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类别:其他 作者:Frances Hodgson Burnett字数:10033更新时间:19/01/07 14:57:26
\"Whatwouldyouconsiderfairplay?\"sheinquired。 \"Itwouldbefairtolistentomewithoutprejudice——toletmeexplainhowithashappenedthatIhaveappearedtoyoua——ablackguard——Ihavenodoubtyouwouldcallit——andafool。\"Hethrewouthishandinanimpatientgesture——impatientofhimself——hisfate——thetricksofbadfortunewhichitimpliedhadmadeofhimamoreerringmortalthanhewouldhavebeeniflefttohimself,andtreateddecently。 \"Donotputitsostrongly,\"withconservativepoliteness。 \"Idon’trefusetoadmitthatIamhandicappedbyadevilofatemperament。Thatisaninheritedthing。\" \"Ah!\"saidBetty。\"Oneofthetemperamentsonereadsabout——forwhichnooneistobeblamedbutone’sdeceasedrelatives。Afterall,thatiscomparativelyeasytodealwith。 Onecanjustgoondoingwhatonewantstodo——andthencondemnone’sgrandparentsseverely。\" Arepellentqualityinher——whichhadalsothetrickoftransformingitselfintoanexasperatingattraction——wasthatshedeprivedhimoftheluxuryhehadbeenmosttenaciousofthroughouthisexistence。Iftheinjusticeoffatehasfailedtobestowuponamanfortune,goodlooksorbrilliance,hisexerciseofthepowertodisturb,toenragethosewhodarenotresent,towoundandtakethenonsenseoutofthoseabouthim,will,atallevents,precludethepossibilityofhisbeingpassedoverasafactornottobeconsidered。Iftocharmandbestowgivesthesenseofpower,tothwartandhumiliatemaybefoundnotwhollyunsatisfying。 Butinhercasetheinadequacyoftheusualmethodshadforceditselfuponhim。Itwasasifthedartbeingaimedather,shecaughtitinherhandinitsflight,brokeoffitspointandthrewitlightlyasidewithoutcomment。Mostwomencannotresistthetemptationtoansweraspeechcontainingastingorareproach。Itwaspartofherabnormalitythatshecouldletsuchthingsgobyinadetachedsilence,whichdidnotexpresseventhegermofcommentoropinionuponthem。This,hesaid,wastheresultofherbeastlysenseofsecurity,which,initsturn,wastheresultoftheatmosphereofwealthshehadbreathedsinceherbirth。Therehadbeennoobstaclewhichcouldnotberemovedforher,nolawoflimitationhadlaiditsreinonherneck。Shehadnotbeentaughtbyherexistencetheimportanceofpropitiatingopinion。 Undersuchconditions,howwasfeartobelearned?Shehadnotlearnedit。Butforthedevilinthebluebetweenherlashes,herealisedthatheshouldhavebrokenlooselongago。 \"IsupposeIdeservedthatformakingastupidappealtosympathy,\"heremarked。\"Iwillnotdoitagain。\" Ifshehadbeenthewomanwhocanbegentlygoadedintoreply,shewouldhavemadeanswertothis。Butsheallowedtheobservationtopass,givingitfreeflightintospace,whereitlostitselfaftertheannoyingmannerofitskind。 \"HaveyouanyobjectiontotellingmewhyyoudecidedtocometoEnglandthisyear?\"heinquired,withacasualair,afterthepausewhichshedidnotfillin。 Thebluntnessofthequestiondidnotseemtodisturbher。 Shewasnotsorry,infact,thathehadaskedit。Sheletherworklieuponherknee,andleanedbackinherlowgardenchair,herhandsrestinguponitswickerarms。Sheturnedonhimaclearunprejudicedgaze。 \"IcametoseeRosy。Ihavealwaysbeenveryfondofher。Ididnotbelievethatshehadforgottenhowmuchwehadlovedher,orhowmuchshehadlovedus。IknewthatifIcouldseeheragainIshouldunderstandwhyshehadseemedtoforgetus。\" \"Andwhenyousawher,you,ofcourse,decidedthatIhadbehaved,toquotemyownwords——likeablackguardandafool。\" \"Itis,ofcourse,veryrudetosayyouhavebehavedlikeafool,but——ifyou’llexcusemysayingso——thatiswhathasimpressedmeverymuch。Don’tyouknow,\"withamoderation,whichsingularlydroveitselfhome,\"thatifyouhadbeenkindtoher,andhadmadeherhappy,youcouldhavehadanythingyouwishedfor——withouttrouble?\" Thiswasoneoftheunadornedfactswhicharelikebullets。 Disgustedly,hefoundhimselfveeringtowardsanoutlookwhichforcedhimtoadmitthattherewasprobablytruthinwhatshesaid,andheknewheheardmoretruthasshewenton。 \"Shewouldhavewantedonlywhatyouwanted,andshewouldnothaveaskedmuchinreturn。ShewouldnothaveaskedasmuchasIshould。Whatyoudidwasnotbusiness— like。\"Shepausedamomenttogivethoughttoit。\"Youpaidtoohighapricefortheluxuryofindulgingtheinheritedtemperament。Yourluxurywasnottocontrolit。Butitwasabadinvestment。\" \"Thefigureofspeechisrathercommercial,\"coldly。 \"Itiscuriousthatmostthingsare,asarule。Thereisalwaystheparallelofprofitandlosswhetheroneseesitornot。Theprofitsarehappinessandfriendship——enjoymentoflifeandapprobation。Iftheinheritedtemperamentsuppliesonewithallonewantsofsuchthings,itcannotbecalledaloss,ofcourse。\" \"Youthink,however,thatminehasnotbroughtmemuch?\" \"Idonotknow。Itisyouwhoknow。\" \"Well,\"viciously,\"thereHASbeenasortofluxuryinitinlashingoutwithone’sheels,andsmashingthings——andinknowingthatpeopleprefertokeepclear。\" Sheliftedhershouldersalittle。 \"Thenperhapsithaspaid。\" \"No,\"suddenlyandfiercely,\"damnit,ithasnot!\" Andsheactuallymadenoreplytothat。 \"Whatdoyoumeantodo?\"hequestionedasbluntlyasbefore。Heknewshewouldunderstandwhathemeant。 \"Notmuch。ToseethatRosyisnotunhappyanymore。 Wecanpreventthat。Shewasoutofrepair——asthehousewas。Sheisbeingrebuiltanddecorated。Sheknowsthatshewillbetakencareof。\" \"Iknowherbetterthanyoudo,\"withalaugh。\"Shewillnotgoaway。Sheistoofrightenedoftherowitwouldmake—— ofwhatIshouldsay。Ishouldhaveplentytosay。Icanmakehershakeinhershoes。\" Bettylethereyesrestfulluponhim,andhesawthatshewassoftlysumminghimup——quitewithoutprejudice,merelyininterestedspeculationupontheworkingsoftype。 \"Youarelettingtheinheritedtemperamentrunawaywithyouatthismoment,\"shereflectedaloud——herquietscrutinyalmostabstracted。\"Itwasfoolishtosaythat。\" Hehadknownitwasfoolishtwosecondsafterthewordshadlefthislips。Butatemperwhichhasbeenallowedtoleaphedges,uncheckedthroughoutlife,isinperilofformingahabitoftakingthemevenatsuchtimesasaleapmaylanditsownerinaditch。Thislastwaswhatherinterestedeyeswereobviouslysaying。Itsuitedhimbestatthemomenttotrytolaugh。 \"Don’tlookatmelikethat,\"hethrewoff。\"Asifyouwerecalculatingthattwoandtwomakefour。\" \"Noprejudiceofminecaninducethemtomakefiveorsix——orthreeandahalf,\"shesaid。\"Noprejudiceofmine—— orofyours。\" Thetwoandtwoshewascalculatingwithwerethelikelihoodsandunlikelihoodsoftheinheritedtemperament,andthepracticalpowersshecouldabsolutelycountonifdifficultyarosewithregardtoRosy。 Heguessedatthis,andbegantomakecalculationshimself。 Buttherewasnofurtherconversationforthem,astheywereobligedtorisetotheirfeettoreceivevisitors。LadyAlanbyofDoleandSirThomas,hergrandson,werebeingbroughtoutofthehousetothembyRosalie。 Hewentforwardtomeetthem——hismannerthatofthegracefulhost。LadyAlanby,havingbeenwelcomedbyhim,andledtothemostcomfortable,tree—shadedchair,foundhisbearingsoelegantlychastenedthatshegazedathimwithprivatecuriosity。Toherfar—seeingandhighlyexperiencedoldminditseemedthebearingofamanwhowas\"uptosomething。\"Whatspecialthingdidhechancetobe\"upto\"?HisglancecertainlylurkedafterMissVanderpoeloddly。 Washefallinginunholylovewiththegirl,underhisstupidlittlewife’sverynose? Shecouldnot,however,giveherundividedattentiontohim,asshewishedtokeephereyeonhergrandsonand——outrageouslyenoughfithappenedthatjustasteawasbroughtoutandTommywasbeginningtocheerupandquitecomeoutalittleunderthespuroftheactivitiesofhandingbreadandbutterandcresssandwiches,whoshouldappearbutthetwoLithcomgirls,escortedbytheiraunt,Mrs。Manners,withwhomtheylived。Astheywereorphanswithoutmoney,iftheManners,whowereratherwelloff,hadnottakenthemin,theywouldhavehadtogototheworkhouse,orintogenteelamateurshops,astheywerenotcleverenoughforgovernesses。 Mary,withherturned—upnose,lookedjustaboutasusual,butJanehadanewfrockonwhichwasexactlythecolourofthebig,appealingeyes,withtheirtrickoffollowingpeopleabout。Shelookedalittlepaleandpathetic,whichsomehowgaveheraspeciousairofbeingpretty,whichshereallywasnotatall。Theswayingyoungthinnessofthoseveryslightgirlswhosesoftsummermuslinsmakethemlooklikedelicatebagstiedinthemiddlewithflutteringribbons,hasalmostinvariablyafoolishattractionforburlyyoungmenwhosecharactersarechieflymarkedbylackofforethought,andLadyAlanbysawTommy’srobustyoungbodygiveasortofjerkasthepartyofthreewasbroughtacrossthegrass。Afterithepulledhimselftogetherhastily,andlookedstiffandpink,shakinghandsasifhiselbowjointwasoutoforder,beingatoncetoolooseandtoorigid。Hebegantobeclumsywiththebreadandbutter,and,ceasinghistalkwithMissVanderpoel,fellintosilence。Whyshouldhegoontalking? hethought。MissVanderpoelwasacrackinghandsomegirl,butshewastoocleverforhim,andhehadtothinkofallsortsofnewthingstosaywhenhetalkedtoher。And—— well,afellowcouldneverimaginehimselfstretchedoutonthegrass,puffinghappilyawayatapipe,withagirllikethatsittingnearhim,smiling——thehotturfsmellingalmostlikehay,thehotblueskycurvingoverhead,andboththegirlandhimselfperfectlyhappy——chockfullofjoy——thoughneitherofthemweresayinganythingatall。Youcouldimagineitwithsomegirls——youDIDimagineitwhenyouwakenedearlyonasummermorning,andlayinluxuriousstillnesslisteningtothebirdssinginglikemad。 LadyJanewasanicely—behavedgirl,andshetriedtokeepherfollowingblueeyesfixedonthegrass,oronLadyAnstruthers,orMissVanderpoel,buttherewassomethinglikeastring,whichsometimespulledtheminanotherdirection,andoncewhenthishadhappened——quiteagainstherwill——shewasterrifiedtofindLadyAlanby’sglassliftedandfixeduponher。 AsLadyAlanby’sopinionofMrs。Mannerswasbutapoorone,andasMrs。MannerswasstrickendumbbyhercombineddislikeandaweofLadyAlanby,aslightstiffnessmighthavesettleduponthegatheringifBettyhadnotmadeaneffort。SheappliedherselftoLadyAlanbyandMrs。Mannersatonce,andendedbymakingthemtalktoeachother。 Whentheylefttheteatableunderthetreestolookatthegardens,shewalkedbetweenthem,playingupontheprimevalhorticulturalpassionswhichdominatetheexistenceofallrespectableandnormalcountryladies,untilthegulfbetweenthemwastemporarilybridged。Thisbeingachieved,sheadroitlypassedthemovertoLadyAnstruthers,who,Nigelobservedwithsomecuriosity,acceptedthecasualresponsibilitywithoutmanifestdiscomfiture。 TotheachingTommythemannerinwhich,afewminuteslater,hefoundhimselfstandingalonewithJaneLithcominapathofclippedlaurelswasalmostbewilderinglysimple。 Attheendofthelaurelwalkwasaprettypeepofthecountry,andMissVanderpoelhadbroughthimtoseeit。NigelAnstruthershadbeenloiteringbehindwithJaneandMary。AsMissVanderpoelturnedwithhimintothepath,shestoopedandpickedablossomfromaclumpofspeedwellgrowingatthefootofabitofwall。 \"LadyJane’seyesarejustthecolourofthisflower,\"shesaid。 \"Yes,theyare,\"heanswered,glancingdownatthelovelylittlebluethingasshehelditinherhand。Andthen,withathumpoftheheart,\"Mostpeopledonotthinksheispretty,butI——\"quitedesperately——\"IDO。\"Hismoodhadbecomerash。 \"SodoI,\"BettyVanderpoelanswered。 Thentheothersjoinedthem,andMissVanderpoelpausedtotalkalittle——andwhentheywentonshewaswithMaryandNigelAnstruthers,andhewaswithJane,walkingslowly,andsomehowtheothersmeltedaway,turninginaperfectlynaturalmannerintoasidepath。Theirownslowpacebecameslower。Infact,inafewmoments,theywerestandingquitestillbetweenthegreenwalls。Janeturnedalittleaside,andpickedoffsomesmallleaves,nervously。Hesawthemuslinonherchestliftquiveringly。 \"Oh,littleJane!\"hesaidinabig,shakywhisper。Thefollowingeyesincontinentlybrimmedover。Someshiningdropsfellonthesoftnessofthebluemuslin。 \"Oh,Tommy,\"givingup,\"it’snouse——talkingatall。\" \"Youmustn’tthink——youmustn’tthink——ANYTHING,\"hefalteringlycommanded,drawingnearer,becauseitwasimpossiblenottodoit。 Whathereallymeant,thoughhedidnotknowhowdecorouslytosayit,wasthatshemustnotthinkthathecouldbemovedbyanytallbeauty,towardsthesplendourofwhosepossessionshisreveredgrandmothermightbedrivinghim。 \"Iamnotthinkinganything,\"criedJaneinanswer。\"Butsheiseverything,andIamnothing。Justlookather——andthenlookatme,Tommy。\" \"I’lllookatyouaslongasyou’llletme,\"gulpedTommy,andhewasboyenoughandmanenoughtoputahandoneachofhershoulders,anddrownhislonginginherbrimmingeyes…… MaryandMissVanderpoelweretalkingwithacuriousintimacy,inanotherpartofthegarden,wheretheyweretogetheralone,SirNigelhavingbeenreattachedtoLadyAlanby。 \"YouhaveknownSirThomasalongtime?\"Bettyhadjustsaid。 \"Sincewewerechildren。JaneremindedmeattheDunholms’ballthatshehadplayedcricketwithhimwhenshewaseight。\" \"Theyhavealwayslikedeachother?\"MissVanderpoelsuggested。 Marylookedupather,andthemeetingoftheireyeswasfranktorevelation。ButforthecleargirlishlikingforherselfshesawinBettyVanderpoel’s,Marywouldhaveknownhernextspeechtobeofimbecilebluntness。ShehadheardthatAmericansoftenhadaqueer,delightfulunderstandingofunconventionalthings。Thissplendidgirlwasunderstandingher。 \"Oh!YouSEE!\"shebrokeout。\"Youleftthemtogetheronpurpose!\" \"Yes,Idid。\"AndtherewasacomprehensionsodeepinherlookthatMaryknewitwasdeeperthanherown,andsomehowfoundedonsomesubtlerfeelingthanherown。 \"Whentwopeoplewantsomuch——caresomuchtobetogether,\"MissVanderpoeladdedquiteslowly——evenasifthewordsratherforcedthemselvesfromher,\"itseemsasifthewholeworldoughttohelpthem——everythingintheworld—— theverywind,andrain,andsun,andstars——oh,thingshavenoRIGHTtokeepthemapart。\" Marystaredather,movedandfascinated。Shescarcelyknewthatshecaughtatherhand。 \"IhaveneverbeeninthestatethatJaneis,\"shepouredforth。\"AndIcan’tunderstandhowshecanbesuchafool,but——butwecareabouteachothermorethanmostgirlsdo—— perhapsbecausewehavehadnopeople。Andit’sthekindofthingthereisnousetalkingagainst,itseems。It’skillingtheyoungnessinher。Ifitendsmiserably,itwillbeasifshehadhadanillness,andgotupfromitafaded,done—forspinsterwithastretchofhideousyearstolive。Herblueeyeswilllooklikeboiledgooseberries,becauseshewillhavecriedallthecolouroutofthem。Oh!YouUNDERSTAND!I seeyoudo。\" BeforeshehadfinishedbothMissVanderpoel’shandswereholdinghers。 \"Ido!Ido,\"shesaid。Andshedid,asayearagoshehadnotknownshecould。\"IsitLadyAlanby?\"sheventured。 \"Yes。Tommywillbehelplesslypoorifshedoesnotleavehimhermoney。Andshewon’tifhemakesherangry。Sheisverydetermined。Shewillleaveittoanawfulcousinifshegetsinarage。AndTommyisnotclever。Hecouldneverearnhisliving。NeithercouldJane。TheycouldNEVERmarry。 YouCAN’Tdefyrelatives,andmarryonnothing,unlessyouareacharacterinabook。\" \"HasshelikedLadyJaneinthepast?\"MissVanderpoelasked,asifshewas,mentally,rapidlygoingovertheground,thatshemightquitecomprehendeverything。 \"Yes。Sheusedtomakeratherapetofher。Shedidn’tlikeme。ShewastakenbyJane’smeek,attentive,obedientways。Janewasbornasweetlittleaffectionateworm。LadyAlanbycan’thateher,evennow。Shejustpushesheroutofherpath。\" \"Because?\"saidBettyVanderpoel。 Maryprefacedheranswerwithabrief,half—embarrassedlaugh。 \"BecauseofYOU。\" \"Becauseshethinks————?\" \"Idon’tseehowshecanbelievehehasmuchofachance。 Idon’tthinkshedoes——butshewillneverforgivehimifhedoesn’tmakeatryatfindingoutwhetherhehasoneornot。\" \"Itisverybusinesslike,\"Bettymadeobservation。 Marylaughed。 \"WetalkofAmericanbusinessoutlook,\"shesaid,\"butveryfewofusEnglishpeoplearedreamyidealists。Weareofacoolnessandadaring——whenwearedealingwithquestionsofthissort。Idon’tthinkyoucanknowthethingyouhavebroughthere。Youdescendonadullcountryplace,withyourmoneyandyourlooks,andyousimplySTAYandamuseyourselfbydoingextraordinarythings,asiftherewasnoLondonwaitingforyou。Everyoneknowsthiswon’tlast。 Nextseasonyouwillbepresented,andhaveahugesuccess。 Youwillbewhirledaboutinavortex,andpeoplewillsitontheedge,andcastbigstronglines,baitedwiththemostglitteringthingstheycangettogether。Youwon’tbeabletogetaway。LadyAlanbyknowstherewouldbenochanceforTommythen。Itwouldbetooidiotictoexpectit。Hemustmakehistrynow。\" Theireyesmetagain,andMissVanderpoellookedneithershockednorangry,butanoddsmallshadowsweptacrossherface。Mary,ofcourse,didnotknowthatshewasthinkingofthethingshehadrealisedsooften——thatitwasnoteasytodetachone’sselffromthefactthatonewasReubenS。Vanderpoel’sdaughter。Asaresultofithereonewasindecentlyandunwillinglydisturbingthelivesofinnocent,unassuminglovers。 \"AndsolongasSirThomashasnottried——andfoundout—— LadyJanewillbemadeunhappy?\" \"Ifheweretoletyouescapewithouttrying,hewouldnotbeforgiven。Hisgrandmotherhashadherownwayallherlife。\" \"ButsupposeafterIwentawaysomeoneelsecame?\" Maryshookherhead。 \"Peoplelikeyoudon’tHAPPENinoneneighbourhoodtwiceinalifetime。Iamtwenty—sixandyouarethefirstIhaveseen。\" \"Andhewillonlybesafeif?\" MaryLithcomnodded。 \"Yes——IF,\"sheanswered。\"It’ssilly——andfrightful——butitistrue。\" MissVanderpoellookeddownonthegrassafewmoments,andthenseemedtoarriveatadecision。 \"Helikesyou?Youcanmakehimunderstandthings?\"sheinquired。 \"Yes。\" \"Thengoandtellhimthatifhewillcomehereandaskmeadirectquestion,Iwillgivehimadirectanswer——whichwillsatisfyLadyAlanby。\" LadyMarycaughtherbreath。 \"Doyouknow,youarethemostwonderfulgirlIeversaw!\"sheexclaimed。\"ButifyouonlyknewwhatIfeelaboutJanie!\"Andtearsrushedintohereyes。 \"Ifeeljustthesamethingaboutmysister,\"saidMissVanderpoel。\"IthinkRosyandLadyJaneareratheralike。\"…… WhenTommytrampedacrossthegrasstowardsherhewasturningredandwhitebyturns,andlookingsomewhatlikeayoungmanwhowasbeingmarcheduptoacannon’smouth。 ItstruckhimthatitwasanAmericankindofthinghewascalledupontodo,andhewasnotanAmerican,butBritishfromthetopofhisclosely—croppedheadtotheratherthicksolesofhisboots。Hewas,intruth,overwhelmedbyhissenseofhisinadequacytothedemandsofthebrilliantlyconceived,butunheard—ofsituation。Joyandterrorsweptoverhisbeinginwaves。 Thetall,proud,wood—nymphlookofherasshestoodunderatree,waitingforhim,wouldhavestruckhiscouragedeadonthespotandcausedhimtoturnandfleeinanguish,ifshehadnotmadealittlemovetowardshim,withaheavenly,every—dayhumannessinhereyes。Thewayshemanageditwasanamazingthing。Hecouldneverhavemanageditatallhimself。 Shecameforwardandgavehimherhand,andreallyitwasHERhandwhichheldhisowncomparativelysteady。 \"ItisforLadyJane,\"shesaid。\"Thatpreventsitfrombeingridiculousorimproper。ItisforLadyJane。Hereyes,\"withasoft—touchedlaugh,\"arethecolourofthebluespeedwellI showedyou。Itisthecolourofbabies’eyes。Andherslookastheirsdo——asiftheyaskedeverybodynottohurtthem。\" Heactuallyfelluponhisknee,andbendinghisheadoverherhand,kissedithalfadozentimeswithadoration。GoodLord,howsheSAWandKNEW! \"IfJanewerenotJane,andyouwerenotYOU,\"thewordsrushedfromhim,\"itwouldbethemostoutrageous——themostimpudentthingamaneverhadthecheektodo。\" \"Butitisnot。\"Shedidnotdrawherhandaway,andoh,thegirlishkindnessofhersmiling,supportinglook。\"Youcametoaskmeif————\" \"Ifyouwouldmarryme,MissVanderpoel,\"hisheadbendingoverherhandagain。\"Ibegyourpardon,Ibegyourpardon。 OhLord,Ido。’ \"Ithankyouforthecomplimentyoupayme,\"sheanswered。\"I likeyouverymuch,SirThomas——andIlikeyoujustnowmorethanever——butIcouldnotmarryyou。Ishouldnotmakeyouhappy,andIshouldnotbehappymyself。Thetruthis————\"thinkingamoment,\"eachofusreallybelongstoadifferentkindofperson。 Andeachofknowsthefact。\" \"Godblessyou,\"hesaid。\"Ithinkyouknoweverythingintheworldawomancanknow——andremainanangel。\" Itwasanoutburstofeloquence,andshetookitintheprettiestway——withtheprettiestlaugh,whichhadinitnotouchofmockeryordisbeliefinhim。 \"WhatIhavesaidisquitefinal——ifLadyAlanbyshouldinquire,\"shesaid——addingratherquickly,\"Someoneiscoming。\" Itpleasedhertoseethathedidnothurrytohisfeetclumsily,butevenstoodupright,withashadeofboyishdignity,anddidnotreleaseherhandbeforehehadbenthisheadlowoveritagain。 SirNigelwasbringingwithhimLadyAlanby,Mrs。Manners,andhiswife,andwhenBettymethiseyes,sheknewatoncethathehadnotmadehiswaytothisparticulargardenwithoutintention。HehaddiscoveredthatshewaswithTommy,andithadentertainedhimtobreakinuponthem。 \"IdidnotintendtointerruptSirThomasathisdevotions,\" heremarkedtoherafterdinner。\"Acceptmyapologies。\" \"Itdidnotmatterintheleast,thankyou,\"saidBetty…… \"Iamgladtobeabletosay,Thomas,thatyoudidnotlookanentirefoolwhenyougotupfromyourknees,aswecameintotherosegarden。\"ThusLadyAlanby,astheircarriageturnedoutofStornhamvillage。 \"I’mgladmyself,\"Tommyanswered。 \"Whatwereyoudoingthere?Evenifyouwereaskinghertomarryyou,itwasnotnecessarytogothatfar。Wearenotintheseventeenthcentury。 ThenTommyflushed。 \"Ididnotintendtodoit。Icouldnothelpit。Shewasso——soniceabouteverything。Thatgirlisanangel。Itoldherso。\" \"Veryrightandproperspirittoapproachherin,\"answeredtheoldwoman,watchinghimkeenly。\"Wassheangelenoughtosayshewouldmarryyou?\" Tommy,forsomeoccultreason,hadthecouragetostarebackintohisgrandmother’seyes,quiteasifhewereaman,andnotahobbledehoy,expectingtobebullied。 \"Shedoesnotwantme,\"heanswered。\"AndIknewshewouldn’t。Whyshouldshe?Ididwhatyouorderedmetodo,andsheansweredmeasIknewshewould。Shemighthavesnubbedme,butshehassuchawaywithher——suchawayofsayingthingsandunderstanding,that——that——well,I foundmyselfononeknee,kissingherhand——asifIwasbeingpresentedatcourt。\" OldLadyAlanbylookedoutonthepassinglandscape。 \"Well,youdidyourbest,\"shesummedthematterupatlast,\"ifyouwentdownonyourkneesinvoluntarily。Ifyouhaddoneitonpurpose,itwouldhavebeenunpardonable。\"