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类别:其他 作者:Frances Hodgson Burnett字数:10474更新时间:19/01/07 14:57:26
\"Don’tlisten——darling——darling!\"Rosycriedoutinanguish。\"Shutyourears——shutyourears!\"Andshetriedtothrowherarmsaroundthehighblackhead,andstifleallsoundwithherembrace。 \"Idon’twanttoshutthem,\"wastheanswer。\"Alltheunkindnessandmiseryareoverforhim,IoughttothankGod—— butIdon’t。Ishallhear——ORosy,listen!——Ishallhearthattotheendofmydays。\" Rosyheldhertight,androckedandsobbed。 \"MyBetty,\"shekeptsaying。\"MyBetty,\"andshecouldsaynomore。Whatmorewastheretosay?AtlastBettywithdrewherselffromherarms,andthenRosalienoticedforthefirsttimethatsheworethehabit。 \"Dearest,\"shewhispered,\"whatareyougoingtodo?\" \"Iwasgoingtoride,andIamgoingtodoitstill。I mustdosomething。Ishallridealong,longway——andridehard。Youwon’ttrytokeepme,Rosy。Youwillunderstand。\" \"Yes,\"bitingherlip,andlookingatherwithlarge,awedeyes,asshepattedherarmwithahandthattrembled。\"I wouldnotholdyouback,Betty,fromanythingintheworldyouchosetodo。\" Andwithanotherlong,clingingclaspofher,shelethergo。 MasonwasstandingbyChildeHaroldwhenshewentdownthebroadsteps。Healsoworealookofrepressedemotion,andstoodwithbaredheadbent,hiseyesfixedonthegravelofthedrive,listeningtotheheavystrokesofthebellinthechurchtower,ratherasifheweretakingpartinsomesolemnceremony。 Hemountedhersilently,andafterhehadgivenherthebridle,lookedup,andspokeinasomewhathuskyvoice: \"Theorderwasthatyoudidnotwantme,miss?Wasthatcorrect?\" \"Yes,Iwishtoridealone。\" \"Yes,miss。Thankyou,miss。\" ChildeHaroldwasingoodspirits。Hehelduphishead,andblewthebreaththroughhisdelicate,dilated,rednostrilsashesetoutwithhisfavouritesidling,dancingsteps。Masonwatchedhimdowntheavenue,sawthelodgekeepercomeouttoopenthegate,andcurtsyasherladyship’ssisterpassedthroughit。Afterthathewentslowlybacktothestables,andsatintheharness—roomalongtime,staringatthefloor,asthebellstruckponderouslyonhisear。 ThewomanwhohadopenedthegateforherBettysawhadredeyes。Sheknewwhy。 \"Ayearagotheyallthoughtofhimasanoutcast。Theywouldhavebelievedanyeviltheyhadheardconnectedwithhisname。Now,ineverycottage,thereisweeping——weeping。 Andheliesdeafanddumb,\"washerthought。 Shedidnotwishtopassthroughthevillage,andturneddownasideroad,whichwouldleadhertowhereshecouldcrossthemarshes,andcomeuponlonelyplaces。Themorelonely,thebetter。Everyfewmomentsshecaughtherbreathwithahardshortgasp。Theslowrainfelluponher,biground,crystaldropshungonthehedgerows,anddrippeduponthegrassbanksbelowthem;thetrees,wreathedwithmist,werelikewaitingghostsasshepassedthemby;ChildeHarold’shoofupontheroad,madeahollow,lonelysound。 Athoughtbegantofillherbrain,andmakeinsistentpressureuponit。Shetriednomoretothrustthoughtaway。Thosewholaydeafanddumb,thoseforwhompeoplewept——whereweretheywhentheweepingseemedtosoundthroughalltheworld?Howfarhadtheygone?Wasitfar?Couldtheyhearandcouldtheysee?Ifonepleadwiththemaloud,couldtheydrawneartolisten?Didtheybeginalong,longjourneyassoonastheyhadslippedaway?The\"wonderoftheworld,\"shehadsaid,watchinglifeswellingandburstingtheseedsinKedgers’hothouses!Butthiswasagreaterwonderstill,becauseofitsawesomeness。Thismanhadbeen,andwhodaresayhewasnot——evennow?Thestrengthofhisgreatbody,thelookinhisred—browneyes,thesoundofhisdeepvoice,thestruggle,themeaningofhim,wherewerethey? SheheardherselffollowedbythehollowechoofChildeHarold’shoofs,assherodepastcopseandhedge,andwetspreadingfields。Shewasthishourashehadbeenamonthago。 If,withsomestrangesuddenness,thiswhichwasBettyVanderpoel,slippedfromitsbody————Sheputherhanduptoherforehead。Itwasunthinkablethattherewouldbenomore。 Wherewashenow——wherewashenow? Thiswasthethoughtthatfilledherbraincellstotheexclusionofallothers。Overtheroad,downthroughby—lanes,outonthemarshes。Wherewashe——wherewashe——WHERE? ChildeHarold’shoofsbegantobeatitoutasarefrain。Sheheardnothingelse。Shedidnotknowwhereshewasgoinganddidnotaskherself。Shewentdownanyroadorlanewhichlookedemptyoflife,shetookstrangeturnings,withoutcaring;shedidnotknowhowfarshewasafield。 Wherewashenow——thishour——thismoment——wherewashenow?Didheknowtherain,thegreyness,thedesolationoftheworld? Onceshestoppedherhorseonthelonelinessofthemarshland,andlookedupatthelowcloudsabouther,atthecreepingmist,thedankgrass。Itseemedaplaceinwhichanewly— releasedsoulmightwanderbecauseitdidnotyetknowitsway。 \"Ifyoushouldbenear,andcometome,youwillunderstand,\" herclearvoicesaidgravelybetweenthecaughtbreaths,\"whatIgaveyouwasnothingtoyou——butyoutookitwithyou。Perhapsyouknowwithoutmytellingyou。Iwantyoutoknow。Whenamanisdead,everythingmeltsaway。 Ilovedyou。Iwishyouhadlovedme。\" CHAPTERXLVIII THEMOMENT Intheunnaturalunbearablenessofheranguish,shelostsightofobjectsasshepassedthem,shelostallmemoryofwhatshedid。Shedidnotknowhowlongshehadbeenout,orhowfarshehadridden。Whenthethoughtoftimeordistancevaguelyflittedacrosshermind,itseemedthatshehadbeenridingforhours,andmighthavecrossedonecountyandenteredanother。Shehadlongleftfamiliarplacesbehind。 Ridingthroughandinclosedbythemist,she,herself,mighthavebeenawanderingghost,lostinunknownplaces。Wherewashenow——wherewashenow? Afterwardsshecouldnottellhoworwhenitwasthatshefoundherselfbecomingconsciousoftheevidencesthatherhorsehadbeenriddentoolongandhard,andthathewaswornoutwithfatigue。Shedidnotknowthatshehadriddenroundandroundoverthemarshes,andhadpassedseveraltimesthroughthesamelanes。ChildeHarold,thesureoffoot,actuallystumbled,outofsheerwearinessoflimb。 Perhapsitwasthiswhichbroughtherbacktoearth,andledhertolookaroundherwitheyeswhichsawmaterialobjectswithcomprehension。Shehadreachedthelonelyplaces,indeedandtheeveningwasdrawingon。Shewasattheedgeofthemarsh,andthelandaboutherwasstrangetoheranddesolate。 Atthesideofasteeplane,overgrownwithgrass,andseemingamerecart—path,stoodadeserted—looking,blackandwhite,timberedcottage,whichwashalfaruin。Closetoitwasadrippingspinney,itstreesformingadarklingbackgroundtothetumble—downhouse,whosethatchwasrottingintoholes,anditswallssaggingforwardperilously。Thebitofgardenaboutitwasneglectedanduntidy,hereandtherewindowswerebroken,andstuffedwithpiecesofraggedgarments。 Altogetherasinisterandrepellentplaceenough。 Shelookedatitwithheavyeyes。(Wherewashenow—— wherewashenow?——Thisrepeatingitselfinthefarchambersofherbrain。)Hersightseemeddimmed,notonlybythemist,butbyasinkingfaintnesswhichpossessedher。Shedidnotrememberhowlittlefoodshehadeatenduringmorethantwenty—fourhours。Herhabitwasheavywithmoisture,andclungtoherbody;shewasconsciousofahottremorpassingoverher,andsawthatherhandsshookastheyheldthebridleonwhichtheyhadlosttheirgrip。Shehadneverfaintedinherlife,andshewasnotgoingtofaintnow——womendidnotfaintinthesedays——butshemustreachthecottageanddismount,torestundershelterforashorttime。Nosmokewasrisingfromthechimney,butsurelysomeonewaslivingintheplace,andcouldtellherwhereshewas,andgiveheratleastwaterforherselfandherhorse。Poorbeast!howwickedlyshemusthavebeenridinghim,inherutterabsorptioninherthoughts。Hewaswet,notalonewithrain,butwithsweat。Hesnortedouthot,smokingbreaths。 Shespoketohim,andhemovedforwardathercommand。 Hewastremblingtoo。Notmorethantwohundredyards,andsheturnedhimintothelane。Butitwaswetandslippery,andstrewnwithstones。Histremblingandheruncertainholdonthebridlecombinedtoproducedisaster。Hesethisfootuponastonewhichslidbeneathit,hestumbled,andshecouldnothelphimtorecover,sohefell,andonlybyHeaven’smercynotuponher,withhiscrushing,big—bonedweight,andshewasabletodragherselffreeofhimbeforehebegantokick,inhishumiliatedeffortstorise。Buthecouldnotrise,becausehewashurt——andwhenshe,herself,gotup,shestaggered,andcaughtatthebrokengate,becauseinherwrenchingleapforsafetyshehadtwistedherankle,andforamomentwasincruelpain。 Whensherecoveredfromhershocksufficientlytobeabletolookatthecottage,shesawthatitwasmoreofaruinthanithadseemed,evenatashortdistance。Itsdoorhungopenonbrokenhinges,nosmokerosefromthechimney,becausetherewasnoonewithinitswallstolightafire。Itwasquiteempty。Everythingabouttheplacelayindeadanduttersilence。Inanormalmoodshewouldhavelikedthemysteryofthesituation,andwouldhavesetaboutplanningherwayoutofherdifficulty。Butnowhermindmadenoeffort,becausenormalinterestinthingshadfallenawayfromher。 ShemightbetwentymilesfromStornham,butthepossiblefactdidnot,atthemoment,seemtoconcernher。(Whereishenow——whereishenow?)ChildeHaroldwastryingtorise,despitehishurt,andhisevidentdeterminationtouchedher。Hewastooproudtolieinthemire。Shelimpedtohim,andtriedtosteadyhimbyhisbridle。Hewasnotbadlyinjured,thoughplainlyinpain。 \"Poorboy,itwasmyfault,\"shesaidtohimasheatlaststruggledtohisfeet。\"IdidnotknowIwasdoingit。Poorboy!\" Heturnedavelvetdarkeyeuponher,andnosedherforgivinglywithawarmvelvetmuzzle,butitwasplainthat,forthetime,hewasdonefor。Theybothmovedhaltinglytothebrokengate,andBettyfastenedhimtoathorntreenearit,wherehestoodonthreefeet,hisfineheaddrooping。 Shepushedthegateopen,andwentintothehousethroughthedoorwhichhungonitshinges。Onceinside,shestoodstillandlookedabouther。Iftherewassilenceanddesolatenessoutside,therewaswithinthedesertedplaceastillnessliketheunresponseofdeath。Ithadbeenlongsinceanyonehadlivedinthecottage,buttrampsorgipsieshadattimespassedthroughit。Dead,blackenedemberslayonthehearth,abundleofdriedgrasswhichhadbeensleptonwaspiledinthecorner,anemptynailkegandawoodenboxhadbeendrawnbeforethebigchimneyplaceforsomewanderertositonwhentheblackembershadbeenhotandred。 Bettygaveoneglancearoundherandsatdownupontheboxstandingonthebarehearth,herheadsinkingforward,herhandsfallingclaspedbetweenherknees,hereyesonthebrickfloor。 \"Whereishenow?\"brokefromherinaloudwhisper,whosesoundwasmechanicalandhollow。\"Whereishenow?\" Andshesattherewithoutmoving,whilethegreymistfromthemarshescreptcloseaboutthedoorandthroughitandstoleaboutherfeet。 Soshesatlong——long——inaheavy,far—offdream。 Alongtheroadamanwasridingwithalowering,frettedface。Hehadcomeacrosscountryonhorseback,becausetotravelbytrainmeantwearisomestopsandchangesandendlesslyslowjourneying,annoyingbeyondendurancetothosewhohavenotpatiencetospare。Hisridewouldhavebeenpleasantenoughbutfortheslowmist—likerain。Alsohehadtakenawrongturning,becausehedidnotknowtheroadshetravelled。Thelastsignposthehadpassed,however,hadgivenhimhiscueagain,andhebegantofeelsomethingofsecurity。 Confoundtherain!Thebestroadwasslipperywithit,andthehazeofitmadeaman’smindfeelbefoggedandloweredhisspiritshorribly——discouragedhim——wouldworryhimintoanillhumourevenifhehadreasontobeinagoodone。 Asforhim,hehadnoreasonforcheerfulness——heneverhadforthematterofthat,andjustnow————!Whatwasthematterwithhishorse?Hewasliftinghisheadandsniffingthedampairrestlessly,asifhescentedorsawsomething。Beastsoftenseemedtohaveasortofsecondsight——horsesparticularly。 Whatailedhimthatheshouldprickuphisearsandsnortafterhissniffingthemist!Didhehearanything?Yes,hedid,itseemed。Hegaveforthsuddenlyaloudshrillwhinny,turninghisheadtowardsaroughlanetheywereapproaching,andimmediatelyfromthevicinityofadeserted—lookingcottagebehindahedgecameasharpbutmournful—soundingneighinanswer。 \"Whathorseisthat?\"saidNigelAnstruthers,drawinginattheentrancetothelaneandlookingdownit。\"Thereisafinebrutewithaside—saddleon,\"headdedsharply。\"Heiswaitingforsomeone。Whatisawomandoingthereatthistime?Isitarendezvous?Agoodplace————\" Hebrokeoffshortandrodeforward。\"I’mhangedifitisnotChildeHarold,\"hebrokeout,andhehadnosoonerassuredhimselfofthefactthanhethrewhimselffromhissaddle,tetheredhishorseandstrodeupthepathtothebroken— hingeddoor。 Hestoodonthethresholdandstared。Whataholeitwas—— whatahole!AndthereSHEsat——alone——eighteenortwentymilesfromhome——onaturned—upboxneartheblackembers,herhandsclaspedlooselybetweenherknees,herfaceratherawful,hereyesstaringatthefloor,asifshedidnotseeit。 \"Whereishenow?\"heheardherwhispertoherselfwithsoftweirdness。\"Whereishenow?\" SirNigelsteppedintotheplaceandstoodbeforeher。Hehadsmiledwithawryunpleasantnesswhenhehadheardherevidentlyunconsciouswords。 \"Mygoodgirl,\"hesaid,\"IamsureIdonotknowwhereheis——butitisveryevidentthatheoughttobehere,sinceyouhaveamiablyputyourselftosuchtrouble。ItisfortunateforyouperhapsthatIamherebeforehim。Whatdoesthismean?\" thequestionbreakingfromhimwithsavageauthority。 Hehaddraggedherbacktoearth。Shesatuprightandrecognisedhimwithahideoussenseofshock,buthedidnotgivehertimetospeak。Hisinstinctofmalefuryleapedwithinhim。 \"YOU!\"hecriedout。\"Ittakesawomanlikeyoutocomeandhideherselfinaplaceofthissort,likeatrollopinggipsywench!IttakesaNewYorkmillionairessoraRomanempressoroneofCharlestheSecond’sduchessestoplungeasdeepasthis。You,withyourgoldenpedestal——you,withyourostentatiousairsandgraces——you,withyourcondescendingtogiveamanachancetorepenthissinsandturnoveranewleaf! Damnit,\"risingtoasortoffrenzy,\"whatareyoudoingwaitinginaholelikethis——inthisweather——atthishour——you——you!\" Thefool’sflameleapedhighenoughtomakehimstartforward,asiftoseizeherbytheshoulderandshakeher。 Butsheroseandsteppedbacktoleanagainstthesideofthechimney——tobraceherselfagainstit,sothatshecouldstandinherlamefoot’sdespite。Everydropofbloodhadbeensweptfromherface,andhereyeslookedimmense。Hiscomingwasagoodthingforher,thoughshedidnotknowit。Itbroughtherbackfromunearthlyplaces。Allherchildhatredwokeandblazedinher。Neverhadshehatedathingso,anditsetherslow,coldbloodrunninglikesomethingmolten。 \"Holdyourtongue!\"shesaidinaclear,awfulyoungvoiceofwarning。\"Andtakecarenottotouchme。Ifyoudo——Ihavemywhiphere——Ishalllashyouacrossyourmouth!\" Hebrokeintoribaldlaughter。Acertainsuddenthoughtwhichhadcutintohimlikeaknifethrustintofleshdrovehimon。 \"Do!\"hecried。\"IshouldliketocarryyourmarkbacktoStornham——andtellpeoplewhyitwasgiven。Iknowwhoyouareherefor。Onlysuchfellowsasksuchthingsofwomen。 Buthewasdeterminedtobesafe,ifyouhidinaditch。YouarehereforMountDunstan——andhehasfailedyou!\" Butsheonlystoodandstaredathim,holdingherwhipbehindher,knowingthatatanymomenthemightsnatchitfromherhand。Andsheknewhowpooraweaponitwas。Tostrikeoutwithitwouldonlyinfuriatehimandmakehimawildbeast。Anditwasbecominganagonytostanduponherfoot。 Andevenifithadnotbeenso——ifshehadbeenstrongenoughtomakealeapanddashpasthim,herhorsestoodoutsidedisabled。 NigelAnstruthers’eyesranoverherfromheadtofoot,downthesideofhermud—stainedhabit,whileacuriouslightdawnedinthem。 \"Youhavehadafallfromyourhorse,\"heexclaimed。\"Youarelame!\"Thenquickly,\"ThatwaswhyChildeHaroldwastremblingandstandingonthreefeet!ByJove!\" Thenhesatdownonthenailkegandbegantolaugh。Helaughedforafullminute,butshesawhedidnottakehiseyesfromher。 \"Youareinasunpleasantasituationasayoungwomancanwellbe,\"hesaid,whenhestopped。\"Youcametoadirtyholetobealonewithamanwhofeltitsafestnottokeephisappointment。Yourhorsestumbledanddisabledhimselfandyou。Youaretwentymilesfromhomeinadesertedcottageinalanenoonepassesdowneveningoodweather。Youarefrightenedtodeathandyouhavegivenmeevenabetterstorytoplaywiththanyoursistergaveme。ByJove!\" Hisfacewasanunholythingtolookupon。Thesituationandherpowerlessnesswereexcitinghim。 \"No,\"sheanswered,keepinghereyesonhis,asshemighthavekeptthemonsomewildanimal’s,\"Iamnotfrightenedtodeath。\" Hisuglydarkflushrose。 \"Well,ifyouarenot,\"hesaid,\"don’ttellmeso。Thatkindofdefianceisnotyourbestlinejustnow。YouhavebeendisdainingmefrommagnificentNewYorkheightsforsometime。DoyouthinkthatIamnotenjoyingthis?\" \"Icannotimagineanyoneelsewhowouldenjoyitsomuch。\" Andsheknewtheanswerwasdaring,butwouldhavemadeitifhehadheldaknife’spointatherthroat。 Hegotup,andwalkingtothedoordrewitbackonitscrazyhingesandmanagedtoshutitclose。Therewasabigwoodenboltinsideandheforceditintoitssocket。 \"PresentlyIshallgoandputthehorsesintothecowshed,\" hesaid。\"IfIleavethemstandingoutsidetheywillattractattention。Idonotintendtobedisturbedbyanygipsytrampwhowantsshelter。Ihaveneverhadyouquitetomyselfbefore。\" Hesatdownagainandnursedhiskneegracefully。 \"AndIhaveneverseenyoulookasattractive,\"bitinghisunderlipincynicalenjoyment。\"To—day’sadventurehasrousedyouremotionsandactuallybeautifiedyou——whichwasnotnecessary。Idaresayyouhavebeenfuriousandhavecried。 Youreyesdonotlooklikemereeyes,butlikesplendidbluepoolsoftears。Perhaps_I_shallmakeyoucrysometime,mydearBetty。\" \"No,youwillnot。\" \"Don’ttemptme。Womenalwayscrywhenmenannoythem。Theyrage,buttheycryaswell。\" \"Ishallnot。\" \"It’struethatmostwomenwouldhavebeguntocrybeforethis。Thatiswhatstimulatesme。Youwillswaggertotheend。Youputthedevilintome。HalfanhouragoIwasjoggingalongtheroad,languidandboredtoextinction。Andnow————\"Helaughedoutrightinactualexultation。\"ByJove!\"hecriedout。\"Thingslikethisdon’thappentoamaninthesedulldays!There’snosuchluckgoingabout。 We’vegonebackfivehundredyears,andwe’vetakenNewYorkwithus。\"Hislaughshutoffinthemiddle,andhegotuptothrusthisheavy,congestedfaceclosetohers。\"Hereyouare,assafeasifyouwereinafeudalcastle,andhereisyourancientenemygivenhischance——givenhischance。Doyouthink,bytheLord,heisgoingtogiveitup?No。Toquoteyourownwords,`youmayplaceentireconfidenceinthat。’\" Exaggeratedasitallwas,somehowthemelodramadroppedawayfromitandleftbare,simple,hideousfactforhertoconfront。Theevilinhimhadrisenrampantandmadehimlosehishead。Hemightseehissenselessfollyto—morrowandknowhemustpayforit,buthewouldnotseeitto—day。Theplacewasnotafeudalcastle,butwhathesaidwasinsurmountabletruth。Aruinedcottageontheedgeofmilesofmarshland,aseldom—troddenroad,andnightuponthem!Awindwasrisingonthemarshesnow,andmakinglow,steadymoan。Horriblethingshadhappenedtowomenbefore,oneheardofthemwithshudderswhentheywererecordedinthenewspapers。OnlytwodaysagoshehadrememberedthatsometimesthereseemedblunderingsinthegreatSchemeofthings。Wasallthisreal,orwasshedreamingthatshestoodhereatbay,herbackagainstthechimney—wall,andthisdegenerateexultingoverher,whileRosywaswaitingforheratStornham——andatthisveryhourherfatherwasplanninghisjourneyacrosstheAtlantic? \"Whydidyounotbehaveyourself?\"demandedNigelAnstruthers,shakingherbytheshoulder。\"WhydidyounotrealisethatIshouldgetevenwithyouoneday,assureasyouwerewomanandIwasman?\" Shedidnotshrinkback,thoughthepupilsofhereyesdilated。 Wasitthewildestthingintheworldwhichhappenedtoher—— orwasitnot?Withoutwarning——thesuddenrushofathought,immenseandstrange,sweptoverherbodyandsoulandpossessedher——sopossessedherthatitchangedherpallortowhiteflame。ItwasactuallyAnstrutherswhoshrankbackashadebecause,forthemoment,shelookedsonearunearthly。 \"Iamnotafraidofyou,\"shesaid,inaclear,unshakenvoice。 \"Iamnotafraid。Somethingisnearmewhichwillstandbetweenus——somethingwhichDIEDto—day。\" Healmostgaspedbeforethestrangenessofit,butcaughtbackhisbreathandrecoveredhimself。 \"Diedto—day!That’srecentenough,\"hejeered。\"Letushearaboutit。Whowasit?\" \"ItwasMountDunstan,\"sheflungathim。\"Thechurch— bellsweretollingforhimwhenIrodeaway。Icouldnotstaytohearthem。Itkilledme——Ilovedhim。Youwererightwhenyousaidit。Ilovedhim,thoughheneverknew。I shallalwayslovehim——thoughheneverknew。Heknowsnow。 ThosewhodiedcannotgoawaywhenTHATisholdingthem。 Theymuststay。BecauseIlovedhim,hemaybeinthisplace。 Icallonhim————\"raisingherclearvoice。\"Icallonhimtostandbetweenus。\" Hebackedawayfromher,staringanevil,enrapturedstare。 \"What!Thereisthatmuchtemperamentinyou?\"hesaid。 \"ThatwaswhatIhalf—suspectedwhenIsawyoufirst。Butyouhavehiddenitwell。Nowitburstsforthinspiteofyou。 GoodLord!Whatluck——whatluck!\" Hemovedtothedoorandopenedit。 \"Iamaverymodernman,andIenjoythistotheutmost,\" hesaid。\"WhatIlikebestisthemelodramaofit——inconnectionwithFifthAvenue。Iamperfectlyawarethatyouwillnotdiscussthisincidentinthefuture。Youareacleverenoughyoungwomantoknowthatitwillbemoretoyourinterestthantominethatitshallbekeptexceedinglyquiet。\" Thewhitefirehadnotdiedoutofherandshestoodstraight。 \"WhatIhavecalledonwillbenearme,andwillstandbetweenus,\"shesaid。 Oldthoughitwas,thedoorwasmassiveandheavytolift。 Toopenitcosthimsomemusculareffort。 \"Iamgoingtothehorsesnow,\"heexplainedbeforehedraggeditbackintoitsframeandshutherin。\"Itissafeenoughtoleaveyouhere。Youwillstaywhereyouare。\" Hefelthimselfsecureinleavingherbecausehebelievedshecouldnotmove,andbecausehisarrogancemadeitimpossibleforhimtocountonstrengthandendurancegreaterthanhisown。Ofenduranceheknewnothingandinhiskeenandcynicalexultancehisdevilmadeafoolofhim。 Assheheardhimwalkdownthepathtothegate,Bettystoodamazedathislackofcomprehensionofher。 \"HethinksIwillstayhere。HeabsolutelythinksIwillwaituntilhecomesback,\"shewhisperedtotheemptinessofthebareroom。 Beforehehadarrivedshehadloosenedherboot,andnowshestoopedandtouchedherfoot。 \"IfIweresafeathomeIshouldthinkIcouldnotwalk,butIcanwalknow——Ican——Ican——becauseIwillbearthepain。\" Insuchcottagesthereisalwaysadooropeningoutsidefromthelittlebrickedkitchen,wherethecopperstands。Shewouldreachthat,and,passingthrough,wouldcloseitbehindher。AfterthatSOMETHINGwouldtellherwhattodo——somethingwouldleadher。 Sheputherlamefootuponthefloor,andrestedsomeofherweightuponit——notall。Ajaggedpainshotupfromitthroughherwholesideitseemed,and,foraninstant,sheswayedandgroundherteeth。 \"Thatisbecauseitisthefirststep,\"shesaid。\"ButifI amtobekilled,Iwilldieintheopen——Iwilldieintheopen。\" Thesecondandthirdstepsbroughtcoldsweatoutuponher,butshetoldherselfthatthefourthwasnotquitesounbearable,andshestiffenedherwholebody,andmutteredsomewordswhileshetookafifthandsixthwhichcarriedherintothetinybackkitchen。 \"Father,\"shesaid。\"Father,thinkofmenow——thinkofme!Rosy,loveme——lovemeandpraythatImaycomehome。 You——youwhohavedied,standverynear!\"