OnemorningBetty,comingtomakehervisitofinquiryfoundthepatientlookingthoughtful,andwhenshecommenteduponhisairofpondering,hisreplycastlightuponthemystery。
\"Well,MissVanderpoel,\"heexplained,\"IwaslyingherethinkingofLordMountDunstanandMr。Penzance,andhowwelltheytreatedme——Ihaven’ttoldyouaboutthat,haveI?
\"ThatexplainswhatMrs。Buttlesaid,\"sheanswered。
\"WhenyouweredeliriousyoutalkedfrequentlytoLordMountDunstanandMr。Penzance。Webothwonderedwhy。\"
Thenhetoldherthewholestory。Beginningwithhissittingonthegrassybankoutsidethepark,listeningtothesongoftherobin,heendedwiththeadieuxattheentrancegateswhenthesoundofherhorse’strottinghoofshadbeenheardbyeachofthem。
\"WhatI’vebeenlyingherethinkingof,\"hesaid,\"ishowqueeritwasithappenedjustthatway。IfIhadn’tstoppedjustthatminute,andifyouhadn’tgoneby,andifLordMountDunstanhadn’tknownyouandsaidwhoyouwere,LittleWilliewouldhavebeeninLondonbythistime,hustlingtogetacheapbunkbacktoNewYorkin。\"
\"Because?\"inquiredMissVanderpoel。
G。Seldenlaughedandhesitatedamoment。Thenhemadeacleanbreastofit。
\"Say,MissVanderpoel,\"hesaid,\"Ihopeitwon’tmakeyoumadifIownup。Ladieslikeyoudon’tknowanythingaboutchapslikeme。Onthesquareandstraightout,whenIseenyouandheardyournameIcouldn’thelprememberingwhosedaughteryouwas。ReubenS。Vanderpoelspellsabigthing。Why,whenIwasinNewYorkwefellowsusedtogettogetherandtalkaboutwhatit’dmeantothechapwhocouldgetnexttoReubenS。Vanderpoel。Weusedtocountupallthebusinesshedoes,andalltheclerkshe’sgotunderhimpoundingawayontypewriters,andhowthey’dbeboundtogetwornoutandneednewones。Andwe’dmakecalculationshowmanyamancouldunload,ifhecouldgetnext。Itwasakindoftypewritingjuniorassistantfairystory,andweknewitcouldn’thappenreally。Butweusedtochinaboutitjustforthefunofthething。OneoftheboysmadeupathingaboutoneofussavingReubenS。’slife——dragginghimfromunderarunawayautoand,whenhesays,`WhatcanI
dotoshowmygratitude,youngman?’himhandingouthiscatalogueandsaying,`IshouldliketocallyourattentiontotheDelkoff,sir,’andgettinghimtopromisehe’dneveruseanyother,aslongashelived!\"
ReubenS。Vanderpoel’sdaughterlaughedasspontaneouslyasanygirlmighthavedone。G。Seldenlaughedwithher。
Atanyrate,shehadn’tgotmad,sofar。
\"Thatwaswhatdidit,\"hewenton。\"WhenIrodeawayonmybikeIgotthinkingaboutitandcouldnotgetitoutofmyhead。ThenextdayIjuststoppedontheroadandgotoffmywheel,andIsaystomyself:`Lookhere,businessisbusiness,ifyouAREtravellinginEuropeandlunchingatBuckinghamPalacewiththemainsqueeze。Getbusy!What’lltheboyssayiftheyhearyou’vemissedachancelikethis?YOU
hitthepikeforStornhamCastle,orwhateverit’scalled,andtakeyournervewithyou!Shecan’tdomorethanhaveyoufiredout,andyou’vebeenfiredbeforeandgotyourbreathafterit。SoIturnedroundandmadetime。AndthatwashowI
happenedonyouravenue。AndperhapsitwasbecauseIwasfeelingabitrattledIlostmyholdwhenthechainbroke,andpitchedoveronmyhead。There,I’vegotitoffmychest。I
wasthinkingIshouldhavetoexplainsomehow。\"
Somethingakintoherfeelingofaffectionforthenice,long—
leggedWesternershehadseenramblinginBondStreettouchedBettyagain。TheDelkoffwasthecentreofG。Selden’sworldastheflowerswereofKedgers’,asthe\"little’ome\"wasofMrs。Welden’s。
\"WereyougoingtotrytosellMEatypewriter?\"sheasked。
\"Well,\"G。Seldenadmitted,\"Ididn’tknowbutwhattheremightbeuseforone,writingbusinesslettersonabigplacelikethis。Straight,Iwon’tsayIwasn’tgoingtotryprettyhard。Itmaylooklikegall,butyouseeafellowhastorushthingsorhe’llnevergetthere。AchaplikemeHAS
togetthere,somehow。\"
Shewassilentafewmomentsandlookedasifshewasthinkingsomethingover。HersilenceandthislookonherfaceactuallycausedtodawninthebreastofSeldenagleamofdaringhope。Helookedroundatherwithafaintrisingofcolour。
\"Say,MissVanderpoel——say————\"hebegan,andthenbrokeoff。
\"Yes?\"saidBetty,stillthinking。
\"C—COULDyouuseone——anywhere?\"hesaid。\"Idon’twanttorushthingstoomuch,but——COULDyou?\"
\"Isiteasytolearntouseit?\"
\"Easy!\"hisheadliftedfromhispillow。\"It’saseasyasfallingoffalog。Ababyinaperambulatorcouldlearntotickoffordersforitsbottle。And——onthesquare——thereisn’titsequalonthemarket,MissVanderpoel——thereisn’t。\"Hefumbledbeneathhispillowandactuallybroughtforthhiscatalogue。
\"Iaskedthenursetoputitthere。Iwantedtostudyitnowandthenandthinkuparguments。See——adjustabletoholdwithperfecteaseanenvelope,anindexcard,orastripofpapernowiderthanapostagestamp。Unsurpassedpaperfeed,practicalribbonmechanism——perfectandpermanentalignment。\"
AsMountDunstanhadtakenthebook,BettyVanderpoeltookit。NeverhadG。Seldenbeheldsuchsmilingineyesabouttobenduponhiscatalogue。
\"Youwillraiseyourtemperature,\"shesaid,\"ifyouexciteyourself。Youmustn’tdothat。Ibelievetherearetwoorthreepeopleontheestatewhomightbetaughttouseatypewriter。Iwillbuythree。Yes——wewillsaythree。\"
Shewouldbuythree。Hesoaredtoheights。Hedidnotknowhowtothankher,thoughhedidhisbest。Dizzyingvisionsofwhathewouldhavetotell\"theboys\"whenhereturnedtoNewYorkflashedacrosshismind。ThedaughterofReubenS。VanderpoelhadboughtthreeDelkoffs,andhewasthejuniorassistantwhohadsoldthemtoher。
\"Youdon’tknowwhatitmeanstome,MissVanderpoel,\"
hesaid,\"butifyouwereajuniorsalesmanyou’dknow。It’snotonlythesale——thoughthat’sarake—offoffifteendollarstome——butit’sbecauseit’sYOUthat’sboughtthem。Gee!\"
gazingatherwithafrankawewhoseobvioussincerityheldaqueertouchofpathos。\"WhatitmustbetobeYOU——justYOU!\"
Shedidnotlaugh。Shefeltasifahandhadlightlytouchedheronhernakedheart。Shehadthoughtofitsooften——hadbeenbewilderedrestlesslybyitasamerechild——thisdifferenceinhumanlot——thischance。WasitchancewhichhadplacedherentityinthecentreofBettinaVanderpoel’sworldinsteadofinthatofsomelittlecashgirlwithhairrakedbackfromasallowface,whostaredatherasshepassedinashop——orinthatoftheyoungFrenchwomanwhoselifewasspentinservingher,incaringfordelicatedressesandkeepingguardoverornamentswhosepricewouldhavegiventoherownhumblenesseasefortherestofexistence?Whatdiditmean?AndwhatLawwaslaiduponher?WhatLawwhichcouldonlyworkthroughherandsuchasshewhohadbeenbornwithalmostunearthlypowerlaidintheirhands——thereinsofmonstrouswealth,whichguidedordrovetheworld?Sometimesfeartouchedher,aswiththislighttouchanherheart,becauseshedidnotKNOWtheLawandcouldonlypraythatherguessingatitmightberight。And,evenasshethoughtthesethings,G。
Seldenwenton。
\"Younevercanknow,\"hesaid,\"becauseyou’vealwaysbeeninit。Andtherestoftheworldcan’tknow,becausethey’veneverbeenanywherenearit。\"Hestoppedandevidentlyfelltothinking。
\"Tellmeabouttherestoftheworld,\"saidBettyquietly。
Helaughedagain。
\"Why,Iwasjustthinkingtomyselfyoudidn’tknowathingaboutit。Andit’squeer。It’stherestofusthatmountsupwhenyoucometonumbers。Iguessit’drunintomillions。
I’mnotthinkingofbeggarsandstarvingpeople,I’vebeenrushingtheDelkofftoosteadytogetontoanyswellcharityorganisation,soIdon’tknowaboutthem。I’mjustthinkingofthemillionsoffellows,andwomen,too,forthematterofthat,thatwakenupeverymorningandknowthey’vegottohustlefortheirtenperortheirfifteenper——iftheycanstiritupasthickasthat。Ifit’sasmuchasfiftyper,ofcourse,seemsliketome,they’reonEasyStreet。Butsometimesthosethat’sgottofiftyper——orevenmore——havegotmorethingstodowithit——kids,youknow,andmorerentandclothes。They’vegottogetatitjustashardaswehave。Why,MissVanderpoel,howmanypeopledoyousupposethereareinamillionthatdon’thavetoworryovertheirnextmonth’sgrocerybills,andtherentoftheirflat?Ibetthere’snotten——andIdon’tknowtheten。\"
Hedidnotstatehiscaseuncheerfully。\"Therestoftheworld\"representedtohimthenormalconditionofthings。
\"Mostmarriedmen’sabitafraidtolookanhonestgrocerybillintheface。AndtheyWILLcomein——asregularasspringhats。AndItellYOU,whenaman’sgottoliveonseventy—fiveamonth,athingthat’lltakeallthestrengthandenergyoutofatwenty—dollarbillsortergetshimdownonthemat。\"
LikeoldMrs。Welden’s,hisroughlysketchedpicturewasagraphicone。
\"’Tain’ttheworkingthatbothersmostofus。Wewereborntothat,andmostofuswouldfeellikedeadbeatsifweweredoingnothing。It’stheearninglessthanyoucanliveon,andgettingasortoftiredfeelingoverit。It’sthehavingtomakeadollar—billlookliketwo,andwatchingeveryotherfellowtrytodothesamething,andnotoftenmakethetrip。
There’smillionsofus——justmillions——everyoneofuswithhisDelkofftosell————\"hisfigureofspeechpleasedhimandhechuckledathisowncleverness——\"andthinkingofit,andtalkingaboutit,and——underhisvest——halfafraidthathecan’tmakeit。Andwhatyousayinthemorningwhenyouopenyoureyesandstretchyourselfis,`Hullygee!I’veGOTtosellaDelkoffto—day,andsupposeIshouldn’t,andcouldn’tholddownmyjob!’Ibeganitovermyfeedingbottle。SodidallthepeopleIknow。That’swhatgavemeasortofajoltjustnowwhenIlookedatyouandthoughtaboutyoubeingYOU——
andwhatitmeant。\"
WhentheirconversationendedshehadamuchmoreintimateknowledgeofNewYorkthanshehadeverhadbefore,andshefeltitarichpossession。Shehadheardofthe\"hallbedroom\"previously,andshehadseenfromtheoutsidethe\"quicklunch\"counter,butG。Seldenunconsciouslyescortedherinsideandthrewuponfacesandlivestheglareofaflashlight。
\"TherewasathingI’vebeenthinkingI’daskyou,MissVanderpoel,\"hesaidjustbeforeshelefthim。\"I’dlikeyoutotellme,ifyouplease。It’slikethis。Youseethosetwofellowstreatedmeasfineassilk。ImeanLordMountDunstanandMr。Penzance。Ineverexpectedit。Ineversawalordbefore,muchlessspoketoone,butIcantellyouthatone’sjustaboutallright——MountDunstan。Andtheotherone——
theoldvicar——I’venevertakentoanyonesinceIwasbornlikeItooktohim。Thewayheputsonhiseye—glassesandlooksatyou,sorterkindandcuriousaboutyouatthesametime!Andhisvoiceandhiswayofsayinghiswords——well,theyjustGOTme——sure。Andtheybothof’emdidsaythey’dliketoseemeagain。Nowdoyouthink,MissVanderpoel,itwouldlooktoofresh——ifIwastowriteapolitenoteandaskifeitherofthemcouldmakeitconvenienttocomeandtakealookatme,ifitwouldn’tbetoomuchtrouble。I
don’tWANTtobetoofresh——andperhapstheywouldn’tcomeanyhow——andifitis,pleasewon’tyoutellme,MissVanderpoel?\"
BettythoughtofMountDunstanashehadstoodandtalkedtoherinthedeepeningafternoonsun。Shedidnotknowmuchofhim,butshethought——havingheardG。Selden’sstoryofthelunch——thathewouldcome。ShehadneverseenMr。
Penzance,butsheknewsheshouldliketoseehim。
\"Ithinkyoumightwritethenote,\"shesaid。\"Ibelievetheywouldcometoseeyou。\"
\"Doyou?\"witheagerpleasure。\"ThenI’lldoit。I’dgiveagooddealtoseethemagain。Itellyou,theyarejustIt——bothofthem。\"
CHAPTERXXVII
LIFE
MountDunstan,walkingthroughtheparknextmorningonhiswaytothevicarage,justafterposttime,metMr。
PenzancehimselfcomingtomakeanequallyearlycallattheMount。Eachofthemhadaletterinhishand,andeachmettheother’sglancewithasmile。
\"G。Selden,\"MountDunstansaid。\"Andyours?\"
\"G。Seldenalso,\"answeredthevicar。\"Pooryoungfellow,whatill—luck。Andyet——isitill—luck?Hesaysnot。\"
\"Hetellsmeitisnot,\"saidMountDunstan。\"AndIagreewithhim。\"
Mr。Penzancereadhisletteraloud。
\"DEARSIR:
\"Thisistonotifyyouthatowingtomybikegoingbackonmewhengoingdownhill,ImetwithanaccidentinStornhamPark。Wascutabouttheheadandlegbroken。LittleWilliebeingfarfromhomeandmother,youcanseewhatsortoffixhe’dbeeninifithadn’tbeenforthekindnessofReubenS。
Vanderpoel’sdaughters——MissBettinaandhersisterLadyAnstruthers。Thewaythey’vehadmetakencareofhasbeengreat。I’vebeenunderanurseanddoctorsameasifIwasAlbertEdwardwithappendycytus(Iapologiseifthat’snotspeltright)。DearSir,thisistosaythatIaskedMissVanderpoelifIshouldbebuttingintoomuchifIdroppedalinetoaskifyoucouldsparethetimetocallandseeme。Itwouldbeconsideredafavourandappreciatedby\"G。SELDEN,\"DelkoffTypewriterCo。Broadway。
\"P。S。HavealreadysoldthreeDelkoffstoMissVanderpoel。\"
\"Uponmyword,\"Mr。Penzancecommented,andhisamiablefervourquiteglowed,\"Ilikethatqueeryoungfellow——
Ilikehim。Hedoesnotwishto`buttintoomuch。’Now,thereisrudimentarydelicacyinthat。Andwhatahumorous,forcefulfigureofspeech!Somebuttinganimal——agoat,I
seemtosee,preferably——forcingitswayintoagrouporclosedcircleofpersons。\"
HisgleefulanalysisofthephrasehadsuchevidentcharmforhimthatMountDunstanbrokeintoashoutoflaughter,evenasG。SeldenhaddoneattheadroitmentionofWeber&Fields。
\"Shallwerideovertogethertoseehimthismorning?AnhourwithG。Selden,surroundedbytheatmosphereofReubenS。Vanderpoel,wouldbeacheeringthing,\"hesaid。
\"Itwould,\"Mr。Penzanceanswered。\"Letusgobyallmeans。Weshouldnot,Isuppose,\"withkeendelight,\"be`buttingin’uponLadyAnstrutherstooearly?\"Hewasquiteenrapturedwithhisownaptness。\"LikeG。Selden,I
shouldnotliketo`buttin,’\"headded。
Thescentandwarmthandglowofagloriousmorningfilledthehour。CombiningthemselveswithacertainnormalhumangaietywhichsurroundedthemerethoughtofG。Selden,theyweregoodthingsforMountDunstan。Lifewasstrongandyounginhim,andhehadlaughedabigyounglaugh,whichhad,perhapstendedtothewakinginhimofthefeelinghewassuddenlyconsciousof——thatasix—milerideoverawhite,tree—dappled,sunlitroadwouldbepleasantenough,and,afterall,ifattheendofthegalloponecameagainuponthatotherinwhomlifewasstrongandyoung,andbloomedonrose—cheekandwasthefarfireinthebluedeepsoflovelyeyes,andtheslimstraightnessofthefairbody,whywoulditnotbe,inaway,alltothegood?Hehadthoughtofheronmorethanoneday,andfeltthathewantedtoseeheragain。
\"Letusgo,\"heansweredPenzance。\"Onecancallonaninvalidatanytime。LadyAnstrutherswillforgiveus。\"
Inlessthananhour’stimetheywereontheirway。Theylaughedandtalkedastheyrode,theirhorses’hoofsstrikingoutacheerfulringingaccompanimenttotheirvoices。Thereisnothingmoreexhilaratingthanthehollow,regularringandclick—clackofgoodhoofsgoingwelloverafineoldRomanroadinthemorningsunlight。TheytalkedofthejuniorassistantsalesmanandofMissVanderpoel。Penzancewasmuchpleasedbytheprospectofseeing\"thisdelightfulandunusualgirl。\"Hehadheardstoriesofher,ashadLordWestholt。
HeknewofoldDoby’spipe,andofMrs。Welden’srespitefromtheUnion,andthoughsuchincidentswouldseemmeretriflestothedwelleringreattowns,hehadhimselflivedanddonehisworklongenoughinvillagestoknowthevillagemindandthescaleofproportionsbywhichitsgladnessandsadnessweremeasured。HeknewmoreofallthisthanMountDunstancould,sinceMountDunstan’sexistencehadisolateditself,fromrathergloomychoice。Butasherode,MountDunstanknewthathelikedtohearthesethings。Therewasthesuggestionofnewlifeandnewthoughtinthem,andsuchsuggestionwasgoodforanyman——orwoman,either——whohadfallenintolivinginadull,narrowgroove。
\"Itisthenewlifeinherwhichstrikesme,\"hesaid。\"Shehasbroughtwealthwithher,andwealthispowertodothegoodorevilthatgrowsinaman’ssoul;butshehasbroughtsomethingmore。Shemighthavecomehereandbroughtallthesumptuousnessofafashionableyoungbeauty,whodrovethroughthevillageanddrewpeopletotheirwindows,andmadeclodhoppersscratchtheirheadsandpulltheirforelocks,andchildrenbobcurtsiesandstare。Shemighthavecomeandgoneandleftamind—dazzlingmemoryandnothingelse。A
fewsovereignstossedhereandtherewouldhaveearnedherareputation——but,bygee!toquoteSelden——shehasbegunLIVINGwiththem,asifherancestorshaddoneitforsixhundredyears。Andwhat_I_seeisthatifshehadcomewithoutapennyinherpocketshewouldhavedonethesamething。\"
Hepausedaponderingmoment,andthendrewasharpbreathwhichwasanexclamationinitself。\"She’sLife!\"hesaid。
\"She’sLifeitself!GoodGod!whatathingitisforamanorwomantobeLife——insteadofamassoftissueandmuscleandnerve,draggedaboutbythemeremechanismofliving!\"
Penzancehadlistenedseriously。
\"Whatyousayisverysuggestive,\"hecommented。\"Itstrikesmeastrue,too。Youhaveseensomethingofheralso,atleastmorethanIhave。\"
\"IdidnotthinkthesethingswhenIsawher——thoughIsupposeI
feltthemunconsciously。Ihavereachedthiswayofsummingherupbyprocessesofexclusionandinclusion。Onehearsofher,asyouknowyourself,andonethinksherover。\"
\"Youhavethoughtherover?\"
\"Alot,\"rathergrumpily。\"Abeautifulfemalecreatureinevitablygivesanunbeautifulmalecreaturesomethingtothinkof——ifheisnototherwiseactivelyemployed。Iamnot。
Shehasbecomeasortofdawningrelieftomyhopelesshumours。
Beingalowandunworthybeast,Iamsometimesresentfulenoughoftheunfairnessofthings。Shehastoomuch。\"
WhentheyrodethroughStornhamvillagetheysawsignsofworkalreadydoneandworkstillinhand。Therewerenobrokenwindowsorpalingsorhangingwicketgates;cottagegardenshadbeenputinorder,andtherewereevidencesofsuchcheeringtouchesasnewbitsofwindowcurtainandstrong—lookingyoungplantsbloomingbetweenthem。Somanysmall,butnecessary,thingshadbeendonethatthewholevillageworetheaspectofaplacewhichhadtakenheart,andwasfacingexistenceinahopefulspirit。AyearagoMountDunstanandhisvicarridingthroughithadbeenstruckbyitsneglectedanddispiritedlook。
AstheyenteredthehalloftheCourtMissVanderpoelwasdescendingthestaircase。Shewaslaughingalittletoherself,andshelookedpleasedwhenshesawthem。
\"Itisgoodofyoutocome,\"shesaid,astheycrossedthehalltothedrawing—room。\"ButItoldhimIreallythoughtyouwould。Ihavejustbeentalkingtohim,andhewasalittleuncertainastowhetherhehadassumedtoomuch。\"
\"Astowhetherhehad`buttedin,’\"saidMr。Penzance。
\"Ithinkhemusthavesaidthat。\"
\"Hedid。Healsowasafraidthathemighthavebeen`toofresh。’\"answeredBetty。
\"Onourpart,\"saidMr。Penzance,withgentleglee,\"wehesitatedamomentinfearlestwealsomightappeartobe`buttingin。’\"
Thentheyalllaughedtogether。TheywerelaughingwhenLadyAnstruthersentered,andsheherselfjoinedthem。ButtoMountDunstan,whofelthertobesomehowatouchinglittleperson,therewasmanifestatendernessinherfeelingforG。
Selden。Forthatmatter,however,therewassomethingalreadybeginningtoberatheraffectionateintheattitudeofeachofthem。Theywentupstairstofindhimlyinginstateuponabigsofaplacednearawindow,andhisjoyatthesightofthemwasagenuine,humanthing。Infact,hehadponderedagooddealinsecretonthepossibilityoftheseswellpeoplethinkinghehad\"morethanhisshareofgall\"toexpectthemtorememberhimafterhepassedonhisjuniorassistantsalesman’sway。ReubenS。Vanderpoel’sdaughterswereofthehighestofhisFourHundred,buttheywereAmericans,andAmericanswerenotasaruleso\"stuckonthemselves\"astheEnglish。Andherethesetwoswellscameasfriendlyasyouplease。Andthatniceoldchapthatwasavicar,smilingandgivinghim\"thegladhand\"!
BettyandMountDunstanleftMr。Penzancetalkingtotheconvalescentafterashorttime。MountDunstanhadaskedtobeshownthegardens。Hewantedtoseethewonderfulthingshehadheardhadbeenalreadydonetothem。
Theywentdownthestairstogetherandpassedthroughthedrawing—roomintothepleasuregrounds。Theonceneglectedlawnshadalreadybeenmownandrolled,clippedandtrimmed,untiltheyspreadbeforetheeyehugemeasuresofgreenvelvet;
eventhebedsgirdlingandadorningthemwerebrilliantwithflowers。
\"Kedgers!\"saidBetty,wavingherhand。\"InmyignoranceIthoughtwemustwaitforblossomsuntilnextyear;
butitappearsthatwonderscanbebroughtallreadytobloomforonefromnurserygardens,andcanbemadetogrowwithcare——anddaring——andpassionateaffection。IhaveseenKedgersturnpalewithanguishashehungoverabedoftransplantedthingswhichseemedtodrooptoolong。Theydroopjustatfirst,youknow,andthentheyslowlylifttheirheads,slowly,asiftolistentoaVoicecalling——calling。OnceIsatforquitealongtimebeforearose,watchingit。WhenIsawitBEGINtolisten,Ifeltalittletremblingpassovermybody。
Iseemedtobesostrangelyneartosuchastrangething。ItwasLife——Lifecomingback——inanswertowhatwecannothear。\"
Shehadbegunlightly,andthenhervoicehadchanged。Itwasveryquietattheendofherspeaking。MountDunstansimplyrepeatedherlastwords。
\"Towhatwecannothear。\"
\"Onefeelsitsomuchinagarden,\"shesaid。\"Ihaveneverlivedinagardenofmyown。Thisisnotmine,butIhavebeenlivinginit——withKedgers。OneissoclosetoLifeinit——
thestirringinthebrownearth,thepiercingthroughofgreenspears,thatbreakingofbudsandpouringforthofscent!Whyshouldn’tonetremble,ifonethinks?IhavestoodinapottingshedandwatchedKedgersfillashallowboxwithdamprichmouldandscatteroveritathinlayerofinfinitesimalseeds;thenhemoistensthemandcarriesthemreverentlytohisaltarsinagreenhouse。TheledgesinKedgers’green—
housesarealtars。Ithinkheoffersprayersbeforethem。Whynot?Ishould。Andwhenonecomestoseethem,themoistseedsareswelledtofulness,andwhenonecomesagaintheyarebursting。Andthenexttime,tinygreenthingsarecurlingoutward。And,atlast,thereisafairyforestoftiniestpalegreenstemsandleaves。AndoneisstandingclosetotheSecretoftheWorld!Andwhyshouldnotoneprostrateone’sself,breathingsoftly——andtouchingone’sawedforeheadtotheearth?\"
MountDunstanturnedandlookedather——apauseinhisstep——theywerewalkingdownaturfedpath,andovertheirheadsmeetingbranchesofnewleaveshung。Somethinginhismovementmadeherturnandpausealso。Theybothpaused——andquiteunknowingly。
\"Doyouknow,\"hesaid,inalowandratherunusualvoice,\"thataswewereonourwayhere,IsaidofyoutoPenzance,thatyouwereLife——YOU!\"
Forafewseconds,astheystoodso,hislookheldher——theireyesinvoluntarilyandstrangelyheldeachother。Somethingsoftlyglowinginthesunlightfallingonthemboth,somethingrainingdowninthesongofarisingskylarktrillingintheblueafieldaway,somethinginthewarmedincenseofblossomsnearthem,wascalling——callingintheVoice,thoughtheydidnotknowtheyheard。Strangely,asplendidblushroseinafairfloodunderherskin。Shewasconsciousofit,andfeltasecond’samazedimpatiencethatsheshouldcolourlikeaschoolgirlsuspectingacompliment。Hedidnotlookatherasamanlookswhohasmadeaprettyspeech。Hiseyesmethersstraightandthoughtfully,andherepeatedhislastwordsashehadbeforerepeatedhers。
\"ThatYOUwereLife——you!\"
Thebluebellsunderwaterwereforthemomentincrediblylovely。
Herfeelingabouttheblushmeltedawayastheblushitselfhaddone。
\"Iamgladyousaidthat!\"sheanswered。\"Itwasabeautifulthingtosay。IhaveoftenthoughtthatIshouldlikeittobetrue。\"
\"Itistrue,\"hesaid。
Thentheskylark,showeringgoldenrain,sweptdowntoearthanditsnestinthemeadow,andtheywalkedon。