\"Don’tlisten——darling——darling!\"Rosycriedoutinanguish。\"Shutyourears——shutyourears!\"Andshetriedtothrowherarmsaroundthehighblackhead,andstifleallsoundwithherembrace。
\"Idon’twanttoshutthem,\"wastheanswer。\"Alltheunkindnessandmiseryareoverforhim,IoughttothankGod——
butIdon’t。Ishallhear——ORosy,listen!——Ishallhearthattotheendofmydays。\"
Rosyheldhertight,androckedandsobbed。
\"MyBetty,\"shekeptsaying。\"MyBetty,\"andshecouldsaynomore。Whatmorewastheretosay?AtlastBettywithdrewherselffromherarms,andthenRosalienoticedforthefirsttimethatsheworethehabit。
\"Dearest,\"shewhispered,\"whatareyougoingtodo?\"
\"Iwasgoingtoride,andIamgoingtodoitstill。I
mustdosomething。Ishallridealong,longway——andridehard。Youwon’ttrytokeepme,Rosy。Youwillunderstand。\"
\"Yes,\"bitingherlip,andlookingatherwithlarge,awedeyes,asshepattedherarmwithahandthattrembled。\"I
wouldnotholdyouback,Betty,fromanythingintheworldyouchosetodo。\"
Andwithanotherlong,clingingclaspofher,shelethergo。
MasonwasstandingbyChildeHaroldwhenshewentdownthebroadsteps。Healsoworealookofrepressedemotion,andstoodwithbaredheadbent,hiseyesfixedonthegravelofthedrive,listeningtotheheavystrokesofthebellinthechurchtower,ratherasifheweretakingpartinsomesolemnceremony。
Hemountedhersilently,andafterhehadgivenherthebridle,lookedup,andspokeinasomewhathuskyvoice:
\"Theorderwasthatyoudidnotwantme,miss?Wasthatcorrect?\"
\"Yes,Iwishtoridealone。\"
\"Yes,miss。Thankyou,miss。\"
ChildeHaroldwasingoodspirits。Hehelduphishead,andblewthebreaththroughhisdelicate,dilated,rednostrilsashesetoutwithhisfavouritesidling,dancingsteps。Masonwatchedhimdowntheavenue,sawthelodgekeepercomeouttoopenthegate,andcurtsyasherladyship’ssisterpassedthroughit。Afterthathewentslowlybacktothestables,andsatintheharness—roomalongtime,staringatthefloor,asthebellstruckponderouslyonhisear。
ThewomanwhohadopenedthegateforherBettysawhadredeyes。Sheknewwhy。
\"Ayearagotheyallthoughtofhimasanoutcast。Theywouldhavebelievedanyeviltheyhadheardconnectedwithhisname。Now,ineverycottage,thereisweeping——weeping。
Andheliesdeafanddumb,\"washerthought。
Shedidnotwishtopassthroughthevillage,andturneddownasideroad,whichwouldleadhertowhereshecouldcrossthemarshes,andcomeuponlonelyplaces。Themorelonely,thebetter。Everyfewmomentsshecaughtherbreathwithahardshortgasp。Theslowrainfelluponher,biground,crystaldropshungonthehedgerows,anddrippeduponthegrassbanksbelowthem;thetrees,wreathedwithmist,werelikewaitingghostsasshepassedthemby;ChildeHarold’shoofupontheroad,madeahollow,lonelysound。
Athoughtbegantofillherbrain,andmakeinsistentpressureuponit。Shetriednomoretothrustthoughtaway。Thosewholaydeafanddumb,thoseforwhompeoplewept——whereweretheywhentheweepingseemedtosoundthroughalltheworld?Howfarhadtheygone?Wasitfar?Couldtheyhearandcouldtheysee?Ifonepleadwiththemaloud,couldtheydrawneartolisten?Didtheybeginalong,longjourneyassoonastheyhadslippedaway?The\"wonderoftheworld,\"shehadsaid,watchinglifeswellingandburstingtheseedsinKedgers’hothouses!Butthiswasagreaterwonderstill,becauseofitsawesomeness。Thismanhadbeen,andwhodaresayhewasnot——evennow?Thestrengthofhisgreatbody,thelookinhisred—browneyes,thesoundofhisdeepvoice,thestruggle,themeaningofhim,wherewerethey?
SheheardherselffollowedbythehollowechoofChildeHarold’shoofs,assherodepastcopseandhedge,andwetspreadingfields。Shewasthishourashehadbeenamonthago。
If,withsomestrangesuddenness,thiswhichwasBettyVanderpoel,slippedfromitsbody————Sheputherhanduptoherforehead。Itwasunthinkablethattherewouldbenomore。
Wherewashenow——wherewashenow?
Thiswasthethoughtthatfilledherbraincellstotheexclusionofallothers。Overtheroad,downthroughby—lanes,outonthemarshes。Wherewashe——wherewashe——WHERE?
ChildeHarold’shoofsbegantobeatitoutasarefrain。Sheheardnothingelse。Shedidnotknowwhereshewasgoinganddidnotaskherself。Shewentdownanyroadorlanewhichlookedemptyoflife,shetookstrangeturnings,withoutcaring;shedidnotknowhowfarshewasafield。
Wherewashenow——thishour——thismoment——wherewashenow?Didheknowtherain,thegreyness,thedesolationoftheworld?
Onceshestoppedherhorseonthelonelinessofthemarshland,andlookedupatthelowcloudsabouther,atthecreepingmist,thedankgrass。Itseemedaplaceinwhichanewly—
releasedsoulmightwanderbecauseitdidnotyetknowitsway。
\"Ifyoushouldbenear,andcometome,youwillunderstand,\"
herclearvoicesaidgravelybetweenthecaughtbreaths,\"whatIgaveyouwasnothingtoyou——butyoutookitwithyou。Perhapsyouknowwithoutmytellingyou。Iwantyoutoknow。Whenamanisdead,everythingmeltsaway。
Ilovedyou。Iwishyouhadlovedme。\"
CHAPTERXLVIII
THEMOMENT
Intheunnaturalunbearablenessofheranguish,shelostsightofobjectsasshepassedthem,shelostallmemoryofwhatshedid。Shedidnotknowhowlongshehadbeenout,orhowfarshehadridden。Whenthethoughtoftimeordistancevaguelyflittedacrosshermind,itseemedthatshehadbeenridingforhours,andmighthavecrossedonecountyandenteredanother。Shehadlongleftfamiliarplacesbehind。
Ridingthroughandinclosedbythemist,she,herself,mighthavebeenawanderingghost,lostinunknownplaces。Wherewashenow——wherewashenow?
Afterwardsshecouldnottellhoworwhenitwasthatshefoundherselfbecomingconsciousoftheevidencesthatherhorsehadbeenriddentoolongandhard,andthathewaswornoutwithfatigue。Shedidnotknowthatshehadriddenroundandroundoverthemarshes,andhadpassedseveraltimesthroughthesamelanes。ChildeHarold,thesureoffoot,actuallystumbled,outofsheerwearinessoflimb。
Perhapsitwasthiswhichbroughtherbacktoearth,andledhertolookaroundherwitheyeswhichsawmaterialobjectswithcomprehension。Shehadreachedthelonelyplaces,indeedandtheeveningwasdrawingon。Shewasattheedgeofthemarsh,andthelandaboutherwasstrangetoheranddesolate。
Atthesideofasteeplane,overgrownwithgrass,andseemingamerecart—path,stoodadeserted—looking,blackandwhite,timberedcottage,whichwashalfaruin。Closetoitwasadrippingspinney,itstreesformingadarklingbackgroundtothetumble—downhouse,whosethatchwasrottingintoholes,anditswallssaggingforwardperilously。Thebitofgardenaboutitwasneglectedanduntidy,hereandtherewindowswerebroken,andstuffedwithpiecesofraggedgarments。
Altogetherasinisterandrepellentplaceenough。
Shelookedatitwithheavyeyes。(Wherewashenow——
wherewashenow?——Thisrepeatingitselfinthefarchambersofherbrain。)Hersightseemeddimmed,notonlybythemist,butbyasinkingfaintnesswhichpossessedher。Shedidnotrememberhowlittlefoodshehadeatenduringmorethantwenty—fourhours。Herhabitwasheavywithmoisture,andclungtoherbody;shewasconsciousofahottremorpassingoverher,andsawthatherhandsshookastheyheldthebridleonwhichtheyhadlosttheirgrip。Shehadneverfaintedinherlife,andshewasnotgoingtofaintnow——womendidnotfaintinthesedays——butshemustreachthecottageanddismount,torestundershelterforashorttime。Nosmokewasrisingfromthechimney,butsurelysomeonewaslivingintheplace,andcouldtellherwhereshewas,andgiveheratleastwaterforherselfandherhorse。Poorbeast!howwickedlyshemusthavebeenridinghim,inherutterabsorptioninherthoughts。Hewaswet,notalonewithrain,butwithsweat。Hesnortedouthot,smokingbreaths。
Shespoketohim,andhemovedforwardathercommand。
Hewastremblingtoo。Notmorethantwohundredyards,andsheturnedhimintothelane。Butitwaswetandslippery,andstrewnwithstones。Histremblingandheruncertainholdonthebridlecombinedtoproducedisaster。Hesethisfootuponastonewhichslidbeneathit,hestumbled,andshecouldnothelphimtorecover,sohefell,andonlybyHeaven’smercynotuponher,withhiscrushing,big—bonedweight,andshewasabletodragherselffreeofhimbeforehebegantokick,inhishumiliatedeffortstorise。Buthecouldnotrise,becausehewashurt——andwhenshe,herself,gotup,shestaggered,andcaughtatthebrokengate,becauseinherwrenchingleapforsafetyshehadtwistedherankle,andforamomentwasincruelpain。
Whensherecoveredfromhershocksufficientlytobeabletolookatthecottage,shesawthatitwasmoreofaruinthanithadseemed,evenatashortdistance。Itsdoorhungopenonbrokenhinges,nosmokerosefromthechimney,becausetherewasnoonewithinitswallstolightafire。Itwasquiteempty。Everythingabouttheplacelayindeadanduttersilence。Inanormalmoodshewouldhavelikedthemysteryofthesituation,andwouldhavesetaboutplanningherwayoutofherdifficulty。Butnowhermindmadenoeffort,becausenormalinterestinthingshadfallenawayfromher。
ShemightbetwentymilesfromStornham,butthepossiblefactdidnot,atthemoment,seemtoconcernher。(Whereishenow——whereishenow?)ChildeHaroldwastryingtorise,despitehishurt,andhisevidentdeterminationtouchedher。Hewastooproudtolieinthemire。Shelimpedtohim,andtriedtosteadyhimbyhisbridle。Hewasnotbadlyinjured,thoughplainlyinpain。
\"Poorboy,itwasmyfault,\"shesaidtohimasheatlaststruggledtohisfeet。\"IdidnotknowIwasdoingit。Poorboy!\"
Heturnedavelvetdarkeyeuponher,andnosedherforgivinglywithawarmvelvetmuzzle,butitwasplainthat,forthetime,hewasdonefor。Theybothmovedhaltinglytothebrokengate,andBettyfastenedhimtoathorntreenearit,wherehestoodonthreefeet,hisfineheaddrooping。
Shepushedthegateopen,andwentintothehousethroughthedoorwhichhungonitshinges。Onceinside,shestoodstillandlookedabouther。Iftherewassilenceanddesolatenessoutside,therewaswithinthedesertedplaceastillnessliketheunresponseofdeath。Ithadbeenlongsinceanyonehadlivedinthecottage,buttrampsorgipsieshadattimespassedthroughit。Dead,blackenedemberslayonthehearth,abundleofdriedgrasswhichhadbeensleptonwaspiledinthecorner,anemptynailkegandawoodenboxhadbeendrawnbeforethebigchimneyplaceforsomewanderertositonwhentheblackembershadbeenhotandred。
Bettygaveoneglancearoundherandsatdownupontheboxstandingonthebarehearth,herheadsinkingforward,herhandsfallingclaspedbetweenherknees,hereyesonthebrickfloor。
\"Whereishenow?\"brokefromherinaloudwhisper,whosesoundwasmechanicalandhollow。\"Whereishenow?\"
Andshesattherewithoutmoving,whilethegreymistfromthemarshescreptcloseaboutthedoorandthroughitandstoleaboutherfeet。
Soshesatlong——long——inaheavy,far—offdream。
Alongtheroadamanwasridingwithalowering,frettedface。Hehadcomeacrosscountryonhorseback,becausetotravelbytrainmeantwearisomestopsandchangesandendlesslyslowjourneying,annoyingbeyondendurancetothosewhohavenotpatiencetospare。Hisridewouldhavebeenpleasantenoughbutfortheslowmist—likerain。Alsohehadtakenawrongturning,becausehedidnotknowtheroadshetravelled。Thelastsignposthehadpassed,however,hadgivenhimhiscueagain,andhebegantofeelsomethingofsecurity。
Confoundtherain!Thebestroadwasslipperywithit,andthehazeofitmadeaman’smindfeelbefoggedandloweredhisspiritshorribly——discouragedhim——wouldworryhimintoanillhumourevenifhehadreasontobeinagoodone。
Asforhim,hehadnoreasonforcheerfulness——heneverhadforthematterofthat,andjustnow————!Whatwasthematterwithhishorse?Hewasliftinghisheadandsniffingthedampairrestlessly,asifhescentedorsawsomething。Beastsoftenseemedtohaveasortofsecondsight——horsesparticularly。
Whatailedhimthatheshouldprickuphisearsandsnortafterhissniffingthemist!Didhehearanything?Yes,hedid,itseemed。Hegaveforthsuddenlyaloudshrillwhinny,turninghisheadtowardsaroughlanetheywereapproaching,andimmediatelyfromthevicinityofadeserted—lookingcottagebehindahedgecameasharpbutmournful—soundingneighinanswer。
\"Whathorseisthat?\"saidNigelAnstruthers,drawinginattheentrancetothelaneandlookingdownit。\"Thereisafinebrutewithaside—saddleon,\"headdedsharply。\"Heiswaitingforsomeone。Whatisawomandoingthereatthistime?Isitarendezvous?Agoodplace————\"
Hebrokeoffshortandrodeforward。\"I’mhangedifitisnotChildeHarold,\"hebrokeout,andhehadnosoonerassuredhimselfofthefactthanhethrewhimselffromhissaddle,tetheredhishorseandstrodeupthepathtothebroken—
hingeddoor。
Hestoodonthethresholdandstared。Whataholeitwas——
whatahole!AndthereSHEsat——alone——eighteenortwentymilesfromhome——onaturned—upboxneartheblackembers,herhandsclaspedlooselybetweenherknees,herfaceratherawful,hereyesstaringatthefloor,asifshedidnotseeit。
\"Whereishenow?\"heheardherwhispertoherselfwithsoftweirdness。\"Whereishenow?\"
SirNigelsteppedintotheplaceandstoodbeforeher。Hehadsmiledwithawryunpleasantnesswhenhehadheardherevidentlyunconsciouswords。
\"Mygoodgirl,\"hesaid,\"IamsureIdonotknowwhereheis——butitisveryevidentthatheoughttobehere,sinceyouhaveamiablyputyourselftosuchtrouble。ItisfortunateforyouperhapsthatIamherebeforehim。Whatdoesthismean?\"
thequestionbreakingfromhimwithsavageauthority。
Hehaddraggedherbacktoearth。Shesatuprightandrecognisedhimwithahideoussenseofshock,buthedidnotgivehertimetospeak。Hisinstinctofmalefuryleapedwithinhim。
\"YOU!\"hecriedout。\"Ittakesawomanlikeyoutocomeandhideherselfinaplaceofthissort,likeatrollopinggipsywench!IttakesaNewYorkmillionairessoraRomanempressoroneofCharlestheSecond’sduchessestoplungeasdeepasthis。You,withyourgoldenpedestal——you,withyourostentatiousairsandgraces——you,withyourcondescendingtogiveamanachancetorepenthissinsandturnoveranewleaf!
Damnit,\"risingtoasortoffrenzy,\"whatareyoudoingwaitinginaholelikethis——inthisweather——atthishour——you——you!\"
Thefool’sflameleapedhighenoughtomakehimstartforward,asiftoseizeherbytheshoulderandshakeher。
Butsheroseandsteppedbacktoleanagainstthesideofthechimney——tobraceherselfagainstit,sothatshecouldstandinherlamefoot’sdespite。Everydropofbloodhadbeensweptfromherface,andhereyeslookedimmense。Hiscomingwasagoodthingforher,thoughshedidnotknowit。Itbroughtherbackfromunearthlyplaces。Allherchildhatredwokeandblazedinher。Neverhadshehatedathingso,anditsetherslow,coldbloodrunninglikesomethingmolten。
\"Holdyourtongue!\"shesaidinaclear,awfulyoungvoiceofwarning。\"Andtakecarenottotouchme。Ifyoudo——Ihavemywhiphere——Ishalllashyouacrossyourmouth!\"
Hebrokeintoribaldlaughter。Acertainsuddenthoughtwhichhadcutintohimlikeaknifethrustintofleshdrovehimon。
\"Do!\"hecried。\"IshouldliketocarryyourmarkbacktoStornham——andtellpeoplewhyitwasgiven。Iknowwhoyouareherefor。Onlysuchfellowsasksuchthingsofwomen。
Buthewasdeterminedtobesafe,ifyouhidinaditch。YouarehereforMountDunstan——andhehasfailedyou!\"
Butsheonlystoodandstaredathim,holdingherwhipbehindher,knowingthatatanymomenthemightsnatchitfromherhand。Andsheknewhowpooraweaponitwas。Tostrikeoutwithitwouldonlyinfuriatehimandmakehimawildbeast。Anditwasbecominganagonytostanduponherfoot。
Andevenifithadnotbeenso——ifshehadbeenstrongenoughtomakealeapanddashpasthim,herhorsestoodoutsidedisabled。
NigelAnstruthers’eyesranoverherfromheadtofoot,downthesideofhermud—stainedhabit,whileacuriouslightdawnedinthem。
\"Youhavehadafallfromyourhorse,\"heexclaimed。\"Youarelame!\"Thenquickly,\"ThatwaswhyChildeHaroldwastremblingandstandingonthreefeet!ByJove!\"
Thenhesatdownonthenailkegandbegantolaugh。Helaughedforafullminute,butshesawhedidnottakehiseyesfromher。
\"Youareinasunpleasantasituationasayoungwomancanwellbe,\"hesaid,whenhestopped。\"Youcametoadirtyholetobealonewithamanwhofeltitsafestnottokeephisappointment。Yourhorsestumbledanddisabledhimselfandyou。Youaretwentymilesfromhomeinadesertedcottageinalanenoonepassesdowneveningoodweather。Youarefrightenedtodeathandyouhavegivenmeevenabetterstorytoplaywiththanyoursistergaveme。ByJove!\"
Hisfacewasanunholythingtolookupon。Thesituationandherpowerlessnesswereexcitinghim。
\"No,\"sheanswered,keepinghereyesonhis,asshemighthavekeptthemonsomewildanimal’s,\"Iamnotfrightenedtodeath。\"
Hisuglydarkflushrose。
\"Well,ifyouarenot,\"hesaid,\"don’ttellmeso。Thatkindofdefianceisnotyourbestlinejustnow。YouhavebeendisdainingmefrommagnificentNewYorkheightsforsometime。DoyouthinkthatIamnotenjoyingthis?\"
\"Icannotimagineanyoneelsewhowouldenjoyitsomuch。\"
Andsheknewtheanswerwasdaring,butwouldhavemadeitifhehadheldaknife’spointatherthroat。
Hegotup,andwalkingtothedoordrewitbackonitscrazyhingesandmanagedtoshutitclose。Therewasabigwoodenboltinsideandheforceditintoitssocket。
\"PresentlyIshallgoandputthehorsesintothecowshed,\"
hesaid。\"IfIleavethemstandingoutsidetheywillattractattention。Idonotintendtobedisturbedbyanygipsytrampwhowantsshelter。Ihaveneverhadyouquitetomyselfbefore。\"
Hesatdownagainandnursedhiskneegracefully。
\"AndIhaveneverseenyoulookasattractive,\"bitinghisunderlipincynicalenjoyment。\"To—day’sadventurehasrousedyouremotionsandactuallybeautifiedyou——whichwasnotnecessary。Idaresayyouhavebeenfuriousandhavecried。
Youreyesdonotlooklikemereeyes,butlikesplendidbluepoolsoftears。Perhaps_I_shallmakeyoucrysometime,mydearBetty。\"
\"No,youwillnot。\"
\"Don’ttemptme。Womenalwayscrywhenmenannoythem。Theyrage,buttheycryaswell。\"
\"Ishallnot。\"
\"It’struethatmostwomenwouldhavebeguntocrybeforethis。Thatiswhatstimulatesme。Youwillswaggertotheend。Youputthedevilintome。HalfanhouragoIwasjoggingalongtheroad,languidandboredtoextinction。Andnow————\"Helaughedoutrightinactualexultation。\"ByJove!\"hecriedout。\"Thingslikethisdon’thappentoamaninthesedulldays!There’snosuchluckgoingabout。
We’vegonebackfivehundredyears,andwe’vetakenNewYorkwithus。\"Hislaughshutoffinthemiddle,andhegotuptothrusthisheavy,congestedfaceclosetohers。\"Hereyouare,assafeasifyouwereinafeudalcastle,andhereisyourancientenemygivenhischance——givenhischance。Doyouthink,bytheLord,heisgoingtogiveitup?No。Toquoteyourownwords,`youmayplaceentireconfidenceinthat。’\"
Exaggeratedasitallwas,somehowthemelodramadroppedawayfromitandleftbare,simple,hideousfactforhertoconfront。Theevilinhimhadrisenrampantandmadehimlosehishead。Hemightseehissenselessfollyto—morrowandknowhemustpayforit,buthewouldnotseeitto—day。Theplacewasnotafeudalcastle,butwhathesaidwasinsurmountabletruth。Aruinedcottageontheedgeofmilesofmarshland,aseldom—troddenroad,andnightuponthem!Awindwasrisingonthemarshesnow,andmakinglow,steadymoan。Horriblethingshadhappenedtowomenbefore,oneheardofthemwithshudderswhentheywererecordedinthenewspapers。OnlytwodaysagoshehadrememberedthatsometimesthereseemedblunderingsinthegreatSchemeofthings。Wasallthisreal,orwasshedreamingthatshestoodhereatbay,herbackagainstthechimney—wall,andthisdegenerateexultingoverher,whileRosywaswaitingforheratStornham——andatthisveryhourherfatherwasplanninghisjourneyacrosstheAtlantic?
\"Whydidyounotbehaveyourself?\"demandedNigelAnstruthers,shakingherbytheshoulder。\"WhydidyounotrealisethatIshouldgetevenwithyouoneday,assureasyouwerewomanandIwasman?\"
Shedidnotshrinkback,thoughthepupilsofhereyesdilated。
Wasitthewildestthingintheworldwhichhappenedtoher——
orwasitnot?Withoutwarning——thesuddenrushofathought,immenseandstrange,sweptoverherbodyandsoulandpossessedher——sopossessedherthatitchangedherpallortowhiteflame。ItwasactuallyAnstrutherswhoshrankbackashadebecause,forthemoment,shelookedsonearunearthly。
\"Iamnotafraidofyou,\"shesaid,inaclear,unshakenvoice。
\"Iamnotafraid。Somethingisnearmewhichwillstandbetweenus——somethingwhichDIEDto—day。\"
Healmostgaspedbeforethestrangenessofit,butcaughtbackhisbreathandrecoveredhimself。
\"Diedto—day!That’srecentenough,\"hejeered。\"Letushearaboutit。Whowasit?\"
\"ItwasMountDunstan,\"sheflungathim。\"Thechurch—
bellsweretollingforhimwhenIrodeaway。Icouldnotstaytohearthem。Itkilledme——Ilovedhim。Youwererightwhenyousaidit。Ilovedhim,thoughheneverknew。I
shallalwayslovehim——thoughheneverknew。Heknowsnow。
ThosewhodiedcannotgoawaywhenTHATisholdingthem。
Theymuststay。BecauseIlovedhim,hemaybeinthisplace。
Icallonhim————\"raisingherclearvoice。\"Icallonhimtostandbetweenus。\"
Hebackedawayfromher,staringanevil,enrapturedstare。
\"What!Thereisthatmuchtemperamentinyou?\"hesaid。
\"ThatwaswhatIhalf—suspectedwhenIsawyoufirst。Butyouhavehiddenitwell。Nowitburstsforthinspiteofyou。
GoodLord!Whatluck——whatluck!\"
Hemovedtothedoorandopenedit。
\"Iamaverymodernman,andIenjoythistotheutmost,\"
hesaid。\"WhatIlikebestisthemelodramaofit——inconnectionwithFifthAvenue。Iamperfectlyawarethatyouwillnotdiscussthisincidentinthefuture。Youareacleverenoughyoungwomantoknowthatitwillbemoretoyourinterestthantominethatitshallbekeptexceedinglyquiet。\"
Thewhitefirehadnotdiedoutofherandshestoodstraight。
\"WhatIhavecalledonwillbenearme,andwillstandbetweenus,\"shesaid。
Oldthoughitwas,thedoorwasmassiveandheavytolift。
Toopenitcosthimsomemusculareffort。
\"Iamgoingtothehorsesnow,\"heexplainedbeforehedraggeditbackintoitsframeandshutherin。\"Itissafeenoughtoleaveyouhere。Youwillstaywhereyouare。\"
Hefelthimselfsecureinleavingherbecausehebelievedshecouldnotmove,andbecausehisarrogancemadeitimpossibleforhimtocountonstrengthandendurancegreaterthanhisown。Ofenduranceheknewnothingandinhiskeenandcynicalexultancehisdevilmadeafoolofhim。
Assheheardhimwalkdownthepathtothegate,Bettystoodamazedathislackofcomprehensionofher。
\"HethinksIwillstayhere。HeabsolutelythinksIwillwaituntilhecomesback,\"shewhisperedtotheemptinessofthebareroom。
Beforehehadarrivedshehadloosenedherboot,andnowshestoopedandtouchedherfoot。
\"IfIweresafeathomeIshouldthinkIcouldnotwalk,butIcanwalknow——Ican——Ican——becauseIwillbearthepain。\"
Insuchcottagesthereisalwaysadooropeningoutsidefromthelittlebrickedkitchen,wherethecopperstands。Shewouldreachthat,and,passingthrough,wouldcloseitbehindher。AfterthatSOMETHINGwouldtellherwhattodo——somethingwouldleadher。
Sheputherlamefootuponthefloor,andrestedsomeofherweightuponit——notall。Ajaggedpainshotupfromitthroughherwholesideitseemed,and,foraninstant,sheswayedandgroundherteeth。
\"Thatisbecauseitisthefirststep,\"shesaid。\"ButifI
amtobekilled,Iwilldieintheopen——Iwilldieintheopen。\"
Thesecondandthirdstepsbroughtcoldsweatoutuponher,butshetoldherselfthatthefourthwasnotquitesounbearable,andshestiffenedherwholebody,andmutteredsomewordswhileshetookafifthandsixthwhichcarriedherintothetinybackkitchen。
\"Father,\"shesaid。\"Father,thinkofmenow——thinkofme!Rosy,loveme——lovemeandpraythatImaycomehome。
You——youwhohavedied,standverynear!\"