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类别:其他 作者:Frances Hodgson Burnett字数:10533更新时间:19/01/07 14:57:26
TenminuteslaterG。SeldenwaswalkingdownFifthAvenue,wonderingiftherewasanychanceofhisbeingarrestedbyapolicemanuponthechargethathewasreeling,insteadofwalkingsteadily。Hehopedheshouldgetbacktothehallbedroomsafely。NickBaumgartenandJemBolterboth\"roomed\"inthehousewithhim。Hecouldtellthemboth。ItwasJemwhohadmadeuptheyarnaboutoneofthemsavingReubenS。Vanderpoel’slife。Therehadbeennolife—saving,butthethinghadcometrue。 \"But,ifithadn’tbeenforLordMountDunstan,\"hesaid,thinkingitoverexcitedly,\"IshouldneverhaveseenMissVanderpoel,and,ifithadn’tbeenforMissVanderpoel,IshouldneverhavegotnexttoReubenS。inmylife。BothsidesoftheAtlanticOceangotbusytodoagoodturntoLittleWillie。Hullygee!\" InhisstudyMr。VanderpoelwasrereadingBetty’sletters。 HefeltthathehadgainedacertainknowledgeofLordMountDunstan。 CHAPTERXXXIX ONTHEMARSHES THEmarshesstretchedmellowintheautumnsun,sheepwanderedabout,nibblingcontentedly,orlaydowntorestingroups,theskyreflectingitselfinthenarrowdykesgaveabluecolourtothewater,ascentoftheseawasintheairasonebreathedit,flocksofploverrose,nowandthen,cryingsoftly。Betty,walkingwithherdog,hadpassedaheronstandingattheedgeofapool。 Fromherfirstdiscoveryofthem,shehadbeenattractedbythemarsheswiththeirEnglishsuggestionoftheRomanCampagna,theirbroadexpanseoflevellandspreadouttothesunandwind,thethousandsofwhitesheepdottedorclusteredasfaraseyecouldreach,thehuesofthemarshgrassandtheplantsgrowingthickatthebordersofthestripsofwater。Itsbeautywasallitsownandcuriouslyalooffromthesoftly— wooded,undulatingworldaboutit。Drivingorwalkingalongthehighroad——theroadtheRomanshadbuilttoLondontownlongcenturiesago——oneithersideofoneweremeadows,farms,scatteredcottages,andhopgardens,butbeyondandbelowstretchedthemarshland,goldenandgrey,andalwaysalluringonebyitssilence。 \"Ineverpassitwithoutwantingtogotoit——totakesolitarywalksoverit,tobeoneofthespotsonitasthesheepare。Itseemsasif,lyingthereundertheblueskyorthelowgreycloudswithalltheworldheldatbaybymerespaceandstillness,theymustfeelsomethingweknownothingof。Iwanttogoandfindoutwhatitis。\" ThisshehadoncesaidtoMountDunstan。 Soshehadfallenintothehabitofwalkingtherewithherdogathersideashersolecompanion,forhavingneedfortimeandspaceforthought,shehadfoundtheminthesilenceandaloofness。 Lifehadbeenavividandpleasurablethingtoher,asfarasshecouldlookbackuponit。Shebegantorealisethatshemusthavebeenveryhappy,becauseshehadneverfoundherselfdesiringexistenceotherthansuchashadcometoherdaybyday。ExceptforherpassionatechildishregretatRosy’smarriage,shehadexperiencednopainfulfeeling。Infact,shehadfacednohurtinherlife,andcertainlyhadbeenconfrontedbynolimitations。Arguingthatgirlsintheirteensusuallyfallinlove,herfatherhadoccasionallywonderedthatshepassedthroughnolittleepisodesofsentiment,butthefactwasthatherinterestshadbeenlargerandmorenumerousthantheinterestsofgirlsgenerallyare,andheraffectionateintimacywithhimselfhadleftnosuchsmallvacantspacesasarefrequentlyfilledbyunimportantyoungemotions。Becauseshewasalogicalcreature,andhadwatchedlifeandthoselivingitwithclearandinterestedeyes,shehadnotbeenblindtothepathwhichhadmarkeditselfbeforeherduringthesummer’sgrowthandwaning。Shehadnot,atfirst,perhaps,knownexactlywhenthingsbegantochangeforher——whentheclarityofhermindbegantobedisturbed。Shehadthoughtinthebeginning——aspeoplehaveahabitofdoing——thataninstance——aproblem——asituationhadattractedherattentionbecauseitwasabsorbingenoughtothinkover。Herviewofthematterhadbeenthatasthesamethingwouldhaveinterestedherfather,ithadinterestedherself。ButfromthemorningwhenshehadbeenconsciousofthesuddenfuryrousedinherbyNigelAnstruthers’uglysneeratMountDunstan,shehadbetterunderstoodthethingwhichhadcomeuponher。Daybydayithadincreasedandgatheredpower,andsherealisedwithacertainsenseofimpatiencethatshehadnotinanydegreeunderstooditwhenshehadseenandwonderedatitseffectonotherwomen。Eachdayhadbeenlikeawaveencroachingfartherupontheshoreshestoodupon。Attheoutsetacertainignoblepride——sheknewitignoble——filledherwithrebellion。Shehadseensomuchofthiskindofsituation,andhadheardsomuchofthegeneralcomment。Peoplehadlearnedhowtosneerbecauseexperiencehadtaughtthem。Ifshegavethemcause,whyshouldtheynotsneeratherasatthings?Sherecalledwhatshehadherselfthoughtofsuchthings——thefollyofthem,theobviousness——thealmostdeserveddisaster。Shehadarrogatedtoherselfjudgmentofwomen——andmen——whomight,yes,whomighthavestoodupontheirstripofsand,asshestood,withthewavescreepingin,eachonehigher,stronger,andmoreengulfingthanthelast。Theremighthavebeenthoseamongthemwhoalsohadknowledgeofthatsuddendeadlyjoyatthesightofoneface,atthedropofonevoice。Whenthatwavesubmergedone’spulsingbeing,whathadtheworldtodowithone——howcouldonehearandthinkofwhatitsspeechmightbe?Itsvoiceclamouredtoofaroff。 Asshewalkedacrossthemarshshewasthinkingthisfirstphaseover。Shehadreachedanewone,andatfirstshelookedbackwithafaint,evenratherhard,smile。Shewalkedstraightahead,hermastiff,Roland,paddingalongheavilycloseatherside。Howstillandwideandgoldenitwas;howthecryofploverandliftingtrillofskylarkassuredonethatonewaswhollyencircledbysolitudeandspacewhichweremoreenclosingthananywalls!ShewasgoingtothemoundstowhichMr。PenzancehadtrundledG。Seldenintheponychaise,whenhehadgivenhimthemarvelloushourwhichhadbroughtRomancampandRomanlegionstolifeagain。Uponthelargesthillockonecouldsitenthroned,restingchininhandandlookingoutunderlevellidsattheunstirring,softly—livinglovelinessofthemarsh—landworld。Soshewaspresentlyseated,withherheavy—limbedRolandatherfeet。Shehadcomeheretotrytoputthingsclearlytoherself,toplanwithsuchreasonasshecouldcontrol。Shehadbeguntobeunhappy,shehadbegun——withsomeunfairness——tolookbackupontheBettyVanderpoelofthepastasanunwittinglyself—sufficientyoungwoman,tofindherselfsuddenlyentangledbythings,eventoknowatouchofdesperateness。 \"Nottotakearemnantfromtheducalbargaincounter,\" shewassayingmentally。Thatwaswhyhersmilewasalittlehard。Whatiftheremnantfromtheducalbargaincounterhadprejudicesofhisown? \"Ifhewerepassionately——passionatelyinlovewithme,\"shesaid,withredstaininghercheeks,\"hewouldnotcome——hewouldnotcome——hewouldnotcome。And,becauseofthat,heismoretome——MORE!Andmorehewillbecomeeveryday——andthemorestronglyhewillholdme。Andtherewestand。\" Rolandliftedhisfineheadfromhispaws,and,holdingiterectonastiff,strongneck,staredatherinobviousinquiry。 Sheputoutherhandandtenderlypattedhim。 \"Hewillhavenoneofme,\"shesaid。\"Hewillhavenoneofme。\"Andshefaintlysmiled,butthenextinstantshookherheadalittlehaughtily,and,havingdoneso,lookeddownwithanalteredexpressionupontheclothofherskirt,becauseshehadshakenuponit,fromtheextravagantlashes,twocleardrops。 Itwasnottheresultofchancethatshehadseennothingofhimforweeks。Shehadnotattemptedtopersuadeherselfofthat。TwicehehaddeclinedaninvitationtoStornham,andoncehehadriddenpastherontheroadwhenhemighthavestoppedtoexchangegreetings,orhaveriddenonbyherside。 Hedidnotmeantoseemtodesire,eversolightly,tobecountedasinthelists。Whetherhewasdrawnbyanylikingforherornot,itwasplainhehaddeterminedonthis。 Ifsheweretogoawaynow,theywouldnevermeetagain。 Theirwaysinthisworldwouldpartforever。Shewouldnotknowhowlongittooktobreakhimutterly——ifsuchamancouldbebroken。Ifnomagicchangetookplaceinhisfortunes——andwhatchangecouldcome?——thedecayabouthimwouldspreaddaybyday。Stonewallslastalongtime,sothehousewouldstandwhileeverybeautyandstatelinesswithinitfellintoruin。Gardenswouldbecomewildernesses,terracesandfountainscrumbleandbeovergrown,wallsthatwereto—dayleaningwouldfallwithtime。Theyearswouldpass,andhisyouthwiththem;hewouldgraduallychangeintoanoldmanwhilehewatchedthethingshelovedwithpassiondieslowlyandhard。HowstrangeitwasthatlivesshouldtouchandpassontheoceanofTime,andnothingshouldresult——nothingatall!Whenshewentonherway,itwouldbeasifashiploadedwitheveryaidoffoodandtreasurehadpassedaboatinwhichastrongmantossed,starvingtodeath,andhadnotevenrunupaflag。 \"Butonecannotrunupaflag,\"shesaid,strokingRoland。 \"Onecannot。Therewestand。\" ToherrecognitionofthisdeadlockofFate,therehadbeenaddingthegrowingdisturbancecausedbyyetanotherthingwhichwasincreasinglytroubling,increasinglydifficulttoface。 Gradually,andatfirstwithwonderfulnaturalnessofbearing,NigelAnstruthershadmanagedtocreateforhimselfasingularplaceinhereverydaylife。Ithadbegunwithacertainpersonalnessinhisattitude,apersonalnesswhichwasathingtodislike,butalmostimpossibleopenlytoresent。Certainly,asaself—invitedguestinhishouse,shecouldscarcelyprotestagainsttheamiabilityofhisdemeanourandhisexteriorcourtesyandattentivenessofmannerinhisconducttowardsher。Shehadtriedtosweepawaytheobjectionablequalityinhisbearing,byfrankness,byindifference,byentirelackofresponse,butshehadremainedconsciousofitsincreasingasaspider’swebmightincreaseasthespiderspunitquietlyoverone,throwingoutthreadssoimpalpablethatonecouldnotbrushthemawaybecausetheyweretooslighttobeseen。Shewasawarethatinthefirstyearsofhismarriedlifehehadalternatelyresentedthescarcityoftheinvitationssentthemandrudelyrefusedsuchaswerereceived。SincehehadreturnedtofindheratStornham,hehadinsistedthatnoinvitationsshouldbedeclined,andhadescortedhiswifeandherselfwherevertheywent。Whatcouldhavebeenconventionallymoreproper——whatmoreimproperthanthatheshouldhavepersistentlyhaveremainedathome?Andyettherecameatimewhen,astheythreedrovetogetheratnightintheclosedcarriage,Bettywasconsciousthat,ashesatoppositetoherinthedark,whenhespoke,whenhetouchedherinarrangingtherobeoverher,oropeningorshuttingthewindow,hesubtly,butpersistently,conveyedthatthepersonalnessofhisvoice,look,andphysicalnearnesswasasortofhideousconfidencebetweenthemwhichtheywerecleverlyconcealingfromRosalieandtheoutsideworld。 Whensherodeaboutthecountry,hehadawayofappearingatsometurningandmakinghimselfhercompanion,ridingtoocloselyatherside,andassuminganoticeableairofbeingengagedinmeaninglyconfidentialtalk。Once,whenhehadbeenleaningtowardsherwithanaudaciouslytendermanner,theyhadbeenpassedbytheDunholmcarriage,andLadyDunholmandthefrienddrivingwithherhadevidentlytriednottolooksurprised。LadyAlanby,meetingtheminthesamewayatanothertime,hadputupherglassesandstaredinopendisapproval。ShemightadmireastrikinglyhandsomeAmericangirl,butherfavourwouldnotlastthroughanysuchvulgarsillinessasflirtationswithdisgracefulbrothers—in—law。WhenBettystrolledabouttheparkorthelanes,shemuchtoooftenencounteredSirNigelstrollingalso,andknewthathedidnotmeantoallowhertoridherselfofhim。Inpublic,hemadeapointofkeepingobservablyclosetoher,ofhoveringinhervicinityandlookingonatallshedidwitheyessherebelledagainstfindingfixedonhereachtimeshewasobligedtoturninhisdirection。Hehadafashionofcomingtohersideandspeakinginadroppedvoice,whichexcludedothers,asafavouredlovermight。Shehadseenbothmenandwomenglanceatherinhalf—embarrassmentattheirsuddensenseoffindingthemselvesslightlydetrop。Shehadsaidaloudtohimononesuchoccasion——andshehadsaiditwithsmilingcasualnessforthebenefitofLadyAlanby,towhomshehadbeentalking: \"Don’talarmmebydroppingyourvoice,Nigel。Iameasilyfrightened——andLadyAlanbywillthinkweareconspirators。\" Foraninstanthewastakenbysurprise。Hehadbeenpleasedtobelievethattherewasnowayinwhichshecoulddefendherself,unlessshewouldcondescendtosomethingstupidlylikeascene。Heflushedanddrewhimselfup。 \"Ibegyourpardon,mydearBetty,\"hesaid,andwalkedawaywiththemannerofanoffendedadorer,leavinghertorealiseanodiouslyunpleasanttruth——whichisthatthereareincidentsonlymademoreinexplicablebyanefforttoexplain。 Shesawalsothathewasquiteawareofthis,andthathisoffendeddeparturewasabrilliantinspiration,andhadlefther,asitwere,inthelurch。TohavesaidtoLadyAlanby:\"Mybrother—in—law,inwhosehouseIammerelystayingformysister’ssake,istryingtoleadyoutobelievethatIallowhimtomakelovetome,\"wouldhavesuggestedeitherfollyorinsanityonherownpart。Asitwas——afteraglanceatSirNigel’sstifflyretreatingback——LadyAlanbymerelylookedawaywithawhollyuninvitingexpression。 WhenBettyspoketohimafterwards,haughtilyandwithdetermination,helaughed。 \"Mydearestgirl,\"hesaid,\"ifIwatchyouwithinterestanddropmyvoicewhenIgetachancetospeaktoyou,Ionlydowhateveryothermandoes,andIdoitbecauseyouareanalluringyoungwoman——whichnooneismoreperfectlyawareofthanyourself。Yourpretencethatyoudonotknowyouarealluringisthemostcaptivatingthingaboutyou。AndwhatdoyouthinkofdoingifIcontinuetooffendyou?Doyouproposetodesertus——toleavepoorRosalietosinkbackagainintothebundleofoldclothesshewaswhenyoucame?ForHeaven’ssake,don’tdothat!\" Allthathiswordssuggestedtookformbeforehervividly。 Howwellheunderstoodwhathewassaying。Butsheansweredhimbravely。 \"No。Idonotmeantodothat。\" Hewatchedherforafewseconds。Therewascuriosityinhiseyes。 \"Don’tmakethemistakeofimaginingthatIwillletmywifegowithyoutoAmerica,\"hesaidnext。\"SheisasfarofffromthatasshewaswhenIbroughthertoStornham。I havetoldherso。Amancannottiehiswifetothebedpostinthesedays,buthecanmakehereffortstoleavehimsodecidedlyunpleasantthatdecentwomenprefertostayathomeandtakewhatiscoming。Ihaveseenthatoftenenough`tobankonit,’ ifImayquoteyourAmericanfriends。\" \"Doyouremembermyoncesaying,\"Bettyremarked,\"thatwhenawomanhasbeenPROPERLYill—treatedthetimecomeswhennothingmatters——nothingbutreleasefromthelifesheloathes?\" \"Yes,\"heanswered。\"Andtoyounothingwouldmatterbut——excusemysayingit——yourowndamnable,headstrongpride。ButRosalieisdifferent。Everythingmatterstoher。 Andyouwillfinditso,mydeargirl。\" AndthatthiswasatleasthalftruewasbroughthometoherbythefactthatlatethesamenightRosycametoherwhitewithcrying。 \"Itisnotyourfault,Betty,\"shesaid。\"Don’tthinkthatI thinkitisyourfault,buthehasbeeninmyroominoneofthosehumourswhenheseemslikeadevil。HethinksyouwillgobacktoAmericaandtrytotakemewithyou。But,Betty,youmustnotthinkaboutme。Itwillbebetterforyoutogo。 Ihaveseenyouagain。Ihavehadyoufor——foratime。Youwillbesaferathomewithfatherandmother。\" Bettylaidahandonhershoulderandlookedatherfixedly。 \"Whatisit,Rosy?\"shesaid。\"Whatisithedoestoyou——thatmakesyoulikethis?\" \"Idon’tknow——butthathemakesmefeelthatthereisnothingbutevilandliesintheworldandnothingcanhelponeagainstthem。Thosethingshesaysabouteveryone——menandwomen——thingsonecan’trepeat——makemesick。AndwhenItrytodenythem,helaughs。\" \"Doeshesaythingsaboutme?\"Bettyinquired,veryquietly,andsuddenlyRosaliethrewherarmsroundher。 \"Betty,darling,\"shecried,\"gohome——gohome。Youmustnotstayhere。\" \"WhenIgo,youwillgowithme,\"Bettyanswered。\"I amnotgoingbacktomotherwithoutyou。\" Shemadeacollectionofmanyfactsbeforetheirinterviewwasatanend,andtheypartedforthenight。AmongthefirstwasthatNigelhadpreparedforcertainpossibilitiesaswiseholdersofafortressprepareforsiege。Aratherlongsittingaloneoverwhiskyandsodahad,withoutmakinghimloquacious,heatedhisbloodinsuchamannerasledhimtobelesssubtlethanusual。Drinkdidnotmakehimdrunk,butmalignant,andwhenamanisinthemalignantmood,heforgetshiscleverness。Soherevealedmorethanheabsolutelyintended。 Itwastobegatheredthathedidnotmeantopermithiswifetoleavehim,evenforavisit;hewouldnotallowhimselftobemaderidiculousbysuchathing。Amanwhocouldnotcontrolhiswifewasafoolanddeservedtobealaughing—stock。 AsUghtredandhisfutureinheritanceseemedtohavebecomeofinteresttohisgrandfather,andweretobewellnursedandtakencareof,hisintentionwasthattheboyshouldremainunderhisownsupervision。HecouldamusehimselfwellenoughatStornham,nowthatithadbeenputinorder,ifitwaskeptupproperlyandhefilleditwithpeoplewhodidnotborehim。Therewerepeoplewhodidnotborehim——plentyofthem。Rosaliewouldstaywhereshewasandreceivehisguests。 IfsheimaginedthatthelittleepisodeofFfolliotthadbeenentirelydormant,shewasmistaken。Heknewwherethemanwas,andexactlyhowseriousitwouldbetohimifscandalwasstirredup。Hehadbeenatsometroubletofindout。Thefellowhadrecentlyhadthelucktofallintoaveryfineliving。 IthadbeenbestowedonhimbytheoldDukeofBroadmorlands,whowasthemoststrait—lacedoldboyinEngland。 Hehadbecomesoinhisdisgustatthelightbehaviourofthewifehehaddivorcedinhisearlymanhood。Nigelcackledgentlyashedetailedthat,byanagreeablecoincidence,ithappenedthatherGracehadsuddenlybecomefilledwithpiousfervour——rousedtheretobyagood—lookinglocumtenens—— result,painfuldiscoveries——thepairbeingnowrumouredtobekeepingalodging—housetogethersomewhereinAustralia。A wordtogoodoldBroadmorlandswouldproducetheeffectofalightedmatchonabarrelofgunpowder。ItwouldbetheendofFfolliott。NeitherwoulditbeagoodintroductiontoBetty’sfirstseasoninLondon,neitherwoulditbeenjoyedbyhermother,whomherememberedasawomanwithprimitiveviewsofdomesticrectitude。HesmiledtheawfulsmileashetookoutofhispockettheenvelopecontainingthewordshiswifehadwrittentoMr。Ffolliott,\"Donotcometothehouse。MeetmeatBartyonWood。\"Itdidnottakemuchtoconvincepeople,ifonemanagedthingswithdecentforethought。TheBrents,forinstance,werefondneitherofhernorofBetty,andtheyhadneverforgottenthequestionableconductoftheirlocumtenens。Then,suddenly,hehadchangedhismannerandhadsatdown,laughing,anddrawnRosalietohiskneeandkissedher——yes,hehadkissedherandtoldhernottolooklikealittlefooloractlikeone。Nothingunpleasantwouldhappenifshebehavedherself。Bettyhadimprovedhergreatly,andshehadgrownyoungandprettyagain。Shelookedquitelikeachildsometimes,nowthatherboneswerecoveredandshedressedwell。Ifshewantedtopleasehimshecouldputherarmsroundhisneckandkisshim,ashehadkissedher。 \"Thatiswhathasmadeyoulookwhite,\"saidBetty。 \"Yes。Thereissomethingabouthimthatsometimesmakesyoufeelasiftheverybloodinyourveinsturnedwhite,\" answeredRosy——inalowvoice,whichthenextmomentrose。 \"Don’tyousee——don’tyousee,\"shebrokeout,\"thattodispleasehimwouldbelikemurderingMr。Ffolliott——likemurderinghismotherandmine——andlikemurderingUghtred,becausehewouldbekilledbytheshameofthings——andbybeingtakenfromme。Wehavelovedeachothersomuch——somuch。 Don’tyousee?\" \"Iseeallthatrisesupbeforeyou,\"Bettysaid,\"andI understandyourfeelingthatyoucannotsaveyourselfbybringingruinuponaninnocentmanwhohelpedyou。Irealisethatonemusthavetimetothinkitover。But,Rosy,\"asuddenringinhervoice,\"Itellyouthereisawayout——thereisawayout!Theendofthemiseryiscoming——anditwillnotbewhathethinks。\" \"Youalwaysbelieve————\"beganRosy。 \"Iknow,\"answeredBetty。\"Iknowtherearesomethingssobadthattheycannotgoon。Theykillthemselvesthroughtheirownevil。IKNOW!IKNOW!Thatisall。\" CHAPTERLX \"DON’TGOONWITHTHIS\" Ofthesethings,asofothers,shehadcometohersolitudetothink。Shelookedoutoverthemarshesscarcelyseeingthewanderingorrestingsheep,scarcelyhearingthecryingplover,becausesomuchseemedtoconfronther,andshemustlookitallwellintheface。Shehadfulfilledthepromiseshehadmadetoherselfasachild。ShehadcomeinsearchofRosy,shehadfoundherassimpleandlovingofheartasshehadeverbeen。Themostpainfuldiscoveriesshehadmadehadbeenconcealedfromhermotheruntiltheiraspectwasmodified。 Mrs。VanderpoelneednowfeelnoshockatthesightoftherestoredRosy。LadyAnstruthershadbeenstillyoungenoughtorespondbothphysicallyandmentallytolove,companionship,agreeableluxuries,andstimulatinginterests。ButforNigel’santagonismtherewasnownoreasonwhysheshouldnotbetakenhomeforavisittoherfamily,andherlong—yearned—forNewYork,noreasonwhyherfatherandmothershouldnotcometoStornham,andthusestablishthecustomarysocialrelationsbetweentheirdaughter’shomeandtheirown。ThatthisseemedoutofthequestionwasowingtothefactthatattheoutsetofhismarriedlifeSirNigelhadallowedhimselftocommiterrorsintactics。Aperverseegotism,notwhollynormalinitsrancour,hadledhimintodeedswhichhehadbeguntosuspectofhavingcosthimtoomuch,evenbeforeBettyherselfhadpointedouttohimtheirunbusinesslikeindiscretion。Hehaddonethingshecouldnotundo,andnow,tohismind,hisonlyresourcewastotreatthemboldlyashavingbeentheproperresultsofdecisionfoundedonsoundjudgment,whichhehadnodesiretoexcuse。Asufficientlyarrogantloftinessofbearingwould,hehoped,carryhimthroughthematter。ThisBettyherselfhadguessed,butshehadnotrealisedthatthisloftinessofattitudewasindangeroflosingsomeofitseffectivenessthroughhisbeingincreasinglystungandspurredbycircumstancesandfeelingsconnectedwithherself,whichwereatonceexasperatingandattimesalmostoverpowering。When,inhismingleddislikeandadmiration,hehadbeguntostudyhissister—in—law,andthehalf—amusedweavingofthesmallplotswhichwouldmakethingssufficientlyunpleasanttobeusedasfactorsinherremovalfromthescene,ifnecessary,hehadnotcalculated,eversoremotely,onthechanceofthatmadnessbesettinghimwhichusuallybesetsmenonlyintheiryouth。Hehadimaginednootherresultstohimselfthanasubtly—excitingprivateentertainment,suchaswouldgivespicetothedullnessofvirtuouslifeinthecountry。But,despitehimselfandhisintentions,hehadfoundthesituationalter。HisfirstuncertaintyofhimselfhadarisenattheDunholmball,whenhehadsuddenlyrealisedthathewasdetestingmenwho,beingyoungandfree,wereatlibertytopaygallantcourttothenewbeauty。 PerhapsthemostdisturbingthingtohimhadbeenhisconsciousnessofhissuddenleapofantagonismtowardsMountDunstan,who,despitehisobviouslackofchance,somehowespeciallyrousedinhimtherageofwarringmaleinstinct。 Therehadbeenadmissionshehadbeenforced,atlength,tomaketohimself。Youcouldnot,itappeared,liveinthehousewithasplendidcreaturelikethisone——withherbrillianteyes,herbeautyoflineandmovementbeforeyoueveryhour,herbloom,herproudfinenessholdingthemselveswhollyintheirownkeeping——withouttherebeingthedeviltopay。Latelyhehadsometimesgonehotandcoldinrealisingthat,havingoncetoldhimselfthathemightchoosetodecidetogetridofher,henowknewthatthemerethoughtofhersailingawayofherownchoicewasmaddeningtohim。ThereWASthedeviltopay!