune,wouldhavewreakedhishumoursuponthedefencelessthingsmadehispropertybytiesofbloodandmarriage,andwho,beingunfavoured,woulddoworse。BettycouldseewhattheyearshadheldforRosy,andhowherweaknessandtimidityhadbeenconsideredaspositiveassets。A womanwhowillcrywhensheisbullied,maybecountedupontosubmitaftershehascried。Rosyhadsubmitteduptoacertainpointandthen,withthestubbornnessofaweakcreature,hadstoodattimidbayforheryoung。 WhatBettygatheredwasthat,afterthelongandterribleillnesswhichhadfollowedUghtred’sbirth,shehadrisenfromwhathadbeensonearlyherdeathbed,prostratedinbothmindandbody。Ughtreddidnotknowallthatherevealedwhenhetoucheduponthetimewhichhesaidhismothercouldnotquiteremember——whenshehadsatformonthsstaringvacantlyoutofherwindow,tryingtorecallsomethingterriblewhichhadhappened,andwhichshewantedtotellhermother,ifthedayevercamewhenshecouldwritetoheragain。Shehadneverrememberedclearlythedetailsofthethingshehadwantedtotell,andNigelhadinsistedthatherfancywaspartofherpastdelirium。Hehadsaidthatatthebeginningofherdeliriumshehadattackedandinsultedhismotherandhimselfbuttheyhadexcusedherbecausetheyrealisedafterwardswhatthecauseofherexcitementhadbeen。Foralongtimeshehadbeentoobrokenlyweaktoquestionordisbelieve,but,latershehadvaguelyknownthathehadbeenlyingtoher,thoughshecouldnotrefutewhathesaid。Sherecalled,incourseoftime,ahorriblesceneinwhichallthreeofthemhadravedateachother,andsheherselfhadshriekedandlaughedandhurledwildwordsatNigel,andhehadstruckher。Thatsheknewandneverforgot。Shehadbeenillayear,herhairhadfallenout,herskinhadfadedandshehadbeguntofeellikeanervous,tiredoldwomaninsteadofagirl。Girlhood,withallthepast,hadbecomeunrealandtoofarawaytobemorethanadream。NothinghadremainedrealbutStornhamandNigelandthelittlehunchbackedbaby。ShewasgladwhentheDowagerdiedandwhenNigelspenthistimeinLondonorontheContinentandleftherwithUghtred。Whenhesaidthathemustspendhermoneyontheestate,shehadacquiescedwithoutcomment,becausethatinsuredhisgoingaway。Shesawthatnoimprovementorrepairsweremade,butshecoulddonothingandwastoolistlesstomaketheattempt。SheonlywantedtobeleftalonewithUghtred,andsheexhibitedwill— poweronlyindefenceofherchildandinherobstinacywithregardtoaskingmoneyofherfather。 \"Shethought,somehow,thatgrandfatherandgrandmotherdidnotcareforheranymore——thattheyhadforgottenherandonlycaredforyou,\"Ughtredexplained。\"Sheusedtotalktomeaboutyou。Shesaidyoumustbesocleverandsohandsomethatnoonecouldrememberher。Sometimesshecriedandsaidshedidnotwantanyofyoutoseeheragain,becauseshewasonlyahideous,little,thin,yellowoldwoman。 WhenIwasverylittleshetoldmestoriesaboutNewYorkandFifthAvenue。Ithoughttheywerenotrealplaces——I thoughtheywereplacesinfairyland。\" Bettypattedhisshoulderandlookedawayforamomentwhenhesaidthis。Inherremoteandhelplessloneliness,toRosy’shomesick,yearningsoul,noisy,rattlingNewYork,FifthAvenuewithitstrafficandpeople,itsbrown—stonehousesandrickettystages,hadseemedlikeTHAT——sosplendidandbrightandheart—filling,thatshehadpaintedthemincolourswhichcouldbelongonlytofairyland。Itsaidsomuch。 Thethingshehadsuspectedasshehadtalkedtohersisterwas,beforetheinterviewended,madecuriouslyclear。Thefirstobstacleinherpathwaywouldbetheshrinkingofacreaturewhohadbeensolongunderdominionthatthemerethoughtofseeinganystepstakentowardsherrescuefilledherwithalarm。Onemightbepreparedforheralmostprayingtobeletalone,becauseshefeltthattheprocessofhersalvationwouldbringaboutsuchshocksandtormentsasshecouldnotendurethefacingof。 \"Shewillhavetogetusedtoyou,\"Ughtredkeptsaying。 \"Shewillhavetogetusedtothinkingthings。\" \"Iwillbecareful,\"Bettinaanswered。\"Sheshallnotbetroubled。Ididnotcometotroubleher,\" CHAPTERXIII ONEOFTHENEWYORKDRESSES Asshewentdownthestaircaselater,onherwaytodinner,MissVanderpoelsawonallsidessignsoftheextentofthenakednessoftheland。Shewasinafineoldhouse,strippedofmostofitssaleablebelongings,uncaredfor,deterioratingyearbyyear,graduallygoingtoruin。Oneneednotpossessparticularkeennessofsighttoobservethis,andshehadchancedtoseeoldhousesinlikeconditioninothercountriesthanEngland。Aman—servant,inashabbylivery,openedthedrawing— roomdoorforher。Hewasnotapicturesqueservitoroffallenfortunes,butanawkwardpersonwhowasnotaccustomedtohisduties。Bettywonderedifhehadbeencalledinfromthegardenstomeetthenecessitiesofthemoment。Hisfurtiveglanceatthetallyoungwomanwhopassedhim,tookinwithsuddenembarrassmentthefactthatsheplainlydidnotbelongtothedispiritedworldboundedbyStornhamCourt。Withoutsparklinggemsortrailingrichnessinherwake,shewassuggestivelysplendid。Hedidnotknowwhetheritwasherhairorthebuildofherneckandshouldersthatdidit,butitwasrevealedtohimthattiarasandcollarsofstoneswhichblazedbelongedwithoutdoubttoherequipment。HerecalledthattherewasalegendtotheeffectthatthepresentLadyAnstruthers,wholookedlikearagdoll,hadbeenthedaughterofarichAmerican,andthatbetterthingsmighthavebeenexpectedofherifshehadnotbeensuchapoor—spiritedcreature。 Ifthiswashersister,sheperhapswasayoungwomanoffortune,andthatshewasnotofpoorspiritwasplain。 Thelargedrawing—roompresentedbutanotheraspectofthebarenessoftherestofthehouse。Intimesprobablylongpast,possiblyintheDowagerLadyAnstruthers’earlyyearsofmarriage,thewallshadbeenhungwithwhiteandgoldpaperofapatternwhichdominatedthescene,andhadbeenfurnishedwithgildedchairs,tables,andottomans。Someoftheselasthadevidentlybeenremovedastheybecametoomuchoutofrepairforuseorornament。Suchasremained,tarnishedastogildingandworninthematterofupholstery,stoodsparselyscatteredonadesertofcarpet,whosehuge,floweredmedallionshadfadedalmostfromview。 LadyAnstruthers,lookingshyandawkwardasshefingeredanornamentonasmalltable,seemedsingularlyapartofherbackground。Hereveningdress,slippingoffherthinshoulders,wasasfadedandoutofdateashercarpet。Ithadoncebeendelicatelyblueandgauzy,butitsgauzinesshungincrushedfoldsanditsbluewasalmostgrey。Itwasalsothedressofagirl,notthatofacolourless,wornwoman,andherconsciousnessofitsunfitnessshowedinhersmall—featuredfaceasshecameforward。 \"Doyou——recogniseit,Betty?\"sheaskedhesitatingly。\"ItwasoneofmyNewYorkdresses。Iputitonbecause—— because————\"andherstammeringendedhelplessly。 \"Becauseyouwantedtoremindme,\"Bettysaid。Ifshefeltiteasiertobeginwithanexcusesheshouldbeprovidedwithone。 PerhapsbutforthisreadinesstofallintoanytoneshechosetoadoptRosymighthaveendeavouredtocarryherpoorfarceon,butasitwasshesuddenlygaveitup。 \"IputitonbecauseIhavenoother,\"shesaid。\"WeneverhavevisitorsandIhaven’tdressedfordinnerforsolongthatIseemtohavenothingleftthatisfittowear。Idraggedthisoutbecauseitwasbetterthananythingelse。Itwasprettyonce————\"shegavealittlelaugh,\"twelveyearsago。Howlongyearsseem!WasI——wasIpretty,Betty——twelveyearsago?\" \"Twelveyearsisnotsuchalongtime。\"Bettytookherhandanddrewhertoasofa。\"Letussitdownandtalkaboutit。\" \"Thereisnothingmuchtotalkabout。Thisisit————\" takingintheroomwithawaveofherhand。\"Iamit。 Ughtredisit。\"