第30章

类别:其他 作者:Frances Hodgson Burnett字数:10362更新时间:19/01/07 14:57:26
ostentatiouslyamiabletoher。Afterwardsshesawhimdancing,talking,beingpresentedtopeople,being,withatactfuleasiness,takencareofbyhishostandhostess,andLordWestholt。Shewasstruckbythegracefulmagicwithwhichthistactfuleasesurroundedhimwithoutanyobviousness。TheDunholmshadgivenalead,asLadyAlanbyhadsaid,andtherestwerefollowingitandignoringintervalswithreposefulreadiness。Itwaswonderfullywelldone。 Apparentlytherehadbeennopastatall。Allbeganwiththislargeyoungman,who,despitehisVikingtype,reallylookedparticularlywellineveningdress。LadyAlanbyheldhimbyherchairforsometime,openlyenjoyinghertalkwithhim,andcallingupTommy,thattheymightmakefriends。 Afterawhile,Bettysaidtoherself,hewouldcomeandaskforadance。Buthedidnotcome,andshedancedwithonemanafteranother。Westholtcametoherseveraltimesandhadmoredancesthanone。Whydidtheothernotcome?Severaltimestheywhirledpasteachother,andwhenitoccurredtheylooked——bothfeelingitanaccident——intoeachother’seyes。 Thestrongandstrangething——thatwhichmovesonitswayasdobirthanddeath,andtherisingandsettingofthesun—— hadbeguntomoveinthem。Itwasnonewandrarething,butanancientandcommonone——ascommonandancientasdeathandbirththemselves;andpartofthelawastheyare。Asitcomestoroyalpersonstowhomonemakesobeisanceattheirmerepassingby,asitcomestoscullerymaidsinroyalkitchens,andgroomsinroyalstables,asitcomestoladies—in—waitingandthewomenwhoservethem,soithadcometothesetwowhohadbeendrawnneartoeachotherfromtheoppositesidesoftheearth,andeachstartedatthetouchofit,andwithdrewapaceinbewilderment,andsomefear。 \"Iwish,\"MountDunstanwasfeelingthroughouttheevening,\"thathereyeshadsomefaultintheirexpression——thattheydrewoneless——thattheydrewMEless。Iamlosingmyhead。\" \"Itwouldbebetter,\"Bettythought,\"ifIdidnotwishsomuchthathewouldcomeandaskmetodancewithhim—— thathewouldnotkeepawayso。Heiskeepingawayforareason。Whyishedoingit?\" Themusicswungoninlovelymeasures,andthedancersswungwithit。SirNigelwalkeddutifullythroughtheLancersoncewithhiswife,andoncewithhisbeautifulsister—in—law。 LadyAnstruthers,inhernewbloom,hadnotlackedpartners,whodiscoveredthatshewasachildishlylightcreaturewhodancedextremelywell。Everyonewaskindtoher,andtheverygrandoldladies,whoadmiredBetty,wereabsolutelybenignintheirmanner。Betty’spartnerspaidingenuouscourttoher,andSirNigelfoundhehadnotbeenmistakeninhisestimateofthedignityhispositionofescortandmalerelationgavetohim。 Rosy,standingforamomentlookingoutonthebrilliancyandstateabouther,meetingBetty’seyes,laughedquiveringly。 \"Iaminadream,\"shesaid。 \"Youhaveawakenedfromadream,\"Bettyanswered。 Fromtheoppositesideoftheroomsomeonewascomingtowardsthem,and,seeinghim,Rosysmiledinwelcome。 \"IamsureLordMountDunstaniscomingtoaskyoutodancewithhim,\"shesaid。\"Whyhaveyounotdancedwithhimbefore,Betty?\" \"Hehasnotaskedme,\"Bettyanswered。\"Thatistheonlyreason。\" \"LordDunholmandLordWestholtcalledattheMountafewdaysaftertheymethimatStornham,\"Rosalieexplainedinanundertone。\"Theywantedtoknowhim。Thenitseemstheyfoundtheylikedeachother。LadyDunholmhasbeentellingmeaboutit。ShesaysLordDunholmthanksyou,becauseyousaidsomethingilluminating。Thatwasthewordsheused——`illuminating。’Ibelieveyouarealwaysilluminating,Betty。\" MountDunstanwascertainlycomingtothem。Howbroadhisshoulderslookedinhisclose—fittingblackcoat,howwellbuilthiswholestrongbodywas,andhowsteadilyheheldhiseyes!Hereandthereoneseesamanorwomanwhois,throughsometrickoffate,bynatureacompellingthingunconsciouslydemandingthatoneshouldsubmittosomedomineeringattraction。 Onedoesnotcallitdomineering,butitisso。Thisspecialcreatureischargedunfairlywithmorethanhisorhersingleshareofforce。BettyVanderpoelthoughtthisoutasthis\"otherone\"cametoher。Hedidnotusetheballroomformulawhenhespoketoher。Hesaidinratheralowvoice: \"Willyoudancewithme?\" \"Yes,\"sheanswered。 LordDunholmandhiswifeagreedafterwardsthatsonoticeableapairhadneverbeforedancedtogetherintheirballroom。 Certainlynopairhadeverbeenwatchedwithquitethesameinterestedcuriosity。Someonlookersthoughtitsingularthattheyshoulddancetogetheratall,somepleasedthemselvesbyreflectingonthefactthatnoothertwocouldhaverepresentedwithsuchpicturesquenesstheoppositepolesoffateandcircumstance。Nooneattemptedtodenythattheywereanextraordinarilystriking—lookingcouple,andthatone’seyesfollowedtheminspiteofone’sself。 \"Takentogethertheyproduceaneffectthatissomehowratheramazing,\"oldLadyAlanbycommented。\"Heisamagnificentlybuiltman,youknow,andsheisamagnificentlybuiltgirl。Everybodyshouldlooklikethat。MyimpressionwouldbethatAdamandEvedid,butforthefactthatneitherofthemhadanyparticularcharacter。Thataffairoftheapplewassosilly。Evehasalwaysstruckmeasbeingthekindofwomanwho,ifshelivedto—day,wouldrunupstupidbillsatherdressmakersandbeafraidtotellherhusband。ThatwonderfulblackheadofMissVanderpoel’slooksverynicepoisednearMountDunstan’sdarkredone。\" \"Iamgladtobedancingwithhim,\"Bettywasthinking。 \"Iamgladtobenearhim。\" \"Willyoudancethiswithmetotheveryend,\"askedMountDunstan——\"totheverylatenote?\" \"Yes,\"answeredBetty。 Hehadspokeninalowbutlevelvoice——thekindofvoicewhosetoneplacesamanandwomanalonetogether,andwhollyapartfromallothersbywhomsoevertheyaresurrounded。 Therehadbeennopreliminaryspeechandnoexplanationoftherequestfollowed。Themusicwasaperfectthing,thebrilliant,loftyballroom,thebeautyofcolourandsoundaboutthem,thejewelsandfairfaces,thewarmbreathofflowersintheair,theverysenseofroyalpresenceanditsaccompanyingstateandceremony,seemedmerelyanaturallyarrangedbackgroundforthestrangeconsciousnesseachheldcloseandsilently——knowingnothingofthemindoftheother。 Thiswaswhatwaspassingthroughtheman’smind。 \"Thisisthethingwhichmostmenexperienceseveraltimesduringtheirlives。Itwouldbereasonenoughforallthegreatdeedsandallthecrimesonehearsof。Itisanenormouskindofanguishandafearfulkindofjoy。Itisscarcelytobeborne,andyet,atthismoment,Icouldkillmyselfandher,atthethoughtoflosingit。IfIhadbegunearlier,wouldithavebeeneasier?No,itwouldnot。Withmeitisboundtogohard。AttwentyIshouldprobablynothavebeenabletokeepmyselffromshoutingitaloud,andIshouldnothaveknownthatitwasonlytheworkingoftheLaw。`Only!’GoodGod,whatafoolIam!ItisbecauseitisonlytheLawthatIcannotescape,andmustgoontotheend,grindingmyteethtogetherbecauseIcannotspeak。Oh,hersmoothyoungcheek! Oh,thedeepshadowsofherlashes!Andwhileweswayroundandroundtogether,Iholdherslimstrongbodyinthehollowofmyarm。\" Itwas,quitepossibly,ashethoughtthisthatNigelAnstruthers,followinghimwithhiseyesashepassed,begantofrown。Hehadbeenwatchingthepairasothershad,hehadseenwhatotherssaw,andnowhehadanideathathesawsomethingmore,anditwassomethingwhichdidnotpleasehim。 Theinstinctofthemalebestirreditself——thecuriousinstinctofresentmentagainstanotherman——anyotherman。And,inthiscase,MountDunstanwasnotanyotherman,butoneforwhomhisantipathywaspersonal。 \"Iwon’thavethat,\"hesaidtohimself。\"Iwon’thaveit。\"…… Themusicroseandswelled,andthensankintosoftbreathing,astheymovedinharmonytogether,glidingandswirlingastheythreadedtheirwayamongothercoupleswhoswirledandglidedalso,someofthemlightandsmiling,someexchanginglow—tonedspeech——perhapssayingwordswhich,unheardbyothers,touchedondeepthings。Theexaltedguestfellintomomentarysilenceashelookedon,beingamanmuchattractedbyphysicalfinenessandtemperamentalpowerandcharm。A girllikethatwouldbringagreatdealtoamanandtothecountryhebelongedto。Agreatracemightbefoundedonsuchsuperbnessofphysiqueandhealthandbeauty。Combinedwithabnormalresources,certainlynomorecouldbeasked。 HeexpressedsomethingofthekindtoLordDunholm,whostoodnearhiminattendance。 ToherselfBettywassaying:\"Thatwasastrangethingheaskedme。Itiscuriousthatwesaysolittle。Ishouldneverknowmuchabouthim。Ihavenointelligencewhereheisconcerned——onlyastrong,stupidfeeling,whichisnotlikeafeelingofmyown。IamnolongerBettyVanderpoel—— andIwishtogoondancingwithhim——onandon——tothelastnote,ashesaid。\" Shefeltalittlehotwaverunoverhercheekuncomfortably,andthenextinstantthebigarmtighteneditsclaspofher—— forjustonesecond——notmorethanone。Shedidnotknowthathe,himself,hadseenthesuddenrippleofredcolour,andthattheequallysuddencontractionofthearmhadbeenasunexpectedtohimandasinvoluntaryasthequickwaveitself。Ithadhorrifiedandmadehimangry。Helookedthenextinstantentirelystiffandcold。 \"Hedidnotknowithappened,\"Bettyresolved。 \"Themusicisgoingtostop,\"saidMountDunstan。\"I knowthewaltz。Wecangetonceroundtheroomagainbeforethefinalchord。Itwastobethelastnote——theverylast,\" buthesaiditquiterigidly,andBettylaughed。 \"Quitethelast,\"sheanswered。 Themusichastenedalittle,andtheirglidingwhirlbecamemorerapid——alittlefaster——alittlefasterstill——arunningsweepofnotes,abig,terminatingharmony,andthethingwasover。 \"Thankyou,\"saidMountDunstan。\"Onewillhaveittoremember。\"Andhistonewasslightlysardonic。 \"Yes,\"Bettyacquiescedpolitely。 \"Oh,notyou。OnlyI。Ihaveneverwaltzedbefore。\" Bettyturnedtolookathimcuriously。 \"Undercircumstancessuchasthese,\"heexplained。\"I learnedtodanceataparticularlyhideousboys’schoolinFrance。Iabhorredit。Andthetrendofmylifehasmadeitquiteeasyformetokeepmytwelve—year—oldvowthatIwouldneverdanceafterIlefttheplace,unlessIWANTEDtodoit,andthat,especially,nothingshouldmakemewaltzuntilcertainagreeableconditionswerefulfilled。WaltzingIapprovedof——outofhideousschools。Iwasapig—headed,objectionablechild。Idetestedmyselfeven,then。\" Betty’scomposurereturnedtoher。 \"Iamtrusting,\"sheremarked,\"thatImaysecretlyregardmyselfasoneoftheagreeableconditionstobefulfilled。Donotdispelmyhopesroughly。\" \"Iwillnot,\"heanswered。\"Youare,infact,severalofthem。\" \"Onebreatheswithmuchgreaterfreedom,\"sheresponded。 Thissortofcoolnonsensewassafe。Itdispelledfeelingsoftenseness,andcarriedthemtotheplacewhereSirNigelandLadyAnstruthersawaitedthem。Aslightstirwasbeginningtobefeltthroughouttheballroom。Theroyalguestwasretiring,andsoontherestbegantomeltaway。TheAnstruthers,whohadalongreturndrivebeforethem,wereamongthosewhowentfirst。 WhenLadyAnstruthersandhersisterreturnedfromthecloakroom,theyfoundSirNigelstandingnearMountDunstan,whowasgoingalso,andtalkingtohiminanamiablydetachedmanner。MountDunstan,himself,didnotlookamiable,orseemtobesayingmuch,butSirNigelshowednosignsofbeingdisturbed。 \"Nowthatyouhaveceasedtoforsweartheworld,\"hesaidashiswifeapproached,\"IhopeweshallseeyouatStornham。YourvisitsmustnotceasebecausewecannotofferyouG。Seldenanylonger。\" Hehadhisownreasonsforgivingtheinvitation——severalofthem。Andtherewasasatisfactioninlettingthefellowknow,casually,thathewasnotintheridiculouspositionofbeingunawareofwhathadoccurredduringhisabsence——thattherehadbeenvisits——andalsotheobjectionableepisodeoftheAmericanbounder。Thattheepisodehadbeenobjectionable,heknewhehadadroitlyconveyedbymeretoneandmanner。 MountDunstanthankedhimintheusualformula,andthenspoketoBetty。 \"G。Seldenleftustremulousandfeveredwithecstaticanticipation。HecarriedyourkindlettertoMr。Vanderpoel,nexttohisheart。Hisbrainseemedtowhirlatthethoughtofwhat`theboys’wouldsay,whenhearrivedwithitinNewYork。Youhavematerialisedthedreamofhislife!\" \"Ihaveinterestedmyfather,\"Bettyanswered,withabrilliantsmile。\"HelikedtheromanceoftheReubenS。 VanderpoelwhorewardedthesaverofhislifebyunboundedordersfortheDelkoff。\"…… Astheircarriagedroveaway,SirNigelbentforwardtolookoutofthewindow,andhavingdoneit,laughedalittle。 \"MountDunstandoesnotplaythegamewell,\"heremarked。 ItwasannoyingthatneitherBettynorhiswifeinquiredwhatthegameinquestionmightbe,andthathistemperamentforcedhimintoexplainingwithoutencouragement。 \"Heshouldhave`stoodmotionlesswithfoldedarms,’orsomethingofthesort,and`watchedherequipageuntilitwasoutofsight。’\" \"Andhedidnot?\"saidBetty\"Heturnedonhisheelassoonasthedoorwasshut。\" \"Peopleoughtnottodosuchthings,\"washersimplecomment。Towhichitseemeduselesstoreply。 CHAPTERXXXIII FORLADYJANE Thereisnoonethingonearthofsuchinterestasthestudyofthelawsoftemperament,whichimpel,support,orentrapintofollyanddangerthebeingtheyrule。Asachild,notoldenoughtogiveadefinitenametothethingshewatchedandponderedon,inchildfashion,BettinaVanderpoelhadthoughtmuchonthissubject。Asshehadgrownolder,shehadneverbeenignorantoftheworkingsofherowntemperament,andshehadlookedonforyearsatthelawswhichhadwroughtinherfather’sbeing——thelawsofstrength,executivecapacity,andthatpleasureingreatschemes,whichisrousedlessbyadesireforgainthanforastrongly—feltnecessityforaction,resultinginsuccess。Shementallyfollowedotherpeopleontheirway,sometimesaskingherselfhowfartheindividualwastobepraisedorblamedforhistreadingofthepathheseemedtochoose。AndnowtherewasgivenhertheopportunitytostudytheworkingsofthenatureofNigelAnstruthers,whichwasacuriousthing。 Hewasnotanindividualtobeenvied。Neverwasmanmoretormentedbylackofpowertocontrolhisspecialdevil,attherightmomentoftime,andtherefore,neverwasthereonesoinevitablyhisownfrustration。ThisBettysawafterthepassingofbutafewdays,andwonderedhowfarhewasconsciousorunconsciousofthething。Attimesitappearedtoherthathewasinastateofunrest——thathewasasamanwaveringbetweenlinesofaction,swayedatonemomentbyonethought,atanotherbyanideaquitedifferent,andthathewasharriedbecausehecouldnotholdhisownwithhimself。 Thiswastrue。TheballatDunholmCastlehadbeenenlightening,andhadwroughtsomechangesinhispointsofview。Alsootherfactorshadinfluencedhim。Inthefirstplace,thechangedatmosphereofStornham,thefitnessandluxuryofhissurroundings,thenewdignitygiventohispositionbythealteredaspectofthings,renderedexternalamiabilitymoreeasy。Torideaboutthecountryonagoodhorse,ordriveinasmartphaeton,orsuitablecarriage,andtofindthatpeoplewhoayearagohadpassedhimwiththemerestrecognition,salutedhimwithpoliteintention,was,toacertaindegree,stimulatingtoavanitywhichhadbeenlongill—fed。Thepowerwhichproducedtheseresultsshould,ofcourse,havebeeninhisownhands——hismoney—makingfather— in—lawshouldhaveseenthatitwashisaffairtoprovideforthat——butsincehehadnotdoneso,itwasratherentertainingthatitshouldbe,forthepresent,inthehandsofthisextraordinarilygood—lookinggirl。 Hehadbegunbymerelythinkingofherinthismanner—— as\"thisextraordinarilygood—lookinggirl,\"andhadnot,foramoment,hesitatedbeforetheedifyingideaofitsnotbeingimpossibletoarrangealivelyflirtationwithher。Shewasatanagewhen,inhisopinion,girlhoodwaspoisedforflightwithadventure,andhistasteshadnotledhiminthedirectionofyouthwhichwasfastidious。HisRivieraepisodehadlefthisvanityblisteredandrequiringsomesoothingapplication。 Hislifehadworkedevilwithhim,andhehadfallenillonthehandsofawomanwhohadtreatedhimasashattered,uselessthingwhosedaywasdoneandwithwhomstrengthandbloomcouldnotbeburdened。Hehadkepthisillnessahiddensecret,onhisreturntoStornham,hisonedesirehavingbeentoforget——eventodisbelieveinit,butdreamsofitssuggestionsometimesawakenedhimatnightwithshuddersandcoldsweat。Hewashideouslyafraidofdeathandpain,andhehadhadmonstrouspain——andwhilehehadlainbattlingwithit,uponhisbedinthevillaontheMediterranean,hehadbeenabletohear,inthegardenoutside,thelowvoicesandlaughteroftheSpanishdancerandthehealthy,strongyoungfoolwhowashernewadorer。 WhenhehadfoundhimselffacetofacewithBettyintheavenue,afterthefirstleapofannoyance,whichhadsuddenlydieddownintoperverselyinterestedcuriosity,hecouldhavelaughedoutrightatthenoveltyandoddunexpectednessofthesituation。Theill—mannered,impudently—staring,littleNewYorkbeasthaddevelopedintoTHIS!Hangit!Nomancouldguesswhattheembryofemalecreaturemightresultin。 Hismereshakinessofphysicalconditionaddedstrengthtoherattraction。Shewaslikeayounggoddessofhealthandlifeandfire;theveryspringofherfirmfootuponthemossbeneathitwasastimulatingthingtoamanwhosenervessprungsecretfearsuponhim。Thereweresparksbetweenthesweepofherlashes,butshemanagedtocarryherselfwiththeairofbeingascoolasacucumber,whichgavespicetotheeffortto\"upset\"her。Ifshedidnotprovesuitablyamenable,therewouldbepiquancyingettingthebetterofher——instirringupunpleasantlittlethings,whichwouldmakeiteasierforhertogoawaythanremainonthespot——ifoneshouldendbychoosingtogetridofher。But,forthemoment,hehadnodesiretogetridofher。Hewantedtoseewhatsheintendedtodo——toseethethingout,infact。ItamusedhimtohearthatMountDunstanwasonhertrack。Thereexistsforpersonsofacertaintypeapleasurefull—fedbythemeresenseofhaving\"goteven\"withanopponent。Throughouthislifehehadmadeapointof\"gettingeven\"withthosewhohadirritatinglycrossedhispath,ormuchdislikedhim。Theworkingoutofsmallorlargeplanstoachievethisendhadformedoneofhismostagreeablerecreations。HehadlongowedMountDunstanadebt,whichhehadalwaysmeanttopay。HehadnotintendedtoforgettheepisodeofthenicelittlevillagegirlwithwhomTenhamandhimselfhadbeengettingalongsoenormouslywell,whentheragingyoungasshadfoundthemout,andmadeanabsurdlyexaggeratedscene,evengoingsofarasthreateningtosmashthepairofthem,marchingofftothefatherandmother,andsettingthevicaron,andthenscratchingtogether——Godknowshow——moneyenoughtopackthelotofftoAmerica,wheretheyhadsincedonewell。Whyshouldamanforgiveanotherwhohadmadehimlooklikeaschoolboyandafool?So,tofindMountDunstanrushingdownasteephillintothisthing,wasedifying。Youcannottakemuchoutofamanifyouneverencounterhim。Ifyoumeethim,youareprovidedbyHeavenwithopportunities。Youcanfindoutwhathefeelsmostsharply,andwhathewillsuffermostbybeingdeprivedof。HisimpressionwasthattherewasagooddealtobegotoutofMountDunstan。Hewasanobstinate,haughtydevil,andjustthefellowtoconcealwithafuryofprideascoreoftenderplacesinhishide。 Attheballhehadseenthatthegirl’seffecthadbeenofakindwhichevenmoneyandgoodlooksuncombinedwithanotherthingmightnothaveproduced。Andshehadtheotherthing——whatsoeveritmightbe。HeobservedthewayinwhichtheDunholmsmetandgreetedher,hemarkedtheglanceoftheroyalpersonage,andhismanner,whenafterherpresentationheconversedwithanddetainedher,hesawtheturningofheadsandexchangeofremarksasshemovedthroughtherooms。Mostespecially,hetookinthebearingoftheverygrandoldladies,ledbyLadyAlanbyofDole。 Barriershadthrownthemselvesdown,theseportentous,rigorousoldpussycatsadmiredher,evenlikedher。 \"Uponmyword,\"hesaidtohimself。\"Shehasawaywithher,youknow。SheisacombinationofEthelNewcomeandBeckySharp。Butsheismorelevel—headedthaneitherofthem,There’satouchofTrixEsmond,too。\" Thesenseofthesuccesswhichfollowedher,andthegradually— growingexcitementoflookingonatherlightwhirlsofdance,thecarnationofhercheek,andthelaughterandpleasureshedrewabouther,hadaffectedhiminawaybywhichhewassecretlyalittleexhilarated。Hewasconsciousofarashdesiretoforcehiswaythroughtheselaughing,vauntingyoungidiots,juggleorsnatchtheirdancesawayfromthem,andseizeonthegirlhimself。Hehadnotforsolongatimebeenimpelledbysuchagreeablefollythathehadsometimesfeltthestabofthethoughtthathewaspastit。Thatitshouldriseinhimagainmadehimfeelyoung。TherewasnothingwhichsoirritatedhimagainstMountDunstanashisownrebellingrecognitionoftheman’syouth,thestrengthofhisfinebody,hishigh—heldheadandcleareye。 Thesethingsandothersitwaswhichswayedhim,aswasplaintoBettyinthetimewhichfollowed,tomanychangesofmood。 \"Areyousorryforamanwhoisillanddepressed,\"heaskedoneday,\"ordoyoudespisehim?\" \"Iamsorry。\" \"Thenbesorryforme。\" Hehadcomeoutofthehousetoherasshesatonthelawn,underabroad,level—branchedtree,andhadthrownhimselfuponarugwithhishandsclaspedbehindhishead。 \"Areyouill?\" \"WhenIwasontheRivieraIhadafall。\"Heliedsimply。 \"Istrainedsomemuscleorother,andithasleftmeratherlame。SometimesIhaveagooddealofpain。\" \"Iamverysorry,\"saidBetty。\"Very。\" Awomanwhocanbemadesorryitisrarelyimpossibletomanage。Todwellwithpatheticpatienceonyourgrievances,ifsheisweakandunintelligent,todeplore,withhonestregret,yourfaultsandblunders,ifsheisstrong,arenotbadideas。 Helookedatherreflectively。 \"Yes,youarecapableofbeingsorry,\"hedecided。Forafewmomentsofsilencehiseyesrestedupontheviewspreadbeforehim。Togivetheexpressionofdignifiedreflectionwasnotabadideaeither。 \"Doyouknow,\"hesaidatlength,\"thatyouproduceanextraordinaryeffectuponme,Betty?\" ShewasoccupyingherselfbyaddingafewstitchestooneofRosy’sancientstripsofembroidery,andassheanswered,shelaiditflatuponherkneetoconsideritseffect\"Goodorbad?\"sheinquired,withdelicateabstraction。 Heturnedhisfacetowardsheragain——thistimequickly。 \"Both,\"heanswered。\"Both。\" Histoneheldtheflashofaheatwhichhefeltshouldhavestartledherslightly。Butapparentlyitdidnot。 \"Idonotlike`both,’\"withcomposedlightness。\"Ifyouhadsaidthatyoufeltyourselfdevelopangelicqualitieswhenyouwerenearme,Ishouldfeelflattered,andswellwithpride。But`both’leavesmeunsatisfied。Itinterfereswiththehappylittleconceitthatoneisanall—pervading,beneficentpower。Onelikestocontemplatealargepictureofone’sself—— notplain,butcoloured——asawholesalereformer。\" \"Isee。Thankyou,\"stifflyandflushing。\"Youdonotbelieveme。\" Hereffectuponhimwassuchthat,forthemoment,hefoundhimselfchoosingtobelievethathewasinearnest。Hisdesiretoimpressherwithhismoodhadactuallyledtothisresult。Sheoughttohavebeenrathermoved——alittlefluttered,perhaps,athearingthatshedisturbedhisequilibrium。 \"Yousetyourselfagainstme,asachild,Betty,\"hesaid。 \"Andyousetyourselfagainstmenow。Youwillnotgivemefairplay。Youmightgivemefairplay。\"Hedroppedhisvoiceatthelastsentence,andknewitwaswelldone。A touchofhopelessnessisnotoftenlostonawoman。